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my sorority literally raised money to help people with eating disorders. people will go up and speak about it and all i can think is how much i wish i was sicker. or something. i don’t know. i’ve been losing my appetite because meds and depression and this morning i got really upset, like feel like i’m gonna vom upset, so i didn’t eat lunch. it’s now 4:30 and i haven’t eaten since 9:30. i hate how good it feels to not eat for this long. i know the dangers of ed but, fuck. my boyfriend thinks i’m beautiful, and i like how i look but it’s the weight that bothers me. i was 20 pounds lighter when i started this fucking blog and was even lighter in high school

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my diary for today. according to the november schedule i was only supposed to eat 300 but my cravings and the fat side of me told me to get a chicken burrito and ice cream

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i’m proud of myself. im not even hungry. anyway i saw to the bone and i just thought that if i lose weight no one would notice anyway so what’s the deal

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Strong ana workout 1

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so much fat. so much cellulite. it’s a wonder i didn’t start this sooner. who could love someone as fat as me?

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my fat ass thighs after my binge.

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i feel sick how fat am i that i binged for the second time this week. fuck me. i’ll never be good enough.

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i binged. i fasted for 20 hours today and then i fucking it all up. probably ate over 600 calories

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diary from yesterday

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here i am. 133lb. UGW 99lb.