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very very evil to be a child in 2008 and an adult in 2025

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GINA. I have noone to talk to but oh my god!!! It hurts so much that he's gone, I was so afraid of something like this happening!! I can't even process this, I feel like I'm in shock and disbelief. To think that he might not have resolved whatever he wanted to set right with Niall, his SON, his family, the other boys!! Especially louis, he's lost too many loved ones already! I'm frozen in place and desperately want to cry to find some release but I can't. He should have been rehabilitated, he should have become sober, he should have released a great album and should have received support from his fans, he should have felt successful like he yearned for so long, he should have found peace and happiness!!!!! I can't accept that he died unhappy. I desperately want this to be fake even though I know it's not. I know in my heart he needed a hug more than anything, I hope wherever he's now he's being wrapped up in a warm hug and is at peace. But more than anything, I hope it's some kind if sick joke or a terrible nightmare.

Well, now I’m crying again.

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i do have to say that TMZ is a fucking plague and needs to be stomped out. the way they shared the news of michael jackson’s death before his family was notified, shared images of the kobe bryant helicopter crash before his wife had even found out it happened, and have now shared images of liam payne’s dead body for the world to see… just fucking slimy and utterly devoid of integrity

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Honestly thought I’d be like 78 years old before I’d get the news that a member of one direction died

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I’m feeling so completely overwhelmed and exhausted and devasted, I don’t know what to do or how to go on about things

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i just... i don't have much to say, but i will say this.

i'm angry. i'm really fucking mad. but while i work on dealing with the anger and sadness and frustration that is bubbling within me, there's also a LOT of gratitude.

liam was a part of a group that became MAGIC. they were MAGIC. they were so much to so many people and he was a part of that. it's because of liam being a part of one direction that everything happened exactly how it did and i somehow ended up here, and i am SO thankful for that. it's because of one direction that i have some of the closest friends i've got in my life. it's because of one direction that i know as much about myself as i do and that i was able to be able to get through some of the hardest times of my life, and he was a part of that.

i want to remember him how i remember him on stage. i want to remember him smiling so big his eyes are mere slits and his mouth open wide laughing. i want to remember IT'S A SNAKE HABITAT TURN AROUND! and the sheer joy that he and the others brought me.

so thank you liam. i'm still mad, and sad, and frustrated, and feeling helpless in a lot of ways. but i'm also really fucking happy to have had felt the effects of the magic you brought into my life.

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I just hope the media leaves Harry, Louis, Niall, and Zayn ALONE. Let them grieve however they need to in peace.

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walking in the wind 

happy 3 years mitam

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I don't know if this is an unpopular opinion, but I have absolutely no desire to see any statements from any of the boys. Zero. I don't want them to say anything, i dont want them to go online. I know whatever they say won't properly express their feelings, i dont want them to sit down and try to find the most "public friendly" words to say goodbye to liam and i dont want the public to compare what any of them says, who spoke up first, who was the most genuine. I hope they can rest, work through their emotions and be happy, as much as they can be

❤️

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seeing so many people who haven’t been here for a while . we’re all family and will always be . what we got to experience is rare and precious . hope time will allow us to look back at it with joy and peace again . hugging all of you tight

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Do you ever cry ??? 2012 / 2017

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is it confirmed suicide or was it an accident? rest in peace Liam.. there is no words for how sad this is

No. Nothing is confirmed other than he’s passed and that he fell from a window. I think so many of us have been worried that this was where things were going to lead because he’s had such a hard time for so long and people were relentlessly horrible to him online.

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this feels so impossible to understand. hugging you all tight right now. i don't have any actual words, just....... fuck.

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Oh Liam.

I’ve been so worried for so long. But that doesn’t take away the devastation.

If I could, I’d wrap all of us into a giant hug. Please take care of yourselves. And I’m here. We’ll get through this together.

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addiction kills. Harassment kills. Mental illness kills. Take care, educate yourself and reach out to others before playing god and deciding that pointing fingers is the only way to go

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