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bye 2020, it’s been weird.

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Oh my god I’m so obsessed w this man

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I love this man so so bad

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We got engaged

What a ride

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I’m so so so in love w this baby

What a journey it has been and I can’t wait to embark on more w you !!!!

Betch !!!! I rly miss him like mad NO ONE PREPPED ME FOR THIS

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I still can’t believe that my gal got married

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I’m turning 25 in literally 40 mins and I’m petrified

I’ve always been terrified to grow a year older

And I’m sitting here, refusing to go home because .... I’m scared .... I’m turning 25 and everything will still remain the same

I’m stressed tf out at work I still haven’t figured my life out I still don’t know what’s my actual purpose in life I still feel like I’m 12 I still feel like everything in life has treated me like I’m a pushover (lol what do I mean “like I am” eh hahaha I KNOW I’m a pushover)

And then there’s the other side of life that I’m so so grateful for, like the fact that the moon is my fav shade of orange right now - gold ish orange, I just had my last dinner as a 24 y/o with a friend who grew up with me, I think I just met the light of my life, I’m employed, I’m still making my parents happy/loved/cherish/laugh/annoyed, I’m still my sisters go to person when they’re in trouble, I know I’m loved and I have a place that I can call home, I have God and His reminders that I am well loved - wether I’m conscious of it or not

I hate turning a year older with no direction of where life will take me next

I sometimes feel like life is so fragile that I wish that I could look past my sadness and just live cos I rly don’t wanna be sad forever

I want to be 25 and wake up and realise that everything is going to be ok

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Monumental!!!!!!

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Here’s some of my bestest memories (and cute pics) during the month of Syawal <3

2019 Syawal was hella cute but u wanna know what’s cuter??

Us

Hehehehhehe ok dah bye

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It’s been a hot second since this guy is featured on my tumblr lololol

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With men, this is possible

With God, all things are possible

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Heavy is the responsibility of being the eldest kid

But not when I see the smiles on their facessss

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Oh my god yes finally <4444

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This bitch will always be confused af w life