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[stzzym-blog]

Everyday i awake

The thoughts keep me laying in my bed late

As hard as i try i have no motavation

But i can feel the temptation

I keep pushing everyday

I wish the pain wouldnt stay

Happiness is an endless chase

I pray it could disappear into space

I wish i could go back to being a kid

Perhaps i couldve hid

Maybe if i run from the thoughts they'll just fade away

Im starting to feel like a stray

I wish i could be good enough

Im just not that tuff

The trauma i endored as a child

Roams to this day though it may be mild

On this month i choose to live in respect to those who have fallen

They had their calling

I can sense the urge

Im on the edge

the hurt i will cause

has put me on pause

Im scared that one day i will parish

All the thoughts are nightmarish

I want to join my father in heaven 

his kingdom for the fallen

But he is not ready for me just yet

I feel like im in debt

I dont want to die

Yet my mind tells me otherwise

I just want the pain to stop

As I lay awake everyday

Heres a rhyme I tried back in September