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Today's affirmation: I WILL reach my ugw by new years.

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Some low-cal recipes I found off Pinterest for you guys <3

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A charm to lose 50+ lbs by July

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Like to charge reblog to cast

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I feel so intensely dirty right now. im cleansing at least until new years. I'll be posting everything I take in. I can't do this anymore, I want to tear myself out of the fat and skin and just walk away

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Am I the only one who is so much more comfortable with liquid calories? Like I’ll drink coffee with sugar all day and it won’t bother me at all.

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i want little legs and chunky shoes

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striving for negative cals for at least a week straight

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six days. six days until the new year. six days to get myself figured out.

six days to make myself fall in love. six days to learn how to breathe. six days.

to feel pure. to feel clean. I have six days.

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triggering ed media

{an ongoing list of what im watching}

december 25th - to the bone (2017)

december 26th -

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spent my whole day crying and trying to figure out a plan to trick my doctor and parents into thinking im recovering

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✨🌟✨reblog to promise to stay under your limit today✨🌟✨

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I need to fall back in love with being hungry.

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today (its 230 am so yea, today I guess) is my last day of forced recovery! starting monday, ill be getting back to it and I could not be more excited!

diet plan : 800 the first day and going down by 100 everyday until I reach a 300 limit 🥰

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so... guess who's been on eating watch the past week 🙃

my mom finally came home and noticed almost instantly that I wasn't eating because I got so used to not really hiding it. she's been making me food and watching to make sure I've been eating and its been....awful.

anywho, im learning how to hide it again so i should be good to go again soon (: still hoping to be 168 or below before the new year 🥰

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i hate how eds just feel like constantly setting yourself up for disappointment. i'll be like, "i'm gonna lose 20lbs in [unreasonably short time period]" and then when it doesn't happen i'm so heartbroken like "oh no i'm still fat who could've foreseen thissss"

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Me and the Ed tumbler community trying to manifest weight loss at 2 am:

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I think im addicted to purging