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If souls didn't exist according to budhaa how in the fuck did he have more than 550 rebirths? Doesn't the whole rebirth theory depends on the theory of soul? Ehhhhhh yo bro wtf?

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Okay so if Mahabhart was written/compiled wayyyy before ramayan why is it said that lord ram came first and usskey baad krishna avtaar? You can even google it I just had to just to confirm because bitch doubts herself too much but according the order of Vishnu avtars Ram came first and krishna came after him. So it's very fascinating to discover that mahabhat was compiled way before ramayan.

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Goal is to study 8 hours but slow and steady wins the race

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I lasted 1 and 1/2 while crying I will try tomorrow I get this anger and rage and irritation while studying math that I will never be able to explain. So with this my study session is over.

I studied for 5 hours today in total lol and now I rest and about to watch K-drama 🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧

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It has only been an hour and I have just reached 15's divisibility rule, cried 2 times and checked my phone multiple times. I don't do meth what is this peer pressure? 🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧 11 and 12 ki fir bhi kra lo woh lit hai ittni buri nahi hai because calculus but what is this behaviour basic meth? Yaar accounts walli meth mai feel hai yeh walli meth is not even like it doesn't have the standard, the sass and it's bland. Ew. I had legit forgotten how much of a meth phobic bitch I used to be to the point my ass took commerce just to step on my father's ego and since then my periods said bye to me. Ahahahahhaahhahahahahahahhahahhaahhahaha if I don't get periods this month I am going to overdose on flex seeds and I don't care if I get ulcer. I don't want it but I want periods 🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧

Though ego issue who we don't know her ✨ lul the things I do to piss people off and when my ego gets attacked is just so funny. Lul.

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I am judging myself but yeh hai nostalgic trip lul how I used to have this CD with tables xD ooooof

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I know I slept for like 2 or 3 hours straight but I want to go back to sleep. I dunno what happened but I have become sleepy lately. It's weird xD considering there are times when I can't even be asleep for 4 hours straight. Lol. I need help and want to isolate myself more than ever. I want an. I am allergic to most people don't even like them. I adore socialising but in general I don't like talking to people one on one. I am happy in groups. I hateeeeeeeee the awkward silences. In conclusion I should go back to studying meth.

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I slept for a lil too long and missed out on math ;-; aab shaam ko 4 I am doing meth

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I am so confused so I am studying this book for civil services and they are discussing about national security and what are the major reasons and causes for "internal security disturbances" and one of them states because of lack of effective policies to control media. Dudeeeeee that's just wronggggggg. I mean it's like saying that law and courts should be controlled by the government... Isn't it the other way around. How else will media work as a watchdog? If it gets controlled? I mean I do get the whole why it's a threat but at the same time. No.

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Mazzaaa ayaaaaa not kidding xD I feel wide awake and energetic but also thirsty.

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I swear when I try to productive something always happens BC subhai ki light gyi hui hai so we just danced for an hour as I am scared of corona so no jogging UwU things I am self sabotaging because I want to avoid travel 🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧 I don't care. I can't travel UwU even neechai taak though now I do know my way around ;-; because hun mai awara-gard hi just on a break 🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧😤😤😤😤😤😤😤

The way I can travel delhi and like into any parts of it now is sooooooo weird because once upon a time I couldn't even go out station mai for long I swear the freedom I have outside is something I will never get at my home because over protective parents who still look at me as a baby.

I actually complain about the privilege lol I know that's how much of an asshole I am.

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Guess who woke up at 5 and studied 5 pages of history in 2 hours lol I am impressed because my alarm didn't rang and I woke up on my own. Sometimes my body surprises me.

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So here's the deal I woke up at 5 butttttt I don't have any will to study so instead I went and watered the plants UwU I will study though I will start with English rather than math today because I don't want my will to just die today so meh. Then will hope on to lakshmikant and honestly not going to do yoga because meh genuinely woke up with a dunno. I know when the day will be done with and the whole thing becomes a habit and I will be able to do things with more ease I will be thankful to the now me.

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Fucked up today but I did do a jog for one round which wasn't of the full society but I did do that and honestly if I get to play with friends at night get to hang out with my mom in the evening ans study + water the plants in the morning I can actually get used to it. It is actually an awesome plan but it all depends on my sleep lul.

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Oh lol rest of my day is cancelled because partyyyy UwU🌺

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Day 1 of me waking up at 5 because I am a morning person now 😤🤧😫😖✌

Honestly I did yoga tody for 30 minutes and it didn't feel like anything

Did math in the morning number system that too only HCF and LCM part UwU but that part is reminding me of all the questions I had left in 2020's 2nd AFCAT 🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧 I knew that didn't feel right it was because they were LCM and HCF questions.

Ate a sandwich with half slice of cheese and Schezwan chutney UwU🌺 filled with oregano and chilli flakes + gud walli chai in my mitti ka cup

And currently trying to solve some paper and trying not to fall asleep

after this I will take an hour's break and study polity UwU🌺🤧

(Laxmikant to be exact because I actually like that book I started it just for the 1St chapter but now I think I will try my hand at it more because despite the language I do understand it well because of the videos online. I swear YouTube is life ❤😖✌🤧)

Then it will be lunch break I will take a bath and also water plants UwU🌺

Then I will either study or like read newspaper or do something like logical reasoning or English depends totally on how I feel at that moment

And then I will watch TV the whole day and go out for walk with mum UwU🌺 🤧 and try to fall asleep by 10 (I mean I did end up forcing myself to sleep by 12 last night which wasn't hard because I was already on 4 hours of sleep UwU🌺 because we remain sleep deprived sometimes just for the lulz)

The day will go well UwU🌺✌

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I genuinely do not know why I am seeing all the UPSC preparation videos but the whole process looks so daunting RIP every friend of mine I mean the way they all are studying it makes sense and here I am sucking ass at cracking one paper because of MATH lmaoooooo UwU I should actually study after the whole assignment thing ;-;