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I'm not thrilled with the lighting in this video but the massively irregular heart rhythms make up for it in my book. Pressure and poppers (see if you can spot when I do them) confused my poor heart into forgetting how to beat properly. There were skips and double beats, and a couple of times I could feel myself starting to lose consciousness* as my heart failed (marked by a little yelp both times, lol).

Desperately in need of monitoring and possible resuscitation when my weakened heart gives out, please... 😰

*I moved before that could happen both times, but I was also set up in a way that the weight would fall over if I were to accidentally pass out.

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hey guys. I've been made homeless for the month of April because of some extremely vindictive ""friends"" (I wish I could get into it but things are dire rn). I had to fight my own mother to let me come home for a month while I found somewhere else. I'm broke, my mental health is deteriorating rapidly, and I'm just barely hanging on by the grace of my irl friends.

tldr, I need to raise funds for a security/pet deposit and rent on an apartment. I have promising leads. the only things preventing me from applying is the fact that I have $120 to my name and I need roughly $1300, which is more than my monthly disability benefit (comes on the 27th).

I hate to ask like this, but please, please donate to my p_ypal if you can. I'm tantamount to being in crisis at any given moment. I need out immediately.

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ShockTorture2

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1iSREu8RZx8vb21C75uWNvKJhysT-kL_N/view?usp=sharing

I had to record the audio a different way but I still hope you can enjoy my heart! 😉

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Now accepting curious anonymous messages 🌚

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i'm SO damn horny right now but i'm stuck at a party

anyone wanna come slip something special in my drink? record while you take advantage of me? push my heart to its very limits?

i could desperately use some good heart abuse

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Reblog if your heart horny as fuck right now❤🩺

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If you really mean it the we should try a few things with your heart ;)

i would be absolutely delighted ;)

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How dark is your fetish for hearts??

honestly when i say as dark as you want... i mean it

name any scenario and theres probably gonna be at least some appeal to me

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not much but for those you like some simple medical content ;P

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went swimming at a water park today and got really burnt, blehhh

but the whole time i couldn't stop thinking about resus on the poolside

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had to upload again w the dots but.... imagine the fact i have ghosties ;)

anyways, i decided to finally post myself.... with two speeds!

now, who wants to come here and torture my poor little heart until it gives out? i've been "dying" for some dark play

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recently learned that if i shine my phone light through my breast i can see my veins pulsing, incredibly useful knowledge all things considered

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YALL i made it back in here!!!! idk what happened but i can log in again

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I feel like you've been asked this before, but what would be the preffered method of toying with that heart of yours before bringing it back?

i’m open to most things honestly!

i think my favorite will always be good ole’ asphyxiation but i certainly love the idea of drowning. i’ve also had a bit of an interest in electricity

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i don’t particularly feel like putting effort into conversation since i’ve been so tired buuuut if anyone wants to drop questions or fantasies in my ask box i’d love to answer of share mine too!

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shit, it feels so good when my heart skips beats. I wish it did it more.

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also i had an ecg done the other day!!

tbh i was so excited that i clocked out after “ecg” and i forget what they even wanted it for

but it was sooo hot