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Bonus Ponderosa Episode - “ I'm so over dramatic lmao.............. it's fine I'm a Gemini “ - Emily

During the late stages of the game, the jury agreed that they were missing writing confessionals, so a Ponderosa Confessional Link was established. Enjoy reading their late game thoughts!

this jury is so cute I love it??? A LOT???

I love... Anal Beads. But the jury tea is that if Amanda Lynn does not get voted out in the last few tribals, she will win. Like there is no scenario in my head where Amanda doesn't win if she makes final three. If they actually allow her to do that, they deserve to lose. Meanwhile, discount Amanda Lynn (Abbey) is going to lose and Goat-li T is still pretending he knows what he is doing. He thinks that he's this big player, but all he's done is coast and made bad game moves. It's ridiculous. Like get a grip and make good decisions. You vote out Mo? A person who had your back? He's so weak. I would never vote for him in the end, even if he did get Amanda Lynn out. That's the true tea.

Ok Raffy, bless his heart but he needs to stop talking over people

I love jury, it's so much less stressful than the game. But I'm really emo I'm not playing anymore. :-( I wanted to win... But we all did. And only one person can win. And it's only my first game! I have more opportunities to play and possibly win. But I love everyone in jury!!! Everyone is nice!!! And funny!!! And I love them!!!  It warmed my heart that they are were pulling for me :-) but now they're all pulling for Amanda Lynn, whom I stan so hard. Girlie is playing a great game. I'm proud of her. I want to see her at FTC so bad!!! With Francie and Abbey hopefully. I like them but I don't want them to win. I also want to roast the Gal Pals on the low key. Like a passive aggressive roast? It's fine though I'm truly not bitter and I wish the best for all of them :-) but I wish I was there. There are a lot of things I wish I had done differently, but it's too late to change now. Hopefully I will get the chance to prove myself later on, but for now I'll root for Amanda Lynn and hope my jury friends will vote with me. Also, Ali has a cool face shape. Ali, show us your jaw line.

"I love anal beads"

Alleyway was robbed during Athena 8. It's a fact. Alleyway is best host. What good bean. A tall bean. A way bean. An alley bean. An alleyway. I stan for Alleyway.

I just feel like saying everything that's been on my mind for the past week now...  Fuck William!!!! I'm still very bitter about him using the idol and I feel very stupid for not using my idol too. I could've easily gotten Emily out just like that, but I didn't. I'm not stupid, I knew she was better than me and I knew I would eventually have to get her out. I feel really really stupid for not using it, though. I'll never forget that decision. I don't know why I felt so secure going into tribal, but it never occurred to me that I could just get idoled out. I don't know why I didn't pull out my idol when Ali said: "Oh yeah Will stands up and uses his idol!" Anyways, Ali T. and Will are snakes and liars and they suck and they can go eat shit for all I care. I can't wait to see the look on their faces when one of them goes home tomorrow. You already know I'm going to fight them so hard when they get to Ponderosa. No bad blood, though, no bad blood. It's just a game, but in this game, they can eat shit! I don't know why Will had it out for me because I lied to him... once. He literally flipped on me and Raffy and didn't vote Ruthie out... that's such a dick move. Of course I lied to him, this is a game of lying and deceit... but you literally flipped on one of my closest allies and got him out. Also, really? You got me out? You could've gotten the biggest threat in the game out, but you're just a dumbass aren't you? Mhm, yes you are. Also, I can't wait to spoil Game of Thrones for you when you get out! It's going to be so funny to see the look on your face. It's just gonna be spectacular, fucking spectacular! I know you're probably wondering how I feel about Emily getting voted out. I'm really sad that she got voted out. I saw her winning the game. I saw her making it far. A few hours before I left, she told me that she was going to break the record for the most immunities won in the series. I was like girl, that's really the worst thing you can do. That puts the hugest target on your back. Yeah, I know you had a target on your back, but you can't just go out and win every single immunity challenge. That's not really how you should play the game in my opinion because obviously people are going to target the comp beast. That's what I think might be Amanda Lynn's downfall in the future. I love Emily with all my heart. She's my best friend and I'm very happy that you two put us on the same season. If you didn't, we wouldn't have ever met. I'm really grateful to have her and Toph and Raffy and Bryce and even Mo and Gwen. Everyone in the jury is really cool. I'm loving everyone so far which is why this game is heartbreaking to me. I love everyone in the jury and I feel like we all deserve a second chance, we were all so robbed. So, that's my tea for today. I didn't even type this, I'm speaking into my phone because I knew I had so much to say. I'm sorry if there are any mistakes, it's just my iPhone taking over and I am relying on how I annunciate, so good luck with reading this properly! I edited this, but it's almost 3am, don't judge me for errors. I also felt like being OTTNN5 for this confessional because in the immunity challenge, I saw people being ruthless towards each other. I didn't really want to do that during the game not because I didn't want to be rude, I just didn't want to come off as me bullying someone. After I read what Toph said, I think this confessional is juuust fine.

I will be very shocked if neither Will or Ruthie come in next. It will certainly benefit their winner chance if they got out discount Amanda Lynn so that Amanda Lynn loses the numbers. Also, one person has the idol. If it happens to be one of the two mentioned previously, then it would be almost a guarantee win if they are not with Amanda Lynn, So excited! Though if Ali comes in next, then I will laugh. Mo will say "I told you so." That would be hilarious.

I can't wait for Ali to play his idol (hopefully on Abbey) and everyone be severely shooketh. And I hope that I see Will up in jury tonight!!! Tonight shall be litty.

I am so excited for this tribal! Apparently things are HAPPENING in the tribe chat and I can't wait to see how things play out. I will be shook, and someone will play an idol. I love it! The drama? The tea? Here we go!

I AM SO EXCITED!!!!! I don't want to see Francie. I don't want to see Abbey. I want to see Ali, Will, or Ruthie. The thing that would be AMAZING is if Ali T gave his idol to Abbey/decides to play it on Abbey and then HE GETS VOTES!!! AND GOES HOME!!! The biggest mistake ever. I loves it. Jay and Ali M keep saying shit is going down and I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE THE SHIT!!! I'm gonna nut so hard oh my god. I'm devastated that I'm not there, but I'm so excited for another juror!!! I am lit. I am so lit. AHHHH!!!!

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164424815603/tribal-15-abbey-and-ruthie-tied-3-3-revote-tied

I'm so shook by this tribal. I cannot believe this would happen. Not only did they go to rocks, but Amanda Lynn was also exposed! If she doesn't go next, then she really deserves that win. Like she would be doing that. Also, an idol misplay, in front of my final 6? NUT. It's so good! I love every second I get to watch this unfold. Like I love the jury. Can't wait for Amanda Lynn to win.

The eclipse was a disappointment but at least last night's tribal wasn't! I was so lit. A tie. A misused idol. A revote tie. Everyone is miserable. Someone said they regretted voting me out ... as they should. Tribal went to rocks. The person who played the idol ends up going home. An iconic tribal to say the least. I just wish I was there for it :-/

But now that Ali is here in Ponderosa, I'm trying to make sure people don't roast him too hard. He had a lot of bad moves but he's a nice person and doesn't deserve too much shit. I've been thinking about playing more games but I'm too scared to sign up right now... I just feel like there's a hole in my heart I NEED TO PLAY ANOTHER GAME!!! I'm so over dramatic lmao.............. it's fine I'm a Gemini.

I'm gonna roast the fuck out of Will in FTC

Will won immunity! I can't wait to see Amanda Lynn come in next! It'll be so lit! I love this song!

I am really fucking pissed that Will won this immunity challenge. He's quite possibly the last person I ever wanted to win the final five immunity. This fucking sucks, he can't go home until least final four. I think this loss is what's going to be detrimental to Amanda Lynn. I really wanted to see her win, so I'm pretty disappointed. Unless for some weird reason Francie or Ruthie decides to keep her, I'm pretty sure she's going home. If, however, she can pull a trick out of her sleeve and stay in the game, there's no doubt in my mind that she's getting my vote to win. She's really smart and strategic and has won a lot of immunity competitions. If she can stay during this tribal where she didn't have immunity where it seems like it would be the best idea to go against her, then I will be very impressed with her entire game. She will no doubt in my mind have my vote.

I'm really happy about what happened with the whole rock situation, but it would've been better if Ali T. used it on himself. If he did, Will could've been rocked out. That would've been the cherry on top of everything... Oh my god, that would've been awesome because Game of Thrones wasn't on until an hour after tribal. I could've spoiled what happened in Game of Thrones to Will. I would've laughed really hard and I know that's a terrible thing to do, but you know what?? This boy, oh... This boy has pissed me off in many, many ways. Oh, so many ways... I can probably make a show about it... There'll be more than 13 reasons why.

The more and more people that come to Ponderosa (I mean it's only been Ali but........ ignoring that), the sadder I get that I didn't make a move when I did. I could've stayed a little longer had I executed the plans I came up with. I should've taken a risk. I should have. But I didn't!!! Oh well - I will play more games and take more risks!!! I can't just sit around and hope next game I play. I need to make things happen for myself. Also, knowing that Ali wanted to play his idol on me but didn't makes me want to vomit inside. I was so like so close to staying another round. Winning another challenge? Going to final five? Getting Amanda Lynn out??? Who KNOWS dude like!!! I just wish I was still there. But Ponderosa is nice because I just started school and I don't feel like I need to be constantly chatting and thinking up plans; I can just relax and study for the SAT. I am still sad but it's definitely less stressful. I am NOT excited that Will won immunity though. Will was the one I wanted to see in jury next. I do not want him going to final four NO I DO NOT! I would DIE if I see Amanda Lynn here next tribal. I cannot deal with that no I cannot. I don't want to vote for anyone else!!!!!!!! UGH!!! But also, assessing everyone's game post my tribal, things have gone to shit. That makes me think that voting me out was a good idea, just not at final seven. The Gal Pals sort of split up because they kept Francie in the dark over a plan she would've gone along with. Francie lost all trust she had for Amanda and Abbey. And before I left, I put lots of distrust for Amanda Lynn in Ali. He called her out for being a snake, misplayed his idol, got rocked out, now he's here. I feel bad. He's such a sweet person. I'm stressed about tribal tonight I DON'T WANT AMANDA LYNN GOING! But I also don't want Abbey or Francie to go. So Ruthie is the only option at this point. I want my Gal Pals to make it to final three together :-( even though they voted me out (Well, Francie didn't.) I still want to see them succeed. I love them! They're all such sweet girls and they're all worthy of FTC! Ugh. I'm nervous for tonight. I'm going to pray to the Survivor Gods that Francie, Abbey, and Amanda stay together and vote out Ruthie... But I'm doubtful. After Abbey and Amanda betraying Francie like they did, it will be hard for Francie to trust them again. Understandably so. And Francie is a smart girl and should know that she can't win against Amanda. Ugh. This is sad... I don't want Amanda coming to Ponderosa but I think it's inevitable. :-(

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164502055958/tribal-15-ruthie-voted-out-3-2-amanda-lynn

Ruthie went home! I'm so sad... This is like.... the worst. Why would they keep Amanda Lynn. She is literally winning!!!! Now she'll win final immunity and win. Though I don't want to vote for any of them besides Amanda Lynn.

Francie is me! Lmao! Will better fall immediately. Emily is a queen of taking out those who betrayed her. AMANDA NO!!! YOU NEED TO WIN. Bryce always being forgotten XD. Will is winning (eye roll).

Also, I do not want to vote for anyone in this final 4 besides Amanda LYnn. So she better pull through

I'm rooting for Will even though I'm upset with him and I'm excited what the final 4 have to say about me.

I'm going to go get my nails did so I can be flashy for the FTC

I would rather die than not get the chance to vote for Amanda Lynn this coming tribal... I'm so emo. I think she's going to be going out. I don't want that!!! Keep that away!!! I don't want to have to vote for Will. And like I probably won't anyway. It'll depend on the jury question and answers but.................. sigh. I just want to vote for Amanda so bad. She deserves it!!! Wtf!!! If she goes, she's robbed. She deserved to win. And I'm gonna be bitter if she goes. But I'll still vote non-bitterly. Just upset she's not there.

I haven't made a Jury Puzzle (tm) in a while. I'm gonna go work on one before I have to leave for rehearsal. I'm also excited for tribal tonight. >:-) I low key want it to go to fire bwahaha. That would be cute. But if Amanda Lynn lost... Not cute. Anyways, I can't wait!!!

Oops been not as active but I was happy that Ali came next but sad about ruthie. I wanted her in the f3 :/. But I love that the game seems to still be up in the air

I was legit shaking reading the rites of passage because I was scared of what they thought of me, and everytime I read a name I knew it was getting close to my own and ugsjshshsjssk so many emotions

Post-Rites. It makes me feel kind of sad and nostalgic reading those. Remembering everything that happened is such a trip and I know that this expierence was more than I could've asked for in a game from the Tumblr Survivor ORG community. This is my first time ever doing something like this and I'm happy that I've played and met the people that I did. I love everyone that played with me and the hosts were the best I ever could have asked for. Jay with her golden catchphrase "could not comment" and Ali's good bean personality really enhanced my expierence. That's my parents America. It's been a ride but I'd like to thank the hosts for ever even casting me. <3

SOOOOOO emo about Rites of Passage. Everyone was so nice—especially Will. He makes me feel bad about every single bad thing I ever said about him. Everyone was so sweet to me and it just warms my heart. I'm so happy. This cast is so kind. I'm just so so so so so happy. :-) I don't want to watch this final tribal. I don't want to see anyone go!!! They all deserve F3!!! UGH

Probably my last video confessional. Warning, I scream a lot. And this was BEFORE tribal. http://youtu.be/EMTgssAC8CM

#WillExposedParty! Amanda Lynn, the second true winner, may have been eliminated, but she spilled the tea! Will is, in my eyes, not a deserving winner because he literally said in the last tribal "I do not care if I win". Also, every time he has never made a new game move. He was lied to by Amanda Lynn and Abbey, but still trusts them!? I'm sorry that is not something who deserves to win. Francie is most likely due to her not getting a single vote this entire time, being always on the right side of the vote, and being a not so shitty gameplayers.

I'm  so proud of Francie honestly she has my vote right now I'm not sure if the FTC will either change my mind or solidify my vote even further. I'm not fond of Abbey's gameplay because in the chat message with Will and Amanda she sounded like she knew she want gonna win and she didn't care if she was voted out. And Will is Will so... I mean he said we can be mean?

Jury Roundtable: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ITz7tWn4uM

My favorite part about jury is being able to drag Ali T to the ground and not having to worry about getting his jury vote.

Queen Latifah

I have never been more proud of a final three!  If I was bitter in the slightest before I definitely am not now.  I am 100% voting for Will to win, but I will rewatch the broadcast because I missed some of it I'm pretty sure.  I won't be upset if Abbey or Francie win, I am SUPER proud and I want Will to win but I think everyone in the final three is super deserving!

That was a very fulfilling FTC in my opinion. Before final tribal council, I was stuck between Will and Francie. Now, I think I'm going to vote for Abbey to win (character development). I think from hearing about her strategy, she does deserve to win. Obviously, being a juror I couldn't see what she was thinking, but this tribal council really changed my perspective on her game. I really hope she wins. I can't wait to join the viewing lounge because I'm just really excited to be part of the community. I'm really grateful that I got the opportunity to join this. Jay, thank you so much for sending me the application. It changed my life truly for the best. I met a lot of great people during this game. I think I'm going to be friends with almost everybody. Thank you, Ali, for being a pure host. Thank you, Jay, for dragging me because I love it. Thanks to everyone that was cast for this game, I made great friends.

Ugh Im feeling so terrible I didn't mean for my question to throw will off! I thought it was kind of easy DSFKJDSFKDS. But his answer was still good! Abbey answered her questions like a pro and Francie, while nervous, still slayed it. Im conflicted on who to vote but still leaning towards will eeeeek

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bR1DMryhBLQ Thank you to everyone!

Zoe, you are truly robbed queen. I really can't wait to talk to you after this is over, you're really funny on Twitter. Aundra, you seem like a cool guy but I didn't really get to know you but hopefully will kick back in viewing lounge. Ray, I've actually really never talked to you. I'm sorry about that and again, I hope we can kick it in the VL. Toph, well shit got real because of you. You could've been a really great villain if you got far. I hope you get far in Atomic Survivor, though. Raffy, I hope you go far in Kuang Si. Stop dragging me and Emily pleathe and thank you. Ricky, oh my god you're such a sweet person. I can't wait to talk to you after this because I genuinely like you as a human being. Nayeli, Long Island queen, other than Gwen. I'm sorry that I voted you out, it was just because you had an idol. I hope we get to be friends. Ashley, we didn't talk much, but you seemed like a sweet girl. Gwen, oh my God I love you!! "Fuck I need to boil the sauce." I hope we can get closer after the game. Michael, your drags were iconic but they got you kicked out of the jury. Thank you for calling me a used napkin. Bryce, I love you so much you're such a sweet person. Good luck in the hurricane :). Mo, pun king! I love you, you're like the best person in Ponderosa. Emily, oh my God! Hopefully we can get on a game together and do this ride or die thing correctly so that we can get to f3 and I will win. I love you so much, you're my best friend here and you're really fucking sweet. Ali T., you're really funny and I know you think I probably hate you, I really don't. Don't come for Emily, though pleathe and thank you. Ruthie, you're a crackedt disney queen. You're awesome and I wish you were in final three. I really wanted to see what would you say in your speech. Amanda Lynn, you were robbed of not going to final three. I would have voted for you in a heartbeat. We wouldn't even need to go FTC. You seem like a really nice person and I look forward to getting to know you after this. Will, we've had our ups and downs, but you're really cool guy. I'm glad that we can watch the season finale of Game of Thrones together because the last few episodes, I was in Ponderosa. Francie you're a pun queen. You're awesome and I'm really proud that you got to FTC at your first game. That's an accomplishment that I wish I could've achieved... It's fine though!! I like seeing my fellow newbies get really far. Abbey, queen of getting my vote!! Wig!!! Your dog is adorable and I support you in everything that you do. Thank you for everything, guys, I really love all of you and I can't wait to get closer with all of you.

Okay so I'm gonna make a pro/con list because I'm still stuck. Will: Pro: Successful idol play. Won immunities when he had to. Was in the the know on a lot of votes even tho he wasn't in the majority.  Had good jury management with me. Had an idol played on him by someone else even if didn't happen for the smartest reasons. Con: Was a minority voter often. Didn't make a lot of big moves. Had bad jury management with Amanda Lynn. Doesn't know two facts about everyone. Francie: Pro: Was always in the majority except for the Emily vote. Had influence over some votes. Has great puns. Was very loyal. Con: Was very loyal and willing to go to the end  with someone who could beat her hands down. Abbey: Pro: Had a lot of control of the game with the gal pals alliance. Was always not the biggest threat with Amanda so had a shield. Had a good FTC showing. Con: Was willing to go to rocks and potentially go home against someone who had proven to be a competition threat. EEEEK IDK

Just voted and feel so sad I can't vote for everyone ;(. 

[survivorazores]

Ep. 16 - “Hi, nice to me you! My name is "I'm a fucking mess" “ - Francie

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164424993518/individual-immunity-7

The tribe minus Will hates me again so there's that!  I.... almost went home, that's so wild. I hate that Ali left, that was all just so wild I don't even know what to think now about it all.

It feels good knowing that my game is almost over, and that Amanda Lynn is gonna win this game even though she's never getting my jury vote. I would say more but I don't want to make anyone mad or upset and I don't want any bad blood after this game, but y'all can't preach "it's just a game" and then be upset when someone calls out your lies IN THE GAME like... that's a tactic I'm trying to rattle you and clearly it worked. Ruthie's the only real one, Abbey literally admitted she's playing for second which is just sad, Francie I still know nothing about, and Amanda Lynn like go have fun in the winner's circle girl. You deserve it.

I'm seriously considering if I want to even try for F3 anymore, or just like, flop and be voted out. I don't think I have a chance of winning anymore. And if I don't have a chance of winning, I'm not sure I want to keep putting the effort in to stay. It seems that everyone has wanted me out at one point or another. They all still probably do. If I'm such a big threat, why hasn't anyone tried to take me out before this? How have I been able to stay? Will is mad bc I told him I wanted to go to the end with him bc I like going with threats so its a fun FTC. Sweetie, if that were true, I wouldn't have voted Emily out. And also. I never told anyone I wanted to vote Ali out. I mean, I didn't want to go to FTC with him, and I mentioned like, to the girls, that I wanted to go to the end with all girls, but I never went to anyone and said, "I want to vote Ali out." So, lol, good job to whoever told him that, bc tbh, I've been considering going to the end with him, and its yours and hist fault that he turned on me and wound up idoling himself out. Oh the irony. And I'm not even sorry. To be honest, if I do get voted out, I'm probably going to vote for Francie. Girl has made it to f5 with zero votes against her, in her very first game, while she went on vacation to another country, won an immunity, AND survived rocks where she had a 50% chance of going home? Yeah, home girl is getting my vote.

WELL THE TEA IS that Francie put her ass on the line super hard just for little old me. Will, Ruthie and Ali voted for me which is fine it makes sense I get it. I really didn't expect Francie to do that for me. My heart is full, my crops are thriving, my skin is clear, Neville is the Cruiserweight Champion and Sasha is 4 time Raw Womens Champion everything is great! I came clean about my scheme to vote Amanda out to Amanda so since I spilled that to Will he has no dirt on me. I really think that me and Francie both have something to show if we make it to FTC, the playing field seems more clear especially since Will kind of shot himself in the foot when he popped off on Amanda. Oh well, I just want this iconic all female f3!

So that challenge? It's no Stairway to Hell. It's just Hell. That's it. Nothing else. If the solar eclipse didn't make me go blind, this challenge did. I set up a doc last night so all I had to do was copy/paste, but I hecked up once at the beginning. Everything else was fine, though. Even with that, I copy/pasted non-stop and it took me about 52 minutes so.... rip. I'm really hoping I get this bc I do not want to be voted out before Will... I would rather be last juror than go before him. I'm guessing that if he does win, the Gal Pals will just vote Ruthie, but I would hate for him to be here f4.... so like... can he just lose? [7:03:20 PM] Amanda Lynn: Anyway if Will wins immunity i'm gonna go jump off a cliff [7:04:09 PM] Zabbey Culpepper: rt [7:04:23 PM] Francie Liana: mood They think I'm joking, but I'm already looking up the tallest peak in Florida.

https://youtu.be/EJOOhaTWyiw

Welcome to that last challenge where the word “step” is made up and your emotional sanity does not matter.

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164465335358/individual-immunity-7-results

WELL it's been fun y'all I really think I'm the next to go and I'm not about to crawl up into Francie and Abbey's IM's, not tonight anyway but I think they BOTH know I'm the smarter option to keep this week.

So the highest point in Florida is a place called Sugarloaf Mountain. It's peak is 312 feet above sea level. It's about 120 miles and 90 minutes from my house. If I leave now, I'll have enough get there early, spend the day climbing the mountain, jump in the daylight, hopefully live, hopefully be found, and be able to make it back in time for tribal, just to be voted out. I know it's between me and Ruthie. I know that. The vote will be 5-2, either way. Abbey says she has no intention of voting me out. Francie said the same thing. But all it takes is for someone to sway on of them that I'm the biggest threat. I don't mind. I doubt I'll win the game anyway. But I just ask that if they do decide to vote me out. Just tell me. I don't want a glimmer of hope just to be blindsided.

Abbey said she was pitching to Francie why they should keep me. I appreciate it. But I'm not going to fight. I said my peace to them. I know Will won't work with me anymore. I don't have the option to work with Ruthie because I'm not voting Francie or Abbey out. I have nothing left to say to anyone. I'm just. I'm tired. And sad. I worked so hard in this game. I tried so hard. I had decent strategies. I played tough. I went against an ally, which is a big step for me. I've never done that. I tried to beat Will. And I have a whole tangent speech about that that maybe I'll get into one day. About how I agreed to work with him and then went back on it. I have a reason. But right now. I just. Want to cry.

Immunity? Feels nice :)

What's funny to me now is people who have spent the whole game lying and flipping and backstabbing not wanting to take out the obvious frontrunner at this point when they can it's like... I get that you wanna stay loyal to the alliance but are you really gonna throw your game away for that? After you've both acknowledged that you can't beat her? Like you're ok with flipping on me because you can't beat me, but because you've known homegirl over here longer you're willing to throw away your chance at winning? I mean tbh I probably will not win FIC, and I'll probably be the Kelley Wentworth of this season, and that's okay with me but it's just really dumb - not even sad, just dumb - watching people talk up how they don't wanna just bring goats to the end then do exactly that, or even worse let themselves be the goats. Amanda Lynn is not getting my vote in the final three, and that's not me being bitter, that's me saying that I genuinely do not believe she played the best game between her and Abbey. And I know all y'all will say I'm just a bitter juror but those? Are the facts! That's my opinion! I mean I'm gonna fight as hard as I fucking can to win tomorrow night and please the jury, but I really don't have much hope left. And that's okay. When I said I wasn't gonna bring goats to the end for an easy win, I was being serious, but if y'all wanna win in a landslide over people you yourself have said "didn't do shit" and if y'all wanna go to the end with people who will beat you in a landslide like... be my guest idgaf. And don't expect some fiery jury speech from me either lol that's not how I'm playing this game. I'm just gonna ask a simple question and expect simple answers, no showboating and no more games. There's no point in it, just be straight up. Anyways it's about past my bedtime and this game is literally just draining my life force at this point, I'll see what I can do tomorrow but there's literally no promises on that

Anyways my instagram bio literally says "eventual 4th place finisher on survivor" so like... the prophecy cometh true?

Amanda came to us last night explaining why we shouldn't vote her out now, because Will and Ruthie are close and would end up driving it to fire next challenge. While Abbey and I think Amanda is a threat, neither of us wants to go through fire next round so we plan on voting Ruthie out now instead. Amanda also told us to just tell her if we're voting her because she doesn't want to be blindsided at all. She left two alliance chats this morning so it seems like she thinks she's going home next if she's already preparing. At least, maybe...? I hope they're both telling the truth because I have no desire to wear a good made of sheep's wool. (I...got so carried away that I typed all of this in the name box at first)

Should I even campaign at this point? UGH. I think I really screwed myself over by telling Will the last vote what was happening but I don't regret it, I hope that Will makes it to the final three and that he wins this ENTIRE game.  Yes, he's been close with Abbey and Amanda but he has been my number one and yes, I did stray a little bit but idk, he deserves to win. If Will doesn't make it to the end I will probably vote for Amanda to win.  She has played the best game by far out of almost everyone (I honestly think that Will, Emily and her have played the best this season) and she deserves to win over me, Francie or Abbey for sure. I've had a fun time and I'm honored to have made it this far in this game, it's been a WILD ride and I've loved every second of it!

Well, Francie says she decided last night she isn't voting me out tonight. I made a pitch to her that next round of it comes down to fore between me and her, I'll forfeit, which I will. I'm hoping it doesn't come down to that, though. Jay hinted that final immunity is the pressure cooker with the cup, but she also said she was still thinking about it. If she does do that one, it sucks for me bc I know I won't win. But it's good for Abbey bc she has won it before. I just don't know how strong Will is so, I'm just going on a hope and a prayer here.

what even is this challenge what even is anything? anyway. amanda came to me, referencing what she said last night and said it was all true. she thought I was the swing vote tonight. she also said that if it came to fire between me and her, she would forfeit. she literally said she'd guarantee me F3 if I kept her tonight....this is the most surprised I've ever been by a pm im...wow. I really appreciate it, that's for sure. just, w o w. I told her that I decided last night I wasn't going to vote for her, bc that was true and it still is.

I really just wanna get this all over with, I'm too stressed for no reason and my computer also legitimately can't take it anymore lol - like obviously I'm gonna try tonight but part of me hopes I lose so I can just be over with all of it. Obviously I've had a good time but still.

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164502055958/tribal-15-ruthie-voted-out-3-2-amanda-lynn

LAST WORDS: I'm sad about leaving but I am glad I had so much fun and was part of what I think was a great season!  This was definitely one of the favorite games I've ever played and it was an adventure, I never knew what was going to happen next and I'm honored to have met so many of you!  I love my Azores family! <3 'crackedt disney queen' out!

Ruthie becomes the sixteenth person voted out and the eighth member of our jury.

So I made it through tribal. But I could not last longer than like 5 minutes (if that) in the pressure cooker. My arms used to be strong bc of puppets but they are not strong anymore. It's up to Abbey and Francie right now and I can hear Francie is struggling so much. I just don't want Will to win. Please, God. Do not let Will win. I'm hoping his phone falls and he loses. Ugh please.....

Friendly tip: on a google hangout, never put your phone into low power mode. in other news, fuck technology

File my phone screwing me over under Top 10 Saddest Anime Deaths.

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164504054993/final-immunity-challenge-results-will-wins

I literally cannot believe I won final immunity like what the fuck? How? When? Where? I really feel bad like I feel like I am not supposed to be here, it feels wrong and it feels tragic but I... I made it? I don't even know who I want the last jury member to be, because Amanda is the biggest threat against me at this point based on gameplay alone - I need to start preparing a speech and answers and stuff - but I also know that Amanda will eviscerate me if she's on the jury and I don't feel like dealing with that. I really hope they can all be objective about the game and see that I played incredibly hard and that my social bonds saved my ass multiple times but that I also controlled a bunch of the votes. But these fuckers gave me a run for my money, they really did. For my last game of the summer, it would be really REALLY nice to win. But if anything at least it was a wild fucking ride.

I...had the phone propped up vertically and then Amanda mentioned doing it horizontally and trying that is what was my downfall actually. :/

https://youtu.be/z9eEqkd5j6U

I can't stop thinking about that challenge. Can you believe that power save mode murdered the feminist movement?

Anyways it's dumb that people are trying to use the "it's what we really want" thing to guilt me into doing what they want me to tonight and I'm really not about it lol go cry to someone else I don't play like that

Let's break it down here: y'all are gonna tell me that I'm being shitty for calling Amanda Lynn a not genuine person (because she lied all game to me) and say that I can't separate real life and the game (including Abbey so tactfully saying that I shouldn't be playing these games) and THEN go on to say to me here, tonight, on this day, that you'll both be mad at me - no, that ALL the people here will be mad at me if I don't let them go to fire making because... of what? Because I made the choice that was best for my game? Like if you're gonna give out advice like that, learn to take it as well. There's no point in arguing since they will never admit I'm wrong unless it's in an apology intended to try and make me feel comfortable again so like give it up, it's over. If anything, talk to ya girl Francie she's the one who's really making the deciding vote here, don't be mad at me for trying to win the game after telling me I'm not allowed to be mad at y'all for doing the same thing.

So I lost FIC which is a real bummer. It was the only challenge I really had a chance at but I blew it, and it''s nobodies fault but my own. I went in too cocky and it blew up in my fave. Unfortunately Will won. It's not that I don't think Will deserves it, because he definitely does, he worked really hard for it. It just sucks that we can't have an all female final 3. The series is based on female empowerment and inclusiveness and it would have been a really good story but oh well. I dont begrudge Will for it. Now we have to figure out what to do. Me and Amanda want to go to fire, because neither of us want to vote the other one out. We've come too far together to turn on each other now. There's no fucking way I'm voting for Francie after she went to rocks for me so our only option is fire. Francie and Amanda vote for me, I vote for Amanda and we hope Will votes for me. He might vote for Amanda which would suck. He's not getting any of our votes no matter which of us go and he thinks Amanda would be his best bet to send home but he can't make that happen on his own so idk what hes gonna do

Will suggested that Amanda and Abbey are trying to spilt the votes and send me home rather than their fire plans. I trust A&A but now I'm lowkey paranoid and idk what's gonna happen tonight. I'm gonna go finish my dinner. It's cronch time.

Hi, nice to me you! My name is "I'm a fucking mess"

It's a lose-lose-lose-lose-etc. situation: I go to fire, Amanda probably makes it to FTC and probably wins somehow. I vote Amanda out since Francie really doesn't see through my plan here and Amanda goes to the jury and tells them all not to vote for me and I have to do major damage control. I don't go to fire and regardless of who goes home they all hate me for not giving them what they want when I literally don't owe anyone anything. The only people I owe are royalty Ali T and Ruthie for staying completely loyal to me through this whole mess, and those are the facts! Anyways no matter what I do tonight Amanda's gonna make it difficult for me to get jury votes so... time to work on a speech kids!

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164538868783/rites-of-passage

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164542328888/final-four-tribal-council-abbey-and-amanda-tied

LAST WORDS: https://youtu.be/0_Jjw-sfxY8

Amanda Lynn becomes the seventeenth person voted out, and the ninth and final member of the jury

So, that happened. I wasn't sure Will was even going to push for fire making but he ended up doing it and Abbey won. Amanda messaged us in the alliance chat and said she was giving up because she didn't want to sit next to FTC with Will. Gosh, my stance on Amanda has sure flipped around a lot this game. She's been one of my closest allies and yet there's been times, like just recently, where I wanted to vote her out because she was the biggest threat to winning this game. At the same time I've wanted to stick with her because we were allies for so long. It's been too back and forth so I just have to say it for the record that I have loved playing with Amanda and I wouldn't change that for anything etc.

That moment when you're in the final three when you didn't even think you'd make merge coming into this game.

Honestly Amanda can stay pressed, she wants to act like the victim then like go for it but honey if you're gonna try to bully me into a fire making challenge (you got your wish!) and lie to me and everyone else repeatedly don't expect me to go silently into the night, I will expose you for who you are. If I win, then woohoo I did it yay congrats Will, people will be pissed. If I don't win, then like literally whatever lol.

My strategy going into FTC is just to be honest but still try to “sell myself” without getting arrogant about it (though I don't think I actually have the capacity to do that). I think my odds of winning are about the same as Abbey's and Will's so, yea. We'll just see how those forks fall.

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164577346023/opening-statements

This game has honestly been so great up until these last few votes... I don't know what made it get so ugly but I really don't want to be remembered as the villain who's villainy came from being a bully, not from my strategy. Because I really don't think I've been a bully and I hate that people are going to try to paint me that way just because I stood my ground. I don't think I'm winning this game which is a bummer because it's both one of the best games I've played (in terms of my gameplay and like...the production and structure of the game) and my last game for a while, but hey like I had fun. I made it to the end with two people who I would love to see win, and we all agree that each of us deserves to be here. 

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164621763838/final-tribal-council-the-jurors-votes-for-the

That could've been a lot worse tbh like I'm really looking forward to talking to all of these jurors later on with a couple notable exceptions (we won't say who but we all know who) and like, I don't expect to win but I don't think it'll be a landslide vote, but then again who knows. 

I'm going to miss Ali sending this confessional link so damn much. :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((. Bigger tragedy than a n y t h i n g Shakespeare produced.

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164649993333/winner-reveal

FINAL THOUGHTS: How did I actually win? I'm literally floored. Tfw when you bullshit half the game and manage to win??????? I, uh, yeah. Only n00b to make F3 and I won. Wow.

With that, Francie becomes the winner of Survivor Athena: Azores by a 4-2-2 vote, with Abbey and Will becoming the joint runners up. During the winner reveal, Emily was announced as Player of the Season and Mo/Ruthie were announced as Fan Favorites after a community vote. Congratulations to all of them and thank you to the whole cast for an amazing season!

[survivorazores]

Ep. 15 - “Surprise! Everyone's a snake!” - Will

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164349795498/individual-immunity-6

I'm genuinely so sad that Emily left because she was probably one of the most genuine and nicest ones in the game, we were definitely on different sides after the Amanda G vote but she was never mean or anything. She easily would've won and I'm just hoping those two votes against me weren't any sort of warning... I wanna see how this next vote will turn out because this could be when Ruthie leaves and I need to make sure I can clear myself in case of a bitter jury. We'll see how this goes though.

My best plan here could be to do exactly what Ruthie did for me, go to her (if she doesn't win immunity) and say "If you have an idol, play it tonight - there's nothing I can do" because if I didn't have an idol and had gone home, I wouldn't have been mad at Ruthie at all, or at least if she had been trying to blindside me I wouldn't have known. That could backfire on me if she leaks it back to the others and they realize I'm playing both sides but... I won't know until I try. And I shouldn't worry about it too much until the challenge is over.

I feel so bad for Emily, she is the true robbed queen of this season and she should have won this game. Voting out people who honestly deserve to win is the hardest part of this game.

I'm so fucking naive. 4 hours of sleep does not, in fact, make the fact that everyone lied to you go down any fucking easier. Just....Emily didn't say “jump” and I didn't respond with “how high?!?!” Jesus fuckingn Christ but that's what people thought of me. Guess I really was just sucking on her teat all along. Big hearty shout out to Michael for leaving that in everyone's mind. Sure we joked about his last words but they didn't not make an impression ffs. You'll get your full video confessional when I'm in the states but until then just have this because it's a pretty good summary of what getting blindsided and lied to by the only people you trusted feels like. (Also, gimme an OTT edit if you must this round idgaf. If I go off enough in the video maybe there will be some good lines from it. Who knows) http://jaxxgarcia.tumblr.com/post/159167820182/when-he-plays-u-and-u-feel-like-a-clown

I've been just following whatever my main alliances says way too much. Well, fuck that. My strategy discussing votes with others was to just let them talk and I'd agree or direct them to something. It all feels way too passive and in fucking done with that. Being lied to by literally everyone really makes you reevaluate how you've been playing the game.

So my game might be about to take a drastic turn! I came into this game knowing i wanted to play with Amanda. But ive been basically rolling with her this whole time and I've been with her 100% for every vote weve been on. But since Emily left and Francie came to her realization that everyone thought of her as Emilys goat that I realized that I am essentially Amandas goat. It's no fault of hers, its just been me not being a strategic player, which I never have been. I get by on social game and admittedly that has been sub par this game. So the only conceivable way I could win is if Will and Amanda go home. I feel terrible but me and Francie can only win against each other and Ruthie or Ali. deep sigh. i adore amanda with my entire heart and she deserves to win this game, but if she gets to the end she wins 100% and I cant in good conscience let Francie go to the end with her without trying to get her a win.

me, two hours ago: I am SO fucking pissed about this blindside I'm forgiving no one. me now: I've eaten, had time to think about this logically, I'm calmer and I feel like I've been involved in more gameplay discussion today than I have been all trip.

Francie literally hasn't spoken more than 5 words in PMs to me this entire game and now after she's been blindsided she's gonna sneak up into my messages saying we should talk I just... what's the point? Unless if you're gonna provide me concrete, clear facts and quotes telling me that my allies are sneakier snakes than Russel Hantz I don't want to buy what you're selling. Period.

Tbh the worst part about it being down to the final 6 is that there's literally nobody to talk to anymore since Abbey/Amanda aren't online and we usually only talk strategy/memes, Ali is (I love you but) impossible to talk to for more than five minutes, I've barely ever spoken to Francie until now, and Ruthie's just like such a pure queen but I need someone in this game who doesn't want to talk about the game for like five seconds like is it over is it done yet

https://youtu.be/5d3dUxIrntQ

Here's how it would go for me ideally: we 3-2-1 with Francie being the target, and Ruthie being the 2 so in case of Francie playing an idol then Ruthie goes home and I can be 100% absolved of any blame. Then at F5, depending on who wins immunity, of course, we vote out Ruthie and I play the "there's nothing I can do!" card and hopefully it doesn't blow up in my face and worst case scenario Ruthie blows things up but doesn't ruin my game since she'll be more nervous about the girls than about me. THEN at F4, unless Ali pulls a miracle and wins, we unanimously send him home. In the case of him winning, the girls will probably turn on me but I'm sure I can convince Ali to stick with me since he thinks we're in such a tight alliance, so what'll happen is a firemaking between me and one of the girls which could screw me over but... it's a 1 in 4 chance of us losing final immunity and it better not fucking happen. Anyways I see my path to FTC very clearly right now and I'm going to win this shit.

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164385869108/individual-immunity-6-results-with-5-correct

Currently I'm feeling like I'm Amanda Lynn's goat so.... she's gotta go when she doesn't have immunity.  Will has been my number one throughout this entire game and it sounds like he's trying to turn on me after getting off a call with Amanda Lynn so hmmm interesting we'll see about that.  We're at a place now when it's every survivor for themselves and if I'm playing it smart the best options for me to sit beside at the end are Ali and Francie, bless their hearts.  I mean yes they will both probably still beat me but I think I could make a good case next to either of them whereas Amanda would win- she's social, strategic and has made most of the moves in the game, Will is super strategic and would win and then we have Abbey who I think would win also, she's strategic too. I don't know what I'm going to do but we'll see soon.

https://youtu.be/T9oCLchv-3U

EXTRA DETAIL: Here were Emily’s thoughts after her conference with Amanda

I just ended a call with Amanda Lynn and I am so happy that girl was the one that won the call!!! I wouldn't have been able to say as much to anyone else. I'm pulling for her to win. And I'm so happy she cleared up my tribal and told me that Francie was in the dark. That was the only thing about my tribal that I didn't like... that I didn't know who voted with me, though I was 90% sure it was Francie before the call. I was completely honest with Amanda Lynn, I told her all the stuff I told Ali before I left as a last ditch effort to save myself, and I told her that I told Ali to talk to Francie should I leave that night. She won the immunity and I am so happy!!! She also told me that Ali was the one that had the idol UM WHAT!!! I was shooketh! And he's using it this tribal because, you know, it's his last opportunity. I think it would be most beneficial for Amanda Lynn's game if the idol was played on Abbey tonight just to ensure that she has Ali and Abbey with her in final five. I need Amanda Lynn to win all of these next few immunities because I don't want to give my vote to anyone else!!! The girl deserves it. Also I told her I was gunning for her should I have stayed another round, and she laughed and told me she's glad she got me out when she did. She was genuine about the Gal Pals final four up until I proved to be a very worthy competitor, and I really respect her game for taking me out. She told me it was so hard, especially because I kept saying how nervous I was all day. Which means my guilt tripping WORKED........ sort of. I still got voted out. But at least they felt bad. Ugh, but I really hope the best for that girl. I told her pretty much everything about these past few rounds and how I was in an alliance with the INFPs and how the "friend" I was referring to in my competition confessional (#2) was Bryce. I hope that we can be friends after this game. I think she's such a sweet girl and I admire her gameplay. I was an Amanda Lynn stan before this call, but now I'm her NUMBER ONE stan. Team Amanda Lynn!!! If I can't win, I want her to win. She has such a good read on the game and I trust that she'll make the best moves for her to get her to FTC. I'm nervous because if she doesn't win immunity, she might get booted like I did. She has a target and she's an obvious winner. We both agreed that we knew the winner would either be her or myself. I think I have acknowledged some mistakes that I made in this game and I will use them to better my future games! I'm really thankful Amanda Lynn decided to call me and talk through everything. Especially because I got to write another confessional. Yay! But I think I've said nearly all I wanted to say... So, farewell, confessionals. It was nice getting to write you. <3

I kinda regret not playing the idol on emily but like I kinda don't either it just adds to my survivor resume I feel like people don't see me much as a threat which is a really good thing because they have a long way coming, Amanda is running this game she tells me to do everything and I feel like I'm being used on top of that she's shady I mean she's a good person and I like her but she's way to much of a treath if she finds out I'm a threat she's gonna vote me off so my plan? Vote off her little sidekick Abby ;) I hope I don't dig my self into another hole I have an idol but I need to be slick and I wanna play the idol on will so it will be a 3-0 vote or a 2-0 vote I'm ready for these fireworks to erupt everywhere also I'm searching for a new job and at Orlando so sorry if I can't make live tribals but yassss I hope abbey leaves and then we can blindside Amanda Lynn and then will final 3 with myself Ruthie and Francie :) I'm so ready I'm shaking in my boots

Okay so trying to pick up where I left off in my last confessional. I've been thinking a lot about what Emily told me in our conference call. She seemed genuine when she told me she was rooting for me. But I can't help but wonder if she was telling me some things to get me to get Francie to the end so she can rally votes for her. idk I'm gonna try to not worry about that right now My main focus is getting me and Abbey as far as we can go together.. I'm still a little worried about Francie not trusting me. We had a conversation this morning and she said, "I won't lie, its a little harder now, but I still trust you." So I'm at least glad for her honesty, and I'm gonna do whatever I can to get her to trust me.  I told her about Will's 3-2-1 plan in case of the idol. There isn't much else I can tell her expect that I know where the idol is, and I can't tell her that right now because I need Ali to truly believe I didn't tell anyone about the idol so he does what I want him to do with it. "What do you want him to do with the idol, Amanda?" Well, it's simple, kids: I want him to play the idol on Abbey. After talking with Emily, I feel like the others are going to try and take a shot at Abbey because she is my right hand man, my Alexander Hamilton, if you will. And since they can't get me right now because I'm immune, they will try to go after her. I'm trying to get Ali to believe that me, him, and Abbey are a tight 3, and after tonight, we will have majority and can do whatever we want. But, we all need to get there. I told him that nobody has mentioned his name ever. Nobody is trying to target him, so if he plays his idol on himself, the jury could see it as a waste. But if he plays it on Abbey, the jury could see it as a big move (Something he is severely lacking in this game, minus the Amanda G vote). And he... agreed.... He said he was going to play his idol on Abbey. What? Is this real life? Did I actually convince him to do that? I guess I'll find out tonight at tribal. But if he truly does... then whew.... I will be shook at myself. Hopefully tonight goes as planned and Will goes home. Hopefully...

Oh come on like - duh, of COURSE I've heard about the vote what makes you think I wouldn't have heard about the vote by now there's literally 6 people left in this game

Surprise! Everyone's a snake and turns out that when I make f3 deals with people I need to be more careful! Ruthie is really the only real one left in this game huh?

Here's some tea, I let it slip to Will about what Amanda told me and now the three of them are in for a wee bit of trouble hehe. The smartest moves now are to get out Abbey then get out Amanda or Will who wasn't going to tell me about the 3-2-1 vote. Ali and I can pit them against each other and hopefully he, me and Francie can sail to the end!

Anyway Ruthie is just as bad as Ashley and cant keep her mouth shut and Ali is a snake and I'm screwed either way bc I highkey dont think Francie is actually going to vote with me but I can't wait to be voted out next round. Thank you, Will and Ali, for making me cry for the first time this game.

I really almost got played but I may have just Michele'd my way into having the best social game of all these snakes. I really have people willing to put their own games on the line and tell me that I'm the target? Like...nut? What did I do to get in this kind of game position? Sure Amanda thinks I can't separate the game from reality but like maybe that's what happens when you pull someone so deep into a promise you never intended to keep? It's just funny how people will yell that IT'S JUST A GAME but not be able to see it for themselves. I mean I know I'm not going home tonight but still, wowwwwwwww!!!

everything fell apart, amanda is crying, will is being mean and i wanna take a nap. the girls r voting for ruthie i guess ali might be idoling will idk its a big mess. everyone is sad and mad or oblivious (ali). An hour ago i was ready to be the bitter juror but now im gonna be the apathetic juror bc im just so fucking tired of all this bullshit deep fucking sigh

Pre-Tribal: https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B7aU3uBdz8F2bkdvNDBYR1hOZDQ/view?usp=sharing Post-Tribal: https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B7aU3uBdz8F2X3JCQjV3NV8xbWs/view?usp=sharing Also what I forgot to mention at the end of it was that we changed our vote from Will to Ruthie because she was running her mouth to Will and that's what started the shit that went down before tribal

NOTE: These confessionals are both discussing the events pre-tribal, it just so happened that tribal interrupted the confessional. Francie has a separate confessional coming in the following episodes discussing the rocks

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164424815603/tribal-15-abbey-and-ruthie-tied-3-3-revote-tied

LAST WORDS: This game has been amazing honestly I never thought I would've made it this far if I had pulled that move off I would've won the game I swear it to you but it's all good I hope I get to play again. :)

Ali T becomes the seventh member of our jury, and the first person rocked out of Survivor Athena: Azores (sixth place)

[survivorazores]

Ep. 14-  “#NotTotallyAnEmotionalMess“ - Emily

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164275878478/individual-immunity-5

ugh I feel bad about that. he was such a good kid :(

I'm so pissed. Soooooo pissed. Go Mo for realizing he's going then calling me out and ruining my already ruined game. I guess I have to play my ass off in this comp huh! Not cute at all. If I lose, I go home. Unless I can turn the tables on Amanda Lynn. I'm not sitting around and doing her dirty work anymore! Also, pissed because three of my frickin video confessions have yet to upload. I'll work on that. But just know I'm not happy at the moment.

Six guesses total, will this be the challenge I FINALLY win?  Or will queen Emily win AGAAAAAIN?  Find out soon on Survivor Azores! I think six guesses isn't bad, I usually suck at this challenge but this time I like made a spreadsheet and stayed organized so i wouldn't make any simple mistakes.

I literally have an f2/f3 agreement with more than half the remaining cast at this point and that's either gonna go well for me or blow up in my face, because we're reaching a crossroads where I'm gonna have to turn on one alliance, whether it be taking out Ruthie next vote, flipping on Amanda/Abbey at some point, or voting out Ali whenever it comes to it so... There's a very real chance that I'll be seen as too much of a follower but I really hope that I can show my social game saved me and my allies multiple times throughout the game and that the people I turn on, whoever it ends up being, won't be too bitter with me. Also this interaction just took years of my lifespan Ali wtf [8/16/17, 11:28:34 PM] Ali  TAnveer: We should def stick together [8/16/17, 11:28:40 PM] Ali  TAnveer: Till the end [8/16/17, 11:30:05 PM] Will: yeah? im into it [8/16/17, 11:30:44 PM] Ali  TAnveer: Into what :o [8/16/17, 11:31:00 PM] Will: …sticking together [8/16/17, 11:31:34 PM] Ali  TAnveer: Sticking what together [8/16/17, 11:31:52 PM] Will: .

I'm not confident in my Mastermind score in the slightest. I have a feeling I'm going to lose this one. This was the one immunity I really knew I needed. I'm so worried that I'm going home this round and it's really frustrating. If things are looking grim, I'll try my hardest to get Amanda Lynn out, though I feel that it's only smart to go after her when I'm immune. I need to start doing some damage and destroying her reputation to get the numbers. I know Mo just called me out last tribal and it'll be hard for me to convince people that Amanda is going to win over me, but I'm going to try. I need her out. And I'm pretty sure this is my last round if I don't. Wish me luck.

1. http://youtu.be/mMp32kOZIWk 2. http://youtu.be/VhVyp9ah-84

Have you ever wanted to die so much? Someone has the fuckin idol and ... I just want to die. So much death. I yearn it. I truly thought... I truly thought we would find it. I love being optimistic and naive. I love being Boo Boo The Fool. I just love it. I just love how things are not working out for me. I just love how I know that, at this point, if I don't win competitions I'm 1.) getting voted out or 2.) getting idoled out. Final Tribal Council... I wish I could have the pleasure to get to know you... its_just_not_realistic.gif

So we've had an idol doc with a running list of all the spots we've searched. Somehow it managed to be in the last spot we searched and it was gone alsjdhskals. We looked high and low and all we got was disappointment. Today has been a mess but at least the fish I had for dinner was good.

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164304312123/immunity-results

Bwkwbwkwbwkwnwj what a turn of events. Neither myself or Amanda won/tied??? Interesting. I'm pulling for Abbey so hard. I'm just hoping the Gal Pals don't turn on me like I'm about to in final six... lol. Sticking with them this round because it's very risky. I came up with a plan to split the votes 3 Will 2 Ruthie just in case either of them have an idol. I'm just hoping Ruthie doesn't win immunity Y I K E S!!!

It is established that Francie also tied with Abbey and Ruthie

Me tying with Abbey and Francie?  TIME TO WIN, my fingers are crossed!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mgy3bmUTIhQ&app=desktop

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164309230348/tiebreak-results-2

FRANCIE DID THAT!!! SHE REALLY DID!!! If anyone else had to win, I'm glad it's her!!! And now our tie plan can work :-) I'm so happy??? As long as no one votes me out tonight.

I mean if everyone's smart they'll get Emily out right now, but some people tend to get a little nervous and start to make random cracked moves for no reason, but hey as long as I'm not the one with the target on my back I'm happy. I genuinely believe that Amanda Lynn and Abbey are with me until the end, but I also know that Ali and Ruthie are close enough to me and think they can trust me enough to tell me if things are going wrong and... that's when I can strike :) so if anyone wants to play any funny business games they can go for it. At this point I'm just playing to get to the end and while I have promised to several people that it would be with them, all I care about is myself getting there. That's the only way I have a shot at winning, that's how the game goes

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eyB77vbXmzk&feature=youtu.be

http://youtu.be/GrcH9IlRo-E

I'm.....holy shit I can't believe it. I really only got it in 5 and not 6 because I got the right colors in the first three guesses as opposed to the first four but still I'm in shock

Ok here's a better confessional. So I managed to win the mastermind tie breaker for individual immunity, and was only in the tie breaker bc I noticed Jay messed up reporting info which could've affected my score so I did it again and I got it in 6 that time. There is somewhat of a luck element in mastermind bc the first few rounds are just you figuring out what colors are in play and I managed to pick the right ones so that I got all 5 colors in 3 rounds and could guess the order in the next two as opposed to taking 4 rounds to determine the colors which was a big help. If it weren't for that there might've been another tie. Well, not might have, probably.

So the plan for tribal is a 2-3 split between Ruthie and Will, respectively. We're splitting the vote in case an idol is played so depending on how the idol is played it will either send someone home by 3 votes or force a tie and then we revote from there. I'm pretty sure Ali is loyal to us so the votes should work out. Hopefully an idol doesn't get played tonight but this time we have a better plan for if one does.  

http://youtu.be/q6t7hEaZuaI

I have been making so many video confessions recently because I truly don't know how to type out what I'm feeling but I think cracked Emily is coming out. She's going crazy. She needs help. I literally have been ranting to my parents about this game because I don't have anyone else I trust and I really want to die. I'm putting my faith in Ali right now and hoping he can guide me to the promise land: final six. The thing that's killing me about this game is that FTC is so close I can taste it and my anxiety is taking over like a parasite. I get nauseous before every tribal but this one especially. I don't want to go home!!! I want to stay!!! Hopefully the Gal Pals are going to stay loyal to me for one more round then I can cut off the head of our alliance and watch the island burn. I'm going absolutely bonkers and I don't know how to stop myself. I need to chill out I need to chill out I need to chill out!!!!

OKay so I know I made a really long confessional last night with Duncan and Host Ali and people are probably not going to watch it but I just have a lot of thoughts about this tribal, that is happening 90 minutes earlier than usual, by the way. There is no denying that if Emily makes it to the end of the game, it’s going to be really hard for anyone to beat her. She has been in on all of the strategizing and (so it seems to everyone else) she has spear-headed every elimination. It just makes sense. But that doesn’t mean that I don’t feel bad. I genuinely feel terrible about voting for her (I don’t say “vote her out” because I fully expect to be blindsided tonight). This is the first game I’ve played where I am turning on an ally. And it sucks. I genuinely like Emily. I’ve been close with her since literally the first few minutes of the game, and I haven’t lied to her at all in this game until right now. And it sucks. It also sucks because I feel like I could lose trust with Francie and that I’ll be in danger after this round anyway. These girls are sweet and kind and this completely sucks. I’m also trying to think about like, what to do after this. How do I get to the end against people I can win against. I know I’m not gonna vote Abbey out. It’s just not happening. And I know that I could lose the game because of it. People are probably going to say that our friendship is the reason that we made it this far. Well if they do, I’m gonna counter it with…. Ashley and Ruthie are friends… yet they aren’t here together. Emily and Francie became friends in this game, and (if tonight goes as planned) they aren’t here together. I just have a bad feeling that people are gonna say the game was rigged (as if Jay would ever). I’m working really hard this game, and to think that people could say that I only made it as far as I did because of a rig or a premade or bc I’m a series admin is gonna suck. Don’t discredit my success bc you couldn’t figure out that we were close before this point, even though there have been multiple challenges surrounding the wiki, where it says that we are admins, with our skype names, and access to season blogs, on which you can find numerous posts containing Google Hangouts that Abbey and I both appear on as hosts.. Like… ugh…. http://lh3.googleusercontent.com/-UyIGOY7DZOE/VdZKz9vWL-I/AAAAAAAAHuk/c3BZlQN58cU/mean-girls-I-just-have-a-lot-of-feel%25255B1%25255D.gif?imgmax=800

I am so emo I think I'm GOING HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!! But I told Ali that I don't trust Amanda Lynn and he agrees with me. I think he will be the one that I need to help get Amanda Lynn out. I have his vote should we get her out this tribal. Now I just need to get Francie's and Ruthie's, which I think I will be able to do? Call me optimistic. But should I go this round, Amanda Lynn gets my vote no matter what. If she is at FTC, I vote for her. The only way someone else can get me vote is if they orchestrate her tribal. If I can't do it, I'll vote for the person that can. I am just praying my life is spared this tribal. I am PRAYING!!! Please Survivor Gods, I've been a good egg, let me do this for you. Let me survive another round. Let me win another immunity. Please!!! I'll stay optimistic until my torch is snuffed. :-/

So basically im never going to win! No matter who I go to the end with I'm going to lose. Amanda will always beat me and I dont want to go with anyone else but her. Im scared that shes going home this round but theres really truly nothing I can do about it. Emily will always win if she makes it and Will is also a threat. The only way I have a chance is if its with Francie and Ali. Deep sigh.

Tonight will be the one that REALLY determines if my f3 is together or not, because if anything happens besides five (or four if Ali ends up flipping) of us voting Emily, it's gonna be messy.  Everyone knows they can't win against Emily though, like she's playing an amazing game and even she knows she's the one to beat. An ideal final five still has Francie in it, if Abbey/Amanda/Francie end up voting Ruthie I can somehow avoid the blame and keep Ruthie's jury vote, and then Ali will know I can't do anything to save him. There's so many ways this can work out I just need to figure out the best one that will win me the game.

So tribal is moments away and I can't be there for live tribal bc of a family thing but I'm really nervous. If I get voted out tonight, well, it's been fun. I'm glad I played. And tbh if Emily gets to the end... she will probably have my vote. Hopefully it's the other way around but if not, it's been good.

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164348224108/tribal-14-emily-voted-out-5-2-will-received-2

LAST WORDS:  This has been an absolutely wonderful game and I am so thankful for the people I have met throughout this process. No matter what happened, I knew this would be a super fun experience. I would like to especially thank Toph, Rafael, Bryce, Amanda G for being such wonderful friends - no matter how messy our NFPs alliance was. (Amanda G especially!!!) Thank you to Jay and Ali for being great hosts for a lost girl's first game. I also wanna thank anyone who put their faith in me and drafted me - sorry I let you down :-/

I have some regrets in this game, but it's all good. I had so much fun and I can't wait to play more games in the future!!! I'm still rooting for my Gal Pals - I love them no matter what. I want to see the three of them at final tribal council. :-) I wish the best of luck to everyone still in the game!!! Also, I'm proud of myself for not crying over my tribal like I thought I would. #NotTotallyAnEmotionalMess? It's been lit.

Emily becomes the sixth member of the jury, and the seventh placer of Survivor Azores

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Ep. 13 -"Bang Voyage" - Mo

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164196042628/individual-immunity-4

Im upset, Bryce was like my closest friend and apparently I threw someone under the bus which I don't recall talking shit about anyone?

Like what's even the point of having a heart to heart apologizing to me for lying if you're just gonna lie again like that's so fucking dumb y'all are dumb

Im alone

I feel so bad!!!!! This tribal is going to be so hard to clean up!!!! Now 3/4 INFPs are in jury. With my luck I'll be next. Gotta win that immunity tho! Oh my I'm so stressed. Thankfully the only person other than the Gal Pals and Ali T that I spoke to was Bryce, and now I can't talk to him!

And now Mo has gone awf in the tribe chat asking who he threw under the bus!!! YIKE!!!! AND NOW RUTHIE IS RESPONDING ADKFNJDAFKADS I love tea I love tea I love tea! Oh but now Abbey is fucked because she claimed the Mo vote was hers fadfkadj oh my god this post-tribal is going to be so messy. But the good thing is, with this vote, I didn't have to do any damage control among the others. Mo, Will, and Ruthie are all people I'm not close with and I don't have to explain myself to them. The others do. And I can sit back and watch while the others target one another. Here a nut, there a nut, everywhere a nut-nut!!! I hate myself for using the slang term nut but idk what else to say at this point!!! This is great for my game. :-) Hopefully we can get Mo out next!!!! Ahhhhhhhhhh

Congrats to Emily for winning this game, since Abbey and Amanda Lynn decided to join the losing side. Like you really think that Rafael, Bryce, and Amanda G would vote for either of them? I mean... come on... really? Dumb. So dumb.

Will lied, Ali T lied, Ruthie lied, Bryce was honest and now he's gone. Im sad that Will chose to trust 2 people who have previously lied to him and he was aware of it, rather than helping me and Bryce. I need that next immunity, or at least the idol.

What the HECK just happened?  None of the girls are talking to me and I'm SURE AS HECK not going to talk to any of them first. I'm going to keep pretending I voted with them before and just go with it and maybe blow up a little that they did THIS if any of them try to confront me! I have to win immunity!

Its gonna be nearly impossible for me to be around for all the post-tribal strategy that takes place right after tribal especially since it's already difficult for me to make tribal this week if I could at all. The plan seems to be: keep Ali voting with us and target Mo next. I still feel too out of the loop. ik Ruthie told me to just enjoy my vacation and not worry about it but like, the farther this game progresses the more important it is for me to stay active because I don't want to sit on the sidelines while the rest of my alliance strategizes and inactivity can make you a target (see: Will). I'm trying to be active but this time difference is....not helping at all

YASSSSSSSSSS *spits drink* *dances hard* I thank god I have this idol this game had been a roller coaster and I'm so happy I have this I need to be smart about it tho I don't need to tell anyone, if I even tell Amanda Lynn and emily they might make me play it so YASSSSSSS YASSSSS I wanna be smart and not play it right away so I'm gonna and lie and say it's not in the 1300s but I'm shook I have it I'm legit dancing in circles it's surreal I think I can win this game now and do some damage

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=QZpWtIEuhMQ

So now that I've slept and calmed down I'd like to formally apologize for some of the uh... harsh things I may have said in  my previous recent confessionals. But at this point I think my ideal final three is me, Ruthie, and Ali, and I think that we could make it there. Because if Emily, Mo, or Francie get to the end they're gonna win plain and simple, I could maybe beat Mo but definitely not Emily and who knows about Francie. I don't know if I trust Amanda Lynn and Abbey enough to go to the end, plus they have the votes of the girls probably. This isn't to say that I could necessarily beat Ruthie or Ali for sure but I think I'd at least stand a chance against them. Unless I'm a total idiot and I'm being dragged along as a goat but we'll see about that.

The thing I'm gonna miss most about this game is Ali's confessional thirst. Also I'm a flop at individual immunity challenges but I was better at challenges pre-merge alsjdbdbakakahska

I swear to GOD there aren't any GOD FORSAKEN idols on this ISLAND!!! What the FUCK!!! I just want to find an idol. Come on my dudes. I just want one. I feel like the people in our idol hunting group are lying - I mean, I wouldn't tell them if I found it. So I don't blame them. But. I just... why can Amanda G find both her idols like so quickly and I have been searching,,,,,, EVERYWHERE and I can't find anything??? Like oh my god. I am frust-er-8-ted. I say it like that because three syllables isn't enough to convey my frustration. I need four. I want this immunity tonight but I really haven't been studying the symbols as much as I should. After I shower, I'm going to auditions, and I could possibly have down time then where I could just run through the symbols. If I can do it from memory right now it'd be like... plus sign, ..., smiley face, equals sign, multiplication sign, and a heart. I forget the second one. And I'm not sure if all of these are in the right spots of what I'm even supposed to do with them!!! I have a bad memory!!! But I'm excited for the comp nonetheless. I have fun doing these comps (but I have more fun when I win!!!). Hopefully I win my third immunity tonight!! If I don't, I'll expect some votes coming my way. May as well add on to that one vote I got two tribals ago, she's lonely. She needs friends. Much like I'm lonely because my friends are gone. Well, I voted one of them out. And the other was out of my control ... well we could've split the votes but we didn't because I didn't think we would need to lmao. Oops. So not really out of my control. But ANYWAYS! I'm hoping we can get Mo next! He seemed very shook when Bryce went home. Let make him shook-er!!!

Ali held me at gunpoint and threatened my family so I would write this. But in all seriousness I'm glad that there was like an actual reason for Amanda Lynn and Abbey lying to me and I would like to (somewhat) redact my previous confessionals calling them dumb. I was bitter, you'd do it too. But I do think I could beat them at the end, and I definitely don't want to go down easy now. That could all change soon but we'll have to see I guess!

I am so nervous about this comp!!! I just want to win. But I am doubtful I will win tonight :-/ ugh. I hope for the best! But will I get it? Doubtful. While I really want to win again, I also don't want to make my target bigger. But I like being immune... And I'm already a target so... The more I win the merrier? I don't know. Wish me luck anyhow.

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164240491143/individual-immunity-4-results

I'm next

I'm almost confident about the fact that i'm getting the boot tomorrow.

That was embarrassing I'm usually so good at challenges but not memory ones lol I literally need Emily to stop winning because as soon as she loses she's gone unless she has an idol and then I'll be ready to die

AHHHHHHHH idk what's more embarrassing, getting out on the third shape or being in that hangout with all the girls that turned on me last week! I still don't know what happened and I want to get to the bottom of it but at the same time URGH.

but for real my reasoning is this: I didnt tell emily because she lied to me but I still trust her and Amanda lynn shes been upfront with everything with me, she might use it against me but im really happy I told her

I'm going to have such a big head by the end of this game. I need to stop winning. But also I don't want to stop winning because it's FUN!!! I love it!!! I love not having to worry about going home at tribals. So cute. But I need to recognize that I will  lose sometime and I need to keep a leveled head. But right now I'm just going to celebrate!!! I'm so happy :-) and now I can try to get Mo out this round!!! Then Will probably. But then... final six. I need to get Amanda Lynn out before she goes too far. I need to figure out how I can do that. I'll probably need to convince Ali, Ruthie, and ... Francie? I think most people know that they can't beat Amanda Lynn in the end AND she's great at words and convincing people. It's not that I'm not confident in my game and wouldn't be hopeless next to her at tribal, but I think it would be better if I was not next to her. And it would be a great move on my part orchestrating her tribal. So we'll see how that goes. Anyways, I'm going to relax for the night and hope game talk doesn't start too terribly soon. And tomorrow I GET MY BRACES OFF PREPARE FOR A VIDEO CONFESSIONAL TALKING ABOUT GAME AND NO BRACES!!!! Yay!!!

I feel worse about voting out Mo than just about anyone else in this game but everyone has to go at some point and he started acting acting shadier towards Emily and Amanda lately and whatnot. I am still going to vote him tonight I just feel really bad about it is all.

Ugh I hate doing this but I'm sorry mo mo you're leaving unless you have an idol but I have an idol aswell lol 8th: Mo 7th: Will 6th: Francie 5th: Emily 4th: Amanda Lynn Final three with myself, Ruthie and Abbie I hope this happens pls god!

Well this might be my last confessional. Who can never be sure?

http://youtu.be/vJCilFcr-mg

SO Amanda and I are on track for finals IF everything goes well. We've finally got an alliance with will that seems to be working! If everything goes well Amanda I and francie or Ali are gonna be at f3

I'm really like not about to force a tie in the F8 vote that seems so unnecessary like why do we want things to be difficult? It would only be good for me to vote out Amanda Lynn in terms of a challenge threat, backstabbing her now would result in me burning a jury vote and losing a loyal ally I had in the game. If we're being honest I don't think I really have a chance to win against most of these people, but all I can hope for is that I get to the end with people who are less liked, since I basically controlled the pre-merge and saved my ass when I needed to most. But I'm not about to bring goats to the end, I want win fairly.

Okay so I definitely should have been making confessionals throughout the round, because tribal is 90 minutes away and a lot has happened. So first, I apologized to Will. He was cool about it he’s fine. So I formed an alliance with him and Abbey and presented him a plan to get us 3 to the finals. And it kinda goes like this… First, we vote out Mo bc thats what everyone is looking to do anyway so dont rock the boat. Next, vote out Ruthie, but Will cannot vote with us. It needs to look like he is not voting with us so they don’t suspect we are together. Then at f6, we vote out Emily. Bc girl is too good at this game. She keeps winning immunity and she’s just genuinely good at this game. Then from there we pick off Ali and Francie. All of that is what I actually want to do up until the point we vote out Emily. After she goes, I planned to go to Ali and tell him why Emily had to go at f6, make up some lie about how her auction item was a Legacy Advantage that she would use at f5, and therefore she needed to go now. Then we take that opportunity to vote out Will. And then at f4 vote out Ali, so that its me, Abbey, and Francie in the f3. I feel like I could beat Abbey (sorry girl) and I feel like I could beat Francie, so that is the best case scenario. This seemed like a fool proof plan. BUT THEN. Freaking HURRICANE MO decided to blow through and start throwing my name around. So I’ve been in full panic mode for the last 2 hours bc I’m just starting to work with Will so idk how much I can trust him, and like… Emily is a smart girl. She’s got to know that at this moment, I’m her competition in the end bc I keep matching her in challenges. So I’m running around to like Ali asking for his idol (yeah, he has the idol and I’m the only one he told. So naturally, Abbey knows too), asking if people would go to rocks for me, point blank asking Emily if she’s flipping bc she and Francie have been talking about how they dont want to vote for Mo, and going to Ruthie for the first time since the Bryce vote and UGH. After 2 hours of panic, I still feel a little up in the air, but Ruthie is telling me she was going to vote for me but since I messaged her decided not to, and Emily is assuring me that she and Francie both are voting Mo, and blah blah. I’m having Ali play his spyglass anyway, but it looks like its gonna be 7-1 (I hope). I’m trying to trust my alliance… worst case? It ties, and Ali, Will, and Abbey all said they would go to rocks for me, and I’m hoping this last minute bonding between me and Ruthie would cause her to flip. In case I am voted out, I gave Abbey my auction item, which is to call any eliminated player. I was going to use it to call Ricky and apologize, but I can do that after the game, and if I am voted out, she can use it for something better. I just… really hope I survive this round.

http://youtu.be/R48dONv4Qd8 http://youtu.be/SckQyWHrgkc

If Amanda Lynn is trying to trick me again I'm going to throw my computer out the WINDOW. i mean i deserved being told the wrong way to vote once yes because of the Will thing but THEY DIDN'T KNOW I KEPT HIM I'M STILL SO SALTY, me being the bottom of the totem pole of girls? not cute.

Bang Voyage

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164276106278/tribal-13

LAST WORDS: That was so fun, I had such a blast and it honestly made my secluded summer much more exciting. I wanna say thank you to the hosts for having me and hopefully I'll be able to return one day on another season (Heroes Vs Villains) ANYWAYS. I made a bunch of new friends and I will continue to kick it and make puns with all of them.

Mo becomes the fifth member of the jury and the eighth placer of Survivor Athena: Azores

[survivorazores]

Ep. 12 - "Wittle Mo decided to wake up from his wittle nap and actually play Survivor" - Amanda Lynn

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164117269383/announcement

:)

Eh I knew he had the idol and I was kinda positive he was gonna play it, I also knew he  as gunning for Amanda G, I was nervous as soon as I heard Emily's name because that made me think that my name could of been brought up too.

I mentioned the possibility, or at least the hypothetical, of an idol being played around 3:00 to gal pals and there wasn't enough contingency planning I suppose I just.....yea

To fess up or to roll around in a lie, that is the question. Good news is that I'm hoping they think it was Bryce... I want to be in good with the girls but will is my number one ally and I want to stay loyal to him, he's the only person I feel I can fully trust.

I'm livid. I don't even care about the all female f6. Amanda G was supposed to go first out of the group anyway. But like. Ali lied to me. Granted, I haven't been completely honest the whole game, but I never had to "lie" bc my true intentions always got around to him anyway, but he straight up lied to me, and I'm making him feel bad about it. I'm trying to do damage control with Will by being honest with him (Kinda, I'm telling him Mo gave me his name instead of me saying his name), and he says he trusts me because I was honest. Ugh I'll make a better confessional later but I'm so angry right now.. I need time...

I recorded a video confessional earlier but I figured that that was super messy and I needed to type out my feelings. I'm so sad. I cried on the low key. I know I said in my video confessional that I didn't cry but I did. I love Amanda G and we were so close. She was the last person I wanted to see go. She was the person I always went to when I had game predicaments, she told me everything and I told her everything, she was the person I wanted to go to FTC with and now we can't do that iconic idoling-Amanda-Lynn-out-at-final-six move because Amanda G was voted out with her idol. And I mean, I would've gone home should she have played it, but I'm still really sad.

I think Mo was the one that voted me out. But I won't vote him yet. This is the first time he hasn't done what the majority told him to do :O what a great move for him! Not. I'm sad. Also, shitty move to whoever chose to vote out Amanda G over me? Who? Wanted to keep me in the game? Over Amanda G? I swear - these people don't think.The idol searching announcement just came out and I am AHHHHHHHHHHHHH I just want to search for the idol without everyone knowing I'm scrambling! And I liked the puzzle method better. It was fun. I like solving things. But am I going idol hunting? Yes. No doubt about it - I need an idol. And now tomorrow we have  A LIVE CHALLENGE and like I've been okay in comps recently but it's because I take my time and I think like I can't do speedy quick stuff I want to kermit!!!!!!!!!! Ugh this whole tribal has really crushed me. I truly thought we were fine. I was naive. I forgot that Will has done this before and that he's not stupid or a follower. He's smart. And I admire this move. I'm just sad about how it affected me and Amanda G. I need the immunity tomorrow. I really need it. And I really want Amanda G back because she's the person that makes calls entertaining for me. I'm just really sad. I'll be in a slump and a moody mood tonight but tomorrow I'm coming back S W A N G I N G!!! Better watch out hunties. But I also know that Amanda G would tell me to calm down and not let this vote fuck everything up for me. And so I'll be calm. I'll play nice. But my loyalties are nowhere. I'm going to avenge Amanda G's death but I'll do it on the low key. 

That tribal council was epic everyone lied to me I knew for sure that they didn't wanna vote Bryce but why lie to me? I did nothing wrong to dis earn anyone's trust and I was so loyal to emily and after tribal council like I was to emily "why did you lie to me" she gave such a wierd reply "you were close to Michael and Gwen and you were playing a double agent" and I was like GURL PLEASE I was loyal spilled you so much tea about them I'm so like done with her I'm happy I listened to will I knew for sure they were all lying to me! I'm ready to win this game with people I can trust watch out baby :)

I can't believe the girls didn't believe Mo and I didn't even have to exactly lie about it they think I voted with them, I am such a bad girl, I feel bad for LYING but I'm glad Will was safe. I'm going to tell them if I find the idol just because I feel so guilty

Okay so my thoughts are a bit scattered at the moment and I'm trying to have a conversation at the same time so, lol here we go. Basically after the tragic tribal last night, Will comes to the Sleeping Nerds and was basically like, "lol whats up, what happened, anyone wanna talk to me? I'm not mad I just wanna know what happened." So I throw the whole, "Mo said your name, then everyone said your name, so I went along with majority, blah blah." And he came to me privately and thanked me for being honest and he's fine he trusts me blah blah. Okay great. Then Mo comes to me, and you can tell from the start he was trying to cover his tracks. Throwing out some convoluted story of how "Will and Ali voted Amanda G, and Ruthie must have thrown her vote to Emily because she doesn't know what's going on, blah blah." Yeah yeah okay. Ruthie is working with me. Ruthie, who everyone says has nobody in the game, actually has 4 of us and we are a close group. This is a lie. And I know it. But Mo is so adamant that he didn't do it. [8/12/2017 9:49:56 PM] Mo: do you still think its me [8/12/2017 9:50:24 PM] Amanda Lynn: I guess not if you're showing me all this [8/12/2017 9:50:31 PM] Mo: thank you lol What? "Thank you?" Im yelling. If I didn't think this all was Mo's doing before, I do now. So the Ali TAnveer comes to me, so apologetic that he lied to me, and let me tell you, I am MILKING that victim card. And he is taking everything I am giving him. Now listen. Do I feel bad about this manipulation? As a person, yes. I don't do this in my normal life. I dont like people who do this in normal life. But in the game? Yeah I'm gonna manipulate him! If it gets me further then yeah. I genuinely like Ali as a person, but I am wavering in my trust in him. So he comes to me and Emily today in our old alliance chat trying to mend the fences he broken, and in doing so he tells us what I truly believe to be Everything. He tells us that Will told him to vote Amanda G and that Will told "Ruthie" vote Amanda G (this part I want to believe is a lie because I truly believe that Ruthie is with us girls), and that Will voted for Emily. So I was like, that's so interesting bc Mo has a different story, and I told him all about that and... [4:47:08 PM] Ali  TAnveer: Mo is a snake REALLY hiufhjwdj Anyway, then Ali asks us point blank if there is an all girls alliance, and without hesitation I say, Not that I'm aware of. And he just believes it and tells me, "Okay well, jsyk, Mo formed an all guys alliance after tribal and he didnt even ask me and I dont trust Mo, blah blah blah." INTERESTING. Remember back on Espirito how Mo was literally an infant attached to my hip, asking all this game advice and for protection from Will after the Ricky vote and what he should say to people and when and where he should look for the idol? Remember that? Well I guess wittle Mo decided to wake up from his wittle nap and actually play Survivor. That's fine. I want players who are playing. But you should never turn on Amomda, and if you do, you best be sure you get me out before I find out what you did. Guess what, MoMo... I'm coming for you. I have my girls. I have my double agent Ali TAnveer. And you are outnumbered. Will can't protect you when he's at camp. And if you don't go this round, you will be going at some point. You are not winning this game, I can tell you that. Also, just a disclaimer, I'm not a mean person. I am a very nice person. Ask my friends. But if you're gonna cross me in the game, you're showing me you can't be trusted within the game. And then you gotta go from the game. And hopefully I've prepared a little further than Mo has and can actually pull this off.

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164153871808/individual-immunity-3

Well... I know I'm going to lose because I don't think anyone will save me. I want to die a little. I just wanted another immunity. I'm going to talk to the Gal Pals about this comp and see if we can strategize beforehand.

Never mind... Can't strategize. I love flopping and not reading the entire post. I need to get into the habit of like READING THE WHOLE THING!!! *Flashbacks to Wichita, Kansas* *cries a little*

Okay so, this is an interesting challenge that we have to do. Chain Reaction. I'm just hoping that Abbey and Francie are here bc I havent seen them in a while. If we do this right, we can make sure one of us gets immunity. As long as one of the girls get it, I do not care what happens, I trust these girls.

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164155508758/individual-immunity-3-results

EXTRA DETAIL: This is the complete results

Ali T and Will kinda screwed us over, because it was obvious the all female alliance was going to try and make one of their own to be the one to win immunity. I feel mean saying "screwed us over" but I'm gonna be real, one of the boys is going home tomorrow most likely. I'm gonna do my best to prevent that.

I'M NUTTING I'M NUTTING I'M NUTTING!!!!!! I am so happy!!! I like this challenge it was very interesting. And I love how we took the boys out first!!! So iconic.

ALSO! Ali spilled some tea to Amanda Lynn and I earlier today. MO MADE AN ALL GUYS ALLIANCE???? NOT CUTE. ONLY CUTE WHEN THE GIRLS DO IT. I can't wait until we vote Mo out. I will make a longer video confessional tonight and explain how I'm feeling but just know I'm SO HAPPY to have a second individual immunity!!! This makes me so happy!!! 

A super long one for you: http://youtu.be/wUvOZBSr3Oc

I'm trying my best to get the ideal top 5 which would be 1. Me 2. Bryce 3. Will 4. Francie 5. Ruthie My fate right now currently rests in Ruthie's hands and I trust her to make the right decision

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=tvLNIsNvXOk

lakshdjaakahksa I've already felt like I haven't been contributing enough in the plans amongst the alliances I'm in (I try I really do) and after being on the international flight while a bunch of shit happened apparently I just,,,feel even more out of the loop :////

Oh, girlie, it's so lit up in Azores!!! The night began with a F(male)5 call and we told Ruthie a plan about getting out Mo. She sent us some very odd, seemingly staged messages from Mo about voting out Abbey. Mo sent a very similar message to Ali, making me think that Mo sent this message to the people he can trust. Anyways, I told Amanda Lynn I did not entirely believe Ruthie's story and I told her that Ruthie's vague answers sounded as if she was being caught in a lie. Amanda Lynn suggested we call separately in the Gal Pals and discuss more.

In the Gal Pals call, we deduced that Ruthie was playing both sides. We initially wanted to continue to vote for Mo and have Ali throw his vote to Bryce or Will. We would see if Ruthie would vote. If the vote is 5-3-1, then Ruthie voted with us and we're fine. If the vote is 4-4-1, then we revote with Ali on our side, voting out Mo or whoever we decided to vote out. We discussed further how we would get Ali to throw his vote, then decided it wouldn't be smart to vote out Mo because we had already told Ruthie about Operation-Get-Out-Mo-1.0. We decided it would be better to not tell Ruthie about any more plans. I think she would report right back to Mo. But I don't mind if Mo thinks I'm gunning for him, ESPECIALLY if he has been idol searching. I really hope Mo finds an idol, play it, and then doesn't receive a single vote at this coming tribal... How iconic would it be? Once we got off call with the Gal Pals, I updated Francie on all of the drama. But obviously I couldn't tell her EVERYTHING because there was a lot and I'm forgetful. Amanda Lynn then called her, Ali, and mine's group chat to discuss the vote. We established trust, told Ali he shouldn't use his Spyglass (This vote ESPECIALLY), and we decided to vote out Bryce. Ali sent us some receipts and one of them said BRYCE AND I HAVE AN IDEA! OHHHHHHHH SHIT GIRLIE!!!!!! WRONG WORDING HUNTY REALLY SHOULD NOT HAVE DRAGGED BRYCE INTO THIS - now he's going to go visit Ponderosa. And to think Bryce is plotting against me and Amanda Lynn? I'm proud of him but he is one exposed INFP! I should've figured he made more connections once the One World thing ended and we were separated. I was getting *~weird vibez~* from him anyway? And to think I missed him so much when Amanda G and I were on Salao away from him! But I never really realized that Bryce and Mo were a duo until very recently! And it would make complete sense as to why both Mo and Bryce voted for Will! And Ruthie, Ali, and Will voted for Amanda G and myself! This makes so much sense I'm having an internal party right now. The plan is to have Amanda Lynn, Francie, Abbey, Ali, and I vote out Bryce, but tell everyone else that we're voting Mo. If this gets back to Mo, it's all the more chance of him using the idol he might have. I'm all for flushing idols hehe. I know that Mo's plan is to vote out Abbey. If he thinks he has all the votes he thinks he has, he'll have Bryce, Will, Ruthie, and himself. He thinks he'll have Ali, but he doesn't. The votes should fall 5-4. Or, if Ruthie votes Mo, the votes will be 5-3-1. Ruthie won't trust us too much, but it won't matter? Unless we still want to follow through with the F(emale)5. But, honestly, I think it's very unlikely that Ruthie is telling us the truth. I think she realizes that she's on the bottom of us, and feels that it's better to vote with someone she's closer with. I think Ruthie is the one that told Will the plan and that Bryce and Mo are honestly throwing her name out about this vote because she genuinely was the one that voted either Amanda G or myself out with Ali and Will. VERY inch resting indeed.

Also, something I noticed is that Will bought a necklace with a feather on the end at the auction, and nothing has been said about this item. It could have been nothing, but I don't believe it? I think he has a special power with that necklace. And I'm WORRIED about it. Also, I know that Amanda G walked out with her idol and her extra vote. What I'm thinking is I can use the merge idol clue parchment I bought at the auction and pretend it's an extra vote! I can use that as leverage and I can get numbers on my side to vote out a strong player - maybe even Amanda Lynn. Who knows? I'll see what I can do.

I think I covered all of my bases. A lot of shit happened tonight. I'm glad the hosts were there to witness some of the planning. Ahhhhh!!!! I'm hoping everything works out for tomorrow. Time to vote out Bryce and make his parchment. I'm sorry, Bryce, in advance. I love you. I wish the INFPs could've stayed together longer... We just really flopped. Hard.

the girls alliance went up in flames, well the big one did the little one is still going strong. The final four of me, amanda, francie and emily is still a possibility. I turned on will but he played his idol, mo wants me gone, ali is talking to em wierd and bryce is ??? idk him

there was little game talk in gal pals earlier but more when I was on the flight alsjdjalahsoa why. why is this travel so poorly timed

Okay so I've been a little busy but no excuse for slacking on confessionals!! Basically I am a little unsure about this vote. I have a thing with the boys but we need a girl  flip over and target another girl for it to work. Mo wants to get Ruthie to vote Abbey since Emily showed she was willing to vote a girl last time. Emily and I seem to be distant without the other members of our alliance but it's mainly my fault because I feel like a lot of the bonding we did was over call and I hate just calling one person because I feel so uncomfortable and awkward trying to keep a conversation going. The results of the girls alliance basically confirmed to me that there is an all girls alliance but also that Will and Ali might be closer to it than I thought. I thought Ali had broken away from Emily because he didn't tell her about the Amanda G vote but maybe I was naive to think he'd be with me now. I felt terrible at having to cut Will and Ali in the immunity challenge and I feel like people are going to see me and Mo as super close but he was the  only boy actually on call so I thought it would be rude to not save him, plus it's true that I am closest with him so ah wish I didn't show my cards. Anyway this vote is going to be so scary and can determine if the girls run everything for a few more votes so iconic!

I think the girls are voting Mo which is so sad and I know it's dumb to just not vote with them but I feel like that'd be too mean for me to do so I guess I'll just vote abbey and hope it works. I'll scream if there's a split vote and I'm voted out because of my own foolishness DSJKFSDJKF

Abbey might actually be going here but the people I am supposed to be voting with are v unresponsive so rip. Also I want to tell Emily but idk.

https://youtu.be/e51fHd2I5H0

FUCK I love Bryce and I don't want to vote him out I'm so sad I'm voting him out I feel so guilty!!!!!!! I don't want the two other INFPs (Rafael and Amanda G) to turn on me in jury because I think I most definitely have their votes!! But I hope they just recognize that Mo and Bryce had a plan to get out Abbey, then me, then Amanda Lynn. They made an all bigs alliance. This is what is better for my game! And I love Bryce and I have no ill feelings towards him. I feel bad. My INV king. :-( But this had to be done sometime. Ugh. This game makes me feel bad. I'm just going to go eat kettle corn, try to rick roll the tribe chat, and cry a little.

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164195864393/tribal-council-12

LAST WORDS:  Welp I'm out! But this has been so much fun. Everyone was so nice I love it. I am so happy to be able to vote for someone at the end because everyone left is doing so well and would make for a great winner <3

Bryce becomes the fourth member of the jury and ninth placer of Survivor Athena: Azores

[survivorazores]

Ep. 11 - "Just call me Teat Sucker Extraordinaire" - Francie

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164040737523/individual-immunity-2

When you're laughing so hard you can't record a good video confessional but try anyway. https://youtu.be/WV-nhwkzG20

Michael is officially removed from jury

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164041757508/jury-announcement

HEY my name is Ruthie and I'm a used napkin. I don't know what's happening but I think Michael is going to get kicked off the jury and it just makes me wonder what's going to happen, I wish Ashley would come in as a juror but y'all said she wouldn't want to so that makes me wonder....  who was before Ashley??? RICKY?  IS RICKY COMING BACK PLEASE SAY YES

i feel like someone was after ricky but before ashley though idk maybe not but the best person for my game to come back as a juror would DEFINITELY be Ashley or Ricky because I was loyal to both of them. 

OR WHAT IF Y'ALL BRING BACK ZOE OH MY GOSH first pre juror to.... juror

"Ruthie/Amanda G/ Zabbey: you guys literally have the presence of a used napkin." Thank you, Michael! You were so fun when you weren't around! I'm really glad he didn't say anything that couldn't endanger my game, though. He said false shit about Emily that could get her in trouble, though. She doesn't have an idol and just because she's running the game and you're bitter doesn't mean that she's a rat. Bye bye, now.

M*chael's exit was glorious. It created a tag yourself meme. Ready? Tag yourself! Ali -cool -easily manipulated Amanda Lynn -needs luck -next Bryce/Will -have much better social games than michael will ever have -float Emily -has a sewer house -steals wifi -eats wet french fries* -has moistened, calloused hands -has the idol *only from McDonalds Francie -sucks emily’s teet -has no game play -buy Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson iTunes Mo -cringeworthy individual -thankfully didn’t know m*chael on a personal level Ruthie/Amanda G/Abbey -presence of a used napkin Personally, I'm tagging myself as Emily. But also Mo. Michael is sort of right about me having people around my finger but the people he thinks I have are... so incorrect. Francie isn't sucking my teet, she's most definitely playing her own game. And a good one. Amanda Lynn is not next, she's an ally. Bryce isn't floating and Amanda G doesn't have a napkin presence, they're both aligned with the wet french fry eating sewer troll. This boy truly thought he had the game figured out! AND he calls me out saying I have an idol that I DO NOT HAVE! He's so silly. I swear! But he gave me a good laugh. Thankful for that.

Really disappointing that he won't be on the jury but after that shit show I don't think he deserves to be. BUT TOP 10 BITCHES I LOVE EVERYONE WERE ALL MEMES

I picked Toph bc he's the one I liked most of those three (I'm actually not too bitter abt him anymore) + if I make it to FTC i think he's the most likely to vote for me as opposed to the other two. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Just call me Teat Sucker Extraordinaire.

I hope Raffy gets to go to jury because I have a closer relationship with him. I know he would vote me if I made it to the end in a heartbeat. Even if I don't make it to the end, he would be so much fun in Ponderosa! Sorry Toph, I love you too man.

ASHLEY COULD COME BACK AS A JUROR I AM LIVING.  THAT COULD BE A VOTE FOR ME IF I SOMEHOW MAKE IT TO FTC. Raffy or Toph wouldn't be a HORRIBLE thing either though but ASHLEY I think that Raffy and Toph wouldn't vote based on being bitter so I mean them coming back could be good and I could make people think that i would be good to take to the end because they hate me then just make like a killer speech or something, I don't know I do know I need to work on my social game though, work is KILLING ME but it's almost the weekend and I'm gonna dive into everyone's PM's

M*chael booted out of jury? My kink! I don't want that negative attitude in my juror pool. With these possible jurors (Toph, Rafael, and Ashley) I figure that both Toph and Rafael will vote for me in the end. I voted for Toph because I love him and I know he'll vote for me in the end should I make it. I think Raffy would do the same, but I was closer with Toph and I know how enthusiastic he is about this game and I think he would have a lot of fun in jury. I'm happy for him being considered!!! I like this because these people being considered are all enthusiastic about the org and won't be bitter! I think they could all appreciate my game should I make it to the end :-) I hope I make it!!!

Rafael replaces Michael as a juror

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164045486513/announcement-pt-2

Even though I voted for Toph, I'm super happy for Rafael!!! He totally deserves to be a juror and I'm so happy for him :-). Also I have a feeling he'd give me that FTC vote so YAY!

Also, Amanda Lynn has proposed an all girls alliance for the final six. I'm nutting so hard! That means I won't have to fight to keep Amanda G! But also, hunty won't really be able to use her idol UNLESS!!! I convince the Gal Pals to go after Amanda G before Ruthie. Then, we can all vote out Amanda G (5-1) BUT!!! SHE CAN PLAY HER IDOL!!! AND AMANDA LYNN IS IDOLED OUT!!! That'd be iconic. I may have to sacrifice Bryce but... Female empowerment am I right? I can at least try to save Bryce until final seven fdksjfnkajd. I think that we definitely need to idol Amanda Lynn out at final six because I know I'm at the bottom of the Gal Pals. Amanda Lynn, Francie, and Abbey will go to FTC together and won't take me, at least I think they will. Amanda G might. I don't think she should but she would. I love her. I think the best final tribal for me would be Amanda G, Ruthie/Abbey, and me. Ruthie and Abbey are interchangeable.

Ugh but this is also great because this plan more or less ensures I get to send a picture of me without braces in the Pelotao chat!!! I want everyone to see me with cute teeth.

Today was a good day on the island. I'm just hoping no one is secretly plotting my demise. Yay!

I don't remember if i talked about this or not yet but I'm sad Ashley isn't back as a juror but raffy winning?  i could possibly work with that although i'm disappointed it's not Ashley or Ricky, i think i knew raffy pretty well considering and i'm just going to have to like bring crackedt ruthie back for a round or two and maybe get him to be a fan again and just hope that if i somehow make it to the end that my speech outshines everyone else's.

I love this challenge and will be so disappointed if I don't win it AHH it will be cute to see them try to figure out another name to write down in case the an idol is used ;)

Okay so I miss Michael and I feel like I'm next so I'm trying my best to be nice to everyone bein fake and trying to up my social game cause I love this game there's a lot you need to get me out of here y'all! Ugh so like I need to win this immunity I swear If emily wins again I'm gonna cut someone 

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164078293488/individual-immunity-2-results

One day I'll do well on one of these challenges. One day.....

I had the most points.... In some cases that would be a win.... This is not one of those cases....

I'm so excited because a girl is winning immunity tonight one way or another. Emily and I contrived a plan that I want to stick with because it's good for my game. An all girls alliance, because its 6 girls against 4 guys now. I want Will out first because everyone is speculating that he has the idol and plus, he's gone for the weekend. He can't do anything about it.

OMG!!! Me coming out of a very bad play to see that I tied for individual immunity??? Iconic!!! I am so happy tbh. I hope I can pull out a win for this tiebreaker. If I can't, I think we'll still stick to the plan and vote out Will. Things will be fine!!! But I know I'm a big target and if I keep winning comps then I will... Become a bigger target? But it's better to have individual immunity than receive votes at tribal??? So it's fine I'm fine. I just hope that I can put these comp wins on my final tribal council resume. The little slogan is outwit, outplay, outlast and I outplayed you HUNTIES!!! I hate myself I'm such a narcissist I'm sorry there have only been two individual immunities and I am already getting a big head. Yikes. Someone needs to vote me out to put me in my place.

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164082894408/tiebreak-results

I retract my previous, "I outplayed you HUNTIES!!!" because Amanda Lynn outplayed me lmao. I am never going to forgive myself for not seeing that there was a link to the Survivor wiki page on the fucking Wichita, Kansas wiki page. Fuck Wichita, Kansas!!! Like I'm not sad about losing I'm sad about how I lost and that I was so close. Like I saw that I got it in two clicks I was like yay!!! And then she got it in one and I wanted to kermit. THEN!!! T H E N!!!!! Ali has to message me and say, "Hahahaha Amanda won yas." I AM EMILY YOU DUMB DUMB DON'T SAY THAT TO ME I AM SAD let me mourn the loss of this individual immunity. But it's fine I'm fine fjdfkjadsf. As long as Will is going out this week, things are all dandy.

THANK GOD EMILY DIDNT WIN

http://youtu.be/npK_8yFMFnY

amanda won immunity! the majority female alliance is made and it seems pretty solid! Ruthie and Amanda G dont know theyre the bottom so its poppin! This final 6 will happen i have planted the seeds and i will enjoy the harvest

https://youtu.be/UilB_RVTA2Y

Guess who's back with a brand new track that's just a mess as they are? Me. (At least /I/ think it's a mess) While I ~could~ edit these video confessionals, that just takes too much effort. https://youtu.be/qtDpn3E_2Fs

https://youtu.be/GnkO0epBZ9Q

My gameplay this season is working out how I exactly like how I want it work "be lowkey, be funny and make moves when needed" but I don't appreciate when people don't tel me the tea, emily hun you were my closest ally and you barley talk to me now! I feel extra shaded I didn't do nothing to you and I feel like right now the person who's straight up with me is will and I believe now there's an all female alliance and I'm ready to blindside someone I'm tired of playing "with the flow" I lost 2 allies in michale and Gwen cause of it and now I really like Bryce and I don't want him to go he isn't at threat like you wanna keep amanda g and emily in this game but take out Bryce these people I like personally but they can be very dumb sometimes so I'm ready to do a blindside this round and I'm ready for a shake up in this game I'm not going to be a duck waiting for my departure I'm gonna the take bulls by the horn and eat everyone like they are rats I'm at a cobra also emily you're nice girl act doesn't work out at all hun, you act so innocent but in reality i feel like you're a villain I'm sorry I love you but in this game you're dark sides

So this vote is pretty troublesome. Like I think the girls are all one and that's super scary SDKJFJSKF. No one wanted to say any names all day and Francie was very distant. Amanda and Emily seem pretty fake adfkladsjj but I love them. Will wants Amanda G so I think all the girls are voting Will. Which is sad but I guess at least it isn't me. Me and Mo are going to be in trouble if it keeps going at this rate. I would hope that Amanda G and Emily have my back no matter what but IDK if that's realistic.

I'm like... not surprised that Amanda Lynn is a snake. Like not surprised at all. Incredibly disappointed in Abbey though like... girl... try again lmao. Just because I said I would understand if I was voted out by an all girls' alliance doesn't mean you all pledge to protect me while I'm away with NO internet service except for brief moments, like betray me when I'm here don't be cowards about it. That's ridiculous and you're all dumb sorry about it. I guess my idol schemes are being shot in the foot but at least someone who isn't me will go home tonight. Even if they change the vote I don't care. They're all cowards in my book, this isn't a big move this is you all not being able to deal with breaking a promise so you do it when you know I can't say anything. It's weakness.

Tribal is in an hour and I am very nervous once again that things aren't going to go my way or that I'll be joining the Ponderosa chat once again. I'm very anxious. I have to pee. I just want to know for a fact that I'm safe. Last round was great because I was immune and I didn't have to worry about people plotting behind my back. This would be a damn good opportunity to vote me out though. Why is not one taking it??? They should. Smh. Whoever successfully orchestrates my tribal and votes me out is going to be the person I give my vote to in the end honestly! But I just hope it's not this tribal lmao. I still have some tricks up my sleeve ;-). Also I want to win more individual immunities and play in more fun comps!!! I'm excited!!! But also frightened. I'm going to go eat my wet french fries and stare at my computer screen until 8:00pm eastern time. Goodbye.

Me and Bryce are trying to find someone to align with and our options are limited, we think the girls might be aligning but we're unsure and I don't wanna align with Ali T because he makes me uncomfortable.

Why the fuck are the Gal Pals freaking out so much??? Nothing is up!!! Everyone is confused because they all look to us for how to vote AND NO ONE TOLD THEM HOW TO VOTE! Splitting the votes won't be good for us. Will might have an idol but I think he's walking out with it! We just need to chill out. I get this is nerve-wracking people being vague but they're being vague because WE were vague first! If Will plays his idol then Bryce or Ruthie go. I don't know why Amanda Lynn is freaking out!!! Things will be fine. I hope???????? Anyways, I need to pee and shower before tribal. Goodbye

I can't believe I'm doing a confessional from a plane but ok. There's a possibility Will has an idol and is directing all the votes towards himself so he could play his idol and be the one in control. That's the idea at least so we're having like one or two people break away to vote Bryce so Will can't throw a wrench in our plans to vote him out. I hope none of the F(emale)6 goes home tonight and also that I'm around for tribal (an announcement came on while I was writing this that there is indeed gonna be more of a delay)

https://youtu.be/RhlKpijeSjc

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164116321918/tribal-council-11

LAST WORDS: Wow... my last confessional. It feels unreal to not be in a bunch of chats at once. I'm so shook, but I feel fine. I would love to play more games in my free time because of this and it was an amazing experience. Thank you Jay, thank you host Ali, thank you Raffy, Toph, Bryce, my cute NFP alliance. A very special thank you to Emily... I made a really good friend because of this game and I'm so grateful for this. She better win, I love her, my ride or die till the end :)

Amanda G becomes the third juror and tenth placer of Survivor Athena: Azores

[survivorazores]

Ep. 10- “time to start some... evasive maneuvers? ”- Will

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163965402088/individual-immunity-1

OUR ASSES DIDN'T GET MICE AND MEN'D BLESS

I'm not a fan of Michael's message. Francie said in an alliance chat that she thinks it was her who he was talking about because she responded to him with one word messages. Not really knowing that it was a bad thing. The dense comment was unnecessary.

I'M SO SHOOKETH!!! I truly thought that this was my last tribal!!! And I didn't get a vote??? I was so paranoid. And now??? I??? Am still here??? A blessing. Everything is fine and all I have to deal with now is Michael! And he's already digging his grave by being rude, inactive, and shady a lot! I'm so happy! I'm hoping touchy subjects doesn't ruin shit for me. We shall see! I'm very excited for this comp, if I'm being quite honest! I am just too excited for everything I guess. Now that I survived a tribal I most definitely did not think I was going to survive, I am alive, awake, alert, enthusiastic *clap*

I can't believe that no one is taking what Michael and Gwen said to heart though... It's true and people should recognize it but they're not jndfkjsnfk but I love it like that so YAY! Wow. I'm happy.

Touchy Subjects didn't just blow up my game last time, it obliterated any chance of me making it without individual immunity. This better go the way I want it to, and I better not be ruining my game by putting myself into an all girls (minus me) alliance right now... time to start some... evasive maneuvers? I guess?

So I'm ready to do a long confessional I'm super happy I made the merge and jury! That was my first goal and in a season like this where everyone is atleast active I was nervous if I ever was gonna make so I'm shooketh I'm here, but the thing is like I think I'm playing a really good social game, I'm close with Michael he spills the tea and I'm close with emily where she spills me tea and amanda Lynn like she's a nice person. But this GIRL is a mess express she has over 12+ alliances and is in everyone's ear like can we vote her off? I don't want too right now tho because she has my back and she's a shield for me so we'll see what happens when challenge results come, will is pissing me off saying that Nayeli vote was "my idea" bitch please don't put it on me, you hoe but for real will is a threat, Francie is a threat too like the girl is not even in anyone's radar YET SHE BLINDSIDED GWEN. I'm done also who tf is Bryce?

I just really hope my game doesn't get blown up while I'm away over the next few days, like I'm missing tribal tomorrow night and missing the challenge and the next tribal that's... scary and not fun ugh. We'll see what I can do though maybe I can make it work but I just really hope this doesn't cause me to flop

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163992885023/individual-immunity-1-results

Emily told me that my name was being thrown around, which makes me really nervous. Good thing I have Mr. Espirito Idol to help me out if I get in a doozy. That was earlier, though, now everyone is saying they want Michael out and that's what I wanted to do last night. He's not good for my game or Emily's game, but I'm so happy she has immunity tonight. That girl deserves it.

Okay but I am literally such a bad bitch that I don't talk to these people at all, but I'm hated by everyone. I am LIVING for this.

Honestly if I'm not casted for a heroes vs villians twist then like?????

http://youtu.be/gGTiyQVramg (I'm typing another actually well thought out confessional, this was just my immediate reaction LOL)

So everyone wants to vote Michael which is great because it isn't me, but also isn't great because I need to see someone in the majority go home - not necessarily someone from my alliance but like... someone with power. And I think Amanda G is that person I'm very sure she's in an alliance with Emily and some combination of other people, and I think I could maneuver things to take her out. I have a plan that involves telling Ruthie about my fake merge idol, giving it to her to give to Michael so that 1) he trusts her and 2) he can flash it to make everyone think he's going to play an idol so that they split the votes between him and someone else (maybe Bryce? Mo?) and then we get a majority of 5 (me, Ali, Ruthie, Michael) to vote out Amanda G it would be crazy but... I really have no idea if it's worth it right now or if it's the right time or what's gonna happen. I could even potentially not vote for Amanda G and get the votes split so it's only three for Michael, four for Amanda G, and four for whoever they decide to split the votes between... this math is getting complicated but I really think I could work this out right here and right now. If there was ever a time to cause chaos it would be in this moment.

ALSO why was I voted most oblvious?? THESE 👏🏼 PEOPLE 👏🏼 AINT 👏🏼 SLICK👏🏼 THEY 👏🏼 ALL 👏🏼 A 👏🏼 BUNCH 👏🏼 OF 👏🏼 SOGGY 👏🏼 PRETZEL 👏🏼 STICKS 👏🏼  I know everything going on this game. I am a WOKE EVIL QUEEN 💖👑 CROWN ME BISH!!!!

*goes to tree mail* *finds idol*

I GOT VOTED THE HERO IM SO HAPPY BUT I ALSO GOT THE BIGGEST GOAT WHich kinda sucks and is making me rethink my game, I also got best social game so that's nice I think? I don't know if that'll make me a threat or not. I don't know, I'm happy for the hero thing but sad about being the goat.

I have no idea what's happening AH that makes me wonder if it's me. . . . I'm hoping for Michael though.

https://youtu.be/GZWT2YJ7gHM have yet another outdoor, 10 minute, lowkey a mess video confessional

Guess who's a flop? Me. I didn't add everything I could've to that vid confessional. What I forgot to mention was that Amanda G and I were talking earlier about Touchy Subjects before the results came out and then she asked me who I trusted and I told her I really trusted Emily. I told her the truth, I really trust Emily, but there's also more people that I trust but wasn't going to tell her because I didn't want to reveal all my ties, etc. While I was writing this I talked to her some more. She asked who I was considering for tribal and I told her Michael and said she was too. I think I can trust her word, or at least I hope so.

Okay so I think the vote is gonna be Michael. I told Amanda Lynn that I didn't find the idol and she said that she didn't make it past the word search which is a lie according to Emily so that's iconic. Will said he didn't  get it but lowkey he did.. Mo wants to work with me and said he trusts me the most and honestly I'm just like SAME. I am trying to decide if I should tell him about my alliance with Amanda G and Emily or not. On one hand I want to let him know things because it can strengthen our bond, on the other hand he could be playing me or not even playing me but still leak it and that could be bad! I am also talking to Ali T but it's so hard because he speaks in like buzzwords; plus he once said mommy and I still think about that in an unsettling way. Also I got voted that I wasn't playing the game and I think it's because I find it so scary and hard to talk game with all these people. What if I get exposed?? I want to set something up with Mo and Francie but I am afraid Francie would tell Emily and then that'd be awkward. Like I'm understanding of Amanda G or Emily having alliances but I don't think they'd feel the same way. Also Amanda G not telling me about the idol clue because she thought I was too good at puzzles is slightly annoying but I don't know if I would have finished in time even if I knew sooner. Also still trying to get Will to trust me, I feel like I am putting in so much effort to get him to want to be a close ally and then he gives me nothing in return?? Anyway long confessional but this has helped me think things through so hopefully after this vote I can be more comfortable. P.S. Girls outnumbering boys is iconic!!

The duck is still in my room and I keep thinking about what's gonna happen elimination wise and what order it will happen in the game

i didnt get anything bad or really anything at all in touchy subjects so thats cool! The girls alliance + will is off the ground and it seems to be working ok! Michael is hopefully gonna go next and I've been talking to Ruthie a lot more. Shes sucha sweetheart i love her!

Now that I'm immune,  I think today is the day I work on my resume and chill out. After making a "big move" with Nayeli's idol and THEN voting out Gwen, I've created an enemy with Michael and PROBABLY Ali! This boy tells me that he trusts me 110% then goes around talking with Michael and planning to vote me out! I'm immune this round hunties get off me!!! Focus on... I don't know who else they should focus on because I'm apparently running the game. Thanks Touchy Subjects! But honestly Touchy Subjects was so much fun djsfkadslf So Amanda Lynn is telling me that Ali, Michael, and she (Using that FreeRice grammar? Idek know if it's right I'm keeping it because it sounds funny.) are talking about my tribal. Michael is CONVINCED I knew Toph before this game which is SUCH bullshit!!! I honestly feel attacked that he feels this strongly about it. Also, he's just rude. I don't understand why he's gotta be rude! Not cute! But my absolute favorite thing about this is that he thinks that in Toph's goodbye message, Toph said, "I love you RUTHIE." R U T H I E!!! I'm DEAD! He completely forgot that it was Amanda G oh HONEY this is iconic.

But I'm so happy pretty much everyone is on board with voting Michael! Amanda G, Amanda Lynn, Francie, Abbey, and Will are all confirmed voting Michael and I can get Bryce on our side. If Michael is going after Ruthie, then Ruthie will vote Michael. And Mo will just vote with majority. This is beautiful.

Thinking back to Touchy Subjects, I'm very honored people think I'm running the game. Iconic. And some of the last few tribals have proved that theory? I had a hand in every tribal I attended (Which was only three... But let's ignore that.) and I think that'll be good for my resume. I'm excited to see how these Touchy Subjects results influence my game... Hopefully in a positive way? But the things that I won were all things that put massive targets on my back. Best edgic? Who is actually controlling the game? Who is playing too hard for their own good (Also, how did Will get that too? What?)?

OKAY WHEW I haven't done a proper confessional in a long time so I think it's time. So much has happened since the short round with the Gwen vote, so I think I'm just gonna go person by person and talk about everything that way. First, I want to start with Touchy Subjects... because WHEW. Okay so I was given the following: Who is playing too hard for their own good? Who needs to be exposed as a snake or a rat? Who thinks they are running the game? Who will win if they get to the end? Who would you trust with your life? That's the most answers I've received in a single Touchy Subjects to date! It's very nerve-wracking bc..... They think I'm gonna win? They think I'm a rat? And they all trust me? What? I've gotta tread very carefully. I'm really hoping to go to the end with the Gal Pals, so I'm trying to laugh it all off with them. Okay so let's start with (hopefully) tonight's boot - Michael. So I don't really have much to say about him because he's like... hardly here... Honestly. He's around to like, talk bout how everyone hates him and maybe rally some votes to vote Ruthie (Not happening) and then he's nowhere to be seen so... I'm playing it off that I want him to stay (which is mainly for Ali's benefit), but tbh, he can go. So let's move on to Michael's BFF, Ali. Okay so Ali is a very nice guy, and I genuinely like him as a person. But as a player? He's VERY needy. He's constantly asking if his name is going around and he doesn't want to vote Michael, but he will go where they votes are, and he wants Emily out but we can't be she's immune so he wants Ruthie out bc that's what Michael said, blah blah. I feel bad lying to him, I genuinely like him. But this is what's better for my game. He caught wind that Michael is probably going home, so I'm trying to play it off like, Oh no, we gotta fix this, but like.... nah I'm good with it. Next is Mo, who was attached to my hip on Espirito, always asking me what to do, what to say, how to vote... and now that we merge, he hardly talks to me. lol. I see you, bud. Next is Bryce... who.... is complicated lol. We talk about non-game things all the time, and always just casually bring up like, "Oh yeah, this is who people are voting for." So like... I guess its okay? I just want him gone asap, but if mine and Abbey's plan works, its gonna be at least another round before we can get him out. I'll get to that later. So this whole game I've tried to talk to Amanda G and its just... hard to hold a conversation. But she comes to me out of the blue like, "Hey we haven't talked. What's up?" Then we talk casually and then all of a sudden she says, "Yeah so this is who I wanna vote for, but I'll do whatever." THIS GIRL HRJWEDS I'm yelling, she's so funny. I'm forgetting someone....who is it.. who...is... it.... Oh yes, Ruthie. HGRJFDSK I feel so bad but I always forget Ruthie. I don't have much to say about her.. I try to keep our line of communication open, but that's the extent of our relationship. So then we have Will, who I've wanted to work with but haven't had the chance until now. He wanted to form an alliance with the Gal Pals (not that he knows that that is a thing but anyway). So we have the Sleeping Nerds, and it's good for now. Abbey told me that Will has the merge idol, so that's good to know. He and I talked quite a bit last night and I like him a lot. I feel okay working with him right now. We have similar interests, gamewise, so he's a good ally to have for the moment. But I don't want him around too long. If anyone can overthrow the Gal Pals, it will be him, and we can't have that. I'll get to that in a minute. So I'm just gonna talk about all the Gal Pals at once. Abbey is still my closest ally and best friend, but we are trying to hard to not allude to it, especially to Emily and Francie. If they catch wind that we are more loyal to each other than we are to them, they will vote me out in a heartbeat. Abbey and I want to go to f4 with them, so our loyalty to them is genuine, but they need to believe that it's an even loyalty across the alliance.. if that makes sense. I dont have much to say about them tbh. We are all generally on the same page and want the same targets and we always report back to each other. I trust them all. So this confessional is super long and I do have more to say but I need a break, lol. I'll come back to this later and finish and talk about mine and Abbey's plan, but for now I will leave you with these four words: All. Female. Final. Six.

I'm getting really nervous about this tribal council it's like wow, no one is really talking to me maybe this is a simple vote agaisnt michale but I know this game and I'm getting nervous it's me because nothing is easy in survivor, I also feel like emily is not talking too much with me even though I told her I close I am with her so idk what's gonna happen, these people wanna play safe but I know that may be an act, all I know is that people want Michael out and I'm okay with t I guess, and I swear amanda Lynn is a snake troughout one minute she's like "we gotta listen to Michael" and the next minute she's like "I wanna play safe" make up your mind girl, I also love Bryce idk much about mo and Ruthie I feel like they're floaters and Francie is this girl is a amazing game player!! But if I go tonight I'm not leaving without a fight 

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/164040117653/tribal-council-10

Playing too hard too fast was my downfall ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  i Think I stayed that would be my downfall in an earlier confession. Also making a premade of toph and Emily upset was an issue as well

Michael’s last words to the tribe chat and in-game behavior resulted in his removal from the jury

[survivorazores]

Ep. 9 - "I'm an online Survivor player not a fortune teller dammit" - Francie

After eight tribals full of crackedness, wild strategy and of course puns, the Espirito and Salao tribes merged.

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163925460048/announcements

Omg I made merge I am so happy!!!! Reunited with my fellow INFP's! The only downside is that those 2 are definitely closer to each other than me :(. But I am still happy to have made it this far

I've achieved my goal of making merge at minimum so I'm happy for now. Now to not be the next one out lol

I MADE IT PAST MERGE I ALREAY SURPASSED MY EXPECATIONS

I'm so happy

MERGE!!!!! I ACTUALLY MADE MERGE!!!! I'm so happy to be reunited with Bryce!!! Amanda G and I have tea to spill and I can't wait to hear his tonight when we call. Also, the Gal Pals want to call and talk too. I have some stuff to clear up before Amanda Lynn gets called out by Gwen. I need to figure things out before things get out to everyone. I'm a little nervous. 

Also, about Espirito's tribal, I almost shit myself when Bryce's name was read out. That shit was scary. BUT OMG MERGE BONDING!!!! SO WHOLESOME!!!! I'm so happy :-) This was a goal, now my next one is to win an individual immunity for myself. Let's hope I can do that. Also, I'm super excited about getting that merge idol clue. I can't wait to figure out what it is!!! AHHHHH!!!

My showmance Ashley Sarah is gone and I'm SO SAD but I'm more sad that Francie and Amanda didn't tell me how they were voting, but I'm just so excited that for at least a little while no one knew we were best friends and we got to play together, she was ROBBED and should have been the first member of the jury but it was fun playing with her and i hope she wins the record for the most votes casted against her in the season hehe. Going forward I'm going to be loyal to Will and probably only Will, everyone else is a RAT and I can't wait to get rid of Gwen still for swiping RIGHT on me.  

It's merge time and the INFP's are reunited once more! I'm so happy to have us back together again. We might have to do some recruiting, though. We'll only have 3/12 votes if we go to tribal council like this. I really like Gwen, but we betrayed her by voting out Nayeli. I think we might try to get Ali and Francie on our side because Emily and I trust them, but we'll check with Bryce first. We need two more people, but we'll figure that out later. I'm also happier because now Emily's merge idol clue is able to be used for our advantage!!

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163928032843/reward-escape-room

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163928380688/merge-idol-hunt

We're all getting heckt.

Get hect.

I didn't know how much activity this challenge required (or just paying attention enough) otherwise I wouldn't have picked Gwen bc she's not on enough. Aksjdhskda. Hey, I'm an online Survivor player not a fortune teller dammit.

*Gabriel Reyes voice* D E A T H  C O M E S

Can I vote out whoever created this challenge lol 

The challenge ends, but the merge tribe is unaware of the challenge’s real nature

How was a five minute long challenge so emotionally painful?

Made the merge? Loving it! Won the first reward challenge? Also loving it! Finding the idol? Gonna do it and loving it!

Francie’s team: Francie,Emily,Ruthie,Mo,Michael and Gwen are sent to tribal

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163930618868/reward-results

I'M SO SCREWED THIS ROUND NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

What kind of bait and switch was that smh. Can I sue the hosts for emotional damage??

Emily is a rat.

Holy SHIT I found the idol???? I just spent so much time doing all of that and I actually found it I am so proud of myself oh my god this is beautiful this is amazing I feel blessed I feel incredible. This could easily be what carries me through these next few votes if anything starts to look fishy... and I'm loving it.

I'M SO MAD!!!! I wanted another idol and someone else got it :(. I do have my Espiriro idol, though, which is beneficial to my game. I'm really nervous about the next tribal council because my team won the competition, but that sent Emily to tribal council. I hope the can make amends with the majority and be able to survive.

So we merged and I'm so happy! But I also found out that apparently I was at a higher risk than I thought I was originally.  But this idol thing was so much fun. Even if I didn't find it I had so much fun doing it. I wonder who got the idol tho its so scary :s.

i made merge!!!!!! me and Amanda did it together!!!! its amazing content im so alive! We had a """""""""reward""""""""" challenge that had me and amanda on a team together and we won and it turned out to not be reward and were immune! but emily and francie are not but they seem to be on lock so it should be okay. Will has been a little shady and im like  75% sure he found the merge idol BECAUSE amanda and I went on a spree and finished the hunt and it was gone so :\\\ very disappointing but ive never won a game where ive had an advantage and i did win when i had no advantages so its all fine and dandy we still good! I want to stick with the gal pals alliance most, will has been giving me iffy vibes lately but i also want to stick with him for as long as i can. He isnt making final 4 though if I have anything to say about it!

Well, after a long night of idol hunting, we have realized that the idol, in fact, has already been found. Iconic? I love flopping. But my favorite part of this was being on call with the INFPs!!! I love them. I feel like the bad decisions made by the cracked INFPs sprung from Toph and Raffy... I'm hoping that Amanda G, Bryce, and I can make some smart moves and not flop? Unlikely, but it's fine. But on the dark side of things, I'm going to tribal tomorrow night. I'm so emo. I know I have to vote with Francie because of the Gal Pals. I don't want to vote her out anyways. I can either vote out Ruthie, Gwen, or Michael. I don't want to vote Mo out. I need time to think about my decisions. I'll probably write a lengthy confession tomorrow or record a video confession. I need time to decide and sort things out. I'm just going to enjoy the time I have with the INFPs for now :') I hope I don't go home this early, though it is jury. I don't want to be the first jury member. :0

Helen was pushed and Jodi was robbed. And EMILY IS MAKING IT INTO THE ACTUAL BB HOUSE SO KNOW THAT!

The idol I helped hunt for, spent 45 minutes one that jigsaw dog puzzle for, is gone. I stayed up til 1am and Abbey and Amanda stayed up til 2am ish based on the chat. This stinks worse than... something that stinks r e a l l y bad. (That was lame bc I'm Tired ok)

WHAT THE FUCK LIKEEEE HOW AM I VOTING OUT THIS TRIBAL!!?!??! no one is talking game to me. I'm sorta alienating myself by not talking to mo or ruthie but like they can try to me too like wtf. i wanna get ruthie out the most bc i backstabbed her at that challenge but that was obviously needed so i was safe.  but anyways like why isn't anyone trying!!! I'm gonna try to play harder soon to make a move bc this clearly is gonna be me if I'm left in the dark like this. idk how to make a target of someone i barely know.

yeah i sersiouly don't like amanda lynn whatsoever and its annoying me sooooo much like strictly in a game way that she has so much control it feels like. i liked her in the beginning but then i WOKE TF UP!!!! like francie stop being her doormat and also me n micahel are trying to get ruthie out to send some shots amanda's way! don't fuck with us amanda i swear to goD!!! and i can't wait to expose her ass with this alliance reward!!! atm thats who i think is running the game and I'm pretty sure I'm right

yup this is sketchy i can't when francie just said "it isn't separate tribes anymore" like yup me or michael aren't going home.  and it seems everyone on my tribe has flipped to the other tribe LIKE YOU ALL CANT DO THAT LOLOLOL ONE OF YOU IS GOING TO BE LEFT OUT. there has too be this big ass alliance and idk who it is !!!!! no one is giving anything up and idk where a crack is at all.

yup its evident from the captains pick list that me n micahel being picked last wasn't good at all!!!!!!!!!! soo I'm going to maybe to talk to micahel about getting mo n ruthie on our side or something idk

i think theres an alliance with francie amanda abbey emily n ruthie but once again just speculation

ok i might suck at this game but i definitely wanna go out with a  bang rn but honestly also i wouldn't mind voting for michael if thats what i have v to do to stay in

Honestly I've been trying to play nice with these people but I'm just exposing people now in chats because literallly me and Gwen are at the bottom of this tribe

Prepare for possible explosion in red tribal chat

Honestly me and Gwen are at the bottom of this tribal right now. We are spilling everyone's tea to each other Francie,Emily,mo,and other girl who I forget her name and I'm too lazy to look it up are all coming to us in individual chats and talking shit about one another like :/ y'all have some ugly personalities, but me and Gwen are desperate to stay

I don't understand how people are literally so blind by Emily's game. Emily and Amanda & myself gbut I don't wanna be that bit*h) have played the best games so far and I haven't been doing the best to hide my tracks I guess. People just do whatever Amanda says some reason, but Amanda does whatever I tell her to do so it's weird. Anyways Emily is a rat and lies to everyone saying she's (insert alliance here) strong, but she's not. She just flops over to wherever the power is. Which is a strategy and she's probably going to outlast me so werk I guess, but she has so many premade alliances in this game that she's not a newbie like she says she is

I'm just gonna submit my thoughts on these people here: Ali T: he's nice, but easily manipulated, I don't really have thoughts on him. Amanda G: I literally know nothing of this person, I haven't talked to them once but honestly she's gonna go far probably because I highly suspect she has a premade alliance. Amanda Lyn: I thought I wasn't gonna like her when I first started, but I've actually grown to like her but like girlll she does the most when it comes to the immunities. Emily, myself and her are playing the bet games I feel right now but tbh they've probably done a better job at hiding their tracks then I have, and put more effort than I do. Bryce/Will ( because they are literally the same person in this game playing the same game): honestly Bryce is my pick to be in the final 3 but I wouldn't be surprised if will was there too. They literally have done nothing in this game and are just floating their way to the end. They just flop to wherever the power is. Boring gameplay. Emily: honestly I would argue she's playing the best game right now, she has misted everyone into doing whatever she wants, but it's not like it's hard since literally only 3 people are actually Playing an actual game here. Everyone else is just playing scared and floating to wherever the power is. Literally she has two premade alliances in this game so it's just stupid. She won't win but she has the best resume right now. Francie: doormat and a waste of a casting Gwen: honestly she's so genuinely nice and the only person I enjoy talking to in this game, I want her to win but she won't because she's not set up to win. She'll be taken out next if I'm taken out this time. Mo: idk anything about this person but I just don't like them for some reason. They just seem extra. Ruthie: I have no real thoughts on her, I forget she exists and she's a final 2 with Amanda Lynn. Another waste of a casting Zabbey: I literally didn't even know this person was in the game until I was looking at the merged tribe list.

IM SO DONE, SOMONE FOUND THE IDOL EMILY JUST TOLD ME, also this tribal is gonna be explosive, Emily told me that shes voting off Gwen and Michael is going off at her, francie is playing a good game tho

I'm honestly too old for this game, this is gonna be my first and last one of these gmes, unless I get asked for all stars then hmu

So I'm one of the 6 going to tribal today and I'm a tad nervous. I'm happy that I have Francie, Ruthie and Emily with me but when there's half of the players going to tribal and then another half of us watching our decisions whilst still in the game. The consequences could be really bad.

This would be a great confessional to have recorded because I just have so much to say but I look absolutely horrendous so I'm not going to make you suffer through that.

So the gist of this round, I hate it. I'm going to tribal tonight and I knew for a fact I wanted to vote with Francie. Francie did not seem to want to vote with the original Salao tribe members even though they were more than willing to do so. I was unsure about how Francie was planning on voting which was why I didn't want to make plans with Gwen and Michael last night. Now, that has come to bite me in the ass because now that I ACTUALLY want to vote out Ruthie and vote with Gwen and Michael, MICHAEL WANTS TO TARGET ME! And honestly, the last thing I want to do is scramble right now! I don't know what to do! I feel like I can't message him because then he'll know I'm getting word from everyone that he's spreading things around that I'm dangerous and all this stuff. And like, smart of him for figuring it out. I don't think many other people have. But if I can just get Francie, Amanda Lynn, and Ali to get my name out of Michael's head, I think I'll be fine. Francie won't vote against me and I know that like 90%. Michael, Gwen, Ruthie, and Mo, however: wildcards! I haven't talked to Ruthie at all and Mo and I have talked no game. I have wanted to vote with Gwen and Michael from the moment they messaged us last night but I was unsure because of FRANCIE! I think I might be safe tonight, but I'm truly not sure. I think the pros and cons of voting out all of these different people are like all over the place, but I'll try to figure them out.

Voting out Michael pros: one less person targeting me. Voting out Michael cons: he could expose me in his last words, Ali is close to him and I get information from Ali, it would further confirm his theory about me being a mastermind. (HONESTLY, THIS BOY IS NEVER ACTIVE BUT NOW THAT HE IS HE DECIDES TO TARGET ME? NOT CUTE!) Voting out Ruthie pros: I prove to Michael that I'm loyal, I get out someone I have not spoken to at all. Voting out Ruthie cons: Voting with Michael could result in me getting voted out. I just got out of a call with Francie and we discussed a plan. I am going to get her to suggest to Michael that this tribal be a test of my loyalties. I told her to tell Michael that she thinks I'm going to vote with them. If the votes end up being 4-2, then I voted with them and I can be trusted. If the votes are 3-3, then they can vote me out in a revote. I'm hoping Michael agrees to this plan, votes out Ruthie, and I can prove a bit of my allegiance to him. Even though I have none. I just don't want him throwing my name around like this is some baseball game??? PLEASE leave me alone, dearest Michael! I am probably going to stress cry over this tribal. I don't want to leave. And then I won't be able to talk to Amanda G or Bryce and I DON'T WANT THAT! I'm like severely in danger because of this stupid twist (Just to clarify, it's not stupid, I'm just sad about how it's affecting me.).

Michael honestly was not on my radar at all before this round. But BOY he is now. I know I can't vote him out this round because that would probably put a bigger target on my back. And I know I can't call him out. I'm not messy like that. And that would ruin my allies' games too. But the moment I get the chance to vote him out, he's gone. My biggest fear is that Michael and Gwen sway Ruthie and Mo to their side and vote me out like that. That would suck for me. That would suck for Francie too. Especially because she's planning on voting for someone who was close-ish with.

Also, Michael claimed to Francie that I was in a pre-made alliance with Toph which is bullshit! If I had known how cracked that boy was BEFORE the game I would've voted him out first. How rude of Michael to assume I'm silly like that. I still love Toph, don't get me wrong. But :0

I'm trying to get more information from Ali. I think Michael will tell Ali his final plans for this tribal and Ali can then tell me. If Michael wants to vote with me, then good. If Michael decides to get Mo and Ruthie on his side and vote me out, then I will have to beg Amanda G for her idol. If she gives it to me and I play it, I'll claim that's what I won in the auction. That'll be my lame excuse. But it'll keep me a bit safer for another round? Who knows I DON'T KNOW! That's a bad plan. I won't do that. But I just DON'T WANT TO GO HOME!!!!

I'm just waiting for Amanda G to come online so I can talk to her about this whole situation. I'm very worried and her idol would very much come in handy right now? But I also don't think I'll have to use it if Ali and Francie can protect me enough. AHHHHH! I also feel shitty making Francie low key blindside Ruthie but like... Oopsie. I just wish I wasn't about to be chopped up and served for dinner right about now. Who wants to die? Emily does!

I have a strong feeling that a lot of people are going to be bitter or mad towards me once they read these confessions and realize what was going on... let's just hope nobody gets bitter while we're still playing though :) An idol and a fake idol? Loving this concept. Using the fake idol to turn everyone on overly paranoid people? Even better. And the best? Having people just give me information without me even having to ask for it. This game is fun.

Hopefully this works. It took forever to upload https://youtu.be/cfD5n6MlLkU Basically I'm voting Gwen and so are a few others. Girl tried to play us like a fiddle but she didn't tune us properly.

So much tea has been spilt and I'm SO overwhelmed! I think things are looking up possibly! Gwen messaged Mo and Ruthie and told them that she used her alliance reader on me and revealed that I am a part of five alliances. I believed this for a hot minute (Because we all know I'm in like ? a lot of alliances?), but then I realized that Gwen messaged me just a bit earlier saying that she used her alliance revealer on RUTHIE and that SHE was a part of five alliances! WOW! I think we caught Gwen and Michael! HMMMMMMM! Also, Gwen is wrong about the number of alliances. I'm probably in like ten alliances. Oopsie.

So now Francie, Ruthie, Mo, and I will be voting for Gwen at this tribal :-) Ruthie and I are comparing notes and OH MY GOD Gwen T R U  L Y dragged me through the mud. She and Michael are totally right about me orchestrating Nayeli's tribal. And they totally found me out. But I have ties with the right people, I suppose, and I think I have the votes to stay this round. AHHHH???????

I think my favorite part about this is that Gwen and Michael are, in fact, correct in their assuming I orchestrated stuff and that I have a good social game. And I recognize that this is going to probably make my target even bigger, but I need Michael or Gwen out. And soon. I don't think Gwen is going to end up going after Amanda Lynn until I'm gone. So I'm going to make sure Gwen leaves before I do? And Michael has been talking the most shit to Francie, Ali, and Amanda Lynn about me. Mo told me he thinks Michael will go next. And that sounds good to me.

I need to stay a bit under the radar for these coming tribals? I'm worried that the Nayeli tribal really put a huge target on my back. And I was prepared to live with the consequences but now I want to Die™ because Michael and Gwen have me between a rock and a hard place. I need to see what I can do.

Gwen and Michael are trying to get my girl out. Oh no, boo boo. You tried, and you're going to fail! Emily and I are making a plan to save Emily and to get Gwen out. I think it's best for our game to get Michael out because he's the one saying this shit, but as long as it's one of them I'm fine. Get heckedt, guys :).

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=T5rIKz4G4Gc

Okay so I forgot to send in a confessional this round so I'm using speech to text to make sure that I get in all my thoughts before the deadline. Hopefully autocorrect loves me today. Anyway we merged! I'm so excited to be back with Emily and Abby and Ali! So we did a reward challenge which wound up being not a reward Challenge and half the tribe is immune and I'm part of the half that is immune so woo! Unfortunately Francie and Emily are part of the tribe that has to go to tribal. Boo. I'm hoping that everything turns out okay and that both my girls make it out alive. I promise hosts I will make a more detailed confessional later tonight. It's just been a really short round and I have not had too much time. :-)

As tribal looms closer, I'm getting more and more nervous. I want to help Emily out and give her the idol, but it's the Espirito idol. I think she's going to be safe so I wouldn't give it to her this round. I would give it to her in a round where I knew she would go home, but she was never on Espirito. If I feel in danger and  don't want to use my idol, I'm giving my idol to Bryce because he's been on Espirito pre-swap and post-swap.

I can't wait for this idol maneuver. I have a real merge idol (1), a fake idol from the auction that I've re-labeled "merge idol" (2), and a fake idol that's a picture of a feather from google labeled "auction idol" (3). So the plan is to give someone the "merge idol" which is really just #2, get them to trust me with that and possibly watch them crash and burn if they try to use it, then later on have someone (probably Abbey) fake a betrayal of me by giving them #3 saying "Will trusted me with this, but use it to get him out" or something like that making them feel comfortable while actually just setting them up to be voted out a la Randy in Gabon. And of course, I'll save the real idol for myself when I need it most. But oh boy this is gonna be a good one if I can pull it off. And if y'all are reading this and I got voted out before I could do any of this, I'm just a big fool but hey at least I'm going for the gold here. And Amanda G's idol? We'll do something about that soon enough :)

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163965445583/tribal-council-9-pelatao

LAST WORDS: practically i had a lot of fun i really did end liking ali toward the end surprisingly! i love my main bitches nayeli & michael rip :**. anyways if these people know whats good for them they'll 1. start targeting strong social players and not like ... ppl with no social power in this game lol 2. start doing shit with the jury !!!! like i hope they do know that you cant just blindside everyone and not try to at least have ppl who like you on the jury.... 3. making the voting more interesting i think this season has been almost entirely unanimous (yes that 3-2-2 vote is included in that).  anyways back to me, my final words are watch out I'm totally returning for villains season or all stars! bye bye silly bitches :***

Gwen becomes the (in theory...) first member of the jury

[survivorazores]

Fan Favourite Awards!

With 47.1% of the vote, congratulations Ruthie! You are the community member fan favourite!

With 43.5% of the vote, congratulations Mo! You are the newbie fan favourite!

Thank you to everyone that voted, and congratulations to our fan favourites Mo and Ruthie!

[survivorazores]

Ep. 8 - “People will probably think I'm lying even if it is the Bee Movie script” - Amanda G

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163848143303/reward-challenge-survivor-auction

I NEED TO KNOW WHO VOTED WHO DSFJSDHKFJDSJ. Did emily/amanda/ali vote together with someone correctly??? Also so iconic how emily <3 and my espresso pals didnt get votes. This really makes me want to win the next immunity so I'm closer to merge and I can meetup with them and get the details

This is my first auction and I'm really curious to see how this is gonna go down

OK Wow my alliance arent snakes and im alive! the vote went exactly how it was supposed to go! Nayeli went home and so did her idol! So now I know that the dragons alliance (Emily, Amanda, Will and I) are a solid 4 person majority! Which means were most likely going to make it to merge knock on wood! As long as the hosts dont try and of that bullshit and swap us again we should be all set!

I'm so happy that I'm finally in the majority!!! Host Ali even said, "Congrats for your first vote in the majority! woooo!" I'm honestly very happy about it and I'm stoked for the reward challenge. I feel confident and even if I don't get something good, it doesn't matter. Nothing can get me down right now.

WHEW is all I can say tbh. I'm so overwhelmed but everything played out how it should. Things are looking up!!! Nayeli's idol is gone!!! I have everyone in the tribe on my side I believe!!! Um!!! I'm still a nervous wreck but happy because things worked out.

ok im gonna start playing messy af now lol lIKE NO MORE BS i should have known nayeli was a target bc she had a idol fuckkkkkkk and they purposely split the votes bc I'm assuming ali told them that we were in an alliance. IDK WHAT TO DO LOL!!!!!! bc i don't wanna be anyones bitch and be like awwww keep me here and ill do whatever you want lol. i don't wanna trust ali though like really ?????? like you obviously don't like our alliance and I'm gonna start flipping now. idk who to trust but its definitely not someone who outs their alliance the minute the first time we go to tribal. like when was nayeli going after you ali!?!!??!?!?!?!??! never LOLOLOLOL fucking idiot and hell realize that. i wish he would have used that info and told her and we could have used the idol!!!!!!!!! anyways its evident he has more alliances and i wanna fuck him up i hate men

idk what to do I am very alone in this game and its evident from the 2 votes and also WHY WOULD ALI LET THEM TRY TO IDOL ME OUT!!! FUCK YOOU YOURE NOT A GOOD ALLY NOW I CLEARLY CANT TRUST YOU AND IM POPPING OFF ON HIM RN

ok i don't like abbey or will just bc i don't like talk to them at all, i don't like ali for reasons mentioned before, and emily n amanda G LIKE WHAT DO I DO WITH THEM !??!?!?!?! they were a part of the whole skeem (pls god help me spell that word) so how can i trust them ?!?!? i wish i had someone else to help with this game to tell me what to do saifnsaifndsionfdsio i really need to come back n glo up

Lol nayeli getting voted out??? Hmmm looks like the alliance I had with Ali is over since he is now clearly a RAT

ALI KEEPS SAYING I KNOW YOURE MAD N I REGRET IT LIKE NO YOU DONT!!!! you willingly made that decision just own up to it and stop bullshitting it. i hate when ppl do that like you made that move OWN IT BITCH!!! like if i ever made jury or whatever I'm not bitter like i would vote for ali in a heartbeat if he blindsided me again goddamn it but don't say i regret it and i feel bad like ITS YOUR MOVEE!!!!!!

i got played rip and i know it was amanda lynn that told emily about my alliance with nayeli n michael n ali fuckkkkk GTE HER OUT!!! i knew she was no good from the start bc she was playing other games n hosted a bunch and we got out some person who wanted her out who was in my alliance week 1 like I'm an idiot great! THAT MAKES ME SO ANGRY

I'm excited to see what sort of things are up for action and I hope I can get my hands on something advantageous. I don't really have too much to say

Ok time to get confident and win something to help me since there's no way I'm getting an idol through searching. I hope the auction gets me a good prize cause I need it. http://www.rophydoes.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/07/glee_1375.gif

I'm nervous because I'm gonna most likely be getting in a call with Will and after Ricky going home I don't know what's going on in his head

How I have felt this whole game being attacked and unsure of who to trust I just gotta get a little bit longer to jury http://i.imgur.com/6NUZjGp.gif

I knew Gwen would be mad but my girl Emily told her that amanda Lynn spilt the tea and that she's a rat YAHAJWHQHAHAHAHQH

http://youtu.be/MqyixybVn2I

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163853320623/auction-results

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163852968898/tribal-immunity-8

I bid on a parchment... And I don't know what's in it. I'm really nervous to find out because no matter what I say, people will probably think I'm lying even if it is the Bee Movie script. I hope it's a vote steal or something like that, that would be a game changer. I'm also super stoked that Emily also got an item, but again, it could be the Bee Movie script.

Y'allllllllllllll This auction? The opposite of nut! Amanda Lynn (I believe Amanda Lynn won it I forgot already) has the power to look at one person and see all the alliances they're a part of??? UM?????? I'M IN LIKE TEN ALLIANCES GIRLIE THIS IS NOT GOOD FOR ME!!! I should have bid on that oh my god. But now I have a parchment with beneficial information to the game? Fun.  Ali T has a spy glass??? Gwen has something I forget but it's something good I think. God! I'm scared. These are all things that can really hinder my game. I'm like very worried. I'm just hoping no one uses their advantages against me. ESPECIALLY the alliance one. I................. hate my life

So I got what I wanted at the auction. I didn't really want anything because I was afraid I could be targeted because of it and I didn't want to outbid anyone. My torch is pretty lit (so punny) so I'm really happy! The other tribe getting a disadvantage in the next challenge is iconic tbh so wig! Francie having her person challenge advantage is scary because I think she's already good at challenges so I have to watch out for that. Amanda Lynn getting the power to talk to a voted out person is honestly the only thing I would want. I would love to be able to talk to like raf because I don't think I am allowed to anymore since he's out of the game and I'm still in. It was super cool to see Amanda G and Emily slaying the auction as usual. Amanda G could have a vote swap or steal or extra vote or something so if I remain aligned with her and we both make it to merge then that will be great. I was shocked that Mo gave me his money on his way out,  I thought he might not really be with me so that was a nice surprise. I need to start making sure he believes that he is my closest ally so I can be safe on this tribe. He is very loyal and I think he plays based on his emotions and wouldn't turn on a friend and that is basically me except for like once when I voted out the two people who went to rocks for me at F6 at F5 and F4 whoops! But yeah as long as I have him I think I'll be good, especially because I think/hope he isn't as close with Amanda Lynn and Francie so if they want another espresso member out it would be him. Michael wasn't at the auction so that was iconic. Also Amanda Lynn went on a mini bidding war with me for the best item aka torch, so I should make sure I let her know that me bidding wasn't against her and I don't think her bidding was like a move against me; so that there can be nothing assumed that would make us not as close. I miss the INFP's :(

SHIT man Amanda G got an extra vote!!! I love this girl and how we tell each other everything. I told her about my merge idol clue!!! We're excited!!! Okay I'm a little more at ease. I just gotta watch out for that alliance thing that Amanda Lynn has. That's scary. And I KNEW I should have bid on it. Oh shit now Ali is telling me about his item - I love having everyone trust me - HE GETS TO SEE EVERYONE'S VOTES!!! Guess I can't lie to him about the vote anytime soon lmao. Ugh we have a 10% disadvantage this tribal, and that's RUDE because Espirito has a 50% ADVANTAGE with Amanda Lynn and Francie like WTF!!! Never mind fjasnkjflnkads I'm gonna go play free rice and learn some grammar goodbye

Guess who is stupid and just realized Gwen is the one with the alliance revealer. LMAO! I guess I gotta vote her out fdnsfjknad she is not getting a hold of my one hundred alliances no sir.

I got an extra vote!! I'm pumped, but also nervous. If I get blindsided and voted out, it's not transferable. I feel secure with this and the idol and since Emily told me she has a clue to the merge idol, we can get very far in this game together and I'm pumped!

I just realized I said I'm pumped twice and I apologize.

I can ask a question which could be good but I have to figure out how to word it to maximize the usefulness. I'm glad my auction was on good nite and not wasted whew

EXTRA DETAIL:

Ashley used her question this round and her question was: 

What is the exact location currently of every possible prize ( idol vote stealers advantages etc) you guys have created for this game? 

The answer she got was:

- Somebody on Salao has the re-hidden Espirito idol, so there is no idol to be found for the Espirito tribe - The Salao idol was found and re-hidden (meaning someone went home with it), and currently nobody has found it - Those are the only idols currently in the game - Gwen still has the alliance revealer - Ali T still has his spyglass - Amanda G still has her parchment, and that item cannot be transferred - Amanda Lynn has not used her knowledge/closure item - The contents of Emily's envelope will only be revealed to her at the point when its contents become relevant, but she still has the envelope - Will still has his necklace w the feather - Francie still has her 15% advantage

This is a good challenge just bc of the cause it's going to. Honestly, I can't stop laughing about the "buy yourself out of the auction" and the useless torch items from last night. Also, re: actual strategy and stuff, apparently Nayeli and Michael were somewhat a duo for some time before the tribe swap. I'm glad Nayeli is gone because it breaks up that alliance there.

I'm so tired I feel like being lazy on this challenge but I don't want to be the reason we lose and I definitely don't want to get the smallest amount of rice so I'm just going to get rice all day I guess!  I hope we win and I'm glad I didn't get the disadvantage in the auction, hehe, sorry abbey

re: free rice guys my brain is melting this is too repetitive 

My only plan for this fake idol right now is to wait until a major move needs to be made, and then lure someone into trusting me and give them the "idol" to play at a tribal council where - in reality - they'll be blindsided. There's plenty of people in this game right now who are big targets that trust me enough to where that would work - realistically I shouldn't have told Abbey but that shows her that I trust her 100% right now and that's what I need at the moment. If I had to take out any of old Espirito (besides Abbey) at any point, I could probably do it with this - Ruthie, Mo, or Amanda G especially, I can see them being big social threats post-merge - but I could also pass it along and convince someone to give it someone else. Regardless it gives me a bit of power right now and I like it.

I'm stressing out about rice but I just hit 40,000 so I'm hoping everything will be fine!!! Espirito better flop at this challenge lmao

I feel like I've been playing free rice for so long. I have almost 27,000 grains and my brain is fried (rice.) Please help me

Tea: I don't want to go to tribal again until the merge! I hate tribal at this point!

I am so nervous for the deadline. I'm thinking the announcement might be merge and I'm praying it is so I can get back with Bryce. I don't want to go to another tribal council until merge, so I'm hoping that Salao pulled through and won.

I literally have been sitting and clicking on my computer ever since I woke up this morning. I got 59,250 grains of rice...........we better win I swear to GOD!!!! That damn 10% disadvantage will really hold us back and I'm not happy about it.

ok thank god emily n ali tried super hard and i did really decent in the challenge so i can pray i have immunity and hopefully keep winning it until a merge LIKE I DONT WANNA GO HOME!! emily ali n amanda are still being really nice to me tho. also i told amanda g i wanna go really far with her so lets hope that makes her want to keep me. I'm going to try and tell her that if she votes me out then like theres going to be 2 bottom people out of that 5 person alliance and we can balance that out with me and ill actually be her ride or die

The Espirito tribe loses immunity

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163887476263/immunity-results-8

OH GOD FUCKING BLESS WE WON IMMUNITY that means no scrambling, no mess (for now), and hopefully someone I don't know or who's out to get me gets voted out that would be.... a dream wow

...........shit. I don't want to go to tribal, but the alliance I'm in has plans in place from last tribal for this one. Us former Salão members + Mo have majority so we should be able to target someone (likely Ashley) and get them out successfully as long as we stick together.

Fuuuuuuck, the last time I was this nervous was the fourth tribal council. I really don't wanna go home though and all I can do now is rely on social game.

I'm so happy!!!!!! I don't have to vote anyone out tomorrow!!!! I'm so happy!!!! Salao CRUSHED IT!!!! I don't have to turn on anyone!!! My day wasn't wasted!!! God - I am so happy. I spent so much time earning rice... I truly hate myself for it. But Gwen will likely use her alliance thingie on Amanda Lynn in merge, thus exposing her! That'll be great considering I want her to be voted off before she can secure any individual immunities. I think merge is tomorrow night. I can't believe how iconic this is. I'm yelling!!!! I can't believe I might actually be making merge??? AND I have a merge idol clue??? ICONIC! I just love life right now. Now I have time to read and work on scholarships tomorrow now that we are immune and my show is over!!! Wow - this is so great. I love Salao and I was really stressed about having to vote out another tribe member.

Something I'm worried about though is how I exposed Amanda Lynn to Gwen and that will probably blow up in my face. I can always claim I didn't say the things I said or whatnot... But I can't wait to be reunited (HOPEFULLY) with Bryce and hear all of the things that have gone down on Espirito!!! More INFPs calls!!! Oh my god - things are looking up??? I'm hoping I'm not reading too much into hosts asking us to be present after tribal... But I think we're merging??? I hope so!!! Oh my god!!!

Also, you would think that after like twenty hours of earning rice from answering questions about English grammar, I could write a nice confession essay sort of thing. I'm just too excited. I'm sorry. AHHHHH!

This comp is such a risk cause some people have irl stuff while others have plenty of time. It's luck and sadly we lost again. Let's hope our tribal can be easy like last time and we agree on who goes. I'm just trying to get to jury cause I know there are people,that want me out. Now to see what's the general feeling around

thankful we fucking won omg i needed that!!! and everything does seem really cool wit amanda g n ali. I'm not sure what I'm going to do at merge at all but well have to see what michael is doing and maybe we can start fucking shit up

I'm not ready for my game to end

We lost JFSKDHJKDSHFDSJKFHDS. I really didn't want to lose so I'm a flop. I had been pretty calm and happy sitting out for a tribal for once so to be back here is unfortunate. Mo wants ashley out and idk who else is the target but hopefully not me. Im gonna talk to Amanda and Michael and see what they think 

Im so ready for a merge, if its another switch im gonna cut someone, I legit did that challenge for 4 hours and and off an on all damn day! so I better make merge *prays* also lets talk the tea on Amanda Lynn, so Emily and I are close allies so we talk ALOT, she tells me Amanda Lynn made so many alliances and then she ratted the alliance that SHE made without even telling me about she told me that "she was my closest ally" Im ready for Queen GWEN SAGGLICOA to take her weave off come merge (please be merge) and Emily and I can stay under the radar!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. Ashley says people are deciding between me and Mo, but I think Me, Francie, Mo, Amanda are all voting her so it should be good. But I don't know how well I can trust them. Francie says she doesnt talk to Ashley often but Ashley mutineed for a reason so it might not add up

https://youtu.be/7k9-9lCT0t0

Amanda and I have been talking today we've convinced Mo and Bryce to vote Ashley. Everything seemed to be going well but then Ruthie told the Feminism chat that Mo and Bryce were planning on voting Ash. Who told Ruthie??????? (shit??)

At this point you have to wonder what Ashley is doing telling people who's names are up that they're up bc it's messy. On the bright side, now Michael is considering voting Ash. We didn't try to get him to vote for her before because last time we brought up her name Michael tried to talk us out of it so he might have some kind of connecting with Ash. However, he's considering voting for her now (or he's playing us in the chat) so maybe it'll work out?

Michael randomly is seeking drama which is a choice... I just let him know what Ashley told me and he tries to make it seem like I'm hiding things from him when she literally didn't give me a name...

*Aaron Burr voice* “I'll keep all my plans close to my chest” (unlike Toph did) aka I'm going to try to keep my connection with Amanda on the DL bc I don't really need anyone knowing how close we are

I just want to survive this tribal then I'll be happy I don't even know what's gonna happen but I wanna be there for it. It's prob gonna get messy and I love seeing it !!! Yeah I know week one I didn't want to see it but it's much later in the game time to mess stuff up

Mo VS Bryce.... HMMMM.  I would rather Mo stay but i don't want my alliance to think that I'm like... being too pushy about it so I'm happy to just sit back and vote whoever they want.  I want to turn into someone that is just borderline chill so I can just... blend in a bit and make it to at least merge which I think is... SOON!

My perfect game is going out the window because Ashley wants to vote me ;(. So either no perfect game or game over lol, I guess I can be fine with receiving votes then.

Hoping everything goes well

I'm a bit nervous for Espirito's tribal because Bryce is still on that tribe. I really hope he isn't on the outs and that he makes it out alive tonight. I think we're going to merge after tonight, so I hope nothing bad happens to him.

I am so paranoid but im trying the fun method of ignoring my problems and pretending they dont exist!! Also amanda Lynn and her fear of idols is really messing with me because she doesnt want me to tell anyone other than mo and francie that im voting ashley but thats problematic because ruthie and michael want to know JKDSFHFKS. maybe im being played!

God, I hope tonight is the merge. Also, I'm praying that Bryce stays tonight!!! I think he will be fine because he's very under the radar, but I'm still very nervous! :0 I just don't want my game to blow up but... I feel like it'll happen soon especially because Gwen is planning on exposing Amanda Lynn soon with all of her alliances and whatnot. How did Gwen figure out that Amanda Lynn was leaking all her information? Me. I'm literally such a rat dkjfa;fdjs I-I can't handle myself. At least I have a few people that will help me vote out Amanda Lynn if possible. I know Gwen will be against Amanda Lynn, Ali will (We compared notes last night and I told Ali that Amanda Lynn has exposed a lot about him and his alliance), Amanda G will, Bryce might, Michael might (because he's close with Gwen), and who knows what else we can do!!! I'm so nervous!!! Merge? I want it. Merge? Keep it. I just don't know what I want honestly. Hoping for the best.

My heart is in my stomach right now. I'm so nervous about this twist, I'm hoping that it's merge so Emily and I can be reunited with Bryce. I really hope that we can get together and dominate until final 3.

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163925353903/tribal-8-ashley-voted-out-5-2-bryce-received-2

LAST WORDS:  I have no clue what happened more than likely someone is lying so I was rudely voted out for no reason. All I wanted was one more week then I would have gladly sit back and let them fight it out. I'm proud of myself tho cause it was a struggle from day 1. Idk why this game is so crazy but I have never had a game like this. I had stress and anxiety from start so I had to work extra hard and I'm just done with the game. I'm all for being a snake or engineering a blindside but you can't play in a game where you can't trust anyone. I literally had no one I could trust for the entire game. Ruthie is loyal but I wasn't working with her until we were forced to. Once we separated I felt better knowing I could play my own game without rumors swirling. Honestly I really am disappointed in the game overall because I really couldn't play a normal game I'm used to where I strategize and make allies and big moves cause I was too busy trying to keep myself out of target. Too many people switching their minds and flip flopping make the game messy and while I don't mind messy it way too early. Jury phase hits then yeah let's get messy but prejury is too early for that. At this point I think Ruthie and will are only ones that deserve to be in the game cause they are playing well unlike the rest who just follow along and don't know how to make their own choices. I can't respect the snakes that flat out lie to you either which there are several of. Being a snake is one thing but what they are doing is rude and not game play. It's taking it personal and I have absolutely no respect for that.

Ashley becomes the final premerge boot of Survivor Azores

[survivorazores]

Ep. 7 - “A connoisseur of keyboard smashes“ - Abbey

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163772166338/tribal-immunity-7

Whew! An easy tribal ty to my tribe for not being crackd this proves who the ones that need to go are!!  Now to win and make jury since I'm already a huge target 

Ricky being voted off is good because I never talked to him when we had the One World Beach. I'm just glad to see Bryce safe :-)! Things have been very calm on Salao. How I like it. Now a new challenge has been posted and god - I think the hosts know how much I suck at puzzles and are rigging it against me. Anyway, I guess I have to work on that tonight after the show. I'm excited! I'll probably call Amanda and work on the puzzle with her. I'm hoping something interesting happens soon but I am also enjoying the peace.

i got swapped away from amanda and its a bad time. im with will and emily and we have plans to make a majority alliance that should work. we won immunity though so thats good

The thing is I love Emily so I just don't know what to should I spill the tea? Also these two new people I don't get at ALL they barley talk something sounds fishy to me I'm thinking of splitting the votes also I love me some Gwen! I love her, abbey is a wild card I just wanna make merge

This puzzle is going to be the death of me. It's so difficult and I don't understand how someone can do it in under 20 minutes. Lord, help me.

OMG IM SOOOO HAPPY RICKY IS OUT!!!! I literally have only been to 1 tribal i loves it!!!! and now we have a 6th person out I'm GAGGGING SIGNOSINIOSNGSIONSOINIOSNF i can't wait till merge bc thats when shit really does get real af!!!! but anyways congrats on amanda n michael for surviving that tribal bc it was 4v4 i wonder who flipped???????? but whatever still  going to keep doing what I'm doing:)))))

I'm really nervous about tribal if we lose like no one talks game to me like I thought I was in a AmaZing position for the first half of the game we just need to win immunity otherwise I think I'm in a precarious position but it might be all paranoia

I have done this puzzle about twenty times. My time started at forty-seven minutes and now I'm at eighteen. I just want to beat fifteen!!! I can't do that though.

In regards to my social game, I've been keeping in touch with Ali and Amanda G of course, but I've also been talking a lot to Gwen, who is SUCH  sweetheart. She's just so sweet. We talked for a while about astrology and a little about theatre and like she just seems so genuinely interested and can actually keep a conversation. I love her??? So sweet. I feel really bad that I want to align with Gwen while trying to take out one of her closest allies, Nayeli, but it's because Nayeli has the idol and I can't fuck with that!!! I'm scared!!! Amanda G also has an idol but no one knows she does. It's pretty much universally known Nayeli has an idol. And we need her to either play the idol so we can get it out of the way, or she doesn't play it and gets voted off with the idol in her pocket.

Of course I'm hoping we can avoid tribal for another round, but I suck at puzzles. I see that Francie has scored a sixteen minute score and Nayeli twenty-seven minutes. That's a lot of a difference between scores and I'm worried!!! We have less than three hours!!! I just don't want tribal :-( I don't know who I would target and I'm scared I might be a target for some reason??? I just never feel safe and I don't know why. The only reason I would want to go to tribal is to get rid of Nayeli's idol (and also to make a pretty parchment. I've only made one.)

So I feel like I'm in a good position here I hope I don't get blindsided I have allies and I have abbey so I hope we can split the votes Nayeli kinda made me mad tho she said she didn't wanna talk to me because she said she was good with me, I kinda wanna get will out he's a threat and I don't what that at merge

Ricky getting voted out is both good and bad for my game, bad in that my best friend and number two is gone RIP, we would've been an F2 lock while keeping it lowkey - which brings me to why this is good for my game. We wouldn't have been able to keep an alliance quiet for long and we would've been picked off, so it's good that (if one of us did have to go) it happened pre-merge. Someone made a voting confessional saying he was a dangerous player for having survived the chopping block three times... little do they know I was a part of that as well. Oops! I know Amanda G will try to turn on me at some point for lying to her about the Zoe and Rafael votes, but for now we have to work together. It makes no sense to get rid of her until at least two of the other original Salaos on our tribe are gone. Me and Abbey can keep playing the middle, and if we have to go to tribal we could easily push people against someone else. My core four right now are me, Abbey, Emily, and Amanda - and I know we can take out the others if it comes to it. Nayeli is a good person to keep as well - we could take Ali out unanimously now, then turn the numbers on Nayeli and Gwen if we needed to. I'm not playing to make friends and share fun stories anymore, I'm playing to win this.

I've never been more nervous for results. I did terrible in the challenge and I'm hoping others don't target me for that

My former tribe ties should keep me safe in this game, but I can't trust other people's influences on one another. I'm out for myself in this tribe.

i hope i get voted out. yeah i literally dont really talk to anyone bc im literally tired't of survivor its ugly BUT im just hoping someone else is liked less

I love the concept of other people taking the lead, because I'll never be the one to take the fall. If a rumor or an alliance or a name originates from someone else it makes it that much easier to hide when shit goes down and let the other person take the heat for it and I'm? Entirely okay with that?

The Espirito tribe finally wins immunity

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163810008853/immunity-results-7

This is my fourth tribal and I hate this. I just want a break from tribals, especially live ones. I hate them because the struggle is real to come up with a good answer live and the struggle is real to keep your poker face in tact. I'm really nervous for tomorrow but hopefully, we'll get rid of Nayeli.

I'm so glad we won this challenge because we don't have to worry about this coming tribal council. What does worry me is that I had the second shortest time, after Amanda, (though Bryce's time was only 30 seconds more than mine) because even though it helped us win it's likely to put a target on my back come merge if people come to view me as a threat for doing a good job in challenges. I'm not gonna lie, I'm glad I had the second shortest time because the primary target at merge would be Amanda before myself. I want to keep Amanda in this game because I trust her more than the other players but it's kind of a comfort knowing that even if I wind up with a target on my back shortly after merge, someone else has a larger target. If she leaves before I do then I'll really have to worry.

IM SO HAPPY, THIS IS WON-DERFUL

I won a challenge??? Only the 2nd challenge I've won so far excluding the left/right thing. It feels good to not be in trouble for a  day! Also I looked at some wiki seasons and I think the merge will be approaching soon. I really hope Amanda, Emily, and Will... are safe! I miss our calls :(

We did that!!!! Whew thank you team!!! https://vignette3.wikia.nocookie.net/glee/images/9/9a/MarryYouBrittana.gif/revision/latest?cb=20120810110301

WE WON SOMETHING WOOHOO! winning has never felt so good I'm glad I'm safe for one more week and it'll be interesting to see what happens with the other tribe.  I just hope that Will will be okay. I doubt it will be nayeli because I think she's really well liked by everyone.

SO we lost the challenge which is fine tbh. Will and I have a plan so it should work out fine. An alliance came together of Will, Emily, Amanda and myself. Thats 4 on a tribe of 7 so we have majority. I want gwen gone, but Gwen is close with Nayeli apparently and Nayeli has the idol. SO I came up with the idea to try to flush the idol. Idk if its gonna work yet but we shall see

Not only did we win but we won with puzzle challenge which I am horrible at!!! I was not last!!!! https://68.media.tumblr.com/f430e94315accfedf94476de6bc56178/tumblr_inline_oietjpkxfl1tu9u6o_500.gif

I just realized that I made a typo in my confessional from a few hours ago as I was looking at the immunity challenge results again. The difference in my time and Bryce's was 20 seconds not 30

ODHHHHHHHHHH my god. My page refreshed before I could send my long ass, well thought out confessional. This thing was like ten paragraphs, I kid you not.I guess I'm starting over.

I'm bummed about losing the competition because I feel like I'm really stuck. The person I want to go after is Nayeli because she hasn't made any connections with me and she has an idol. Her idol makes me very uneasy. I want to get rid of it before merge.

My plan for doing so is to get Abbey, Ali, Amanda G, and Will to vote for Nayeli. I know that Gwen is very close to Nayeli, and if Nayeli's name is brought up to her, Gwen will inform Nayeli of the fact, and Nayeli's idol will definitely be played. Whoever Gwen and Nayeli vote for will then be voted off, and that is very risky considering I'm aligned with literally everyone else on the tribe.

I just ended a call with Ali about the coming tribal, and he seems very on board with voting out Nayeli. He told me he was added to an alliance called "The Girls Next Door" with Gwen and Nayeli once our new tribes were settled. He didn't tell me about his five person alliance he had previously with Amanda Lynn, Michael, Gwen, and Nayeli, but I remember it. I still trust Ali nonetheless. We both established that we can tell each other anything - though I'm not exactly doing that. I reassured him that no one was bringing up names to me, and that he wasn't just being left in the dark - though that is what is sort of happening. We made a plan though. He is going to talk game with Nayeli and Gwen and lean them towards voting out Will. Ali will tell them that I will vote with them and thus have the majority. In their mind, it will be Ali, Gwen, Nayeli, and myself voting Will and then Will, Abbey, Amanda G voting elsewhere. But, if everything goes how I want it to, the votes will fall like Gwen and Nayeli voting for Will and Ali, Amanda G, Abbey, Will, and myself voting Nayeli. Nayeli doesn't play her idol, and she goes home. If Nayeli does happen to play her idol, Will goes home. Will isn't as close to me as the others. The problem with being aligned with everyone in the game is not wanting to see anyone go because you gain something from each connection :-(. I don't want Will to go, but I also would rather him go than Amanda G or Ali.

If Gwen and Nayeli vote Abbey, though, I wouldn't be very upset either. I have thought about who I would want to go the most if Nayeli plays her idol, and I have decided it's either Will or Abbey. I feel like Abbey trusts me because of the Gal Pals alliance that Amanda Lynn created. I know that Abbey and Amanda Lynn are very close, and that is dangerous, especially considering how good Amanda Lynn is at comps. If I want to take Amanda Lynn out eventually - and I do - then I need to weaken her connections. Abbey would be the first boot because they are so close. And I don't have to go through Amanda Lynn for "permission" because we're on separate tribes. She wouldn't be able to confront to me about it until merge. I'm enjoying the One World Beach being taken away for that reason only.

I have also been planting seeds that Amanda G is a good person to have around because she's pretty alone and has few connections, which isn't exactly very true. Ali briefly brought up her name during our call, and I told him I think it'd be smarter to keep someone with no allies around and use them as a number in our favor. He agreed. I'm praying that when Ali talks to Gwen and Nayeli about the vote, Amanda G is not the one they plan on targeting. I want them to vote out either Abbey or Will. I could even tell them that Amanda G would be a number on their side. She would vote how we want her to vote. I just need to protect that girl. I can't have her leaving pre-merge. She and Ali are the ones I'm closest with on this tribe.

Ugh, but another negative to voting out Nayeli is that I just reconnected with Gwen and I'm going to have to keep her in the dark about this vote if I want this plan work. I feel bad because I really like her and I trust her and I want to work with her! But I also know she will guarantee Nayeli stays another round. And I can't have that. I need Nayeli and her idol gone before merge! I'm hoping I can do some damage control with Gwen after tribal and explain to her why I didn't tell her what was happening.

I'm going to talk to the newly formed alliance of myself, Amanda G, Abbey, and Will about this plan tomorrow and tell them Ali will vote with us and get the scoop on how Gwen and Nayeli will be voting. But now that I'm thinking about this, they will be very uneasy with Nayeli and Gwen's votes going towards one of them especially if Nayeli can play an idol, almost guaranteeing one of our own goes home. I just need to explain to them that Nayeli won't play her idol and we will be fine! We just need to stick together and stick to the plan. I don't think we can afford to split the votes. WAIT! If three of us vote for Nayeli, two for Gwen, and two (Nayeli and Gwen) vote for whoever, then that brings us to a tie if Nayeli plays her idol. A tie would then result in a revote between Gwen and the whoever, and we could vote out Gwen there. I like Gwen and I don't want her to go home, but if the dragons get worried, I'll need to tell them that plan to guarantee we don't go home this week.

I'm just hoping that no one is catching on to my many alliances. Once they do that, I'm fucked. Everyone will turn on me and I'll be gone. I also feel that I will be given responsibility for whatever results from this tribal, but I don't mind. I was talking to Ali about this and he was saying he doesn't want any blood on his hands from this tribal. While I admire that, I recognize that you have to get a little dirty if you want to win this game. I am more than willing to take responsibility for this tribal. I am not going to go to final tribal without a resume. This will be one of the things I can put on it. It's time for me to start making moves. I suppose getting a player with an idol out is my first real one. Wish me luck!

I'm so frustrated!!! I really like Gwen and I hate that I'm keeping her in the dark about this Nayeli plan but I know I have to!!! I have to draw the "Emily is everyone's friend" line somewhere. I need to accept the fact that I'll have to backstab some people. I don't want to!!! I feel bad!!! And damn I thought I would be playing like a hero. I feel like a real villain. I have barely done anything bad but I feel so shitty!!! I just hope that Gwen understands this move and doesn't hate me. I want to work with her but I think this move puts a barrier between us. I feel bad. But also this will be such a blindside and I'm really excited to have my name on it??? But HOLY FUCK!!!! I JUST FEEL LIKE A MESS!!!!!!!! I took advantage of that four tribal gap. I need to start playing!!! But I'm scared!!! Oh god I hate my life.

Emily told me that she was thinking of getting Nayeli out because she has the idol and I'm all up for it. I really want to work with Gwen because she seems sweet, but at the same time I need to get that idol out. No one suspects that I gave Toph the idol and no one suspects that I have one now. I feel confident because no one has even thought that I could have it. I feel like my social game is really saving me right now and I'm proud of it. I really hope this doesn't backfire on me.

I'm just writing one of these today because Ali rhymed confessional with bombfessional.  Also I'm just really glad that I'm not having to go to tribal council tonight WHEW.

Bombfessional

My (can I even call it mine?) plan is working out very well. I am excited. We have decided it best to split the votes 2 Gwen, 2 Abbey, 3 Nayeli to ensure that one of us doesn't go home. I'm just praying Nayeli doesn't use her idol. I feel so incredibly shitty lying to Gwen like this but I know I have to. Why do I have to like everyone in this game??? Not fair. I think the thing I'm scared about most is Will flipping on us and sending one of us home. But I have some sort of faith he won't do that. Ugh. I guess we'll see tonight. :')

me and nayeli are going to fight it out at tribal i guess??? I'm hopefully going to be voting with emily amanda g and ali and were all voting out abbey (i would like to do will but nayeli likes him so i guess ill stay with it) and anyways nayeli might vote with will UGH but let the battle begin!!!!! i hope I'm right bc she said emily is shady but idkkkkkkk I've been so good with her n amanda g soooooo and ali is kinda just following me it seems. IM SCARED IM GETTING PLAYED but I'm sure that I'm actually going to get abbey out! hahahaha i did THAT! gwen starting her resume for the FTC

There's a very real chance I'm gonna get blindsided tonight, and there's not really anything I can do about it - if they were smart they'd take me or Abbey out right now. Actually if I was smart I'd take Abbey out since her and Amanda Lynn are basically locked in as an F2 alliance, but I'm just gonna play what I was dealt and in this round it looks like I'm going against Nayeli and Gwen - sorry y'all. The best part is that I can just blame this all on Ali no matter who goes home, unless if I go home then the girls clearly have something going on and... that's understandable lol who doesn't love an all girls alliance. If this really all is a big ruse and they're gonna blindside me, then props to them, but I also don't think that's coming just yet. I'm a loyal number and that's what people need right now, at least until the loyal number turns out to be the one calling the shots the whole time

Whew, this was a fast round!! There isn't too much to say... We won immunity bc my tribe is amazing at puzzles. I was worried we were gonna lose, since Michael could only do it on mobile and his time was almost an hour. YIKES! But he was able to knock of 30 minutes, so whew! I'm hoping that will cause people to overlook that I got the lowest score overall. I'm mot making myself look like a non-threat..... gotta work on that. Hoping I only need to survive one more tribal before merge!

I am so paranoid!!!!! Help me I swear to god if I leave tho I'll be shocked and I will bed for my return but please I hope I stay shwhwhwh

B o m b f e s s i o n a l

From what I've heard, we're splitting the votes between Nayeli and Gwen incase Nayeli uses the idol. If she does, all of our votes go to Gwen and she's gona. I hope it sticks to this because we need that idol out before merge.

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Eeek tribal coming up and I'm not in it, but I still don't feel quite comfortable in my current state of the game. Hoping a merge/twist happens soon or at least we can go on immunity runs. Really hoping our alliance doesn't go out 1 by 1 JFDKDSKF

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163847885008/tribal-7-nayeli-voted-out-3-2-2-abbey-and-gwen

Last Words:  i should have probably seen it coming since toph exposed me for having the idol. I almost abandoned the plan to go with abbey and vote out someone else when Will suggested it. maybe if i had done that i'd still be in the game but who knows.

Nayeli becomes the seventh person voted out of Survivor Athena: Azores

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Ep. 6 - “I'm saltier than my kitchen floor after that endurance challenge“ - Francie

After 5 wild rounds of strategy, the cracked Espirito tribe and comparably calmer Salao tribe were mixed together in a tribe swap.

The target on me is bigger than ever so I'm gonna have to pray and pray for a good twist right now. I cannot believe that worked out, Ruthie played that off SO well like damn she is a good actress they all genuinely believed she was going home!! I can't believe it holy shit. I am L I V I N G

Literally the second Ricky came back on I was like, "welp will can vote raf and get away with it." And then he did!! I just want one tribal to go well. I have to repair my situation with Mo now so thats fun. Hopefully he'll buy my pitch that I was just doing it to protect Will, which could make him see that Will was a threat after all.. But idk a twist sounds good.

WILL AND I DID THAT!  oh my gosh he is my PERSON I want to go to FTC with him, he's playing so good and he is like the ONE person in this game I feel like I can be completely open and honest with about stuff and I just really hope that he and I make it far and that we stay on the same tribe IF there is a swap!  I really do think that I'm in a good place still, I know I need to watch out for Amanda and Bryce because they were blindsided but honestly they should be more mad at Will than at me right now so it's all good. ;)

A tribe swap happens

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163701256193/announcement

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163702189018/tribal-immunity-6

WHAT IS HAPPENING

Looks like we actually correctly guessed a tribe swap this time hey! And look at that it worked out in my favor,  Amanda wants to stick with me even though I just lied to her face, Emily has been someone I've wanted to work with since day 1 of one world, and Abbey is just... an icon, a legend. I have a really good feeling about this tbh.

I wish I was on a tribe with amanda and emily... But welp. At least I have the people I have never voted with on my tribe :)!! We do have 4 people tho so I hope our old tribe sticks together because It would be real bad for the OG espresso to have an even bigger number defecit. I need to bond with Mo/Ruthie/Ricky and hope we are tight and hopefully pull in one more number. Rip Raf :(

This is coming from the person that has the red sign by their name at all times but EXXXXXXCUSE me, Michael's little dot was green and it turned to yellow right when i messaged him.  RUDE.  Michael if you're reading this I hope we got close but that was RUDE!!!!  :P

Raffy got voted out and I'm really sad about it. I felt isolated and alone because of the clear split and I knew that it would be me next because I was the next biggest target to them. Surprise! I get swapped with Emily!!! I'm sad that Bryce isn't with us, though. I'm happy that our tribals won't be influenced by the other tribe anymore, though. I'm also happy because most of the people from Salao are on our tribe, which will mean probably less messy tribals. This can also mean we will hopefully win more immunities! I don't want to have to use my idol any time soon.

yeah, this is what I was dreading. this has thrown a wrench in our old alliances and is forcing us to make new ones, obviously. I'm worried about existing bonds that were formed pre-swap and even pre-One World. former Salão members are at a numbers disadvantage within the new Espirito tribe so now we're trying to figure out how to play this new hand of cards. I have an existing connection with Bryce from that one partner challenge and I hope I can strengthen this bond and gain him as an ally

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DGL4JxVAvh8

Amanda L is messy I'm so happy that we won and our tribe didn't go to tribal now everyone still trusts me, I didn't like her plan of voting off Nayeli because I love michale and I don't want him to get mad at me but she kept on badgering me and I had to agree, it's kinda annoying tho to be honest, Amanda is a nice person but she's overplaying too much you know? Also I love Emily so much we have such fun calls

i'm going back to bed for a little while longer, I just wanted to say that I miss Will, I'm worried that he and Amanda are going to get picked off, Gwen is on that tribe and Gwen is the crazy that went right instead of left and I just don't want Will to go home.  It SUCKS not being able to talk to my ride or die right now. I think I'm in a really good spot right now though, I'm hoping that my old tribe stays strong and also Amanda suggested that me, her, ashley and francie who is super cool make an all girls alliance and I'm just so there for that, that's going to be AWESOME! I'm going to 100% tell Ricky everything and keep him safe, I feel like I should look out for Mo too but I don't want to be that person that tries to keep her entire old tribe safe in the all girls alliance

I just want to say taht im so proud of my baby (my video) IT WAS SOOOO CUTE AND FUNNNY!!!! i literally made that video hilarious omg aiongosaingoisdngoisd anyways im so thankful for michael for adding shit on and nayeli editing that AMAZINGLY!!!! but also now im trying to get good with emily and some other tribemate maybe amanda g?????? idk i need more allies!

i came up with the idea to have a lesbian alliance and I'm making emily get amanda to come get it together with her and ill try adding abbey later but omg iconic..... IOIFSBIOFISOFBIBFSUIB HAS THIS EVER HAPPENED???? my alliance is still nayeli n michael... but this could be more interesting

BYE RAFFY! KARMA IS A BITCH

That was crazy night I know Rafael was somewhat crackd but I did like him. Now it's time to crack down on this challenge. I think our group is good. The best of what's left seems to be here for most part. There are a few people I would like to make merge to work with in other tribe so maybe they can take out the crackd ones. I feel secure I think that we'll make smart decisions should we go to tribal

soo practically with all that information I'm think I'm pretty comfy in this game bc 1. i have a strong alliance with michael n nayeli 2. also with ali & amanda 3. now with emily by initiating us to resolve our tundra/toph drama 4. getting amanda in a lesbian alliance with me and emily now i plan on getting out will bc he's 1. a guy 2. no in any of those alliances and it'd be better for me to have more options open bc i wouldn't mind flipping for my lesbians if i need that

I know yay more confessions. idc about raffy so I'm happy he's out thank god i don't have to bother getting him out  and trying to make lame ass excuses why he should lol.  anyways i am however SUPER excited to that were 5 people out of the way and I've manage to go through only 1 tribal where i practically initiated getting out aundra with michael n nayeli and forming an alliance with amanda around that.  anyways my game plan atm is to win more of these immunities bc I'm not going to be on anyones bad side by making funny jokes and being nice and helpful! I'm pretty set until merge and thats kinda what I'm trying to do with this new alliance with emily to get 4v3 and win a majority if we go to tribal.  and hopefully i can survive like that for a while and then also come back with michael and amanda hopefully.

ok also if I'm being super fucking honest.... I'm still mad at amanda for being kinda boring in the film challenge bc I MADE ALL THOSE FUNNY IDEAS!!! but that won't sever my alliance at all with her. also idk how to talk to ali i got stuck with him bc of michael and idk how I'm going to speak to him :////

I'm glad to have made it this far, but I am really worried for myself after this tribe swap. I'm afraid the other tribe knows I'm a threat and want to take me Out

anyone else extremely happy to see only ONE woman leave this cast I'm loving it!!! I'm gonna laugh toward the end bc i know there will be like two all girls alliances conflicting with one another iangoisdngiodsnigdsiosdnodgs.

I'm very nervous about the results for immunity. I've never played this game and therefore didn't realize how many things these people had in common. I hope if we do go to tribal, my lack in answers won't hinder my chances in staying here

If I have go to tribal again I might just... I don't even know I just don't wanna think about that right now

I'm so scared!!! I went balls out on that chart - I probably put in like 30% of the pairs. I want to cry!!! I just want to be safe I don't want to have to scramble. Tomorrow is opening night for my show and I need a day off!!! Ugh I'm scared. And I worked really hard. We all did. I hope Salão can pull this out!!!

Normally I'm super nervous for results but it's so nice having tribe that actually talks. I haven't even realized that's it's been like half an hour. These are my peeps now keys win and solidify our bonding

The Salao tribe wins immunity

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163736442118/results-6

I'm not gonna like broadcast the fact that we probably won because I went in last minute and added a few more facts but... holy shit? We won? I'm so happy?

I'm so happy that we won immunity!!!! I finally have a day to relax, especially with One World being over. I don't get to worry about the other tribe's affairs and I just get to lay low, make my social game better, and relax

I CANT WIN A CHALLENGE DSFJFDSHJFKKDSHFJKDS. I'm really denise huh... So its a 4 vs 4 split based on tribal lines although ashley was an og espresso so maybe she'll be with me. I think I have a good relationship with Francie so maybe that'll save me from being salad's target. Time to prepare to be shook one more time!

What the HECK why did we lose by two points, I'm so frustrated. I'm glad I have the all girls alliance to fall back on and now I just have to figure... everything else... out too!

Espirito has been at tribal 3 times in a row now. I'm really conflicted because I feel like Ricky wasn't there at all to help, and that might put a target on his back and I don't think I can do anything about it sadly. But I think I helped, and I was pretty active in chat, but I don't know what Amanda Lynn is thinking because she's the power player, I may be going home next.

I have a lot to say about this loss. This 2 point loss. But I'm so tired. We are 10 days into this game and I'm drained. Currently, I need to put my trust in Ricky, and I'm so nervous about doing that. We had a long conversation on call that I'm too drained to discuss and we pretty much said we were nervous seeing the other on the cast bc we haven't talked for a year since Hawaii but we really just want to but that hell season behind us and work together. So I need to just trust him. I don't have another choice on that. 2 points. I could have found 2 more things. I'm so mad.

I can't believe we lost by two points. Two points. Anyway. I'm hoping that Amanda and I will get Ruthie and Ashley to vote with us since we're in an alliance. If we get Michael on our side as a former Salão member then we can have the majority this vote and use that to our advantage.

We won!!!! I'm so happy we won because I love everyone in the tribe and I really didn't want to vote anyone out just yet. And I worked super hard on that challenge. Yay!!! Now there's time to chill and bond rather than scramble and worry. I think my favorite part about the whole thing is that we won by two points. It was so close. I love it.

After this two point loss I'm saltier than my kitchen floor after that endurance challenge.

Here are two confessions because I think I forgot to send this one nakanwkwn One: http://youtu.be/giwY7r8bqLA Two: http://youtu.be/pEnc7w3e048

I'm nervous about this tribal, this may be it for me.

No one is really having a clear idea of what is going on at this tribal, is this how all the Espirito tribals have been???

Oh henny, not miss Michael flipping this vote.

Amanda and I called last night and we were planning on voting Ashley out. We've changed our minds since then and are going after Ricky because other tribe members are more likely to vote for him than Ash. Not only that but Ricky appears to have a strong social game which would be a threat should he make merge so its best to vote him out now. With us former Salão members, and a few others, we have the numbers to take him out tonight provided everyone keeps their word.

I love how I put a sense of doubt in people's minds about Ricky last night and this morning the vote has switched from Ashley to Ricky. These people are all unknowingly following my beat and I'm just chilling.

Okay... I know that at least half of my confessionals are just me complaining that I don't trust Ricky and being in this game with him makes me nervous. And that's still true. But yesterday, we went on call, and we had a good conversation. And I'm not gonna go into detail because that was just for us but like, we agreed to work together. And then Mo comes to me like, "I want to vote Ricky out because he isn't pulling his weight in challenges and I just want to get to merge and you can help me do that" blah blah blah. But like, Ricky trusts Mo and he wants Ashley out and all this stuff so I steer Mo away from Ricky and get him on the Ashley train and be like, we can get Ricky next time bc we would only need 4 votes then, blah blah and he agrees. Well then I talk to Michael Francie. And they bring up valid points. Ashley has been targeted and it would be easy to get her out later. Ricky has been a target every tribal and yet he is still here. He's got a good social game. Its the same thing that happened in Hawaii. Voting Ricky out makes sense. More sense than voting Ashley out. But.... I cannot believe I am having a moral dilemma about voting him out. I think I just feel bad because we just like, got on good terms and I feel like he really trusts me, and I do like him as a person outside the game. But literally everyone (except Ruthie) has brought his name up. Everyone wants him out. I don't want to put a target on me to try and save him if my whole tribe wants this to happen. I'm also torn because like, Abbey was aligned with him. He is a number for her. I don't want her to be mad at me either. Ugh, I hate this. Ricky is gonna think I'm just a manipulator and everything we said yesterday means nothing, and that's not true. He's not gonna know that until these confessionals come out and even then he might not read them. It's truly not a personal move. It's strictly a game move. I just hope this doesn't backfire in later rounds...

No idea what will happen tonite but I'm hoping I get through it. If I go I'll be so upset cause I really want to be here and give my all. I'm playing my best unlike these crackd people that are playing messy games. I'm hoping with the swap we have enough smart people to do the right thing.

I really hope Amanda isn't lying to me, I need to survive this and make merge so I can be back with Will and Abbey. I would love that foursome to be a thing. I can't even imagine what's going on over there. All I know is Fuck Ali Tanveer

People may think Amanda is calling the shots, but she literally is carrying out all my dirty work for me this tribal.

So think the vote is Ricky but hes pushing on Ashley or maybe me. I really regret not being able to be as active today because this is scary...

s t r e s s e d

the swap was ugly and i want to get voted out. i literally hate talking to people bc they're boring sometimes (sorrynotsorry). i hope michaels doing okay now that he's on the other tribe.

Me voting Ricky out?  Why am I about to start crying? This is one of the hardest votes I've had to make in my entire Survivor career, Ricky doesn't deserve this but I want to show my all girl alliance that I'm loyal af and that...  idk, that we aren't aligned I guess, but this is still so hard and I feel so bad and I want to like warn him or something but I KNOW he doesn't have the idol.  I want to go one round where I'm not looked at like a loon or something though but this just sucks all the way around, I feel so bad for Ricky and I feel like if we ever end up together again Will is going to be SO mad at me. I trust Ashley, Amanda and Francie but it's not the same as it was with Will, like I don't feel like I can talk about people idk, I'm just scared that they have an alliance with michael without me or something.

This is the Rick-key to my success.

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163772076838/tribal-6-espirito

Ricky becomes the sixth boot of Survivor Athena: Azores

[survivorazores]

Ep. 5 - “I'm kind of a queen of being a dumbass” - Emily

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163621758438/tribal-immunity-5

can't believe that just i worked i can't believe i just flipped mo i can't believe it holy shit

IM STILL HERE BITCH

Raffy go fart in a shoe box you lying bag of skittles

Toph is gone and he said he loves me and I'm just------ that can easily point to me having the idol. I'm sick to my stomach and I'm just trying to play it off like I have no idea what's going on.

Welp. Toph's gone. I'm not really upset since he mutinied.

I'm the target now. The vote went to a tie because Mo found out Toph was lying, then flipped Ruthie even though I told her to vote Ricky. Now I defended Toph in the tribal chat, but Bryce flipped and Ruthie wouldn't budge so Toph went home. Now my game is blown up, and Mo, Bryce, and ricky think I'm a snake which I am. I am just feeling so defeated at this moment that I have no words. Now I either have to win the challenge (unlikely because Amanda Lynn exists), find an idol (or have someone give it to me), or convince Ruthie to be by my side. I'm so frustrated! Here we go once again. Time to get myself out of a sticky situation.

Bryce? Don't trust him. The end.

I love ruining my own game! 

I may need to betray the NFPs alliance (amanda G, Emily, Bryce, and I) if it comes down to it. What's best for the group is not what's best for me. 

http://youtu.be/LKxITCeBOs8

I literally can't believe that I got Mo to flip that vote I can't believe that Rafael just exposed himself and I can't believe that any of that mess just happened!! Like I don't wanna be self absorbed but I can't believe that I got Mo to flip? Like out of everyone that I was trying to flip?? Amanda didn't do it, Bryce did on the revote but wasn't gonna budge, now both of them are like "I feel foolish" and I just... I really was convinced Ricky was going home but Rafael got entirely exposed by Mo and Mo is now my favorite person in this game and it's gonna be so good going forward. We need to fucking win challenges though because this troll is gonna have an idol sooner or later and I don't feel like dealing with that. So we'll see what happens next I guess but y'all.... it's CRACKED

After tribal was literally hell. I'm glad Toph is gone, if I'm being completely honest. He was too much for my game and being connected to him was not good at all. But the final nail in my coffin was Toph saying he loved me as his final words. AND saying he loved Amanda G. He just exposed both Amanda G and I for giving him the Espirito idol and being his closest ally without saying what we did. Now my tribe will not trust me because I have been saying I cut ties with Toph and his last words say otherwise. And no one even suspected Amanda G of giving Toph the idol and then he throws her name out making her a target? What was he thinking?! He wasn't.

Also, Rafael is in big trouble now on Espirito as well. He's in deep shit with Mo, Ricky, Will, and Ruthie and has made a huge target of himself because he was being called a snake and he didn't change his vote to Toph. Amanda G and Rafael, two of my closest allies, are in big trouble. And I'm likely in some trouble as well. I'm hoping for the best.

I'll give you more updates later and hopefully I will have a plan.

God, Toph telling everyone in the main chats that Nayeli had the idol (if he's even correct) is so sloppy. You don't do that in a chat she's in smh. A better play would've been to gather everyone in a chat except for her and tell them, thus exposing her without her knowing. Yes, it's shadier, but most likely a better strategic move depending on circumstances. Although I can't think of a scenario where exposing her where she can see is a good idea really.

So this tribal was WILD. I might have just lost this game but I'm hopeful. Literally since INFP was formed we've made nothing but mistakes! First with the bad idol play and now this flop of a tribal. For a reason unbeknownst to me Raf and Toph love stirring the pot and doing things in such a messy way. In the end I can't go to  rocks for Toph when hes doing the MOST but for the LEAST logical reasons. I will have to fall back in with Will and strengthen my closeness with Ruthie/Ricky/Mo, but I think its doable. I hope my alliance trusts me but honestly I think we should have all flipped.

I've decided to try and save my non-existent social game. I've sent an apology to both Will and Mo. So, I hope that works, and if it doesn't oh well. I need to pull through with this challenge or else I am screwed. Hopefully this all works out.

Being nice and forgiving is my new look in this game. No more fighting. Except you Ali Tanveer. Fuck you.

I'm trying my hardest to lead everyone in this challenge but no one is online!!! No one is contributing!!! We had a call for like fifteen minutes and we made a Google Doc, put one idea in there, then everyone blasted. I know it's a little late and everyone needs sleep but I'm triggered!!! This sort of thing is super fun to me and I do it a lot, but I usually rely on others to come up with ideas for the short films. And I write short stories, but they would all be hard to film and too creepy for what the tribe wants to make as a short film. I'm stressing out!!! And the hardest part of this is Amanda G and Raffy really want me to throw the challenge!!! And I don't want to!!! I'm having fun and I want to kind of take charge on this challenge since Toph didn't exactly leave me in the best position. I need to show these people I'm beneficial to the tribe. I just keep thinking I'm in a worse position than I am. But then I realize I have allies like... Everywhere? But I just need to keep doing damage control from Toph's exit. He called out both myself and Amanda G, my closest ally. I was trying my hardest to prove I wasn't aligned with Toph, and then he goes and tells me he loves me. I can't forgive him for that. Not cool.  This challenge being neglected by a majority of my tribe combined with Toph's dramatic exit are very stressful. I've submitted like three confessions in the past hour I'm SORRY but I just have so much to say.

Okay. I'm done with this defeatist attitude of mine. No one ever got far by throwing in the towel. It is also probably annoying for people to watch someone be utterly defeated because something didn't do their way. I still have a chance to get through this. I have Bryce and Amanda G definitely. Also, I may be able to pull in Ruthie. She is definitely cracked, but her being alone could help me flip her. I need majority and that is it. I've also personally apologized to both Will and Mo with Ricky coming to me. My social game is not dead yet. I will continue fighting and Will better hope the tribe wins this challenge because I'm pulling through. I am still here. I am still playing. As long as it isn't me going home, I am still good. I might have to implement Sandra's floater strategy. I might have to jump ship to Will's side if it comes to it and I am not opposed to it. Do anything you need to do in order to keep yourself in the game. I am playing to win, not for second place.

I'm not even playing a good game I'm just Will's cute sidepiece and I'm not mad about it tbh.

I am so nervous because after Toph called my name out, no one has really come to talk to me about it. That can mean two things: 1. No one cared and people think he just wanted to stir the pot before he left. 2. People don't want to talk to me and they're targeting me after hearing that. My worst move so far in this game was telling my alliance about the idol. I should've just kept it to myself, otherwise this wouldn't have happened. Emily told me that Will said he thinks that Toph was just stirring the pot, thankfully. That gives me hope that some people also think that. I'm nervous to search for the idol again because people might think I'm being suspicious. I just covered my tracks up regarding the idol and now Toph ruined that for me (I love you, but you really did potentially ruin my game). I'm going to fix this mess by using my social game to my advantage and talking to everyone. I know it may make me look like a rat, but I feel like I need to do this now. I have no idea who we would even target if we went to tribal council, which is scary. I think Raffy is painting a bigger target on his back, so I feel a bit more confident in my position. He's also trying to fix his social game, but he destroyed it more which gives me more hope. I pray that we win the challenge and people will forget that the blow up with Toph ever happened. If people do come and ask me about it, I'll just say that Toph was probably just trying to stir the pot. Hopefully, they'll believe me.

I think I'm slowly but surely building my social game back up. I'be apologized to both Will and Mo. Ricky came to me first, comforting me about being isolated and not holding grudges. Will understands and has already responded. Mo has not though I'm not too concerned right now. He'll come to me if he wants. Now, for the challenge we plan on making fun of ourselves and the craziness that was all the tribals involving Espirito members like "Ashley had the idol" or "Toph has the Espirito idol" or "Toph vs Ricky" and such. This is basically Survivor Azores: The Movie just to show how cracked everyone is. I hope that the people, even if they don't know survivor, will still see how crazy people are. I'm excited because laughing at yourself is the best way to form relationships. Hopefully Salao loses because I have a feeling that if I go to tribal, I will be voted out.

https://youtu.be/gH47ata1O4Y

I hate creative challenges. And I hate them move when I can't be on a lot DJFDSKJFDS. I did part of the script but luckily Amanda G did a bunch too! This challenge is so hard, I want a flash game... AND I HATE FLASH GAMES. 

Gwen, in regards to coming up with chip flavors we can promote for our commercial/video thing: Have you ever wanted to taste a bunch of really offensive things that is making not only the hosts, but your tribe mates uncomfortable? Me, in response: Have you ever wanted to taste a parchment with your name on it with a hint of snuffed torch???? I really... want to be voted out now pls..... I'm so uncomfortable

I'm too creative for my team they are jealous !!! #coldbrew

So I'm playing the role of Ray, and I'm kinda scared because I don't have any lines, just actions. So if we lose I'm afraid my tribe will think I didn't do much. I might try to change some stuff up. Also Ray don't hate me please.

I feel like my confessionals are getting a little more boring lately but that's a good thing because I feel kind of safe and I feel like mayyyyybe my tribe likes me now I just have to make sure I like have a good shoot of my lines tomorrow and that these people continue to want to keep me around.  I think that they think I'm borderline insane between the idol thing, the calling them out thing, and the me saying we should go to rocks thing last night but maybe they like that about me and I don't mind people thinking I'm cuckoo if that gets me to the end. I'm sad that Ashley mutinied but at the same time it makes the entire game SUPER exciting because I don't have my 'premade' now and I love getting to know these new people and I like that I've kind of succeeded on manipulating myself in a bit, I'm still surprised I have zero votes honestly but as worried as I was about Ash mutinying I'm glad in a way because I think it might help us both in the long run. I hope our tribe wins but I really hope that she stays safe and I really hope that Amanda Lynn stays safe because she's really nice, I've been talking to her some and she's such a sweetheart I want to work with her later on FOR SURE!

The INFPs want me to flop this challenge and I'm not going to do that. But my tribe may just do that on their own. I don't even know what their plan is. We have less than twenty-four hours to go and this short film is going to be a mess. I really wanted to edit this but I think Nayeli wanted to edit too, so I'm letting her take that over. But now we have essentially the whole tribe helping but Gwen is a little crazy. Also this idea is not going to work out very much. I just!!! Like doing things my way and this is not how I would do things. I'm trying not to intrude on editing with Nayeli but I also don't want to intrude on Amanda Lynn and Gwen with writing, the two things I'm good at. I'm :-/!!! What am I doing!!! I don't know!!! We're going to tribal though, at this rate.

Sooo I think I am actually good with my alliance still. And I think that our video might not be terrible so I might be able to avoid trouble!! If we do go to tribal  I think Raf will be the target or Will and it'll come down to Ruthie so I will try to get her and Mo on my side.

I absolutely adore the INFP alliance and if the One World twist ends, I'd actually be so upset because I absolutely adore Emily. I would hate to be forced to not talk to her. What I said during our tea spilling session about the other players was very genuine about the people in INFP and about the people playing the game in general. Ricky, Will, Raffy, Bryce, Ruthie, Emily, Abbey, even if we haven't talked much, I love you all and some of y'all are cracked icons! Some of you guys aren't the best for my game, but I love you all on a personal level.

I feel like currently I could be in either a really good position or a really bad position. You can't trust anything that's said on Survivor, but the fact that no one has brought up the Toph incident makes me feel a bit more secure. I don't feel secure enough to search for the idol, though. I really don't want to do that until everything blows over, which might take a while. I'm very nervous about everything and I'm just hoping that we win immunity.

I just had another wonderful call with my favorite alliance, the INFPs consisting of myself, Amanda G, Bryce, and Rafael. We discussed a lot of things. Like voted off players, the edgic, future game, and our games. I love them so much because they're so nice to me. They all complimented my game a whole bunch and made me feel a lot better about how I'm playing. Whether that is a good thing or a bad thing is up for me to decide. I'm very tired so I don't know if I can go into detail, but I took lots of notes on other players like Amanda Lynn, Francie, Will, Ruthie, etc. I love spilling tea with the INFPs because we all have such different perspectives on things. Everyone respects one another's opinions and can agree/disagree with lots of topics and we can still be strong. It's such a good alliance because everyone has different connections and is playing a different game. I love it. Also, out of the group, should we be exposed, Rafael would be the bigger target. Sure, I think I would be the next target BUT Rafael is still ahead of me. That gives me time to do some damage control should I need to. I'm going to go bed now because it's three-twenty am. Goodnight.

During my call with the INFPs, we were spilling tea about the other players and then Raffy's name came up. It was my turn and at the end I said: "I love you, man." Emily thought I was saying it to her and told me that she loved me too. It was honestly probably the funniest thing that's happened to me this entire game. When I said I was crying laughing, I wasn't lying. It was the funniest thing that's happened in the whole game. I love Emily, she's so wholesome and pure.

Baksbsksbskwbs omg I forgot a funny part of the call between the INFPs. Whenever we were all going through each player and sharing our thoughts, we were onto Rafael. I had given him my thoughts and next was Amanda G. She ended her thoughts with, "I love you, man," and I guess I wasn't paying enough attention to what was actually going on and I said, "I love you too," totally thinking she was talking to me. And then everyone laughed at me. I'm kind of a queen of being a dumbass? First Monica Padilla, now saying I love you to someone who was definitely not telling me they loved me. Amazing.

This challenge is so not my forte cause I'm not creative at all!! I'm gonna try my best to help cause I don't wanna go to tribal!! I think we have a solid group! I feel so much better with people that actually talk and get ideas flowing not just argue or try to draw lines!!! I'm hoping we do good cause we have so m any great ideas over here!!

Jay: Make sure you're here after the next tribal, it will benefit your game Me: Hello tribe swap But there will be 15? Jay, are we expanding to 3 tribes? Because we both know how much we both hate expansions. I'm terrified of being a swap flop AGAIN. I have little relationships with the other tribe. I'm trying to build one with Ruthie, and I really like her! I do not want to be on a tribe with Ricky and not Abbey. I DO NOT want to be on a tribe with Gwen and not other sane people. I'm really hoping its not a swap. On call last night, I thought it might be a Hero Challenge, and of course nobody knew what that was, so I explained. And Francie says, "Well if it is, I want you to do it, Amanda, you're just so good at challenges." Way to put a target on me come merge! UGH. I am I just really hope we win immunity, this way if it is a tribe swap, I won't make any alliance angry beforehand and be on a tribe with them. It will also give Salao a numbers advantage over Espirito and tbh any of them can go. But I have strong doubts about this challenge. I have never ever won a creative challenge, so I'm hoping I can break that trend. Hosts, give us a big merge and a big jury... please...

emily sent 4 consecutively, so the lines indicate separate confessionals

I'm currently on call with Ali T and we are talking game. He has told me that he wants to vote out someone who has mutinied, meaning Abbey or Ashley. This makes me uneasy because I want to vote out someone like Michael, Gwen, or Nayeli, who I know he is working with, but he won't tell me.

He has suggested that myself, him, and Amanda Lynn make an alliance. We have now done that and are on call. Amanda Lynn wants to convince him to vote off someone on their alliance. I know Amanda Lynn's target is Nayeli, claiming we're voting Gwen so that Nayeli doesn't play an idol. Gwen is going to be an easily believed target because of her messy idea. She can be blamed for the bad video if anyone needs to take the blame.

Ali is throwing out Gwen and Nayeli's names, which is perfect! Exactly what we want. If we can get Ali on board, then that means we have all of the Gal Pals (Amanda Lynn, Francie, Abbey, and myself) and Ali's vote! That's five. And we can get Ashley on our side, getting that six vote. An even bigger majority. I think things will work out pretty well this round, I'm excited! Ahhhh

Low key cannot believe how many calls I am constantly added to. I love that people like me and want to work with me. How iconic. I think it's because I'm being friendly with everyone and that I keep hinting to everyone that I'm completely alone. Which is false. But everyone thinks I'll be a number for their side and that I'll vote with them because I don't have anyone else. That's a great position to be in, in my honest opinion.

I'm just hoping that no one #exposes me for being aligned with a majority of the cast? I don't think my alliances would expose me to their other alliances. The person I've given the most info to in this game is Amanda G and I trust that she wouldn't expose me. I'm hoping for the best.

Now that the call between myself, Ali, and Amanda Lynn has finished, Amanda Lynn wants to call me and discuss further right after she briefly calls with Ali. Ali told her he wants to talk with her about our call.

I can tell from the Pleasing Jay call, Ali is closest with Michael. He's not bringing up his name at all. Amanda Lynn has further confirmed that later by saying Ali asked her for permission to tell Michael about our plan to get out Nayeli. I don't want that!!! I hope Ali doesn't expose us. Amanda Lynn thinks he won't and told Ali that he could do damage control after the vote, but if we want to get Nayeli out, Michael has to be in the dark. He will tell Nayeli that we're gunning for her and she'll play her idol. We can't have that.

We're going to fill the Gal Pals in tonight about our plan. We will have six votes for Nayeli and three votes for Ashley should this work out. Amanda Lynn and Ali will hint to their five person alliance that they should go after someone who mutinied, preferably Ashley to guarantee Abbey is safer. They'll use Ashley's previous votes from Espirito tribe members to their advantage. I can also tell that Amanda and Ashley are very close. They've both played before, I believe. Probably together? Who knows.

There seem to be lots of duos in this game as well. Like Michael and Nayeli seem to be a duo, Amanda Lynn and Abbey, Ricky and Will. I'm noticing these people looking out for their other half very subtly, which is what I would do with Toph until I realized he was cracked. I think splitting up the duos would be very beneficial for my game. The two people that are closest within an alliance often have the most power from what I have seen. Amanda Lynn and Abbey's duo is the strongest of these duos because it's the least likely since Abbey just mutinied and hasn't talked with the tribe very much (at least in our tribe chat she hasn't). Amanda Lynn is such a powerful player and I really need to find the perfect time to get her out. I'm thinking it needs to be after merge because she's keeping me very safe on Salao.

Rafael made a comment last night while we were on a call and said that Francie's best move would always be to keep Amanda Lynn around because Francie is the second biggest comp threat and has a great social game. Amanda Lynn will always be the bigger target than her, but once Amanda Lynn is gone, Francie's shield is gone in a way. I like them both, but I also need to recognize that they're playing very well. I need to get them out at the right time. I've been thinking recently that I've been telling to many people the information I've been receiving. I just need to keep some things to myself but I don't know where I should draw the line. There are some things I've shared that I'm glad I've shared because it created bonds and it made people think I'm more trustworthy. But, if I want people to believe that I'm really not playing the best social game, I need to stop making it known that I have lots of people giving me information. I also think I need to be paying more attention the names people don't bring up rather than the names people do. If I bring someone's name up, it's not because I trust them, it's because I want the person gone or that I don't trust them. I never talk about Amanda G or Bryce to anyone because I don't want anyone to know I'm working with them. I believe that has to be a similar thing with other players. If I can look at who is being protected by other players, I can see who is working with who.

Anyways, this is very long and I could've made it a video confession so Jay and Ali didn't have to read - I'm sorry! I have to shower and go to rehearsal soon, so I'm ending this confession. Tootles.

http://youtu.be/LKxITCeBOs8

Lmao so here's another confession in case you couldn't tell my opinion on our tribe's video. I think we will definitely lose mostly because we're taking a serious topic such as texting while driving and making fun of NOT doing it. Um. Very problematic if you ask me. I do not  condone these actions. The Salão tribe? I don't know her. But in other news, I'm excited to have a nice blindside at the next tribal. I'm hoping that everything is smooth sailing and that no one will spill too much tea to the wrong person, yadayadayada. Anyways. I just wanted to let you know I don't condone texting and driving. It's not cool. Maybe our tribal will get it once we lose LMAO. 

So I definitely think we have this challenge down, but I could be entirely wrong. I don't even wanna try to think about another tribal or any twists right now, but I do think that I'm in at least somewhat of a good place this time around. If we're gonna consider Ruthie, Mo, Ricky, and myself the majority then we'll be fine since it should be relatively easy to turn the others against each other and send someone home, but I definitely put a target on my back by telling Raf he was next to go last time (did he deserve it? probably) so I know no matter how genuine he seems and how much we seem like we're getting along... I don't trust him and I know he's coming for me. I have a plan to take care of that, in case of an idol and all, but we'll see what happens first. I just can't even imagine dealing with another tribal council right now I... just cannot.

Um so I'm up in the light booth with a lot of downtime. I'm really nervous about why I need to be online after the competition results have been posted!!!!! What can it be!!!! I'm gonna shit myself goodbye

Salao wins immunity, and Espirito is sent to an instant tribal

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163697227443/immunity-results

The hosts really wanna give me a heart attack huh

An instant tribal? Well it looks like I'll be going home. I searched for the idol, Amanda G did, Bryce did, Ruthie did, and nothing. So now I can only hope to flip Ruthie and actually take out Will. But if he has the idol...

How is that Salao has only been to tribal once, but has lost 3 people. Cracked

hi yes the anticipation for this twist is making me shit myself you're causing me so much stress thank you so much

I AM SHOOK? I did not think we would win but holy shit the Salão video was actually so funny. Go us. Glad we're avoiding another tribal.But IN OTHER NEWS, I'm nervous for Amanda G, Bryce, and Rafael. I want them to be safe so bad!!! Now they have tribal in an hour ish!!! BUT GUESS WHAT THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, AMANDA G, FOUND THE ESPIRITO IDOL AGAIN KWWBJWNWN I LOVE MY MOM!!!! She told me individually and ain't no way I am telling anyone she has the idol. Especially Rafael, who really wants it. Amanda G can use it to her advantage at some point. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I'm so happy 

don't be a tribe swap don't be a tribe swap don't be a tribe swap don't be a tribe swap don't be a tribe swap don't be a tribe swap don't be a tribe swap don't be a tribe swap don't be a tribe swap don't be a tribe swap don't be a tribe swap don't be a tribe swap

Raffy wants Will gone and I'm not ok with that. I don't want Will going home. I'm gonna tell Amanda and Bryce the truth and hopefully they'll be voting with us.

So SOMEHOW we won that video challenge and I am still laughing because both videos were hysterical! Well the twist is that Espirito has to go to tribal TONIGHT. They have like 90 minutes to get their act together and vote someone out. But HOLD THE PHONE bc Jay say's THAT'S NOT ALL and we need to be here after tribal as well because there are more twists and I feel like it's a fricken tribe expansion and I want to cry people I feel like I am in a good place on my tribe and I DO NOT WANT to swap! UGH. The ratio is in my favor at least. If we do swap, I hope I'm on a tribe where Salao is in the majority, and that I have a Gal Pal or 2 with me, and like Ali. I DO NOT want to be on a tribe with one other Salao and it be anyone but a Gal Pal or Ali. I DO NOT want to be on a tribe with Ricky unless Abbey is there. I DO NOT want to be on Raffy's tribe period! I feel like if I can avoid Ricky and Raffy, I'll be alright but JAY WHY YOU GOTTA BE CRACKED LIKE THIS I AM NOT HERE FOR IT UGH

Everyone is just so crazy and I can't stop laughing, Will just said that he had an idea and now I'm freaking TERRIFIED LOL, I wonder what it is I will keep y'all posted. he wants to tell raf a different name and hmmm If I get idol'd out by Raf I don't know what I would do but we've only had crazy tribals, what is another crazy one?  I think Will and I are about to blow up his game in the chat, I'm EXCITED!

If I can really play Mr. Nice Guy here for a second during this instant tribal and make people think that I'm gonna flip and get this guy to not target me... I might just be able to save my ass yet again. This is the first time I've felt entirely unsure in this game though.

I FOUND ANOTHER IDOL!!!! I'm so happy and I'm not telling anyone about it. I'm really nervous about the tribal because it's so short notice and I convinced Raffy to mend fences with Will. I don't want to go to rocks and I think that if we get Ruthie out, we can get Will out soon. I'm so nervous, so so nervous.

WHY CANT WE WIN! So this might go to rocks... BUT I hate rocks... I've only been in rocks once and I was the person being voted so I was SAFE. I like to self preserve and with the announcement to be here after the results and stuff, a twist can happen so I don't think it's worth rocks. The vote is between raf and will but raf is trying to get will to come together and get Ruthie instead.

Will is voting with me. He is voting to take out Ruthie. We mended fences and now Ruthie, the actual rat who manipulated him into voting Zoe, is going down. She may be my cracked disney queen but that doesn't mean she's safe from the vote.

How iconic is Amanda G? She gave me her idol that she found for safe keeping just in case this tribal doesn't go her way. Which I believe it will. Ruthie will be good and things will be fine! I hope. Anyways, that's all I got for now. Goodbye.

Yay we won!! I'm so glad our idea works!!! This group is so amazing!!! I loved their idea as well maybe we should go into the movie business!! We have some great creative team already!!! It was so much fun to just do the challenge tho much more than I expected!!!  Being in winning tribe is even more helpful with the instant tribal. Omg talk about stress and nervous wreck. Now to hopefully survive whatever twist is in store for us next!!

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163702121558/tribal-5-rafael-voted-out-4-3-ruthie-received-3

LAST WORDS: It's truly been in honor to play in this game. I know I didn't make my personal goal of merge, but that doesn't mean I'm not proud of the way I played. How I played was always the way I've wanted to play Survivor. If there is one regret I have in the game it is not flipping on Toph during the tribal he got voted out. If I had just flipped, I would still be good with Mo and Will. I hope to play more ORGs, and for now I say goodbye.

Rafael becomes the fifth boot of Survivor Athena: Azores

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Ep. 4 - “LOOKS LIKE I WAS BOO BOO THE FOOL”- Bryce

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163541972653/tribal-immunity-4

I'm so glad Toph got the idol. Looks like he didn't need it anyway, but still.

IM A FLOP. LOOKS LIKE I WAS BOO BOO THE FOOL.

so like wtf? idk what is happening or who i am or what survivor is or what an alliance is or if im in any or whos a rat and whos not???

FUCK YOU ESPIRITO IDOL AND FUCK YOU ALI TANVEER

FUCK. Ruthie is a snake and told me nothing. She told me Toph but then votes out Ray. She lied to me so she's going next tribal.

I mean, the person I was hoping would go, got booted sense I wasn't that big of a fan of him after Will telling us he was rude. So that's a Ray of sunshine on my life. Toph misplacing the idol is funny now I just wanna know who gave it to him.

Well that tribal was... interesting... So first of all, Toph asked the entire tribe to help him find the idol. Then he exposes Nayeli for having it (which she admits to our Icons alliance). So Emily and I are like, Toph, WYD??? At this point, we wouldn't be sad if he left. This kid blowing up our games. So Toph goes to tribal and I'm fully expecting him to be voted out. And he pulls out an idol. And I was like, Oh... Nayeli gave it to him. Nice. BUT THEN we find out its the Espirito Idol. What???? Who on that tribe would make such a bold move? So anyway, Toph is safe bc of the idol, and Ray goes home. Which isn't a big loss, but it leaves both Ashley and Ricky in the game. Hopefully we can win this challenge I won't have to worry about them for another round. Speaking of the challenge, its the damn tasks challenge, and I AM NOT HERE FOR THIS. I feel like after this challenge, we are gonna swap, which.... ugly... but its gonna happen. I do not want Salao to go into a swap down by two. So I'm HOPING and PRAYING we can pull this challenge out. Here goes nothing.

I'm safe but I honestly don't know if that's good or bad at this point. These people are seriously ugly. The game is just annoying and I really don't know if I want to be here. This isn't what I signed up for

The NFPs and I are truly Boo Boo the Fool right now. I'm shook. Now Amanda G wasted her idol, Toph has a bigger target on his back, and I'm closely connected with Toph. It puts a huge target on my back. And as for Bryce, Amanda G, and Raffy, they're in trouble of being accused of giving Toph an idol. But appartently Mo thinks it was Ashley. I hope they roll with that. I'm scared and feel very stupid right now but like IT'S FINE ANWBAKAN

The tea is Ruthie lied to me saying they were going to vote out Toph. Now an idol is wasted, our tribe knows someone gave Toph the idol, and I'm shook. Now I have to do damage control in the tribe to prevent my name from being spread around. Toph is also being targeted by his tribe as well from before tribal based on what Ashley told him. I'm shook.

First of all Toph, I don;t know who the fuck you think you are you little rat ass poodle ass bitch, but you ain't me, you ain't gonna drag me, my edges are still layed, and my wig is secure. this isnt my first rodeo honey, and I don;t give a fuck if this is your first game, I'm going to make sure you fucking suffer now, sweaty.

PEOPLE THROWING LETS NOT!

Honestly I thought I was going to bring the drama this season, but I have no idea what that CRACKEDT mess was

I'm fucked :)

Here's the tea: Rafael is getting on my last nerve, Toph needs to shut up with the fake lies and anyone who believes those lies is an idiot, Ashley and Ruthie literally deserve SO much better, Rafael is LITERALLY GETTING ON MY LAST NERVE, Ricky is my love and deserves SO MUCH BETTER, and I just wanna go the fuck off on these assholes because at this point y'all are just being mean, you're making this game stressful and hurtful for a lot of people and for what? Some drama? Some poorly applied reaction gifs? This is the first game I've played since I had a literal breakdown (unrelated to orgs) and walked from three games and it does NOT have to be this stressful it is too early for this. Anyways I'm done for now and if anyone of them wants to fight they know where to find me. Also I love my viewers and my fans y'all keep me alive xoxo

Sooooooo a bunch of drama went down and I'm not 100% sure what happened despite having read the chat. (It was going so fast that it was hard to keep everything straight) so where did Toph get that idol? I'll still stand by Toph's side even after the drama, but I might just keep him at arms length a bit so I don't harm any of my relations with anyone on Espirito. Also this challenge? God this panders to my habit of refreshing webpages in the hope that something relevant has been added in the three seconds since I last hit refresh.

I'm horrible in challenges. I also am Monica Padilla. I'm going to be awake all damn night and I hate my life??? But it's fine it's really fine I'm fine. I think Salao will win the challenge and Toph will be safe for at least twenty four more hours. Salao is full of comp queens. SO blessed.

when amanda told the tribe chat to not take the idol clue because they already know where the idol is i was like girl i get we're a tribe and we win immunity together but fuck that shit this is survivor not americas next top best friends im playing for myself i would love a second idol

this would be better if i could send the gif but i guess not

I'm really nervous about if we go to tribal. I know Ashley is likely going home, but anything can change.

Sculpted what does it mean??? Toph is saying sculpted but I dont think thats right. Also my alliance wants to throw to keep Toph safe but uh I don't want to go to tribal esp with all this sketchiness asfdjjjkjldasf. I won't be exposed!!! Also even tho will is a snake I cant help but want to work with him. Why am I like this??? I won't be stopping tho so hopefully he just stays loyal to me at least.

Emily is my true soulmate, this is iconic as fuck.

So finally scored a point still not wanting our tribe to lose so thats something! I just dont want to let our tribe down because i want me/mo/will/amanda/raf to all be in still so I CANT lose. Also this game is literally so much fun. Even when my plan flopped COMPLETELY I'm still happy.

I think Amanda G and I are soulmates? Yes. She roasts me all the time but it's a loving roast so it's fine. And I'm a roastable person. I hope that both Amanda G and I can make it far in this game and become an iconic showmance. I also trust her with my life honestly. We've become such good friends in the past forty-eight hours and it's truly amazing. I love her. I was also going to bed like two hours ago but she convinced me to do a puzzle of Aubry Bracco and stay up until four am. I need to sleep.

Holy fucking hell is this challenge exhausting! I need to win this challenge because if I don't my huge ass target on my back will send me home. That or my big ass cracked ego will. Fuck im more cracked then a broke vase on the ground. But i feel like death. The idol was wasted and i want to die.

Last tribal was crazy! Not only did Toph use the Espirito idol, but it was a misplay as they all voted out Ray. Ruthie told me they were going Toph so that;s why the idol was played. Now everyone knows Toph was given the Espiito idol. Not only that, but the group came up with a plan to frame Ricky, but then someone to Ricky that Toph was throwing him under the bus. So then, Toph and Ricky popping off on each other as Ricky and Toph pull out receipts (fake or not). I'm sitting here, in the alliance call, freaking out as everything is going to shit. Toph has a huge target on his back and everyone in Espirito is coming for each other. We (Amanda G, Bryce, and I) need to throw this challenge as if we send Salao to tribal, they will most definitely send Toph home. However, I do not want to go to tribal because I have a feeling people are blaming me for giving Toph the idol which is only half true. I don't know what is going to happen in tribal at all. I do plan on throwing, but that will be easy since Amanda Lynn and Francie are being comp beasts in this challenge. I'm shook that Ricky would even call out Toph in front of everyone. That was insane! Everything is crumbling, the game is a mess, and everyone is cracked. People who will call out others like that are dangerous to me, so hopefully I can rally the votes against him for tribal, but it seems unlikely. What is likely is to vote out Ashley or Ruthie which to me is the best plan. However, Will the Snake might flip on us and vote out one of our own: me. Ricky did tell me he sees me as the leader of the tribe so I guess I'm a target for people on the outs like Ashley. I have no idea where I stand with Ruthie, but either way I do not like it.

So we are like 13 hours deep into this tasks challenge, and Toph has literally stayed up all night, and I only slept like 5 hours and we've been going non-stop. According to Host Ali, Salao is like 400 points ahead of Espirito, which is great for us. I'm just.... REALLY hoping the hosts don't do something evil and offer an advantage for all our points.. Like I'm even afraid to type this in a confessional because I don't want the hosts to suddenly come up the idea because I will honestly cry if someone does that. Especially if it's someone like Michael or Gwen who haven't done anything besides lose us points. Ali also hasn't done anything but he's nice so I won't knock him for it. Ugh... PLEASE HOSTS DONT BE EVIL. Like really....

http://prntscr.com/g1tv2g http://prntscr.com/g1tvd3 Me revealing myself as the comp beast I was in Racc City, thus showing that I'm actually a threat, and probably first merge boot? Likely

"Bryce gets and loses 5 points for the alphabet one" Very much a me thing...

I SNUCK AN EGG INTO MY ROOM. So for the challenge, one of the tasks was to smash an egg on your head. SO I go to the kitchen to get a drink. My mom is cooking with my aunt. I stare at the egg in the fridge for a solid 30 seconds and my mom says to me if something is wrong. I say no, get my drink, and grab the egg. Scurrying to my room, I pass my sister who is making slime and I hide the egg successfully by holding it to my side. I go to the room, take the video, and wash my hair in the sink without any of them noticing. I am an icon!

Amanda Lynn, I love you my sweetie but I think you are playing way to hard, theres no way I'm going against Michael to vote off Nayeli, so please don't try that but I am happy people like me and trust me and I'm getting tea from every where so I think I'm playing a pretty good social game, so lets see how this turns out!

A mutiny opportunity is offered

https://azores-challenge.tumblr.com/post/163573948409/mutiny-points

With the lead Salão has, it's not worth it for anyone on our tribe to mutiny for an edge in the challenge. In the context of just this challenge, it's more beneficial to Espirito members to do so. If you mutiny from either tribe, it's going to screw up your relationships with those on your former tribe which could hurt you if you make merge. No way I'm mutinying.

Yeah I mutinied cause I'm already a target and I'm done with these crackd people I doubt I'll make jury so why not make interesting while I'm here

welp, so much for all I've said about forming an alliance w/Toph. if we both make merge it could happen but it's less likely since he mutinied. We have Abbey as part of our alliance so we have a solid four for the time being. Not a majority, but still a good foothold

THIS TASK CHALLENGE IS NUTS I CANNOT BELIEVE ABBEY JUST JUMPED SHIP AND MUTINIED TO MY TRIBE I AM OFFICIALLY PLAYING WITH ABBEY I CANNOT BELIEVE! If this ends up getting us targetted, I will feel so bad, but at least we can say we are playing together

BITCH! THIS IS THE BEST THING TO HAPPEN TO MY GAME! HOLY FUCK! I MEAN I TRIED SO HARD FOR MY TRIBE TO NOT GO TO TRIBAL BUT IM GOING TO TRIBAL STILL WITH ACTUAL FRIENDS. THEY MIGHT THINK IM THE EASY VOTE BUT THEY GONNA BE SHOOK

My whole NFPs alliance wanted me to switch but I knew I shouldn't because I couldn't break the bonds I have with Amanda Lynn, Ali T, and Francie. I was also roped into an all girls alliance with Abbey, Amanda Lynn, and Francie now that Abbey has mutinied!! This is super great for my game. I'm also so happy Toph mutinied. This is so good for his game and he has a majority on that tribe to keep him safe for a little bit longer. I'm happy! Though I'm very emo I'm not on the tribe with all of my NFP friends. But it's okay! We're all in good positions and I can get information (should I choose to share it) for my core alliance. I'm so excited about this but it was truly messy and I'm scared a little but IT'S OKAY?????

egg Update: My dad saw the egg stains on my face and proceeded to ask me what they were. So I had to lie and say I had no idea. I washed t off my face and continued on my merry way. Also this mutiny worked in my favor. I'm so happy. Toph is on our tribe and Amanda/Abbey gone, that is 8 people in the tribe. Now me, Amanda, Bryce, and Toph are one side having majority. I live for this! Now we have the majority and it is amazing. I love a winner!

The Salao tribe wins immunity.

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163574932908/results-4

Whew a safe evening of no tribal. Maybe I can unwind a bit and get an actual alliance that can stick for once. Plus without Ruthie I'm no longer able to work with her even tho we weren't working together but now it's obvious to everyone

I am so happy that Toph is now on our tribe. We have majority now and it feels great. We'll also be able to get Will out soon and I'm pumped for it!  

nksjfnskenf that toph and Ricky fight was STAGED AF. Please. Why else would toph flip over to the "enemies" side. PLEASE get acting lessons

I'm thinking this tribal will be pretty easy, I'm not getting any blood on my hands. I even gave Toph an idol and no one has come to me about it. I think I'm smooth sailing for now :)

Ashley Sarah: should I mutiny?  I'm gonna mutiny Me: wait, I'll come with you. RIP RIP RIP. Raffy must think I'm stupid if he thinks I don't know he gave toph that idol

Sadly we lost the challenge, I take some blame because I didn't help as much as some of the others. But this mutiny thing is pretty spicy. I think it's either Ricky or Toph who's going home tomorrow considering Ricky straight up left the challenge and Toph has been a target sense last tribal. I want ice cream.

ok so wow. my tribe was getting destroyed in the challenge and i was ok with it bc  i wanted raf gone. but anyway i jumped ship to be with my one true love amanda! shes got a solid all female alliance and im living for that concept. will isnt mad at me so i think if we swap together/ make merge we can work together. ricky is pissed but im not worried about it, our friendship isnt going to be affected by this bc were both adults. im hype to FINALLY PLAY WITH AMANDA

So, Toph switched. This is amazing! With Abbey and Ashley also switching, that point NFPs in the half majority of 8 (4 people). The plan is to take out Will come tribal. The alliance will vote out Will, and then he will be gone. To do that we either need one more vote or the votes to be spread among the other 4. Mo wants Ricky out from what he's told me. We are thinking of claiming Will of targeting Ricky/Ruthie. Then they will go vote him out too. Or I can get Ricky to vote out Mo and Mo to vote out Ricky, giving us the majority. Everything is going to plan Mo told me that I was one of the power players along with Amandas (both), Will, and Bryce. I'm so shook by that. With that, he may betray me, but for now I trust him. He doesn't seem like the type to orchestrate a blindside. Keep him pocket.

I'm really nervous about the other tribe and them keeping Amanda Lynn around. She's a comp threat and I'm really scared for her to be in merge.

ok I was at work literally all day, I come back and everything (big surprise) is a fucking MESS again like I'm glad Ashley and Abbey took the chance to mutiny and save themselves because even though it may screw us over right now at least it gives them both a chance to survive (and they'll be allies on the other side when we merge). I'm worried for Ricky's chances right now because (big surprise part 2) everyone wants to target him again for no reason and it's like just tiring. And Ricky even said that I shouldn't let him ruin my game and said I should do whatever I have to and it makes me so upset because I don't want to be in this position and he shouldn't be in this position either!!! These freaks won't even give me a second to breathe like here for example [7/29/17, 8:59:17 PM] (redacted): Hi Will [7/29/17, 8:59:39 PM] (redacted): So who should we target for tribal? [7/29/17, 8:59:44 PM] (redacted): I'm down for any idea I LOGGED ON AFTER AN 11 HOUR WORK DAY AND THAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU SAY TO ME? SERIOUSLY? Like I am SORRY for yelling but give me a fucking break let me live let me breathe let me send your sorry ass home because like... if anything I'm gonna do whatever it takes to win this game. I don't want to have to abandon Ricky or backstab him. I really don't want to and I am praying these freaks won't back me into a corner where I have to. But I'm gonna do this shit and y'all are gonna see. I'm not here for the drama, the fuckery, the buffoonery. Anyways I'm tired and I'm gonna make a sandwich y'all... this game is a mess (but it's not the hosts fault I love Ali and Jay so much)

guess whos got two new alliances! Amanda has graced me with a solid majority alliance on  salao! Ive got Gal Pals which is Me, Amanda, Emily and Francie with Ali as Amandas other close ally who will be a number for us. We also set up an alliance with Amanda, AshleySarah and I. I want to keep Ashley close because shes the only other person on this new tribe who knows my history, and specifically my history with Amanda. If she wants to blow up my game she could so easily. Espirito is a mess, glad I jumped off that sinking ship! Will is still solid with me, we both really trust each other so thats good. Ricky is in big time trouble, the newbie alliance wants him gone bc of the Toph drama which is bullshit since Toph was the one who caused it and TOPH IS ON THAT TRIBE NOW VOTE OUT TOPH. Will is telling me that theyre hammering home the "Ricky doesnt help in challenges" shit which is garbage bc yall lost by like 500 points in this challenge! Losing is a team effort, one person  doesnt lose a tribal challenge!!!!! :)))))) Anyway, if what Will is telling me is true Ricky, Ruthie and Toph will go next in no particular order if Espirito goes to tribal that many times b4 a swap/merge. Over here Gwen, Michael and Nayeli are the odd ones out which is bananas since me and Ashley literally just mutinied over here. What kinda flop gameplay is that cmon yall step it up!

this is what i'm dealing with rn, i've been off work for less than 30 minutes and i'm getting bombarded by an alliance i didn't even know i was gonna be added to i'm... so close to the edge lol [7/29/17, 9:12:21 PM] Will: sorry i just like [7/29/17, 9:12:25 PM] Will: need a few minutes [7/29/17, 9:12:39 PM] Will: i’ve been standing up for basically 11 hours straight [7/29/17, 9:13:48 PM] (redacted): Lmao [7/29/17, 9:14:17 PM] Will: did you guys have any thoughts or ideas [7/29/17, 9:14:19 PM] (redacted): But who should we go for [7/29/17, 9:14:24 PM] (redacted): I don't know [7/29/17, 9:14:32 PM] (redacted): I'll go with anyone

The kitty cat found the rat, all it took was fake trust.

THE DRAMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. So Mo wants Ricky out and put it in the tribe. However, Will wants Toph out. Then, Mo and Will m started fighting with me in it a little bit. I was shook. Will just painted a huge target on his back with Mo. Then, Toph told Mo that Will gave him the idol and Mo messaged me about it. Now Mo not only wants Ricky gone (my target) but also Will (my second target). I'm shook. I'm sad the hosts missed this

BY THE FUCKING WAY IF I HAVENT SAID IT IN A WHILE FUCK ALI TANVEER

I'm listening to Amanda G, Rafael, and Bryce's plan to vote out Ricky/Will unfold while on call. This is truly something. I'm very lost but it seems like Mo is going crazy. And Will is messaging me telling me they're being mean to Ricky/him. I'm so confused??? I don't know what happening and I'm in this call. I think I'll just wait until tribal to figure it all out. In other news, no one suspects Amanda of giving Toph the idol. Mo thinks it's Will. The NFPs are rolling with it. I'm so confused I can't even write a proper confessional. Maybe when I'm not on call I can focus. I can't do two things at the same time. I'm sorry.

A little late but my alliance now is doing good with majority on our tribe. The suggestion to even get out Will is so baffling and tried to put a stop to that ASAP. Like why get rid of someone who is better at challenges and who I like talking to over someone who I never talk to. We really need to start winning challenges and I need to try taking advantage of One World more and get in with Nayeli/Michael since she has the idol. My alliance is good but I feel at times gets a little too bold in our views. I also need to watch for Emily to not snake us. I don't think she would but her decision to not mutiny even tho I think it was the correct music, is unsettling.  That's a time where she can think clearly but when the alliance suggests doing stuff that is as equally as crazy she doesn't speak up? I'll just watch out because I really like Emily! Buy Nervous System on Itunes.

I'm so tired of this tribe and this alliance, if you want to vote Ricky out like just say it we don't need to do the mental gymnastics like Mo doesn't speak about the game besides "I'm worried about going home" for days and then suddenly strings together this "compelling" argument to vote Ricky out that Raf is clearly more excited about than when someone suggested Toph like... if y'all are gonna be conspiring at least try to make it a little less obvious? Why do y'all hate Ricky so much when he didn't do anything to you? Like every justification for voting out Ricky has a hole poked in it like "he left the challenge chat" [7/29/17, 12:20:04 AM] Rafael Hernandez: I'm leaving [7/29/17, 12:20:06 AM] Ricky 🦄: Ricky 🦄 has left the conversation [7/29/17, 12:20:11 AM] Jay Bee (Azores Host and Athena Series Admin): Ricky gets the points [7/29/17, 12:20:29 AM] Jay Bee (Azores Host and Athena Series Admin): Rafael loses 5 points for his tribe. bloop what's your next point? that was the fucking task so... you're wrong! Anyways I'm gonna go take a nice cleansing shower but.. these people are dumb I'm so tired of it get me off this tribe.

Will has talked about his reasons for keeping Ricky, and he's right. Ricky was ganged up on for the idol lie, but that was strategic, not personal. However, I do understand how Ricky could take all of this personally, but knowing the things I know, it's not. I have my roots in almost everyone in my tribe except Ricky and Will, so point blank is that they need to go. That's it. I hope if either of you are reading this in the future, that's the real reason I want Ricky gone. I'm sorry about the way this has turned out for Ricky, but that's the game and I'm sorry.

the tea is I liked it better when toph was on the other tribe and emily's problem HDSJKSHDKFJ. It is so frightening thinking he could pop off at any moment

OK BITCHS BUCKLE THE FUCK UP BECAUSE IM TAKING YOU FOR A RIDE! THIS MOTHERFUCKER RICKY IS A SLUT FOR MY NAME BECAUSE HE CANT GET IT OUT OF HIS MOUTH! I AM JUST TRYING TO LAY LOW WITH MY ALLIANCE THIS WEEK AND THIS MOTHERFUCKER CAN NOT STOP BRING MY NAME UP! NOW TO MY OLD TRIBE? OH HUNTY BOO BOO! GET ME MY GOO GOO JUICE AND LETS WHOPPY GOLBURG YOUR ASS HOME THIS WEEK!

Hey huntys! You're least favorite player and worst messy bitch is here! Oh lordy Jesus better send a flash of lightning down on rickys fake ass when he walks the hell out of here tonight! I honestly am happy to see him go home. I did get caught in a lie but that fake ass mofo could have done it in private. This fake ass hoe Amanda L could not be any more suspicious with abbey. Like hunty someone spilled the tea to me a out you too in kahoots together. Oh sit on a pincone and shove a bottle of tartar sauce down my throat because if these fake ass people told be the truth I wont be so fishy all the time.

Whoppy goldberg my ass Whoppi goldberg my ass

Toph always goes off at the wrong time and I feel like I can't control him. I need to make sure he doesn't go off. Also, he's being MEAN! I don't like it! He is so mean to Ricky for exposing him. And he deserved to be called out! Whatever. Honestly, I'll keep him around because he gives me information and wants to take me far, but I do not trust him and I will not give him very much information. Honestly I'm starting to think Rafael is dangerous to be working with too. I'm very worried. I trust Amanda G and Bryce in the NFPs, but Toph and Rafael are all over the place. I do not want to be connected with either of them anymore. Ahhhhh Amanda Lynn, Abbey, Francie, and I have bonded and I really like our alliance! If NFPs falls apart, I have the Gal Pals to rely on. I have to go so I will confess more later. Goodbye!

My iconic queen ruthie! My cracked queen ruthie. My one true love. This queen bitch over here slaying the game asking the tribe if shes the target! Like what a true iconic moment. Like ruthie can be a true Disney queen. Like i love her so much and i will not be voting against her.

Bitchhh this game is so crazy like i want to expose so many fake people right now. Lookig at you Amanda L, nayeli, will. Like Amanda L is such a snake in the grass shes like has such a strong social game it's sickening. Nayeli hunty we know you have the idol boo! Like hunty out here with it. My best guess is gwen, nayeli and micheal are working together, francie, Amanda L, abbey, and Emily. With Ashley and ali on the outs.  

If we ever go to a tribal is going to be messy, so Amanda comes up to me she wants out either Nayeli or Gwen out which I'm not okay with because I don't wanna go against michale and them, and Michael came up to me today telling me that Amanda and abbey are a final Two deal and I'm like QAADIR HOWARD VOICE "are you kidding me, these people are messy" so I wanna get out abbey the next tribal so Amanda can be close with me so! Catch the tea on that (tea) also ali daddy feel better

I just got home from Orlando and now I'm getting semi nervous for tonight! I think the vote is going to be toph or Ricky though and I hope I can really trust will, we'll see! I may not be as wild this tribal, I'm trying to lay low but not too low and I may try to be around for the next call and use my southern charm to talk to these people. I hope we have enough people to get toph out because Will thinks that Raf is the one that gave toph the idol too, so we'll see, I'm so nervous for tonight!

WHY THE FUCK IS THE MOTHERFUCKER HAVE MY NAME STILL IN HIS MOUTH! LIKE MICHEAL YOU ARE ON THE OTHER TRIBE YOU AND YOUR FAKE ASS! LIKE FUCK OFF YOU LITTLE SNAKY ASS BITCH! RICKY OUT HERE BEING MY TRUE DADDY HELPING ME OUT. MEANWHILE THESE FAKE ASS HOES BEING LITTLE GREMLINS LYING ABOUT SHIT. LIKE I CANT STAND THIS MOTHERFUCKER ANYMORE MICHEAL YOU ARE GETTING EXPOSED SOON HUNTY.

Ricky has been messaging me today, and I am shook. He has been telling me to target Toph because Toph is snake, but that is not the way I'm going. Ricky has also been talking to Michael apparently, and Michael knows that Ricky is the target. My bet is that he has been talking to Will and Will told him that Michael is the target. So, Michael is also a snake. Emily needs to get him out when she goes to tribal. Also, Michael said that Toph followed then unfollowed Emily to Ricky which is not true (the unfollowing part). The plan is still to get Ricky out, but the information being spread around will be useful later.

I can't tell if I'm being guilt tripped or not.

OH FUCK MICHEAL! THIS MOTHERFUCKING BERY BENSON LOOKING ASS HOE! LIKE KEEP MY NAME OUT YOUR FLIPPY FLOPPY MOUTH LIKE YOU FAKE ASS MOUNTAIN POTS AND PAN HOE. LIKE YOU AND NAYELI ARE LIKE A FUCKING BURT AND ERNIE LOOKING ASS COUPLE. http://www.girlsgonechild.net/2015/10/?m=1

lakshdhajdjdhs Toph just messaged me saying "what's up old tribe mate" like buddy,,,I'm not gonna take too kindly to you given that you mutinied. ik I said something about keeping him at arms length but still lowkey close before, but now? I don't really care what happens to him now. I'm not gonna be all buddy buddy with him especially if we both make merge. acquaintances. that's all

Toph has to start keeping his mouth shut otherwise I might have to distance myself from him to benefit my game. He's really funny and cool, but gamewise he's a really terrible ally that can blow up any minute now. Emily is scared now because since she's calling him out, he might expose her which is a very real possibility. Emily is my closest ally in this game and I really cannot risk her or me getting exposed.

I feel like I'm playing a good game, I feel like everyone likes me and trust me 😊 I feel like I'll be here for a while

At this point it's really just sad if people are gonna vote Ricky out because it's what Rafael wants like... that's so fucking dumb y'all are dumb and boring and need to stop listening to the munchkin who looked up my LinkedIn profile because he thought it would be funny to actually stalk and read out my social media information on call. Anyways....

And for my last hurrah. FUCK YOU Ali Tanveer.

anyways life complicated but practically I'm kinda excited that i got two new tribemates!! they seem fishy af bc i think they like amanda but whatever. also toph is a snake lol i hope he gets out first knowing how the other tribe is cracked like amanda said I'm going to assume they got along with him lol

This tribal :) is gonna be :) iconic :) get ready kids!

if i stay i'm literally choking

I need a drink

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LAST WORDS: Well. I honestly just wanted to make it jury but i guess my time was cut short. Emily i love you so fucking much and i hope you win this game! I honestly had my hopes held high and they were crushed. Emily i love you and you better win this game!

Toph becomes the fourth person voted out of Survivor Athena: Azores

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Ep. 3 - “You're on some Monopoly shit when we're still just trying to play hopscotch’’ - Will

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Two words: holy shit

I WASNT PRE-PAIRED FOR THIS

What the hell!!!! Ali and Jay out here trying to catch hands!! I don't TRUST these people. I don't even trust half of MY OWN Tribe!!!! How the HECK am I supposed to trust anyone else?

This is so messy. I have no idea what's going to happen here, I'm so scared

Okay but I really did #that by getting everyone to vote for aundra ijs

Honestly what the fuck as happened! I would have rathered a fucking tribe swap! This shit is insane! But also will work with my game. Rafeal is my parent and first impression is he's nice but I can't be too sure in the tribal he didn't have any votes so thats good to know. Hopefully he is in the majority of his own alliance. If not whatever its good for merg. Im kinda happy about this challenge because i can fuck it up and get one of them out of here, but they will most likely stick together and if they have the numbers im fucked!

Why does Amanda Lynn bring out the worst in me

My partner isn't responding to me... That makes me extremely nervous. I do have an idol but I'd hate to use it this early in the game if I go to tribal and feel nervous.

This shouldn't be two hard... 

One World Twist? OH HONEY. I've talked to Amanda and Toph and have explained to them the tea on first tribal. I like Toph too. He seems like a neat guy. A neat guy going to tribal because screw that noise of leaving it to chance.

I need a duo-ver

So im chatting with Rafael right now. And honestly i have to first impression. My first thought was fo backstab. Opps. So from getting some info from him it seems like he was part of the tribe that flipped. Honestly im kinda pissed about that because I wanna work with others from the tribe without having any connection with him get in the way. Im honestly thinking about going right and staying stay because i lied to him snd said i was going left. Honestly i need to talk to Emily and Amanda l about this.

This was interesting twist. I like it and it def makes you think!!! My partner Michael seems cool so far but we'll have to see if he can be trusted!!! I hope do cause I don't want to go to tribal!!!!

WHEW I survived, it was 9-1. I get paranoid for nothing! So now Jay and Ali decide to be ugly and put us in One World, which has it's ups and downs. One one hand, I CAN FINALLY TALK TO ABBEY about the game, but on the other hand, Ricky is a snake and even though we have AGREED to put Hawaii behind us, I don't think I can trust him for one second. I'm waiting for Abbey to come on to see if maybe we can form an alliance with Ricky just so I can keep him close. So with this One World announcement, we also have our next challenge, which is exactly like the rose challenge in Divergent, with just a few small modifications. Basically we've each been paired up with someone from the other tribe, and we determine if the other goes to tribal. Guess who I was paired up with. FREAKING ABBEY! YES. As long as Ricky (and Ashley Sarah bc of Switzerland) keeps his mouth SHUT, Abbey and I can avoid tribal. We just gotta establish getting 5 others to go to tribal in our place. 

ruthie and ashley r messy and thats the tea! but its ok i didnt go home godbless! ive got a cute alliance with will and ricks! We won immunity and amanda lives! Now wee paired together for the challenge bc god is good!

So I finally get Abbey on a call. She agrees to be middle man with me and Ricky. She says Ricky is cool to work with me and he wants to put Hawaii behind him. So I'm like nice, make an alliance chat. So she does. Ricky to Abbey in pm's: I AM NOT GOING TO THE END WITH AMANDA I WILL BE NICE A CORDIAL BUT THIS IS NOT AN END GAME THING. Hm... Guess bitterness is hard to swallow no matter how much time passes.

Okay so here's the sitch: this one world/pair challenge twist is like pretty tame considering I thought I would get voted out for missing the announcement lmao but like it still makes things very interesting. Rafael, honey, you're playing this game way too hard you're on some Monopoly shit when we're still just trying to play hopscotch - he's gonna get his ass voted out sooner or later with all this overplaying and I can't let that happen before Ruthie/Ahsley because after the idol stunt I can tell those two are here to really play the game and can make shit happen, especially with these jumpy newbies. Ricky (my love) keeps saying not to worry or think too far ahead, but I have all the scenarios (insert Jozea gif) running through my head of how things are gonna go. But basically right now I just need to avoid the pair challenge tribal because that shit sounds rough.... OR I could use Rafael's overplaying against him in that tribal OR use the Ruthie/Ashley idol panic situation to get them voted out.... like I said: scenarios!!!! They all wanna play the game so badly so all I need to do is give a little suggestion and ~~~puppetmaster~~~ Rafael will go for it and it can blow up in /his/ face not mine :) :) :)

Toph is really nice, and I want to go left with him. However, at the same time, everyone else on the Dying Alliance (Amanda G, Bryce, Will, and Mo) is going left too. That means the tribal council may be decided by randomization. I do not want that. I would rather guarantee my safety. However, Toph has invited me to an alliance with Amanda Lynn. I can't pass up this chance to start creating bonds before merge. It is certainly a prisoner's dilemma I face.

this challenge is literally all chance and my tribe wants to keep talking about it and worrying and strategizing like ok we will not know what the outcome is until tomorrow night so let's all just breathe and stop strategizing for .5 seconds

I'm very happy the vote was unanimously for Aundra and that no one tried to pull anything last minute. I believe this vote made our tribe stronger and I feel like everyone trusts one another a little bit more now. Even more so with this new One World twist. I'm just hoping to avoid tribal for a little bit longer. I'm not too excited about going back.

This One World twist is pretty nice but now everyone talks in the tribe chat and I feel like I have nothing to add and I'm not funny. I messaged everyone but I've really only talked to Will and Mo. Mo is sweet, he's my partner. We both agreed that we would go left so both of us could avoid tribal. I hope he stays true because I'm going left regardless. It wouldn't be beneficial to me to go right and break my trust with Mo and it wouldn't be beneficial to go to tribal in the first place. If I go and Mo doesn't, that's fine. I don't think people would target me and I believe my tribe will stay together and vote out someone from the other tribe. I feel that I could work with both Mo and Will in the future. They're both nice and I think I've gotten along with them well.

Once again, Toph is being messy and not thinking before he acts. He was talking to Rafael, his partner, and gave out some names (MINE) and asked if they would be safe. BITCH!!! Toph, please, stop. I'm very uneasy about Toph throwing my name out to anyone he talks to for even a second. He's not being careful. And people are bond to figure out we're working together. I swear I'm trying my hardest to keep it a secret and I'm keeping shit to myself but Toph can't hold his tongue! Oh my god. I love the kid, I do, but he can't chill out. On another note, a person on my tribe that I have strengthened my relationship with is Ali! He's so nice honestly. I hope to be able to work with him in the future. I believe that's all I have to say for now - goodbye!

Gwen is online and has still said just one thing to me?  TIME TO GO RIGHT, my entire tribe already thinks I'm insane, let's do this thing!

The more I think about it, the more upset I get. I don't remember exactly what I said in my last confessional regarding Ricky but, it's bothering me. Basically, he told me we could put Hawaii behind us, since it's been a YEAR and we both just want to be over it. And when Abbey told me he said the same thing to her, I really believed him. But then he goes and tells Abbey that pretty much he's not over it and doesn't trust me and wants me out. Now I know I talk about Hawaii all the time. I won, and I walked through hell to get there. I feel like I'm allowed. But this is a new game, and I was honestly willing to put it all of is behind us if he was. But if he can't and he's going to hold it against me and potentially ruin my game down the line, I can't risk it. I'm trying to get Ricky out before we wind up on a tribe together. I talked to Ali and explained our history to him and got him to agree to go right for the challenge, even if it's risky. The kid trusts me 100% (at least that's what he's giving off), so it's nice to have him in my back pocket, separate from Toph and Emily. So Ali agreed to go right, and honestly, anyone who doesn't trust their partner needs to just go right. Not trusting your partner? What's that like? Shout out to random.org for pairing me up with the one person I trust unconditionally! Anyway. I don't know. I'm just trying to navigate sharing enough info about me and Ricky with my alliances to keep their trust, but not enough to expose myself as a threat. Also, I forgot Ashley Sarah is the only person who knows how close Abbey and I could be. She comes to me this morning and says, "So you're both going left, yeah?" I'm like O_O "uhhhhh idk i mean I love abbey but we've never played together so... shrug emoji..." Also, Ruthie is older than me and I love it.

Forgot to do one of these yesterday but this twist is so fun. One world is my fave season so its only fitting that I should win a One World style Org ;')! I like michael, Amanda, and Gwen the most from the other tribe. My partner for immunity replies in short answers and doesn't respond some times so that's a mood... Also preorder Rainbow on Itunes and buy Boys on Itunes/ stream on Spotify

Ali and I have been talking about our partners. Mine is Mo and his is Ricky. He is really uneasy about Ricky and believes that Ricky will go right and Ali will have to go to tribal. He says he's probably going to go right just in case Ricky goes right. Better both of them go to tribal than just Ali. Also, Amanda told Toph and I that she has played with Ricky before, and that it didn't end well. I'm glad Ali is going right because I'd like to get Ricky out as soon as possible. Amanda was vague about what she told us but I'm hoping she opens up about it more so we know what exactly happened and we know what to avoid with Ricky. As regards to my partner, I trust him. Mo seems a little too timid to turn on me and go right. We're both going to go left, as far as I know. I'm going with my gut but I keep having seconds thoughts thinking that Mo is some evil mastermind. I don't know. I'm hoping for the best. I am hoping that, if anyone avoids tribal this round, it's Toph, Amanda, and I. They both seem to trust their partners (I feel like Toph trusts too easily though...) and I'm hoping for a smooth tribal avoidal for the three Merge Hopefuls.

See the thing is, if I go right that guarantees at least that my partner goes to tribal council. And since he's acting like he really doesn't care that much (about the challenge or the game in general) I feel entirely fine doing that lol, I somehow already have ammunition against him if we both end up at tribal and I can easily flip the vote against him if I feel like I'm in danger. As long as it isn't me, right?

I trust my partner enough to go left, but I haven't sent my official message yet. My tribe mates have been discussing going right in order to push the other tribe's members to tribal especially since those on the other tribe might go right so if we went right then we could use this as a chance to vote out someone from Espirito should everything work out ideally. I'm not positive about which direction I'm going to go quite yet though. I'll decide closer to the deadline.

I trust Emily to go left, but if she goes right I assume it's for the better of her tribe so I understand.

While sitting on the toilet, I came up with a strategy that I think might work in the favor of the Salao tribe, assuming that they haven't voted yet because it is a bit late for me to be coming up with a strategy like this.

My thought process is that we don't exactly want to avoid tribal, we just want to avoid voting out our own. And the way we would do that is by having the majority at tribal council. If all but one of the Salao tribe goes left, then some of us go to tribal and some of us don't, all depending on how Espirito votes. I am assuming some of the other tribe will vote right, which will send some of our tribe to tribal. And that is not exactly a bad thing as long as we have more people at tribal, and we will if we all vote left, except one person.

If we choose one person on Espirito we would like to vote off, then only the person whose partner that is would go right. Example, if we wanted Mo gone, I would go right and everyone else would go left. If I ended up at tribal because Mo went right, then that's fine. We would still have the majority to vote Mo out. The only problem with this plan is if not enough Espirito tribe members vote right, then we would go to a random tribal and have to fight for our lives. But still, a nine person tribal could result in Salao having a majority and voting out someone from Espirito. I pitched my plan to Toph but he hasn't responded. I just need someone to reassure my plan before I pitch it to the whole tribe. :0 

I have to say that this challenge is very nerve wracking cause it's so much of a crapshoot because you can't be 100% sure how the other tribe is going to go which leaves a lot up in the air. Even though we are working out a strategy, we can't guarantee its success because we can't be certain of the other tribe's actions

This just sums up a lot in this game right now: [7/27/17, 3:38:40 PM] Will: ok word, is she cool? do we like her? [7/27/17, 3:39:02 PM] Ricky 🦄: ....a fucking mess

I ate two burritos now my stomach hurts

Am I nervous for these results? Of course I am. Anyone could end up at tribal and a wrench could get thrown in our plans depending on how the other team plays

So I've decided to go right. It's not that I don't like Toph, it's just that I feel this is better. I have a chance of not going to tribal at all, or I go to tribal. It's 50/50. Also, Will is going right on Ray. He has told me some interesting things on Ray. Ray apparently said the r word and says the game is stupid. So if I go to tribal, I can use it against him. Good luck to me.

I'm so nervous, I went left and if not enough people go to tribal, I'm fucked. I'm praying what my partner told me is true and that she went left.

Ray,Ruthie,Ashley,Toph and Ricky are sent to tribal by their partners.

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I'm so happy that I'm not going to tribal!!! At this point, I see that Nayeli is trustworthy and I can definitely see us working together in the future.

THANK YOU EMILY

You have got to be fucking kidding me. Of fucking course i get turned on. I guess karma does suck... well fuck it i have a better social game then ray and ruthie and ashley were both flipped on

Also, YAY! The Dying™ alliance is safe and almost all of the people I wanted gone are at tribal! This day couldn't get any better.

FUCK YOU ALI TANVEER AND THE WAY THE A IN YOUR LAST NAME IS CAPITALIZED JUST SHOWS THAT YOU ARE AS ILLETERATE AS YOU ARE AN IMBECILE IN THIS GAME AND YOU WILL GET YOURS TRUST ME.

Anyways, I was right in choosing right. That other tribe is a bunch of snakes is what it is. Toph asked me about certain people like Gwen on which way their partner went, and then those people go right after I tell Toph their partner went left. I'm glad that snake is going to tribal. He will be voted out. Ray doesn't want to be here so he is not our concern. Toph will go for his attempt at taking a shot at our tribe. Point blank. Michael, Ali T, and Gwen are snakes and if they make merge they are gone.

Well, our plan didn't work. However I'm glad I went left because it's better for my social game in interactions with the Espirito tribe. Since the opportunity to talk to them has opened up I have wanted to make a good connection because strong social game is important and I don't want a reputation for being distrustful. I'm worried about Toph and Ray going into tribal because they're members of the tribe and it would've been better for us as a whole if we had gotten a numbers advantage but we didn't and now we have to face the consequences of that. 

everyone needs to calm their shit

Toph still want to align with me even though I've basically set up his downfall. He wants to do a everyone thinks we hate each other, but we are actually working together. I like it, but he has to survive first. Whether he goes or not, it still benefits me. Kisses.

I told Toph where I had searched for the idol so he could have a better shot at finding it. I want to keep him in the game to keep our tribe together for the time being. Not only that but if he stays in the game after tribal then I will have strengthened my relationship with him and I should be able to count on him as an ally.

I'm sorry, but I literally turned on Ashley and somehow convinced her that it wasn't me that turned on her??? And I literally have 3 out of the 5 people at tribal coming to me for advice and to talk to other people???? Im sorry but how did I literally get all this power? I'm literally controlling a tribal I'm not even a part of??!??! Legendary imo

Honestly I'm probably playing way too hard way too fast. I need to pump the breaks. People are going to compare notes and see me as the puppet master

My idea to get Toph safe is to flip either Ruthie or Ashley to vote out the other or Ricky. I think it's a good plan. Not only can I blame the outsider for the misvote, but I also gain an ally in Toph when I get to merge. It'll be perfect. I need him here to show that I can be manipulative, I can lie, and I can make big moves against my own allies. I want to start building a resume now, but even if Toph does go, it will not be a bad thing for me.

Okay, so I feel quite responsible for what has happened from this tribal. I'm not telling the others that though. I know it was my plan but unless someone actually blames it on me I'm just going to be that I don't know her gif. And besides, with my plan, it involved ONE person going right, and other people added the two-three people going right to ensure tribal. At least Espirito doesn't know the plan was mine. That would hurt me especially when we get to merge... if I get to merge.

So, Toph and Ray going to tribal wasn't a big deal until Toph blew up on Rafael even after Toph GAVE him permission to go right. Which was absolutely idiotic. Both the telling and the blowing up. This boy has no filter and never thinks before he acts. I keep telling him to calm down but he doesn't calm down. He's digging his own grave and I can't help him.

Honestly, if we lose Toph this tribal, I'll be upset, but Toph was becoming too much of a handful. Both Amanda and I agree on that. Even if Toph doesn't go home, I may have to distance myself from him. I don't want to be known as Toph's ally once he gets voted off because I will be next. And I keep telling this boy not to bring up my name but he KEEPS DOING IT. He keeps trusting people he shouldn't. He keeps giving away too much information. I'm so worried about how he is affecting my game. If Toph goes this tribal, may it's meant to be... yikes.

Ok im not playing that good of a game atm bc I'm busy af however I'm getting so much info being relayed to me by michael soo I'm waiting on what to do with it so watch out! but anyways i love being a sneaky bitch by going right and now one of my teammates are going!!! yayayayy! that means my alliance(s) will be easier to win the majority! and also i don't like toph or ray that that much but I'm gonna try to "help" toph with the idol to be able to get it

I like how Ashley says, "Jesus take the wheel," when I have the idol and I can take control of what happens at any tribal that I go to :^)

I'm just so happy having the idol because I know that no one else can possibly have it on this tribe. I'm not gonna make it control me, but I love not worrying about other people on my tribe having idols and voting with confidence.

Too many people from Salão are idol hunting right now, myself included, and it's real obvious to Espirito that we're scrambling in light of the immunity challenge. Can you blame us? Espirito keeps judging us as if they wouldn't do the same in our position smh

What's the tea? Wanna here the tea hunty well it's about to be spilt. I honestly have to fucking clue as to if im staying in the game. Im trying to work with Ashley and trying to get her to flip on her tribe since her being an outsider. But honestly she holds the keep my game and i feel like she's about to throw it away. I honestly only trust Emily.

Bitch... i have this tribe wrapped around my finger searching for this idol for me. I have literally gotten everyone to tell me we're they have searched and got francie to tell me her clue. There is only 3 more spots for me, Emily and Amanda too search in. And honestly im kinda happy that I'll either have the idol In my backpocket, or that one of my tribe mates will have it.

All these tribes are shady. I'm gonna be pretending (and actually being) really inactive tomorrow but I'm gonna hope I find that idol. If I do it's time to cause chaos! If I do find it I'm going to tell everyone to just vote me out so I don't have to stress on my vacation, then I'm going to SAVE MYSELF! It may be unnecessary I don't even know but I trust NO ONE And Ashley's big mouth told Ricky that people should go after abbey and Amanda Lynn not us when he confronted us about being close. DOESNT SHE KNOW RICKY AND ABBEY ARE CLOSE UGHHHHH Ashley Sarah idk who is more crackedt in this game me or you hehe

What's the tea? Wanna here the tea hunty well it's about to be spilt, fuck this game is crazy. Right now the guy I thought wanted me gone is now in an alliance with me. I see you boo. Emily, Rafeal, Amanda G, bryce, And i are working together but I don't competly trust it. Because i feel like that im on the bottom. The over the top bitch can not be on the bottom hunty.

I am so happy! I am making really good friends with Amanda G, Bryce, Rafael, and (of course), Toph! We all bonded by Amanda G's accidental tribe chat and then we just stayed on for like four hours. We have spilled so much tea about both tribes and created an alliance called Amanda and the Mafia. We're iconic. I have discovered that Toph and Rafael faked their fight in the tribe chat. I hate them. And also, Rafael has deduced that Will is a snake and voted for Zoe. This information doesn't really help me too much because I'm not on Espirito but, come merge, I'll know not to trust him. And no one trusts Ricky. I don't have much to say because it's 4:26am and I can't focus. I'll probably update my confessions tomorrow when I have more sense. Goodnight.

Last night, Amanda G accidentally called the One World chat and a lot of people had gotten on. It went well, and I feel like everyone bonded who was there. Then, people started leaving and it was only me, Amanda G, Emily, Toph, and Bryce in the chat. We got to talking and played some games like mafia and town of salem. We really bonded overnight. So we started an alliance called Amanda and the Mafia because Amanda does not have a computer to play mafia so we were all playing but she wasn't. Now I feel bad for sending Toph to tribal when we've become allies. The team's plan is to flip the vote onto Ray instead of Toph. I've already planted some seeds in Ruthie and Toph has been talking to Ricky and Ashley. If they don't flip the vote, Amanda G, Bryce, and I plan on "exposing" Toph by saying he has an idol and plans on playing it for himself. That way our tribe votes off Ray. However, something interesting came up in this talk. Bryce was the one who voted for Ashley at the first tribal. That means that him, Amanda G, and Zoe voted Ashley while me and Mo voted off Ricky. That means that Will had to have been the fifth vote for Zoe. Also, Ricky told Toph that he hates me because I voted him at the first tribal. Who could have told him that? The only people who knew were Zoe, Mo, Amanda G, and Will. Zoe was gone by this point and Mo wouldn't have said anything to Ricky so it comes down to Amanda G and Will. Most likely, Will told Ricky and set the plan in motion to vote out Zoe. Not only that, he also exposed me to Ricky for Ricky to target me. Will is a snake. A scheming, lying snake. This alliance will be beneficial to say the least. I hope this alliance does well. I like everyone there and want to go far with them.

Okay so Amanda accidentally calling the one world chat turned out to be i.conic. We talked for a while with a bunch of people but as it got later it was just Me, Amanda G, Emily, Toph, And Raf. They decided that they wanted to make an alliance out of the people in the call and I thought they were joking but then a chat was made so I knew it was real. I was hesitant about it at first because Raf is kind of uncontrollable and outs info easy but I learned to trust everyone. We figured out that Will must have voted Zoe instead of Ashley like he said, although I am still unsure if it was Will or Amanda G with the wonkie vote. Either way I really lose this new group and hope Toph can stay for this tribal and that someone on our tribe flips to help him and gets Ray instead. Emily is my fave Gemini so go that!  

Honeslee idc anymore I don't wanna play this hard this early. Newbies can have the game it's too much work to be a target so early for no reason

now that nayeli found the idol I'm excited and really can't wait to tell everyone toph or emily has the idol because they've been searching so much and they can flip on them! I'm loving this because now i have something i can throw onto someone else!!!:))) and that means another week of safety

Ugh, so idk if I talked about it but Emily had this brilliant plan that I'm pretty sure the other tribe also had and it backfired and no Toph is probably getting voted out. But I would love for it to be Ricky bc he terrifies me and I opened my big mouth Ashley Never-Make-Any-Moves-And-Stay-Loyal-To-The-People-I-Start-The-Game-With-Even-If-It-Means-I-Lose-In-The-End-Hello-Switzerland Sarah. She's also the only one, besides Ricky, that knows that me and Abbey are close. So. They both gotta go. I'm really hoping word doesn't get to Ricky that I've been talking about him. I wouldn't have if he could truly put our past behind him, but he isn't so! On another note, Toph has the entire tribe searching for the idol. Which, if they are telling the truth, is great. But I doubt they are. I'm still keep track on my list of what people say they searched, but I really doubt everyone is telling him the truth. I mean everyone is looking so I'm gonna keep looking and hopefully I find it, but I really doubt it. Will I give it to Toph if I find it? I don't know. But here's hoping he lives anyway.

OK SO ive got two cute little alliances, one with ricky and will, the other with ricky and amanda. amanda is my ride or die, i wont ever write her name down unless shes winnin. that being said the alliance with ricky and will is really cute and i feel like the three of us are really clicking. i know ricky has to go eventually, bc him and amanda cant work together long term. im stressed. ashley wants me and amanda gone bc she knows were a pair. amanda wants ricky gone sooner than later which is reasonable but im worried if he goes ill be a sitting duck till a swap. deep sigh

Every time the word idol is mentioned anywhere everyone freaks out and I'm really starting to get tired of it like y'all are just.... setting yourselves up for failure

The tea is that Nayeli has Salao's idol and now Toph can't get it. So our plan is to frame it so that Toph has an idol and our tribe will vote out Ray. We even made Toph write out a "finding the idol" reaction so that I can copypaste it into the espirito chat.

Fuck man. Nayeli has the idol and right now i feel so defeated, she is one of the only people I haven't talked with. Right now no one going to tribal will talk to me, and I honestly just wanna curl into a ball and cry. Right now me, ray, or ashely are the target, And i have no idea who's working with who. Im fucked man.

Im getting fucked over by some Disney ass loving bitch, A nasty fake ass snake in the sand, and some rock bitch that won't flip.

So last night, there was a group made which consists of me, Toph, Emily, Bryce, and Rafael. It was made when I accidentally called the One World Beach and I'm really proud that I did that because if I didn't, we wouldn't have found out that Will was a snake.

AMANDA HAS THE FUCKING IDOL AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! SDJGKBIOEHBTDFUHW ESGDHBAS DHKNEIOV WG.

Amanda has balded me toph is staying??? im shook. I love this game

Ricky can go eat a snake because I'm done with it, he's shady he's done nothing in this game and believe me when I say this he will go home pre merge catch the tea on that!

I'm very worried about tribal tonight. I really don't want Toph to go. Now that I'm in an alliance with Toph, Rafael, Bryce, and Amanda G, I really don't want to lose him and be the only Salao in this alliance. Rafael and Toph have a plan to fake Toph having an idol and I'm WORRIED about it. This plan is more than likely not going to work, get Toph voted out, AND put a target on Rafael's back for helping Toph, a member of the other tribe. People will be able to see right through the plan if they're smart enough. It's very unlikely that Toph would tell Rafael that he found an idol if Toph yelled at Rafael just last night for sending him to tribal. Both Toph and Rafael are being a little risky and I'm scared. Ricky, Ashley, and Ruthie literally have Toph's fate in their hands. And none of them are coming online. I'm shook. We need their help. Where are they??? Our whole alliance, the NFPs, are going crazy searching for idols. Toph believes Nayeli has the idol and that it was in spot 126. Rafael, Amanda G, and Bryce are searching like crazy as well. This is hard. Amanda Lynn also approached me with an alliance of her, Ali T, and Francie, and I'm so into it. I love those three. I've been wanting to work with Ali and Francie for a while and I'm happy Amanda is proposing we all align tonight. ALSO: IN THE MIDDLE OF CALL, AMANDA G HAS REVEALED TO US THAT SHE HAS AN IDOL!!! OH MY GOD!!! WE CAN SAVE TOPH WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!! I love Amanda G so much this is ICONIC. I CAN'T EXPLAIN HOW EXCITED I AM!!! I'm so excited!!! I'm hoping that Toph can flip the votes nonetheless and Amanda can keep her idol for herself. I know it's unlikely but I'm hoping for the best!!! I'm about to go to rehearsal and I hope I don't miss anything too significant. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh

BITCH HOLY FUCK! MY ASS IS NOT GOING ANYWHERE HUNTY. AMANDA G FOUND THAT IDOL AND HAS SAVED MY ASS! WHAT A HOLY QUEEN! MY EDGES ARE SCULPED.  THAT IDOL WILL BE USED AND I WILL BE STAYING HERE HUNTYS! IM GONNA LEAVE THESES BITCHIES SHOOKITH

i found the idol and it was my first time looking and i hadnt looked before bc i didn't think i would find it but i did and toph literally went around to everyone telling them what numbers to look for like sis get out my pms we've only talked like twice. i told him i hadnt found anything bc at that time i had already searched but the hosts hadn't notified me that i had gotten but i wouldn't have told him i had it anyway.

what i think is real cute tho is that he exposes me in the chat and tells people i have AND THEN sis deletes the messages and tries to pm me and say hi and how he's scared he'll get voted out like bitch you think you sly i literally the messages and then you deleted them so cute real cute I didn't tell the icons alliance i had the idol bc i wasn't planning on using it on any of them lol so i just said i didnt tell them i had it but since toph exposed me i kinda had no choice

i told them and i played it off as i wanted to keep under wraps for a time we really needed and that i would use it on them if they ever needed it and so far it seems to have worked they seem okay with it but idk we'll see

anyway toph is who want out next, dude exposed me which literally isn't smart bc he could have just told me he knew i had the idol and kinda made a deal with me but exposing me just made him someone i want to target and aside from that he literally messaged everyone telling them where to look for the idol and gwen and michael didnt like that so they're down to get him out as am i and we just need 2 more people(amanda and ali) to be down. also the icons alliance is the majority since we're five so if that goes right we can make merge.

Bitch these fake ass people are so fucking fake. When i wipe out thst idol these fake ass bitchs will be quaking in there socks. Bye bye Ashley!

I am so excited. Toph is playing his idol and he's staying. Ashley is going home. I'm making sure everyone thinks I'm alone and out of the loop. I'm currently talking to Will. I am telling him no one in my tribe is talking to me because I didn't put myself out there enough and yadayadayada. I do have a few allies, so I'm good. But I want Will to think I'm alone come tribe swap. He may want to take me under his wing and I can use that to my advantage. I'm just so excited to see Toph play his idol and everyone be Shooketh™.

Amanda is still a queen, I wish we could have saved the idol for later but I guess this is what we have to do to keep toph. Toph needs to lay low hopefully. Will apparently is a snake but I still trust him FDKJDSHKFJDSJK. Ashley should be going home which will be hopefully good for us. Also I  need to try to make sure I'm in with my alliance more and that I'm not the 5th wheel.

I tried to help Toph get the idol to keep him safe at tribal but was unsuccessful. The ideal would be for an Espirito member to get voted out at tribal somehow though that's pretty unlikely yet I would honestly rather Ray be voted off than Toph because he's been more inactive and I feel like Toph would be a better ally. I've talked to him a lot and I trust him whereas I know almost nothing about Ray so I would rather him go.

I lowkey have this fear that if Ray stays (which it looks like he will) he's gonna try and call me a snake or turn people on me but... he's also an asshole and people already seem to be in agreement with me over that. I do feel bad for Toph, but it's gotta be someone and right now that's the best option. Me, Ricky, and Abbey are still a solid swing position on our tribe and I'm good with enough people on our tribe and the other tribe that like... I think I'd be fine in a swap. But for now it's just a slow, chill game and we'll have to wait it out

Bye toph why did you spill the tea that Nayeli has an idol you duck and you're dead to me lowkey

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163541929473/tribal-council-3-one-world-exiles

LAST WORDS:  No tea

Ray becomes the third person voted out of Survivor Azores

[survivorazores]

Ep. 2 - “I'm gonna jump of a cliff. A relatively small cliff, but that's not the point”- Amanda Lynn

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163388457378/tribal-immunity-2

Ruthie is a cracked ass mofo. Ashley must have gotten into her ear. Looks like me Will and Amanda have to band together against this evil.

Remember when I said I was gonna create some chaos? Boom bitch

I will not go through that shit show ever again that is not happening i will dismember myself before being a target again mark my words

What the fiddlesticks?!?! I'm over.

I don't drink but I need a glass of wine smh

Tribal? I don't know her. Okay so the vote looked like it would be Ashley going home. I told Ruthie to vote Ashley. Obviously, Ruthie must have told Ashley and began to spin a web to vote out Zoe. They got Bryce and Abbey and Ricky along with the plan. Ruthie said Ashley had an idol, but Ashley didn't. I don't trust her and want Ruthie gone. She needs to go.

im good at jumping to conclusions

Tonight was CRAZY but so much fun! ALL THESE LITTLE RATS KEPT TELLING ME TO VOTE ASHLEY!  But the same little rats were telling her to vote Ricky or ME, so anyway, I told her that they were all voting for her, and I don't know she seemed busy or something, but once she finally answered me I asked her if I could tell people she had the idol... or maybe I didn't ask her that but I told people she had it and that she was going to play it.   Then I asked her if I could call her out in the tribe chat and she said YES!  So I just acted very paranoid like I just KNEW it was going to be me and that she was playing an idol, and I really think these people think I'm freaking crazy so I really tried to act the part by calling her out and saying 'DON'T WRITE MY NAME DOWN' over and over.  If someone did this that wasn't me, I would probably write their name down just because but I don't know.  Everyone kept telling me to vote Ashley and I started telling people to vote Ricky.  Ricky got wind of this and he and Abbey told me to vote Zoe, so I gladly did and Ashley and Will (I think?) voted with us and it just worked out SUPER nicely.   I feel bad for Zoe, she was really sweet and I hate being mean to a newbie when I'm like more than twice her age but I wanted to stay and I really wanted Ashley to stay.  I know I have a HUGE target painted on me for next week but I'm hoping that by then me or Ashley find the idol! I'm going to tell her to like tell people to get rid of me because I'm insane or something, and then if we find the idol we'll use it in our favor during the next tribal council! 

This is the CRAZIEST I've ever acted this early in a Survivor and the last time I played this insane it got me runner-up and I didn't win because of how cuckoo everyone thought I was but it's fun to cause a little chaos and I want to give all these newbies a game to remember!!  I hope we win this next challenge but if we don't I'm going to figure out a way to keep Ashley and I safe again.  There is ALWAYS a way to manipulate people into doing certain things you just have to like find the right buttons to press and really think things through!

OH MY GOSH, how crazy is Raffy?  HE WANTS TO ALIGN WITH ME. He says that I make things interesting and I'm SURE not gonna turn down an alliance.  I think Ashley is going to be my number one because idk how much I can trust Raffy but this is still exciting!!

Me, Will, and Amanda are starting to form an alliance to go against Ashley and Ruthie. I've also decided that Mo should join up, since he was one of the votes that kept Zoe. It'll be hard, but we also need to somehow flip either Bryce or Abbey onto our side. Then we have majority. For now, though, I've also wanting to align myself up with Ruthie. If she truly is working with Ashley, I could see if there is any info that she could share. I don't know if I want to be a rat, but I'm going to set myself up to at least play the middle.

Emily is a fraud and playing everoyone:))))) that is all

So last night we had a challenge that i didn't contribute on because I fell "asleep" and I'm very scared that if we lose they might want to send me home also Michael keeps asking like is our alliance real when we haven't lost anything so there's no reason to really be plotting anything this makes me suspicious of him

https://youtu.be/ajseZQKaD6Y

I love how well our tribe gets along. I haven't seen too much in the way of strategy becoming, like, a thing yet from what I can observe. If we lose this challenge then it will definitely emerge. I'd like to see a bit more complicated gameplay but not if it means we lose this immunity challenge

So Michael keeps adding people to the alliance, like hoe calm down we are good we gonna be okay like I love Michael but he needs to calm down and Emily omg this girl is way to messy she's like "too much small talk lets talk game" I've also heard she's make alliances with everyone so she's messy. Ray omg I like him too but he's a inactive and Amanda Lynn is kinda bossy and I don't think she likes me lol we'll see I think if we do go to tribal it's gonna be messy

If I get voted off this round I deserve to be on all stars yas

so besides accidentally searching for an idol in the challenge chat (sorry kids) i'm in two (2) alliances and playing the middle and literally playing everyone at the same time (except for ricky bc we're telling each other everything) and it's just... it feels right!

The Salao tribe loses immunity

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163417464138/results-2

YESSS!!! We won and I'm so happy we don't have to have a messy tribal for at least a few days! Iconic.

I'm so glad we won because I think I would actually die if I had to go to tribal again after everything last night jesus christ

I'm glad I made an appearance for the challenge even though it was just for like 5 minutes so they can see I'm INVESTED!!  I felt so awkward when I got on and they brought up last night but oh well, I'm just glad that we won!!  Now we just have to win the next challenge!

BITCH I AM LIVING FOR LOSING THE TRIBAL! I have a solid alliance with Amanda l, Emily and ray. Me and gwen have gotten super close. Amanda l and nayeli. And Emily and ali have as well. We have the majority of numbers and we're planning on sending aundra home! Bye bitch!

Losing is almost always disappointing. I think it's going to be hard going into tribal because it's going to be hard to choose someone to vote out. I just hope that, however the vote goes, it doesn't cause too much tension in the tribe

Bitches ain't shit! If no one is gonna be OTTN5 then I'll take that role!!!

So I forgot to write this yesterday but that tribal was so iconic. Me a minority voter? its more likely than you think. At least someone liked my parchment... Ruthie is an icon and I love her. One of me/Will/Amanda/Zoe didn't vote Ashley so that's sus. But we just won a challenge so that's good. Plus in a new alliance with Mo and RATphael so here's hoping I'm set up well.

My alliance says Francie and I couldn't be happier even though I'd much rather get out Amanda L since she a comp beast. We need her for challenges once we get close to a merge we'll cut her

I can't believe this tribe wants to vote off francie, it might be me I don't know but these people are messy af like I was gonna vote ray cause he doesn't like Tumblr and didn't even participate but the tribe wants to vote Francie! I know this vote is gonna get messy

TBH I wanna vote amanda out, but she actually is good at the challenges compared to a lot of these flops 

literally everyone is wanting to vote out the flop that is Francie, but I don't want to vote her out at all because what has she done? She literally is so under the radar and inactive that what does it matter?? My downfall in this game is going to be playing too hard too fast and I already know that so I need to take a back seat to this tribal.

I read the edgic thing and im gonna try to do shit like that with in mind!<3 but anyways how do i feel? i love michael and nayeli!!! and its perfect that francie is being discussed to go home bc 1. thats not me 2. idc about her sooo yeah super sexy.  anyways tophie is super sus and we all know emily too (yes i know im in multiple alliances but its only ok when i do it). tophie was talking about leaving the bad ass alliance already like... girl theres been no conflict really theyre just not doing much and were on the same page as them with francie!!! theres no need to do shit !!!! things will probably change but atm its pretty fine

After some confusion with my alliance I feel like I'm going home Michael is being very suspect and truthfully I'm starting not to like him like that If i go home tonight they will definitely regret it  

The people I want to protect this week are Toph and Amanda Lynn. I'm closest with them. If Toph keeps playing how he's playing, that makes him a much bigger target than me. And I'm all for taking that boy to the end if he keeps being messy.

Francie brought up Ray to me. I'm technically in an alliance with Ray but I don't feel that I have to actually be loyal to him. If I felt that Francie could be a number to me, I would vote with her, but I don't know where her loyalties are, or if she has any. But I also feel that her not having any loyalties at the moment is beneficial to me because she would be a number in the future. The Bad Ass Alliance (Aundra, Gwen, Michael, Toph, and I) have all been talking about getting Francie out. I feel like this week we should play it safe. Toph, on the other hand, really wants to expose the Bad Ass' plan to the Four Amigos (Amanda Lynn, Ray, Toph, and I) then vote out Aundra, but I don't see any benefit in that. I was very worried about going to tribal because I KNEW Toph would explode. He's going to go crazy and I need to calm him down. A reason that Toph's plan is beneficial is that I don't feel that Aundra is going to be loyal to me and giving her name to Amanda Lynn would improve our trust. Like, Amanda Lynn, I'm looking out for you girl. (For now, at least.) I'm going to lay out the pros and cons because this is stressful. My options at the moment are Francie or Aundra. Francie pros: an easy out, no loyalties, wants to vote for someone who I am currently in an alliance with. Francie cons: could be a number to me in the future, pretty helpful in challenges, she's seventeen and once (if) I get to the merge, I want to make an alliance with all the seventeen year olds just for fun. But for real. Aundra pros: tighten my bonds with Amanda and Francie (establish loyalties with Francie), get rid of someone I'm uneasy about. Aundra cons: currently in an alliance with me, making a semi-big move very early Okay, so, what I have concluded here is that I want to get Aundra out over Francie. I could get Francie to vote with me. She could be a number. Blindsiding the Bad Ass Alliance is risky but you gotta risk it for the biscuit you feel. Someone please vote me off for using that phrase in my confessional--I'm sorry. Anyway, I'm overwhelmed. Tootles.

Henny, I am misting everyone into voting aundra out. I literally am doing #THAT. I don't wanna say I'm controlling the tribe right now, but I am controlling the tribe right now.

I am so glad we won!!! Strategy never fails!!! I'm glad that we can have time to get to know each other. It seems like they really know survivor so I'm a little nervous about that but I'm hoping others will be more open cause some seem a little cliquey.

Coming at you with another voting confessional because I have MORE TO SAY. Toph has informed me that Gwen wants to make a chat with just the three of us to discuss possibly getting someone not Francie out. I'm into it.

Also, I have asked Ali if he would like to work with me and I am awaiting a response. I trust him a lot for some reason??? He just gives good vibes. I like him. And I think I could get him to vote with me. Any relationship I can form is good because I want numbers. I think I'll withhold some of these bonds I'm forming with people from Toph because he's going a little crazy and he needs to stay mellow. But he's also worrying me because he keeps telling people he trusts me like bitch didn't you want everyone to think we weren't working together?? Okay.

But now Toph is telling the Bad Ass Alliance we need to vote Amanda. I know he doesn't want to vote Amanda but he wants to make sure Michael and Aundra do, then pull Gwen to our side to flip. I can get Francie and Ali to vote Aundra, and things could go well? I hope? I'm overwhelmed.

Holy shit. So much as changed already. So this "badass" alliance is gonna be quaking in the loafers. We plan on blindsiding the fuck out of them. After planting a little seed in aundra's head about getting about out Amanda L. That hunty actually went will the idea and now is targeting her. The whole alliance jumped in on the idea but little do they know that I rallied some double agents. Me gwen and Amanda are voting for aundra to leave because we plan on telling Amanda about aundra dragging out her name and we pln on getting francie to vote with us too because this bitch is dragging too many names boo boo. The end of the tribe will be a little like this 7 votes for aundra and 3 for amanda. Lets just say the bitch will be blindsided and shookth. Bye bye bitch!

These hoes are so messy I'm about spill so much scalding tea here rn, so it's been like 20 minutes and already people be targeting eachother! I'm so done 

Lets finally talk about Amanda, she's okay. But she thinks she's a bad ass bitch lol I mean I don't want her out asap but I feel like she doesn't like me for some reason so what I'm gonna do for this vote is go with the group and try to blindside this chick next she's not with me catch the tea ON THAT

Another confessional because things are moving so fast: Toph and I discussed for a while whether or not to tell Amanda about Aundra bringing up her name. I said that it was a smart move and it strengthens our bonds. So, Toph spilled the tea to Amanda about Aundra putting her name out there. I messaged both Ali and Francie and told them what's going down. Ali and I have agreed to work together and I made Francie aware that I like her, trust her, and, if she would like to, would like to work with her in the future. I don't know how she feels about me. I hope she appreciates me keeping her updated on things in the tribe since no one else seems to talk with her. I am withholding me vote at the moment just in case things change again. But, at this point, I think everyone has agreed on Aundra. Poor girl didn't realize Toph was just WAITING for her to say something like that to he could expose her iafkdjafnd. I'm glad my name has not been brought up. Better Aundra, Amanda, and Francie over me.

I'm screaming. This vote has gone from francie, to amanda, and now to aundra. I AM LIVING FOR THESE FLIPS

WE WON THE CHALLENGE! I'm so happy for our tribe. If it wasn't for Will and Abbey we would have never gotten this far. Though Jay did say that there is something special after tomorrow's tribal. I'm scared it might be a tribe swap. I just situated myself in an alliance with Amanda, Will, Mo, and Bryce. Ruthie is also a side ally. I'm using her to know her idol searches and so she keeps me posted about the other side. Ashley and me don't really get along. Not like we hate each other, but we haven't really connected that well. The outsiders of the tribe I feel are Ricky and Ashley. I don't know anyone who frequently talks to them. However,  last night's tribal proves that Ruthie is cracked and Ashley is strategic. I don't know if they are working together. It doesn't seem like it based on my conversations with Ruthie, but you never know. It is likely. I'm just happy I can take a break for once.

I might be going home lol

Have I mentioned that I hate Guess Who? Because I really hate it. .5 seconds after the challenge, Toph bursts on our alliance with Emily saying AUNDRA WANTS AMANDA OUT BC SHE'S PLAYING TO HARD TOO FAST and I'm like ???? <insert the math meme here> Like I've only been doing the challenges and trying to avoid tribal? How is that playing to hard too fast??? So I spring into panic mode and talk to everyone and theyre all saying they don't wanna vote me out but like how do I know? So I get Nayeli to form an alliance with me and Michael and she wants Gwen and he wants Ali so now I have a 5 person alliance with them, as well as a four person alliance with Toph, Emily, and Ray. I'm in an alliance with everyone except for Francie and Aundra, which honestly is fine, bc Aundra can go now and Francie can go next, since I'm sure she's been idol searching. Ugh I hate this. I'm currently trying to get everyone to vote early so I don't have to spend all day tomorrow panicking. If I get voted out over Guess Who, BECAUSE OF FREAKING JT THOMAS, I'm gonna jump of a cliff. A relatively small cliff, but that's not the point.

My grub is voting Amanda L off which is what I wanted and I couldn't be happier but if someone flips I'll know who it is

I still love Will with all my heart and he's my number 1.

I'm hungry and am craving chicken tenders

It's 6am and I'm still just as paranoid as I was last night. My name has never been thrown around this early and I hate it. I didn't think I could do worse than my Malaysia placement, but I just might here. In my own series. That bothers me a little, but what bothers me more is that I might not get to play with Abbey and that's really the main reason I wanted to play in this game. I dont know I guess I'm just worried because I am a seasoned player. Everyone else on my tribe has never played a Survivor game, or ORG in general, before this one (besides Ray, but nobody seems to care about that). I feel like being the only veteran player on this tribe can be a disadvantage because if enough of the newbies feel threatened, they can just team up and take me out. I feel confident that Emily and Toph won't vote against me. I feel like I can trust Ray. I'm hoping I can trust Michael (since he was one of the people that told me Aundra was coming after me), Nayeli, Ali and Gwen. I'm really sketch about Francie. She's been searching for the idol early in the mornings and I'm fairly confident she has a clue. Which I don't care about her searching, but if she has it and played it on Aundra, I'm screwed. IF all these people are telling me the truth and IF I can trust them.... it might not hurt to throw my vote at Francie, in case there were an idol play. All 8 votes for Aundra would cancel out, and it wouldbe a 1-1 tie between me and Francie. But do I want to raise suspicion? Do I actually trust that everyone is telling me the truth and my misvote wont send me home? I dont know. I really hope everyone votes early and we have an early tribal because I dont know if I can last another 14 hours with my anxiety this high.

Amanda is so paranoid like girl Calm tf down you're good, watch this girl be paranoid and watch me get voted off 1-0 by aundra using an idol I'm so not here for it

Okay I feel a little bit better after going over numbers in my head. I know I have Emily and Toph. And Ali and I are really close. I think I talk to him more than anyone else, honestly. I expressed my concern to him about people lying to me, and he said everyone has told him they are voting Aundra, not just the people in our alliance. He said Ray and Francie both said they are voting for Aundra. While I'm still sketchy about Francie, I am confident Ray is on my side. That's 5 anyway. The worst that could happen if people are lying to me (besides and idol play) is that it ties. And at that point, I need to beg for my life that my side doesn't flip. 8 hours and counting until tribal. Ugh.

I have submitted my vote! Aundra was targeting an ally of mine, Amanda, and that's not something I'm down with. But I have to acknowledge that everyone likes Amanda and everyone was willing to vote Aundra out the second they heard Amanda was in danger. She has a killer social game and while I think that I could be at the top of her allies list, I still need to watch out. She seems trustworthy, loyal, and overall a good ally, but she is still a huge target and it would be foolish of me not to recognize it.

I feel really solid about this alliance I just hope these people are loyal you don't know anything in this game to be honest

I FOUND THE IDOL!!!! I am ecstatic about this. Rafael helped me extremely by telling me where he has already looked and we exchanged the places we looked at and thanks to him, I found it! I owe him big, but I know that I can't tell anyone about my newfound discovery. He can easily throw me under the bus if he's in danger and I can't have that happen. I love the kid, but you can't trust anyone except yourself in Survivor.

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163465065478/tribal-council-2-salao

LAST WORDS:  Well... I was the second person out which is not how wanted this experience to go but I'm not bitter and the fact that they thought I was a threat means I did something right. Truthfully I was to excited to play the game and that's what put a target on my back. Hopefully Toph or Gwen wins cause I liked them Michael is a rat a hope the door bite him and Amanda where it hurts

Aundra becomes the second boot of the season.