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🌱 river angel 🌱

new adopt there 🌿

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trans guy who doesn’t realize he’s turning into a werewolf because he assumes it’s all just normal side effects of starting testosterone

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my step mom was asking me more questions about the nonbinary thing and after talking to me for a bit, she said "oh, so youre a rosé! not a chardonnay transitioning to a merlot, just your own unique type" which was such a middle aged white woman way to frame it, but i cannot lie gang. it did make me want to cry

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pokemon offical forms are here.

it's going how you'd expect

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saw this in the middle of salt lake city walking to bar

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Sameeeeeee

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Home alone for a week.

Time for GENDER SHENANIGANS!

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I do wanna point out that a lot of transmascs do expect to take T and have only a selective few male characteristics that... don't work like they want?

It's okay to want to be a "pretty boy". Hell, I'd fucking love to be one, but it's so fucking funny to see people who have made fun and mocked men who lose hair, who can't grow a beard, who are fat, who have acne become one of these men, then sob and cry about it, because they had unrealistic expectations about hormones. And they can't let go of such white centric eastern beauty standards.

It just doesn't fit in my head that people want to become men but don't.... want to look like what men actually look like? When I started my transition, I never compared myself to these fucking models or actors, because I knew I couldn't look like them - very few people who have a lot of resources can look like them.

I'm balding. I'm losing hair at an increasing rate, looking down at my feet as I towel-dry my hair and there's a part of me that goes "oh gods" whenever that happens, but at the same time I look at myself in the mirror and I think, "Oh. I've got my father's hairline when he was my age." And I think of my dad, with the body hair I have and the same eyes as me and I just have to grin. Because I'm his son, and now I can tell.

I've acne. I've always had terrible acne! But it's come back with a vengeance and it hurts my face a lot - I know it'll pass. I've gone through it before, I can move from that. My beard is also very patchy and not very good, and I asked my dad about it. He told me he couldn't get a full beard until he turned 32. It made me smile. Because it means I will reach 32 to see it, when I didn't even know before if I'd get to 20.

So to any transmasculine people or trans men afraid to go on T or regretting going on T because it's making you not look like Harry Styles or whatever bottox-filled up fucking pop star that you've plastered on your wall........

Look at the men riding the bus. Not the screen. And try to understand that no trans person transitions to be beautiful. You transition to be happy with your fucking self.

HRT is not a cure for your self-esteem, it's a medical process to help you be happy and comfortable. So if you want people to see you as a man, you've to know what a real man actually looks like.

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Pink and cyan

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Spring favorites bouquet commish

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Strongly considering a JD cosplay for MusicalCon but worried to explain to security that "no I am not a lone wolf homegrown terrorist I'm just cosplaying one this TNT isn't real, what kind of terrorist would bring TNT and a slurpie"

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trans unity

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Trans deer trans deer🦌🏳️‍⚧️

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Designated gender of the day is: Denim fiend.

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I redrew this!

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me and my brother: *explains how adhd affects us*

our parents: that's not adhd, that's normal

me and my brother:

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No but sometimes you have a weird gender long enough to go back to playing with your agab’s code and pronouns, maybe not all the time, but you enjoy them. That doesn’t mean you’ve been lying. It doesn’t mean you made it all up. Gender is just a weird thing. It’s not the same kind of he/him yknow? That dress, it’s not girly anymore, it’s witchy and magical and it’s gonna make you a pretty princess. It’s like spending years in the fae realm and coming back a little unhinged.  It’s also cus you chose to use them ago now. You chose this make-up and now it isn’t anything else than colour and funky paint to put on your skin. You absorbed so much gender off everything that what used to matter so much in objects and signify what they meant means NOTHING. It’s in such a small quantity compared to yours, you don’t even care anymore.  Gender is funky. Gender norms are social and bestie, lemme tell you, I’m autistic enough that I won’t even be able to understand them if I got a master’s degree in masking.  PLAY WITH YOUR GENDERS. MOLD THEM INTO DINOSAURS AND BRAID THEM INTO FRIENDSHIP BRACELETS. NOBODY THAT MATTERS CARES THERE’S MORE IMPORTANT SHIT GOING AROUND. LIKE BEES. DID YOU KNOW BEES ARE AWESOME??? THEY ARE.