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EPISODE SIX: "I'LL SEND HIM IF IT ALLOWS ME TO GET ONE STEP CLOSER TO TAKING THE CROWN." - ZACH

So if you haven't heard it from me enough yet, THAT 📣 TWIST 📣 IS 📣 BULLSHIT! With that being said, I may as well continue. DANA 📣 DOES NOT 📣 DESERVE 📣 TO COME BACK. Not enough yet? DON'T 📣 TALK 📣 SHIT 📣 ABOUT 📣 JULIA RAE. Anyways! I'm still here. Still got no votes cast against me. The best I can do at this point is pull a Sugar and make it to the end with no votes, then receive none in the final. Fine. I'll do it. But first, let's fuck up everyone else's game in the process. I'm going to come back and pretend like I'm this poor, shit-for-brains Jaiden. Maybe that is who I am, but I'm still going to make sure there is no blood left unspilled. I don't care how it happens, but I'm out for revenge. Even if I go home next, I'm going to try and destroy everything in my path. No more mister Nice Jaiden, I want to finally fuck shit up the way it was intended to be. I'm not winning anyways, so why not go out in style? Watch your backs, castaways.

idk whats happening but i slept through the revote and adrian got voted out which  im upset about. he was a number on my side and idk i liked him as a person. on another note, dana is back and i dont know how i feel about it. shes obviously close with everyone and i dont think shes going to be voted out anytime soon but i just need to make sure im on her good side. BUT the good thing about nicholas and zach flipping on adrian/jaiden and not me is that jaiden is mad at THEM and thinks i had nothing to do with it (which is true) MEANING, hes going to do whatever he can to throw them under the bus and not me. i need to start picking up my social game and start becoming friends with everyone and i need to be more active and seem non threatening. right now i think kai and willa like me which is good, so i just need to keep talking to them and i think they wont vote me out until later in the game. obviously zach and nicholas are my best friends but i dont trust nicholas one bit. ive played other games with him and he fucks me over in every single one of them so this time, im going to get the last word. the first chance i get, when i think its a good time, im going to flip on nicholas to get him out. its what she deserves. i brought this idea up to zach and i dont know if he'd be down for it but nicholas just flipped on my closest ally in another game (we were considered a trio in that game too) so im going to say to zach that hes going to be in the same position and that my closest ally was and that we need to flip on him. i think it would be really smart to plant seeds in jaiden's head and have him go after nicholas for us. i think jaiden trusts me a lot and wouldnt go after me so i need to use him to my advantage. i want to make an alliance with zach, willa, and kai because i think willa and kai are kindaish on the outside and don't really have that many loyalties so it would be easy to bring them in. phew idk what im talking about mostly bc i still barely know how survivor works but im going to start to pick up my game and now im going to play to win. i really think i can if i play my cards right. so im sorry if none of this makes sense and its just me rambling but i thot id make a dr about my thoughts sooo hopefully my ass can win immunity this week!

DANA TOLD ME SO MUCH. AND ALSO ------ DANA IS BACK. So BRIAN wants to take me out eventually. In-ter-est-ing. I'm gonna fuck that Brian bloke into the pavement and he wont even know what happened. Metaphorical fucking of course. I'd never have sex with someone who likes the same music as me, that sounds dangerous. I want a final 3 involving Kai + Willa or Gage, but I'm also trying to make a Zachary Julia Me final three happen. I can those 5 fairly easily. The others? not so much. I'm not gonna be voting Dana out, but I'm scared of going to the end with her. Brian seems like a juror who will vote objectively. I'm not, but it's a good thing that he's gonna try to be objective in looking at how hard i blindside his ass out of here. But for now we've gotta take it slow. You can't be dumb. Gotta be smart. I need to vote out Jaiden first. Jaiden is a hazard to everyone, and he's a difficult human being to deal with. Why would I leave Jaiden in the game? ZACHARY IS TELLING ME THAT MY JURY MANAGMENT IS GREAT. I literally tell him that he's going to vote for me from the jury, and we argue about that shit. Now im trying to work with him and he's like "you're playing me arent you? well ill vote for you." like what. I love this

[2017-06-11, 12:02:47 AM] zachary rae: So [2017-06-11, 12:02:53 AM] zachary rae: I am spilling like everything to Bodhi [2017-06-11, 12:02:58 AM] zachary rae: I did something stupid but helpful [2017-06-11, 12:03:18 AM] zachary rae: whic hwas that I told him if he keeps me, because he’s the only one that talks to me, i’ll vote for him at the end and its good to have people like friends on jury [2017-06-11, 12:03:23 AM] zachary rae: but that also implies that i’m willing to be his lapdog [2017-06-11, 12:03:43 AM] zachary rae: but literally im going to be heartless later on and my bitch ass, i promise you, will be cutthroat and ill send him if it allows me to get one spot closer to taking the crown

A QUICK SUMMARY OF DANA's RETURN 28 After the day of rest—a holy day, as the sun rose Sunday morning, Mary from Magdala and the other Mary went to look at the tomb. 2 Suddenly, there was a powerful IDOL. BRIAN had come down from heaven, rolled the stone away, and was sitting on it. 3 He was as bright as lightning, and his clothes were as white as snow. 4 The guards were so deathly afraid of him that they shook. 5 BRIAN said to the women, “Don’t be afraid! I know you’re looking for DANA, who was crucified. 6 SHe’s not here. SHe has been brought back to life as he said. Come, see the place where She was lying. 7 Then go quickly, and tell hER disciples that She has been brought back to life. SHe’s going ahead of them into Galilee. There they will see her. Take note that I have told you.” 8 They hurried away from the tomb with fear and great joy and ran to tell his disciples. 9 Suddenly, DANA met them and greeted them. They went up to her, bowed down to worship her, and took hold of her feet. 10 Then DANA said to them, “Don’t be afraid! Go, tell my followers to go to Galilee. There they will see me.”

So its been difficult playing two games at once but somehow i managed to win INDIVIDUAL IMMUNITY OMG. I've never won before so I was probably way too excited but idk. sooooo. I'm really proud of myself but really see myself as a huge threat now. I'm playing a great social game where I'm friends with most people. I have a large alliance where I trust most of them very strongly. I'm winning challenges and helping my tribe succeed. I feel like now I'm really gonna need an idol cause I think people are gonna want me gone. I'm gonna try to play up how I don't know what I'm doing and strategy is confusing but I doubt people will buy that. But gotta do my best to not seem like the biggest threat after we target people outside of the alliance. I still think its a little risky keeping zach, julia, and nicholas but honestly I'm friends with all of them for the most part or they respect me so maybe if they do come together against us they would want to do it with me. I like knowing the gossip even tho most of the time I'm the last to know the gossip. IT'S WEIRD BEING SAFE. Like wait. You are telling me I won't go home? "Correct" Wait so like if someone plays an idol? "It won't affect you" BUT, what about rocks???? "You won't be in them" OMG THIS IS A DREAM COME TRUE #IFeelLikeAPrincess #AllHailtheQueen I feel like I'm gonna get myself blindsided pretty soon but hopefully Kai has my back and will let me know if anything crazy happens.  

OK SO IT's TIME FOR BIG MOVEZ TALK WITH YOUR RESIDENT HATER OF BIG MOVEZ Hi there. My name is Bodhi. I am 17 years old, and I hate big moves. I'm almost certain that if I wanted to, I could float to the end and win in this game. We would just need to pick off Zach, Julia, and Jaiden, then our alliance would cannibalize Brian, Dana, Lily, Willa, Nicholas. I'd make it to the end, and I'd beat Gage and Kai. That's an easy path for me to take. Big Movez are the devil, why would I ever make them? Well the answer here is simple. It's fun. Dumb big moves are the worst, but smart big movez? now this is something new. I want JURY VOTES, and Zach, Julia, and Jaiden would all be good votes to have at the end. Jaiden is not going to be a part of the plan to move forward though. I can't stand working with him. One thing that I have going for me is that I have been blunt with Jaiden. He knows that I'm voting him out tonight. That is big. The amount of honesty I have given him might lead to his respect down the line. But he thinks I'm bullying him by being honest. Whatever, if he doesn't want to give me his jury vote, that's fine, but I'd like it. I'll need to make Big Movez to suck Jaiden's dick and get a vote from him. I'm not scared to do it. Well I'm a little scared. Jaiden must go home tonight. Getting rid of Jaiden is not a big move. We aren't shaking up the game by getting rid of Jaiden. It's  just some basic janitorial shit, nothing extreme. Jaiden is not worth blindsiding, because he'll like that. He lives for big movez, so I refuse to give him one. After this, the plan is to get a vote split between Zach + Julia. This is not in order to get out either of them. Rather, it is to get out someone in the majority. I was thinking Lily at first, but now she seems to be more hesitant about trusting Brian. So I am considering trusting her. Gage and I are going to flip and make the vote 4-3-3. BIG MOVE Next on the menu is Willa or Nicholas. I don't quite care which, but I think that Willa might be a better call to do first because he's got the idol. Then we're at final 8. Dana, Kai, Gage, Willa or Nicholas, Lily or Brian, Zach, Julia, and myself. I'm closely alligned with Zach, Gage, Julia, Dana, and Kai, and in the time leading up to this I can get even closer with the others. I think I've got enough clear paths to the end that I can make some stupid #BIGMOVEZ and still win. I've got a deal with Dana to go to the end no matter what. I also have a deal with Kai to probably go to the end. I've got potential for a deal with Zach + Julia and go to the end with them. I think if I go with these BIG MOVEZ I might actually appease the juries sentiment of "rewarding objectively better gameplay" and win because of my jury management while they think that it's because of my strategic prowess. If you think that me winning this game along this path is because of strategic prowess, you're wrong. Any strategy that i put into place is solely to get jury votes. It is part of my social game more than anything else. I'd be getting to the end if I didn't make these moves, I'm only doing it so the jury feels like I'm strategically good.

[2:52:56 PM] jaiden: so what r u thinking of doing [2:53:00 PM] jaiden: I KNOW U HAVE IDEAS [2:53:06 PM] jaiden: I'm not gonna rat you out [2:53:16 PM] Bo dhi: what am I thinking of doing? [2:53:21 PM] Bo dhi: well I'm not sure you're gonna like it [2:53:21 PM] jaiden: for tribal [2:53:30 PM] jaiden: I mean as long as it ain't me??? [2:53:32 PM] Bo dhi: my plan is to vote you out tonight if that's alright with you [2:53:41 PM] jaiden: (dull) [2:55:17 PM] jaiden: anyways I'm voting out Nicholas. [2:55:21 PM] jaiden: you can follow me if you want to [3:24:23 PM] jaiden: or not >: ( [3:33:41 PM] Bo dhi: I'm thinking [3:36:29 PM] jaiden: let me know when ur done thinking [3:54:03 PM] Bo dhi: I'm not done thinking but I'm thinking [3:54:39 PM] jaiden: what,,, [3:54:42 PM] jaiden: that doesn't make sense [3:54:54 PM] Bo dhi: think think think [3:55:44 PM] jaiden: alright well I'm gonna go take a shower [3:55:52 PM] Bo dhi: good luck!! [3:55:58 PM] Bo dhi: I hope you have a clean one [3:56:07 PM] jaiden: just pls don't vote me out bodhi. [6:00:10 PM] jaiden: Big mother eggplant I have an idea. [6:00:23 PM] Bo dhi: what is your idea little son eggplant [6:02:32 PM] jaiden: We should vote out Nicholas :) [6:02:41 PM] jaiden: Because zach and Julia hate him and are willing to do it this time [6:03:33 PM] Bo dhi: "anyways I'm voting out Nicholas. you can follow me if you want to" you already brought this up [6:04:04 PM] jaiden: BUT NOW IM SERIOUS ABOUT IT [6:04:10 PM] jaiden: like I was joking then and now I mean it [6:04:12 PM] jaiden: We have the votes [6:04:17 PM] jaiden: Kai will literally do it if you do it [6:04:25 PM] jaiden: we just can't.....tell anyone [6:04:40 PM] Bo dhi: oh it was a joke before? didn't really seem like one [6:05:00 PM] jaiden: Yeah?? I wouldn't just be like "vote him out w me" [6:05:16 PM] jaiden: Bodhi I'm being serious [6:05:16 PM] jaiden: pls [6:05:22 PM] Bo dhi: {quoting earlier in the conversation} > [3:24:23 PM] jaiden: or not >: ( > [3:33:41 PM] Bo dhi: I'm thinking > [3:36:29 PM] jaiden: let me know when ur done thinking > [3:54:03 PM] Bo dhi: I'm not done thinking but I'm thinking > [3:54:39 PM] jaiden: what,,, > [3:54:42 PM] jaiden: that doesn't make sense > [3:54:54 PM] Bo dhi: think think think > [3:55:44 PM] jaiden: alright well I'm gonna go take a shower > [3:55:52 PM] Bo dhi: good luck!! > [3:55:58 PM] Bo dhi: I hope you have a clean one > [3:56:07 PM] jaiden: just pls don't vote me out bodhi. [6:05:59 PM] jaiden: WELL!!!! [6:06:02 PM] jaiden: CAN WE JUST DO IT [6:06:07 PM] Bo dhi: no thanks

Jaiden spent about 20 minutes being a complete asshole to me and then eventually gave up and talked to a ton of people about me behind my back. I honestly am disgusted. He thinks I owe him something, which is bullshit. I don't like him one bit. He might be the person that I've respected least from any game I've ever played.

[9:48 PM] nicholas: <<< On 6/11/17, at 9:43 PM, Logan (he/him) wrote: > Jaiden. I owe you nothing. But I think you owe everyone in this game an apology. For some reason, when you do something cruel, it's a game. But when anyone does anything targeting you? Suddenly they're a piece of shit! I'm thrilled to be writing down your name. whoever wrote this is winning bahamas btw THIS IS MY VOTING CONFESSIONAL. NICHOLAS BETTER KEEP THIS PROMISE

I'm using being castrated by Jaiden and feeling guilty to make people KNOW that I'm not a robot. I want to be loved.

She’s back? Listen I'm not going to pretend to understand what the FUCK this twisted game has in store, but somehow I moseyed my way back from the depths of Ponderosa paradise back into this hellish game. At this point I’ve been back for two days and I have SO MUCH to say. Why am I so irresponsible about confessionals? Well, I tried to write one Friday night… but we’ll get to why that failed. Also because I’m writing this retrospectively right after Jaiden’s vote out, some of what I write was irrelevant in the progression of the game and some is foreshadowing for what ended up happening at the Jaiden vote tonight… just stay with me because too much significant stuff happened to not write this altogether. For the sake of anyone who feels compelled to read this, I’m going to organize it the best I can, starting with my thoughts on being brought back. I.        Being brought back into the game. First, I'd like to thank Brian and his trashy idol for this opportunity. a. Notable reactions and my responses Brian: Immediately wants to talk to me about the game, and is saying that he “brought me back into the game for a reason, because he wanted to work with me. We skyped for THREE HOURS on Friday night, the content of which I’ll get to later in this confessional. Here's the thing, it would be REALLY easy for both Brian and other players in this game to think that Brian bringing me back means that he and I are working together or that I owe Brian... haha NO! That’s not how this is working necessarily. Jaiden: FREAKED out when I was brought back… and at first I thought it was my fault, but then we talked and apparently he’s not really mad at me, just the existence of the idol. And sure, maybe I should have figured that, but his reaction certainly left some questions. Here’s what Jaiden eventually had to say about me coming back after I, stupidly, apologized to him for coming back because I felt guilty (lame, I know) that the impact of his big game move was trumped. On 6/10/17, at 3:53 AM, jaiden wrote: > I just want you to know that my entire reaction to what went down today had nothing to do with you coming back.The idol is in concept extremely unfair, but the way it was executed tonight wasn't and I'm honestly not that mad you're back. I don't have an issue with you, and while I really hope that like, through all of this ugliness and craziness we can literally salvage ANY sort of working relationship, I know it's not going to happen, at least not on your end :/ I know you're a smart girl and very strategic but I honestly doubt that the move I even made anymore was an intelligent one so I don't see how you could justify it either. I'm sorry for getting extremely ugly in the tribe chat over what could've been seen as this whole idol thing taking place, but truly I am just frustrated about every event that went down tonight. What did I get from it? That Jaiden thinks I’m smart and tbh that’s more than enough for me. Honestly if he kept stroking my ego like that, I probably would have even considered working with him. Everyone else’s reactions to me coming back: Too nice honestly. People were THRILLED to see me back and I don’t want this to translate to “does this mean it was actually good for her to go?” Like on a personal note, I was pleased that people were so happy to see me. On a gameplay level, I was like pls can someone other than Jaiden pretend they hate me in this chat so people will think i'm less universally liked (whew that sounds INCREDIBLY cocky, though perhaps not inaccurate within the context of this game ONLY). Just be more casual people. b. Is it fair within the context of this game to bring me back? Listen, I’m definitely NOT an objective judge on that front. Am I happy the advantage exists? Absolutely. Do I see how it can be perceived as unfair? YES. But the way the idol was played within this game didn’t really make things as unfair as it could have if it was played at a later stage, as in it didn’t change much other than shift numbers. It brought back a player who nobody voted out except for one person, who is conveniently the one who is most agitated that the idol exists. Adrian is now first juror instead of me, which would have been the case if Jaiden hadn’t ALSO played a crazy idol like Brian, one that ALSO only exists within the online survivor universe. Moreover, I’m not really even back in the game on my own accord, it was all Brian’s idol, though I benefit from it. So all I can do at this point is keep playing my best game. c. How does being brought back in with this idol change my gameplay? In a way, I kind of feel like a free agent now. Of course, I still have relationships from before. I was re-added to the Bahamian Rhapsody alliance, but the pressure to work with certain people feels significantly lower than it did before I was eliminated the first time. I Coming back also forces me to acknowledge that I am a threat. I’ve already been voted out because I was perceived as a threat, and now I have to work hard to explain why I’m not. I won’t be successful convincing people that I’m not a social threat, I know that. So here is my plan about how to use this idol play to my advantage: 1)        Explain that being brought back in via this whack idol effectively means I CANNOT win. I was voted out once, and that is supposed to mean you can’t win. How could a juror POSSIBLY reconcile my vote out with then naming me the winner? I’ll tell people I’m going to have a much harder time convincing jurors that I would be a legitimate winner, thus making me a good pick to string along in the game. The thing is… this is probably true… It is harder for me to win. Except I’m confident that I’m smart enough to work my way around this and explain how my vote out can be discounted by the actual jury. Thus, I don’t mind floating this idea out there if needed for consideration in hopes of making it further along in this game. To be fair, Bodhi told me he doesn’t think I could win because of my vote out and Jaiden also told Bodhi the same (whether or not Jaiden actually believes this… debatable). 2)        I’m social, but not a game player. I started playing this strategy with Jaiden yesterday. On 6/11/17, at 4:48 AM, Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host) wrote: > My problem in this game, and I think my relationship with bodhi represents this, is that i'm friendly with people but nobody is really playing the game with me. I don't receive a lot of detail ever. Now of course, this is absolutely unrepresentative of my relationship with Bodhi, but I think it is a good (and perhaps not untrue) strategy to employ. II.        What I’m hearing about the game From Brian: We skype Friday night after I’m brought back… FOR A LONG ASS TIME. Was it a productive call? Idk maybe, I definitely learned some things that I’ll mention. Right before we got on call, I was writing a confessional about how Brian bringing me back changed nothing about any allegiance I had to him in this game (which was about zero when I was voted out) and then we call and I start to feel differently. It’s not that the idol produced that though, us talking did. I was still trying to regain my footing in the game and Brian was asking me to make a lot of decisions, which is a position I hadn’t been in before. I was there, he could see me over skype, and I had to think on the spot and speak. He was asking who I want to be in final 5 with and what I think about Willa or Lily making it far—amongst other things. Like SO many questions pls. He tells me that Willa has half of the super idol (the other half of which I still have, yet tell Brian I don’t). This was important information, whether or not it is true, and I can hopefully use it to try to manipulate the super idol advantage or cast doubt within Willa and Brian’s relationship. Brian also sends me an idol spreadsheet that supposedly only him and Kai have access to and are editing (though that myth is shattered quickly when Bodhi tells me he also has it and is contributing). Brian proposes a F3 with me, himself, and Kai (who I’ve still NEVER) spoken to. But he seems to understand that I have to get to know Kai better before committing, but I pretend I’m SO interested. He talks about the big votes being at f5 and f7, where we get out Willa and Lily, because they are threatening as organizers of alliances and social players respectively. As for his plans for other votes, apparently Brian wants to do Nicholas ASAP and obviously Jaiden, but who doesn’t want to vote Jaiden at this point. During the call we’re both talking to Jaiden, and effectively he is telling Brian his plan was always to get me out (on the vote he sapphire idoled me out on) and me that he only idoled me out because he couldn’t gather the votes to vote Brian out. This was the first sign of the extreme havoc Jaiden create within the next 30 hrs. Brian also, ironically, starts telling me that it’s so great that we can talk about the game and he can trust me to say nothing, whereas he couldn’t do the same with people like Bodhi. Brian has started trying to cast a lot of doubt about Bodhi, suggesting that he certainly can’t go far in the game. As Brian is telling me this, I of course know I’m going to tell Bodhi everything that is happening in the morning. Lowkey I have kind of a bad memory though. I wanted to take notes so I could remember everything to tell Bodhi, but that would have been way too obvious, but I manage to tell him most of the important things on our call the next morning. What did I learn from skyping with Brian? Perhaps don’t totally count Brian out as somebody to work with, even though today he came to me about Bodhi being sketchy when he got exiled which I CAN’T have people thinking or talking about. Most significantly I learned that LYING OVER VIDEO CALL IS HARD. Looking into Brian’s eyes over the screen at 5am and pretending to be sad over an immunity idol that I “lost” before I was brought back into the game was HARD… and I’m not a great liar. From Bodhi: Umm… A LOT. But here’s what matters. I don’t think I’ve talked about this in a conf yet, and if I did whatever. Before I got voted out the first time, Bodhi and I supposedly set aside the game for a second to talk about our alliance. [6/7/17, 12:57:22 PM] Bo dhi: So I just want to think out what exactly our alliance is. I just want to know what you want to do alliance wise. [6/7/17, 12:59:48 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): No you’re right, that’s smart because I don’t want something to go down and then us not be friends any more [6/7/17, 1:01:47 PM] Bo dhi: Imo, the two options are either A) we say it's just a game and that we're ok with the other taking us out, or B) that we go to the end together regardless of whether we think we can beat the other [6/7/17, 1:01:57 PM] Bo dhi: I'm honestly good for either one, but I want us to be clear [6/7/17, 1:04:01 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): I agree, I would feel the same way. Honestly, even though i’ve considered what would happen if I had to do option A, I really don’t think I could do it. I don’t see a path to the end for myself, but if it happens, i’d be happy to be with you there and lose. [6/7/17, 1:09:50 PM] Bo dhi: I could do it with some people, but I don't want to vote you out. Even if we agreed "yeah it's just a game" it would hurt. There’s more… but that’s the relevant part. We agree on Option B and that changes the course of my game. Because I was being completely honest, I’ll go to the end with Bodhi and lose. Happily. But now my game is looking out for the two of us and not just myself. I tell Bodhi about my idol and like clear up everything else I’d even moderately lied about to him to solidify this trust. Since then (once i’m brought back), I’m just like 100% all honesty. But here’s the problem: I am the most paranoid girl in the world. Like I really really hope Bodhi wasn’t lying and nothing he has done would suggest that AT ALL. But I just don’t want to be in this mindset where I’m 100% sure we’re being 100% honest and then actually let myself get disappointed if he decides I’m a liability. Normally if I was thinking about something like this, I would go tell Bodhi, but um IT’S ABOUT HIM SO I CANT. I’m trying my best not to think about it though, because when he is almost inevitably being completely honest and reads this conf. he’ll probably be like “why the doubt?” and it’s like idk man it’s a game that is foundationally built on the hopes that you’ll get paranoid and maneuver based on that… how could I not consider this? ANYWAY, let’s move onto tyrannical Jaiden because I mostly just had to write this part about Bodhi so I would stop thinking about it. Confs are for venting, right? From Jaiden: He’s going to be erratic and unpredictable no matter what. A LOT OF STUFF HAPPENED WITH JAIDEN. I could honestly go on and on and I’d die trying to explain it all, but here’s the short list and then a few important things will be highlighted.  Within the past few hours before his vote out, Jaiden committed to voting Nicholas, told me he implicitly trusts Nicholas, asked me to vote Julia (which apparently Willa put in his head, which he told Bahamian Rhapsody), told Bodhi he wants Bodhi to win, and ripped Bodhi to shreds in pms with me. A TRUE MESS. Leading up to this though, let’s go back to when I was brought back into the game. Because I think Jaiden is PISSED as I mentioned, like going to metaphorically cyber murder me angry. I message Jaiden while he’s having his post-my-return-party blow up and then once I know my life is no longer in the balance, I decide we’re going to talk game. Now remember, Brian and I have already received polar opposite messages about my vote out from Jaiden. Jaiden mistakenly keeps up his pattern of lying and misleading everyone who will speak to him for no reason and doing it TO THE EXTREME. The first lie comes over discussion of who the vote should be for tonight.   [6/11/17, 4:26:36 AM] jaiden: I heard a little idea of maybe going for one particular person but I think that's changed since Brian is back, which is amazing because Brian literally never fails at coming up with a better idea. [6/11/17, 4:27:17 AM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): Who is this one particular person, just to be clear? [6/11/17, 4:28:14 AM] jaiden: not saying anything because I don't wanna screw up whatever good graces I'm in with someone else. I can assure you that it wasn't you though [6/11/17, 4:31:07 AM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): Ok well, you have to understand, that puts me in a little bit of a weird position if i want to work with you. Like you dont have to tell me who said it, but can i know who it is? [6/11/17, 4:31:54 AM] jaiden: Okay, fair. It was Nicholas. So he tells me it was Nicholas, which I’ve already heard from Brian and ASSUME Jaiden has heard from Brian, though he won’t tell me because he’s trying to serve a grammy- award- winning ~I’m trustworthy~ vibe in this conversation. VERY off brand for Jaiden. Well then I started playing hard ball with Jaiden, even though I’m 99% sure I’m voting him out, to tell me who said Nicholas’s name. Eventually after enough prying, he tells me it’s Brian who mentioned it, confirming what I already knew. [6/11/17, 4:33:00 PM] jaiden: I haven't mentioned that it was him to anyone else so if it gets back to him, I'll scream ….LITERALLY I KNOW YOU TOLD JULIA AND ZACH that it was Brian who brought up Nicholas SO YOU BETTER BE SCREAMING JAIDEN…and do you want to hear about convoluted way I found out Julia and Zach knew Brian said this initially? Because… in the midst of me being pretty stern with Jaiden, and really digging into whether he heard it was Nicholas vs. had told Zach and Julia it was Nicholas himself, Jaiden is messaging Julia. So I end up seeing this message from Julia because while Jaiden and I are talking, Bodhi is on call with Zach and Julia. Jaiden -> Julia -> Bodhi -> me. Whew was I mad once Bodhi sent me this. > [6/11/17, 4:27:06 PM] jaiden: Dana is being fucking bitchy [6/11/17, 4:27:16 PM] julia rae: what she sayijng [6/11/17, 4:27:31 PM] jaiden: I told her last night that someone brought up Nicholas going home (it was Brian) but I didn't wanna rat Brian out to her In order to cover that Bodhi and I are working together, I DON’T EVEN GET THE DELIGHT OF CALLING JAIDEN OUT FOR CALLING ME BITCHY. But, this does highlight Jaiden’s sad failure of an attempt to pretend that he and I have some closed stream of information where he’s telling me things he isn’t saying to anyone else. THEN Jaiden spins a WILD tale that I know isn’t true because Bodhi and I had talked about it HOURS earlier. According to Jaiden, Bodhi wanted to take me out of the game and was trying to gather the votes. Once Jaiden basically realizes he is going home not matter what, he LAUNCHES into this story full force, and I’ll admit, even though I know it didn’t happen as he said… he fed into my paranoia a lil. Gage was really the one behind this failed vote plan, as long as Bodhi is telling me the truth, which I believe he is because otherwise there is no reason I would have been made aware of this HOURS before Jaiden told me. [6/11/17, 6:22:13 PM] jaiden: anyways I'm going home. [6/11/17, 6:22:31 PM] jaiden: I'm signing off skype because there's literally no chance people will save me bc bodhi hates me and wants me out [6/11/17, 6:22:38 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): fuck what [6/11/17, 6:22:39 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): ok [6/11/17, 6:24:23 PM] jaiden: Bodhi was coming after you lmao. I flipped it onto Nicholas because of what Brian said. Vote me out, I'm still voting for Nicholas, and I think it's still gonna be me. But Gage told me Bodhi was really wanting to flip on you, Lily, and Brian to get further in the game but for whatever reason!!!!! He's changed his mind. Because I want Nicholas out over you????? Idfk. Anyways I'll lay down and die like Bodhi fucking wants. This is just… a lie. Because while Jaiden is trying to convince me of this, Jaiden is also trying to convince Bodhi that he even told Gage any of this in the first place. This is where the two of them start getting into a fight. But before we get there, let’s take note of what Jaiden sent to Bodhi… [6:19:00 PM] jaiden: Bodhi. I'm not going to win. I literally could go and tell Dana you wanted to flip on her but I won't because I still want to work with you, dude ….HE CAME TO ME AND TOLD ME THAT… REPEATEDLY IN FACT. So then Bodhi and Jaiden start this weird fight, where Jaiden is ranting to me about how Bodhi is a piece of shit and im just like adding nothing of value to the conversation. Finally, Jaiden claims that after he threatened to tell me Bodhi wanted me out…Bodhi wanted revenge. [6/11/17, 6:36:12 PM] jaiden: I told bodhi I could tell you that he was going to vote you out but I wouldn't [6/11/17, 6:36:22 PM] jaiden: Then he went and told Nicholas I was going for him because he's mad … except Bodhi told Nicholas this HOURS beforehand. Yet another lie from Jaiden. With all this lying, he HAD TO GO. Like it was out of hand bad honestly. To his credit, he didn’t know that Bodhi and I are going back and forth this much… but his strategy almost RELIES on nobody comparing any notes, which is too dangerous.   Honestly, I’m just thankful Jaiden is gone because whew was I actually starting to feel irl stressed by his presence. I’ve aged 100 years in the last day and it’s not a cute look. III.        Moving Forward 1)        Lily vs. Brian is going to matter in this next vote. Brian has mentioned to me that “nobody would ever vote Lily” which makes her threatening. Agreed, but If I let people starting voting out social threats right now I might as well say bye to myself round 2. Lily and I talked about Brian as a threat, a conversation the Bodhi and I have had numerous times and that Bodhi says he and Kai have had. Things like this are GREAT for me because they take a little bit of pressure off of my gameplay. Right now I’m debating on whether or not to tell Lily about Brian’s plan to send her home eventually. This could put some pressure back on me, but also it could also give me a lot of leverage over their relationship. TBD. 2)        Fix things with Gage. In spite of Jaiden’s BS, Gage did say he wanted me, Lily, and Brian out… I THINK. I told Gage before the Jaiden vote that he and I should talk game soon, and I need to make that happen today so that we can proceed. 3)        Figure out what to do with my fav Nicholas who I love very much and inevitably will not be able to keep around much longer. I feel like I would love Nicholas as an irl friend, but in this game unfortunately he’s gotta go soon. Current Skink tribe fan theory suggests that he is pretending not to give a fuck about the game so he can go far and win. And honestly? Pretty smart. Good work queen. 4)        Decide whether talking to Kai and Julia outside of tribe chat makes any sense at this point/ ever? I feel like it makes me look disingenuous if I just randomly start speaking to them after we haven’t talked basically ever. I’ve heard from a few players outside of this game that it is only worthwhile to spend time talking to the people you can actually manipulate, so maybe I’ve lost out on those relationships and should keep up the radio silence. TBD. 5)        There is a plan with Zach and Julia in the works that Bodhi is entirely manipulating on his own because I lowkey barely talk to Zach though he is also a fav. I have no reason to believe this plan will work, but also things are lining up so far and Zach/Julia have been honest with Bodhi about their voting thus far. Also important, they don’t know that this plan exists at all. This plan is V ROUGH, but basically makes it so Gage, Kai, Bodhi could flip with Julia and Zach to vote out someone in our Bahamian Rhapsody alliance soon with me joining them later. Most importantly, it is structured to minimize the possibility that Bodhi and I ever have to flip together at the same time because that is too sketchy. WE MADE IT TO THE END AND I FEEL ALIVE. Knowing this game? I’ll probably have to do it all again tomorrow.

Jaiden was robbed but also not robbed. Hopefully Julia can go next and then I can decide if I want to turn on Brian, Bodhi or just... stick with this huge alliance for whatever reason.

so me and zach made a deal with bodhi for him to keep us safe and have nicholas go this week. im really hoping he stays true to that and doesnt try to get us out this time bc honestly we just want to make single digits. i kinda wanna act like the goat so ppl will take me far but we'll see

So originally, my plan for this vote was to do some wonky flipping and take out someone big. But other people have plans for big moves, and I've heard of them from multiple sides. Interesting. There is nothing in stone, but Brian and Nicholas are both potential targets. This is GOOD. I don't want to keep either of them around too much longer, and I think I could easily win either of their jury votes. This is rather dandy. Last night, Brian gave Dana his ideal "boot list." Of course, Dana ran right to me and told me. That's because Dana and I are bffs, and we both think Brian is a threat and a joke. Brian wants a final 4 of Dana+Brian+Kai+myself. This would lead to him booting me in 4th place. I don't want that shit. I'd rather Brian go out before final 4, and I'd rather stick around to the end. So that's my plan. Take Brian out at some point, and win. Solid game plan, right? This final 4 got Kai and I talking about JURY MANAGEMENT. I told Kai that neither of us can beat Dana at the end. I suggested a final 3 with Gage. Of course, I'd rather have a final 3 with Dana, but I don't want that to be too obvious. Kai asked who I think would get each Jury vote. I turned it into a game where we take turns saying one juror each. The reason for this is that I don't want Kai to know how big my Jury ego is, and how I think I can beat almost anyone at the end. It's currently with a Gage majority, which is laughable. I'm just throwing jurors who I think are voting me over to Gage so that Kai thinks that I'm gonna get 3rd place. Here is the list of who each juror will vote for in a final 3 of Kai/Gage/Bodhi according to the list that Kai and I have compiled: Adrian - Gage Brian - Kai Dana - Bodhi Jaiden - Gage Julia - Bodhi Lily - (we decided that she'll vote whoever betrayed her the least) Nicholas - (we haven't discussed this one yet) Willa - Kai Zachary - Gage/Kai Laughable, right? Here's what I think it would look like in reality: Adrian - Bodhi Brian - Kai or Bodhi Dana - Bodhi Jaiden - Gage Julia - Bodhi Lily - Bodhi Nicholas - Bodhi Willa - Kai Zachary - Bodhi Now I'm not absolutely certain, but I do think that I have the most locked down jurors. Dana, Julia, and Zachary are ABSOLUTELY voting for me at the end. Jaiden is voting against me, but I don't really care all that much. I don't think that either of the other two have many jurors locked in. I think I'm all set

Brian, Brian, Brian, Brian by Vachel Lindsay I In a nation of one hundred fine, mob-hearted, lynching, relenting, repenting millions, There are plenty of sweeping, swinging, stinging, gorgeous things to shout about, And knock your old blue devils out. I brag and chant of Brian, Brian, Brian, Brian, Candidate for president who sketched a silver Zion, The one American Poet who could sing outdoors, He brought in tides of wonder, of unprecedented splendor, Wild roses from the plains, that made hearts tender, All the funny circus silks Of politics unfurled, Bartlett pears of romance that were honey at the cores, And torchlights down the street, to the end of the world. There were truths eternal in the gap and tittle-tattle. There were real heads broken in the fustian and the rattle. There were real lines drawn: Not the silver and the gold, But Nebraska's cry went eastward against the dour and old, The mean and cold. It was eighteen ninety-six, and I was just sixteen And Altgeld ruled in Springfield, Illinois, When there came from the sunset Nebraska's shout of joy: In a coat like a deacon, in a black Stetson hat He scourged the elephant plutocrats With barbed wire from the Platte. The scales dropped from their mighty eyes. They saw that summer's noon A tribe of wonders coming To a marching tune. Oh the longhorns from Texas, The jay hawks from Kansas, The plop-eyed bungaroo and giant giassicus, The varmint, chipmunk, bugaboo, The horn-toad, prairie-dog and ballyhoo, From all the newborn states arow, Bidding the eagles of the west fly on, Bidding the eagles of the west fly on. The fawn, prodactyl, and thing-a-ma-jig, The rackaboor, the hellangone, The whangdoodle, batfowl and pig, The coyote, wild-cat and grizzly in a glow, In a miracle of health and speed, the whole breed abreast, The leaped the Mississippi, blue border of the West, From the Gulf to Canada, two thousand miles long:- Against the towns of Tubal Cain, Ah,-- sharp was their song. Against the ways of Tubal Cain, too cunning for the young, The longhorn calf, the buffalo and wampus gave tongue. These creatures were defending things Mark Hanna never dreamed: The moods of airy childhood that in desert dews gleamed, The gossamers and whimsies, The monkeyshines and didoes Rank and strange Of the canyons and the range, The ultimate fantastics Of the far western slope, And of prairie schooner children Born beneath the stars, Beneath falling snows, Of the babies born at midnight In the sod huts of lost hope, With no physician there, Except a Kansas prayer, With the Indian raid a howling through the air. And all these in their helpless days By the dour East oppressed, Mean paternalism Making their mistakes for them, Crucifying half the West, Till the whole Atlantic coast Seemed a giant spiders' nest. And these children and their sons At last rode through the cactus, A cliff of mighty cowboys On the lope, With gun and rope. And all the way to frightened Maine the old East heard them call, And saw our Brian by a mile lead the wall Of men and whirling flowers and beasts, The bard and prophet of them all. Prairie avenger, mountain lion, Brian, Brian, Brian, Brian, Gigantic troubadour, speaking like a siege gun, Smashing Plymouth Rock with his boulders from the West, And just a hundred miles behind, tornadoes piled across the sky, Blotting out sun and moon, A sign on high. Headlong, dazed and blinking in the weird green light, The scalawags made moan, Afraid to fight. II When Brian came to Springfield , and Altgeld gave him greeting, Rochester was deserted, Divernon was deserted, Mechanicsburg, Riverton, Chickenbristle, Cotton Hill, Empty: for all Sangamon drove to the meeting- In silver-decked racing cart, Buggy, buckboard, carryall, Carriage, phaeton, whatever would haul, And silver-decked farm wagons gritted, banged and rolled, With the new tale of Brian by the iron tires told. The State House loomed afar, A speck, a hive, a football, a captive balloon! And the town was all one spreading wing of bunting, plumes, and sunshine, Every rag and flag and Brian picture sold, When the rigs in many a dusty line Jammed our streets at noon, And joined the wild parade against the power of gold. We roamed, we boys from High School, With mankind, while Springfield gleamed, silk-lined. Oh, Tom Dines, and Art Fitzgerald, And the gangs that they could get! I can hear them yelling yet. Helping the incantation, Defying aristocracy, With every bridle gone, Ridding the world of the low down mean, Bidding the eagles of the West fly on, Bidding the eagles of the West fly on, We were bully, wild and woolly, Never yet curried below the knees. We saw flowers in the air, Fair as the Pleiades, bright as Orion, -Hopes of all mankind, Made rare, resistless, thrice refined. Oh, we bucks from every Springfield ward! Colts of democracy- Yet time-winds out of Chaos from the star-fields of the Lord. The long parade rolled on. I stood by my best girl. She was a cool young citizen, with wise and laughing eyes. With my necktie by my ear, I was stepping on my dear, But she kept like a pattern without a shaken curl. She wore in her hair a brave prairie rose. Her gold chums cut her, for that was not the pose. No Gibson Girl would wear it in that fresh way. But we were fairy Democrats, and this was our day. The earth rocked like the ocean, the sidewalk was a deck. The houses for the moment were lost in the wide wreck. And the bands played strange and stranger music as they trailed along. Against the ways of Tubal Cain, Ah, sharp was their song! The demons in the bricks, the demons in the grass, The demons in the bank-vaults peered out to see us pass, And the angels in the trees, the angels in the grass, The angels in the flags, peered out to see us pass. And the sidewalk was our chariot, and the flowers bloomed higher, And the street turned to silver and the grass turned to fire, And then it was but grass, and the town was there again, A place for women and men. III Then we stood where we could see Every band, And the speaker's stand. And Brian took the platform. And he was introduced. And he lifted his hand And cast a new spell. Progressive silence fell In Springfield, in Illinois, around the world. Then we heard these glacial boulders across the prairie rolled: 'The people have a right to make their own mistakes.... You shall not crucify mankind Upon a cross of gold.' And everybody heard him- In the streets and State House yard. And everybody heard him in Springfield, in Illinois, Around and around and around the world, That danced upon its axis And like a darling broncho whirled. IV July, August, suspense, Wall Street lost to sense. August, September, October, More suspense, And the whole East down like a wind-smashed fence. Then Hanna to the rescue, Hanna of Ohio, Rallying the roller-tops, Rallying the bucket-shops. Threatening drouth and death, Promising manna, Rallying the trusts against the bawling flannelmouth; Invading misers' cellars, tin-cans, socks, Melting down the rocks, Pouring out the long green to a million workers, Spondulix by the mountain-load, to stop each new tornado, And beat the cheapskate, blatherskite, Populistic, anarchistic, deacon-desperado. V Election night at midnight: Boy Brian's defeat. Defeat of western silver. Defeat of the wheat. Victory of letterfiles And plutocrats in miles With dollar signs upon their coats, Diamond watchchains on their vests and spats on their feet. Victory of custodians, Plymouth Rock, And all that inbred landlord stock. Victory of the neat. Defeat of the aspen groves of Colorado valleys, The blue bells of the Rockies, And blue bonnets of old Texas, by the Pittsburg alleys. Defeat of alfalfa and the Mariposa lily. Defeat of the Pacific and the long Mississippi. Defeat of the young by the old and the silly. Defeat of tornadoes by the poison vats supreme. Defeat of my boyhood, defeat of my dream. VI Where is McKinley, that respectable McKinley, The man without an angle or a tangle, Who soothed down the city man and soothed down the farmer, The German, the Irish, the Southerner, the Northerner, Who climbed every greasy pole, and slipped through every crack; Who soothed down the gambling hall, the bar-room, the church, The devil-vote, the angel vote, the neutral vote, The desperately wicked, and their victims on the rack, The gold vote, the silver vote, the brass vote, the lead vote, Every vote?... Where is McKinley, Mark Hanna's McKinley, His slave, his echo, his suit of clothes? Gone to join the shadows, with the pomps of that time, And the flames of that summer's prairie rose. Where is Cleveland whom the Democratic platform Read from the party in a glorious hour? Gone to join the shadows with pitchfork Tillman, And sledge-hammer Altgeld who wrecked his power. Where is Hanna, bulldog Hanna, Low-browed Hanna, who said: Stand pat'? Gone to his place with old Pierpont Morgan. Gone somewhere...with lean rat Platt. Where is Roosevelt, the young dude cowboy, Who hated Brian, then aped his way? Gone to join the shadows with might Cromwell And tall King Saul, till the Judgement day. Where is Altgeld, brave as the truth, Whose name the few still say with tears? Gone to join the ironies with Old John Brown, Whose fame rings loud for a thousand years. Where is that boy, that Heaven-born Brian, That Homer Brian, who sang from the West? Gone to join the shadows with Altgeld the Eagle, Where the kings and the slaves and the troubadours rest.

Brian has been renamed Cool Brian. Stay tuned

I am ADDICTED to suggesting voting out Willa. I have been doing it for many days. It is bad. but i can quit any time i want. right?????

[9:43:38 PM] Bo dhi: ok [9:43:43 PM] Bo dhi: are we doing Nicholas or brian [9:43:55 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): i think nicholas tbh [9:44:14 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): Like Brian has made it pretty clear he wants to work with us, and i dont think we should turn on that yet? [9:44:24 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): but i can really do whatever [9:45:16 PM] Bo dhi: ok I get that [9:45:20 PM] Bo dhi: ill go with that :) [9:45:27 PM] Bo dhi: I mean we gotta talk tomorrow too [9:45:30 PM] Bo dhi: figure it out [9:45:47 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): yeah obv. im mad i dont think ill be around for tribal again [9:47:55 PM] Bo dhi: I wont be here at this one [9:50:06 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): it seems kind of easy, so i guess i wont worry too much, but idk [9:50:12 PM] Bo dhi: wanna make it willa [9:50:16 PM] Bo dhi: that would not be easy [9:50:17 PM] Bo dhi: bad call [9:50:18 PM] Bo dhi: no no no [9:50:20 PM] Bo dhi: don't [9:50:24 PM] Bo dhi: I need to STOP my obsession [9:50:34 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): i kind of dont think willa is a bad ideea [9:51:16 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): because Nicholas will listen to me. and willa WILL try to flip on us [9:51:39 PM] Bo dhi: and I can get Zach + Julia almost without question [9:51:43 PM] Bo dhi: that's 5 [9:51:53 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): yeah but we shouldnt flip together [9:52:16 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): so if we cant pull in another then we should wait a round [9:52:25 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): i mean we can tell nicholas to do it or he’s going [9:52:43 PM] Bo dhi: we can explain working together without it being us two SUPER close [9:53:04 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): yeah ur right i forget that sometimes [9:53:33 PM] Bo dhi: should we [9:53:53 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): idk do we isolate too many people [9:53:55 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): i think we might [9:54:01 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): if we wait 1 round [9:54:11 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): it might be better [9:54:46 PM] Bo dhi: but then one of us could be exiled [9:54:55 PM] Bo dhi: and willa would know that the game was starting to shake around [9:55:19 PM] Bo dhi: and there would only be 3 more votes to use the idol [9:55:23 PM] Bo dhi: so theres a good chance [9:55:30 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): right- also for all we knwo, willa is trying to pull something this round [9:55:36 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): like i dont know why he wouldnt [9:56:17 PM] Bo dhi: absolutely. I think it could be neccecary to be honest [9:56:24 PM] Bo dhi: gage will come back and work with us [9:56:39 PM] Bo dhi: the question is who do we get rid of next [9:56:44 PM] Bo dhi: because that could screw us [9:56:50 PM] Bo dhi: we might need to just take out brian/lily [9:56:57 PM] Bo dhi: and then we're the big threats to flip on [9:58:02 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): i think the urgency of getting Willa out of this game depends on what conversations we hear tomorow. [9:58:10 PM] Bo dhi: excellent call [9:58:13 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): if we start hearing non Nicholas/ Julia [9:58:17 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): we need to strike for sure

so like i obviously said ive been wanting to flip on nicholas for awhile. i think whats going to happen tonight is the whole majority is going to tell us that the majority is brian. i think either an idol is going to be used on brian or itll be 3-3-3 and they either vote me or nicholas out in the revote. my plan is to get me and zach to flip on nicholas, voting him out and itll be 5-3-1. it'll keep MY ass safe and its what nicholas deserves. god i hope this works B)

I'm having difficulty trusting Zach as much as i would like to because he is very paranoid even though he has immunity. So like. Fuck.

Today, Brian made a slip that cost him the game. He's said things to Dana and I that make it seem like he knows we're tight, and just this morning when i said that I know Willa has an idol he said "oh, so Dana told you?" Now Dana and I don't trust that he's actually wanting us in the final 4, and Dana wants to vote him out. I literally am so fine with voting him out it's not even funny. So it is time to vote out the Prairie avenger, mountain lion, Brian Brian Brian Brian. Cool Brian is going to leave, and that's gonna be the end of him! I really hope he and Adrian have a good time on the jury together. That sounds like a fucking party. So we've got Dana, Zach, Julia, Nicholas, and myself voting Brian, and then FUCKIN GAGE COMES BACK FROM EXILE. N O N O N O. 10 people is a weird number to make a big move with. 6-4 is just an AWKWARD dynamic. But we're doing it anyway I guess.

So according to Zachary, Willa decided to take advantage of the split and try to rally Zach Julia and Nicholas against Brian. This lets us have ANOTHER split. So this vote could theoretically be 5-2-2-1. I'm heavily considering getting myself and Dana to vote for Willa just in case Brian has an idol. This could be an incredibly complex vote.

Ok so Willa wants to flip and get out Brian? (me too but) we're gonna be splitting votes between Brian and Willa because Willa so kindly graced us with his vote!! There's a method behind this madness of a 4-3-2-1 vote. We want Willa to think he was being blindsided, but it failed last minute. How do we do this? VOTING CONFESSIONALS. Zachary puts a 1 on his vote, Nicholas puts a 2 on his vote, and .... I PUT A 4 ON MY VOTE. Then Willa is like "shit, had #3 voted for me, I'd be dead." This plan exists so that Willa freaks out about whether there are people actually gunning for him, and so he starts trying big shit. It'll get him to waste his idol next tribal (just wait), and it'll also get him to try and completely realign himself. This is NOT going to work for our tragic hero, but it'll make for one hell of a few days.

There have been 101 conversations about what the fuck is going down at tribal tonight, and while I feel like I'm totally up on the plan, everyone is trying to make an OTT move tonight sooo Alright, so Bahamian Rhapsody alliance basically has a conversation about splitting votes between Nicholas and Julia this morning. To be honest, I never really want either of these two to leave. Julia barely plays this game, and I think I have a better chance of getting someone like Nicholas to work with me later down the line then someone like Willa. So basically this plan immediately disintegrates, but right now hopefully Brian, Kai, and Lily are still believing it. So Bodhi and I decide that even though we have a F4 with Kai and Brian called "The Hotdogs" it's probably time for Brian to go. He could have advantages, he's also just generally a threatening player because of his relationships and strength in challenges. At this point, Bodhi and I are going to vote Brian with hopefully Zach, Julia, Gage, and Nicholas. This, however, would mean that we were flipping together, which the goal is not to do. Then things get shaken up because Zach tells Bodhi another group has brought him a blindside for Brian tonight. I assume it's Willa, because Willa is probably coming from the same place Bodhi and I are, where he's like "I need to make a move." So we assume that Willa is trying to also take advantage of the vote split using Nicholas, Zach, Julia, and MAYBE Lily (whose willingness to vote for Nicholas was unclear). Basically, I give Bodhi the idea to tell Zach that he HAS to tell Bodhi who told him about blindsiding Brian because if a unanimous blindside for Brian were to come together from two separate groups (who didnt know the other was voting Brian) and Brian played an idol, someone like Julia or Nicholas could go home, which is the exact situation Zach wants to prevent. At this point, Zach tells Bodhi it is Willa, confirming what I already thought. Then Bodhi is like, lets split even further, and tells me he wants to pull off a 4-3-2-1 vote. We pick Willa because we know Willa has an idol, and thus in the off chance Brian has an idol, Willa will be gone and his idol flushed. Bodhi, somewhat naively imo, tells me it's going to be easy, which I think is a complete overestimation of how complex this game is, but whatever. He tells me to still vote Brian, which was my plan anyway. So then the vote breakdown would go as follows: 4 Brian (Me, Gage, Julia, Willa), 3 Willa ( Bodhi, Zach, Nicholas), 2 Nicholas (Brian and Lily), 1 Julia (Kai). Bodhi has some really flashy plan to pretend the split for Willa was last minute move by making people number their votes 1,2,4 so it looks like someone defected last minute and that Willa was only 1 vote from leaving the game. It's really fucking funny, but also it would be stupid for me to not think about how this impacts my game. Here's the thing, overall, this is all kind of fine with me. If I weren't playing this game, I would love it. Even still, if it works, it'll be hysterical. But moving forward in this game, a move like this REALLY isn't advantageous for me and i'm worried i'm starting to get envious? jealous?-- idk which word is better-- of people who are going to be visible for making big moves like this if they get to the end, including people like Bodhi. Because here's the thing, i'm still an important player in this move to take out Brian and split with Willa, but I'm a silent player and I didn't really choose to be. As far as Zach, Nicholas, and Julia know, I have no knowledge of this plan of a side split for Willa, and that sucks for me. It also makes my day harder, because I can't talk to any of them right now without putting them in a position where they would have to lie to me and pretend they aren't voting for Willa. So instead I have to ignore them, so as to avoid a situation where they lie to me, vote Willa tonight, and then feel uncomfortable playing the game with me moving forward because they know they've been dishonest with me and I might not trust them. So assuming things go down like this... what do i gain from this move? Very little is the answer. Perhaps Willa and Gage (who I already know is uneasy about me for no reason) start to trust me more. But I get none of the glory of pulling off something funny or smart, and more importantly I've voted out someone who claims they want F4 with me and put him on the jury, which is blood on my hands that people like Bodhi won't have. More importantly, the Willa defectors get to put a cool move on their resumes. So I have two counter plans that can help me compensate for having to partake in this move as a silent actor. One of them is necessary imo, and the other is nothing more then a plan in the works for me to get the glory I deserve. 1) One thing i'm PANICKED about tonight is that a group of Julia, Zach, Nicholas, and probably Lily (because she's close with Nicholas) could come together and pick a new target. Namely, someone like me, which would either create a tie with Brian or if they could pull enough people, send me home. This is paranoia in prime form, and I know it. BUT, In order to prevent this, I'm toying with the idea of sending Lily a boot list Brian sent me the other night (I know, A BOOT LIST, who sends those) that has her as the f10 boot and telling her she should vote with me tonight for Brian. This would give me some more confidence in her, and eliminate the possibility that she is conspiring with a Zach, Julia, Nicholas group about picking their own target. it also makes the 4-3-2-1 less flashy by producing a 5-3-1-1, which is kind of bitchy of me, but ummmm... who cares? Here's the problem though: I don't want Lily to have time to go to Brian with this information before the vote because it increases the chances of idol play. Anyway, I just have to think about that option for the next few hours. 2) I am plotting my big move. If I gain no notoriety  from this vote, you bet people are going to be thinkin I'm (cautiously) good at this game by the next vote. If Gage doesnt get closer to me by the next vote, I'm thinking of targeting him because he is a sneaky snake in this game and really playing a pretty good UTR game in my opinion. Other than that, hopefully things go well tonight. Either way, the fallout from this vote PROMISES to be lit and I better be here tomorrow.

[survivorbahamas]

EPISODE FIVE: “THINGS ARE GETTING SKINKY” - DANA

Alright. We have MERGED. I'm very excited to traverse this merge. I feel like I'm in the perfect spot in the perfect alliance. Kai, Brian, Dana, Lily, Willa, Nicholas, and myself are all going to work together. At least that's what I've heard so far. If we can make it to final 7, I will have so many different paths forward to final 3, which might lead to final one. Buckle your fucking seat belts.

I MADE THE MERGE? OH MY FUCKING WORD! WORK IT ADRIAN! WORK IT! This is like a monumental thing for me cause this is like my third overall Survivor game, and this... this is my first merge! I'm excited! And I really can't help but to be extremely giddy and like celebrate! Pop the champagne and pull those champagne flutes out cause we're gonna get litty tonight bitches!

So my mood is immediately killed when I see that Jenna is not with the tribe that is walking up to this merge. I'm extremely bummed because she was one of the people I had a GOOD previous connection with, and that I see Zach and Nicholas being the rats that they are here. Well, if anything I'm gonna do right by Jenna and eliminate them for you. Mark my words. You're gonna regret voting her out idiots.

Another thing Im really really super duper excited about is Dana! She was one of my closest allies on Ysabela 1.0 and that she's here with the Final 12... its exhilarating. If Jaiden didn't vote off Chips with his chaos idol back on Day 8, we would have been 6 strong and swamping through this final stretch of the game. Just literally destroying everything. Everyone On Day 1: NO FUCKING WAY THAT THEY WON THAT, THEY'LL GO TO TRIBAL NEXT!!!!! Ysabela 5: Its Day 19 and we've only lost one person. When are yall gonna put your money where your mouth is??????

Nicholas just sent a fake confessional form to the tribe. I'm voting him out next. 

i sometimes pick my nose on calls because no one can see me

Ahh my first ever game and i made merge, this is the best thing thats ever happened!!

Ok so there's this 7 person alliance coming together, and then out of NOWHERE Kai suggests we make another alliance. This is a BAD idea. But I am very happy that he came to me with it. It's a moronic plan that would get us out back to back at 10th and 9th. But him sharing it with me shows that he trusts me. That's important. I've told him that his idea sucks in as nice of a way as I can, and I've steered him away from it. We still have our 7, and people are CLOSE to me. I have such a beautifully clear path to the end. It can't be this easy.

I'm very pumped about this next tribal it's gonna be a fun one

I owe this game a good confessional, but that'd not what you're gettin. Ya girl has A LOT to say, but i'm exhausted and have to go to work in a few hours where I will probably die, i'll write something better later. All I have to say for right now is: 1) Skink better be the merge tribe name. I don't really want whatever reward is, though I do want whoever gets it to tell me what it is. Also I graduated from college and couldn't figure out that Skink didn't spell Kinks backwards but  whatever Lizards are the one true King and I love them, so does spelling really matter? 2) Jaiden and I are having a WILD conversation about the blind vote Eleuthera had when Chris was voted out. AND I AM SHOOK. I don't really think I trust Jaiden in this game, though I just told him I would look out for him, but after he told me this, maybe I need to look into him as an ally a little more closely. [6/5/17, 2:57:53 PM] jaiden: Ysabela was such a mess [6/5/17, 2:58:02 PM] jaiden: We all targeted each other on the new tribe lol [6/5/17, 2:58:12 PM] Dana Barry: did you really?! what happened?! [6/5/17, 2:58:24 PM] jaiden: well Chris was coming after me [6/5/17, 2:58:25 PM] Dana Barry: i’m glad i was alone if that was the case haha [6/5/17, 2:58:38 PM] jaiden: so I got an advantage in immunity and threw it and took him out [6/5/17, 2:58:50 PM] jaiden: I tricked ppl into splitting the votes [6/5/17, 2:59:03 PM] jaiden: Since no one wanted chris out [6/5/17, 2:59:12 PM] jaiden: he was also like trying to backstab bodhi I guess? [6/5/17, 3:01:42 PM] Dana Barry: oh fuk ok. so chris tried to target you and then you created a split. Who was the split between? [6/5/17, 3:02:02 PM] jaiden: okay so since it was a blind round I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT STUCK [6/5/17, 3:02:11 PM] jaiden: I think it was between bodhi and kai? [6/5/17, 3:02:16 PM] jaiden: but it could've also been Julia and kai [6/5/17, 3:02:54 PM] jaiden: I knew that kai was self voting bc he was asleep when tribal was about to happen [6/5/17, 3:03:03 PM] jaiden: then I believe Chris voted either myself or Julia [6/5/17, 3:03:07 PM] jaiden: Bodhi voted for Julia [6/5/17, 3:03:09 PM] jaiden: I voted for Brian [6/5/17, 3:03:28 PM] Dana Barry: fuck well that is a mess huh [6/5/17, 3:03:30 PM] jaiden: I played anotheradvantage I got from the challenge on rob which made them cast a self vote so he had votes [6/5/17, 3:03:47 PM] jaiden: Then I played the chaos idol so only Adrian, myself, and Chris had to draw rocks [6/5/17, 3:04:20 PM] Dana Barry: what the fuck. how many advantages did you have damn. what did the chaos idol do? [6/5/17, 3:04:51 PM] jaiden: everyone who receives votes is immune and then everyone else must draw rocks! which was the benefit of having a super split vote [6/5/17, 3:05:08 PM] Dana Barry: oh i see. so chris was actually rocked out [6/5/17, 3:05:13 PM] jaiden: yep [6/5/17, 3:05:26 PM] jaiden: #novotes [6/5/17, 3:05:29 PM] Dana Barry: fuck. well i hadnt heard any of that [6/5/17, 3:05:29 PM] jaiden: it was crazy [6/5/17, 3:05:36 PM] jaiden: because I haven't told anyone lol [6/5/17, 3:05:40 PM] Dana Barry: that is truly a mess [6/5/17, 3:05:42 PM] jaiden: I only told rob what really went down [6/5/17, 3:06:09 PM] jaiden: thankfully we never had to go to tribal again lol [6/5/17, 3:07:08 PM] Dana Barry: yeah wow that is convenient it sounds like everything was really disorganized Assuming any of this is true, which I'm honestly quite unsure about, WHY DOES THIS KID HAVE SO MANY ADVANTAGES. Like pls help a girl out, I got a disadvantage (Jaiden also says he has a disad that factors in "later in the game") and my golden hidden immunity idol princess that i'm really grateful I didn't waste in this last round by being a paranoid mess. But anyway WOW. Jaiden kind of always seemed like he could be a messy player, but not like this, I guess there was a reason tho if he felt targeted. I just want Jaiden to trust me so that when he inevitably joins up with Zach/ Julia (who he told me he trusts) I'll know if my name is gettin called out. I don't know either of them well, so I think it could be to my advantage to have someone who will presumably be working with them close to me. I'll write again later about current alliance stuff/ the tragic loss of queen Jenna/ any other drama that happens between now and then.

Ok so Zachary just added me to an alliance chat without asking. It's got Zach, Julia, Jaiden, and Nicholas. Nicholas and I are already in the majority alliance. Thanks, but no thanks!! I like being safe. I hate that I'm gonna have to flip on that new alliance tho. I don't want to make people feel betrayed.

Yes! All of the sheep on my tribe agreed to name the tribe Skink, and let me tell you THINGS ARE GETTING SKINKY. I want to focus this confessional on alliances starting right before merge with the Jenna vote and then moving into what is happening now with this godforsaken Chain Reaction challenge and an upcoming vote on the horizon. On swap Ysabela, the core alliance was me, Nicholas, Willa, and Lily. Even though I was INCREDIBLY skeptical about sneaky Nicholas, he was loyal to our alliance. I worked so hard to get him to be friends with me the day before the vote so he would vote with me, then basically pledged my undying loyalty to him after it was a 3-3 vote for Jenna vs. Willa. ALSO LET ME POINT OUT THAT I WAS RIGHT! I KNEW NICHOLAS AND JENNA WERE FRIENDS. Instincts are great huh? The fact that he stuck with Lily and I in the revote instead of swapping to save someone he's actually friends with definitely solidified a lot of trust (and ok fine, i'm sure the threat of rocks factored in there for him somewhere too). Also in the end, I actually liked Jenna and felt a lil bad voting her out because she was super nice and actually fun to talk to. My judgmental ass is retrospectively sorry. Now coming off of that messy tribal, I still trust the people in this alliance. They have connections that I don't have on the merge tribe, namely Kai. Bodhi told me that Kai said he was close with Lily and Willa from their original tribe and Bodhi and Kai are close now. This isn't a bad thing, but I have made it clear as fuck that I want to keep working with our core four over other people, including anyone from my original tribe or anyone from theirs, including Kai. Hopefully they can stick with that for a little, but i'm making sure to give myself other options. I am having a hard time building a connection with Kai. I'm going to give it a shot tomorrow, because if Bodhi is close with him, I definitely need to work on it. Idk what we're going to talk about, but i'll figure that out later because I'm casual and ~fun~ Bodhi has floated an alliance of us+ Willa, Kai, Nicholas, and Lily out there. That sounds good to me, and puts me in a good spot because I have close connections with a bunch of the people in that group. This chat hasn't been created because you couldn't pay me or Bodhi to put ourselves out there like that. Moving onto other relevant people: Gage: I will literally put him on a leash so he can't get taken by that manipulative bitch the Bermuda triangle again. I don't think he has a ton of relationships, including basically any on swap Ysabela because he never had to vote with us. he is giving me info he has from his exile idol search, so I wake up when he comes back and he sent me more clue information that he had got after being exiled a 2nd time. On 6/3/17, at 10:38 PM, Gage :) wrote: > missing just like you, > look to the flight with more than 2 > knowing where this treasure lays > may just be the cay I'm assuming he's telling me this as a way to build trust since he hasn't been able to prove it through a unified vote with me. Idk if he knows this info is useless to me unless I get exiled, but it's a nice gesture, also gives me time to think about where that idol might be. Then Gage says this: On 6/3/17, at 11:58 PM, Gage :) wrote: > Listen if you guys are willing I would love to work with y'all during the merge Meaning me, Lily, Willa, and Nicholas. And ya, i'm down for that because I'm closer to him than he is with at least Willa and Nicholas. To solidify him as a number, I probably need to get him included in a chat with us all, but idk how to do that yet. I want Gage to be my side ho that nobody else is looking too closely at, but also i'm NOT underestimating him, he won a main after all. Also RIP he brought up that Bodhi and I played in Great Lakes together, so I pretended I basically forgot that ever happened and that Bodhi and I never speak, which was probably the only real lie i'd told until I really started leaning into my lying bitch persona this afternoon (we'll get there). Zach: was pretty clearly isolated by the last vote on swap Ysabela, and tbh I haven't put effort into talking to him since he merge. I'll probably do that tomorrow, because I kno that boy has connections that I might need to exploit in this game. I want him to think i'm non-threatening and that I only voted Jenna because I was told I had to. I want him to think i'm a literal idiot goat. Brian: Boring? Absent? Uninterested? Idk we haven't talked enough, but he and Bodhi had a "close two" according to Bodhi, so I need to talk to him. Julia: Talked to me for the first time tonight! I like her more than on OG Ysabela, I know she is close with Zach, so not a bad person to be talkin to causally. Jaiden: Confuse me more pls. Even though Bodhi would kill to get rid of him, I kind of like the idea of keeping Jaiden close for a while because I think he is a loud personality that will cover for my own. Basically, the whole conversation I had with Jaiden was premised on this HUGE lie that I think he and I can go far in the game together if we keep an eye out for each other. [6/5/17, 2:50:53 PM] Dana Barry: i think if we look out for each other though we can do better [6/5/17, 2:51:13 PM] jaiden: I'll keep my eye out for you ;) [6/5/17, 2:53:11 PM] Dana Barry: I will too! I feel like it’ll be helpful since we were on opposite tribes and know some different people [6/5/17, 2:53:28 PM] jaiden: Okay hmm [6/5/17, 2:53:33 PM] jaiden: Well I trust Julia [6/5/17, 2:53:38 PM] jaiden: She's quiet but loyal [6/5/17, 2:56:10 PM] Dana Barry: that’s good. That’s honestly all you need in an ally. I didnt talk to her a ton on Ysabela, but also i talked to nobody soooo Look at miss me, proposing I watch out for someone whose safety isn't my concern, aren't I too kind? Jaiden is not likely to be one of my close allies at any point in the game, but that certainly doesn't mean I don't want to work with him. Especially because he seems to be loose with passing out information on advantages and votes, which I need access to. Now I know he and Julia are definitely close, confirming what I already expected that he could be working in a trio of sorts with Zach and Julia. anyway, I also did talk to people on Original Ysabela so.. ooops! FINALLY, Bodhi: We're friends, tru, but I haven't quite figured out what this means in the game yet and i'm bad at navigating it for sure. I've been pretty willing to share information with him so far, and I really do plan on being loyal to him. But also Bodhi is smart and tries to play with a new strategy every game he's in, which makes him a unpredictable. I keep accidentally almost telling him I have an idol, and then I always remember that even though I do trust him, I need to keep that to myself just in case. Whew I just love telling people secrets tho... especially at my own expense because im tragic. I told Bodhi a lie today, and I feel bad. Like really bad. Really Really bad. I don't even think I could physically tell another one because i've felt v guilty about it since. Basically Bodhi and I were talking about winning the reward (like way before I won), I can't find the receipts, but basically I was like ya i want someone to win who will tell me what the reward is if I don't win it myself, and Bodhi was like same. sooo..... Once I won it would have seemed h y p o c r i t i c a l not to tell Bodhi what it was. Initially I told Bodhi I wanted to tell the whole tribe what the reward was if I won to avoid creating suspicion around myself, but once it was a reward that narrowed down the idol board search, I decided I really couldn't have people knowing about that, including Bodhi. But I also have to tell him, so I lie because Bodhi and I confirmed have the same idol board so this s certainly a relevant clue for him. Logan tells me that my idol board number has a 5 in it as the clue. So... I tell the truth and also immediately lie. [6/5/17, 11:49:10 PM] Bo dhi: what was the clue? [6/5/17, 11:50:24 PM] Dana Barry: it has a 3 or 5 in it [6/5/17, 11:50:31 PM] Bo dhi: damn [6/5/17, 11:50:33 PM] Bo dhi: that's great [6/5/17, 11:50:41 PM] Dana Barry: so like that limits it a lot [6/5/17, 11:51:06 PM] Dana Barry: what #’s did u look at already. im lookin for  my list [6/5/17, 11:51:33 PM] Bo dhi: I don't think ive looked for any with a 3 or 5 [6/5/17, 11:51:46 PM] Bo dhi: I avoided 5s because they make the most sense to guess [6/5/17, 11:51:56 PM] Dana Barry: yeah that’s what i figured as well So essentially, I give myself a 1/16 shot at finding the idol (because I already searched 54 and know it isn't there) and I give Bodhi 1/31 shot. SO I STILL HELP HIM. I feel SO BAD lying to him, but I needed better odds and that was the best way to get them. Also there was some conversation (early in the game) about Bodhi not wanting an idol or considering sharing? Idk he seems like someone who would maybe think about giving me an idol if I were persuasive and the circumstances we correct, so Bodhi having a decent shot at finding the idol is still ok for my game. I know Kai has this idol board too from Bodhi, and if Bodhi is feeding him any help with it, i'll lose it, so hopefully that isn't happenin. OK BLESS, I'M FINISHED! ALL THE TEA IS OUT THERE!

i think im going home. im just paranoid. thank god lily isnt voting though because she's someone im kind of against. I have some people i like tho ^_^ i like juia rae, nicholas, jaiden, bodhi hehe. lets hope for the best

im so happy i won immunity!!! im ready to slither through this tribal and then see what happens after! i really want to make sure that dana/julia/zach/jaiden/adrian/lily all make it through! they are like my people in this game but i am also close with others so i think i have put myself in a great position moving forward yeehaw!!!

Damn I know I'm safe but it would've been nice to win immunity

I wish I kept Julia and got rid of Zach now, the four headed monster of Zach, Julia, Jaiden and Nicholas is gonna run this game... hopefully not but if that's final 4 I won't be surprised at all

Dana and I just solidified our alliance a lot. We both care enough about each other that we're not gonna be voting each other out, even if we need to in order to win. I'm going to the end with Dana even if she can beat me. We've revealed a lot of information, and DANA HAS AN IDOL? ok wow. She also told me about a 3 person alliance of her, Jaiden, and Nicholas. This is exciting. I know more than before, and I know who to protect/bring in for future votes.

I think Julia is going home? Idk I'm too tired for this honestly.

BRIAN JUST CAME OUT ABOUT NOT BEING HEIDIK TO THE TRIBE CHAT Adrian isn't here right now, but it's so fucking funny that this happened. Brian said "It's worth noting that I didn't start this rumor," which is true. I was the one who threw this out, but I don't want Adrian to know that, because then he'll be mad at me instead of Heidik. I was freaking out, like, is he gonna throw me under the bus??? But then Kai said "I don't know who did tbh" so I seized the opportunity to say "it was more of a group thing." Crisis averted. Now Adrian won't hate me. Hopefully by the time I'm at FTC and he's on the jury, he can realize how funny it is that he believed Brian Heidik played ORGS. For now, I just have to wait, and play it by ear. But I'm bringing this up at FTC, that's hilarious.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W6DaplcXlSU&feature=youtu.be

In summary, I am scared. I planted the seed in Nicholas's head that the biggest threat in this game is Brian. Honestly I just wanted it to sprout next round and grow a beautiful flower but instead, nope, it popped today and I got Nicholas to turn on Brian instead of one of my closest allies, Gage. I also got Nicholas to go against Dana and go for Brian which is ??? literally unheard of. I thought Nicholas loved Dana but he's leaving her out of ARGUABLY the biggest vote of the game right now. So now it just lies in the hands of Julia Rae. I'm PRAYING that she comes online and votes him out so that our six (me, Zach, Julia, Nicholas, Adrian, and Gage) can get to the top five (bc Zach is hella scary and I want him out at like final nine) isn't like I want. If that's the case, I'm literally set to make it to the final three and all that stands in my way is this fricking tribal council!!! FUCK. I'm impressed at how good I'm playing this round because usually I'd be running and screaming at everyone, ripping my damn hair out and bawling my eyes out at everything going to shit. I really hope everyone stays true to their word and I don't get blindsided because I did NOT just come this far, having been able to pull THIS off, to get sent to the jury. We just have about an hour and a half left to sit through patiently before something big happens... I hope it's really Brian.

LOL I LOVE LOVE LOVE DANA BUT THAT WAS I C O N I Q U E I'd love to see Jaiden win this game so it's a shame he needs to go home ASAP. I'm sure Dana would love to see him at ponderosa! Ugh this season is too much for my little heart to handle

Well, there goes any semblance of a chance I had at actually winning this season. I'm gonna start picking up the pieces of my game. Maybe I'll just pretend to have been the victim in all of this, truly, so they don't vote my ass out next.

Dana is the merge boot. Again. POOR FUCKING DANA :( <3333 I'm going to miss working with her. She's one of my favorite people, and not having her around is going to suck. At least she gave me a TON of information on the state of the game before leaving. I know how to find the idol in the bermuda triangle. That is significant. I also know how I am percieved. ALSO significant. I love Dana and I miss her already. That being said, I need to move on. Brian, Kai, and Lily are going to need to become stronger allies of mine. I can win this, I just need to get to the end

My name is Julia Rae and I have something to say... Sorry I've just always wanted to start off with that I think Jaiden is a fat cunt and he needs to go home next. He ruined my entire alliance's chances at winning this game and he's so smug about it. It was a bad move to take out Dana and he knows it. His ass is grass next eviction.

Making my final confessional after I just got voted out. Try not miss your favorite queen too much, ok? A disclaimer (written after I wrote this confessional and realized how harsh it sounded): I just finished writing this, and I’m already not mad anymore because this is a game and thus anger is v temporary. Also, everyone in the game will certainly know where the anger came from at the time without much justification needed. So buckle up and get ready to read the meanest thing you've read by a genuinely nice girl @me. So here's the thing about me: It's pretty hard to make me mad. In a game, it's nearly impossible because this is a game, it's whatever. I am rarely reactionary. You can wrong me, and as long as there is solid logic behind it, I am understanding--even when it means I get voted out. THIS TIME I AM MAD AND I WILL NOT APOLOGIZE FOR IT. Maybe it's that I was better positioned both socially and strategically then I ever have been before (though that would have certainly caught up to me quickly), or maybe it is the fact that someone who I don’t view as a competent player was the one who did it to me.   Listen, it didn't take me getting voted out by Jaiden's single sorry ass vote for people to know he is the messiest lose cannon this game has seen. At least I can take solace in the fact that I don't even need to worry if Jaiden will get voted out soon, because it is inevitable. I mean, dude, thank god the advantage fairy blessed you, because otherwise you would have had no shot at acting the way you are in this game and even being around long enough to see yourself play this badly. Relying on advantages to make illogical decisions as "power moves" is not admirable. Playing advantages at a strategic moot point in the game just makes you look like a jack ass. And oh, it did just that tonight, Jaiden. I think the best way I can really lean into Jaiden's absentminded game is first by going into all the terrible bullshit he put out into this game today. He starts out today by telling me the names he's heard (most of which he self-generated, I presume): Gage, Bodhi, Zach, Julia, and Adrian. Ok fair enough, that brings us to 5/10 eligible people. THEN he proceeds to ask me how I feel about voting for Brian or Kai. Now we're at 7/10, 2 of the remaining 3 are us. Then for some unknown ridiculous reason he tells me that even though there is a solid majority to get rid of Adrian, the two of us should throw votes at Julia, just the two of us, to break up a mystery "plan" that Zach clearly never had. JAIDEN THAT IS MESSY AS FUCK. a) Why would I EVER single myself out with you, when for the entire day Nicholas, Bodhi, and Gage (amongst others i'm sure) were all similarly being misled by your wildly unnecessary and e x t r a plans. b) THERE IS A SOLID MAJORITY- WHAT ARE YOU DOING. Now i'm going to go to the most disingenuous and poorly crafted excuse of an apology that Jaiden sends me after I'm eliminated by his single vote. We're going to deconstruct it, because that's the easiest way to see how logically fallacious his "strategy" is. I don't even need to have access to the "so much more" information Jaiden claims went into this decision to know that he is certainly going to regret it. On 6/7/17, at 9:54 PM, jaiden wrote: > okay I will only tell you a brief summary of why I did it, because I don't want to like seem like I'm pandering for your vote or something already. but literally...everyone said you were their best friend. they would ignore what I was saying because you had a significantly better connection with them, and I'm playing with people I know outside of this game, yet they still trusted you so much more than they did me. There is so much more that I'll explain to you when I get voted out, but it wasn't out of pettiness or to look like the top dog, but things went down where I had to make the move or lose so many other peoples' respect for not voting with them. I am so, so sorry, but I think it was just the right time for my game 😞 a) Pandering for my vote? Absolutely laughable. I would be shocked to see Jaiden close to FTC. Also you think there is any chance you could ever persuade me to give you a jury vote? I would probably quit jury sooner. b) Everyone said they were my best friend? HMM. WEIRD. First of all, that's not true. Ask me if I ever said more then 20 words to Brian, Zach, Julia, or Kai. But then let's assume that Jaiden is miraculously right and i'm tight with everyone... If people like me and not you Jaiden and the two of us are very clearly working together... HOW DO YOU BENEFIT FROM ELIMINATING ME!? c)"Wasn't out of pettiness or to look like the top dog"? Pls you power hungry queen. d)"I had to make the move or lose so many other peoples' respect for not voting with them"? Oh boy, I have a lot of critiques of this part. Subpoint 1: You could have just voted for a fucking rando. Can't pick between Brian or Adrian without betraying people? How about you just cast a random ass vote for me then or literally anyone else. Then I don't go home and you can just let everyone know you didn't know who the vote was for, you got confused, or that you didn't know that a random vote would be the deciding factor in who stayed vs. who went. Very explainable and forgivable actions. Subpoint 2: You, ironically, claim that you care about respect in the game. Yet, for some reason you think you didn't lose respect by making a poorly thought out "power move" completely by yourself and discounting everyone else’s votes for who they actually wanted to go home? Hysterical! Combine this with the fact that you think people like me, and you've lost a lot of people's respect making this move. Subpoint 3: WHY THE IDOL AND WHAT A BAD TIME TO USE IT. Save it for a time when it can really change things up in the game (that's why I, mistakenly, didn't play my idol tonight). There are 12 people left in the game, unless you're going home, why are you playing an idol. Sure, maybe you buy yourself 1 more night of not having to make a decision about who to side with. But Jaiden didn't save himself with the idol, he wasn’t at risk, and he didn't give himself any leverage in making a decision about who to align with. What. A. Poor. Choice. You may be thinking, what else do I have to laugh about after Jaiden's tragic misstep? I was honestly planning on moving forward with him in the game. I was being VERY honest with him and not many other people were or they saw clear limits to how long they could work with Jaiden. SO GL WITHOUT MY LOYALTY PAL. The best part? Let's say someone else had been clocked instead of me. I'm still objective enough to think that this was a BAD PLAY for Jaiden and that will certainly keep me laughing long after this vote. Finally, to conclude my last Confessional, I want to thank the hosts and Bodhi. You guys were some of my favorite hosts yet, so thank you so much for everything! Bodhi, you are easily the best ally I've ever had. I think we successfully tricked everyone in the game into thinking that we weren't close from Great Lakes and that we weren’t talking to each other all day, huh? I've never felt so good about an alliance that I literally revealed all of my cards, and that's because you're more than an ally, but you're an amazing friend. I know that, given the opportunity, we would have gone to FTC together like we promised and and WITHOUT QUESTION I will fight the rest of the jury to the death for you to win this game if you are at FTC. Wishing you the best of luck inside and outside of this game! 

LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IM HIGHTAILING IT OUT OF TRIBAL COUNCIL AND I'M SEEING DAY 20 and 21. 6-4-1 YIKESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSs

But really though, literally I don’t see how I am viewed as a threat? I haven't won anything or there is nothing in my pockets that I would use. That is literally the second time Jaiden has to use something on me to like save me, and I'm still shaking at how many of these people really want me gone. Well, sorry to say I guess, I'm still here and I'm still breathing this game. Like so I'm not gonna go to people- if they feel like complete assholes after voting for me, they should expect another thing coming because its one thing to be safe after a special idol is played, but another alien feeling when you have to confront 5 of them back at camp, and like have to socialize with them again.... Im ready to make a fantastic firework show appear. Sit back and relax cause its gonna be explosive the next few days. 

So, I'm talking to Jaiden and two emotions are like bubbling inside of me: happiness and anger. I'm really elated that he like used another item to like save me, but really angered at the fact that this is the 2nd time he's kept me in the dark about a vote AND eliminated 2 former Ysabela. Like dude? If you're gonna target a Ysabela, at least tell Julia and I that you're gonna do it!?!? I appreciate the grand gesture, really I do, but I would love to be correct in the vote for once. That's 0/2 in correct votes for Tribal Councils, and I'm not here for it. Not at all.

I'm planning on doing a very careful job at this challenge. Touchy subjects is easily the most important immunity challenge in any game. It is SO CRUCIAL not to win, but it's also crucial to make it seem like you tried. This game is going to reveal our guesses for each one, so I've gotta try as hard as I can not to offend anyone too deeply. I was planning on just doing the exact wrong answer on everything that isn't extraordinarily base line, but that is no longer an option. QUESTION ONE: “Who do you want to still be friends with once the game is over?” Ok, so this question is incredibly important to guess someone that isn't the majority, but needs to hear this confirmation. Zachary and I mess around so much, and I'm acting like I hate the guy. Throwing this answer in here might give him confidence that I genuinely like him outside of our comedic endeavors. Do I genuinely like him? I like him enough to want his jury vote, and to have some fun bantering around, but there is no emotional connection. That's alright. QUESTION TWO: “Who should’ve been voted out premerge?” This question is important to not offend anyone with. I'm going to be writing down Jaiden because the conversations that I've had with him make it clear that I don't care for his game one bit. This is a safe bet for me because we've discussed this, and he thinks that I have a small amount of respect for his game. This is a falsehood, but whatever answer gets me further, ya know? QUESTION THREE: “Who should’ve been the first juror?” This one is easy. Adrian had the majority of the votes until the idol was played, so by saying Adrian, I'm merely saying that I wish the idol hadn't been played. QUESTION FOUR: “Who are you surprised to see make it this far?” This fits in perfectly with how I've treated Jaiden to his face. QUESTION FIVE: “Who would you trust with your life?” This is an awful question. There is no good answer. I would trust Lily the most, but that might show how close we are. I'm putting down Julia because it makes a little bit of sense, and she's barely active, so I don't think people will care. I've had conversations with Julia about real life stuff that have made me feel very supported, and hopefully Julia will appreciate me putting her down. QUESTION SIX: “Who is the fakest?” This is a cute little answer because Zachary and I joke around about being fake with eachother. QUESTION SEVEN: “Who do you sometimes forget is playing?” Julia is my answer, because our conversations usually revolve around completely things unrelated to Bahamas. She wont be offended, sometimes she forgets she's playing too. QUESTION EIGHT: “Who is the most inactive?” For this one, I'm gonna throw out Julia as well. In reality, the answer is going to be Gage, but Gage and I talk a bunch, and Julia won't be offended. QUESTION NINE: “Who’s playing for second?” Gonna call Jaiden out for having shitty jury management. QUESTION TEN: “Who would you most like to see win the season?” This morning I told Kai that if I don't win I hope he does. I'm trying to convince him to go to the end with me because I want him to win so much. I'm gonna offer to help him at FTC, which is total BS, but if I can do it subtly enough it might just work. QUESTION ELEVEN: “Who is going to be the most bitter juror?” I want everyone to think that I'm going to be such a bitter juror that they don't want to be the one to take me out. QUESTION TWELVE: “Who think they’re running the game?” Who THINKS* they're running the game. I want to fuck over Jaiden a little bit here, just to gain some more trust. QUESTION THIRTEEN: “Who actually is running the game?” OOF. This is a hard question to answer. I can't say myself because that puts a target on me. I think I'm going to say Jaiden, because there's a certain amount of truth to it. QUESTION FOURTEEN: “Who is going to be voted out next?” I'll say Jaiden again, just because that's what the majority wants. QUESTION FIFTEEN: “Who is the nicest?” This is another loaded question. Lily told me that she'd talked to and made connections with everyone but Adrian and one other person who I've forgotten, so I'll say her just to put a bit of a target on her back. QUESTION SIXTEEN: “Who do you want to “go missing” next round?” I'm gonna say Julia because I've been complaining about her spamming the group chat with photos. QUESTION SEVENTEEN: “Who is most likely to be a catfish?” This one is hard. I'm going to go with Zachary because he reminds me of Eric. QUESTION EIGHTEEN: “Who is most likely to be blindsided?” I think I HAVE to say my self on this one. I want to seem less confident than I am. Although I wouldn't be that surprised if I were blindsided kinda soon. QUESTION NINETEEN: “Who is too nice for their own good?” This one is also hard. It implies that I'm gonna be voting this person out for being a threat. Also, it's dumb to have this AND “who is the nicest.” They're the same answer except for the social politicking. I'll go with Adrian here because he's so damn gullible. QUESTION TWENTY: “Out of the prejurors, Madison, Kylie, Chips, Mitch, Rob, and Jenna, who most deserves to still be here?” This answer is easy. Attack Jaiden's worst move by saying Chips. QUESTION TWENTY-ONE: “Who often gets credit for things they don’t deserve?” Brian is getting credit for the Brian Heidik thing, but that is MINE. Although I'll say that it's because it was a group effort, because I don't want Adrian blaming me. QUESTION TWENTY-TWO: “Who has the most friends?” Nicholas has pregame friends and is friends with everyone else. EASY answer

[3:41 PM] zachary rae: On 2017-06-08, at 3:38 PM, Bo dhi wrote: > and what kind of freak spells Zack with an h? “bodhi"

I'm not fucking delusional. THAT BEING SAID, Jaiden has offered a final 3 deal of Julia myself and him. That is IDEAL for me. Those are literally the two biggest goats in the game, I'd win in a landslide. The question is, how do I get to the end with them? Because I don't think they'd be willing to take me in all honesty. I'd love to be able to trust Jaiden, but that's the stupidest thing anyone can do.

NICHOLAS JUST OFFERED TO QUIT THE GAME IF I'M EVER IN TROUBLE <3

Ok I'm explaining my Adrian vote to him. I think I've convinced him we're still good. He thinks he's convinced me that he saved me at the premerge vote, which isn't entirely wrong, but he keeps bringing it up. He believes he's got me directly in his palm, and that's what I want. I want him to think I rely on him, and that I only voted him because I'm weak and went to the majority. He says I'm one of the only people he likes in this game. I dont know how true that is, but I do know that most people in this game like me. I think I'm in a great enough position that I don't have to make any real substantial moves and I'll win at the end against nearly anyone. Let's hope for the best!

I enjoy lying to Adrian. He's gullible enough that it just makes talking to him so much fun.

Not getting picked for any of the touchy subjects sucks ass bc it proves that I'm irrel, but it is also good bc there ain't no target type thing on my back that this challenge exposes. All Jaiden, Adrian and Brian as expected. And Lily who I forgot was in the game despite her being a close ally bc she went missing for a day. I'm a mess. I coulda won if I remembered she existed lmao.

i didnt win anything and it saddens me. I love the results though! i'm probably going but i love everyone and ill make more later

touchy subjects went perfectly. I'm very proud. People dont think of me as a threat as much as I had expected. Everyone is in a position where they want to work with me right now, so while I'm gone this round, hopefully some alliances can form with me in the middle. Ideally Lily will be going home this round. She's so incredibly likable, and I'd like to not be the one to vote her out. I'll be fine with anyone leaving though, I just know it wont be me.

[2017-06-09, 2:00:29 PM] zachary rae: also im voting out gage [2017-06-09, 2:04:51 PM] zachary rae: jaiden: its coward if you dont come back!! [2017-06-09, 2:04:55 PM] zachary rae: if i wouldve got this chance [2017-06-09, 2:04:58 PM] zachary rae: my bitch ass aint coming back [2017-06-09, 2:46:59 PM] zachary rae: These votes have been like silent,,,, but deadly [2017-06-09, 2:47:44 PM] zachary rae: ive been hearing jaiden, and our group is gage. If it goes to 5-5, and a revote is required, i’ll see if one of them are flipping. If I get the vibe that like… they aren’t… my bitch ass might flip because altho being rocked out woud be funny, its like [2017-06-09, 2:47:51 PM] zachary rae: but then again id still be in the minority

I miss Bodhi 😭 I trust him most within this game and it's so hard with out him :( WHENEVER WILL YOU RETURN BODHI

Conversations are weird right now. I think I'm going to get some votes today. I don't know if I'll go home or not, but we'll see!! I'm trying to get rid of Gage because he's just such a threat right now and I don't see the purpose in keeping him if he's able to get by so stealthily under the radar. I hope on a revote I can flip Kai and like, send Gage home so we don't have to draw rocks, but we'll see. I definitely need to form like a counter-resistance to the Nicholas/Julia/Zach trio and I hope Adrian is the one person I can trust to help pull that off. I feel like, socially, I'm in a decent position with everyone, but strategically no one is going to want to keep me around. I hope Bodhi doesn't come back because then it means we have no chance at rocks and every chance at me going home. At least with a tie vote, there is a minute possibility that someone flips and sends out Gage, which wouldn't happen without there being ten votes. I'm lying, cheating, stealing, backstabbing, blindsiding, screaming, crying, kicking right now. All of those things to make sure I don't get fucking voted out already!!! Fuck my entire life. I'll be content with drawing the rock that sends me out so long as it means I don't get voted out and blindsided.. plus I don't think I've gotten any votes thus far which is pretty cool.

idk whats happening but i hope i get rocked out lol

Okay,,,, so basically Gage is trying to convince me that flipping back and forth between alliances is the best idea for our game. And like it's so easy to just SAY "yeah that is the best idea, let's do it" to him because then you'd think he has no suspicion that I'm against him. Here's my dilemma. I need ammunition against him if the vote ties tonight. I don't want to go into a possible tie without any way to defend me, and I think he might use my agreement to flip on Kai as a way to get things against me. Gage and I might be friends, but I'm not convinced that this is a friendship that goes above gameplay. He's going to play me and that's something I'm going to have to do to him, too. Sorry Gage if you were being genuine and I'm just being paranoid, but I'm here TO PLAY AND SLAY. With that being said, I'm changing up the conversation. Offering reasons why doing the flipper game is bad for the long-term. I'm actually trying to convince him that I'm invested in our duo making it to the end and I'm offering ways to suggest how we could make it last with aligning ourselves with Brian/Kai/Lily/Willa/Bodhi. I think there are more significant cracks with them than with Julia/Zach/Nicholas/Adrian where we have a better chance at slipping in. None of what I say is something I completely agree with, but its the best move if Gage and I wanna stick around. I don't even feel bad about getting Gage to believe I'm invested in our alliance. If this blows up in my face and we go to rocks and someone on my true side (J/Z/N if you've lost track) goes to the jury, then at least I made as good of a play as I could. The next step is to make Kai flip over so rocks don't even happen and Gage goes home on that revote. Sorry buddy if you're reading this!!! I hate being a snake but I'm surrounded by rats and you're just the tastiest one.

So much is going on. My alliance is now with gage and bodhi as well as Brian kai and Willa from my old tribe. But since bodhi has decided to not show up for this vote who knows what's gonna happen. I'm thinking adrian is going but I actually really don't think it should be Adrian this vote. Sorry Zach I love you, but really need to be going. Zach julia and Nicholas could easily work together and get something going with others. I feel like it's going to be okay but I wouldn't be surprised if this vote was the vote that changed the game for me and some others as well.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOtYpDmUk9o&feature=youtu.be

As a past survivor: timezones casualty, I feel awful for sleepy Kai.

The most iconic battle of all... a tie between the game's two biggest forces... only one of them can survive... unless everyone draws rocks like an idiot... but who are these two legendary players??? ...Gage and Adrian! (yea rich coming from me but w/e) For real if we go to rocks for these two we deserve to go home. Unless it's me then I was robbed. Nicholas, please flip... :{

Ok holy shit. I just got everyone to tie up the vote. I'm just hoping for a rock draw. I'm going to be good no matter what when I come back, but at FTC I'll be able to say that I was the reason that vote was so chaotic, and that I did it without any danger of going home. BRIAN APPARENTLY PLAYED AN IDOL OF SOME SORT?????? AND I DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS YET. It better be good for me

[survivorbahamas]

EPISODE FOUR: “FUCK WITH ME AND YOU’RE DEAD” - ADRIAN

Remember how I said that Adrian thinking Brian is Heidik is good for my game? Well that's entirely true! Brian and I had talked a little bit before, but it hadn't been anything good. However, once this Heidik inside joke came up, we started having some great conversations. We're pretty similar actually, which is incredible. We both like working with people who we like rather than people we can beat. There's also a bunch of real life similarities, and we get along pretty well. We're both REALLY enjoying Adrian's gullibility, which is a huge plus. He shared his google doc of possible idol locations with me to fill out a little bit more, and I discovered that Kai is the other person on the doc. Excellent!!! I love my position on this tribe. He also let me in on the Chris vote and what exactly happened. I just assumed 4 people came together to blindside Chris, but in reality, it was a 3 person thing with Jaiden at the center. Jaiden had a Chaos idol, which made it so that the person with the least votes would be voted out. If it was a tie, then there would be a rock draw. Brian played his "secret tribal" advantage which made Jaiden safe from having everyone know that he was the one who screwed our tribe over, and Brian voted for me due to Jaiden's suggestion to keep me safe. Alledgedly. I can't imagine Jaiden wanting to keep me safe, but I can tolerate Brian having lied to me. It's a perfectly logical lie to tell, but I'd think Jaiden would rather protect himself than me. Jaiden is playing super fucking hard, and I think it's really funny. I'd like to keep him around, because he's a massive target when the merge hits, just because people don't want irrational people in power.

i'm hungry too

I'm feeling in a good position in this tribe.. me and Brian are definitely in some form of power postion because we've been talking to two pairs of people so..feeling good

I'm a paranoid mess I swear I thought I was gonna get blindsided so I would have to play my idol when the voted ended up being unanimous lmao. I do feel horrible for Mitch tho but I wish him the best ❤ But now my lil alliance with Lily and Nicholas and Dana has control so hopefully we are all mergees wee woo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9PMntAfl2Ag&feature=youtu.be

hola long time no see! whew so our tribe just voted out mitch and i feel bad because he was such a nice king. i dont really care that he voted for me bc i never really put in the effort to talk to him! either way i am in a GREAT position right now. i have zach and jenna who will do whatever i say. and i also have queen lily who is my #1 in this game and is such a loyal ally and such a good person to include me in an alliance with her, willa and dana! something that will make sure i know about willa's idol plans and i can choose what info to leak to jenna and zach to make sure my targets go home. i am pretty close with gage too so i doubt he would target me either! life is pretty good right now and i put in some effort to help with immunity and i should be good this round no matter what happens!

so idk what's happening in this game and who's with who because we really haven't gone to tribal recently. i'm in two alliances that consider to be the majority so i think i'm safe if it does come down to it. jaiden is really far up my ass so if he hears anything about my name being thrown around he'll make sure i don't go, love that kid. but anyways hopefully we can win immunity and hopefully merge is soon idk how survivor works but all i know is that i have friends on the other tribe who won't go against meh!

Honestly, I hate the tumblr tags challenge. Because everyone is like "idk how to use tumblr." Like bitches, it is NOT hard pls. Then everyone else is like "haha this is so funny," and i'm like pls I am the last great king of comedy, this is dumb as fuck. But whatever, judges are judgin right now and hopefully things are workin out in our favor because shit do I have some thoughts on how our next vote might go down. Last night we voted Mitch, which was lowkey kind of easy because he said he would self-vote/ might have to leave because he was vv sick. So everyone kind of came together on that. I talked to Jenna for the first time and she just asked me, BLUNTLY might I add, who the target was. Now I said idk, even though I knew it was Mitch. Then she came to me and was like, I'm hearin Mitch so I was like "ya just heard that," which was like 1/2 tru. I was wondering where she heard that, but initially didn't really think about it. So everything worked out fine last night and me and my hidden immunity idol child were safe. Tribe chat rn has me SHOOK though. Because I'm starting to realize that not only is Jenna close with Zach, she is close to Nick too. For some reason Nick knows her ex GF's name? Which is S K E T C H. anyway they are closer than I initially thought. Well i'm not dumb, so things are starting to come together. Nick probably told Jenna that Mitch was the target first before/ while she was talking to me. Now this gets complicated, because Willa, Nick, Lily, and I are in an "alliance." Last night before we solidified on Mitch this is what happened in the alliance chat. [5/30/17, 6:36:22 PM] Lily Douma: Zach is awesome. I would love to have Zach around. I'm concerned about a certain duo (Jenna and Zach) so Jenna might be a good call for this vote. But I'm fine with Mitch too cause it might be hard for him to be active in our tribe considering the pneumonia [5/30/17, 6:37:34 PM] WillagonMasuta: I'd feel bad for voting Mitch out but perhaps it's for the best for both him and us. However i think Jenna is certainly more threatening [5/30/17, 6:39:17 PM] Lily Douma: That's true. This sounds like such a bad breakup [5/30/17, 6:44:12 PM] Lily Douma: I agree. I'm totally down to vote for Mitch but likeeee I also feel like we might regret not taking Jenna out when we could have. Ughhh [5/30/17, 6:47:16 PM] WillagonMasuta: You down to vote Jenna then? [5/30/17, 6:50:44 PM] nicholas [sinnoh host]: hi guys I’m home! [5/30/17, 6:51:01 PM] Dana Barry: Ah fuck sorry i was nappin! Im here [5/30/17, 7:00:38 PM] Dana Barry: So what's the plan? I probably have to vote soon because my friend and her bf just broke up and i need to go help her handle her life [5/30/17, 7:02:03 PM] nicholas [sinnoh host]: whew ok id prefer to vote mitch bc he seems like more of a comp threat later on down the line but if i am the only one who wants to vote mitch i will do whatever yall legends want [5/30/17, 7:08:08 PM] Dana Barry: Do we know if Jenna and Zach are planning on voting Mitch? [5/30/17, 7:08:29 PM] nicholas [sinnoh host]: yeah i think so [5/30/17, 7:09:36 PM] Dana Barry: Ok I haven’t talked to Zach about it, but it seemed Jenna was so maybe there is more security in sticking with Mitch? (in case Gage finds his way back here in like 2 hrs?) But hoenstly doesnt matter to me! Two things about Nick in this conversation stand out to me, and I'm kind of just realizing this today as I read it back, which I only did because I was thrown off by them talking in tribe chat. 1) Nick says he would prefer Mitch to Jenna. Ok, innocent enough if you don't know that Nick and Jenna are pals and Nick is probs keepin her around so he can work with her now or later. 2) When I ask if we know how Jenna and Zach are planning to vote, Nick responds saying he thinks they are voting Mitch also, letting us all know he's been talking to either one or both of them. Alright, so now we get to the part of this confessional where we talk about how this impacts miss me, the queen of this shady tribe. Nick is untrustworthy at this point. He could be in my current alliance, but also likely has one with Jenna and Zach. Idc if he even does or not, im operating under that assumption moving forward. This means: 1) I am going to be vague as fuck (as I already have been) in the alliance chat. I throw out no names, pretend to pop in last minute etc. This way if Nick is feeding info, it's not anything coming from my mouth. 2) Talk to Gage more. Gage is one of the people on my tribe i've talked to the most. He isn't in my "alliance," but he made it clear he wants to work with me. I need him in case Nick isn't being loyal. That still gives me 4-3 advantage if Nick flips. 3) Talk to Nick 1-1. The best way I can stay informed here is by getting close with Nick. That way I gain access to some info he has. I might even spill one of my idol clues to him if I feel like that would solidify trust. I will make him want to be my closest ally. This way he will feel like i'm working with him, not our alliance, which can only benefit me. 4) Get closer with Zach and Jenna. Be as honest as possible with them. This way if they know about the "alliance" from Nick, they know i'm still a free agent of sorts. 5) Get ready to make a move and be problematique if necessary. I can't go forward in this game with a 2-3 person group that is this close. IF they get to the merge, and join up with Julia, who we already know Zach is friends with, and Jaiden (who is friends with Julia, debatable?), that could really fuck things up for me. Even though I will be re-joining Bodhi if I get that far. This is why i need Gage. Because i don't want to cause suspicion around myself by doubting Nick's trust in front of Willa or Lily. If they don't catch on to Nick's other connections, they might accidentally say the wrong thing and seal their fate. By avoiding saying the wrong things myself, one of them can take the bullet for me. But I also could pull Gage, Willa, and Lily together to make a move if I had to. That would need to be a VERY last minute move to avoid giving people time to go talk about it without me, but I'm ready to do it in order to break up this group if I have to. Finally, I got a 10% disadvantage when looking for the hidden immunity idol. I know, WHY WOULDN'T THIS HAPPEN TO ME. Like I've said, i'm going to need an immunity idol per round to make it through this game alive. I decided (I think) that i'm just going to be up front with my tribe and tell them about the disadvantage to build trust. I'd rather them hear it from me than the hosts. If we win this challenge, i'll tell them right away. If not, i'll tell them right after tribal (assuming I make it past the vote) and just doctor the times on my "quoted" messages with Logan to make it look like I looked right before our tribal, that way it doesn't factor into me potentially going home. I know- genius. Hopefully we win immunity though i got my doubts! Time to go initiate conversation with Nick!

i feel like i did 99% of the work on this but it's actually ok bc i love tumblr and my blog has had a solid 250 followers since 2011 so i have blog experience™

I don't know what I'm going to do. Jaiden fucked up the challenge, even if nobody talked but I think he did most of it so... but Adrian hates me and Brian is sketchy to me. Bodhi is annoying.

Tonight, I think something big is gonna happen. I hope I don't have to whip out my sapphire idol because who KNOWS what's really going to happen. All I know for sure is that the vote is between Adrian and Brian, I think... Brian was gunning for Adrian, while Rob might be gunning for Brian. Who knows what's going to happen, honestly. Brian has the clue to the idol so I'm not really sure if he's found it yet or if he's even shared it with anyone else. He promised he would send it to me when he received it but then never actually sent it, so it's obviously a huge concern that he's going to nab it before we have the chance to blindside him. It's weird how quiet he's being today and I just have this suspicion that he's coming after me, which is incredibly ugly. Kai hasn't talked to me much either. As it stands, Julia and I are the flip votes for tonight's tribal council. Bodhi, Kai, and Brian on one side, then Adrian and Rob on the other. I don't really trust the former, but Adrian is quite annoying and I wouldn't mind seeing him go either... We'll have to wait and see. The decision Julia and I will make must be made as soon as possible because I'm extremely scared on what will happen if we mess this up...

But here's another thing. I think Brian would be expecting us to vote him out this round. Theres nothing I can do if he already has the immunity idol except hope for a swap after tonight and I don't have to worry about him coming after me with it in his possession. So why don't we go for someone else that no one would expect? I don't trust Kai as far as I can throw him and I already have a feeling that he's a catfish. It's just so unlikely that, under the circumstances, this total newbie is gonna sign up and play this game. I don't trust him. Maybe instead of Brian, it'll be Kai. We'll see. All I know is that I might have a lot more control over my alliance than they think.

I'm kind of glad we lost this challenge because it means we can get rid of the person on the bottom and hopefully things will get more interesting!

Why did rob have to leave he was my best friend.

so rob walked and im kinda upset by it because me him and jaiden we're rly close but i think me and jaiden will be able to survive without him. from what i heard, ive gotten the best time on the puzzle and im hoping that even if we do go to tribal these men wont want to vote me out. i think im in a good position on my tribe and when merge happens ill be in an even BETTER position. hopefully i can keep on floating by and everyone will think im an idiot B)

So I guess tribal got cancelled. In every ORG, there's always someone who goes home because they didn't do the challenges or they decided to leave for personal reasons. Quits are profoundly different than a medical evacuation because its the decision to leave over something you feel hinders your ability to continue playing... I should know. Rob quit today, and sometimes you see it coming from a mile away. Sometimes it hits you like a train, and that's how it felt to see that he left. Rob is one of my good friends outside of this and of course I set into immediate panic mode that something is wrong with someone I care about. I'm still panicking. I don't know what came about him today to make him choose to leave but I hope it's something he can deal with... I worry too much about these things. I don't want anything to be wrong with him. Although this is a game, you're still surrounded by people you know and likely have some level of feeling towards. It just so happens I was put in this game with a close friend of mine, and now he's gone. He didn't get voted out. He took himself out of the game. I've been in that position before where I've wanted to leave and tell no one, and when its for something personal like he says, I am brought back to those dark places I've been where leaving was the only option I had. To even think that he's going through anything remotely similar to what I went through is heartbreaking... I shouldn't be confessing this but I am. I care about Rob. I hope he's okay. I need to pick myself up and not dwell on something I have no control over because the game is still afoot and no one else needs time to think about what they could've done to change his mind. Maybe it was for the better for him. These games mean nothing when your real life is being played with... I wish I could've understood that a lot earlier than I do now. If I can still press on, I'm going to always tell myself that this was for Rob. I hope I make him, and everyone else who believes in me, proud.

So I'm really happy with how the last round went down. I was about to be booted off by some idiot that thought it would be funny to pull. But in the end- Rob spared me from elimination. Only providing me more time to concoct a plan to get rid of Brian in the days to come xoxo Fuck with me and you're dead. Bitch.

If we win this with a half hungover tribe with a 10% disadvantage then I will probably die. Fortunately going to tribal is no big deal since Jenna can just go, I think she's hilarious but shes a threat not aligned with me so buh bye.

AAAANNDDD WE'RE BACK! Working on the puzzle challenge right now with my 10% disadvantage. I got 4:32 right now, which goes up to 4:59 with the disadvantage. And here I was, thinking that my score would certainly be the worst. BUT NO. Because Jenna got 6:19, which isn't good, and says she can't do it again. How am I over a minute faster than someone WHEN I HAVE A DISADVANTAGE. That literally SHOULD NOT happen. I just want us to win so I don't have to think about tribal. It's also funny as fuck because I told my tribe about the disadvantage, and they're actin like i'm really facing a lot of adversity and they keep cheering me on. Like I don't give a fuck about what this disadvantage means for me personally, i'm not even sad about it, I just didn't want my tribe to think I was dishonest so I was upfront about it. Also my plan to get close to Nick is like vaguely working. I think i'm going to drop him an idol clue if we lose this challenge. Gage and I are getting closer too. He sent me this last night, which is what he got when he went to exile: [6/2/17, 12:38:46 AM] Gage :): Hello I want you to have this [6/2/17, 12:38:49 AM] Gage :): While in the triangle you find a rolled up piece of paper. You wait till you get back to open it, and it says this: missing just like you, look to the flight with more than 2 You are searching for a password to enter into this password protected blog: https://survivorbahamasidol.tumblr.com/ And when I got this message I was like FUCK YA,  i'm goin to start looking for that idol, except then the hosts told me I can't soooo basically Gage's information is of no use to me. But it does show me that there is some trust there. Hopefully I'll get exiled because I got some ideas on how I could decipher this clue. 

I'm sorry for not writing sooner. I suck. I know. A lot has happened. I have an alliance on my new tribe at Isabella (not fixing that I'm on mobile...typical). It consists of me Nicholas, Willa, and Dana. I think this is the best for me. I love Zach but he has badly betrayed me before and keeping my tribe stronger and snagging Dana on the side is really the best option. Jenna is clearly a major threat. She is great in a lot of the more creative challenges. I hope that after this vote Zach will still want to vote with Nicholas and I and just understand how much of a threat Jenna was. This is a tough and terrible vote. Very unexpected compared to the last vote for Mitch. Mitch was an easy vote. Very sad because I miss Mitch and I hope he is doing better! But everyone agreed it was best for the tribe moving forward. And I'm not sure if voting Jenna is the best decision but I think it will at least help me for a while. It might be a big risk but sometimes that's what pays off. I'm off to Grand Rapids and have a busy day tomorrow so hopefully I don't fuck up another challenge. I feel like I'm always just not as good at some of these challenges but at least I'm still trying and not sitting out. I'm having a blast meeting so many amazing people again this game. Can't wait to see what happens next because I can sense a merge. 

I'm in a good spot on my tribe, and I don't want to overplay. As a result, this pre-merge is becoming incredibly boring. I'm at least a little close with pretty much everyone on the tribe. I've got Dana as a super close ally on the other tribe. If everything comes together just right, Kai's allies on the other tribe are working with Dana, and he + Brian can reunite with their old friends, bringing me along, and not realizing that Dana and I are going to consume them all. But for now I just wait for my tribe to lose immunity or something like that to happen. 

Me? Going missing? It's more likely than you think.

i hope the frick its merge soon! i love everyone left on our tribe and if we dont merge soon im going to literally go ape shit if i have to vote off either lily, dana or willa or zach! > : (

how DARE THEY use the time while i have sex to PLOT AGAINST ME ! lily? dana? jokes on #you bc i have a #votesteal and #nicholasismydad and #zachismyson . that's 4 votes sweetie :*

[survivorbahamas]

EPISODE THREE: “I AM BRIAN HEIDEK” - BRIAN

idk whats happening int his game i was gone for one night and now im on a different tribe with ppl i dont know so this is gonna be fun

You last time I made a confessional, I was pissing myself off at the crazy bat shit Willa has said about our lovely Ysabela tribe. Well look at that. Just take a good look. Maybe snap a picture cause they last longer, but we still managed to scrape elimination and were still 6 strong at Final 14. Its hilarious when people have to eat their words.

Okay wyd? A swap already? At 15? This had to be planned to make us bond with our new tribes and everything. I thought I had to be done being peppy and preppy on Day 1, maybe on Day 19 to the new people you haven't seen at all prior to the merge. But on Day 9? This better play to our pretty faces. I don't want to go to my first tribal council and be the first one out via swap and be swap fucked yet again. #HeresToHoping

This tribe swap is not good for me at all considering the only person I know is Brian. Which means I have to make even more relationships

I'm really content with my new tribe swap because I've got Rob, I've got Julia Rae, I think I have a bond with Brian forming right now. I rely on pregame relationships so much at the moment and while that will make any stellar performance less impressive, at least I'm trying to learn from my mistakes. I want to play UTR but I don't know how believable that will be for everyone else... maybe I need to actually be over the top like usual? But then doesn't that set me up for a quick blindside??? I dunno! All I know is that Mitch and Chris and Zach need to go sooner rather than later. I gotta see to it that they are out of this game.

IS. THERE. ANYTHING. BETTER. THAN. BEING. SWAPPED. ALONE. Ya, there fucking is...literally everything. You couldn't give me Bodhi? I couldn't even get Rob?  Maybe I can have the other half of the super idol as a reward for this GARBAGE? I'm here alone and idk anybody so I am going to LEVERAGE THIS SITUATION AND PLAY LIKE THE TRU QUEEN I CAN BE. I'm going to be tryin moves these people couldn't even conceive of honestly. I have nothin to lose. nuYsabela tribe is four original Cigateos and three original Eleutheras. Honestly, there are worse positions to be in because these majority groups will be vying for control, and maybe i'll just be forgotten about for a lil and I can exploit that to make my moves. Hopefully these tribes aren't that close and some of their members were inactive --as most of original Ysabela was. If they weren't, hopefully people are looking to work with me since i can really sway things in a vote on this tribe. Original Cigateo: Gage, Mitch, Jenna, Zach - I've talked to Gage and Mitch a little bit so far. I need to look into Mitch a little bit. I've seen him around before, and i'm certain a lot of people know him. Also Jaiden just called Mitch out for being the most threatening on my tribe, so maybe I can use that and his past relationships against him? But i'm not doubting that since I've heard of him, he must have some real talent in these games. Also it's never bad to have a bigger threat than yourself around in this game, so i'm going to focus on developing this relationship more tomorrow. I've also heard Gage's name before, so i'm going to look him up too. Im going to put my clutch research skills to the test on this one. Time to make moves, ya know? Original Eleuthera: Nick, Willa, Lily- Talked to all three a little. Willa made their tribe bonds look really weak, and if that's true, amazing. I'd rather get some of these Eleutheras out of here personally so that original Ysabela and their dysfunctional asses have a better chance at numbers later in the game. But I also don't want to get picked off by original Cigateo  if I work to deplete original Eleuthera. Don't get it twisted, I want original Ysabela to have numbers because, with the exception of Bodhi and Chris, it was full of players I believe to have very little self-awareness, meaning I could manipulate them and hopefully get further in the game. Threats need to go, and the sheeple of original Ysabela are the ones I need to get to the end. Finally, I still have half the super idol/ it can be a regular idol if I need. This gives me some power, but I still don't plan on telling anybody. ldol tea only comes out to play if it can change the course of the game in a significant way. I have a clue to another idol on Ysabela too, which is nice because being the only original Ysabela tribe member left here means I should be the only one with this information. Maybe I could use it to gain some favor with a new ally? But i want to keep it to myself for another round because I think I could potentially find it faster and with more certainty alone. But also, i'm tryin not to get too cocky, paranoid, or set on either UTR or OTT gameplay in this season. I want to be flexible... so everything could change as soon as tomorrow!

Ho Ly Shit. We fucking swapped. I figured we'd wait just a little longer, but nope!! It's all about the TWISTS. Icky. In my view, a tribe should exist for more than just 2 challenges, so that it actually feels like a tribe rather than a temporary group. But whatever, I don't mind all that much. I'm glad to be on this new tribe, because I don't really like anyone from my old tribe except for Dana. Fortunately, due to this swap, no one will see myself and Dana as a pair, and I'll be able to get some of my old tribe picked off ideally. I've started my conversing, and I like Zachary. I want to work with Chris, but it also might be in my best interest to get him voted out. I don't want too many allies on the same sides, because that makes me a threat. I want an ally or two in each alliance, and hopefully that'll be enough to bring me to the end. My loyalty is completely with Dana, but I need a backup plan should she be voted out. My goal on this tribe is to form another alliance that will allow me to be on the right side of the merge vote at the very least. I'm here to win, and I intend to follow through with this goal. Perhaps it will work out, perhaps it wont, but I'm planning on playing the best game that I can this season. I don't really know what this challenge is, I'll just trust everyone else to try hard enough and make me win. I'll try to contribute, but winning challenges is the first step to losing the game.

The thing I love about swaps is that you get to meet new people and really form those newer bonds that didn't exist with the old tribal lines. But the thing is with my case. 5/6 of my old tribe is on Citageo 2.0 and we got Brian and Rob in place if Dana. Like wtf? I love my tribemates, but I'm at a disadvantage here if Rob and Brian can rekindle whatever relationships they have personally with my more known Tumblr tribemates. So I need this immunity win, and I really need to avoid tribal council at all costs.

Oh hey I just realized that 5/8 people on my new tribe are from original Ysabela. That sounds like a good thing, right? WRONG. If us 5 make it to the merge unhurt, then we're VERY easy targets. If the other tribe loses immunity, they might feel inclined to vote out Dana first, which is awful for me. I care about Dana more than the rest of my tribe combined, so I have nothing against flipping on Ysabela to make our numbers less threatening. I'll need one more person to help me do it, but I think it could work out. If I save these 3's asses, they're going to open up to me a bit more, and while I don't expect them to feel indebted to me, I do expect them to at least want to work with me more going forward. I don't like Jaiden or Adrian all that much anyway, so creating some lies about how they're sneaky and trying to lead the tribe should be easy as hell. I plan on contributing to this challenge just enough to make people not turn on me, but not enough to win. Dana will be going home if Nu Cigaretto or whatever the fuck we're called wins immunity. I hate big moves for big moves sake, but this might be an exception to the "big moves are for idiots" rule that I tend to play by. I'm getting in good with Zachary and Kai, and I'm trying to make Chris more inclined to work with me. Hopefully this shit will work out.

So I just realized that a good majority of this cast played in Big Brother Glenn or had a large part in it. Nicholas being a host, Jenna, Jaiden and Zach playing with me. Oh I can't wait to send them all to fucking tribal so they can be booted off one by one for the cumulative 23 votes I received. Actually, I hope they make the merge so I can personally send them home.  

Honestly why is everyone gettin on my nerves today. First of all, I try to talk strategy with Lily, and get this: On 5/26/17, at 12:44 PM, Lily Douma wrote: > I'm not ready to think about it. Honestly. Haha let's forget about it. Or just win this thing. We can still win. UM WHAT? You think you're going to avoid talking strategy with me by just telling me you aren't in the mood? COME ON. Honestly that's not workin for me. Despite that, I still like her the most of anyone on my tribe. and then... On 5/26/17, at 1:07 PM, Lily Douma wrote: > Yeah that's super strange. I hope we win but even if we don't I hope you stick around. On 5/26/17, at 1:27 PM, Lily Douma wrote: > Thank you!!! You are too kind! I'm just a Chatty Cathy hahaha. But you are pretty easy to talk to and actually respond with more than two words which is amazing. UM HELLO? I will be sticking around, know that. Also I'm just like generally annoyed by Jenna's presence? Like idk her yet, but I just have this gut feeling we aren't going to click based on tribe/ immunity chat and that sucks. Also i'm going to need people to step it up in immunity. thx.

Highkey I like to write quality entries, but since this is to earn points for the challenge I'm going to not. Anyway, we had a tribe swap and so far I like pretty much everybody who has spoken to me. I sort of feel that there are people I haven't reached out to yet and that's my next objective on top of winning immunity.

So I know that Willa has an idol but we need to find the other side. Nicholas is also interested in working with Willa so I'm excited about that. Hopefully we can all make it to merge!

I miss kai on my tribe tho. I tell him everything. So it's hard to not talk about the idol because I really want to. I kinda hope my tribe loses so I don't have to worry about him getting voted out.

Jk. I love kai but I'm not ready to go home or get lost in this game. I'm super worried I won't find my way back. I can't afford to get lost in the Bermuda Triangle man. I ain't strong enough.

I decided to send myself ~away~ because this means that I might have an additional opportunity to find any advantages. My tribe is already five people strong from original Ysabela, so I'm not worried about being on the bottom of the numbers or anything, which means that I have literally nothing to worry about. I still want to work with Rob and Julia Rae though because they're honestly my closest allies and I rely on them A TON right now.

So our tribe is floundering at the moment, which isn't surprising. I wish I could do more to help out, but I just have no energy whatsoever. I'm not fast enough to think of survivor players to compare hosts to or write a 500 word essay.

Hello world. Already did a confessional today, but here is one for some points in Tasks. It isnt lookin too hot for my tribe right now tbh. But it's fine. I really like Lily and I'm ready to mix shit up. Also why is everyone bothering me. Like pls help me.

this is three sentences. nothing has really happened lately! this challenge is pretty hard but that's because i'm busy. i hope my tribe doesn't decide to vote me out :(

This game is just crazy. Between the other nights random spontaneous tribal, the also random tribe swap after 2 people and the magical idol board I've just discovered I'm confused as to what I'm even doing... to be fair as long as we win this immunity challenge and the rest, I won't complain. Let's just hope we don't get any more twists thrown at us any time soon because I don't think I'm ready for another one just yet..

Jaiden can choke. Brian is dumb. Kai is cool. Julia who? Bodhi whomst? Chips is cool.

Good time to actually send a confessional lmao. Anyways, a 4-3-1 swap is awkward being in the 3 because Dana could easily just flip, but hopefully we can convince her to stay close and for Zach to flip on the Cigs so that we can take control. If all else fails I just hope I use my idol correctly if I need to. Myself Lily and Nicholas could be in a great spot if we play this right, and then if we can realign with Kai and Brian we might just be ~unstoppable~ at the merge. Not that a boring pagonging is gonna be allowed by any one of us crazy losers.

OK OK OK (now ladies) So I've been talking to Chris about this new tribe, trying to plant the seeds of flippage. He has brought up that Julia and Jaiden are a pair, and I said that I think ADRIAN IS PART OF A TIGHT THREESOME WITH THEM. I'm trying to make Chris want to be a close ally of mine, and want to flip to join Kai/Brian/Rob and take out one of our old tribe members. I want to win this game, and making dumb big moves might unfortunately be in my best interest.

"Someone type gimmie in chat to get an individual advantage and go to tribal" So I go to tribe chat to type gimmie, even though I don't want any advantage, just because I want Dana to win immunity BUT SOMEONE ELSE GOT IT FIRST BUT THANK GOD ----- IT WAS ON MY TRIBE

http://vignette3.wikia.nocookie.net/survivor/images/2/23/Parvati_with_2_idols.jpg/revision/latest?cb=20120114024916 Who would've thought that little ol' me would be in the possession of my two least favorite powers in Tumblr Survivor history? I have not only a Sapphire idol, but now I have a CHAOS idol... and I don't think anyone is much the wiser! *Sarah voice* I'm playing like a criminal. I threw the challenge and RIGHT before I left, I told Rob and Julia that it was Bodhi because he wasn't speaking UNTIL the challenge had ended, almost right after it was announced that we had lost. I hope that little seed EXPLODES in their heads and they gun for him to go, and he won't even know what hit him! Although I'd prefer Chris take the boot, Bodhi will have to do for now. Sorry, bro! Along my personal advantaggedon, I have this cool little thing that forces the person of your choosing to take a self vote. I like this because it could help me out in the future with one of my idols being as effective as possible. For everything to go smoothly though, I really need to make sure that I'm set to make the merge without attending a SINGLE tribal council between now and then. I can't have an excuse to waste these things until that time comes, but with that being said I also need to make sure I'm in a good enough position to not *have* to use them in any period of time. Fingers crossed!

I love that we're in the lead. Chris, Brian and Rob are challenge beasts with this. Jaiden and I are like participating with the conversations and like boosting morale for Cigateo, while Julia, Kai and Bodhi haven't made a single appearance. And we're still winning because of those three. Huh who knew that Brian and Rob are really working to get immunity cause I guess their afraid of being eliminated premerge? Idk, cause there are 5 people from Ysabela 1.0 here on this swapped tribe and I guess that they are scared idk. I mean, both men are really really sweet people, and it would suck to see any of them leave before my og tribe. but hey what can you do?

And of course one of these selfish people had to sacrifice everything we had for an advantage that was probably not really worth it. Like was it a clue to the idol? to a legacy advantage? to a double vote? who knows? I'm just pissed that I have to vote someone off because I was really looking forward to taking the weekend off and like get to know my new tribemates more. But now, I have to press for someone's name and that's something I don't want to do?

Ok so no one was talking to me about the vote at first. Then Chris told me that he'd heard my name because PEOPLE THINK I'VE BEEN THROWING CHALLENGES????? Ok well I am but that's besides the point. Chris then said he threw out Julia, and after some more waiting, Adrian told me he'd heard both my name and Julia's. BIG IF TRUE. He also said he's not gonna be voting me. Hey, that's perfect. I don't want to go home without my fictional million dollars, and I won't take 16th place for an answer. Rob has also told me he's voting Julia

Well not only we forfeited the lead to this challenge, people are targeting to breakup the Ysabela 5? Is that some alliance I wasn't notified about? Just because we have the majority on this new tribe and that we happened to play the first 6 days of this game together? I know that people are on the outs trying to find a way in- but that is the shittiest reason to target people because of some rat that threw the lead. Like, that is really really pathetic, and I can't deal with ridiculous that sounds. Well if it does go through, I just hope I don't get the boot cause going home third would really really suck.

Well not only we forfeited the lead to this challenge, people are targeting to breakup the Ysabela 5? Is that some alliance I wasn't notified about? Just because we have the majority on this new tribe and that we happened to play the first 6 days of this game together? I know that people are on the outs trying to find a way in- but that is the shittiest reason to target people because of some rat that threw the lead. Like, that is really really pathetic, and I can't deal with ridiculous that sounds. Well if it does go through, I just hope I don't get the boot cause going home third would really really suck.

Lol Jaiden. I don't know about him. We have this bond with Hoenn, and I was counting on him not being present for tribal council, but lo and behold- he's back. I should be relieved but I don't think that it was smart of him to be "back". Like if you're given the chance to escape tribal council and not vote/not get votes for, I would take it the first chance I can. But here he is saying that "I don't like doing nothing for an extended period of time." ............. I- BITCH! YOU DON'T DO ANYTHING IN THE FIRST PLACE... PERIOD! This game irritates me and I won't stand for it. I can wait for a given chance to go ham in this game.

me: here's a good strategic idea! also me: jk let's use my powers for teh lolz! I think I'm gonna play my sapphire idol tonight to make some big moves. Actually, just one big move. I'm going to send Chris's ugly ass to the prejury home of losers... all because he's coming for my actual mother, Julia Rae. We'll see how this goes! That's all for now because I have NO IDEA WHAT IM DOING

I am screwed. I'm the only cigarette left on Cigarette. Fuck! And I was starting to really like Gage too but I called it! I told him we're swapping cause an instant was sketchy for round two. On my tribe there's Jaiden, Brian, Adrian, Bodhi, Kai, Chips, and Julia. Right now, I'm talking to Brian. He's been active and he was on urethra which is also in minority on this tribe. He talked about how me, him, and Kai should work together, and I'm down for it as long as it keeps me safe. However, I know that Brian is sketchy and not someone I'm really keen on. There's Jaiden and Chips. I love Chips, but I'm worried he may hold our previous experiences against me. Jaiden is such a wild card I don't know what to expect from him. He told me he wanted a F2 but he said that to me the last times we played too and I couldn't trust him. Julia is a part of that BB group I'm seeing and we played in a mini before, she voted for me everytime and I'm upset about it. Adrian is cool, and so is Kai,. Bodhi has been MIA. The immunity is tasks and I'm trying to do a lot for my tribe so they don't think I'm worthless and I can keep me safe. I poured water over my head! And put vegetable oil in my yogurt! Brian is really trying to build trust with me. He freaking shared the idol clue with me and revealed he lost the points for our tribe. Always Eat Soggy Waffles. Whether it's faked or not we'll see, but I assumed North before cause all the hosts are from the north. I'm happy I was out and had an alibi which actually happened. Thanks fam for losing my social security and birth certificate. The challenge was fun but someone took us to tribal for a freaking advantage when we were in the lead. And now this fucking tribal is a mess. I'm pretty sure that Bodhi took the advantage. It just screams Bodhi whatever the fuck his unique last name is. He's inactive also but I know he's smart, and he's going to be the death of this tribe, but people want Julia, and I can see it. She's also inactive and she has more connections with people. Adrian threw out Kai's name cause he didn't accept friend requests, but I am sort of working with Kai. Kai is with Brian though, and I can't necessarily trust Brian. It kept on switching back and forth, but in order to save myself in this game, I thought that I should try to appease Adrian, give him what he wants and vote Kai. Adrian is clearly with Julia and Bodhi, but I'm already fucked up as it is. I wanted Bodhi, he's not trustworthy at all, damn it. I'm already screwed over. I'm breaking the trust of my allies. And i can't fucking deal with this. Fuck this. Fuck everything. Bodhi can choke. Julia can leave. Kai can stay in the UK. Brian can not speak ever again. Everything can just go ahh! I hate this, I hate everything. I shouldn't have applied to this game. I should of just never played an org again I know that this is the shit that happens and it's so stupid. Whoever took that advantage, I will fight you. I'm an idiot. I'm the worst. I suck at this game. Andrea was talking about me not Zeke.

The whole 4 hours leading up to the tribal, everything is chaotic. You first see me throwing Bodhi's name around and then having people jump on the gun like Rob. He's telling me that he's known for sabotaging the tribe for secret advantages, and he's doing all the dirty work for me- telling Chris, Brian and Jaiden. Next comes Chris, who's not so sure that Bodhi is the right person to vote, and I had to find this out from Brian, who told me that he wanted Julia out. So I talk to him and I'm like wtf, shes one of the original Ysabela. We have 5 people strong and you're gonna waste it on Julia? How stupid can you be? We should be taking it out on Kai, the one person that hasn't been talking to anyone (well me mainly). But aside from that. WTF!?!? Couple hours later, Julia FINALLY arrives and talks strategy, and she's a helluva sweet person. Like Chris targeting her is extremely stupid and really really dumb on his part, and so we created the "Howdy" alliance with myself, Julia, Jaiden, and Rob and we all decided that with the inactive Kai that makes 5 people voting Kai and we save Julia and Bodhi, and keep my plans of Ysabela strong at 5. So I am confident that this will work!!

Okay wtf was that? A blind tribal with a chaos idol? Holy fuck. Jaiden is a savage motherfucker and I didn't realize how much of an asshole he can be for sabotaging our tribe like that for a secret advantage that took out one of our strongest members. Like I love Chris and everything, but he played his own self and I am here on Day 11, happy and dandy and really I'm just glad that Jaiden didn't target me at all. Since it is Day 11, I think I need to assess my new tribe after that chaotic voteoff. - Julia is safe and she thinks that I'm her #1 ally. - Bodhi is safe cause he thought I voted with him and kept him in the loop about voting Julia - Brian thinks that I'm the one Ysabella that would "let him in" on my plans with the 5, cause he's desperately scared of going home premerge. - Rob is a sweetheart, but I don't know how he plays considering that he will jump on anything that would take him further in this game. - Jaiden, phew KING of surviving the Triangle and pulling off that dangerous move. I think that he's gonna be target number one if we don't win this next immunity challenge, but I could not care less because that means I'm safe for another few days and he can take his risky ass back home! - Kai, should've gone home over Chris, but what can you do? I'll try to get him out this round.

So Brian comes to me after tribal council saying that the tribal was fucked over. I'm playing the sweet little innocent that is playing the sympathy card. Sure I was blindsided by the vote too but with me, I never wanted Julia or Bodhi to go home. I wanted Kai gone and with Chris sprouting Julia's name left and right- I got over that shock immediately and I'm trying to console Brian as much as I can. He's like this adorable puppy that gets scared with literally everything. I'm just petting him and calming him down. Making sure he's sedated and doesn't do anything wild that might screw me in the process before its time for me to neuter him >:) 

Ok, so CHRIS went home. This is not good. This is not good at all. I've just lied to you. I'm glad to have been blindsided. I'm now getting an opportunity to build even closer trust with Kai, and I think that'll be incredibly valuable for me.

Im the fucking worst

Guess who is REAPING SOME INFO me So Kai told me that when you search North, mossy, mossy pit, there's an "idol table," which basically asks you to put in a number every day to see if you find something. I'll be looking there when I get the chance. Then Dana told me that she got the clue "Never Eat Sucky Waffles. What's wrong with this?" We're thinking out the possibilities. She thinks that Sucky not being Soggy is the problem, but I think the problem is that it left out Middle. But who knows. I've worked on solidifying bonds with Kai and Rob, and I think it's going to really pay off in the long run. It better. If they're lying to me, I'm fucked, because I'm saying stuff about disliking my old tribe mates to gain their trust

Ok, I have a dilemma. I want to win this next challenge, because I want to prove to my tribe that I'm not gonna be throwing challenges. However, I don't want Dana to go home, and I do want Adrian to go home. I also want to get rid of Jaiden and Julia. Throwing the next 3 challenges would be in my best interest if not for the fact that people are aware of my challenge throwing past. I need to prove my worth so that I don't get voted out, but I also need to play a smart game.

Ya girl got an idol board tonight. Catch me getting all the idols this season honestly. 

From looking past seasons that used an idol board, I know using it alone is kind of ineffective. If I can look 1 time a day with 81 options, my odds aren't great. Right now I literally can't tell anyone about it though, because everyone I trust is on the other tribe and his name is Bodhi. I tried to tease out some idol info from Lily tonight, since she and I have been getting close since swap. We literally have so much in common, more than anybody i've met in an ORG before, so that makes talking really easy. She said she's been looking in the ocean and hasn't found anything. Ok chill. Maybe that's tru, there are 9 places to look... BUT I looked there once and found a clue tho sooo. Perhaps Lily is lyin or maybe she isn't, I can't tell, so i'm not giving her any hints about the idol board. But I did tell her I got an extra idol search from reward in good faith to build trust. Also am I being terrible or is Jenna actually annoying? I might target her if given the chance. On 5/29/17, at 1:14 AM, jenna (kamikaze host) wrote: > what does my mango do UMM IDK BUT PROBABLY SOMETHING SINCE YOU WON'T STOP BRINGING IT UP LIKE THOSE DAMN FRUITS ARE USELESS.

It's really not looking good for us again... I think we're gonna have to goto tribal... again

Today, I attempted to bolster my relationship with Kai. I was trying to talk to him about the challenge, but he said something along the lines of "my score isn't very high yet, I'm gonna go play minecraft." Right away, I think back to my old addiction. I used to play way too much minecraft, but I haven't in about 2 years now. That is, up until today. Kai wants to play minecraft? Then so do I! We get in a call, and talk about a bunch of different stuff. Nothing substantial, but enough to make him feel like I'm very much on his side. And I am on his side, but I need to make sure that he trusts me enough going forward. He asked me how many survivor ORGs I've played, so I told him the answer (5 including this one) and he told me his answer (this is his first.) He seems to trust my judgment in terms of who is the best vote enough to at least consider what I'm saying, but not enough to consider it infallible. To be honest, I'm glad thats the case. I don't want to be his 'superior' per say, I'd rather be his guiding friend who he couldn't survive without. We talked about seasons that he likes, and out of the few seasons that he's seen, Game Changers and Cambodia are in his top 3. That's an icky set of choices in my opinion, but he's entitled to disagree. He likes seasons because of strategy, which is very valuable to know. He'll be down for a good strat talk, but he'll also be too ready to make a big move if he feels threatened by me. I hope he is enough of a baby bird that he wants to stick with me permanently, but I do think that he has the potential to flip on me. I don't think that he is planning on doing so yet, but if the opportunity arises at final 7ish, I wouldn't be that surprised. I LOVE THIS CHALLENGE. I am CREMATING everyone else. I am CIRCUMCISING them with DENTAL FLOSS. This challenge is MINE TO WIN. can i get an amen please?

I just decimated this challenge so hard. I needed to do something to redeem my throwing challenges in the past. I spent most of my 17th birthday playing this challenge, and I was done already in the very morning with my highest score. What a massive waste of a day. Now I'm a challenge threat to some extent. Icky

Daisy just told me to make a confessional. I just made one, but I'll make another for you daisy

This. Sucks. I don't wanna. I don't wanna. Well. I have so many ideas of who should go home but idk. We will see.

I'm probably going to get voted out. I haven't talked with anyone because of this illness and going camping. Maybe they'll be better off without me anyway.

The past few challenges had 2 of our castaways have birthdays. 1 of them did really really shitty on the reward challenge and really cost us a fruit basket and a challenge advantage. Then, the other literally outscored everyone in this immunity challenge and gave us the night off- even with the advantage going into the challenge. This is the second time where I'm immune from tribal council where the opposing tribe had an advantage. It seems to me like these reward challenges with advantages as the reward prove to be really ironic and I love that!! If I can get to the merge with little blood on my hands I'll be set.

Me doing the best in the challenge on my tribe? A concept. Like I'm always useless when it comes to challenges so if I'm doing well and you aren't, it's because you aren't trying.   I knew this was going to happen because I'M SMART AND I SEE RIGHT THROUGH THESE PEASANTS. They don't give a fuck about the challenge because they have better shit going on, but guess what? Now my ass is on the line and the people on my tribe probably think i'm an easy elim. Except me and my girlfriend the hidden immunity idol are here to shake shit up and push our own agenda. The only person who is even talking to me after this loss is Gage, and if that isn't telling then idk what is. Lily is probably just not around right now to be honest and i'm sure we'll talk later, but I have no idea what everyone else is thinking. [5/29/17, 10:23:30 PM] Dana: fuck, i hate this so much. now im worried. any thoughts? [5/29/17, 10:23:35 PM] Gage :): None [5/29/17, 10:23:42 PM] Gage :): Like I'm basically voting where you vote [5/29/17, 10:23:46 PM] Gage :): Because I'm not gonna lie [5/29/17, 10:23:58 PM] Gage :): The only people on this tribe that speak to me are you and lily [5/29/17, 10:24:14 PM] Dana: haha aint that the truth. I literally only talk to you and lily [5/29/17, 10:26:06 PM] Dana: i have no idea how to vote, but i really want to work with you and Lily no matter what [5/29/17, 10:26:26 PM] Gage :): Literally exact same [5/29/17, 10:26:28 PM] Gage :): Honestly [5/29/17, 10:26:39 PM] Gage :): If us 3 stick together we could probably control this vote Gage wanted to pull in Mitch, and confirmed he wasn't close with Jenna and Zach, so hopefully I can work with Mitch too. Lily and I were already close and this morning I found out Willa is close with her too, that they think they have Nick from their OG tribe, and that they are getting closer with Zach. So the plan I heard was: Gage, Lily, Willa, Mitch, Me, and probably Nick/ Zach. Well that only leaves Jenna to go, except Zach and Jenna are close and nobody threw her name out there. As long as it isn't me, Lily, or Gage at this point idrc who goes home because those are the people I see myself working with moving forward in the game. UPDATE: As I write this, Gage has gone missing. Of course, the bitch herself, random.org, is out to ruin my plans once again. Gage better crawl his way back to this tribe because I need him. I'll even go save his lost ass myself if I have to. If things don't start coming together really soon, I'm playing my idol and Jenna and her infamous boyfriend are out of here.

Yes!! Finally we don't have to go to tribal council this feels so good!!!

to know its me from now on, imma start each of my confessionals off with three stars. *** okay, so let me break down the vote. I have no fucking idea who's leaving. I'm closely aligned with Jenna and Nicholas, kind of Lily. The thing is... Lily and I have a past that like... resulted in me voting her out/getting rid of her and like ruining her dreams. so, i feel bad and i do love love her sOOOO much and wanna work with her. The name i've been hearing is Mitch. I don't really wanna vote out one of my original tribe members from the Cigateo tribe but like I doubt that will come into play. I also like wIlla. this was boring ims orry lmao fuck

Rob just gave me the shittiest attitude, so guess who I'm going to get voted out next time we have tribal council?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ib5M-GUByMc&feature=youtu.be

Brian and I have convinced Adrian that Brian is Brian Heidik. Adrian is turning so fucking artificial and being such a fan girl. It's hilarious. I can't wait for Adrian to find out at the merge.

[survivorbahamas]

EPISODE TWO: “INSTANT TRIBALS CAN CHOKE AS MUCH AS I’M CHOKING ON MY OWN RESPIRATORY SYSTEM” - MITCH

I'm so so excited to do this challenge. I feel like I'll be able to ge all the weird things that people won't be able to get so that will be fun. I live in Michigan so I'm going to stand in a natural body of water today that's for damn sure.

I'm not trying to be Nina Bonina Brown Guzon-Bae but since I'm not in a proper alliance I'm just gonna assume the entire rest of the tribe is lmao. Lily was talking to me regularly before but hasn't spoken to me since tribal and Nicholas hasn't spoken to me since like day one. I don't really care tho bc I have an idol so I'm chilling regardless~ They can all go

Well this immunity challenge seems quite simple, you just have to get up, go out and find the items so it's basically Pokemon.

I want Zach and Jenna GONE! They're both from the BB community first and I know they'll work with Nicholas even though i like Nicholas Plus, Zach never replies to me yet talks in VLs. Fake ass! Jenna is so annoying too and condescending. ""if we don't win? not mine and zachs fault" "Look at Mitch joining the game!" "Whos kylie" Maybe you would know wbo Kylie is if you stopped talking in the tribe chat and tried talking where it really matters. I want to find an idol and just idol Jenna out and have Kylie be medevaced, it would be perfect! Kylie is MIA btw. I like Mitch, he's still sick, but I'm starting to really like Gage. He's quiet, but well-spoken and nice. He said I'm the only one to talk to him, so that means i can pull him with me which is good cause I wanted to meet Gage tbh even if his name makes me think of that boy from Pet Sematary. I want to work with both Mitch and Gage, and we'll see what I can do from there.

So. I've never ever ever been even close to an idol before. I found an idol board. Brian told me to go to the north island based on a clue he found somewhere else. I just don't know if I should tell everyone about the board or not. I'm leaning towards yes but I just don't want Brian to find it. Soooo maybe I just tell kai about the board? Ughhh. Idk. ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I want to tribe swap to be honest. Zach, Jenna, and Kylie can go, but they don't have to know that yet. There's people I do believe I could potentially work with. Chips, Dana, Jaiden, and Lily. I think the biggest concern right now is getting rid of people who could be in this BB alliance I'm seeing. It's the three I mentioned, plus Nicholas and Julia Rae. I don't know about Kylie being in it but might as well fbrhgfbffe. I want Brian to quit too just cause it will be easier without him.

Should confess something... Then again not much is happening, I'm still sick, and half our tribe is never here. Just really not a lot goin on.

Real shit has gone down in my life. Confessionals will now be in bulleted form. - Dana is great - Chris is good - Sarah won Game Changers -- what a bore - Bored by the same people - LMAO CIGATO LOST IMMUNITY AGAIN HAHAHAHAHA - Wow I've won 2 premerge immunities on tumblr now.

Daisy trying to kill me with an instant tribal? It's more likely than you think.

instant tribals can choke as much as i'm choking on my own respiratory system

We lost immunity and we have an instant tribal. It sucks because I wanted to keep Kylie in the game. She would've been an easy target and a good person to use the idol on this early in the game. That and she probably would've been medevaced but I'm not comfortable with these people to try and save her and get rid of someone who's more annoying. Jenna, I hate her. I formed an alliance with Gage. He's really cool, chill. We both talk to each other more than the rest of the tribe does, and he's cute. I want to be with him long term, and I think it's the best option for me. We just need to get Mitch on our side and we'll be golden over here on the cigarettes.

Really proud of my performance in today's challenge. I got 85 points for my tribe and that feels great and also shows how I don't have a life because I have hours and hours of time to find someone named James. I wasn't going to go to tribal. I didn't want to. I want this tribe in tact when we switch tribes. We are already down 1. I hope my tribe can continue to work well together and crush challenges!

Also I'm on the hunt for an idol along with my buddy tai. I decided not to tell Nicholas or Brian because for once I want a little control. I want to tell Nicholas but I feel like I can't tell Nicholas without telling anyone else..... (aka Brian sorry Brian I can't fully trust you after Atlantis but you are still the bees knees in my book). I feel like the QT alliance is very strange but that's okay. We will get top 5. 

I JUST WOKE UP i voted kylie im gay iDK sorry

[survivorbahamas]

EPISODE ONE: “BYE MADDY DON’T BE SADDY” - WILLA

Okay but fuck everyone who said "JAIDEN SHOULDNT BE CAST" because I really just found an idol on DAY ONE and it's a sapphire idol which means? I'm ready to fuck some games up. Watch yourself @viewing audience of America

I feel like I got hit by a truck but I'm ready to play! 

 Kylie: Just showed up, she was in Johto and Malibu and apparently is good at getting control 

Jenna/Zach: I don't know anything about them 

Rob: Boyyyy We played in Divergent together but we didn't know it was each other so now we get to play for real 

Gage: he's ok

Hi! OMG! I'm ecstatic to be here! I know I'm not a strong personality in this community but I am ready to be playing with the cards I'm dealt with. I love my tribe already. Its a pretty pink one, and I'm a complete sucker for anything pink/purple. So I hope that these other people are willing to hand me an adventure cause I don't want to be premerge, I want to make it far in this game, so I just hope and pray that they'll be able to grant me that wish!!

Honestly I'm p excited, this tribe seems really nice and I'm hoping everything works out well. But hey I guess we'll see how it goes

It hasn't even been an hour and I already found something related to the idol may God fucking help me on this journey

The B is back!!!!! So first off I only know Lily on my tribe, but that's okay because I love ha and she has a relationship with Nicholas so that's already half the tribe. I would hopefully be able to pull Will in in the case of a vote since I sooort of know him from Kauai where I hosted him. So on the off chance we actually have to vote, I think I'm okay. HOWEVER I'm hoping we can avoid tribal for a while since there are 3 tribes and therefor I assume a swap not too far off.  Hopefully this season I can redeem myself for my flop ass appearance in Motu Maha (getting voted out pre-jury with an idol is never a good time) and win it all! xoxo The B

I would say I'm okay. I should at least not be the goat. Haha. I know Nicholas for Malibu. And Brian from Atlantis. Nicholas is such a sweetheart. I love him to death. We were in alliance and I flopped but he was always good to me. Brian however also in an alliance together.... went well until he lied to me and voted drew out and wasted my only advantage. Literally. Heart broken. I want to work with Brian because I also love him and think he's hilarious. Plus he's related to Jaclyn so that makes him just that much cooler. Hopefully things go well. Brian told me about where to go for the advantage place that I can't think of the name of right now. So hopefully I do well. I have a super busy weekend but I'm sure it will work out.

The last time I played, I was definitely given a raw deal. I did not play my hand right, I should've participated in the music video challenge, and it was the biggest reason I was voted out. I'm going to give it my all, I carried the Olympus Four when we were abandoned, KNOW THAT! http://www.newnownext.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/04/tumblr_n2fqgkgvLC1tticcuo1_500.gif This time, I want to up my social game. they won't see me coming. I'll be your shoulder to cry on, you can come to me for anything, I'll make myself in need of help so you think I need you, and then I'll snap your neck like that. I'll do it at the right time, and I'll be the fakest bitch imaginable, not that I already wasn't. http://stream1.gifsoup.com/view4/4881404/the-originals-klaus-snaps-neck-of-marcel-s-informant-o.gif Judging my fellow cigarettes, I like Mitch. He's pure, we played together before where Jaiden idiotically voted him out. I was vocal I was against the move. We bonded and he's someone that I want to take far with me because he will be a threat, he is super likable. I can see myself working with Zach, he's cool, but I worry because he has Julia Rae, and Mr. and Mrs. Rae won't be loyal to me. Gage has been MIA this first night. Kylie is... I don't know. She's there, she seems nice and she hates the heat, I might work with her. Jenna. Hmm, I'm sort of unsure of Jenna as of right now. I made a comment in the tribe chat how I haven't had Taco Bell and she replies "I found the first target!" https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/originals/97/00/0b/97000b9f755ec520983e27fd628af3b8.gif I redact giving her fives on jokers and telling her happy birthday, cause I'm petty. I will postpone me judging the urethra and izzy tribe. This confessional is already long as it is and I know it will be a bother to the hosts to read it hahaha!

Our tribe is amazing! Three winners, two people that easily could've (or should've depending on your opinion) won, and Jenny Guzon-Bae! We're gonna be unstoppable~ 

I love the urethra tribe I hope there isn't a tribe swap unless we start flopping at challenges lmao

I'm going to drag this tribe to victory whether they like it or not I'm just kidding I love them all and they're capable people

Honestly. Its already the first challenge and its only a reward and we already have an asshole who already is showboating left and right. Like cool we get that you have no life outside of this game and respond to the hosts' questions like ASAP. Now sit the fuck down and let some of the other tribes take a crack at the challenge.

Jaiden, Jaiden, Jaiden. What are you doing bud? You're supposed to help us WIN the challenge.... not screw it up for us, making a wrong impression on everyone else who isn't on at the moment. Like, what are you trying to do? Set us up for failure? Cause if that's your goal, you are doing a splendid job and that you need to be taken out first.

"Jaiden scores for Ysabela!" Unrealistic

Of course the one time I actually don't frick it up, Mitch's stupid ass spells it wrong and he gets it right. I guess that's what happens when we live in a society where we give people medals for trying instead of giving them to those who actually got the job done. I interpretated the rule as, "a place or name" being misspelled but whatever Mitch. Fuck you, bro. It'll feel real nice when I sapphire idol you the fuck out in a few rounds. Watch your back. 

Hello there. It's me, Bodhi. I'm here on the Ysabela tribe, and I don't connect with ANYONE. (except for Dana who I know from before <3) I might be able to connect with Jaiden when I get the chance, he seems like someone I'd get along with /alright/ and I'll need that. I've talked for a fair amount of time with Julia and it was so uninteresting that I have no idea what we even talked about. Hopefully that's just a temporary thing. Adrian reacts in over the top silly ways that feel semi-artificial. I've barely talked to him so ideally that's a wrong impression. Dana I love, and I know that she'll protect me if she can <3 Chris hasn't even responded to me. I feel fucked by this tribe. Either everyone sucks, or I'm on the outs. I'd not be surprised by either. My plan is to keep talking and get closer with people. Hopefully I'll be included in any plans!! 

I mean to be honest, it was pretty obvious from when I looked at the fact Cigateo had 14 points that we were never gonna win this challenge so... I never had high hopes

Okay.. randomly something that no one saw coming we're now catching up with Cigateo and I have been proved wrong

I hate Chris and Dana

It's hard. Rob knows he said he was going to be a neck-snapper, but he gave up. Rob's disillusioned with orgs to be honest. They're not fun for him and they've been so stressful. Rob met great people, but he also met not so great people. It's been a lot of disappointment. People don't talk to Rob. He messaged Zach yesterday and Zsch said nothing yet talks in Vl's. It makes him feel unimportant, which he is. Rob doesn't know what he wants in life, and he's lost. Ever since Rob started watching Survivor, it seemed so amazing to him. You go out in dangerous habitat and survive the wild and sneaky people to try and win a million dollars. It was amazing seeing Natalie Anderson win. And ever since, He  dreamt of himself being in her position, having Jeff Probst say, the winner of Survivor in front of a live audience. It could even be in an org, but it's never going to happen. He is no winner, Rob won't get his happy moment, he won't even be on the actual show. Rob need to discover himself. Rob thought he was mature, but Rob's not. He's turning sixteen in 6 days, and there's still things he's learning about himself. He's emotional, and he need to just think about him, not other people. Rob needs to find himself, and then he can achieve his dream.

we won reward!! i'm super happy!! my social game is a bit weak right now, so i'm hoping to win immunity just so I can use that extra day or two to strengthen my bonds. If we go to tribal, I don't think im in the worst position because a) I helped in the reward, and b) I talk to Rob and Jenna quite a bit. I would obviously prefer not to go to tribal though!! i am boring right now, i know. But hopefully I can get my foot in the door and i'll be swinging my way to merge!! see you later xo

So I'm in an alliance now! I know it sounds really exciting, but its a 2 person alliance so it kinda lame, but I also love it. Alliance name: With Werthers We Win and its with the lovely Kai. Kai is a new player and is very active socially. He also watches the show and has some good ideas on how we can play the game together. He sounds really trustworthy but that doesn't mean that he wouldn't stab me in the back like everyone else. But he is a sweetheart and also hilarious. I can't wait to make it far in the game with this guy or die trying to. I of course also have Brian and Nicholas on my tribe that I need to think about. So we will see how things go. <3

y'all....... mitch is a life saver. + me? vote stealer? sext

Since this challenge is a complete crapshoot, I may as well go around and finally talk to everyone on my tribe.... zzz. I already talk to Julia and Adrian, so why do I need anyone else? Although I have this sapphire idol, I'd really hate to have to use it right now (or really any time before the merge), so I'm going to try and like, improve my standing with the tribe. Gotta increase that social game! I just realized today that we're part of a series which is wild. I thought this was a standalone game omfg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s2GTbm4_LlE&feature=youtu.be

Ok so I fucking SLAUGHTERED that challenge. It was "name things that fit x category and start with the letter H" and I thought so far out of the box that I forgot to throw the immunity challenge. Dana is the only person on my tribe that I really like, but I'm close enough to everyone else that I know they'd vote on my side for the first vote. Dana and I are considering throwing a few challenges just to get rid of these inactive uninteresting people. I'd totally be down for that. I wish we'd lost this immunity challenge because Jaiden is REALLY getting on my nerves. He said swag unironically, and listens to screamo. Fuck. NEW DEATH GRIPS MUSIC CAME OUT TODAY. MY WHOLE LIFE MY WHOLE FUCKING LIFE. By the time this confessional is released, it's incredibly likely that the whole album will be out. Fuck, I can't wait.

You never know what can happen. You can be the happiest man alive, and then the most tragic thing happens and it all changes at a dime. You're friend betrays you, you realize you've been lied to, or people lose their lives. It's scary, it's a scary world we live in, you don't know what could happen, and that's the scariest part, the fear of the unknown. But, we can't live in fear. Yes, the world is ugly, but we have to think of the positive and be prepared, that's all we can do. What's the point of living if you're not fully living it? Everyone, just let the people you know, you love them.

We did horribly on that reward challenge and we still managed to get first in the immunity challenge, EVEN WITH A TRIBE GETTING A 15% ADVANTAGE OVER US. Like that is fucking iconic, and really I don't know how to feel. Like when it was announced to us that we won, our tribe really celebrated because it really boosted our morale and really lifted spirits high.

well i think ive been doing pretty good this week! i talked to everyone and dont think ill ever be voted out if we go to tribal but we dont have to worry about it today bc we won immunity! so yeeehaw im not first boot B)

This is the worst possibly thing that could've happened however hopefully it should be an easy tribal because we have some inactive players

Easy tribal, bye Maddy don't be saddy 

whew so this is my first confessional! i am in a pretty decent position on my tribe! i love all of the members and have talked to them all a ton besides madison. the vote tonight should be very easy and straightforward and also beneficial to cut the dead weight which has been holding us back thus far! i absolutely love and trust lily and know she has my back...for now!

mitch is still my dad and i haven't dm'd him once

"Our tribe has some good competitors - mostly Brian, so in most future challenges I think and hope we can succeed." Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

Alright, so I gotta catch up with the happenings of this game and my perspective in all of them. https://media.giphy.com/media/a3HwA77QREoo/giphy.gif So the game kicks off and I'm on the pretty pink tribe that's kind of like the color of watermelon sorbet (or perhaps strawberry sorbet.. it's been a long time since I've had sorbet... and now I want some). It's called Ysabela and I like to pronounce it like Isabella - the name! But then there's that issue of me probably saying it wrong and I should look it up. The other two tribes are colors that I don't know because I don't really care, but they're basically Cigarette and Urethra so they can go. https://media.giphy.com/media/kOX9joAqO9O2A/200.gif So on my tribe there are pretty much 0 people that I know and I'm living for it. The opportunity to meet new people and make new friends is what I live for. It's a wholesome diet. There's... Adrian, Bo dhi, Dana, Jaiden, and Julia It can be argued that I know Jaiden, but since we don't talk at all (and haven't really in the like.. one (maybe two) games that we've played together I'm going to say we don't know each other and stick with what I previously said. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Anyway, when the game started, the first challenge was for reward and it was a live trivia show about a Bahamas video that we had to watch. This was terrible timing for me as a player because I am moving very soon and am spending weekends and other free time to say my goodbyes to my friends because I may not be seeing them in person for quite the while. https://media.giphy.com/media/u3EIFVsTk4tZ6/giphy.gif Turns out the same or similar situation was effecting the rest of my tribe because we were bombing the challenge pretty hard. We literally ended with like.. 10 points and the opponents each had at least thirty. It was disgusting and I felt made me a target because I was only able to be online to score one point. Soooo... I got to work making sure to private message everyone on the tribe. At the very least, it would take away that "inactive" excuse to vote me out if each person had received a message from me individually. Dana responded and apologized to me for not speaking because she was graduating and said that she felt it made her a target and I chose to read into it because it seemed like she was reading into it. And she said that she hadn't heard any talk yet and that it would be naive of her to think that I had heard zero talk - but I'm not here to confirm that I haven't (and I haven't) so I told her that I hadn't heard anything and that - at the very least if we agree not to vote each other we only need one more number to successfully tie and that wouldn't be so bad. She agreed and said that she'd rather not tie. This is either the beginning of an alliance or the beginnings of me planning my own demise. You decide America! https://assets.wonderlandmagazine.com/uploads/2016/07/tumblr_inline_mk8zx0oWXU1qz4rgp.gif Everyone else who messaged me did not talk about game stuff, but we connected within the realm of our lives so that's neat? Anyway immunity was posted and it was the super most fun game of all the times Scattergories. Only it was like.. Tribal Scattergories where we couldn't talk to our tribes and had to submit in secret so like.. no strategizing for the group - only personally. And therefore the research that one had to conduct for success in this game had to be excessive since you'd have to potentially out think EVERYONE ELSE in the game. I knew I wasn't allowed to talk specifics about the game - so nothing about the specific categories or whatever because of the rules, but I still wanted to vaguely talk about it, so I chose to talk about like.. the game in general with Dana. Just like.. how I think Scattergories can be crazy when people try to make up answers and then have to justify them, etc. and apparently Dana found out that she was playing the game wrong and like.. flipped her lid on me. She told me she had been making HUGE LISTS for the game instead of just coming up with one thing that she thinks she would not have in common with other people and she thanked me for getting her back to the right path. And.. I personally see this as a small step towards solidifying something more solid? I dunno.. thought I'd mention it. Perhaps I'm reading too much into things. https://media1.popsugar-assets.com/files/thumbor/yQzKcvIWJyXW8yqOi6NMrUN4R-g/fit-in/1024x1024/filters:format_auto-!!-:strip_icc-!!-/2015/03/20/836/n/1922283/9009bad2892c3d87_tumblr_inline_n0ol7eBQT11ror8o2/i/She-Makes-Best-Application-Harvard-Has-Ever-Seen.gif Anyway... our tribe won first place in the challenge because pretty much our whole tribe dominated the challenge because we like to think outside the box and came up with some fun and obscure answers across the board. The other tribe - the one that went to tribal - threw some shade at us about the fact that we flopped the reward challenge but like.. it happens so I'm not too hung up about that. And if they think we're going to move on to the next challenges and flop then.. so be it. Anyway, they voted out Madison who, herself, self-voted so like. Good choice for them! On to bigger and better things! https://media.tenor.co/images/bc4f005c35ce50d7237f6dc35ac36ca3/tenor.gif

[survivorbahamas]

EDGIC

[survivorbahamas]

Dana’s Jury Answers

Lily’s Jury Questions and Responses

Hey Lily! You asked for a novel so you are CERTAINLY about to get one. I accept the #WasteHerTime2017 challenge. Because I want to show you that I DO respect your time and consideration as a juror, I have taken the liberty of going all the way back to May 25th, the first time we ever talked, and read through every conversation we had in this game. Anything at all relevant to your challenge is included below with an explanation. However, let me preface this to say, that every non-game conversation we had was certainly genuine, I love you a lot, and I certainly do owe you explanations. So here we go!

May 28th: The first time I lie to you in the game.

[5/28/17, 10:40:13 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): me too! have you talked to anybody else a lot? also in the reward I won an extra look for the idol, so that’s exciting!

[5/28/17, 10:41:34 PM] Lily Douma: Awesome!!! Congrats! Not recently. Since we have been doing so well it seems like people aren't as active. Haha.

[5/28/17, 10:41:49 PM] Lily Douma: I've been talking to have about dogs today. So that's been nice. He has cute dogs.

[5/28/17, 10:41:58 PM] Lily Douma: Gage

[5/28/17, 10:46:27 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): yeah that’s the vibe i’m getting as well. I’m talking to Gage right now 2! He seems really nice! Ugh now i have to figure out where i’ve already looked for the idol before searching again.

[5/28/17, 11:21:57 PM] Lily Douma: Yeah I've been sticking to the ocean but no luck. Haha

[5/28/17, 11:32:25 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): yeah it’s tru. i just wish i could be more successful at looking- like i’ve never found an idol in a game

Explanation: This was the first time I lied to you in the game. Initially, I tell you about winning an extra look for the idol from the reward challenge to build trust. I wanted you to know that I got an advantage. Then I pretend I’m confused about where I’ve looked for the idol in hopes that you will give me a suggestion, which you do. In reality? I had a spreadsheet with every place I’d looked and knew exactly where to go/ not go. Finally, I tell you I’ve never found an idol. Prior to this game, true, except I had an idol from minute 5 of this game that I never planned on telling anybody except Bodhi about.

June 10th: I come back into this game, excited to see you, and immediately I lie.

[6/10/17, 12:02:21 AM] Lily Douma: Idol? Dudeeee do you still have it tho????

[6/10/17, 12:02:34 AM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): i actually have no idea

[6/10/17, 12:02:37 AM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): im going to assume no

[6/10/17, 12:04:11 AM] Lily Douma: Ask!!!! Don't assume no. I mean you had it in your pocket when you left why couldn't you bring it back with you.

Explanation: Of course the first question I asked the hosts coming back into the game was whether or not I had the idol. Again, I saw the strategic value in people not knowing about the idol so I could play it at an opportune time for me, so I lie.

June 10th- 11th: Talking about Brian

[6/11/17, 5:02:05 PM] Lily Douma: How do you feel being brought back to the game? I imagine it's mostly positive but also a little strange.

[6/11/17, 5:04:16 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): i know me too and it’s sad. i like just hanging out in the summer. and OMG yeah we havent really talked about the game in a while haha. I’ve just been like lowkey since i came back. I’m so excited to be back. but i’m just scarred. Like i feel like other people are starting to talk endgame and nobody is really doing that with me? and like i havent played at this stage in an org before. Like usually im out at merge (like i was going to be here) or right before, so being at this point is new!

[6/11/17, 5:06:11 PM] Lily Douma: Dude. I haven't really talked end game with anyone either. So I've been worried too. There will be ten of us after tonight. Still a long way to go tho so I don't think we need to panic yet. We aren't that strong in challenges most of the time so I hope we aren't threats. Although I feel like me and you are the strongest social threats if that makes sense.

[6/11/17, 5:30:22 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): Ugh ok well im glad we’re in the same position, maybe we can talk about it? Yeah i mean we are definitely social threats, but I think the situation at this point is that me being brought back the way i was makes it hard for me to win.

[6/11/17, 5:33:49 PM] Lily Douma: Yeah that makes sense. Well I haven't heart anyone saying who the would flip on. Other than me and bodhi wanting to get Brian out cause he's a huge threat. I think he would win if he made it to the end espessialy since everyone in the alliance gets along well. Brian is great in comps and finding idols and clues. I wonder what else he has and that always worries me. I just feel like I can't trust him as much as others. What do you think?

[6/11/17, 6:13:26 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): yeah I havent really heard anyone talk about not voting with the alliance or anything. brian is def a threat no lie, and im sure he knows it too. i just dont know what to do about it

[6/11/17, 6:32:47 PM] Lily Douma: Yeah same. I mean I think we gotta get him before he gets us. But damn those idols. I have a clue but I can't seem to do anything with it. I can't find the idol and I feel like its only me and Brian who know the clue. Or are searching for it. I;m terrible at finding idols but I really don't think I can go very far without having some kind of advantage in the game but I got nothing. These games seem to be getting tougher and tougher in a lot of ways.

[6/11/17, 11:41:15 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): Sorry! I got to work and didnt have time to respond. I have a clue for an idol too, but i'm pretty sure they're all gone? I mean can't be too positive but i can send it to you because i want us to have any advantage we can get!

Explanation: Starting at the beginning, I was talking endgame at this point, but ONLY with Bodhi. I genuinely wanted to talk about the endgame with you, because you were one of my closest allies and someone I really trusted. I knew Bodhi was talking endgame with some people, and I was honestly nervous because I hadn’t yet. I had a F4 created by Brian, but that seemed unlikely and I was looking for options. Moving onto me saying I think me being brought back makes it harder for me to win. I honestly never totally believed this, but I told PLENTY of people that I believed it because I thought it was key to getting further in the game. This was part of my strategy reentering the game, if people thought I couldn’t win, there would be incentive to bring me further into the game. In reality? Me being brought back was not up to me, and I knew all I could do was play my best game to show that I deserved to win. I tell you I havent heard anyone talk about voting outside of the alliance. At this point, there was already a plan in place to take out Brian and I had talked to Brian extensively about his boot list, which included you leaving at F10. Did I think this was a threat that needed to be brought up? Honestly, no. Not at this point. Finally, we talk about advantages. I knew there were still idols in the game, including idol board idols that I was in the process of searching for. Why didn’t I share that? Because I had several clues to the idol board that made me feel my chances of finding it were high. While it was true I wanted BOTH of us to have advantages in the game, I thought that particular advantage was mine for the taking (surprise, it was not, Brian found it.) The very next day however, I do tell you about the idol board, and I tell you that whatever was there is gone. This was the truth.

June 13th: I lie about the vote.

[6/13/17, 9:45:50 PM] Lily Douma: What if Nicholas and Julia have idols? That would be insanity.

[6/13/17, 9:46:07 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): yeah exactly… like we dont know where the idols are

[6/13/17, 9:46:12 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): and that is FREAKING me out

[6/13/17, 9:46:26 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): like nobody has mentioned anyone having one to me

[6/13/17, 9:58:24 PM] Lily Douma: Alright. I hate telling other people other people's shit. But all I know is that Willa has like half of a power idol. He needed to find the other half. I have no idea if he ever did.

[6/13/17, 9:59:12 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): WHAT

[6/13/17, 10:00:11 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): power idol?

[6/13/17, 10:00:34 PM] Lily Douma: That's all I know. I have no idea what it does. Ugh. I didn't mean to freak you out this was supposed to help. Haha.

[6/13/17, 10:00:56 PM] Lily Douma: But yeah I don't know. I just know he has something and it has another half.

[6/13/17, 10:03:16 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): nah it didnt freak me out, it’s good to know honestly!

[6/13/17, 10:04:09 PM] Lily Douma: Okay cool. I thought it would be good to know. I feel like the other half was probably found and I have no fucking clue who would have it.

[6/13/17, 10:05:31 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): i just wonder who has it honestly.

Explanation: Did I know exactly what the vote was at this point? I don’t think so. But I knew it wasn’t going to be Nicholas or Julia because there were discussions of Bodhi and I working with them. Before you told me about Willa’s idol here, I knew about it already, so I pretended to be surprised not to blow Brian’s cover as my #2. Brian told me about this idol the day he brought me back, and I knew I had the other half of it.

June 14th: I pretend not to have the idol or know where I found it initially, both untrue. I lied here because you were really inquiring about the idol, and I wanted to keep it as big a secret as possible.

[6/14/17, 12:03:42 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): The idol i had before i got voted out was the first one i'd ever had. I was so excited to use it too :(

[6/14/17, 12:23:14 PM] Lily Douma: Where did you find it tho? Because I assume it went back there or somewhere similar when you were voted out.

[6/14/17, 12:23:51 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): I found it in north somewhere i think. But it actually might have been west

[6/14/17, 12:23:58 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): Idk if they put it back in or not

[6/14/17, 12:33:52 PM] Lily Douma: Yeah but they might have so if you can figure it out again it could be there. It feels like that could be worth a shot at least.

[6/14/17, 1:05:08 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): yeah it was in west i just checked, i looked there again this round and it wasnt there :( so it could be anywhere if it was rehidden, which means anyone could have it

June 17th: LIEGATE 2017. I knew I had fucked up at this point with you. We voted out Gage and Willa, and I hadn’t given you an explanation why. A lot of what I tell you is the truth, but I will closely analyze this for lies. At this point, I knew I really still wanted to work with you and I was trying to salvage what I could. For this, it will be more effective to give my explanation within the body of the messages, so I bolded for convenience!

[6/17/17, 4:34:02 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): So obviously after last night’s vote, I really wanted to make sure to talk to you and explain what went down, because you’ve been one of my closest friends in this game!

I really valued you as someone to work with, I wanted to give you an explanation to reaffirm trust. I knew I couldn’t tell the 100% truth however without having to explain that I was working in the middle, so I explain what I can.

[6/17/17, 6:16:26 PM] Lily Douma: Thanks Dana. Yeah I've been really hurt by both votes since I clearly had no idea what was going on.

[6/17/17, 6:19:55 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): Ok so i’ll start with the gage vote? because that was NOT a planned thing at all.

[6/17/17, 6:20:18 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): Like nobody wanted gage to go, but he was a casualty of a lot of scrambling and a few last minute moves.

[6/17/17, 6:21:52 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): And I’ve already talked to Brian about this, but basically a few blindsides to send Brian home were in play. One led by Willa, basically everyone except u and Kai to my knowledge, including myself because of numbers was going to vote Brian out

[6/17/17, 6:22:26 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): well last minute, Brian bluffs and idol, and EVERYONE panicks, because it was after votes were supposed to be due at 9 (which got extended)

[6/17/17, 6:23:12 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): and so basically very last minute nobody knows who will go home because U are asleep, we thought Kai was asleep, and Nicholas and Julia were asleep.

[6/17/17, 6:24:20 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): So because everyone is scrambling and I already knew 2 votes were locked Brian, at least 1 for Willa, and 1 for Nicholas, I didnt want to take chances on someone like you who I’ve been working with forever leaving.

ALL TRUE.

[6/17/17, 6:26:46 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): So me Bodhi, and Zach come together and decide to vote Gage, since we know 3 votes will be enough to send him home and make sure that we dont lose people like you. Meanwhile I hear from Brian Willa is going to vote for me to go home and tried to get him to do the same. So Gage was more of a desperation move than anything to make sure me and people i’m close with were safe (Willa ended up voting gage too, idk how and Zach or Bodhi pulled in Kai last minute because he woke up).

[6/17/17, 6:32:07 PM] Lily Douma: Gotcha. Yeah that makes sense I had no idea that he made up that idol so last minute. Wow. Alright. I see why everyone freaked out and I got left out. That's making way more sense.

[6/17/17, 6:32:59 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): I absolutely would have told you if you were awake!

Would I have told you? Probably not. But at this point that was more of a numbers thing than anything else. This vote was REALLY a scramble. The only thing here is how much I exaggerate that I didn’t want anyone else in the alliance to go home. I was looking out for myself and Bodhi for the most part at this vote, and I didn’t want us to go, so unfortunately Gage had to.

[6/17/17, 6:33:43 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): So then the Willa vote. Then last night for the Willa vote, a very similar situation. Willa was starting to target our alliance from what I’d been hearing, and I was scared about what that meant. I’m much closer with people like you and Brian than Willa. I knew a lot of votes were being thrown his way, so I ended up deciding that was my best move kind of last minute. Not including you on it wasnt because I’m not working with you in this game, but more of a I literally had no time to do anything and kind of ended up just voting last minute.

I TOTALLY lie to you about the Willa vote, and I felt bad, but I didn’t have a great explanation for this one without blowing up my game. Was Willa targeting the alliance? Yes. But it was Brian, which was something I was also involved in separately from Willa. However, Willa planning this move and not including me showed me that perhaps Willa didn’t want to work with me moving forward. If he was making moves without me, he could EASILY make one on me. This was threatening. I felt like he was getting really close with people who weren’t me. This made me feel like I was at the bottom of our alliance, and made me prioritize individual relationships instead of the integrity of the alliance. My other reason for targeting Willa was that his gameplay and straightforward nature was VERY threatening to me, and I knew it would win him FTC over me. I had to start thinking about my end game at this point. So, I didn’t vote last minute, but I couldn’t explain why it was important for my game that Willa go home, even though he was in the alliance, while STILL maintaining that I didn’t want you to go home (which at this point, I did not).

[6/17/17, 6:38:09 PM] Lily Douma: And I just worry all the time as a human person I can't help it

[6/17/17, 6:56:57 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): But yeah I REALLY dont want that to happen either, I want people I get along with at the end and I really wanted to make sure to like reaffirm that absolutely nothing that happened was targeted at you. Like i havent heard your name or I would have really pushed to make something different happen. I worry a lot too and i’m so sorry it took me so long to come back and talk to you! it’s just been a crazy weekend. But I feel so bad because I worry all the time as a person too and I dont want you to be worried!

[6/17/17, 7:28:56 PM] Lily Douma: I really appreciate the message Dana.

This last part? A mixture of the truth and some lies. I had heard your name. Not in a super serious way at this point. I think the most controversial part about this last statement is “I want people I get along with at the end.” Everyone is probably thinking… what the FUCK Dana. But here’s the thing, is that with the exceptions of Julia and Kai, I was friends with EVERYONE at this point. Truly, I had always planned on F2 with Bodhi, so I did want to go to the end with people I get along with, and even sitting here now, I’ve done that. Was it who I expected? No. But in a F5 scenario where I genuinely liked everyone, I decided to do what I felt gave me my best chances, which I’d love to explain a little. Brian, was playing a better game than me. He made BIG moves. He got the vote off of him on 3 separate occasions and took out my #1. Kai? King of making alliances and was always making plans. I knew he had guaranteed voted on the jury if he was brought to the end. Those same people I felt MIGHT vote for me if I was persuasive at FTC, whereas I knew that eliminating Zach/ Julia likely meant that some votes one of them would have received would go to the other instead of me. Moreover, I didn’t see this same drive from especially Julia, but also Zach in comparison to Kai to really fight to make plans in this game. Combine both of these with the fact that Zach and Julia aren’t voting each other out, which I respect, going to the end with them, especially because I was getting close to Zach, was my best move.

June 18th: Honesty at the Nicholas vote, one of the few times in our later game talks.

[6/18/17, 1:47:07 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): I actually completely agree with you. Numbers wise with each vote that group becomes A BIGGER problem that i've been thinking about.

[6/18/17, 1:48:32 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): I know we can definitely get Bodhi and Brian and prob Kai together to make whatever happen

[6/18/17, 1:49:27 PM] Lily Douma: Yeah I really think that this time the five of us can vote Nicholas and get him out this time.

June 19th: Our Final conversation in Bahamas.

[6/19/17, 12:58:08 PM] Lily Douma: Did brian talk to you about the vote? We were thinking zach and I know that at least kai is on board with it. Maybe julia if he happens to get immunity? But it sounds like zach isn't good at this kind of challenge so it should be fine. What do you think? Also sorry for being so quick I just don't have lots of time.

[6/19/17, 12:59:22 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): Yeah! Brian talked to me about that a little bit last night. I’m here for either of them. I feel like they wont win tho tbh.

[6/19/17, 1:00:39 PM] Lily Douma: I really think zach could but I know what you mean about julia. Julia hasn't been super active this game. Haha.

[6/19/17, 1:01:08 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): Right. Idk yeah I mean in part this challenge is just all luck, anything could happen, so it’s good for us to have a backup!

[6/19/17, 1:02:19 PM] Lily Douma: Yeah that's what I figured. You never really know with this one. Hopefully one of us gets it and then we don't have to worry about it. I hate the insta tribal stuff.

[6/19/17, 1:18:22 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): Instant tribal is killing me. Like omg so bad. But yeah.. also a heads up. I heard about some plan to take you out, which i’m assuming you know about?

[6/19/17, 1:18:29 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): because I was like umm no what

[6/19/17, 1:25:17 PM] Lily Douma: I heard something but I'm pretty sure it must have started with zach. I guess that's why I'm wanting him out this round. I think he was the one who voted for me last time that basically said that no one could beat me or whatever.

[6/19/17, 1:26:21 PM] Lily Douma: Did you hear that plan from someone? I'm not gonna lie I am a little nervous for this one. But I'm okay. This should be just like the last vote.

[6/19/17, 1:26:54 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): yeah idk who started it, I heard about it from Zach and Brian, but I am pretty sure that isnt happening anymore becuase I told Brian that Zach was safer.

[6/19/17, 1:28:40 PM] Lily Douma: Okay cool. Zach makes sense to me. He could win lots of immunities and take this thing under us. And that would be terrible. Me no like.

[6/19/17, 3:18:27 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): ahh sorry forgot to respond before i went out! but yeah that sounds good so it’s me u brian kai bodhi for zach?

[6/19/17, 3:21:25 PM] Lily Douma: No worries. Yep I sure hope so. Haha

[6/19/17, 3:21:48 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): ive only talked to bodhi and brian about it so i just wanted to checkk

[6/19/17, 3:22:46 PM] Lily Douma: Oh cool yeah I talked to kai about it. So we should be all set then. Hopefully. Unless if zach has an idol but I feel like he would have played it already or on himself.

[6/19/17, 3:23:01 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): omg ya if i were him i would have played it already

[6/19/17, 3:23:43 PM] Lily Douma: Yeah seriously. But you can never be 100% sure.

A COMPLETE lie, but let me explain why I told it. When you came to me with the plan to take out Zach, I knew from Bodhi that you were actually voting out Brian with Kai, Zach, Julia, and Bodhi. I knew that you were in on the (fake) plan to split votes for me (where Bodhi and Zach were supposed to vote me) and weren’t telling me about it. The real plan that night? Initially, to flush Brian’s idol or send him home with it. Except then I knew you were lying to me, knew that we probably wouldn’t be able to work together moving forward, and knew that odds Brian wouldn’t play the idol were low, so Bodhi, Brian, and I voted you to ensure that we wouldn’t go home. I thought there was a chance you and Kai would flip your votes to me (I tell you about the plan to get you out so that you hopefully wont flip the vote on me) if you wanted me to go instead of Brian, and I had to make sure 3 votes were on someone that wasn’t me. Did I feel terrible? Absolutely. But I knew our working relationship, not friendship, had run its course. I was your target, so you became mine.

Now onto your bonus question. I did NOT come into the alliance with the goal of being dishonest or betraying the alliance outright. I really trusted you, especially, because we were close at merge from our swap tribes. I will concede, that without participating in this alliance the way I did—using it to keep myself safe, in the know, and to carry out important votes (ex. Nicholas), there is NO WAY I would be sitting here right now. So I owe the alliance a lot, and I did not mean to make it sound like I did not. What I meant was that blind loyalty to the alliance was something I learned not to trust quickly after I was brought back. My decision to work the middle in this game is a really came from the fear I felt seeing people targeting Brian beginning at F10 and it is a TOUGH strategy to pull off while still maintaining trust. Throughout this game, people frequently compared Brian and I as threats, and when I started hearing his name at F10 from people in our alliance, I knew I couldn’t rely on one group of people to keep me safe. As I also mention in my response to Willa, not only did I hear Brian’s name, I heard your name from Brian, my name from Gage and Kai… starting at early as F10 and this meant that if I wanted to be sitting at F3, I did not have an option to play a 100% loyal clean game this time. Playing that game is ALWAYS how I get voted out, and though it meant having to be manipulative and deceiving, something I am NOT in real life, I took advantage of the opportunity everyone has in this game to separate their personal feelings for people and their game moves. That is exactly what it took for me to vote people like you, Nicholas, and Brian out of this game as my friends. Now I know that it is going to be hard for you to look past the deception and give me your vote. But the reason I was 100% honest in going through every time I lied to you, even though it was harsh and difficult for me to own, is because I respect you as a person and as a juror in this game and I want my game to be as transparent as possible at this stage. I am hoping that through my explanation it is clear that I HAD to play a cutthroat game because people wanted me gone at each step of the game after merge. There was not a single vote where I did not have immunity where I didn’t think there was a legitimate chance I was going home, and I played accordingly. Maybe I didn’t play a totally loyal game, but I’m asking jurors to respect my game because in order to respect the purpose of this game, to get to F3, I had to play the way I did.  

Kai’s Jury Questions and Responses

1)     Who’s idea was it to flip? Yours or Bodhis?

Flipping was MUCH more complicated than one of us saying “let’s do it” and the other blindly following. To explain what I mean by that, because I’m not trying to be evasive in this answer at all, there was conversation that Bodhi and shouldn’t flip together LONG before anybody actually flipped. Why? Bodhi and I REALLY didn’t want anybody to know that we were friends or working together closely in this game. We were ALWAYS talking about flipping, but we were always talking about everything in this game. Bodhi wanted to be the one to flip and leave me in a position where I was the one not flipping—he felt this would give us access to the greatest possible avenues in the game. When it came time to flip, not only was this not possible numbers wise, but something I was unwilling to do, which I told him. I had to balance my loyalty to Bodhi with doing what was best for my own game, and I knew I needed to play in the middle to make things work for me. I needed options because I was a target, and I told him that too. So, at that point I decided to flip. Who brought up flipping first? Hard to say, but I’m willing to give that credit to Bodhi, who came to me with a new plan pretty much every hour the whole time we were in the game, because that’s just who he is. Bodhi had the relationships with Zach and Julia to make the flip possible and ensure that it would work. I wasn’t close with Zach or Julia, but I did absolutely trust Nicholas, which solidified my decision to flip. I’m not here to take credit for ideas that I’m not sure were mine- but let me say that deciding to flip despite the initial goal not to flip together was VERY much and individual decision. No part of me in this game let Bodhi do what was best for his game without doing what was imperative for me as well. Did this produce a lot of hard decisions? Absolutely. Did this mean that Bodhi and I had minor disagreements? Yes. But even if I give him credit for coming up with idea to flip, on an individual level, I played my own game and decided to flip. Moreover, I would argue that the more important part of this flip conversation, is that I was able to strategically work with my closest ally’s allies. I took opportunities like this to build new relationships for myself. I believe did that very effectively through the flip and then following through in end game when I worked with Zach and Julia after Bodhi left.

2)     Why did I have to initiate all the conversations if you were such a ‘social player’?

I’m certainly not saying that being a social player meant I had the same relationship with everyone in this game, nor am I saying it meant I was social with everyone. It means that being social was a BIG part of my strategy in this game. It helped me form important relationships. For example, I got VERY social with Nicholas when I was worried he was going to flip on me at the Jenna vote because I realized they were friends. I got very close with Brian after he brought me back into the game because we had a platform to build trust on. I would say that you are one of the few exceptions to this social game, and let me explain why and how that was actually an integral part of my strategy. You and Brian were the only people I hadn’t been on a tribe with going into the merge. This meant that I already had some idea of what my relationship, friendship and working relationship, was like with every other player in the game. I was very socially involved in these relationships, I knew that I was getting pulled into an alliance of 7 and then a F4 with you, but you were unlikely to trust me more than the people who you and I had separately been working with since the beginning of the game. You had your own relationships and I had mine, but I did largely focus on social game relationships going into merge based off of who I knew trusted me the most and who I trusted the most. Things changed between Brian and I once he brought me back into the game, however, meaning I was the least social with you.  Eventually, the chances that you and I were going to ever be as social or have that trust I had with other players dwindled… so I didn’t invest in it too heavily to be honest. Do I regret that? Honestly yes and no. On a personal level, yes, I think you’re a great guy and I’m hoping we can be friends after this and figure out how to work together in the future. I also wish I had talked to you more so you could have seen the value in my social game earlier on instead of me having to tell you about it now at FTC. In this game? I don’t regret it that much. I got some very solid advice from one of my friends in my last game. He told me that you only invest socially in the people that you are working with. This is harsh, but VERY important. I absolutely found this to be valuable for two reasons.

1)    It helps build trust with the people you are working with.

2)    It manages the number of lies I have to tell to people I’m not working with. Because we weren’t working together, I rarely had to lie to you. That was important because it gave me the option throughout the game of coming to you later (especially in endgame) and saying “I haven’t been dishonest with you, let’s work together” and that being that complete truth. Did I have to do this? No. But I saw it as an option and I think this is the perfect example of how I played this game differently with different people. I had this option with you that didn’t exist with other players in the game.

Brian’s Jury Questions and Responses

Dana, I’m sure you’ve already addressed having been voted out and brought back why on earth should I vote for you when I am the one who brought you back and you then tried to vote me out over and over while you talked loyalty and seeing the best players at the end.

I have briefly addressed being voted out and brought back in by you in a few other jury speeches. But let me start by saying thank you. I’ve told you that regardless of what happened in this game that I am grateful to have been brought back into the game by you and developed the friendship that we have, and I absolutely mean that. I owe you the most explanation about the MESSY circumstances that encircled our relationship in this game. I think once I get through that you’ll be able to see that your loyalty mattered to me A LOT in this game, it was invaluable, and that my strategy of balancing my loyalties unfortunately compromised by ability to be totally loyal to you, but was effective to get me to this point in the game. Moreover, I hope to explain why my philosophy of “seeing the best players at the end” was a strategy I purposefully abandoned in endgame in order to prioritize my own interests. Is that unfortunate and did that mean you went home? Yes. But I think based on the relationship we have and moves you made in this game for similar purposes that also abandoned that shared philosophy, you will hopefully be able to appreciate why prioritizing my own game over all else became my focus beginning after F6 tribal.

One of my main predicaments in this game was balancing my loyalty with you and Bodhi, and you know that already. The biggest thing to recognize is that the WHOLE post merge until F5 I knew it was bad for me if you went home. I wanted you to stick around, and sometimes did I waver? Absolutely. But ultimately, someone who you have as much trust with as I had with you is NOT someone who needs to go home in this game. Did that mean I didn’t participate in attempts to strike at you? Absolutely not. This was because I really made an effort to consistently balance my loyalties.

My BIGGEST challenge in this game was trying to make you and Bodhi work together, when I knew you didn’t trust him and he wanted you voted out. How did I manage this? Well, it truthfully required two very distinct approaches. With you, I was as honest as I could be without blowing up Bodhi, because I had to be 100% loyal to him. With Bodhi, I would talk him out of sending you home and explain why it was bad for us. I honestly believed it was bad for us, because I would be in danger if you left. I got you guys to come together over the Nicholas and Lily votes. I did this to balance my loyalties and focus on maintaining both as long as possible, because I knew this was my best move, but I also was cognizant the whole time that you can only balance loyalties so long.

Specifically, I’d like to highlight the Lily vote and how this exemplifies me balancing loyalties between you two effectively. The initial plan at that vote was to hope that your idol could be flushed and send you home with Lily as our backup. I knew this was bad for me because I trusted you A LOT. So I talk to Bodhi and eventually convince him that we should vote Lily out instead and just let your idol go another round. Large in part, this was to protect myself from Kai/ Lily flipping the vote on me. But I convince him that the three of us need to vote Lily. Then later in the night, I tell Zach and Julia they should vote Kai instead of you when they bring that to me because they are afraid Lily has an idol. Why did I do that? Because I knew if Lily had an idol, one of them could go, which I also didn’t want. Bodhi was MAD when he saw this, but I don’t regret it, because it allowed me to take out someone who was the least loyal to me in favor of you and Bodhi first, and Julia and Zach second. By leveraging questions of my own safety in this game, I got you guys to work together.

Hopefully this explains why my loyalty was NECESSARILY conditional in this game. Now it was no longer conditional after Bodhi left, and I told you that honestly. I trusted you the most of everyone left in the game. However, me breaking my loyalty and “seeing the best people at the end strategy” had to do with a shift in my gameplay at F6. Until F6, I was playing the game with you using those two strategies because that is how you were playing the game with me You valued those two things, and so I tried to as well, and genuinely did until F6. Up until F6, I planned on seeing myself and some of the best players at FTC and being loyal to you. Not to be rude about Julia or Zach’s games, but we can likely both agree that they didn’t have to play as hard as either of us and certainly did not have to overcome as much as I did to be here in F3. At F6, you vote out Bodhi because you KNOW that is what you have to do for your game. You knew it would hurt me A LOT as someone you were loyal to, but you take someone who could be considered “one of the best players” out of the game. I realize that this mutual strategy of loyalty, but especially bringing the best people to the end, has disintegrated. Realizing this profoundly changed my strategy at F5, where I realized that if other people were going to prioritize their games over strategy they laid out day 5 of merge, when it was much easier to preach and stick to those same strategies, then it would literally be costing myself an opportunity and this game by not doing so as well. So yes, I abandoned what I preached and I own that, and in part it is because I saw other VERY strong players like yourself doing that too. I don’t think that is problematic. I don’t think it means I was being dishonest when I said it initially. But why should I be held to standards that other players in this game weren’t held to? I changed my strategy because I adapted when I saw everyone around me doing it too.

I love you so much, and voting you out was the hardest vote. After you voted out Bodhi, I safely knew that the plan to “take the strongest to the end” was broken and I was afraid you would do the same to me the next vote, which I told you. After much debate, I KNEW that taking you out was imperative to the success of my game. Hopefully you can appreciate that after making moves like you did at the Gage vote (bluffing the idol and causing chaos) and the Bodhi vote, that playing your best game is what wins you this game. You were the biggest threat. You played a fucking amazing game and you took out other people who played similarly amazing games, and that meant that in order to play my best game I had to change my strategy and vote you out.

Bodhi’s Jury Questions and Responses

1)    Ranking of the Jurors and Finalists:

1st: Brian: In my opinion, especially looking back on it, Brian played a fucking stellar game. Brian was a target and he ALWAYS saw through what people were telling him when it was imperative to him staying and found a way to circumvent being voted out. Brian was supposed to go home three separate times and worked his way out of it by causing chaos and bluffing/ playing idols strategically. Brian was VERY persuasive. I found myself consistently writing in confessionals that every time I wanted to vote him out, he and I would get on call and I would be immediately right back with him in the game figuring out how I could work with him. Furthermore, Brian was ALWAYS the underdog. His allies were always being deceptive, whether it was me or Kai, Brian was always the target and working with people who wanted him out, and doing that all well is VERY impressive.

2nd: Bodhi: You had an UNPARALELLED ability to play very strategically and also intensely UTR in this game. Until the vote you left, nobody ever thought about voting you out because of how you played, and that was because of your gameplay and ability to build trust. You were always working hard, talking game with everyone, and at the same time making sure you were the least visible player. That is a HARD strategy to pull off. You had a great social game, you were always thinking and planning, and you were willing to take risks and make big moves. Playing in the middle and having several people who implicitly trusted you and were willing to literally sacrifice their games for you is almost unheard of, but is indicative of how successful you were in this game.

3rd: Dana: I think my game is a little bit less successful than yours was, though in this game I maneuvered similarly. I am very visible unlike you, which I believe to something that forced me to work harder in this game. Visibility made me a target, but I recognized that, and I was consistently able to shift the target to other players and use my closest allies to save myself. I was willing to make big moves and play the middle. I made big moves at the Gage vote with you, at the Lily vote with and without you, and at the Brian vote completely alone. My ability to be persuasive is what got me through these votes. Based on that, it is clear that I took very serious risks in the game and was very forward thinking about what was best for my game and how I could get to FTC. I thought a little bit less than you did in this game, but I focused on weighing the costs and benefits of my options and doing what I believed to be in my best interest. I was vocal when my allies were doing something that put me at risk, and that is why I’ve ranked myself 3rd.

4th: Kai: Kai really fucking went for it in this game. Kai was talking to almost everybody and always in the process of negotiating what was best for his game. Kai was making multiple alliances, selecting targets and building 100% loyal relationships with his allies. Maybe he wasn’t always successful, but people were loyal to Kai and listened to his strategy. Kai sought out his own opportunities in this game to show that he was playing hard.

5th: Zach: Very socially competent. Zach used the strategy of riding the bottom for a while in this game very successfully. It honestly was a toss- up between Zach and Kai for 4th/5th place. The reason I placed Zach 5th is because he didn’t create opportunities or take advantage of opportunities for his game to shine at FTC. Zach asked for permission to make moves instead of making and organizing them on his own accord (ie. asking me if he should vote Kai at F7). Zach did not have working relationships with too many people in this game the way Kai did. Zach allowed moves to be made that, yes, benefited him but rarely were they his plans or something he had collaborated on. For Zach, a lot of this game was about not going home instead of playing hard. Yet, Zach is my 5th pick, because he did position himself well to work with people in power and had to do it from a minority position. While he didn’t do as much as Kai did to play this game in his best interest, being in the minority and getting to FTC was hard.

6th: Willa: Willa was GREAT at getting people to listen to him in this game. Willa was incredibly straightforward in creating alliances. Willa pulled me in quickly during swap tribes to make an alliance. Day 1 of merge Willa did the same thing and told me that if I was good with Bodhi he would be in the alliance too. It takes a lot of confidence in this game to be the organizer, the person who creates the alliance chats, and pulls in the people they trust the most. The only reason Willa isn’t higher? Telling 4 people who are each going to tell their next closest ally caused Willa to waste an idol and put himself in a very vulnerable position. Moreover, Willa also tried to make moves (against Brian) without telling people in the majority alliance, and then never tried to explain what happened, which caused mistrust within the alliance.

7th: Lily: SO GOOD at getting people to work with her in this game. Lily was very naturally endearing and somebody people couldn’t help but want to work with. Lily, however, comes in 7th because she came off as afraid to make moves in the game until the very end. Lily was so loyal that it caused her to be afraid to share too much information with allies (ex. she was VERY hesitant to tell me about Willa’s idol that I already knew about), and in a game that is all about how you can strategize this definitely hurt Lily’s game.

8th: Nicholas: Nicholas was social and great and I love him, but the problem I see with Nicholas’s game is that he had too many alliances and nobody knew exactly what his plans were. Nicholas was very public about his relationships, and it didn’t become clear until merge that Nicholas’s true plans were to work with Zach and Julia, and separately with Lily. What did this mean? It meant that Nicholas somewhat isolated himself from being part of majority alliances EVEN AFTER he had been part of the alliance I was in during swap tribes, the rest of which filtered into the majority alliance at merge. Nicholas still had options in this game, but having too many options with people who were uncertain about his loyalty definitely did not help him to do well in this game.

9th: Gage: Tried to be forgettable and honestly was doing a pretty solid job. Gage’s game, I believe, relied on trusting a few people, who unfortunately trusted each other more than him. By putting himself in this position, Gage gave himself few options and also made himself a target for an easy vote when things got MESSY with idol plays etc.

10th: Julia: Being a GOAT is a strategy. Julia was nice to everybody in this game, but at the end of the day not very visible or engaged in thinking about numbers in the game and how she could position herself well. Very dependent on Zach for alliances and most relationships, and pretty much compliant with whatever her allies wanted her to do until the very end of this game when she made 1 move without any numbers to do so and compromised her alliance without a good reason (at F5).

11th: Adrian: Knew he was in a minority, and didn’t do enough to do anything about it. Adrian did very solidly position himself in alliances, but was hard to talk to about game, because he wasn’t always totally responsive to what people needed in order to create meaningful alliances with him.

12th: Jenna: Confusing strategy. At least from my interactions, would talk to me VERY last minute, which would make me concerned that she was plotting against me. Very funny and social though, which could have been beneficial in this game if channeled correctly.

13th: Jaiden: You can’t try to seize power on your own by playing a sapphire idol when you aren’t even at risk of going home. Very poor social strategy and intense paranoia completely overshadow the merits of Jaiden’s game.

2)    Three Jurors whose votes I don’t want. WELL.

a.     Jenna: Jenna had no experience working with me to judge whether or not my game was good. If she reads through what I have to say at FTC, though I’ve written many short novels, maybe she’d vote for me. But off of my interactions with Jenna alone, I don’t think she should vote me. I think she should vote Zach instead, because she knows the most about Zach’s game from the time she was in it and aligned with him. She knows more about his gameplay than many other jurors.

b.     Kai: Kai and I didn’t work together in this game. Kai is perhaps the least likely to understand how I had to maneuver in this game in order to save myself. Kai did not experience the nuances of my social game the way other jurors did, and thus because my maneuvering and social strategy are two things I highlight about my game in this FTC, Kai shouldn’t vote for me. Kai should vote Zach because he knows about Zach’s gameplay from trying to align with him beginning at F7.

c. Lily: From what I’ve read at this FTC and what I know about Lily, she is very compelled by honesty and kindness. If Lily votes strictly based on how successfully people were at being truly honest and fiercely loyal in this game, then I don’t want Lily’s vote at FTC. While I value those qualities in real life and believe they are admirable qualities in the game, that is not how I played this game, with good reason, but nonetheless not how I played.

3)    First, let me start out by saying that I was QUEEN of the New Jersey public forum debate circuit from 2009-2013, I owned that shit, and that it is DEBATABLE whether Lincoln Douglass is my strong suit or not. With my days of college Lincoln Douglass debate far behind me, I’m picking pragmatism as my criterion. This is the criterion I want the jurors to use to weigh (analyze) my efforts in this game. I’ve chosen pragmatism, because I want jurors to consider that I recognized the reality of making certain choices, the costs and the benefits, and that I made these choices keeping in mind the ideal, which is me sitting here at FTC and winning this game. This criterion notably leaves the morality (to be technical J) of my choices absent from what I need to win this game. Choices in this game for had practical purpose for me, there were no moves that I let “just happen” without evaluating whether or not a particular move increased my own chances of being at F3. In order to best show the pragmatism in my game, I will take this opportunity to explain how each vote, beginning with Gage, was uniquely tailored to me reaching this point in the game. Because I voted out every member of the jury I was present to vote out with the exception of you, I am in a fairly decent position to do this.

a)    Gage: This vote got messy and I had to do something to ensure I wasn’t going home because Brian told me Willa was writing my name down. To get closer to F3, I pull together with Zach and Bodhi to vote out Gage, who is unlikely to have an idol.

b)    Willa: Showed through trying to vote out Brian without telling me in the previous round that we were not going to be strategically close in the game. Willa had proven himself to be good at organizing alliances. The risk I would get left out of these alliances was too great to keep Willa in the game.

c)     Nicholas: Prevented the minority from having power over you and I in the end game and voting us out beginning at F7.

d)    Lily: Prevented my alliance, mostly Bodhi, and later Julia and Zach from going home at this vote. While initially Brian was the target, if he had played his idol and Kai and Lily had voted one of my allies as the next biggest threat, I could have easily gone home the following vote. Thus three votes were placed on Lily to ensure another majority could not arise at F7 with Zach and Julia certainly not voting for each other or Bodhi.

e)    Brian: With the goal of being at F3 and winning, and Brian showing he was targeting threats in the game, it was critical to ensuring I sit at F3 that he go home. Brian’s game was also better than mine in my mind, and if the ideal was winning, then he needed to go home to achieve the ideal. Moreover, I was at risk this vote because Kai was putting my name out there. To ensure my safety, I had to convince Zach and to vote Brian and then use Zach to tell Kai (who he was closer with than me) not to vote for me or risk causing a tie between himself and Brian (in the end this didn’t matter because Kai had already voted Brian).

f)     Kai: Kai would have certainly gotten certain votes in FTC (Lily and Willa) that I could not compete for. To win this game, I chose to vote him out. Moreover, based on the information I have on Zach/ Julia and their friendships on the jury, I thought I might need their friends to split votes between them (ie. If Jenna votes Zach to win and Nicholas votes Julia). If one of them isn’t sitting here with me, those votes aren’t divided and with Kai certainly having 2 locked votes, my chances of winning this game decrease, thus Kai needed to go home for me to practically have a chance at winning.

4) To be totally honest with you, I’ll give myself a 95% for authenticity with you after out deal the day before I got voted out. Would I have gone to final tribal with you? 100%. Did I ever outright lie to you? Absolutely not. I was honest with what I was thinking the whole time, when I chose to vocalize it. I TOLD you that I thought Brian going was bad for me, and I TOLD you when I thought you were doing things that would only benefit you and not me too, and you told me the same. We both tried to do things like that in this game, if we’re being honest about it, and we had to have hard conversations about that. Me wanting to keep Brian was NOT that explicitly, but it was complicated. The context you need for this, is that I didn’t realize he was as bad for your game as he ended up being. To be honest, it was a tricky situation and I’m not going to say that every time we targeted Brian together a piece of me didn’t usually hope that it fell through, and that’s why I’ll take a little bit of my authenticity away. I think this message to you BEST summarizes how I approached the Brian situation with you.

On 6/19/17, at 12:35 PM, Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host) wrote:

> like I am here, letting someone I trust get voted out over people who actually don’t like me, and I’m doing it to benefit you. and I’ll do it, it just sucks A LOT right now.

Was it bad for your game if he stayed? At the time, I didn’t think so, and that is why I in good conscience could explain to you (for example at the Lily vote) why other people leaving instead of Brian was good. I did not think he was going to idol you out of this game and had I known that maybe I would have actually FELT 100% down to target Brian (even though I was willing to let it happen on numerous occasions and help you do it if necessary). Each time we tried to target Brian, some other issue or hole in a plan would always truthfully pop up that made me too concerned about one of us leaving and resulted in Brian not leaving. That was good for me, because it let me keep both of you around, but not be intentionally being manipulative. To summarize, I knew Brian staying was good for me, I didn’t actually think it was bad for you, and when I tried to keep Brian around, I did it feeling as though perhaps I was looking out for myself, but not to your detriment.

5)    Here goes my DAILY sucking up to Bodhi. I’ve told you throughout this entire game how jealous I was of your UTR game. Aside from that, I think you’re INCREDIBLY intelligent both inside and outside of the game. I’ve consistently told you that I was sure I was going to lose to you at the end… AND I WOULD HAVE DONE IT TOO. To honor your request that I suck up to you, I’m going to show you how I’ve done this throughout the whole game. Let’s flashback to all the Bodhi winner scenarios and times I told you that you were winning this game:

On 6/8/17, at 9:41 PM, Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host) wrote:

> i literally bullied everyone in solomon into voting for mitchell to win, i’ll do the same for you

[6/13/17, 11:00:25 AM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): also i did the math last night, and i think you’ll win at FTC

[6/13/17, 11:00:34 AM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): if things go our way

[6/14/17, 11:38:41 PM] Bo dhi: I love this alliance

[6/14/17, 11:38:44 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): me too

[6/14/17, 11:38:46 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): so fun

[6/14/17, 11:39:57 PM] Bo dhi: i hope this is the final 4

[6/14/17, 11:40:45 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): i do 2

[6/14/17, 11:40:50 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): because then you probably win

On 6/17/17, at 12:03 PM, Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host) wrote:

> Idk- i mean i wrote a whole conf about this yesterday, and like im certain you'll win this game at this point.

[6/19/17, 3:49:00 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): OMG STOP

[6/19/17, 3:49:09 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): you will beat me there

[6/19/17, 3:49:10 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): I PROMISE

HERE I AM LITERALLY TELLING YOU WHAT TO DO SO YOU CAN WIN

[6/21/17, 12:19:19 PM] Bo dhi: So you've said that you think I'd win at the end, but I don't really even know whose jury votes I get at this point. I've got a few but not enough to win. Can we try to figure out who gets what votes?

[6/21/17, 12:19:30 PM] Bo dhi: I honestly never know when to trust what Zachary says

[6/21/17, 12:20:07 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): It depends who you're with truly

[6/21/17, 12:20:13 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): U need zach and julia on jury

[6/21/17, 12:20:19 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): Imo to win

[6/21/17, 12:20:51 PM] Bo dhi: I've gotta betray them tho. So like, I'd be fucking myself kinda hard there

[6/21/17, 12:21:46 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): They would still vote u

[6/21/17, 12:21:57 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): Of everyone left they would vote u no matter what

On 6/21/17, at 11:48 AM, Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host) wrote:

> I think you got it.

[6/23/17, 12:02:22 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): Omg. I just like.... I dont know how this game pans out now.

[6/23/17, 12:02:33 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Island Host): Because i was SURE you were winning

SO IF YOU’RE VOTING FOR YOUR #1 FAN IN THE GAME. HI. HERE I AM.

Nicholas’s Jury Questions and Responses

Sure! If I were in your position, my ranking of these three players would be Bodhi first, Kai as a close second, and Lily as a third. I would have a hard time picking between Bodhi and Kai as winner however. Starting with Lily at third. I think Lily played a very honest game. She is so sweet and very socially strong in this game. However, Lily did not organize or make many big strategic moves in this game, and I believe that is the cornerstone of a winner in this game. Kai and Bodhi is a difficult question for me. If I’m you, I probably go into FTC thinking I’m voting Kai. Kai put himself in very solid alliances with most players in this game and he worked hard to try to make big moves, even if unsuccessfully at time. If you’re bitter going into FTC, you probably would pick Kai the winner. Ultimately you vote Bodhi #1 though because you see the merits of his gameplay and how he maneuvered strategically thought the game and pulled off big moves successfully. Bodhi played the middle well and was constantly thinking about how he could work his relationships to his benefit and that of his closest allies.

Alright! Here I go:

Jenna: Jenna was WILD in tribe chat during swap. There were times where I was like um what. Why would I want to hear about this? While she was loud af in tribe chat, she was silent in pms. Literally would only speak to me right before the vote… a weird strategy tbh.

Adrian: Hard to get to know and a lil gullible. We would talk but it not super substantial. I would literally bring up game moves, hoping you would be responsive, and Adrian would be like “yes,” which is… the least helpful thing ever?

Gage: Tried too hard to be forgotten in this game. Why were you ALWAYS missing Gage? You could have come back, you could have talked to everyone, but instead you tried hard to fade into the background.

Willa: WHY DID YOU TELL EVERYONE ABOUT YOUR IDOL?! Way too trusting. Honestly everyone knew about that thing quick. Like pls.. ever heard of a surprise?

Nicholas: Queen of too many alliances and close friendships that you would talk about PUBLICALLY in tribe chat. Who weren’t you in an alliance with? Honestly, a good strategy, if you aren’t telling everyone so… rip.

Lily: A VERY transparent liar. The vote she left, Lily tried to come to me and say we were all voting out Zach and it was pretty much the most unbelievable thing I’d ever read before. In a game like this, not a useful trait tbh.

Bodhi: Too many plans and too many ideas.  Sometimes I wanted to be like, “can you just stop? This plan is cracked and it isn’t going to work.”

Brian: Kind of scary sometimes in the game. If he thought that I fucked up? I knew I was going to hear about and it was going to be a ROAST.

Kai: Whom? Unless Kai was trying to unsuccessfully fight me in tribe chat with “logic” at F4, Kai and I didn’t play this game together.

Jenna Jury Questions and Responses

Well… imagine thinking that! Whew… jokes. But thank you, queen! I don’t have the answers, just a lot of questions.

Adrian Jury Questions and Responses

Hola Adrian! Estoy bien y muy nervioso para todas las preguntas en FTC. Este solicitud  es tan extraño, pero lo que quieras en este momento! Qué divertido!

Hi Adrian! I’m good and really nervous for all the questions at FTC. This is an unusual request, but whatever you want right now! How fun!

1)    Mi tiempo en la Isla de Ponderosa fue bastante solitario. En lo que estuve aislada, reflexione bastante sobre los errores que cometí a lo largo del juego.  Para ser sincera, en algunos momentos me sentí enojada porque llegue a la Isla a causa de solo un voto en mi contra. Desafortunadamente, esa marco la segunda vez que llegue a la Isla de la misma manera. El resultado del voto fue triste y difícil para mi porque consideraba que me estaba esforzando mucho en el juego y también la estaba pasando súper bien jugando. Al fin y al cabo, mi tiempo solitario logro servir como un buen descanso del juego para recuperar energías y volver mejor que nunca.

Question 1: My time on Ponderosa was really lonely and the whole time I was there I was thinking about what my errors were in the game. Before I returned, I was mad because only one vote sent me to Ponderosa and this was the second time that this had been my fate in games. The vote was really hard for me because I was working really hard in the game when I left and I was having a really good time. So, it was a good break, but at the same time, the whole time I was invested in the game.

2)    En el momento en que los anfitriones me informaron que iba a regresar al juego, me emocione muchísimo! Me siento muy agradecida con Brian. Sin embargo, estaba muy al tanto de que la manera en la que volví al juego podría ser una fuente de conflicto. Brian eligió permitir mi reingreso al juego porque soy sociable, algo que, en primer lugar, se destacó  cuando me votaron fuera del juego.  Supuse que este ídolo tan poderoso iba a causar tensión porque muchas personas no creen que este mismo es justo. Sabía que mi preocupación sobre el ídolo y la reacción de la gente eran obstáculos que tenía que superar para salir adelante.

Question 2: When the hosts told me I was returning to the game, at first I was really excited. I was thankful for Brian, because this was a big move and a risk to his game. I’m still so grateful for Brian. But then I realized that this put a big target on my back. Brian brought be back because I was social and to solidify numbers in the majority. Being social is what got me voted out in the first place, and coming back was no different. I also knew that the idol that brought me back would create conflict because people didn’t think the idol was fair. This perception was a big thing that I had to overcome for the rest of the game.

3)    Es cierto, al momento de mi salida efectivamente tenía un ídolo en mi bolsillo. Cuando regrese al juego, los anfitriones me comunicaran que este ídolo seguía perteneciéndome a mi, y que podía seguir jugando con el, ya que lo mantuve conmigo en la Isla de Ponderosa.  El ídolo era una parte muy importante de mi estrategia dentro del juego debido a que nadie más que Bodhi sabía que tenía a este ídolo. Siempre negué tener este ídolo en mi posición porque sabía que este mismo sería mas valioso al final del juego. De hecho, en F6f fue este ídolo el que me salvo.

Question 3: It’s true! When I left this game, I had an idol in my pocket. When I came back into the game the hosts told me that I could bring my idol back with me because I had it on Ponderosa. This idol was an important part of my game because nobody except Bodhi knew that I had it. This was part of my strategy, and I lied about having it numerous times because I knew that the idol was more valuable at the end of the game. In F6, this idol saved me.

4)    Utilice la segunda oportunidad que me brindaron en muchas maneras distintas. Sin duda lo más importante que ocurrió fue que le perdí el miedo a las votaciones y a los movimientos grandes. Por su puesto que hice todo lo que pude para permanecer en el juego pero cualquier miedo que pude haber tenido antes ya no era igual dado a que ya me habían votado fuera. Las tres cosas más importantes para volver al juego fueron haber trabajado con Bodhi, haber establecido una relación con Brian y haber logrado fomentar maneras de cooperar con el uno al otro cuando era necesario. Considero que logre hacer estas tres cosas eficientemente.

I used my second chance in many different ways, but the biggest thing that changed for me was that I wasn’t afraid of the votes or big moves. Obviously, I did my best to stay in the game, but the fear was not that same after having already been voted out. The three things that mattered most to me coming back into the game were working with Bodhi, establishing a working relationship with Brian, and looking for a way to work in the middle when needed. I think I did all of these things pretty effectively.

Esperemos que ya que escribí en español, que no es fácil para mí, me he ganado su voto.

Hopefully since I wrote in Spanish, which isn’t easy for me at all, I’ve earned your vote.

Willa Jury Questions and Responses

(Q1): How/why was the majority alliance not helping you, especially considering you used it to eliminate Nicholas one vote after betraying that very alliance?

I did not mean to insinuate that being part of the majority alliance wasn’t critical to getting me to this point in the game, I owe a lot of credit to that alliance. The majority alliance was VERY important to me, even once it began to break down and people within it were voted out. What I am saying however is that being 100% loyal to the majority alliance did stop mattering to me after a point, which I will explain. Having that alliance, however, gave me the only security I had in this game, especially after I was brought back. It gave me access to the information I needed to maneuver in this game and it was effective in carrying out some important moves. The best example of riding in the middle and then making the most of this alliance was when Bodhi and I were able to work with Nicholas, Zach, and Julia to vote you out and then return to the majority to vote out Nicholas the following week. With Brian away at that vote, I knew that it was an opportune time to take someone who was threatening to me, like you, out of the game using the numbers from the minority alliance. However, I knew the whole time I was executing that move that somebody from the minority would have to leave at the subsequent vote. The majority alliance was going to be absolutely key to that move. Why did I return to the majority and why was it important? For two reasons:

1)     Brian was one of my closest and most trusted allies through this game, one who I never wanted to be in a position to betray, despite the fact that it was constantly an option discussed. As much as possible I didn’t want him to think that I was participating in voting out people in the majority alliance without a VERY good reason, thus continuing to work with the majority was important to maintaining this relationship.

2)     If Bodhi and I had stuck exclusively with the minority from F7 onward, neither of us would have had a chance to sit here at F3. At F5, Nicholas, Zach, and Julia could have eliminated both of us. Thus, the majority alliance was important because it helped us to take Nicholas out (rip I love you).

This sounds harsh, and I get it, but I’m being honest for the sake of showing the value in my game. In a numbers game, the majority alliance was critical to keeping me safe and helping me take out people who threatened my chance of being at F3, as well as connecting me to people I wanted to work with late into the game. I owe it A LOT of credit.

(Q2a): Was this because you felt your bond with your two other finalists was the strongest?

Without a doubt, I had better relationships in the majority alliance. I love Julia and Zach, but we weren’t friends until much later in this game. I worked with people like you and Lily since swap tribes and spent so much time getting to know you guys because I genuinely wanted to. I got close with Brian once he brought me back into the game and that’s a really important relationship to me. Each vote was REALLY DIFFICULT.  I struggled a lot with feeling guilty and sad for making moves that I believe were necessary to me sitting here today, but I own those moves. I’m not a cutthroat bitch, so I do want everyone to know there was emotion behind every move. Until F5, I didn’t plan on going to F3 without members of the alliance present, but at F5 I took stock of my best options and ran numbers, and I think my gameplay stands out as being the strongest, perhaps the most cutthroat, but strongest in this F3. The vote Gage left is where I realized that there was no way getting to the end with this F7 group was going to work. At this point, I thought I would be at F3 with PART of the alliance (because I had NO definite boot list in mind as I played this game), but I knew that the majority alliance at F6 (after Gage left) was unlikely. Why did I know this?

1)     Because at this vote, two separate groups from my understanding, you in one of them, and Bodhi, Gage, and I in the other began to target Brian for that vote using the minority alliance for numbers. However, I knew nothing of this plan you had, and that showed me that people from the F7 were trying to strike and that if I didn’t take the first steps, I was going to be gone from the game pretty quickly since I was a threat. This was the part of my game where my strategy changed.

2)     Earlier than this point in the game, but picking up at F10, I began hearing people in the alliance targeting each other. Brian, as one of my closest allies, had mentioned a boot list to me that included Lily leaving at F10. Bodhi mentioned to me that Gage wanted me voted out. In an idealized version of this game, does a F7 with this group sound great to me? Yes. But I saw the decomposition of this group as inevitable, proven to me by at least 4 people within the group planning to cannibalize it by F10, so I had to change my strategy and work outside of that framework and be the first one to do it in order to be sitting here. This is where being adaptable, balancing my relationships in the majority alliance and working outside of it, became critical to my game. Later in the game, similar loyalties again factored into my decision not to go to F3 with people from this alliance. Kai targeted me for 3 rounds and Lily targeted me as well. If I went too far with these people from the majority alliance, I would have been voted out without because I was left without numbers.

Finally let me say, a F3 with Brian and Bodhi seemed HIGHLY unlikely to me during the whole game, moreover that was a F3 I would have gotten VERY lost in. Bodhi wanted to target Brian at least 3 times in the game before being voted out, and Brian was very aware of this. Even though they were my closest allies, trying to get them to work together was hard, and part of the difficult balancing game I had to play. I did manage it a few times though, for the Nicholas vote and for the Lily vote. Managing this tension was a BIG part of my gameplay because I knew both of them were very loyal to me. I worked with that as much as possible and kept them both around as long as possible.

(Q2b): Would you have preferred a final 2 with the people you’re sitting with now, or with Brian and Bodhi?

In any scenario, I would want Bodhi sitting next to me here at F3, and I tried to prioritize that in the game, almost as much as my own game. If Bodhi being here meant we were with Brian too, I would choose that option over the current F3. Do I have a great chance in that F3? I don’t think so, but I would have done it because loyalty with Bodhi meant a lot to me. Bodhi and I had a F2 deal basically the first day of the merge, at which point I was 100% honest with him for the remainder of the game. Though I’m sure the jury has been briefed on this deal, Bodhi and I were friends coming into this game, and we had a conversation about not voting each other out. Because we were already close friends, I trusted this and I would NEVER have voted him out of the game even if it meant me losing this game. This friendship means more to me than this game, and I would have been as happy to see Bodhi win as me.

Despite this, let me say that the reason I am happy to be sitting here with Zach and Julia, as much as I love them, is because I have had to work a lot harder to be sitting here than them and I really want that to come across to the jury.  This is why even though I would pick F3 with Bodhi and Brian so Bodhi could be here, this F3 is better for me to highlight my game. Sitting here with Zach and Julia clearly demarcates the difference between being passive and making your own opportunities in this game. I am the only one of the three of us who consistently did the latter.

In regards to the minority alliance having power. At no point did I view anything I did in this game as giving the minority alliance power. Just because Zach and Julia are still in the game does not mean they had power, at least for a majority of the merge game. At no point were either of them able to successfully take similar risks as me, play the middle like me, vote out almost every single person on the jury like me, or make decisions about who would be voted out like me. They had to rely on Bodhi and I for numbers, which still put people like myself in the position to guide the decisions. At several votes, Zach and Julia would ASK Bodhi or I what to do, which definitely doesn’t suggest that they viewed themselves as powerful either. Furthermore, I always maintained close ties within the majority alliance. I always kept Bodhi and Brian closest to me, knowing that at any point if voting Zach or Julia out was the best option, we would have power to do so. Ultimately, as I said, I did not feel making this move was in my best interest once F5 hit, which contributed to why they are here with me.

Finally

(Q3a): Did you just make big moves for the sake of it, because you thought it would impress the jury?

Not at all. As I’m hoping the jury will see throughout all my responses, I made big moves because I literally had to as a target in this game. I’m not a flashy person, I don’t aim to play a flashy game, and if it comes off that way, please know that there was purpose behind every vote. I would be happy to go through each vote if that is helpful, but I will highlight a few of the best examples.

a)      Gage: This vote got MESSY. Here is a vote where it takes three people to send someone home (because some people were asleep etc/ idols). I don’t want that person to be me, I’m an easy target, and Brian is telling me that Willa wants to vote for me. What do I do? Get on call with Bodhi and Zach and we discuss Gage as a target because it will be unexpected and there is very little chance of idol play. I make this move to keep me safe.

b)     Nicholas: Voting Nicholas makes sure that Bodhi and I can’t be targeted by the minority alliance beginning at F7. I knew they would take me out before Bodhi, because Bodhi was closer with Zach and Julia. To keep myself safe? I vote Nicholas despite VERY MUCH not wanting to see him go.

c)      Willa: I knew you were making moves against Brian, who despite being targeted, I wanted to see stick around longer on a personal note. I also knew that the longer you were around, the more threatening your straightforward gameplay, that was increasingly including me less and less, would be. I used both of these to target you. It hurt, but I felt like I had to because people wanted to align with you in later game (post F7) more than me.

d)     Brian: I knew Brian and I were the biggest threats at F5. I knew Kai was voting me out of the game, and it would have been easy for Zach and Julia to do the same. I was very seriously at risk. To solve this? I call with Zach for hours after Bodhi is eliminated and we pro/ con eliminating Kai or Brian next. I explain that Brian getting Bodhi out and Brian’s underdog game make him a HUGE threat. I don’t even give Zach room to consider voting me out. Then I ask Zach to tell Kai that Julia is voting him and he should vote Brian to avoid a tie between himself and Brian. This takes all the votes off of me when they very easily could have been on me.

(Q3b): Do you think it worked? Do you think people respect your game?

The way I analyze and appreciate this game is very much based on gameplay and the merits of strategy…so based on that alone If I were assessing my game, I think it worked. I am perceptive enough to realize everyone is not like that though, so playing my game and getting to the end was a RISK. I’m SO very genuinely sorry if people were hurt by me, I’m not denying that this is the outcome of how I had to play this game to be sitting here right now. I know my strategy can lose me this game, but I don’t believe it is any more/ less likely to lose me this game that either Zach or Julia’s games are.  If everyone is beyond upset, then yes, I lose this game. But I feel that if I explain why my strategy was necessary and I explain how I played the best game I could, then it is not unreasonable to expect jurors to pick me as a winner. SO this leads me to say, that I’m sure whether people respect my game is actually very split. I have to go into a FTC like this hoping people can appreciate the position I was in in this game as a big threat and visible player. That alone guided my gameplay, not any motive to be unnecessarily mean to people. Hopefully my undying loyalty in my alliance with Bodhi shows everyone who may be feeling like I’m overly harsh that I’m not actually a bad person and that I value friendship quite a lot. If anyone is upset, I’d hope that a sincere apology from me no matter the outcome of this game will suffice, because like I said, I actually value the relationships I made with people in this game.

(Q4a): Could you provide an example of each of these? Someone you spoke to honestly, strategically and just generally? Feel free to elaborate or just give names.

Sure!

1)     Honesty: For someone other than Bodhi who I spoke honestly with and was very upfront with during this game, I’ll pick Brian. Speaking honestly doesn’t mean I never left out information or lied at all (ex. Brian didn’t know I had the idol or how often I was involved in plans to target him) but I was VERY vulnerable in my alliance with Brian. I told him when he made me upset and I told him when I was questioning his loyalty to me. That is risky in the game, but I knew Brian needed this honesty from me at particular points, and when I could be, I was honest.

2)     Generally: For someone I always talked about life with, I have to pick Lily. Lily is BY FAR the sweetest person I have met in games. The reason I even ended up working with Willa, Lily, and Nicholas in swap tribes is because I loved Lily so much. We have a lot in common and I just loved talking to her. This connection brought Lily and I close and allowed us to talk about the game, but most of my connection with her was based on things outside the game.

3)     Strategically: For strategy, I have to pick Gage. Gage was always someone I really wanted to work with in this game until he targeted me. He and I talked pretty much strictly game, and I would come to him and say “I want to talk about the game” and that’s what we did. He would come back from Fantasy Island and give me information about the game that he gathered there, and that was how we built trust early in swap tribe game.

(Q4b): Does this mean that you talking to people you were being fake? As in, you didn’t care what anybody was saying, you just payed attention to how you could manipulate and use them down the road?

DEFINITELY was not being fake. That would be terrible, I absolutely care about everyone in this game and every conversation I’ve had. The biggest reason I play these games is to meet people and have fun, so nothing I do is to be exploitative AT ALL. Me saying this was part of my strategy was me trying to explain that I was perceptive. I certainly did use these perceptions to approach strategy, but being perceptive didn’t mean I went into conversations with the goal of getting close to people are screwing them over later or acting like someone I’m not. It meant that I knew how to work with people. I let relationships develop how they naturally would, and I always took that into consideration when I maneuvered in this game. So, I paid attention to what my different relationships were like in this game so I knew what expectations different people would have of me when we talked, not so that I could strictly manipulate anybody in a malicious way.

[survivorbahamas]

Zach’s Jury Answers

These questions are based on the order of jury!

JENNA

I executed the social and strategic aspects of the game. I fought hard and took power after being in the minority. I fought hard to be here.

ADRIAN

Adrian, firstly, thank you for vowing that, it's humourous. I love it. Also, thank you for making your question short and sweet. Now, i’ll explain my perspective on your tribal and the reason why I voted you out.

What pressured me to vote you out was Nicholas, and that was fairly vague. He said I could do whatever I want and didn’t care. But, he told me 100% he was never going to keep you, even if Julia was on for the revote. With that being said, it was obvious you couldn't stay. I fought quite hard in pms with Nicholas saying that we should tie and go to rocks, and that Adrian was 100% with us - because I did want to continue working with you and I didn’t want to write your name down. But, the votes weren't there. So I voted you out to show the majority that I would considerably be loyal to them if needed, so they'd keep me around if it came down to Julia or I. I'm truly sorry I had to write your name down, but there was nothing I could do to help you.

GAGE

You didn’t submit one, so hi! It was a blast playing with you!

WILLA

Hey Willa! I’ll answer your questions the best way I can! 1. I was seen as a ‘flower’ to multiple people aside from you (or outside of you?), including Bodhi, Dana, and Kai. I presented myself to be much more vulnerable than I actually was. I guess a “snake” wasn’t a proper term, but I surely wasn’t a sloth - but you identifying me as a sloth surely is evident to my strategy being ultimately successful. I never wanted to be perceived as the person calling any sort of shots, or that I even had power. I wanted to be viewed as someone who went along with others, played it slow and easy, and just was there for fun while also being a vulnerable and weak person (in other words, a sloth)! As for game, I initiated the Lily vote, as I told Dana that it was to keep myself safe, so I made Julia and I vote differently from majority, which meant Brian would stay, and Lily would go - a social player who was attempting to play the middle vs someone who was visibly seen as a threat. When you inquire about avoiding tribals, it wasn’t just you telling me critical information. I had other people telling me sources from the majority, such as Bodhi, but to you, you thought you were the only person telling me this. This played effectively to my regard as a) it would perceive to you that I was most loyal to you, and b) I had my bases covered, and clearly, if people were telling me information, I was social and built crucial bonds essential for advancement in the game.

2. In relation to question one, the plan at final 7 was to get Brian out. Specifically, have four votes on him, then 3 on Lily. Lily and Brian both were coming to me saying vote one another out. However, I recognized that Brian was Dana and Bodhi’s number one target. So I went to Dana, and told her I wanted to vote Kai because I was “threatened Lily had an idol” - which was partially a decoy or a visibly reasonable reason to vote out Kai instead - which parted the vote to be 3-2-2. This successfully worked in getting Lily out, a person who I felt was closer to Dana, and was social and likeable enough to win the game had she made it to the end as she didn’t burn any bridges.

Regarding other “snake” like moves or actions that I did, I could discuss me pitting Dana vs Kai near the end so they’d target one another. I could also talk about spilling information and vaguely exaggerating Nicholas as a threat to Bodhi, which made him feel threatened by him. I had a say in Gage’s vote (which, I know you think you went to Bodhi, but I also went to him around the same time with the same information, whilst also telling him what you and Brian were saying about voting him out). I used my trust effectively to pit people against each other, while still remaining visibly as a trusting person.

As for the avoidance of many votes, yes. You were the only person who in that group verbally said “oh let’s not vote out Zach”, but that was partially because I was social with you and we connected. But other sources, as mentioned above, were telling me the plans of the majority, and were willing to flip and even vote Julia or Nicholas out over me. My main objective was to have the strongest bonds out of the minority, that if we had to be voted out, I would be the hardest to and least likeliest target of the three.

3a. I do believe your vote was somewhat significant to my game, as I am here in final three. I will explain background though. At that time, it was originally Brian, but he had been captured by the bermuda triangle. I wanted to do Lily at your vote, because she was a threat and I felt like I was closer to you, because I genuinely did enjoy your presence and I feel like our connection was authentic, and I still believe that. The thing is, I had an alliance made the vote before to rid of Gage, which consisted of Julia/Nicholas/Dana/Bodhi and myself. I had such a strong connection with Bodhi from the start of merge, and I knew he had control over Dana, so when it came down to you and Lily, I agreed that you could go because you were really social, and from what i’ve perceived, people have said you talked to EVERYONE, meaning you were great socially and I felt in the end you were a bigger target. Although it wasn’t my initial idea, I do believe the alliance of five initiated your vote. So, to summarize, it wasn’t my best move, but it wasn’t bad. It was still doable and helped my game. It wasn’t completely my own idea, as the vote wasn’t particularly just my lead as much as other tribals were.

3b. The reason why I didn’t tell you you were being voted out was because I felt extremely bad and hesitated about who to vote until the literal last minute. It was a back and forth situation of “do I tell Willa and try to save him but go against a solid five, or stay loyal to a person who I think i’m connected with more” and in the end, I voted you out - I submitted my vote 10 minutes before. I recognized I had to stay loyal to the majority so they would trust me still. It was truly hard, and I felt awful doing it because that was the first vote where I knew that the game was intense and that was hard for me to execute. In hindsight, I wish I would’ve told you, and that is on my behalf. I appreciated all the help you had given me throughout, but a little information about why I flipped or questioned our loyalty was because Nicholas said you were telling him the EXACT same information (about how you wanted to protect us all, you had our backs, you wanted to flip), which made me believe you really just wanted our sympathy votes for when we were voted out.

4. Once again, as mentioned above, I was the pivotal reason why Lily went home, and why Brian stayed, which played beneficial to MY game. I went against my majority, played a BS reason as to why I wanted to vote Kai instead, and sent my biggest threat home. I then made amends with my alliance, and told them I was paranoid and it had to be done to secure safety for our alliance. In addition, I had a say in the Gage vote. I told them to instead vote him over you and Brian, because of the “bigger threats” reason, in addition to your idol. Another vote I had some authority over is Brian. I worked with Dana and secured myself enough that she wouldn’t vote me out, and us two together had all the power to go vote out either or Kai - in which I felt like it was finally time to cut Brian. Building this relationship with Dana was also a reason why Kai went home over me (or at least forcing a fire making challenge). So, I directly impacted some votes, and I indirectly impacted other votes.

NICHOLAS

AHHH Nicholas i’m balding! I’m glad you’re not going into this with a biased mind, that’s respectful and admirable.

For your first question, I do think I truly would have made it to FTC without these connections. When looking at all the names listed, the only name that was significantly beneficial in the game was you, and that was premerge specific. I never was on a tribe premerge with Jaiden, Julia or Adrian. I was with you and Jenna at one point, but Jenna was just a friend and someone who I talked to from time to time. The reason why I made it to the merge was because the only tribal where I was at all threatened, it was the one where Jenna left. Luckily, merge came as a gift! I didn’t have those connections for other votes though.

As for the jury phase, two of those people got picked off. And regardless, there was a clear strong 7 with a minority of 5 (you, me, Julia, Adrian, Jaiden), so we all stuck together as that’s what was encouraged or smartest at the time. None of those connections really determined the output of my game. Julia didn’t drag me to the end or pull for me to make it far, she was just a person I knew (and that I had their vote 100% of the time and could direct it at whoever, however and whenever). With you, we didn’t have the best loyalty concept as you, which you mentioned, played for yourself earlier, which will be discussed more in the following segments.

From that point on, I realized I had to be social and make strong bonds, which I did successfully. I created relationships with people outside of those pregame connections, and those were the connections that advanced me further in the game.

So, yes. I do think I would have made it to the end, because the factors (or people) who helped the most in my advancement throughout the duration of the game were Willa, Bodhi and Dana - three people who I did not hear of prior to the game. My pregame connections did not help me as much as other connections (so it wasn’t the sole reason, or a large contribution), and when I said my social game was magnificent, it wasn’t directed at those connections, but more so the ones built around the majority. When Bodhi was voted out, Dana told me him and her discussed who should be voted between Julia and I, and they went with Julia because they couldn’t vote me as they cared about me too much and would’ve felt bad or upset, which is an aspect of my social game that you might’ve not been aware of.

For your second question, I should rephrase it. I wasn’t a snake directly, or necessarily the typically known snake, but more so one laying on the ground ready to quietly strike when necessary, and create trust issues and kinks in relationships. What you’re saying is true; I did complain about you screwing Julia and I over, but that was also because I thought at the time what you were doing was stupid because you were clearly at the bottom of their alliance, and you were letting true allies die off. However, reflecting on that, you made a smart move, something that I then emulated but did a little more successfully. You had more connections than me; you talked to more people than me from an earlier period. Afterwards, I also built strong relationships, that catapulted me along the game. Evidence of my social game is proven by other juror questions, and also the fact that I did only receive 1 total vote, which was at final 4. I never was targeted, and if I was, people took it off of me because they didn’t want me to go and thought they could manipulate me / use me.

As for what times I acted like a snake? Well, firstly I was a puppet master around the final 7. Here, I was in two alliances (one with Lily/Kai, one with Bodhi/Dana/Julia). Dana and Lily would continuously message me with information about who they wanted out, and what they were going to do. I then spread that information back and forth (I told Lily that Dana was going to be a little fake and lie about her plans; I told Dana that Lily/Kai were going for her, when it was originally my idea). This created the distrust, which made them want one another out, proven essential to my game and allowed me to be in the clear.

A second example as to how I could be defined as a snake or puppet master is around the final 10 or 11. I went to Bodhi, brought Julia and we all called. Here is where I orchestrated him to flip, and told him the pros and justified why doing so was critical (ultimately beneficial to my personal game). In addition, I pitted a target on your back by saying that you were known for being a social threat, that you “pretended you didn’t wanna win” and that you were leaking information back to me that Dana and others told you. The reason why this was considerably a “snake move” is because it not only made him trust me more and always have an eye out for you, but it also made Bodhi respect and trust me more, which was vital for my life in the game.

To conclude, I am not sure if “puppet master” would be the right term. I think I played up my vulnerability, stupidity and weakness (i.e the flower in this metaphor of a quote), but I was also willing to vote out whoever necessary and say anything I had to to keep my butt safe (i.e the snake aspect). I drove a screw between multiple relationships deep enough that the two (or however many) would not talk and realize that the root of their problems were at all my fault. This could be interpreted various ways.

Thank you for your questions, Nicholas!

LILY

Hey Lily, I loved your introduction, it was cute!! As for questions, i’ll try my absolute hardest to answer effectively and please you!

Regarding votes that were critical to my game, I would consider the tribals that sent you, Brian, and Willa home. Other tribals could be considered, such as Bodhi’s or Nicholas’, but I want to emphasize the tribals I had authority in. I’ll go in chronological order.

Willa’s tribal was pivotal in the sense that I was now then able to be cutthroat if applicable. It was a hard vote but it gave me the courage and realization that you have to do what you have to do, and I felt like I embraced that motto. Had I not voted out Willa because of “friendship” or some relative alternative, I would have visibly went against certain people really early in the game, and could have caused them to not trust me. This vote sealed our alliance of 5 (or at least my allegiance to it) and solidified some bonds that I was able to vote out someone I liked to prove my loyalty to others (which played to be beneficial in my case).

Your tribal was also a hard vote but something that had to be done. I divided the votes so that if an idol was played on you, Brian would go in the revote - but I didn’t want Brian to go, hence why I voted out Kai instead. This was purely strategic because I felt like you were never loyal to me, and I felt like you tried to play the middle. You were also an incredibly good social player who is likeable, and I felt like when it came to end game, you were more threatening than Brian. Had I not orchestrated this execution, I believe you could very well be sitting where I am now, and I would be over there on jury.

Brian’s tribal was pivotal as I was able to encourage Dana to not vote me out, and I lied about my vote against her and blamed it on Kai so there would be a kink in their trust. I will actually tie in your second part of the question here too. As much as this was a pivotal vote and helped secure me final three as I know Brian would’ve gotten rid of me afterwards and campaigned so much harder, I wish I would have voted out Dana. In that situation, the final three would then have been me alongside Kai and Julia.

The only other regret I have that I wish I would have improved or focused on more was being kind to people when I voted them out. I wasn’t rude, necessarily, but as Willa said, I wish I would have talked to him and let him know. Same with you, actually. It was just that I was too paranoid of an idol play, or really bad and I did not want any plan to backfire because I was in such a solidified position near the final 8/9 that if I caused a wave (by letting X know I was voting them), I would then be pitted as a target or potentially exposed.

I hope I answered your questions well, and i’m surely looking forward to continuing our friendship once this season is over!

BODHI

Oh goodness, Bodhi. You supplied a lot of questions! I’ll try my best to answer effectively.

For your first question, here is my list and a little reason why:

Bodhi - The reason why you are here is because I felt like you had the game in the bag. Although you made the deadly mistake of flipping for the minority (which, thank you by the way), you played such a predominant UTR game while being in control at the same time. I think had you not been voted out in that tribal, you would have made it to the end, hands down.

Lily - She played such a likeable and fun game. She was determined as a likeable person from the majority rules competition, and still navigated her way near the end. She also had people covering for her, including Dana, which implied her social game was effective.

Brian - Brian played one trick ass game. His frequent “i’m playing my idol” scam was hilarious. He was a target from early merge, and still outlasted many people to place fifth overall. He ranks higher than others because not only did he make it far while outlasting many votes that was supposed to lead to his demise (partially due to others, but that’s not really a factor), but he also called some shots or was recognized to be in an authority position.

Nicholas - Nicholas played a very double agent type of game. He was with the majority, and also had those connections to the minority. He was part of an alliance that helped, and had a good early merge social game. I felt like it lacked near the end, and because he was perceived as a good strategic threat and was likeable with the ‘other side’ (that being Kai and Lily at the time), his demise came earlier than expected.

Willa - Willa played a great social game from the time he was here, but I felt like because he went earlier jury, I can’t compare it to other people’s games who offered more because of the time differences spent on the tribe. If Brian had not got captured, I think Willa could’ve made it slightly farther, but at the start of merge, he was a big threat in my eyes.

Kai - Kai, for his first game, did amazing. Much better than my first game. The only reason why I would say he is 6th on my list is because his social game was a little weaker, but that may just be in comparison to others. He didn’t have those solidified connections that secured him to go farther, which is why he placed fourth when he could’ve been final three. He did talk to me though, and was social, which is why he’s higher than a few others.

Adrian - Adrian created some tension at times, and wasn’t as social or fluent around the tribe. By ‘tension’, what i’m referring to was that he seemed to give attitude when the whole ‘Brian is a survivor player’ trickery happened, or wasn’t fully fun and happy about it. This, I believe, had a partial hand in his vote.

Gage - I felt like Gage was inactive, and lacked the social aspect of the game, which is by far the most critical when it comes to survivor.

Jaiden - Jaiden tried (to say the least…) and made moves that helped the minority (i.e idoling Dana out). Otherwise, his game was sloppy and erotic, and he had a temper - all contributing factors to his ultimate demise.

Jenna - Jenna is ranked at the bottom just because from the time we talked in the game, she never showed acknowledgement of what was going on, nor did she show that she cared about the game. In addition, she was technically voted off premerge.

Second question; this is quite hard to answer. Quite frankly, I want as many votes as I can because that’s the objective, but i’ll go through three people as wanted.

Firstly, Jenna. Jenna wasn’t really a part of the jury phase (she wasn’t, actually). She didn’t provide dedication or showed that she cared about the game as much as others - which lead to her being voted out premerge. I feel like her vote wouldn’t take into account everything that happened during the merge, which could a) play a critical factor in determining who should win, and b) wouldn’t validate a person’s gameplay as she didn’t experience it first-hand. I’m not sure who an alternative would be, as that reason is generally applicable to all.

Firstly, I guess Gage. Gage and I never really had a social connection, therefore i’d understand if he didn’t vote for me compared to someone who he may of have had a stronger connection with (i.e Dana). Obviously I would appreciate his vote, but in the end I don’t think I have it, nor do I think I deserve it based purely on social aspects with gage particularly. If he is willing to look at the big picture, sure, that’d be great, but I don’t think i’m as deserving in a social regard to him.

Second vote, let’s say… Nicholas. I don’t feel like I will get his vote, no matter how hard I try or how much I show reason. The other factor is that if people indirectly or directly vote for X because they’re influenced by social connections and friendships, that’d be hard with Nicholas, as he 1) stated he wasn’t going to be biased, which is respectable, and 2) he’s friends with all three of the finalists.

The third and final vote I would ‘not want’ would have to be yours honestly. This is tricky, actually. I guess it’s more about understanding if you didn’t vote for me to win. I know you vote based on gameplay, but if you voted for Dana and the fact that you two are close and great friends since a past ORG had significant influence, I truly wouldn’t be mad. I would understand because in a similar position, it can be hard to vote X over Y even though one has been your friend for a periodically longer time. It’s fairly certain who the alternative would be in this case.

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Now, onto your individual questions.

To begin, my “stupid” self was partially game, partially authentic. I’m naturally kind of a dumb person, so me not knowing history or anything that you ended up thinking was funny was my real personality, which shined through because we did grow extremely close. I also did play it up in terms of game, because I didn’t want to be seen as a strategic threat. So it’s neutral, I guess. I planned on talking to you purely for game, but then we developed a great, concrete friendship, and it became a great relationship, but I always kept in mind that you would not go against me, which helped my game.

Onto the second part of that first question, I was playing you, but at the same time I wasn’t. I do think our connection is true and valid, and I do want to be friends with you once the game is over, because you’re a great person and we connect fairly well. I did use our friendship though slightly to my benefit. I got you to tell me critical information that I could use for my benefit. You wanted to protect me, which stemmed from our friendship. You, in a way, killed your game so I could live, which came from my social game (which you implied). An example is when Nicholas was voted out, I played up how sad I was, as well as how hurt I was. Sure, it stung, but i’m a player and I recognize game moves and understood immediately why you and Dana flipped. However, I wanted you to feel sympathy for me, so you and Dana wouldn’t vote me out if the opportunity came around. This was effective as you yourself said “I didn’t want to hurt you more than I already did”, and also Dana told me you two struggled on voting me even though you recognized it was the smarter move. I wanted to present myself as vulnerable, and that if I were to ever be betrayed by y’alls, it would kill me and hurt me a lot. I didn’t play with your feelings directly, as I think that can be too much, but I did use the friendship to my benefit, even though it was truly authentic.

For your last individual question, I hate you - and this prompt. Okay, you did bring up good points, but in multiple calls I did say at some point or another that I understood why Michele deserved it - because at the end, the objective of the game is to win and gain the most votes, or at least more than your fellow finalists. It was more of a joking “AUBRY WAS ROBBED!” because as much as I loved her, you were right - she didn’t execute the objective of the game. To answer your question though, I don’t feel like Dana significantly played one way and I played another. We both had social and strategic games, so in this case, we both have a storyline. I think mine is more compelling as I started from a minority position, particularly a 7v5 (quickly then a 7v3) instance at the initiation of merge, and I worked my butt off to be here. Not only did I manage to make final three, but I took control of the game at points and ultimately became in a power position, which is hard to do and takes a lot of effort and emotional intelligence.

NOW, your final question, whew. You’re great and I already know your ego is gigantic. Overall, to “suck up” as much as possible, I think you played one of the best games, and you’re one of the most deserving people in the game that should have won. I love you as a person and regardless of how you vote, I understand and will still enjoy your presence.

BRIAN

Hey Brian! Regardless of your inequality of love, I still love you a lot as a friend and i’m hoping to continue our friendship outside the game.

I understand your dilemma. If I was in your situation, or one relative such as voting for X, who subjectively played a better game, or Y, a person who is my friend, I would have to think it thoroughly. In the end, personally, I would vote for who I objectively think played a better game.

Now, i’ll answer your question. The reason why I think you should vote for me is because friendships aside, I think I played a better game in different ways. I struggled to get where I am now, and I had to flip votes and build social connections with many people to ensure that I could stay around longer than my destined time. Outside of the obstacles I had to face to achieve my spot at FTC, I also gained authority and created power shifting alliances, and I believe I impacted the game impressively. I played a very middle game, where I kept people (including you) in the game because they were meat shields, and took out other people who weren’t as threatening visibly, but I considered a larger threat.

Concluding, we barely spoke, that is true. However, near the end, we spoke quite a bit, which I truthfully appreciated. In all honesty, I wish we talked more because we had some fun and thought provoking conversations, and that was mostly genuine. I am sorry that early merge our conversations lacked, and if that is the detrimental reason as to why you would not vote for me, then so be it. I’ll respect your decision, and still enjoy you as a person.

Thanks, Brian.

KAI

Hey Kai!

For your first question, the reason why I went from being in the bottom to final three is purely due to my social game and strategy. Once I realized I was in trouble at final 10 - after Jaiden and Adrian had left - I understood what I needed to do to improve my placement: become friends with people! From there, I developed relationships with you, Willa, Bodhi (who lead me to Dana) and even minor connections with Lily and Gage. Because I positioned myself greatly and developed such an authentic and strong connection with Bodhi and Willa, they both wanted to protect me and would inform me of what the majority was thinking. They both even offered to flip for me because I was social enough with them that a veil of trust was forged.

To not get caught being social with multiple people, including you and Lily at final 7, I would tell you both bits of information. I told Lily that Dana was going to manipulate her and act friendly, while I told Dana that I would talk to Lily about voting someone else instead. This was purely strategic as it made this wall of distrust between two potentially strong sides, and that you both would never communicate to realize that I was somewhat playing in the middle.

Other than Julia, my closest ally was Bodhi. Although I never knew him prior to this game, we really connected at the beginning of merge. I developed a real friendship with him that all started because I recognized I needed to be social. Our relationship became concrete enough that he would inform me of plans, alliances, etc., which is all vital information that I could use when necessary. He also connected me easier with Dana, which allowed my social game to expand even further than it was currently. This relationship was both vital for my game, and truly authentic.

Hope this answers your questions!

[survivorbahamas]

Julia’s Jury Answers

willa’s questions: Well, to be honest, I think me and Zach played completely different games that shouldn’t be compared. Although it seemed like Zach was always making the moves and controlling me, he really wasn’t. We were an obvious duo and always stuck together and always debated on what we should do. Most of the time, we ended up doing what I wanted…. It may not have seemed like it, but I believe you should vote for me because I played very unpredictable, no one knew what I was thinking (except for Zach, of course) and I always did what I wanted and what I thought was best. I think the reason that I am deserving to be in this position because I aligned myself with the right people at the right time. I tried as hard as possible to make myself the least threatening as possible. You see, every game I play, I always play super hard super fast and I make myself a HUGE threat and I get targeted and usually ending up getting anywhere from 4th-8th. I came into this game with the mindset of playing a really chill, relaxed game and I think I accomplished that. The reason you believed I didn’t care about the game is because I made it seem that way. Like I said, I tried to make myself the most least threatening person in the game, which isn’t true. Most of my time in this game was an act, I’m not an idiot. I’ve learned from playing many games, if you act like you don’t want to win or don’t care about the game, people will take you as far as possible and that’s exactly what happened so my strategy worked!!

adrian’s question: At the beginning of the game, the reason I said I was in a good position is because I was aligned with half of my tribe. I had an alliance with Jaiden, Kai, and Brian, and then I had my alliance of Rob, you, and Jaiden. Being in this position, I felt really safe. At this point in the game, I was on a tribe alone (meaning not with Nicholas and Zach) and I was able to form bonds and connections WITHOUT them. This was the point where I felt I really didn’t need to try/up my social game anymore, especially with merge being soon and joining Nicholas and Zach. I didn’t want to go into merge with people viewing me as a threat.

lily’s question: Well, I tried to position myself in the middle but unfortunately it didn’t really work because I had a difficult time connecting with everyone. I felt like Dana was in the best position at the merge because of how she was close with Nicholas and Brian, the people I wanted to get the closest to, so she hindered my game more than helped it. With that being said, I knew about Jaiden’s sapphire idol and I convince him to use it to get rid of Dana. Jaiden was a close ally of mine and I manipulated him to get farther because I knew nobody would respect him in the end which is why he was the perfect person to beat, and that is why I remained loyal until the end of his game and I always knew he would be loyal to me. I also tried to be under the radar as possible because I knew everyone already underestimated me.

bodhi’s questions: I would say I wouldn’t want the votes of yours, just because I’m literally next to your best friend so I wasn’t getting it anyway. Gage because I forget he’s in jury most of the time. And Jenna, just because we were never on the same tribe so I never actually did get to work with her, although she’s a great gal. I do believe I can win, but I don't think that the jury understands the game that I played enough to grant me the win. I truly believe that there is a chance for me to still prove to everybody else that I played a worthy game, and while it's not what everybody wants to see, I think it worked for me. Although I didn’t play an amazing game like you did, Bodhi, but I believe my game is underestimated.

kai’s questions: To me, the "goat" definition means something different than what it might mean to everybody else. The goat is just the person that somebody drags to the end because they think that they can beat me. I made myself the lowest threat in the game, while not necessarily damaging my chances at getting to the end and having a case to present to the jury. I made it clear that was my position because I wanted everybody to think I wasn't doing anything. I deserve to be in this particular final three, because if Dana could be voted out and come back on an extremely unfair twist then shouldn't everybody deserve it?

nicholas’ question: Like I stated in Lily’s question, I convinced Jaiden to get rid of Dana using his sapphire idol because I knew you would choose her over me and Zach (which you did). Also during the earlier parts of the game, I convinced Jaiden to use his chaos idol to get rid of this man named CHIPS because he was after me!! I would probably end of voting for Zach just because Dana literally was evicted from this game but I love voting for women,,,,

brian’s question I wouldn't say that my entire game in a summary was that I pissed off the least number of people, but instead that I slithered through every single week of the game not being anybody's primary target. Nobody wanted to waste a tribal council on taking out somebody they perceived to be their weakest enemy in the game because there was always somebody more significant to get rid of. I believe that some of the incorrect votes I cast this season didn't affect my game, which normally would hurt everybody else. There was still a strategy behind casting myself as everybody's "goat", and I think my strongest asset at this final tribal council is proving that I was just as worthy an opponent as everyone else. Most of my strategic game wasn’t shown and I made sure people underestimated me. Jenna's question:

[survivorbahamas]

Jenna’s Jury Speech

dana: my question is how ru so pretty

zach: ok u know i love u but i have a vote to use and idk how to use it SO convince me in 140 characters (the size of a tweet) why i should vote for you

julia rae: convince me to vote for you in one meme

[survivorbahamas]

Brian’s Jury Speech

Hey I did what did the whole game and left this to the last minute so please just know I love each of you a non-equal amount and can see you each played very different and therefor non-equally impressive games but I hope we can all be friends when the season is over. Zach, we barely spoke so why should I vote for you over someone I consider a friend? Dana, I’m sure you’ve already addressed having been voted out and brought back why on earth should I vote for you when I am the one who brought you back and you then tried to vote me out over and over while you talked loyalty and seeing the best players at the end. Julia, There not a ton of game to address so can you explain why it would be okay to win just because you pissed the fewest people off?

[survivorbahamas]

Nicholas’s Jury Speech

Hi guys! First of all congratulations on making it to this part of the game! You all played very diverse games and I am excited to watch this unfold. I want to start off by saying that I have played a ton of survivor games and this has by far been my favorite game from start to finish. From meme-ing around while I was in the game to getting to know the members of the jury better and bonding with them it has been a great experience.

After the speeches, know that my vote is 100% up in the air and will definitely depend on how you all answer the questions I ask and your responses to the other jurors’ questions. Also, before I make my statements know that just because I am friends with Zach and Julia does not mean that I am more willing to vote for them. As far as I am concerned they have a harder job proving themselves to me in order to earn my vote.

DANA:

Hey queen! So it’s no secret that Bodhi has been doing a fair amount of campaigning for you in jury and for me, it has muddied the waters a bit. I’d like to go ahead and ask you a few questions about your game that I feel were not answered in your speech. But before I ask your questions I do want to say that I didn’t know you coming into this game and even if you did play me like bobo the fool I did enjoy getting to know you! Your mist is strong! That being said I have a few questions for you:

1. My first question is very simple. If you were on jury and had to vote between Bodhi, Lily and Kai who would you cast your vote for? When I was blindsided by you and voted off those were my top three to vote for the win so please tell me who you would choose to vote for in a 1,2,3 order and then give me a short reason as to why you give them those placements.

2. My second and final question to you is the more important one! It is clear that you played a very flip-floppy game where you flipped to the side that benefitted you the most, which is something I can admire despite being screwed over by your strategy. You were nice to everyone and you were very likable so I want to give you a chance to drop the nice facade. I want you to say one mean thing about each of the jurors. You can either insult them, their gameplay, whatever you want, but make it good.

JULIA:

I mean it’s pretty obvious that you are a goat in this scenario, but in my book you also deserve a chance to plea your case to the jury since you obviously made it further than us all and got to FTC. I have two questions for you:

1. Was there anything that you did in this game that was solely your decision and not dictated to you?

2. If you had to cast a vote between Dana and Zach who would you vote for and why?

ZACH:

Hello Zach. I have a few questions for you.

1. So I think it needs to be said that you came into this game with countless connections [Me, Julia, Jaiden, Adrian, Jenna] that lasted long either to merge or shortly before. In my eyes this does not equate to a social game. Do you think you would honestly have made it to FTC without these connections?

2. You said in your speech that you were seen as a flower but acted like a snake, but I just don’t see it. You often complained that I was playing all sides early merge and that you and Julia were going to be screwed when I flipped on the Adrian revote because I wanted to play my own game and not play for you and Julia. What I want to know is what exactly did you do to qualify as a snake or puppet master and how exactly did you do it? Please cite at least two specific examples.

[survivorbahamas]

Bodhi’s Jury Speech

Hello  finalists. I love you all. I don't have that much of a speech, because you all know general ideas of what I would say. However I do have questions, because I'm concerned with picking the right person to win.

My first question is to all three of you: rank the games of all of the jurors, finalists, and Jaiden from best to worst. Provide reasons where you believe the are necessary.

My next question is also to all of you. Pick 3 jurors who you do NOT want the votes of. Explain why you don't want them to vote for you, and suggest an alternative for them.

Julia, here's my first individual question: do you think you can win?

Next question! Dana, you and I both have done debate. Lincoln-Douglas is EASILY the best format, so I'd like for you to state a criterion for what the jury should vote upon, and apply it however you can as proof for why you should win.

Hi Zach. This question is for you. Did you play up being stupid as a game move? You and I grew pretty damn close through this game, and while I came in with Dana as a great friend, you joined her up there in being one of the people I am closest to. Your social game was amazing, and I want to know what parts you were playing me on. If you had not gotten me to flip at final 10, the game is entirely different, but you were great enough at this game to save your ass exactly when you needed to.

Back to you Julia. When Zach got me to flip, you were in the same call. Can you explain why you were so distant? The deal that determined your being at the game happened right under your nose, but I'm not sure if you quite realized it. This is not a dig at you, because you're a lovely human being, but it's absolutely a dig at your game.

Hi Dana, back to you. How much did you use me after our deal the day before you were voted off? Near the end I started to suspect that you were manipulating me into keeping Brian around even though it was a terrible call for my game, and I want you to confirm or deny your authenticity with me.

Zach, we frequently argued whether Aubry was robbed or not (she wasn't). The reason for this argument is obviously that Aubry winning would've made a better story-line for Survivor the TV show. So how can you justify letting Dana lose along a story-line perspective? How can your win be made into a compelling story for this season?

Here's one last final question just to fit in with my massive ego this season: please suck up to me as much as you possibly can and say great things about how I played this game.

[survivorbahamas]

Kai’s Jury Speech

Dana:

1) who's idea was it to flip? Yours or Bodhis? 2) why did I have to initiate all the conversations if you were such a 'social player'?

Zach: 1) how did you manage to get from bottom of the tribe to final 3? 2) other than Julia who would you say was your closest ally?

Julia: 1) near the end of the game you said to me that you wanted to play the goat, you also said you also have a small opportunity of winning this game? How did you plan to win being a goat? 2) do you think you deserve to be in the final 3?

[survivorbahamas]

Lily’s Jury Speech

Congrats final 3! This was a fantastic game and I really can’t wait for this tribal thing to be over with so we can all be best friends in the reunion chat. The three of you have outlasted all of us Queens on jury, but I need you all to explain to me why you outwitted and out played because honestly y’all were a hot mess so feel free to write me a novel. I look forward to reading it. Julia, You know I love you and think you are fabulous, but you seemed to hide behind Zach and Nicholas which is an okay strategy…but hard to reward you with my vote for just having enough human shields. My question for you is, what did you do? Because I know how many conversations we had in this game and it really doesn’t give me much to work with. Love you Beautiful, Lily Zach, You played a pretty much flawless game considering you were riding the bottom for so damn long. It really is impressive especially since so many of us consider you to be a social and challenge threat. I wish I had betrayed my alliance and worked with you, Julia, and Nicholas because I think I would have made it at least a little farther in the game. My vote currently rests in your hands so do everything you can to keep it because I know Dana is going to fight for this. My question for you is, which votes were most critical to your game and your advancement? And would you have done anything differently to possibly improve your game? With love and respect, Lily Miss Dana, Your game was dramatic and manipulative. It was great but also filled with backstabbing, lying, and overall a big waste of my time. I have a challenge for you, it is called the #WasteHerTime2017 Challenge. I would like you to analyze our conversations and post the messages where you wasted my damn time. I want time stamps. You may write and include anything you would like about the messages you post. These messages should include times where you had unnecessary strategic conversations with me, or lied to me. Bonus question, what was the point of an alliance if you aren’t going to be loyal what so ever? I don’t see how it didn’t benefit you, taking advantage of everyone in that alliance is the ONLY reason you are in the final. I don’t like rewarding this kind of game play, but feel you did play a strong game. You will need to do a lot of convincing if you are going to get my vote or anyone else’s. You should win this game with respect, loyalty, and without wasting my damn time, but here we are. With harsh love, Lily

Congrats to all of you for making it to FTC. I can’t say this isn’t at all the final three that I was expecting, but I’ve said this to many people. Anyone could win this game, you have all worked hard. Now is your time to prove it.

[survivorbahamas]

Adrian’s Jury Speech

Speech: Well well, I have been out of this game for quite some time, so I'm gonna need a lot of convincing for me to write your name down on a parchment tonight for a winner.

So lets begin:

Julia, you claim you had some social game, but really I didn't see it. Well, maybe I didn't recognize it because you were so UTR and you had to really wait for the last minute to cast your vote, since you were never really on to talk game for like the first part of the game. But I will give you the credit where credit is due because its got you to this point, where you still look ratty, disgusting and smell oddly disturbing, while 9 of us are looking our finest grilling you all. You did that.

Now for you, what I want from you is: what decisions did you make when it came down to the jury members? Cause I've been 2nd juror, then bumped down to 1st juror, and now made 2nd juror once again, and as I have stated earlier, I have been out for quite some time, so I need details on what moves put you in a power position.

Zach, I swore I said this once back in February, and that is I will never ever write your name down on a parchment if you made it to the end. And dammit, whatever ratesque strategy you have always seems to work. Come to think of it, Bodhi is the only person advocating for you to win, and with your opening speech, I may have to break my personal vow and never write your name down for a win again. We were aligned the moment we swapped to Cigarette 2.0 and all I want to know, what pressured you to flip on me the tribal I went out? Like, I know Nicholas and his reason, and as ratty as he was then, we had a chance to hash it out. You not so much cause you're still in the game. Why?

Dana. Senora Dana. Como estas? Bien? Sólo para mi diversión personal, voy a pedirte mi parte en español, y quiero que respondas en español. Bueno? Primero, ¿cómo fueron los tres días libres del juego cuando se votó? Seguramente fue un buen descanso del desorden que Jaiden y Bodhi son correctos. En segundo lugar, ¿cómo te sentiste cuando se notó que ibas a tener una segunda oportunidad en este juego debido a un ídolo muy poderoso? ¿Cuándo y cómo reaccionó cuando se le dijo que le dieron una segunda oportunidad? En tercer lugar, recuerdo que dijiste que tenías un ídolo en el bolsillo cuando te fuiste. ¿Que le paso a eso? Cuarta cosa, ¿cómo utilizó su segunda oportunidad? No confío en una palabra que salga de la boca de Bodhi cuando todo estaba en Ponderosa, y sólo necesito una confirmación de que usted serpenteaba a la gente de izquierda a derecha. Responda todas esas preguntas individuales a lo mejor de sus habilidades. Gracias.