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sunjakes · 3 months
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hello from ... the void?
idk the best way to describe my sudden disappearance except to say that 2023 was one hell of a year </3 not long after my last post, i went to the 7dream concert and started my second job, and i COMPLETELY underestimated how little free time i would have .. i do genuinely miss writing, but i've also undergone major stan list changes in the past 8 months .. (i started stanning almost 20 new groups this year and i now ult half of them .. i am truly insane) i still love enha so, so dearly, but i don't really ult them anymore? i also don't really ult nct anymore which feels weird to say after 7 years of them being my ult of ult groups :(
depending on how the new year starts out, and if i get inspiration to write again, i may do a bit of a "rebrand" to this account. all of my current works will stay, as i'm still proud of them, but i may start writing for some other groups if i can get ideas (namely DKB since they're my new ult group, but also potentially others? we'll see LOL)
if any of y'all are still in the slightest bit interested, keep an eye out :) i'll be sure to update in the future with my plans <3
in the mean time, feel free to follow my stan twitter or my tiktok to see more of me if you'd like :) i'd love to make friends with some of y'all and share the things i love on those platforms!
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sunjakes · 1 year
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i’m literally so sorry for the sudden disappearance 😭😭 my life has been super hectic recently and i’ve honestly been in a bit of a writing slump :( i’m going to the nct dream concert in chicago on friday and then i start a second job next week, but i’m hoping to try and get back into the swing of everything soon !! i promise y’all that the sunghoon part two is still coming 🤞🤞 depending on if i’m still stuck with it i might try and push out one of my other WIPs !!
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sunjakes · 1 year
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struggling so hard to make this sunghoon part 2 how the hell do yall write smut
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sunjakes · 1 year
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writing this sunghoon part two is taking me so much longer than i intended :(( i’ve kinda hit a rough patch mentally, so hopefully i’ll be able to work on it more soon
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sunjakes · 1 year
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have fallen into such writers block for my hoon pt 2 … didnt think writing smut would be this hard LOL
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sunjakes · 1 year
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born again ; park sunghoon
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pairing: sunghoon x gn!reader genre: suggestive (minors dni !!), a teeny bit of fluff towards the end kinda warnings: mentions of alcohol, hoon is a cocky little shit, one night stand type of vibes, allusions to a mean dom hoon but with no actual smut, cussing, pet names (darling and doll but he also calls mc a slut😵‍💫), sunghoon taking his costume role too seriously and liking to bite, mc lowkey falls into subspace ?? idk, teeny bit of choking, not proofread word count: 1.8k a/n: i don’t care that it’s january .. spooky season is ALWAYS 🙄 ever since i started to consider writing more suggestive things for hyung line this idea has been screaming from the back of my mind … hope all the hoon whores love this 🫶 ALSO THIS IS NAMED AFTER DRACULA BY F(X) BC THAT SONG SLAYS AND I MISS THEM
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despite loving the halloween season, you were never one for costume parties. as a kid, you loved watching your friends and classmates dress up as their favorite characters — parents having small get togethers while their kids wander around neighborhoods, accompanied by older siblings and cousins as they try to see who can collect the most candy.
going into early adulthood, the ambience surrounding the holiday changed drastically. people are still throwing parties, but unlike the ones from your childhood, these ones are filled with loud music, costumes that are barely actual costumes, and gallons upon gallons of alcohol. it just never seemed to pique your interest.
your friends were practically dragging you to this party being thrown by the most popular guy in he area, heeseung. you’ve heard too many stories about him, some of which you could never bring yourself to rehash. just thinking about his track record brings a burning to your face. pulling at the fabric that’s clinging to your abdomen, you huff at the discomfort your costume is causing you.
the pounding music from inside heeseung’s home can be heard as soon as you get out of your friend’s car, and you can already feel a headache forming behind your eyelids. you hesitate to head inside for a millisecond before you’re being dragged by your wrist, your friends far too impatient to wait around.
“c’mon, y/n, it’ll be fun!! you just gotta live a little while we’re still young!”
you roll your eyes as you follow behind them, the music getting infinitely louder as you walk through the door. instantaneously, your friends leave you by the door as they go to hunt out the guys they’ll spend their night with. as you begrudgingly make your way towards the kitchen to make what will likely be your only drink of the night, you look around at the other attendees and the costumes they chose to don.
you aren’t shocked at the amount of repetitive costumes worn throughout the party — a least a half dozen of velmas, daphnes, shaggys, and freds; countless witches, vampires, and even a few comic characters like spiderman and harley quinn; and the amount of girls and guys alike dressed as those ‘mean girls’ style sexy animals makes you scoff.
however, there’s a single person who catches your attention. he’s one of many people wearing some version of a vampire costume — but, unlike the others, you notice he isn’t wearing those fake, plastic fangs — and you aren’t sure if it’s the costume or if you genuinely don’t know him; but you cannot seem to pull any name out of your memory to match his face.
he seemed to be completely on his own just like you were, and you wondered if he came with friends that abandoned him like yours had just moments ago. however, your train of thought gets derailed rather quickly as his eyes meet yours and you feel your face flushing as you look away. you rush into the kitchen to make a stronger concoction than you originally intended, missing the smirk that graced his lips when he caught you staring.
“d’you spot your victim, hoon?”
sunghoon looks over to heeseung, his cocky smirk not leaving his lips. heeseung watches you as you turn the corner, playfully patting sunghoon’s shoulder with a knowing glint in his eyes. chuckling quietly at his friend’s expression, he just shakes his head as he walks back to the main group of partygoers, bidding sunghoon a quiet good luck. nodding as heeseung walks off, sunghoon decides to give you a minute before he heads to meet you in the kitchen, a plan beginning to formulate in his mind.
having already forgotten what various liquors you combined in your cup, you clench your eyes shut as you down its contents in a single go. the burning sensation the drink leaves in your throat seemingly calms you down as you will yourself to not think about the strange interaction you just had. despite it just being a seconds worth of eye contact, you felt your heart racing at the mental image of his face — which has already seemed to burn its way behind your eyelids.
you let the alcohol settle in your stomach for a few moments and you feel your body tense as a strong cologne floods your senses. you could've sworn you were the only person in the kitchen, so you try to rationalize how someone at a party like this managed to appear so quietly. as you weigh your options between ignoring their presence or trying to strike an inevitably boring conversation, you notice how the person feels a lot closer than they were before.
you turn around and meet eyes with the same guy that caught your interest when you first entered the party. you try to hide how your breath hitches in your throat as you're able to get a better look at him than you did before. you swear that the beauty marks on his cheek and nose bridge were placed perfectly, and add a striking handsomeness to his face. a small smirk plays on his lips as you unabashedly check him out, and you notice how one of his fang-like canines pokes along his tinted bottom lip.
"i wasn't expecting to see someone show up to this party dressed like that.."
you roll your eyes at his comment, turning around to grab a bottle of water as you fight the urge to pour more liquor into your cup.
"says the one of twenty vampires in the damn house.. at least my costume isn't so predictable, dracula-"
sunghoon only chuckles at your response, and you turn around to look at him again. you feel your body begin to burn as his eyes trail down your figure, suddenly feeling self conscious. he takes a couple steps towards you, and you back up until your body bumps into the counter. your words get caught in your throat as his hands ghost along your waist before gently holding onto the marble at your sides. looking down at you with a near sadistic smile, you can picture his eyes turning a deep shade of red as he leans close to your ear, his lips grazing against the skin of your earlobe.
“i’m not your typical dracula, darling..”
the gravelly tone in sunghoon's voice pulls a soft whimper from your lips, and you hear him let out another low chuckle as he lets one of his sharp canines run against the skin of your ear, pulling away just enough to look you in the eyes. his breath gently fans against your face, and you fight the urge to rest your hands against his chest. regaining some of your composure, you make eye contact with him again as a smug grin of your own tugs on your lips.
"prove it then, mr. cullen-"
your drink cup is long forgotten as sunghoon grabs your arm firmly — yet gentle enough to not hurt you. your mind floods with thoughts and mental images as you note how the muscles in his arm flex with his various movements. leading you to an empty room in heeseung's home, he hastily shuts and locks the door before pushing you against it, his head diving down to start pressing kisses along your jawline and neck.
your mouth gapes open in a gasp as you feel sunghoon slowly bite down onto your neck. his teeth sink into your skin, and a moan bubbles in your throat as you clutch to the shirt on his chest. sucking against the spot for a few moments, he pulls away to observe as the skin flushes a dark shade of red. he only watches for a moment, though, as he begins the same attack on different spots on both sides of your neck.
once fully content, one of his hands slowly makes his way to gently hold onto your bruised neck as he pulls you into a deep and messy kiss. you reciprocate in milliseconds, your grip on sunghoon's shirt loosening as you rest your hands flat on his abdomen, a whine falling into his lips as you feel his nails gently press into the base of your neck. as your lips part, sunghoon takes the opportunity to slip his tongue into your mouth, exploring it with a fervor. more quiet moans tumble from your lips at the newfound sensation, and you wrap your arms around his neck, carding your fingers through the hair at the base of his neck. you quickly get overwhelmed by the current situation, and sunghoon pulls away once you and him are both panting for air.
with a cocky smirk on his face, his gaze flits from your blown out eyes to your red, swollen lips that are glistening from his and your combined saliva. looking into his eyes which have darkened with lust, you gently tug at strands of his hair in a wordless beg to continue what's been started. sunghoon only chuckles and drops his hand from your neck so he can rest both of his hands on your waist, and the loss of contact makes you instinctively whine.
"what is it, doll? i've barely done a thing, yet you've already turned into a dazed slut."
sunghoon's faux sympathy drops instantaneously with how he spits out the last word, and the way he tugs you closer to him so that both of your hips are pressed together causes another near pornographic moan to fall from between your lips.
"getting you so worked up before you even know my name.. what am i going to do with you, hm?"
you can only manage to respond with near silent pleads, and sunghoon takes a step back from you with a wicked grin, reveling in the way you cry for him at the lack of contact. instead of heading back over to you, he only opens his arms teasingly, cocking his head to the side as he looks at you.
"if you aren't gonna use your words, doll, then you'll need to show me what you want yourself~"
making your way over to sunghoon, you say nothing as you lightly grip onto his shirt again. you bury your face in the crook of his neck as his hands ghost along your waist, pressing wet kisses along the column of his neck as his cologne once again floods your senses. tauntingly cooing at your sudden clinginess, sunghoon slowly moves the two of you towards the empty bed.
as he sits down and pulls you to stand between his legs, he enjoys how you look at him with a blank, doe-eyed expression. the way you're seemingly entranced by sunghoon's every move fills his chest with pride, and all he can do is picture the things he wants to do both with and to you. gently running his hands along your waist and torso, sunghoon presses a gentle kiss to your lips.
"god, darling, you are going to drive me absolutely insane..."
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sunjakes · 1 year
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thinking ab writing a part two for born again w full smut even tho no one asked for it … its for my own indulgence LOL
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sunjakes · 1 year
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noteworthy ; lee heeseung
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pairing: heeseung x gn!reader genre: angst to fluff, comfort fic warnings: this idea was jumpstarted via this john green quote so do with that what you will, intended lowercase, established relationship, lots of crying, not proofread word count: 1.1k a/n: this has been in my drafts since early september 🫣 i dont wanna talk about how long this took me to write … ANYWAYS i highly recommend listening to rainbow by kacey musgraves while reading ... it wasn't part of my inspo but it's very fitting :>
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the moment that heeseung walked through the door, he could sense that was something was wrong. normally, you would be curled up on the couch with a lamp on, scrolling through your phone — or fully asleep — as you waited for him to get back home, but the only thing he saw was a dark room.
lifting a brow at the unusual silence, he removed his shoes and slowly started to make his way through the house. he peeked his head around the corner to the kitchen, starting to grow confused and slightly concerned when he couldn’t find you.
“y/n? baby, where are you?”
heeseung's voice came out softer than he expected, turning into the hallway as he makes his way towards your shared bedroom. he lets out a soft sigh of relief when he sees light from under the doorway, and he instantly starts to open the door. he freezes at the sight of your curled up frame lying in bed, shaking with every sob that wracks your body.
heeseung hesitates before taking a step forward, the relief he felt just moments ago quickly being replaced with worry. as he puts a gentle hand on your shoulder, he feels his heart shatter at the way you flinch at the sudden contact. you look up at him, shock laced throughout your glassy eyes. sitting down on an empty spot of the bed, heeseung wraps his arms around you and gently repositions you both so that you rest in his lap.
it takes you a moment before you're clinging to him, burying your face into the base of his neck as you continue to let your emotions wash over you. holding you tight and rubbing comforting circles on your back, heeseung just holds you, letting you take as much time as you need. he mumbles soft affirmations into your ear, whispers of "i'm right here" and "everything's gonna be okay, baby" slowly helping you breathe easier and calm down.
after what feels like hours of nonstop crying and comforting from your boyfriend, your breathing starts to become less and less labored with your body only slightly trembling. gently running his fingers through your hair, he presses a soft kiss to your temple as you sit up in his embrace, looking up at him with tear filled eyes. with his free hand, he wipes away the stray tears staining your face, and takes a moment before he tries to talk about the situation.
"hey, what happened? do you wanna talk about it at all?"
staying quiet, heeseung expresses his worry without pushing you too far. you let out a quiet sniff as you hesitantly nod, the continued circles he rubs against your back keeping you grounded.
"i just.. i feel like a fraud.."
a look of shock appears on heeseung's face, and for a moment you start to regret deciding to speak up, until you feel his grip on you tighten as he presses a gentle kiss to the crown of your head.
"oh, baby.. what's left you feeling that way? did someone say something? what happened?"
you shake your head in response, resting your head against his shoulder. you can't see heeseung's face from this angle, but you can picture his deep frown and furrowed eyebrows as he tries to understand the sudden depricating thoughts swimming through your mind.
"no one's said anything, hee.. i just was thinking, and i don't know what i did to get to the point in my life that i'm at. i don't feel like i'm noteworthy enough to deserve it.."
at your statement, heeseung moves his arms so he can gently cup your cheeks, gently lifting your head off his shoulder. looking at him, the exact frown you pictured graces his lips and you feel another pang of guilt. he leans in to press a gentle kiss to your forehead, and you can feel your eyes fill with tears again as you break the eye contact.
"oh, y/n... of course you deserve it, darling. you may not feel like it, but you are so unbelievably incredible. you have absolutely changed my life, and every day i think about how you've made me a better person."
heeseung presses a gentle kiss against your forehead as a way of expressing his sincerity, and you can't help the tears that make their way down your face again. he continues to wipe the tears falling through your eyelashes, giving you a moment before starting to speak again.
"no matter what happens, y/n, i want you to remember that you will always be worthy of note. you are so strong, and i am so proud of you, and i will do everything in my power to show you that until you believe it for yourself.”
you nod, mouthing a silent "thank you.." as you bury your face in his shoulder, crying out the rest of the tears your body can manage to produce. heeseung begins to rub your back again with one hand, gently cupping the back of your head with the other as he presses a soft kiss to the crown of your head.
“i love you so much, y/n, forever and always.”
with your exhausted body slumped against heeseung's chest, tight in his hold, you look up at him as best as you manage. the soft smile he gives you when you gaze into his eyes could easily make you forget about all of your griefs and struggles, if only for just this moment.
"i love you too, hee.."
despite the cracks in your voice from your parched throat, your simple response brings an even bigger smile to his face, and he presses another kiss to your temple before laying you back into bed. he gently lays the sheets over you before standing up, gently cupping your cheek with one hand.
"i'm gonna go get you some water, darling. i want you to drink some of it, and then let's sleep, yeah? you deserve it."
the unwavering love in heeseung's eyes brings a small grin to your lips as you nod, and the time he's away in the kitchen feels nonexistent as he returns to your side in moments. he helps you sit up so you can take sips of the water, and once content, he pulls back the covers a bit to join you.
as he wraps his arms around your torso and gently pulls you into his chest, you instantly feel sleep taking over your body, a whisper soft “i love you” being the final thing you hear before drifting off into a deep, comforting sleep.
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sunjakes · 1 year
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finally finished a draft that i've had since a few days after starting this blog .. im so ashamed it took me four months to write this but im glad its finally done LOLOL i'll post it in a couple days
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sunjakes · 1 year
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born again ; park sunghoon
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pairing: sunghoon x gn!reader genre: suggestive (minors dni !!), a teeny bit of fluff towards the end kinda warnings: mentions of alcohol, hoon is a cocky little shit, one night stand type of vibes, allusions to a mean dom hoon but with no actual smut, cussing, pet names (darling and doll but he also calls mc a slut😵‍💫), sunghoon taking his costume role too seriously and liking to bite, mc lowkey falls into subspace ?? idk, teeny bit of choking, not proofread word count: 1.8k a/n: i don’t care that it’s january .. spooky season is ALWAYS 🙄 ever since i started to consider writing more suggestive things for hyung line this idea has been screaming from the back of my mind … hope all the hoon whores love this 🫶 ALSO THIS IS NAMED AFTER DRACULA BY F(X) BC THAT SONG SLAYS AND I MISS THEM
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despite loving the halloween season, you were never one for costume parties. as a kid, you loved watching your friends and classmates dress up as their favorite characters — parents having small get togethers while their kids wander around neighborhoods, accompanied by older siblings and cousins as they try to see who can collect the most candy.
going into early adulthood, the ambience surrounding the holiday changed drastically. people are still throwing parties, but unlike the ones from your childhood, these ones are filled with loud music, costumes that are barely actual costumes, and gallons upon gallons of alcohol. it just never seemed to pique your interest.
your friends were practically dragging you to this party being thrown by the most popular guy in he area, heeseung. you’ve heard too many stories about him, some of which you could never bring yourself to rehash. just thinking about his track record brings a burning to your face. pulling at the fabric that’s clinging to your abdomen, you huff at the discomfort your costume is causing you.
the pounding music from inside heeseung’s home can be heard as soon as you get out of your friend’s car, and you can already feel a headache forming behind your eyelids. you hesitate to head inside for a millisecond before you’re being dragged by your wrist, your friends far too impatient to wait around.
“c’mon, y/n, it’ll be fun!! you just gotta live a little while we’re still young!”
you roll your eyes as you follow behind them, the music getting infinitely louder as you walk through the door. instantaneously, your friends leave you by the door as they go to hunt out the guys they’ll spend their night with. as you begrudgingly make your way towards the kitchen to make what will likely be your only drink of the night, you look around at the other attendees and the costumes they chose to don.
you aren’t shocked at the amount of repetitive costumes worn throughout the party — a least a half dozen of velmas, daphnes, shaggys, and freds; countless witches, vampires, and even a few comic characters like spiderman and harley quinn; and the amount of girls and guys alike dressed as those ‘mean girls’ style sexy animals makes you scoff.
however, there’s a single person who catches your attention. he’s one of many people wearing some version of a vampire costume — but, unlike the others, you notice he isn’t wearing those fake, plastic fangs — and you aren’t sure if it’s the costume or if you genuinely don’t know him; but you cannot seem to pull any name out of your memory to match his face.
he seemed to be completely on his own just like you were, and you wondered if he came with friends that abandoned him like yours had just moments ago. however, your train of thought gets derailed rather quickly as his eyes meet yours and you feel your face flushing as you look away. you rush into the kitchen to make a stronger concoction than you originally intended, missing the smirk that graced his lips when he caught you staring.
“d’you spot your victim, hoon?”
sunghoon looks over to heeseung, his cocky smirk not leaving his lips. heeseung watches you as you turn the corner, playfully patting sunghoon’s shoulder with a knowing glint in his eyes. chuckling quietly at his friend’s expression, he just shakes his head as he walks back to the main group of partygoers, bidding sunghoon a quiet good luck. nodding as heeseung walks off, sunghoon decides to give you a minute before he heads to meet you in the kitchen, a plan beginning to formulate in his mind.
having already forgotten what various liquors you combined in your cup, you clench your eyes shut as you down its contents in a single go. the burning sensation the drink leaves in your throat seemingly calms you down as you will yourself to not think about the strange interaction you just had. despite it just being a seconds worth of eye contact, you felt your heart racing at the mental image of his face — which has already seemed to burn its way behind your eyelids.
you let the alcohol settle in your stomach for a few moments and you feel your body tense as a strong cologne floods your senses. you could've sworn you were the only person in the kitchen, so you try to rationalize how someone at a party like this managed to appear so quietly. as you weigh your options between ignoring their presence or trying to strike an inevitably boring conversation, you notice how the person feels a lot closer than they were before.
you turn around and meet eyes with the same guy that caught your interest when you first entered the party. you try to hide how your breath hitches in your throat as you're able to get a better look at him than you did before. you swear that the beauty marks on his cheek and nose bridge were placed perfectly, and add a striking handsomeness to his face. a small smirk plays on his lips as you unabashedly check him out, and you notice how one of his fang-like canines pokes along his tinted bottom lip.
"i wasn't expecting to see someone show up to this party dressed like that.."
you roll your eyes at his comment, turning around to grab a bottle of water as you fight the urge to pour more liquor into your cup.
"says the one of twenty vampires in the damn house.. at least my costume isn't so predictable, dracula-"
sunghoon only chuckles at your response, and you turn around to look at him again. you feel your body begin to burn as his eyes trail down your figure, suddenly feeling self conscious. he takes a couple steps towards you, and you back up until your body bumps into the counter. your words get caught in your throat as his hands ghost along your waist before gently holding onto the marble at your sides. looking down at you with a near sadistic smile, you can picture his eyes turning a deep shade of red as he leans close to your ear, his lips grazing against the skin of your earlobe.
“i’m not your typical dracula, darling..”
the gravelly tone in sunghoon's voice pulls a soft whimper from your lips, and you hear him let out another low chuckle as he lets one of his sharp canines run against the skin of your ear, pulling away just enough to look you in the eyes. his breath gently fans against your face, and you fight the urge to rest your hands against his chest. regaining some of your composure, you make eye contact with him again as a smug grin of your own tugs on your lips.
"prove it then, mr. cullen-"
your drink cup is long forgotten as sunghoon grabs your arm firmly — yet gentle enough to not hurt you. your mind floods with thoughts and mental images as you note how the muscles in his arm flex with his various movements. leading you to an empty room in heeseung's home, he hastily shuts and locks the door before pushing you against it, his head diving down to start pressing kisses along your jawline and neck.
your mouth gapes open in a gasp as you feel sunghoon slowly bite down onto your neck. his teeth sink into your skin, and a moan bubbles in your throat as you clutch to the shirt on his chest. sucking against the spot for a few moments, he pulls away to observe as the skin flushes a dark shade of red. he only watches for a moment, though, as he begins the same attack on different spots on both sides of your neck.
once fully content, one of his hands slowly makes his way to gently hold onto your bruised neck as he pulls you into a deep and messy kiss. you reciprocate in milliseconds, your grip on sunghoon's shirt loosening as you rest your hands flat on his abdomen, a whine falling into his lips as you feel his nails gently press into the base of your neck. as your lips part, sunghoon takes the opportunity to slip his tongue into your mouth, exploring it with a fervor. more quiet moans tumble from your lips at the newfound sensation, and you wrap your arms around his neck, carding your fingers through the hair at the base of his neck. you quickly get overwhelmed by the current situation, and sunghoon pulls away once you and him are both panting for air.
with a cocky smirk on his face, his gaze flits from your blown out eyes to your red, swollen lips that are glistening from his and your combined saliva. looking into his eyes which have darkened with lust, you gently tug at strands of his hair in a wordless beg to continue what's been started. sunghoon only chuckles and drops his hand from your neck so he can rest both of his hands on your waist, and the loss of contact makes you instinctively whine.
"what is it, doll? i've barely done a thing, yet you've already turned into a dazed slut."
sunghoon's faux sympathy drops instantaneously with how he spits out the last word, and the way he tugs you closer to him so that both of your hips are pressed together causes another near pornographic moan to fall from between your lips.
"getting you so worked up before you even know my name.. what am i going to do with you, hm?"
you can only manage to respond with near silent pleads, and sunghoon takes a step back from you with a wicked grin, reveling in the way you cry for him at the lack of contact. instead of heading back over to you, he only opens his arms teasingly, cocking his head to the side as he looks at you.
"if you aren't gonna use your words, doll, then you'll need to show me what you want yourself~"
making your way over to sunghoon, you say nothing as you lightly grip onto his shirt again. you bury your face in the crook of his neck as his hands ghost along your waist, pressing wet kisses along the column of his neck as his cologne once again floods your senses. tauntingly cooing at your sudden clinginess, sunghoon slowly moves the two of you towards the empty bed.
as he sits down and pulls you to stand between his legs, he enjoys how you look at him with a blank, doe-eyed expression. the way you're seemingly entranced by sunghoon's every move fills his chest with pride, and all he can do is picture the things he wants to do both with and to you. gently running his hands along your waist and torso, sunghoon presses a gentle kiss to your lips.
"god, darling, you are going to drive me absolutely insane..."
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sunjakes · 1 year
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officially gonna start writing suggestive fics for hyung line🤭🤭my current wip isnt full smut but im still gonna mark it as mature bc it is borderline pwp LOL
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sunjakes · 1 year
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HIDE THE SCISSORS FROM SUNJAKE
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they look so pretty with long hair y’all i can’t handle this 😭😭😭
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sunjakes · 1 year
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ive recently been into writing poetry (but almost all of it is super sad LOL) … what if i made an ot7 post of poems inspired by them 🤔🤔
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sunjakes · 1 year
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this person dmed me the weirdest mfing things pls keep ur eyes out yall 😭😭
PLEASE BLOCK AND REPORT @/mintchocolatesunoox HE IS A CREEP WHO HAS BEEN HARASSING ENHABLR (even so far as to pressure people to give him their snapchats for nsfw reasons)
I’ve had mutuals have very awful experiences with him and seen other accounts say the same
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sunjakes · 1 year
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make a wish ; sim jaeyun
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pairing: jake x gn!reader (feat. everyone else) genre: fluff, fluff, and more fluff (also borderline suggestive?) warnings: intentional lowercase, established relationship, mentions of food and drinking alchohol, jake gets tipsy and a little handsy, allusions to suggestive content, not proofread word count: 1.5k a/n: happy new year! the mental image of jake being a giggly, touchy drunk makes me v happy and i felt the need to share this with y'all :>
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you were elated when your boyfriend invited you to spend new years eve with him and his members. you had been dating for a while, and you considered yourself to be friends with the others, but you didn't get the chance to spend much time with them due to their constantly hectic schedules.
before you could even lift your hand to knock on the door to their dorms, it swings open and you see jake in front of you. the brightest smile appears on his face, and he instantly pulls you into a tight hug. gently rocking you two back and forth for a few moments, he presses a kiss to the crown of your head before pulling away, keeping his hands resting on your arms.
"i'm so glad you were able to make it, angel."
the way he gazes at you never fails to tinge your cheeks with a shade of pink. you smile in response, your hands laid against his chest. you two get lost in each other's eyes for a moment, not even feeling the need to say a single thing. you both simultaneously lean into each other, but a shouting voice stops you before your lips can touch.
"jake, just bring y/n in!! you're letting all the warm air out.."
the sudden complaint from jay startles you both, and jake sheepishly pulls away, taking a step back inside as he holds his hand out towards you. you take it, and he intertwines your fingers as he leads you into the dorm, shutting the door behind you. as you walk towards the main room, you smile again as you take in the way the boys decorated for their little celebration.
the decorated tree is still up from their christmas celebration the week prior, but there's now metallic streamers and balloons littered around the space. faint music is playing from a speaker by the couch, and there's various drinks and soda cans sitting on the table in the middle.
a chorus of your name being called out brings your attention to the six boys boys hovering throughout the kitchen and dining area, not so patiently waiting for jay to finish cooking. despite you and jake being hand in hand, heeseung makes his way over to you, bringing you into a gentle side hug. sunghoon gives you a welcoming nod, jungwon and sunoo smile at you brightly, and niki comes over to playfully mess up your hair. laughing at everyone's antics, you attempt to return your hair to its original resting position.
"we're really happy you were able to come over!"
jay pauses from cutting up various vegetables, turning around to look at you with a smile. you nod in a wordless response, and he goes back to cooking just as quickly as he had turned towards you. feeling jake's arm gently wrap its way around your waist in a back hug, you lean back against him and focus on the lively and family-like energy radiating throughout the house.
"y/n, come over here! let's play mario kart!!"
you turn your head to see niki in front of the television, holding up a game controller. you look back at jake and he faintly nods, letting you go. you press a kiss to his cheek before heading over to niki, grabbing one of the controllers from his hand with a smirk.
"oh, it's on, nishimura."
it feels like hours pass where you and niki sit on the floor, games being won in tandem by both you and the younger. jake stays seated on the couch behind you both, one hand gently making its way through your hair. as soon as jay calls out that the food was ready, niki pauses the game and shoots up from his spot on the floor, practically sprinting towards the kitchen. you and jake look at each other with a chuckle, his fingers intertwining with yours as you head to the table to go eat.
all of the members had their own unique excitedness about the upcoming year, and hearing them talk about their different hopes and plans filled you with a joy you swear you've never felt before. looking over, jake senses your change in demeanor and gently squeezes your knee from under the table. he gives you a loving smile when you look over at him, and you can't help but match his expression. after everyone finishes eating, insanity ensues as jake and his bandmates play a seven-way game of rock paper scissors to decide who's in charge of washing the dishes.
despite jake claiming himself to be a master of rock paper scissors, he ends up losing, much to everyone's delight. you decide to tag along and help him even though you didn't actually play with them, finding it the perfect opportunity to spend more time with your boyfriend. however, you only seemed to serve as a distraction now that jake had drank a couple glasses of wine with you, heeseung, jay, and sunghoon during dinner.
the two of you had managed to finish about a third of the dishes sitting in the sink before you feel a pair of arms wrap around your waist from behind, jake's lips placing feathery kisses along the nape of your neck and your shoulders. a shuddery breath leaves your lips, trying your hardest not to let his affection get to you in the moment.
"jake, what are you doing...? we aren't even halfway through the dishes yet.."
you question him in a whisper, not confident enough to speak any louder. without saying a single word, jake just continues to leave wet kisses along your shoulders and up to your neck, using just enough pressure to take your breath away but not enough to leave any deeply colored marks against your skin. you habitually lean back against his chest, completely giving in to his actions. jake decides to pull away from you after playfully tugging your earlobe between his teeth, his arms dropping to his sides as he takes a step back.
"i couldn't help myself, angel, you just look too beautiful like this~"
you could tell that jake wasn't sober by the lilt in his voice and the sudden boldness. typically, you wouldn't be against the attention he's giving you, but you had this underlying worry of any of the members walking into the kitchen to see you and jake in this position. you turn around to see a playful smile on his face, a quiet giggle leaving his lips as you step back towards him again. you press a chaste kiss to the side of his lips, and his hands instinctively make their way back to resting on your hips. placing your hands against his clothed stomach, you gently fiddle with the fabric of the shirt he was wearing. leaning in for another kiss, he whines softly when you pull away, a teasing smile playing on your lips.
"how about this waits until after the party, babe? then we can celebrate the new year however you want to~"
jake nods his head feverishly at your proposition, and you have to hold back a laugh at how quickly his guard had dropped. with a gentle tug to his shirt, you two go back to washing the dishes. the timing seems to work out perfectly as you and jake hear your names being called from the living room as you dry off the last plate.
"guys, hurry up, the countdown is starting soon!"
with an arm wrapped around your waist, you and jake make your way out to the main room. there was no space on the couch with how the members squeezed themselves together, so you two decided to stand behind them all, jake wrapping both of his arms around your middle. leaning back against his chest, you smile at the growing excited chatter from the boys in front of you as the clock slowly grows closer to hitting midnight.
as the countdown reaches 30 seconds, jake presses a gentle kiss to your temple and you decide to turn around in his arms, placing your hands against his chest like you had when you first arrived to the dorm. smiling down at you, jake leans closer to you, your eyes fluttering shut as you feel his nose brush against yours.
"make a wish, my love~"
the moment the clock strikes midnight, you hear the members in front of you cheering as jake's lips press against yours. you wrap your arms around his neck, pulling him as close to you as you can manage. people outside were lighting off small fireworks, the flashes of color through the window only adding to the atmosphere. pulling away, you and jake had matching bright smiles on your faces. you rest your head against his shoulder, watching how jake's teammates all high five each other as the eight of you ring in a new year.
pressing a kiss to your hairline to get your attention, jake looks down at you with a playful grin. you cock your head to the side in feigned confusion, despite knowing exacty what words were about to leave his lips as he leans down to whisper in your ear with another soft giggle, causing you to roll your eyes.
"so, how about we head back to your place soon and have our own celebration? we can start crossing off our new year's resolutions~"
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sunjakes · 1 year
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tysm for 200 yall i love u all sm 🫶🫶🫶
every summertime ; yang jungwon
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pairing: classmate!jungwon x gn!reader genre: rekindled love, fluff, university!au warnings: the littlest bit of angst (don't expect me to write actual angst much since i can barely bring myself to read it), jungwon is so unbelievably awkward, major won sunshine agenda, heeseung shows up like.. twice, not proofread, intentional lowercase word count: 1.45k a/n: part 2/7 of my song drabble series !! as soon as this song came into my head for jungwon, the plot came so naturally n i was very very excited to write this one :>
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you don’t think you could ever forget jungwon.
the two of you met not long after graduating high school, and you can safely say that the following summer was the best of your life. you had never felt such pure love for someone before then, and jungwon made sure it was worth every minute you spent together.
wandering through the city in the middle of the night, messing around on the empty playgrounds, it all felt straight out of a romance film.
at the mention of starting university, you and jungwon decided it was best to end your relationship before classes began, as to not juggle too many stressors. you agreed, but the following weeks you spent preparing for said classes to start felt like such a burden without jungwon's smiles to help you get through it.
you distracted yourself with friends and family, but nothing compared to him.
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arriving on campus a little early, you were one of the first students to walk into your calculus class. sitting down in a random seat, you mindlessly watch other students wander throughout the campus. the ambient chatter around you starts to get louder as more students trickle into the room, but there's one voice in particular that catches your attention.
you glance around the classroom, and your eyes widen when you make eye contact with jungwon. his eyes hold the same shock as yours, and you swear there's also a hint of relief and happiness in them too.
it feels like time winds to a halt, and the moment ended as soon as it began. you quickly look back out the window to try and prevent your emotions from rushing to the surface, and you can feel jungwon's apologetic gaze on you before he takes his seat.
"jungwon, what was that look about?"
jungwon's hesitates on his answer, his voice catching in his throat. he doesn't know the best way to respond — given you're within earshot of their conversation, but he's afraid to hurt you further.
"o-oh, no, it was nothing, heeseung hyung, they just looked a little familiar.."
you can only hear mumbles of the conversation between jungwon and his friend, who you can only assume is heeseung, but you don't dare to look back at them again.
not counting your mini staring contest with jungwon, your lecture passes by uneventfully. your first instinct once it ended was to leave the room as fast as you could, and that was exactly what you did. keeping your gaze to the ground as you get up to leave, you swear you can feel jungwon's eyes on you. but before he can even think to say or do anything, you're out the door.
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trying to clear your mind from the whiplash of seeing jungwon — you're unsure if you can even refer to him as an 'ex,' since your relationship only lasted a few months — you stop at a cafe on campus for some coffee after your last lecture before walking to a mostly empty park.
sitting down on a bench, you watch students and regular adults alike passing through, some walking their dogs or enjoying the weather with their partners and children. you shut your eyes for a moment and try to relax, basking in the serene atmosphere.
"...hey-"
the sudden voice causes you jump in your seat, startled as you whip around to see who approached you.
"can, uh... can i sit here?"
you watch as jungwon nervously scratches at the nape of his neck, an awkward smile on his lips. filled with the same shock as when you saw him the first time, you nod, afraid your vocal chords would fail if you try to speak. he hesitates before taking a seat next to you while still leaving some space, looking down at his hands as he fiddles with them in his lap.
after a few beats of silence that felt like an eternity, you finally muster up the courage to speak.
"won... why didn't you tell me that you were attending this university..?"
jungwon can't tell what caught him off guard more; the fact that you spoke in the first place, or the fact that you used the nickname you gave him when you two met during the summertime. looking over at you, he already saw your eyes on him, your gaze filled with a mixture of disbelief and sadness.
fighting the urge to close the space between the two of you, jungwon drops his gaze back to his lap. after a moment to find his words, he looks back up at you, his eyes apologetic and his voice soft.
"neither of us mentioned where we were going.. i never considered the fact that we would both attend the same school, but i should've told you. i'm so so sorry, y/n, i never wanted to hurt you."
seeing the tears welling up in your eyes, he doesn't waste a second to pull you into his arms, and you clutch to him as you break down into quiet sobs. with one hand gently rubbing against your back and the other resting on the back of your head, jungwon rests his chin on the crown of your head.
"hey, hey.. please don't cry, y/n, i'm so sorry.. i'll never do something like that to you ever again, i promise. please forgive me.."
mumbling whisper soft apologies and comforting shushes against your hair, he holds you to his chest until he starts to feel your tense form start to relax. your heavy sobs slowly turn to sniffles and shaky breaths, and it isn't for another few minutes before jungwon finally decides to pull away, his hands gently moving to cup your cheeks as he looks into your eyes.
looking back up at jungwon, his eyes are filled with genuine regret as he mouths another "i'm so sorry.." he gently wipes away the last tears staining your cheeks, and a sad smile finds its way to your lips. as you nod, wordlessly accepting his apology, he lets out a relieved sigh and pulls you into another embrace, fighting back his own tears as he softly presses his lips to yours in a long awaited kiss.
"i will never leave you like that again, i swear."
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ever since jungwon approached you in the park after your first day of classes, your relationship blossomed back to how it was the summer you met. months and months passed, and you were so glad to feel the pure joy and love you felt for him. however, instead of trips to playgrounds, jungwon loved to drag you to his dorm room — avoiding his roomate at all costs. he refused to tell you why he doesn't want you meeting his friend, so after a while, you just let it go.
coming back to jungwon's dorm after getting dinner together, you get dragged over to the couch to cuddle and watch movies. resting your head on his shoulder, he pulls you close and starts to play one of the movies you had planned to watch. turning to press a chaste kiss to the crown of your head, jungwon's eyes widen at the sight of someone else in the room, going unnoticed by you.
"jungwon-ah, who's this?"
the familiar voice startles you, looking over to see who entered the room.
"oh uh.. hey heeseung hyung..! i didn't think you'd be back yet..."
jungwon chuckles awkardly and you feel his arm tighten around your waist slightly, causing a soft laugh of your own to leave your lips. heeseung eyes the both of you with a suspicious expression, but when he looks you in the eyes, you watch his eyes glint with familiarity and a small smile make its way to his face.
you feel your face flush as jungwon wraps his other arm around you, pulling you closer to him. gathering as much confidence as he can, jungwon presses a soft kiss to your temple before looking up at his friend.
"hyung, this is y/n, my partner. we met the summer after high school. you probably remember them from the first day of calc.."
heeseung chuckles at the reminder and nods, responding with a quick "nice to meet you" as he wanders off, mumbling something along the lines of "i'll leave you two lovebirds be.."
looking back to jungwon, you go to make a comment, but he presses his lips to yours before you can get a single thought out. blushing lightly as he pulls away, he rests his forehead against yours before he moves to speak again, the movie he started already long forgotten as his entire focus is on you.
"i'll fall in love with you more every summertime to come, y/n."
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sunjakes · 1 year
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pancakes for dinner ; park sunghoon
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pairing: classmate!sunghoon x gn!reader genre: fluff, semi slow burn, strangers to friends to lovers warnings: intended lowercase, best friend sunsun and loser hoon agenda, a teeny bit of profanity from reader n a lot from sunghoon LOL, two v short mentions of food word count: 4.5k a/n: HAPPY VERY BELATED HOON DAY AND MERRY CHRISTMAS !!! part 4/7 of my song drabble series !! this one took me a lot longer to write than i'd like to admit ... regardless of my struggle picking a song and then getting out of writers block multiple times, i really like this one and i hope yall do too !! also go listen to lizzy mcalpine her music is seriously so good :>
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sunghoon had never been the best with words, and you knew that all too well. after meeting him for the first time, you entirely believed that he could've been a mute until you saw him talking to his friend - and your fellow classmate, sunoo. most people tended to be taken aback by sunghoon’s timidness, but you honestly saw it as a challenge.
something about park sunghoon intrigued you.
maybe it was how he stuttered and stumbled over his words for the first few meetings you two had, but you wanted nothing more than to make him crack. and sunghoon didn’t want to admit it to himself, but he fell for you at first glance. you made him even more nervous than he usually is in front of people.
once you and sunghoon got seated next to each other in class, you took it as your chance to put your ideas into action. you wanted to break sunghoon out of whatever shell he was in, and after a couple of weeks, you can safely say it was working. even sunoo was shocked to see the side his friend was letting out when he was around you.
you made sunghoon laugh and smile more than anyone had ever seen. watching his fang-like teeth poke out from between his lips when you made him laugh extra hard filled your chest with pride. his reputation of being someone cold and shut out was shedding more and more with each passing day. despite how the both of you were always seen as class pets, you started getting reprimanded by your professors for talking too much during lectures.
even though you and sunghoon got super close as friends in class, you didn't spend time with him much outside of it, much to sunghoon's dismay. his feelings for you started to grow exponentially, as did yours for him, but he couldn't seem to gather the confidence to actually ask you about making plans.
"sunghoon hyung, you're never gonna advance with y/n if you never try to say anything, you know.. what if they actually like you back?"
sunghoon groans at sunoo's comment, a loud thump sounding in his bedroom as his head lands against his desk. he knows that sunoo's right, but it doesn't make anything feel any easier. that 'what if' when it comes to you is exactly what's holding him back. if being friends with you is the closest sunghoon will ever be to you, he'd take it in a heartbeat.
"i know, i know... but maybe they just want to be friends. i don't want y/n to pursue me because they see me as some charity case.."
hearing a quiet scoff come from sunoo, sunghoon sits up to look at him, finding a pair of sympathetic yet intense eyes gazing at him.
"hyung, i'm not 100% sure what to say outside of this: i wish you could see them from an outsider's perspective. i don't think they took a random initiative to talk to you because they see you as some pathetic guy like you seem to think."
the response catches sunghoon off guard, and he looks at sunoo with a quizzical expression. the younger boy just sighs softly and shakes his head, standing up from his seat on sunghoon's bed. gently patting sunghoon's shoulder, sunoo begins to make his way over to the door.
"this may sound cliché and cringy, but i think you should try writing how you feel down... maybe that way, if you ever get the balls to confess to y/n, you won't trip over your words and turn into an actual charity case."
before sunghoon could even get out a syllable of a response, sunoo was out the door, and he was left alone to fester in his own thoughts. a deep sigh leaves his lips, and he has to stop himself from slamming his head against his desk again. looking to his right, he sees an empty notebook he had purchased for a class that he never ended up using.
you should try writing how you feel down…
the suggestion rings throughout sunghoon’s head, and he reaches for the book without a second thought, opening the cover as he feels his nerves flood with anxiety. picking up a pen, every single thought sunghoon has seemingly ever had about you completely flees from his mind. he stares at the empty page as if a love letter would just materialize out of nowhere and write itself. he sighs for what feels like the millionth time, his pen hovering over the paper.
"...how the fuck am i supposed to do this...?"
fighting the urge to text sunoo for advice, sunghoon starts to write the first things that pop into his head:
y/n, here's hoping you never have to read this, because i have no clue what i'm doing.. you make me crazy in the most amazing way i don't know how to describe. honestly, i never thought that you would come up and talk to me in class, but seeing you approach me for the first time made me so excited for the future. i'm so unbelievably glad you started talking to me. even though we officially met not that long ago, i feel like i can be my true self with you. i'm not scared of being mocked or judged like i am around virtually everyone else, and it just feels right. you make me feel right. just by being in class with you, everything makes sense. you barely have to move a finger to make me the happiest guy in the world, and i'm hoping that one day i'll get the opportunity to return that happiness to you. i swear your smile shines brighter than the north star, and i want to witness it for as long as i have the chance to. stay just as you are, y/n. your personality is by far the most beautiful and captivating thing about you, and it's what made me fall so hard. - park sunghoon
setting down his pen, sunghoon stares at the page he just filled, not even rereading what he wrote down. he instantly picks up his phone and sends a photo of his writing to sunoo, closing the notebook's cover so he can't look at the letter long enough to regret his decisions. he watches his message to his friend go from delivered to read, and the hesitation in sunoo's response starts to fill sunghoon with dread.
a minute or so later, sunghoon hears his phone ping, and he instantly picks it up to read sunoo's response:
"hyung, you are so down bad..."
with a loud groan. sunghoon's head drops down against his desk again, his phone falling into his lap as his arms dangle helplessly at his sides. not even bothering to actually respond to sunoo's text, sunghoon sarcastically mutters a comeback, getting up from his seat and leaving his notebook abandoned at his desk.
"you say that as if this wasn't your suggestion anyways, you dick.."
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sunghoon feels ashamed to walk onto campus the next day, paranoid that you would somehow manage to find out about his impromptu love letter. his rational brain knows that sunoo is the only person who knows—and you and sunoo have barely spared a conversation with each other—but school being school, he knows how easy it is for word to spread about anything. walking into the lecture hall, a quiet sigh of relief leaves his lips when he sees that you haven't arrived yet. he makes his way over to sunoo, rolling his eyes as the younger boy playfully nudges him with his elbow.
"soooo loverboy, when are you planning to confess to them?~"
sunghoon scoffs and makes his way over to his seat, muttering a nearly inaudible "fuck off..." sunoo just chuckles at his friend’s response, setting his book bag on the floor as he sits next to sunghoon. he gently pats the older’s shoulder, noticing how he’s trying to look everywhere besides the door to the classroom.
“look, i can tell you’re worried about y/n finding out. i will swear to you now that i won’t say a single word if you don’t want me to. i would never be the type of person to snitch, anyways; you of all people should know that.”
sunghoon’s shoulders slump as he nods in understanding. a stressed sigh wracks his chest and he threads his fingers through his hair, trying to keep his composure. as if on cue, his posture shoots up pin-straight as he hears your voice approaching the room. sunoo fights back another laugh, smiling knowingly as you make your way through the door.
sunghoon tries to ignore the butterflies in his stomach when you give him that bright smile that he fell in love with so quickly. whispering a soft "i'll take that as my cue to leave..", sunoo gets up from his spot and moves to another seat in the lecture hall, and sunghoon thanks whatever higher power may exist as you take the empty seat beside him without a second thought.
"hey hoon! since it's still pretty nice out, would you wanna go to a café and get some coffee after class? we could maybe study together, and even though it may still be school-related, i wanna see you outside of this setting for once.."
you motion to your surroundings with one hand and a pout on your lips. the endearing nickname you suddenly gave to sunghoon leaves him a little love struck to the point where he almost misses your question. he prays you don't notice the red flush to his cheeks or how his gaze instantly dropped to your lips as he responds—which you absolutely did and made sure to take note of—and he nods as he tries to collect himself to answer.
“oh-uh, yeah, totally! what classes do you need to study for?”
sunghoon instantly running with the study idea left somewhat of a sour taste in both of your mouths, and you have to hide the frown that fights its way to your lips as you ramble off some random class that you know you don’t genuinely need to study for. nodding nervously, he makes eye contact with sunoo behind you—who grins, giving sunghoon a thumbs up—and starts to turn his attention to the front of the room as he sees the professor walk in.
despite the awkward tension between the two of you, your lecture passes by uneventfully. you keep trying to steal glances at sunghoon, and he must have been attempting the same thing, because your gazes met on more than one occasion. you hide a smile as you watch his ears get progressively more pink everytime your eyes meet. you stand up simultaneously as your professor dismisses you, and as you look up at sunghoon, you swear a knife could cut through the nerves you could hear thick in his voice.
"so uh, y/n... i'll meet you at the café, right?"
you look at him confused, and you watch sunghoon's face blush bright red at your reaction. without even thinking, you reach to grab his hand, and both of you feel electricity shoot up through your arms at the point of contact. sunghoon catches himself staring at the way your hands fit together, and his mind runs with want to never let go of your hand. he noticed how perfectly your hand felt in his and fought the urge to intertwine your fingers, wondering if you were feeling the same things he was.
"what you mean 'meet me,' hoon? why don't we just go together right now?"
he wordlessly nods, and you two make your way out of the lecture hall, neither of you letting go of each others hands. sunoo watches in shock, and not long after leaving the room, sunghoon's phone buzzes. he checks it with his free hand, flushing an even darker red when he sees a text from his friend reading: "im sorry .. WHAT DID I JUST WITNESS?!"
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by the time you both walk into the café, you were no longer holding hands after sunghoon had gotten embarrassed by sunoo’s text. after choosing a table and setting down your bags, you move to head up to the counter but are stopped as sunghoon puts his hand on your shoulder.
“what do you want to drink? it’s on me.”
you look up to see sunghoon smiling at you, his cheeks dusted with a light shade of pink, and you’re awestruck to see the shy and timid boy you met just weeks ago slowly disappearing in front of you. he seems to notice you spacing out and says your name to get your attention again, snapping you out of your daze.
“o-oh, shit, sorry.. can you get me an iced oat latte? thank you so much, hoon.”
his smile just grows as he nods, motioning for you to sit down as he heads up to the counter to order for the both of you. you watch him in shock, trying to figure out what happened to the nervous sunghoon that practically tripped over his own words just an hour ago when you brought up the idea of coming to the café in the first place. after a few minutes, you watch sunghoon walk back over to the table with both of your drinks and some pastries, and you start to blush as he sets them down onto the table.
"i also got us some things to snack on in case you get hungry!"
you look at him and smile gratefully as he sits down, shyly mumbling a thank you as you take your drink from his hand. starting to get supplies out of his bag, sunghoon looks up at you confused when he notices you not move to do the same.
"y/n, weren't we gonna study? did you not bring anything?"
sunghoon looks at you shocked when your mood suddenly changes, sighing as you look at him with a scowl and a slight glare. setting down your drink, your frown drops and you look at him, seemingly annoyed out of nowhere, at least in sunghoon's opinion.
"park sunghoon, are you being serious right now?"
sunghoon just blinks at your question, growing more confused by the second at your sudden mood switch.
"d-did i say something wrong? what happened?"
you sigh again at his cluelessness, slightly rolling your eyes. looking at sunghoon dead in the eyes, you bluntly tell him of your intentions.
"i didn't actually mean to turn this into a study date, sunghoon. i just used that as an excuse so that i could spend time with you outside of class.. i only ever see you under those god awful flourescent lights in that stupid lecture hall, and it was actually starting to drive me insane."
sunghoon gasps softly as he hears the word date leave your lips, his mouth gaped like a fish out of water. you maintain eye contact with him while holding the same, slightly frustrated expression, and sunghoon blushes darker than you've ever seen before. you can practically hear the gears turning in his mind as he tries to take in what you said and come up with a response.
"a.. a date..?"
you can't help but laugh at his question, resting your head on the palms of your hands as you look at him.
"you really are clueless, aren't you hoon?"
successful in flustering sunghoon with your response, he breaks eye contact with you and drops his gaze to the table, awkwardly coughing and scratching the back of his neck.
"i... i was so excited at the prospect of hanging out with you in the first place that i didn't even realize you didn't actually want to study together, to be honest.."
you mimic his previous shocked expression at his sudden confession, and now it's sunghoon's turn to chuckle. he catches your attention by suddenly outstretching his hand to you across the table, and you look at him confused.
"give me your phone, i want another chance to redo this 'date' and give you the experience you actually deserve."
you blush at his statement and nod, pulling your phone out of your pocket and passing it to him. sunghoon sets his own phone down on the table and motions for you to take it, so you do, putting your number into his phone. he smiles and passes back your phone before getting up from the table, grabbing his coffee and his bag.
"text me when you get to your dorm, yeah? we can replan a better date before class tomorrow."
failing to come up with a verbal response, you nod, and sunghoon grins as he bids you goodbye, turning to make his way out of the café. you continue to sit there for a few moments, processing everything that just took place between the multitude of attitude changes and confessions from both you and sunghoon.
you open your phone to see sunghoon's contact staring back at you, and you smile widely when you see he inputted his display name as "hoon" with a penguin and heart emoji next to it. stuffing your phone into your pocket, you decide to start collecting your belongings to head back to your dorm. right as you go to head out of the café, you notice that sunghoon left the notebook he brought with him sitting on the table. you pick it up and start making your way back to your dorm room, making the mental note to text him about it and return it during tomorrow's lecture.
you had noticed that the cover of the notebook had slightly opened as you grabbed it off of the table, and seeing sunghoon's name printed on the bottom of the first page caught your attention. it looked like a sign-off to some sort of note or letter, and your curiosity got the best of you as you open the notebook's cover to read what it said in full.
y/n, here's hoping you never have to read this, because i have no clue what i'm doing..
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after reading that first sentence, you had to force yourself to wait until you got back to your dorm to read the rest of it. you instantly head to your bedroom once you return, and you rushedly pull out sunghoon's notebook again, your curiousity only growing as you were desperate to find out what sunghoon had written to—or about—you in this case. opening the cover to the notebook again, you sit down on your bed and start to read.
i feel like i can be my true self with you. i'm not scared of being mocked or judged like i am around virtually everyone else, and it just feels right. you make me feel right.
you start to smile at his wording, feeling various emotions flood in your chest. holding back your tears, you gasp at the next few lines he wrote.
just by being in class with you, everything makes sense. you barely have to move a finger to make me the happiest guy in the world, and i’m hoping that one day i’ll get the opportunity to return that happiness to you. i swear your smile shines brighter than the north star, and i want to witness it for as long as i have the chance to.
you feel your cheeks heat up as you blush deeply, and the last sentence causes you to tear up, suddenly getting emotional.
your personality is by far the most beautiful and captivating thing about you, and it’s what made me fall so hard. - park sunghoon
gently tossing his notebook in front of you after closing the cover again, you fail to fight back the tears as you begin to comprehend everything you've just read. grabbing your phone, you shoot sunghoon a brief text regarding his notebook, refusing to mention its contents as you wipe the tears covering your cheeks.
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“oh shit…”
hanging out with sunghoon again, sunoo's head whips to look at him at his sudden exclamation. sunghoon's face fills with dread and nervousness as he responds to your text, and sunoo looks at him confused.
"what's wrong, hyung? did something happen?"
"y/n has my notebook."
sunoo's eyebrows furrow in confusion, not understanding where the issue lies as sunghoon cards his fingers through his hair, a stressed sigh leaving his lips.
"sun.. y/n has the notebook."
as soon as sunoo makes the connection as to what sunghoon was referring to, his eyes widen, covering his mouth with his hand as if to muffle his response—to no avail.
"OH MY GOD."
sunghoon groans, his head falling back against his pillow as he covers his face with his hands. worried about how he's handling it, sunoo moves to sit on the end of sunghoon's bed, gently resting his hand on the older's leg.
"god, what if they read it..? what if they hate me now? i'm gonna have no chance now.. fuck, man, i'm seriously screwed."
"woah, woah, woah.. pause. you're running to conclusions way too fast, dude."
sunghoon lifts his head up, looking at sunoo with an expression that exudes 'are you joking right now'. sunoo rolls his eyes, nudging sunghoon's legs to the side so he can fully sit on top of the bed. looking at sunghoon with that same intense and sympathetic look from the day before, he starts to speak.
"this is exactly what i meant when i said i wish you could see y/n from a third person point of view. they way they practically beam at you? they don't do that for anyone else i've ever seen. they even basically gave you a pet name. people don't just do that for someone unless they're genuinely interested in them. if anything, you've definitely still got a shot, if not a better shot now, at actually being with them."
sunghoon just blankly stares at sunoo for a moment, not sure sunoo's telling him the truth or just saying this to make him feel better. slowly, he nods, praying that the younger boy is onto something. he sighs quietly as he sits up, running his fingers through his hair again.
"let's hope you're right.. if i just royally fucked up, i'm done for.."
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it's safe to say that when you and sunghoon saw each other in class the next day, you both were extremely tense, your reasonings being on the opposite sides of the same spectrum. sunghoon was stiff as a board as you handed him his notebook back, still petrified at the mental image of you reading the equivalent of his whole heart on a sheet of paper. you, on the other hand, were still processing the answers that said paper gave to you. his mannerisms and reactions when it came to you finally made sense.
the awkward "thanks.." sunghoon muttered out left you both cringing internally, hating the sudden atmosphere change between you. there was still some time before the lecture actually started, so the two of you decided to try and talk things out and settle the tenseness. sitting down, you and sunghoon turn your chairs to face each other, and you fight the urge to reach out and touch him.
"so.. the notebook..."
sunghoon was shocked to hear you mention it first, his worst fears beginning to manifest themselves inside his head. it feels like his heart leaps into his throat, and he looks at you with wide eyes.
"look, hoon, i read what you wrote."
oh no.
even though you called him by the nickname you gave him, the one that normally makes his heart race and his face flush, he can feel the beginnings of his heart starting to shatter. he dropped his gaze to his lap, holding back his emotions from rushing to the surface. you can sense sunghoon's distress, and you decide to gently rest your hand on top of his knee. you frown slightly when he flinches, looking up at you with glassy eyes. you slightly panic seeing his current state, gently squeezing his knee.
"wait, oh my god, sunghoon, hold on. please listen to me. i read what you wrote, and i can't even start to describe how happy it made me."
sunghoon isn’t fully sure how to respond. he was constantly dreading, waiting for the “i know about it” statement to stumble its way from your lips. however, the positive acknowledgement of his unintentional confession was the last thing he ever could have expected. looking caught like a deer in headlights, sunghoon responded with the only word his mouth seemed to remember how to say.
“what?”
you sigh softly and reach for one of his hands, which he’s fiddling with in his lap. as you intertwine your fingers, you can feel your heart practically beat out of your chest, but you try your hardest to ignore your emotions for just a moment. his eyes manage to widen even further until you gently squeeze his hand, letting him relax a bit.
"i know you didn't want me to see it, and i'm sorry i did. but please, don't be embarrassed or upset at yourself, okay?"
sunghoon was still seemingly confused at what you were trying to get at. he was so set on the idea that you were going to reject him to even possibly consider you reciprocating his feelings.
"what.. what do you mean?"
sunghoon watches you smile softly and starts to feel his worry start to completely fade away. there's something to your expression that looks different to how he's ever seen you. he notices an underlying look of love in your eyes, and sunghoon can feel the beginnings of his heart racing.
"i've liked you for a while, sunghoon. genuinely. i had wanted to talk to you for a while before i finally decided to do it, and god—i'm so glad i did. you're so incredibly kind, and just being in this class with you has given me a reason to look forward to tomorrows.
the way you're looking deep into sunghoon's eyes lets him confirm that you're telling him the truth, and the smile on your face begins to grow as you watch him start to smile back. sunghoon squeezes your hand lightly, and you have to hold yourself back from pulling him out of his chair and into a tight hug. with his thoughts starting to clear, sunghoon finaly gets to ask you the question that's been replaying in his head for the past few days.
"so, how about we redo that café date after class today? i'll get you your iced oat latte again, and we won't have to do any 'studying' this time."
sunghoon smiles as you nod, and your attention turns to the front of the room as the professor walks in. you both decide to keep holding hands under the table, and you respond in a hushed whisper right before the lecture begins.
"i'd love that, hoon~"
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