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sweatgrass · 1 day ago

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Why does a hotel bathroom make me insanely horny. How did a Pavlov dog myself into this

#yapping #nsft #tmi #i also need a chocolate shake so bad i will die

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sweatgrass · 2 days ago

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Hey man a little bit havent i earned not being completely forward and earnest.

#yapping #i have heard .it just feels weird :(. again today and its like. idk man maybe thats Guilt. and maybe you Should Feel it a little bit.#ive also pulled back a noticeable amount but im still being nice n kinda just Going Along with it because i do care about him and i dont #want his last few months here to be miserable but also idk.#he kinda wasted and ruined a full year of my life so im not sure why im giving him Any kind of. anything. other then care.#idk. can the fact that i care enough to try in any regard be enough over everything hes put me through. or do i have to bury my gut #and my feelings and just be perfect all the time in another aspect of my life that remains brutal unfulfilling and at times cruel to me.#in other news i tried cheerios again. and liked them. so that was exciting.

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sweatgrass · 3 days ago

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Tired so hard

#yapping #please.... release me...

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sweatgrass · 4 days ago

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I kinda have no right but i got so sad it made my stomach hurt

#yapping #idk. can i sleep with someone who wants to sleep next to me. or whatever.#i also just cant tell whats happening a little bit and its freaking me the fuck out. I need some sort of direct clarity but #i don't think im ever gonna get it. and im feeling like going nuclear about it. but i NEED to relax

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sweatgrass · 4 days ago

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Something something packing rots your soul but sleeping in a bed with your best friend you known for all of what you can remember from this life kinda makes it all worth it.

#yapping

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sweatgrass · 6 days ago

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wanted it too badly award

#ripping and tearing and gnawing and thrashing and

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sweatgrass · 7 days ago

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Crumbles up into a little leaf and blows away....

#yapping #i am okay because i am loved n taken care of ultimately but.. worried in a indistinguishable way rn #just what if. everyone weirded out by me forever...

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sweatgrass · 7 days ago

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Im kinda so physically nauseous over all of it but i have my fag shit at the end of the day

#yapping #i made a joke being like. ok well if i dont go on this trip then we could build the Optimus.#but i was like .actually lowkey thats the first thing thats made me consider not going. And they so aggressively were like #.im keeping all of the second half of june free. im dedicated to this im not making any plans.#which was so silly n sweet...... maybe people do care about me waaaaah

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sweatgrass · 7 days ago

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I don't think i am going to lead a happy life lowkey

#yapping

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sweatgrass · 8 days ago

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Anyway. I feel really cool and normal and nonchalant about it all. And whatever happens happens how its supposed to. I am begging god to reincarnate me as the metal that made their necklace so i could be draped around their neck, even if its just occasionally. Byt. Im chill and jormal outside of that.

#yapping #cough.

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sweatgrass · 8 days ago

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I am. Gay.

#yapping #LEZING OUT HARD IN MY HEAD ALL THE TIME I NEED TO BE SO EMPLOYED AGAIN

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sweatgrass · 9 days ago

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This is starting to feel personal in a way where theres gonna be a mass tragedy again.

#yapping #mass tragedy (crying at work)

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