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“Christmas in pyjamas because that’s just how we do things in this house.”

[ @dashingloyalty • @ofroughlife ]

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Jaycee always respected her children’s privacy. She always knocked on Kelsea’s door, too. Despite Kelsea only being eight years old, JJ still wanted to respect her boundaries and show her that she had a safe space at home. It was the same with Harley, but more so with Harley because she was a little older and needed more time to herself. Not only that, but she needed to feel safe and feel like JJ trusted her, because she did trust the teen. She was a good kid.

Hearing Harley give her permission to come on, JJ pushed the door open and walked in, closing it behind her. “Hey, sweetie.” She looked over at Harley, noticing that the girl looked tired. Furrowing her brows slightly, she walked to the bed and sat down on the end. “Did you sleep okay?” She asked, gently brushing Harley’s hair from her face with her hand.

𝑻𝒐 𝒃𝒖𝒊𝒍𝒅 𝒂 𝒃𝒐𝒏𝒅 ; girls trip.

Since adopting @ofroughlife, Jaycee had been protective of the teen. So much so that she was only now realising that they had barely spent time doing anything fun. She knew Harley had a rough start to life and recently, Kelsea - Jaycee's eight year old daughter - was having a rough time of it with her biological father, too. Jaycee had a plan to bring some fun into both of the lives, knowing that both her daughters needed that, and did she if she was being entirely honest with herself.

Jaycee made her way upstairs and quietly knocked on Harley's bedroom door. She wasn't sure if the teen was awake yet or if she was on the phone with someone. She didn't know, so she knocked quietly and waited for the teen to respond.

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Jaycee was relieved to finally have a friend with a kid around the same age as her own. It made meeting up when they had the kids so much easier as Kelsea and Sofia got along well. The girls loved hanging out and Kelsea was constantly asking Jaycee when she could hang out with Sofia again. It was sweet and today, the girls could play whilst the adults had a much needed catch up.

As the girls ran off, JJ laughed, watching them hold hands as they headed towards the slide. Jaycee sat herself down on a nearby bench where her stuff was and then turned her attention to the blonde. That question was hard to answer because so much had happened. Releasing a sigh, she decided to just come out with it. “I’ve been better. Kelsea’s father is a jerk.” She began, wanting Arizona to get comfortable before she’d tell this horrific story.

𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 ; here’s to trust.

Jaycee was a very guarded person but she had every right to be. She had dated both men and women in her life and enjoyed seeing that connection she had with people in general, but Blake Daniels had made the biggest impact. He had scarred her so badly that now she was afraid to fall in love or let anyone into her life. He wasn’t abusive, but he relied on her for everything and then failed to be there for his kid. It made Jaycee sick as both herself and Kelsea deserved better than that. 

Luckily for Jaycee and Kelsea, they had @euphoricprecision​ and Sofia. JJ and Arizona were best friends and so were their kids so it was perfect on sunny days like today to meet up for a play date and let the adults catch up whilst the kids burnt off some energy. Jaycee had been awake since 5am, unable to sleep properly after Kelsea went missing for a few hours. She hadn’t told Arizona that yet but she planned to today.

She pulled herself out of bed, got herself dressed in a pair of jeans, a floral tank top, a flannel and white converse before getting Kelsea ready. Kelsea opted for her usual leggings and t-shirt combo but JJ made her take a hoodie in case she got cold. She packed a light lunch for the pair of them, drove to the park and waited on a bench nearby the play area for Arizona and Sofia to arrive. She needed her best friend today… Especially after everything that had happened.

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“I thought it might convince you somehow.”

“Hmm, @dashingloyalty is working late. Again. Maybe this can convince him to come home early.”

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𝑻𝒐 𝒃𝒖𝒊𝒍𝒅 𝒂 𝒃𝒐𝒏𝒅 ; girls trip.

Since adopting @ofroughlife, Jaycee had been protective of the teen. So much so that she was only now realising that they had barely spent time doing anything fun. She knew Harley had a rough start to life and recently, Kelsea - Jaycee's eight year old daughter - was having a rough time of it with her biological father, too. Jaycee had a plan to bring some fun into both of the lives, knowing that both her daughters needed that, and did she if she was being entirely honest with herself.

Jaycee made her way upstairs and quietly knocked on Harley's bedroom door. She wasn't sure if the teen was awake yet or if she was on the phone with someone. She didn't know, so she knocked quietly and waited for the teen to respond.

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“Hmm, @dashingloyalty is working late. Again. Maybe this can convince him to come home early.”

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Jaycee had arrived just on time to the park, but she didn’t care that Arizona was late. Life with kids was tough, especially when it came to managing your time. It was almost impossible, but luckily for JJ, Kelsea was an early riser and she was just like JJ. They both loved mornings.

Getting to spend time with Arizona outside of the hospital today meant that JJ could speak more openly about her troubles and life without prying people and gossip being spread. She knew that anything she said to her best friend would be kept in confidence. JJ knew that, and so her face lit up with a bright smile when she saw Arizona approaching.

“Hey! Oh, don’t even worry about that.” She said and waved a hand to dismiss Arizona’s apology. Kelsea immediately hugged Sofia and asked if they could go play now. “As long as it’s okay with Arizona, too.” JJ said and Kelsea asked permission from Arizona, despite her being sat right next to JJ when she had asked her.

𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 ; here’s to trust.

Jaycee was a very guarded person but she had every right to be. She had dated both men and women in her life and enjoyed seeing that connection she had with people in general, but Blake Daniels had made the biggest impact. He had scarred her so badly that now she was afraid to fall in love or let anyone into her life. He wasn’t abusive, but he relied on her for everything and then failed to be there for his kid. It made Jaycee sick as both herself and Kelsea deserved better than that. 

Luckily for Jaycee and Kelsea, they had @euphoricprecision​ and Sofia. JJ and Arizona were best friends and so were their kids so it was perfect on sunny days like today to meet up for a play date and let the adults catch up whilst the kids burnt off some energy. Jaycee had been awake since 5am, unable to sleep properly after Kelsea went missing for a few hours. She hadn’t told Arizona that yet but she planned to today.

She pulled herself out of bed, got herself dressed in a pair of jeans, a floral tank top, a flannel and white converse before getting Kelsea ready. Kelsea opted for her usual leggings and t-shirt combo but JJ made her take a hoodie in case she got cold. She packed a light lunch for the pair of them, drove to the park and waited on a bench nearby the play area for Arizona and Sofia to arrive. She needed her best friend today… Especially after everything that had happened.

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“Mama went out last night with @dashingloyalty and it was a blast!”

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“Hmm, we’ll see when you get here.”

“Just hanging here until @dashingloyalty gets home.”

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“Just hanging here until @dashingloyalty gets home.”

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“Oh, that’d be fun! I’d like that.”

“Before and after the gym.”

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“Before and after the gym.”

[ @dashingloyalty ]

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𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒘𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒓𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 ; here’s to trust.

Jaycee was a very guarded person but she had every right to be. She had dated both men and women in her life and enjoyed seeing that connection she had with people in general, but Blake Daniels had made the biggest impact. He had scarred her so badly that now she was afraid to fall in love or let anyone into her life. He wasn’t abusive, but he relied on her for everything and then failed to be there for his kid. It made Jaycee sick as both herself and Kelsea deserved better than that. 

Luckily for Jaycee and Kelsea, they had @euphoricprecision​ and Sofia. JJ and Arizona were best friends and so were their kids so it was perfect on sunny days like today to meet up for a play date and let the adults catch up whilst the kids burnt off some energy. Jaycee had been awake since 5am, unable to sleep properly after Kelsea went missing for a few hours. She hadn’t told Arizona that yet but she planned to today.

She pulled herself out of bed, got herself dressed in a pair of jeans, a floral tank top, a flannel and white converse before getting Kelsea ready. Kelsea opted for her usual leggings and t-shirt combo but JJ made her take a hoodie in case she got cold. She packed a light lunch for the pair of them, drove to the park and waited on a bench nearby the play area for Arizona and Sofia to arrive. She needed her best friend today... Especially after everything that had happened.

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𝑳𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒊𝒏 ; to accept love.

Letting somebody see the ins and outs of your life, your most vulnerable moments and the best things that happened to you was scary. Jaycee Jamison had been burned before by simply allowing love into her life and now she was afraid to do that again. She feared that letting somebody in meant to let that same pain back in and she wasn’t sure she could go through that again. Not after everything that had happened between herself and her ex, Blake Daniels.

She had met him in the most unlikely of ways. He was on the streets busking when she stopped to listen to his music. Once his set was done, she brought one of his CDs, got to talking with him, left him her number and left. They started dating but then Blake lost his flat and moved in with Jaycee, putting all of the emotionally and financial strain on Jaycee. It was tough but Jaycee loved him so she put up with all of his crap. She paid for everything in the house and Blake worked on his music, busking every day at different locations and times to try and get recognised. Nothing worked and for years, he contributed nothing to the house.

It caused many arguments for the couple and things only got worse when Jaycee found out that she was pregnant. She went through the entire pregnancy alone, including attending scans and decorating the nursery. The only thing that Blake was there for was the birth of their daughter. Jaycee picked out their daughter’s name and Kelsea Briar Jamison was welcomed into their lives.

Blake believed that proposing would fix his past mistakes and Jaycee believed that he would change, so she said yes and paid for the wedding herself as Blake still refused to get himself a job all these years later. She spent their wedding day alone as Blake played the music for their big day, hoping somebody there knew someone who could get him on a real stage with a big crowd. Jaycee focused her energy into raising Kelsea and making sure that their little girl had at least one parent who cared about her. Blake was cold and distant with her and that scared Jaycee... She had enough and divorced Blake when Kelsea was 6 years old. 

The divorce lit a fire under Blake and he got himself a job at his father’s mechanic company. His father brought him a two bedroom flat and so Jaycee allowed Blake to have Kelsea every other weekend and Jaycee went on to adopt a teenager who needed her help. Harley and Kelsea were Jaycee’s whole world but she seemed to forget about herself along the way. Her love life had taken a backseat so that she could devout herself to her children and it was Arizona Robbins who told Jaycee to get herself back into the game when the new cardiac surgeon showed up at Grey Sloan Memorial Hospital just over a year ago.

@dashingloyalty​ was new and seemed to be interested in Jaycee but after sleeping with him, she ghosted him through the fear of getting hurt. She didn’t want to make the same mistakes as she had made with Blake. She didn’t want her children getting hurt or let down. She didn’t want to let love in through the fear that she wasn’t good enough or that her kids would be a problem to whoever she dated. She was scared but Benjamin didn’t give up. They had been dating for a year now and things seemed to be going well, but Jaycee had never allowed Ben to meet the kids. She knew he wouldn’t hurt them, but she was still getting over the damage that Blake had caused and couldn’t bring herself to fully let Ben into her life. She was guarded still and careful about what she showed or told him. Regardless of her trust issues, things between them seemed to be going well -- at least to her knowledge.

This weekend, Kelsea was supposed to be staying at Blake’s. Jaycee had picked her adopted daughter, Harley, up from her school and dropped her off at a friend’s house for their big sleepover. She then drove over to Kelsea’s school, took her home and cooked her something to eat. She knew that Blake hardly ever had food in, so she wanted to make sure that Kelsea ate before leaving. She then grabbed Kelsea’s packed bag and headed to Blake’s house. She dropped Kelsea off at the main door to the apartment building as she always did before driving home. Kelsea had to get to the fourth floor of that apartment block but Blake usually met her by the elevator on the main floor. Jaycee had nothing to worry about... 

Once she parked her car on the drive, she let herself into her house, slipped her feet out of the heels she had been wearing all day and into her fluffy slippers. She placed her keys in the bowl by the door and grabbed the claw clip that sat on the shelf of the mirror that hung in her hallway. She put her hair up as she walked through to her kitchen and sat herself down at her kitchen island. She pulled her laptop towards her and started working on some emails, expecting to have the night to herself. She hadn’t planned to see anyone tonight so she turned on her ‘relax, breathe, repeat’ playlist on Spotify and began answering some emails.

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“Went out with the girls last night and safe to say, I don’t remember much of it.”

[ @dashingloyalty ]

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CHARACTER INFORMATION FOR : Jaycee Claire Jamison.