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Another screenshot...

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MAYBE THAT WAS YOUR END

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But what about your dreams lexi? 🥺

My Dreams? I already lost them.

Well, thanks for those two people who are still supporting me even though we don't talk together... 🩶✨

but gimme a reason Why should I come back when many fans don't want me in their group?

everyone tells beautiful lies about how good you are at your job, and then step by step, they stab you in the back by ignoring, hating, and insulting anonymously.

I'm just wasting my art for the wrong fandom, I'm really tired of trying to get your attention just to support me a bit

sorry, but go back to your favorite people who you (I mean others) always loved, after all, they deserve it more than anyone else.

I only wanna do everything for myself, **** them all 🙂

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-MAY YOUR DEATH BENEFIT ALL BEINGS-

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I literally don't want it to end 🥺😭

also almost finished the half of it 🥲

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First digital design of Lord Sakai ✨

very quickly 🤭

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What if I want to have a crush on another man and start drawing fanarts of him too? (Adam is still my first husband) But I would like to add another one from a very different fandom, one of the big ones 🤪

I'm an artist (I guess) and I'm just a girl so... 😔🎀💅🏻

Ladies and gentlemen, Lord Sakai from Ghost of Tsushima...

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f*cked up with no one around here as always so looking in my gallery and finding an almost old sketch

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Why do people act as if I don't exist in this fandom?

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My God 🪽

After another mental breakdown as usual, I finally found some energy to draw that idea, after the 3d render of Gabe 🔥, idk maybe I started too late

he looks so beautiful in my eyes but I'm not that happy, I just did something new again and it'll fade away.

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Just another boring day, uni again with my kids 💙🖤💛

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hi there💜💙🩵, your OC is so pretty

Hiii, thank you 🥹💙✨✨

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Uhm 🗿 I'm an introvert but I like seeing notifications... Even though idk how to answer 🎀😔

Reblog if you want Asks/Messages from your followers in your inbox

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nsfw +18 🚫

I lost my mind when I draw something 🌶️🥵 with them

HeHeHe 👹🔥💅🏻

My drug 😮‍💨

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Left fingers finally 🥺✨

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Hey i dont mean this to be rude, but has anyone ever told you that like it's not normal to be this exhausted or sad all the time? Like as in u shouldn't HAVE to feel like that, they make medication for that. I'm sb who spent my entire adult life on antidepressants n if one doesnf work there's many kinds. they do make stuff to make it not hurt + nobody deserves to suffer. just sth to think about. b well

np, you're free to say or ask anything. But I have a long answer... 🤭

Honestly, I often feel like I need medication, but the circumstances are not such that it happens, it's hard to explain but for example, the most important one is the country where I was born and grew up, the people of that country and the terrible things they do, especially with their ridiculous and extreme religion and beliefs, the restrictions of society, especially being a girl, and many terrible problems.

here, along with depression or loneliness, you has to try to just survive, at the cost of losing your motivation, future and maybe some of your big goals, and at the same time pretending to be happy...

to be honest, I wasn't that fu*ed up and negative (I was but not this much 😬) but after I left the fandom to get some rest a bit (of course it didn't work) I lost so many things and my only friend here who always supported me, then I got back to my dark side again this time deeper, still I'm struggling to get along. can't describe the pain, that's the big part and I missed that guy 🙂💔

I don't even know what future I will have in my country... You're right, it's not that normal for a 20-year-old girl to be so tired and depressed unless she has a problem.

I'm trying to be a good person and keep myself alive, regardless of beliefs and convictions 🤷🏻‍♀️

oh and lemme say that communicating with people is really difficult for a psychotic introvert like me that's why I don't have friends here 🤪😂

btw thank you for your opinion, I hope my answer was convincing ✌🏻✨