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;; Hi. It’s been. Almost three years since I last logged into this account. I think it’s pretty obvious, but I have left the D. Gray-Man fandom. I wish I could say it’s been the various hiatuses and inaccessibility to reading new chapters, but it’s not.

The fandom is. Extremely toxic. It took me this long to realize it. Every fandom has its own level of toxicity, I won’t deny it. But DGM is on a whole new level. I’ve seen people kicked off their blogs because of hate and rumors without a single shred of truth to them. I’ve seen relationships torn apart.

I was abused in this fandom. I was controlled and subjected to the possessiveness of a person who was twice my age at the time. She tore my friendships apart. She spread rumors about people I interacted with because she didn’t like that she was losing control of a sixteen year old kid. She wanted to be the only person I wrote with. The only person I shipped with. 

I won’t go into her actions in this post because that’s not what this post is supposed to be about. It would take too long, either way.

I am in no way claiming to be the only person that was abused in this fandom. I know of people who had it way worse than I did. I only talk to one person that I met in this fandom, and I’m sure they’ve moved on as well. This is also not the only bad experience I’ve had in the fandom, as I continued to write here for years after that situation ended. 

It’s gotten so bad that I can’t even read DGM anymore, even though I genuinely loved its story, because it brings back memories that have affected me in such terrible ways.

I wanted to say that I am ashamed of any bad things I have done in this fandom. I am ashamed of the people who did bad things in this fandom. I’m just. Ashamed of the fandom in general.

I am in a much safer situation now. I have moved on to a much safer and kinder fandom. I have new friends that support and love me, who don’t try to possess me or try to force me into situations that I can’t emotionally or mentally handle.

That’s not to say there aren’t difficulties in my new fandom. Of course there are. That’s how fandoms work. There’s no fandom in existence that is entirely pure, discourse-free, toxicity-free. But I think anything is better than what I have faced here.

If you are in an unsafe situation, PLEASE get help. See a therapist, TALK to someone. I know people say ‘that’s life’ to justify all the bad things that are happening in the world. But you shouldn’t have to be afraid or ashamed to seek help or avoid negative content.

Goodbye. The next time I log in to this account, whenever that may be, it will be to delete it. I am done. I’m not going to come back to this horrible fandom.

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thinking about deleting alma and just making separate blogs for seti, muiri and m’zora...

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Please like/reblog this if you’re interested in playing with a super smol squid alien OC who is completely unused to living on an actual planet instead of a giant ship, and who probably eats ten times his weight in tomatoes, and I’ll check you out!

This is a sideblog, so all follows will be coming from sungyoja!

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❝ it's called a HIGH FIVE an' it's meant to show you're doin' a good job! ❞

@bookmans-lavi

          “I don’t think I want to do a good job at anything if it means that.” he mutters. “What was I doing a good job of, anyway?”

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Lavi's going to go ahead and S M A C K Alma's hand REALLY hard as payment for the confusion.

@bookmans-lavi

          “OW!!”

          Alma quickly pulls his hand away, rubbing at his reddening palm. “What was that for?!”

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He's going to hold his hand up for a HIGH FIVE and see if Alma understands.

@bookmans-lavi

          And Alma’s just going to stare in confusion for a few moments. However, he also eventually raises a hand -- not going in for a high five -- thinking that it was some sort of greeting.

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cmmssn for @_purisera thank you!

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No tekken moment will ever surpass this.

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Reblog if you're apart of the LGBTQ+ community, and your orientation, so I can find you, follow you, and learn more about you, and your identification!! Let me be educated! I want to love everybody!!

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This is the money pentacle. Reblog and unexpected money will come to you!

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So I made a sideblog for Junkrat from Overwatch because he is a precious trash child. I’ll probably be mostly playing him in a D. Gray-Man verse instead of his regular verse since I’m more used to the DGM fandom than any other, but if I get the chance I can try to dabble in Jamie’s main verse. 

My main blog is @sungyoja, so any follows from me will be from that blog.

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;; slade, u are so good?? u are so good. ur art, ur writing, ur muses. ur a very good. ilu slade ♥

;; help. i’m weak. you have weakened me, love. aaaaaaand i perish.

[sungyoja-a]

So I made a sideblog for Junkrat from Overwatch because he is a precious trash child. I’ll probably be mostly playing him in a D. Gray-Man verse instead of his regular verse since I’m more used to the DGM fandom than any other, but if I get the chance I can try to dabble in Jamie’s main verse. 

My main blog is @sungyoja, so any follows from me will be from that blog.

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Please like/reblog this is you’re willing to play with a tsundere-as-heckie ram sphinx who is literally the gay™ and also a cafe chef. I’ll check you out!

This is a sideblog, so all follows will be from sungyoja!

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Please like/reblog this if you’re interested in playing with a super smol squid alien OC who is completely unused to living on an actual planet instead of a giant ship, and who probably eats ten times his weight in tomatoes, and I’ll check you out!

This is a sideblog, so all follows will be coming from sungyoja!

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My new reference for the pretty kitty boy himself, Seti.

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