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creating a yellowjackets verse for saren and yeah she would be one of lottie’s devoted followers without hesitation

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what if this was a meme call except i haven’t finished my muse list so it really is just a surprise of who you’ll get

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@tesserv　—　closed starter.

“ up an adam. it's time to get your sorry ass up. ”　there's no stopping heavy boots thumping along wooden planks as she moves to pry apart curtains, the sun only just beginning to ascend as the snow starts to melt, spring just around the corner to remind her of the burst of energy that was now absent from her life. after all, it was eugene's favourite time of year to plant new seeds, swearing he'll have each plant overflowing before summer even begins.

　　　　　　　　[how that idiot managed to be right every single time is what made her first fall foolishly in love]

“ if i can get my own sorry ass up after losing my husband, then so can you. we're taking an early morning walk, grab your boots. ”

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what if you liked this for a starter from gail

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“ that’s what happens? ”　she repeats, allowing each word to sit on her tongue and ruminate, the depths of despair seeking out much darker eyes almost in disbelief.　“ that’s what happens to people you hardly know, emily. but not with us, not after everything we’ve been through. ”　there’s an uncomfortable ache stuck beneath her ribcage that grows tighter and tighter with each second that passes, because really, she knows this. after all she's endured, all she's lost over the years　　—　　it would always end the same, it would never remain.

“ why the hell wouldn’t i fight it? this isn’t some high school friendship i'm trying to salvage. this is us. ”　her sight remained fixated on the other, taking in each of emily's features that have grown softer in age.　[where had the years gone?]　“ when did you stop? ”　when did you stop loving me?　it falls before she has time to think it through, startling herself as her pulse plummets while trying to save fate.

　“ when did i become somebody you stopped letting in? ”

@svnbleach said: ❛  i feel like we're drifting apart, and no matter how hard i try, i can't stop it.  ❜ / for emily from jj

the surprise doesn't come from the words themselves, it comes from the fact that the blonde noticed. of course she'd notice, she's a profiler after all.

it took more effort than it should have to not point out how long it was when the distance started.

she'd put physical distance between them after the wedding, giving herself a realistic chance at being with someone that wasn't unavailable.

every option she came across made her want to bury herself further into the work she left the bau for. it was easier than dealing with what she was running from now, that she'd missed her chance.

it left an ache inside her to this day, with blue eyes giving her the illusion of hope with every look. she learned years ago that jennifer jareau was the one person she read wrong time and time again. that's what happened when she saw what she wanted to see, not what was actually there.

❛ that's what happens over time. it's not like you need to fight it, jj. ❜

her gaze averted and tone defeated as she reached for another file on her desk, she'd given up resolving the distance years ago. to be close to jj again was to remember what she'd never have.

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what if this was a meme call except i haven’t finished my muse list so it really is just a surprise of who you’ll get

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it hurts beyond recognition; waking up to look in the mirror and not recognise the person she’s become　　—　　what has she become if not who she was always destined to be? after all, weren't those parts already nestled between the gaps of her cage just desperate to be freed? because life is tantalisingly cruel to her and her alone, forced to revisit the unbearable ache inside, all the loss in her life that had turned her bitter. her own husband out of her grasp, another ring around his finger, a baby on the way to replace the one they’ve lost. even the way katie looked at her made her skin crawl. the only thing that hadn't changed, that would never change, was gina.

“ but i need you. ”　amy’s voice cracks, and there’s no hiding the way her face contorts, decades worth of pain she can’t run or hide from.　(not anymore)　　“ i need… ”　she pauses, swallowing back the heavy lump in her throat that makes her eyes burn. it’s always what she needs, never the other way round. she can’t blame gina when all she's ever done is push, push, push.　“ i can’t lose you too. i can’t. ”

@svnbleach said: ❛  it's all my fault, isn't it? i ruin everything i touch.  ❜ / for gina from amy

her lips purse at the question. despite everything that amy did to other people, she would always look past it. amy needed her, regardless if she'd ever admit it.

her only goal has been to protect amy since the accident, there were some things that were better for both of them to forget.

hearing about jake, it stung because nothing good would come from gina telling her the past. amy wasn't going to change her mind, and if she did, things were different and she had someone. someone good enough for her to stay with, some that was worth it.

amy's marriage was done before anything started between them, but her marriage was still in tact. far from perfect, but there was still a window to repair it.

until amy got her hopes up, until they both left their marriages and amy changed her mind.

❛ i just need space and my wife. ❜ her new wife, that she could lose if she kept slipping back into the trap that amy would set with any vulnerability.

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