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Quite a few words about Now this house ain't a home

There are certain songs that break Hongjoong's heart. Turbulence, Enough, Dreamy Day. There is nothing quite as devastating as watching Hongjoong look out at the crowd [Did many people come? People will come right? What if they don't?] and realizing that all of us are here for them. He cried again during the first two nights of their new world tour "In Your Fantasy," when Ateez performed their latest song: Now this house ain't a home.

Now this house ain't a home is a special song. I think it's one of their best songs, period. There's depth and sophistication to the music and message that elevates it above most of their b-sides and title tracks. I can't stop thinking about it, and I can't stop listening to it.

This song lacks an introduction. You're dropped right into the chorus, as if the song actually began a while ago and you're only now tuning in. There's no bridge, there's no signature final thirty seconds of noise; instead, you have: chorus, verse, chorus, verse. The repetition is key. This song could go on forever.

Now this house ain't a home is also unique for splitting Ateez into two groups: four members (Yeosang, San, Seongwha, Yunho) sing the chorus and four members (Mingi, Hongjoong, Jongho, Wooyoung) sing the verses.

For the chorus, each of the four members deliberately make their voices sound similar, aiming for a low, rich tone. On a meta-music level, the song leans into the fact that Yeosang, Seonghwa, and Yunho's voices are often mistaken for each other. The first chorus is Seonghwa-Yunho and the second chorus is San-Yeosang. Then the final chorus snakes back: Yeosang-San and Yunho-Seonghwa for that final harmony. San is the one really reaching for that deeper sound, and it's almost shocking how much he sounds like Yeosang in the trade-off of their lines.

The first verse opens with one of my new favorite Mingi line readings, having him tapping into the melodic side of his voice that we rarely get to hear (All About You, Eternal Sunshine, Tunnel) but also deeper and grittier. I actually don't think it's a sound we've heard from him before. And while Mingi doesn't bother to adjust his voice to match his verse-members, it's remarkable how Jongho modulates himself to sound like Hongjoong. In fact, the first time I listened to this song I didn't realize it was Jongho on that second verse. Jongho and Wooyoung both bring a more rap-like quality to their vocals so there's a tonal consistency to the verses, similar to the uniform sound of the chorus.

Then there are the lyrics. Like all Ateez songs, there is a surface level reading for casual listeners and then there is the "deep lore" of the song. I don't necessarily mean World A/World Z lore — I mean, there's a meta-textual element to all Ateez songs, ever since Treasure, about how this group of eight are continually battling against forces who seek to end their journey. Their whole pirate concept is predicated on the reality of operating on the fringes of the idol music industry, and having to fight for every scrap of time, attention, and respect owed to them as artists. What do you have to sacrifice to live that kind of life? What does it cost you? Can you ever go back?

I've heard a lot of compelling and valid interpretations of the lyrics, and I'll offer one of my own: Now this house ain't a home is about yearning for a home that no longer exists and realizing that you must move forward to create a new home that reflects your values (humble and kindness). It is at once a deeply personal song and, on a much broader level, about the kind of industry they want to create for their juniors: the kind of industry that never welcomed them.

Here's Hongjoong's rap:

Still playing in the playground instead of having a real home (Yeah) Still holding onto childhood habits, a kid who ran from home (Yeah, yeah) Slides felt cozier than beds A sin of stacking up new homes without knowing the worth of the old A silhouette shining outside the window That voice echoing down the hall Even the TV we sat around on Sunday nights I miss that place that was just a “house”

Hongjoong has writing credits, so I'll start with what he's said about his lines, translated from a live by @sunshine_1117

"It's completely my memories and I think I've just told my story. I also reminisced about the old days: in childhood, I liked playing outside more than going home...and the slide was more comfortable than the bed. Now even if I build a house...the lyrics were the same as the lyrics we used to sing when we were kids, right? It's like 'I'll give you my old house, give me a new house' (children's poem), so back then everything that was new seemed nice, but now that I think of it...I kinda miss those (old) times when I could hear my family talking in the hallway and smelled food. So now, even if I enter the form of a house, it's hard to get the feeling of 'home' from back then...so while recalling those things, I wrote those lyrics."

Hongjoong has shared how lonely it was to be the only trainee at KQ and how desperately he fought for all eight members to debut. That was only the beginning of their challenges. In his members, Hongjoong has found a new home, but he'll always mourn the childhood he burned to pursue the dream that was Ateez.

His lyrics also remind me of the introduction to Golden Hour: Part 1:

"The moments of laughter with friends / Quiet family dinners / Relaxing weekends with loved ones /Could these be the real golden hours of our lives?"

Seonghwa felt similarly about the message of NTHAAH:

"I’m living away from home right? So this song touches my heart very deeply. There are times when I feel this way, when neither the dorm nor my family home feels comfortable. The dorm after all… still feels like just a dorm and at my family home, my room is gone. And it’s been like 10 years. so there were times when i wondered “Where do i actually belong? where is the place i can return to?” But now being with the members has become my comfort. actually it’s become even more comforting than home. But in the beginning I used to have those thoughts."

credit @vnteshwa for translation

Mingi also wrote his own rap:

The darkness that blocks my view From the outside, noisy voices judge everything Shrinking back, sighing with complaints Someone else defines my beliefs and values This place feels cold to me, so cold The whole world is dizzying, dizzying We need to break free to a place Where we can fully embrace who we are Tear the curtains and head to a new home of mine

Mingi hasn't yet discussed his lyrics but they resemble his verses on Youth and Autobahn, deeply autobiographical songs:

Youth

This complex world, no, it's my heart / That has a firm grasp on me and won't let go / Don't know the answers, my head hurts

On this night, night when even the moon cries / Please find it, somewhere in my heart / Is there a place I can rest?

Autobahn

Escape the oppression that drags you down heavily

The storm is gone now / There's no more fear

For Mingi, going back to that "house" isn't an option. That place, his past, represents anxiety, doubt, judgement. To find a new home, he needs to break free from the internalized fear and shame holding him back from being himself.

As for the other verses, I do find it interesting that Jongho and Wooyoung were assigned specific verses that relate to some aspect of their personal histories:

Jongho's verse:

"Are you still there?” Growing up without balance You came to hate yourself Where exactly Is it somewhere, yeah The sea of rest I must go find it

Before Jongho came to KQ he was a trainee for three years at a company that actively sought to diminish his sense of self worth. This company critiqued his voice, his looks, his smile, everything. When he signed with KQ he was clearly traumatized, masking it as exhaustion. He even ran away from the dorms for two weeks without telling anyone. He only returned after talking to a hyung who urged him to keep going. When he sings this verse, the lyrics refer to that period of his life, in search of a place to call home.

Wooyoung's verse:

So I set off across wide fields On an endless road The anxiety that comes with night Is a bitter taste that’s hard to bear I swallow it down, tears well up A sudden rain shower blurs my vision I endure one day, then one more Hoping that someday I’ll reach that place (Yeah)

Wooyoung's greatest fear is being alone. His lyrics refer to isolation, of darkness, but also of endurance. He followed Yeosang into the unknown and struggled as the last member of Ateez to find a place in the group.

Unlike some of the other members, Wooyoung has a very well-documented and loving relationship with his family, whom he sees often. He has a "home" to go back to. Yet, Wooyoung has always been his worst enemy. "Honestly, I still don't know how exactly to receive love,” he told us in 2023. His journey has been one of recognition that the love he gives so freely is reciprocated. He's gone so far as to tattoo it onto his skin:

"There is saying that I really love and it is also on my back (as a tattoo). 'I'm never alone and I will never be.' There are ATEEZ, my brothers, ATINY beside me. I think I'm really aware of this well." (Wooyoung interview, July 24, 2024)

Finally, we have the chorus:

That piece of me that never left Has much to see, to not regret What you're to be don't have to be You never know what's around the bend Mothers to daughters Who turn sons into fathers In time, we all get taller While sometimes feeling smaller

Now this house ain't a home No, this house ain't a home

I feel like the chorus is sending a message about predetermination and cycles and how it's within our grasp to break free of both.

Parts of each member are rooted where they began, whether it be the childhood home they bid goodbye or the place of fear and doubt they ran from to escape. They each hurled themselves into the unknown and with Ateez they've grown beyond their limits and achieved their wildest dreams.

And yet while they "got taller" the members remain bound to the system that birthed them: the industry, which continually seeks to undermine and sabotage their efforts - to make them "feel smaller." The "house" was never a home for them. It would never welcome them. They had to find their home elsewhere, in each other and with ATINY.

The family metaphor resonates: Mothers to daughters / Who turn sons into fathers. What do we owe to the next generation? What do we pass down? What lessons can we teach them?

To quote Turbulence: Wherе should we be, in what form /What should we become?

Ateez already paves the way as role models for idols from smaller companies. They have become the seniors they never had: encouraging their juniors' efforts, praising their covers, inviting them to do dance challenges. They've already done so much to create a home for the next generation of idols.

Do you think Hongjoong thinks about all that, as he looks out at sold-out arenas and stadiums, so very far from home?

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Iconic Clips Origins:

Topaz and YunGi dancing to Troublemaker

Yunho whacking Hongjoong over the head

"I'm good at all positions."

"Stressor Things"

WooSan cuddles

HoHong accidentally holding hands and Hongjoong giggling

"You can't eat them? But I already ate all of mine!"

Kingdom

"Then I will make you a baby"

"We are WooSan"

The Man of Ateez

Seonghwa getting all the kisses

"It's called Detergent Hwachae"

Jongho picking up Yeosang and draping him over his shoulders

Martial Arts Ateez

All the kisses for Jongho

Ateez vs Twister

Screaming in Silence

"You're watching other oppa?! UNACCEPTABLE!"

BABAM BABAM

Seonghwa slaying Chungha's choreo and Hongjoong freaking out for a hot second

*sings in... Spanish(?)*

"I just don't wanna see his face today."

San pushing up Wooyoung's chin & Wooyoung giggling super adorably

"Can you not move your tongue then?"

"Because Hongjoong has it here" *gestures at chest*

Baby Sannie trying to be swag

"I said your shoes are pretty, not you."

All the cheek kisses for Hongjoong

Wooyoung stealing Yeosang's corn dog right out of his hand

Hongjoong shovelling water into Yeosang's pants

SanSang recreating the pottery scene from Ghost

Wooyoung breaking a prop and Seonghwa hiding it for him

That time the Vlive froze and restarted right as Jongho started spanking Wooyoung...

Describe Ateez? Rainbow!

"Use the tongue as well!" (It's getting R-rated)

"We are Ateez! Babam Babababam!"

Yeosang and Hongjoong grinding on Jongho

Love Test

Hongjoong initiating a fight between Wooyoung and San

"Why are you biting the straw so sexily?"

"This was a gathering of fools"

"Shut up! It's shower!"

Famous Vlives:

Group live - games and chaos

ATEEZ x LieV

Seonghwa, Wooyoung, and Yeosang

The camping live

Seonghwa piggybacking Hongjoong

Ateez's 4th Anniversary

2021 Atiny Day

The Mafia Game live

YunGi

Hongjoong, Seonghwa & San

HoHong 2019

Matz ft surprise guests

2019 JongYoung

2019 Single Father Hongjoong

SanHwa ft Wooyoung

2020 group live

The Scream in Silence Vlive

2018 99-liners

The birth of "Matz"

WooSanSang ft Seonghwa

SanGi

Atiny's 4 birthday live

2019 Hongjoong, Seonghwa, Yeosang, and Mingi

Bonus Recommendations:

SeongJoong vs WooSan

Wonderland choreo ft all the props

Hongjoong and Maddox on Sing and Stay

Seonghwa reassuring an Atiny's mother

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Mingi appreciation post

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Yunho singing "Yeah I could be gentle but that ain't what you like" while looking and sounding like this... Stop the damn show

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Source: SBS 250622

© Crimsonzia (credit if use and DO NOT REMOVE WATERMARK.)

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大家好 我是徐明浩🤪🤪🤪

开玩笑呵呵呵

但我上个星期看到了我的宝贝Seventeen，现在还好想他们

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this did not need to make me bawl as hard as i did over the story

its so well written and planned out oml 😭😭

Algedonic

introduction pt. i | pt. ii | pt. iii

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epilogue - jonathan

soulmate!yunho × reader, wooyoung × reader

fated and marked, soulmates are supposed to be your destiny. you are connected to him by his heart and him to yours. but despite the cosmic or even divine intervention, you felt that he is not wholly yours. why is destiny so cruel to you?

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@paralumanniluna @ikonic-loser @joonsthethicc @kodzukein @mirror-juliet @linhyyboo12 @theaufanartist @petitchou-t @bbymatz @rabbitlashpink @meowmeowminnie @eternalssanshine @woo-stars @peachy-maia @cutie-wooyo @maddiebabyxoxo @jcngh0-hq @shyfear @dreamlesswonder86 @honeyhotteoks @kpopnightingale @shaininguu @babyjmm @starlixs @iknowyouknowlino @perfectlyspaceshongjoong @marsophilia @rubberduckieyourtheone @noonaishere @baguette-atiny @rdiamond2727 @diestheticu @atinct @hibuki-chan @ateezourstars @shinotani @blaaiissee @hwanchaesong @multihoe-net @seoulscenarios @potaeto-writes-on-wp @bluepoison1975 @kirooz @dear-dreamie @treasure-1117 @john-joong @heyimkay @starlight-channie @goldenstarmermaid

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Here’s a nice tread of Yeosang’s birthmark for anyone that loves it as much as I do~

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PHOTOS YOU'VE TAKEN OF YOUR BOYFRIEND ASAHI

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taglist: @bang-chan-my-man

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like king kong

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i think i got my freak matched

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Pretty boy

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Pretty boy

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QSMP English speaking fans:

I wanted to clarify some things because it seems like some of you are confused about the nationalities/ ethnic groups of the content creators on the server. So... If you want to educate yourself keep reading.

Spanish creators: A Spanish person is a person born in Spain. You may only call Spanish to the creators that were born in Spain.

Hispanic creators: A Hispanic person is a person whose mother language is Spanish but that person might not necessarily be from Spain (you may call them Spanish speaking creators as well but please don't call someone from Mexico, Argentina, Colombia, etc. just "Spanish". If you're gonna use it make sure to put the "speaking" in front of it).

For example: Vegetta and Quackity are both Hispanic because both of them come from countries that speak Spanish (Spain and Mexico). Quackity, however is not Spanish while Vegetta is.

Latin American creators: A Latin American (most of the time people just use the word Latin) person is someone who was born in the Latin American region (a series of countries with historical, political and social similarities). Most countries in Latin American speak Spanish. However, not every country in Latín America speak Spanish.

Brazil, for example, speaks Portuguese.

Therefore: A Brazilian content creator is Latin American but not Hispanic (because they don't speak Spanish).

EDIT: (This is very important).

Please refrain from calling people from Brazil "Portuguese" they speak Portuguese because they were colonized by Portugal but Brazil is an independent country)

Another tip: Latin American people are vastly diverse.

So, Latinos can be Indigenous, black, white, mixed. Asian, etc.

EXAMPLES:

Roier (from Mexico) and Spreen (from Argentina) are both Hispanic and Latino.

Roier and Spreen, on the other hand, are not Spanish content creators because they do not come from Spain.

Rubius and Vegetta (from Spain): Can be called both Spanish (born in Spain) and Hispanic (born in a country that speaks Spanish).

Rubius and Vegetta however, cannot be called Latin American (Because they were born in a European country)

Cellbit and Forever (from Brazil) are Latin American.

Cellbit and Forever, however, are not Spanish (they weren't born in Spain) or Hispanic (they don't belong to a Spanish speaking country)

Spanish creators:

Vegetta

Rubius

Maximus

Luzu

Hispanic creators:

Vegetta

Rubius

Maximus

Luzu

Quackity

Mariana

Roier

Missa

Spreen

Latin American creators:

Quackity

Mariana

Roier

Missa

Spreen

Cellbit

Forever

Pac

Mike

Felps

Lastly. I'm sorry if it seems like I'm over explaining.

I've seen some confusion and I wanted to clarify.

If you have any questions on any creator let me know.

(I'll leave a map I stole from the internet lol)

Again, I don't want to offend anyone, just educate

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what is the feeling when someone you considered to be your close friend (in a out of sch setting) slaps you and pushes you to act cool in front of his friend and refuses to talk to you until after his friend has left?

idk man i feel so upset yet unbothered but im bothered cos if i wasnt i would not be here on tumblr ranting about it a week later

for context im f hes m and im older by a year

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totally did not neglect writing for like 6 months

cos i forgot about tumblr

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some people think writers are so eloquent and good with words, but the reality is that we can sit there with our fingers on the keyboard going, “what’s the word for non-sunlight lighting? Like, fake lighting?” and for ten minutes, all our brain will supply is “unofficial”, and we know that’s not the right word, but it’s the only word we can come up with…until finally it’s like our face got smashed into a brick wall and we remember the word we want is “artificial”.