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2023, November, my first post…

What about giving healing one more chance in order to recover?

Aren’t you already tired of yourself and your life? Do you often feel like it’s too much to handle? Do you feel like you’re not going anywhere or in a bad direction? Do you feel overwhelmed by just doing a simple tasks? Do you want to change?

Let me guess..

You are for long years in this state of mind where you feel FRUSTRATION of how you live your life because you feel powerless over it and your last 6 years were just full of some crap called trauma(s) and consequences that comes with of being traumatized over and over again (in some cases with the same traumatic event again just in different time, on different space…)

Spending time in such enviroment can easily leave you traumatized and even more if you are experiencing it over and over again.

You feel exhausted after doing just simple tasks? And don’t you even have a trouble with concentrating, staying focused on whatever? Is going to public spaces too much?

Your life is constantly falling apart and you think it’s just because of the fact that you’ve done wrong everything what you possible could’ve done?

You didn’t set any boundaries to yourself neither to other people because you feel like you don’t deserve anything?

You don’t feel that it’s right when someone says something pleasent about you, because you’re only used to hearing how bad person you are, how you let other people down.. Do you see the fact that you focus more on those frases that demonstrates how bad person you are than on anything what’s appreciating you?

Are you so unhappy every single living day, wanna unalive yourself but youˇve tried many times so you don’t believe you are able to quit this world…

…. all those negative things

ends there.

let them go.

So if you’re choosing the path of recovery …

Nobody said it will be easy but it will be worth it. Do something for your inner child. Chase that hope of better tomorrows like you did when you was hurt for the first time. You probably know all of this, you have creative mind, big heart and free space to use your own head.

Now it’s time to make a change, you won’t get better if you wouldn’t follow your heart. I mean if everything’s stayed so wrong and you tried everything to make it different but you came to conclusion that your surroundings is not the problem, your view on things and life is.

It’s easier to stay at place and don’t make anything about your miserable state.

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What is my purpose there, what are my intentions and who i am?

We have to move in order to survive. Let me say that I’m just the same as you. I’ve been thru a couple of traumatic events and due to it my personality has splited into pieces.

I decided to write this kind of stuff blog to get sort of better perspective on things i know about but i can’t change anyhhing about. I want to be educative chanel and i also wish to help someone who could be possible reading those words. Also there’s thing that i set myself this work to get myself though my upcoming crisis. When the autumn dark nights come, i get the feeling of nostalgia and sadness. It’s not just the sadness. The thing is that the autumn of the year 2017 was the time in my life when i firstly felt what it’s like to be 100% desperate. I was diagnosed with severe depression that time and eventhough I’m on my meds, i still get some sense of the old vibes and this year I’m feeling it much more than i think i would.

,,The way you speak of yourself the way you degrade yourself into smallness is abuse’’

This is you now. You find something very sure that makes you want even more but now i need to break that thru realising my self worth.

Trust the process. Take a first step.