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「FAKE LOVE/Airplane pt.2」 Japanese ver.

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a letter written for him :(

okay so , i found this letter i had written last year before the year ended , and i felt like sharing it you know. for now, let’s call him “apple”

dear “apple”, i’m writing this to not say that i like you mainly cause you do know i like you, but my point is i’m going to write reasons why i chose you over every single guy in our year. i don’t like people cause they’re cute , i like them cause of their personality and honestly you had the nicest personality when i first came to this new environment. you made me feel welcomed i guess that’s a way to say it.

you made me feel happy, you made me feel more interested in class, until i started having feelings for you. i’m so sorry for it, honestly i’ve lost you now cause of them and i really just miss talking to you. you used to let me talk about who i hung out with and how annoying it was cause you know. and i just wanna say thank you. you did use me and i’m not mad at you, i’m just upset. oh well if you’re going to read this anytime, by now my feelings and emotions have faded away since our friendship ended. i don’t feel happy, i don’t feel sad, i don’t feel angry, all i can feel is, numbness. i haven’t told anyone yet and i’m hoping you understand me but what a joke, you would never read such a dumb letter.

you seem… happier now that we aren’t friends and i’m so sorry i ever made you feel so awkward between us. i never knew awkward people wouldn’t match. but all i wanted was you :( you to tell me it’s going to be okay, you telling me that there’s nothing wrong, you telling me that i do have emotions. i wish these could come true but heck no. you only and only have feelings for her. it’s okay i understand you’ve known her longer than you’ve known me.

i wish sometimes i could tell you how much you meant to me, how much you made me more interested in class. honestly i don’t know anymore what we are but whatever we are, i just want you to be happy, smiling and staying strong. i’m always here for you, when she’s not talking to you, when you feel down. i just want you and only you to be happy please. stay strong please. i love you as a friend and very much and your happiness means so much to me it’s hard to explain. seeing you laugh honestly melts my heart. please stay that way :( - from the girl who crazily cares so much about you :( harshita !!

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this is the cutest thing ever :(

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reasons to be happy :)

- your friends  you literally have 4 friends, sadly one doesn’t go to the same school but still. they always make sure you’re happy , they always make you so happy , being around them means you being yourself and that’s the best thing you could ever ask for girl !! - bangtan  yea you might not be able to see them but they make you so happy , their smiles are the cutest. they make you so happy and it’s really hard to explain what life would be without them ! - min yoongi  he’s my bias , my happiness , he makes me so happy and i really don’t know how to explain it. his gummy smile , his hard work , his personality just makes me so happy and i mean it ! - park jimin he’s my bias too and the cause of my euphoria :( his laugh makes my day in less than a second. he just makes me happier than anyone and i love him so much for that ! - lara jean covey  yea she’s from a movie but she’s the most cutest person ever and i love her so much. she deserves nothing but happiness. she deserves a great guy like peter and i’m so happy they got together cause i was literally hoping for that throughout the film hehe ! - peter kavinsky  again yea he’s from the film but still. he is cute and that’s the story. he makes me laugh and smile so much. his personality , how he cares for lara jean just melts my heart. he deserves a girl like her !! - fallon carrington again she’s from a television show but i love her more than anything. her personality really is a whole mood. she deserves the company and happiness. whoever tries to hurt her try me !!!!!! - steven carrington he’s from a television show but his personality is the best. he smiles through hard things and that makes me feel better. seeing him happy makes me happy and i can’t stand him being upset or betrayed. he deserves a great husband like sammy jo. - sammy jo hehe he’s from a television show too but his coolness is like the best. he makes me so happy with the way he’s confident about him being gay. he deserves nothing but happiness and steven. i know they aren’t dating in season two but i hope they back together :( - your internet friends  girl don’t even be sad , even though it’s hard not seeing them , they still make me the happiest. they make me realise who i truly am. and i really hope i can see them and hug them all to death :( i guess this sums up everything that makes me happy hehe one last thing  him being near me before , during break , lunch and afterschool. i miss him. i miss having classes with him

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— Be honest and like if you save ⚝

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— Be honest and like if you save ⚝

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JIMMY AND JIMIN ARE THE CUTEST

JIMIN WINNING OVER AMERICA’S TV HOSTS A THRILLING SAGA | yoonmlned

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reasons why i should move on and the advantages

it’s been a year girl it’s time i understand why i have to move on and it’s for the best

so let’s get the list done !

- you have amazing friends

because of them , you can realise who you are truly and you don’t need to hide your feelings

- you have amazing online friends

they are the ones who helped you through so much and you can rant to them anytime and trust them as much as you wanna

- he’s not worth it

haven’t you seen ? he only has eyes for this one girl and i know she’ll never like him but hey i’m trying to be positive here !

- he said mean things

well to be fair , he did say something to bodyshame you , which was hurtful but hey you’re strong and powerful

- he used you

okay where can i begin with this , he literally used you to get closer with his crush , he got what he wanted then what dumped you right?

let’s see the advantages if you move on

- you feel more free

- you don’t need to worry about him

- you can stay happy

- you can be you

lastly YOU CAN BE STRONG !

i hope i can convince myself to move on

goodnight ✨☁️🌷🎀🔖🖇🌊🍰🕊🍼💒💗💌🎐🏝🎨🍭🍤🍥🌙✨🍭💝🎨💘💒🎐🖇🍼🍰🌊🕊🎀🌙🏝🎨🍭🍤

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things that make me happy

i do feel happy , sometimes i guess ? let’s see what actually makes me happy

- talking to my friends (specially this girl called ashley uwu)

- talking to my internet friends (i wanna list out some , faiza , skyler , bella , belle , fran and franca)

- bangtan

- min yoongi

- park jimin

- sammy jo from dynasty

- steven from dynasty

- fallon from dynasty

- to all the boys ive loved before

- my sister :(

- looking at my albums

- drawing something i want to

last but not least

being near him :(