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ALL THE AUGUST TC SHIT I’VE MISSED OUT ON SHIT GUYS

17. How long does he/she now teach on your school? How long do you know him/her or have him/her in a class?

Oh shit I don’t think I know how long he’s actually taught. he’s 32ish and he’s been a teacher (not at this school) since he graduated so I think 8 or 9 years? I’ve taken his class since I was a freshmen. 

18. Tell us one random thing that happened with your tc and that you’ll never forget.

That one time my freshman year he hugged me and made me feel better :)

19. Standard: What does he/she teach? Bonus: If it’s just one subject: What else do you think should he/she teach? If it are two subjects: Which one does he/she teach you? If you have to choose one, in which one would you rather like to get teach by him/her?

He is our theater teacher. It’s actually a theater history class technically because we don’t have “art classes” anymore (our other options being art history and music theory like these are collage electives or some shit) but sometimes he lets us play improv games in class (like if we are ahead of schedule or he straight up doesn’t feel like teaching) so since he is a “history teacher” I guess that would be his second subject to teach. 

Also the other teacher that does club with us is one of our science teachers but she minored in theater so she offered to help with club when she started working here 3 years ago but my first year here it was just Mr. C and it was only his second year at our school. 

20. Did you like the subject that he/she teaches you before he/she began to teach you in this class? Or did he/she arouse interest for you in their class?

My grandma taught me how to sew so when my mom wanted me to join a club I thought I’d join the theater club and I decided to enter the theater class and now I keep taking the class because even tho I know the material I wanted to hang around Mr. C so he sometimes has me help other class mates and lead improv games. I think I am the only person that has taken his class multiple times but no other electives excite me and I always have room for one so. 

21. Would you say your tc is the hottest teacher on school? :P

I would say so but he wasn’t always the hottest because for one year we had a female american history teacher who was really hot. There was a rumor she used to be a lingerie model but I never saw any pictures of here modeling lingerie but she also never came back the next year so maybe? I didn’t develop a crush on her tho because while she was really hot I didn’t have her class so I didn’t know what she was like and some people said she was kind of a hard ass so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

22. If you were able to tell your tc about everything without getting into trouble with your school, would you do it? Would you tell him/her the whole truth?

I would just to get it off my chest. I’m considering doing just that on my last day of school so at least I never have to see him again so it won’t be to uncomfortable but who knows. 

23. Name an object that always reminds you of your tc.

Frisbes. 

24. Ever had a crush on a celebrity, older than you, before or beside your tc? (On who was it?)

Hugh Jackman, John Stamos and Idris Elba are my older celeb crushes, they are good actors and also very hot. John Stamos specifically I’ve probably liked since I was a little kid watching full house. 

25. Is there a teacher you love in a different way than your tc?

My math teachers Mrs. R and my consular Ms. B have always been there for me (so much so that Mrs. R is like my second mom) and also my old Spanish teacher he was a nice man (he’s retired now) and also Ms. Snake (which is what I’m gonna call her because she has a snake in her class room not because she’s a snake lol) who helps out with theater club

26. Do you know his/her handwriting? Do you like it? (If you want to and if it’s okay for you, post a pic of something your tc has written, for example in your folder etc.)

It’s okay, he writes in a print/ cursive mix and some words are hard to read but most of the time I can see what it says so good enough

27. Tell us about one funny thing he/she has done while you were NOT in class!

He likes making jokes in club if that counts, also he always dresses in the theme of the musical we are doing the day he’s going to announce it in club so my sophomore year we did beauty and the beast so he came in one of the creepy pug masks and a cried.

28. Would you say your tc is a good teacher? Do you like his/her teaching style?

Yeah he’s alright. He let’s us use notes on our tests so he makes sure we are focusing and taking notes for when he is teaching, we usually have the last 10 minutes to chill and talk. 

29. Ever met your tc privately? Or saw him/her outside of school?

Yes I have a few times.

30. Does somebody around you know about your feelings for him/her?

Yeah two of my friends know and they think I’m weird, neither of them know about this blog tho. 

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Okay so it’s been a hot minute guys. We started theater club activities yesterday kind of, and we have some new freshmen so up comes the “is Mr. C gay?” question because all men in theater must be gay I guess. I have wondered the same thing and if he was gay it wouldn’t matter because no matter what I probably don’t have a chance with my TC. Usually he doesn’t comment on it and people think really sets that idea in stone for people because we do kinda live in a conservative town, like 3/4ths of our school is white kids and I’d say 3/4ths of those kids come from conservative families (I’m included in that but I don’t aline with my parents conservative values) so if he was gay he wouldn’t openly talk about it. Where this story leads is today I decided to skip math class and I’m sitting in the consolers office (she doesn’t mind if I hang out here she’s really chill also I do really good in math so she isn’t worried, probably not even my math teacher cares this is like the second year I’ve had her she knows I do good) but Mr. C came in to talk to the office to print something so I slipped out for a second to say hi to him. I than brought up club and said the rumor came up again that he’s gay. I say people bring it up because he’s older, in theater and not married and he said he’s not gay but he probably will never get married I didn’t want to pry more than that because I didn’t want to come off as rude but that sounds like he has commitment issues which actually makes the most sense to me, he could also be BI like me but not fully gay and not a man that likes to settle down. Also the wishful thinker in me wants to just think he hasn’t met the right person and that when I’m 20 I can be that person :) 

Anyway I just wanted to get on to tell you guys that, I lied and said I’m working on english right now because Ms. B (what I’m gonna call my consoler) wants me to at least work on something else if I’m gonna skip. 

Anyway I hope you guys have been enjoying the school year, things already feel hectic for me because it’s my senior year also I sometimes forget I have this blog rip. 

TTYL!

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My first day of classes was yesterday but while I did see my TC yesterday but we have and A day B day schedule and we can’t start club activities until next week so I only actually had a class with C today which is what I really wanted to talk about. On the first day of class he always does the same ice breaker where we take a survey and than talk to someone next to us about our answers than we basically do nothing until class ends so I decided to talk to C during that time asking him about the rest of his summer and he remembered I went to see family and asked me about that. He also asked me if I was gonna run for any thespian positions since we need both a new president and vice president since the last two graduated. I might run for Vice President who knows. 

That’s all I really had to say I guess I was more excited to see him yesterday even tho I only saw him for a few minutes. Also I fucked up my foot yesterday and I’m tired so bye.

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August TC Day 16

16. What was the first thought you ever had about your tc?

I think it was “wow he’s tall”. I’m a small person but he’s taller than average, at least 6 feet tall. He was greeting people at the door on my first day of class which is why I remembered his height. And he shook my hand it was big. I wish he was holding my hand right now because stupid drama is giving me anxiety. 

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you helped me find the good in myself

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Teacher Crush August Challenge Days 1-15 because I was busy and also lowkey forgot about this blog whoops

1. Short start: Name three words that always reminds you of your tc.

Frisbee, Theater, Love

2. Do you go to school at the moment (summer break)? Have you graduated? If not, when will you go to school again? Do you know when/whether you will see your tc again?

I start school August 20th so I’ll see him Monday unless we run into each other out in the wild before than

3. What happened in the last dream with your tc in it?

I had a dream we were in a cabin in the forest but Saizo from Fire Emblem Fates was also there for some reason and I think I was running away from Saizo? don’t remember much else.

4. Would you describe him/her as a crush or a love?

I wanna say crush just because I’m young and naive but I think about him so much that I’m not sure...

5. Finish the sentence “Having a tc is…”

Interesting. But it feels so right...

6. Do you remember when you first dreamed about him/her? (What happened in that dream?)

Uh it was a dream I had before I started having feelings for him and we were at school and I was skipping his class? I don’t remember that too much but that was the first high school dream I had so

7. Did he/she ever did something that make you think like “What? You are able to do this?” (I hope you understand what I mean ^^)

He can juggle, not that well but one of classmates gave him a stress ball and he started juggling so I didn’t expect that. I guess I was also surprised he played frisbee golf if that counts.

8. The color that reminds you of your tc? How does this color relate to him/her?

Blue probably because it’s his favorite also a dark blue is classy like him.

9. Please describe his/her character and if you want to, his/her teaching style.

He is a laid back teacher but more strict with club stuff. He is supportive of his students and wants them to succeed but if he needs to discipline someone he won’t pull his punches. I could talk for hours about more of his character stuff but I’m tired lol.

10. When you think about him/her, do you think about *his/her forename* or about *Mr./Ms./Mrs. …*?

I think this is asking if I see myself as a Mrs. C and yeah I think about it sometimes. He has a cool last name and it sounds well with my real name.

11. Finish the sentence “My tc is my…”

Kind but not a doormat, classy but not a snob. He’s perfect.

12. Tell us about your weirdest dream you had with your tc in it.

Probably that one in the cabin just because it also involved a fictional character and I usually never have dreams with fictional characters in it. This isn’t apart of the question but once he embraced me in a dream and all day I could still feel the feel of his arms around me just from the dream. 

13. Name a line/lyric part from a song that just fits perfect to your tc situation.

So I'll wait for you, I'll pray

I will keep on waiting for your love

For you, I'll wait

I will keep on waiting for you

The song is 1950 by King Princess and I know it’s a song about lesbians but I like the song and it fits with me waiting until I’m older for my TC. Check this song out and this artist, their shit it good and this song is great.

14. Your favorite song/soundtrack when it comes up to your tc?

I don’t usually relate songs to people, maybe one day we can have a special song? C is more educated in music than I am too tbh. I just listen to whatever.

15. If you were able to dress your tc, what would you let them wear?

Lol my weeb as would make him do couples cosplay with me. Also just because usually his look is business casual at school or tee shirts and jeans when he’s working on a set or something I’d like to him in either a full tux or a Hawaiian shit don’t ask why fam. 

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August TC Challenge

Hey guys, so I hope there is no other August TC Challenge, if it’s like that, just ignore this :P If not, I really hope you enjoy this challenge! 

1. Short start: Name three words that always reminds you of your tc.

2. Do you go to school at the moment (summer break)? Have you graduated? If not, when will you go to school again? Do you know when/whether you will see your tc again?

3. What happened in the last dream with your tc in it?

4. Would you describe him/her as a crush or a love?

5. Finish the sentence “Having a tc is…”

6. Do you remember when you first dreamed about him/her? (What happened in that dream?)

7. Did he/she ever did something that make you think like “What? You are able to do this?” (I hope you understand what I mean ^^)

8. The colour that reminds you of your tc? How does this colour relate to him/her?

9. Please describe his/her character and if you want to, his/her teaching style.

10. When you think about him/her, do you think about *his/her forename* or about *Mr./Ms./Mrs. …*?

11. Finish the sentence “My tc is my…”

12. Tell us about your weirdest dream you had with your tc in it.

13. Name a line/lyric part from a song that just fits perfect to your tc situation.

14. Your favourite song/soundtrack when it comes up to your tc?

15. If you were able to dress your tc, what would you let them wear?

16. What was the first thought you ever had about your tc?

17. How long does he/she now teach on your school? How long do you know him/her or have him/her in a class?

18. Tell us one random thing that happened with your tc and that you’ll never forget.

19. Standard: What does he/she teach? Bonus: If it’s just one subject: What else do you think should he/she teach? If it are two subjects: Which one does he/she teach you? If you have to choose one, in which one would you rather like to get teach by him/her?

20. Did you like the subject that he/she teaches you before he/she began to teach you in this class? Or did he/she arouse interest for you in their class?

21. Would you say your tc is the hottest teacher on school? :P

22. If you were able to tell your tc about everything without getting into trouble with your school, would you do it? Would you tell him/her the whole truth?

23. Name an object that always reminds you of your tc.

24. Ever had a crush on a celebrity, older than you, before or beside your tc? (On who was it?)

25. Is there a teacher you love in a different way than your tc?

26. Do you know his/her handwriting? Do you like it? (If you want to and if it’s okay for you, post a pic of something your tc has written, for example in your folder etc.)

27. Tell us about one funny thing he/she has done while you were NOT in class!

28. Would you say your tc is a good teacher? Do you like his/her teaching style?

29. Ever met your tc privately? Or saw him/her outside of school?

30. Does somebody around you know about your feelings for him/her?

31. And last but not least(!): If your tc is/was teaching you, how long has it took you to realise you have feelings for him/her? If he/she is not, how long did you just saw him/her in the halls until you realised you have feelings for him/her?

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I’m just gonna reblog this because I forgot the main reason I even logged on today. I went on a date (not with my teacher crush of course T-T).

This guy did theater with me and graduated and was about to go off to collage. We talk on discord sometimes and he was moving into his collage soon so I went on a date with him the day before he left. We walked around the local mall and he bought me a manga I wanted so I let him hold my hand. Also he drove so when he dropped me off his kissed me (it’s not my first kiss, I had given my first kiss away before I met my TC). I went on a date with him because he was nice enough and I knew he liked me, but we don’t really have the same sense of humor. We only ever really talked because he was one of the only theater kids that also liked anime but he’s kind of a weeb. We accidentally ran into a guy and I said sorry and than he said sorry in Japanese and I let go of his hand and walked away because he is a lanky half white half latino boy speaking Japanese miss me with that weeb shit man. I eventually let him hold my hand again because I remembered he bought me Rin Kagamine manga because I’m broke. 

I agreed to go on this date because I felt like I should do things with guys around my age because I’m 95% sure C won’t return my feelings but I just kept thinking of C the whole time wishing he was the one with me. God I need some help.

I saw an August teacher crush challenge and I’m 15 days behind but I’mm do 15 in one post and try to keep up doing it every day until this month is over. 

An Update

I haven’t really been on this blog since I saw C at my friends play. I am usually on my main blog but I won’t link it here because I don’t wanna mix my personal blog and my secret teacher loving blog together. Also school starts school starts for me Monday and I’m super hyped! My mom has seen my hype and she told me she admires my drive to learn. I do well in school but I’m more interested in seeing my friends and TC again. 

Anyway I went to Florida for vacation, for privacy I won’t say what part of Florida my family is in but it’s a nice town and we were there for a week and we left like right after my 17th birthday. Ugh one more year until I’m 18 and than an extra year until I pass that “you can date your teacher now” age. Speaking of birthday my mom posted something for my birthday on facebook and she is friends with C on there and he left a heart on the photo <3 I was really happy! 

Okay so family stuff. Anyway it was nice seeing my family. My aunt and uncle never had any kids but when they still lived near us (they moved away two years ago for my uncles work) but they treat my sister and I like their own kids. She didn’t want me to be held inside with my devices so much so we watched a lot of movies together, went to some cools places and we went to Hollywood Studios one day, it was about and hour or two from where we stayed with our aunt and uncle and we were there all day so it was tiring but fun. Another fun thing I did was sew with my aunt, she was the one who got me into sewing and she works real estate as her main job but she sews and even sells her stuff in her free time. I also swam a lot they had a pool and I played with their big old doggo Hubba Bubba (who we all just call bubba, I don’t know why they named him that tbh maybe because his nose is pink?)

Now I’m back home and I finished my summer homework like a good little girl so I’ve been watching a lot of youtube videos and also watching the rest of my friends suffer while they just now start their homework.  

When school starts again I’ll be more active here because I’ll be with C again. I hope everyone enjoys the new school year!

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Thursday….

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A middle school in Achille, Oklahoma is closed following violent threats by parents on social media against Maddie, a 12-year-old transgender student who identifies as female and used the girls’ bathroom.

Maddie had been using the staff bathroom at her old school but used the girls’ bathroom at the new school because she wasn’t sure where the staff bathroom was. She was then accused of peeping under a bathroom stall. Her mother said it was probably because she “leans very far forward to use the bathroom.”

Then the threats began on a private parents’ Facebook group for the school. The parents called Maddie “it” and “thing”, suggested that her genitalia be mutilated to make her female (“a good sharp knife will do the job real quick”). One said it was “hunting season on them kind” and said there was “no bag limit.”

Maddie’s mother Brandy Rose said she fears for her life: “These are adults making threats– I don’t understand it. She’s an awesome kid. To see any fear in her, I can’t explain how bad that hurts me for them to hurt her.”

KXII reports: “The sheriff said the mother filed a protective order against one parent but no other arrests have been made, however several agencies including the FBI are stepping in to see if any comments constitute a hate crime.”

See the screenshots:

Sorry to say this but if we have to think about whether or not threatening to cut a 12 year old child is a hate crime means there is no hope for us. What has this nation become when it’s citizens feel they have a right to threaten minorities with no fear of repercussion. The only ringing heard now is the death knell of freedom..

Savages…

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An Update

I haven’t really been on this blog since I saw C at my friends play. I am usually on my main blog but I won’t link it here because I don’t wanna mix my personal blog and my secret teacher loving blog together. Also school starts school starts for me Monday and I’m super hyped! My mom has seen my hype and she told me she admires my drive to learn. I do well in school but I’m more interested in seeing my friends and TC again. 

Anyway I went to Florida for vacation, for privacy I won’t say what part of Florida my family is in but it’s a nice town and we were there for a week and we left like right after my 17th birthday. Ugh one more year until I’m 18 and than an extra year until I pass that “you can date your teacher now” age. Speaking of birthday my mom posted something for my birthday on facebook and she is friends with C on there and he left a heart on the photo <3 I was really happy! 

Okay so family stuff. Anyway it was nice seeing my family. My aunt and uncle never had any kids but when they still lived near us (they moved away two years ago for my uncles work) but they treat my sister and I like their own kids. She didn’t want me to be held inside with my devices so much so we watched a lot of movies together, went to some cools places and we went to Hollywood Studios one day, it was about and hour or two from where we stayed with our aunt and uncle and we were there all day so it was tiring but fun. Another fun thing I did was sew with my aunt, she was the one who got me into sewing and she works real estate as her main job but she sews and even sells her stuff in her free time. I also swam a lot they had a pool and I played with their big old doggo Hubba Bubba (who we all just call bubba, I don’t know why they named him that tbh maybe because his nose is pink?)

Now I’m back home and I finished my summer homework like a good little girl so I’ve been watching a lot of youtube videos and also watching the rest of my friends suffer while they just now start their homework.  

When school starts again I’ll be more active here because I’ll be with C again. I hope everyone enjoys the new school year!

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Sorry I’m not really active here I’m usually on my personal tumblr. But I wanted to rant here that I know all my anger with my mom is just teenage angst shit and it’s hard raising kids but I feel like I’m suffocating in this house. It was okay when my sister used to live with us but now she’s in collage and my dad is always at work or watching TV in the bedroom so being with my mom is suffocating and she has anger problems that have basically ruined her marriage but my parents only tolerate living in this house together because of me but I’m in love with my god damn teacher so if they were worried about the affects of an absent dad to late I guess. (Even though my TC could theoretically be my dad he would be a very young dad). I wish I could go to my TC, I wouldn’t try to break any boundaries but if I could go to his house, eat a meal together and have fun talking together and playing with his dog maybe I’d maybe feel better. 

Also I kind of have no friends right now because I was tired with my friends group drama so I left our group chat but it would be pathetic to ask to come back because I’m lonely. I’m just so tired of being young. I want to be an adult so people will take me seriously and I won’t have to live in this house anymore and I’d maybe even have a chance with my TC once I’m 20 if I play my cards right and he doesn’t get a girl friend. I know it will be hard and I should treasure my youth but even my grandma has told me she would rather stay 75 than go back to being me and my sisters age (17- early 20′s) because it was hard because she didn’t know what she wanted to do with her life an honestly same.

Also I’m crying and all of this started because I broke that thing that goes on top of our toilet because we were having issues with the guest toilet and my mom just laid the thing against a little chair thing we had in there like I barely bumped it I shouldn’t have been surprised that would happen. 

On the bright side I bought a new route on voltage love 365 and I liked it. It was Baba’s route from KBTBB he was the only one out of the main 5 bidders who’s main route I hadn’t played. 

Rant over sorry for being an edgy teen.