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:> hey

i finished my highscool , 4 months ago ! received our spm result last march . honestly , it’s fine . although i broke down at the end of the day while comforting someone else hahaha . i don’t really have a plan for future .... probably continue pre-u , then go to uni ( tesl ) . but........ a part of me kinda ...... don’t rly wanna be a teacher haha . i think ...... a graphic designer ? video editor ? film making staff ? idk ........ it seems fun ,, but it felt like my future isn’t guaranteed ? im so scared of not being able to be financially stable ,,,,, at least when im 25 . i don’t wanna keep using & depend on my parents money . they’ll retire soon ,, it’s time for me to provide for them :D okay . i was actually wanna write about my 2 years experience at my new school , as a highschooler :) ( 16 & 17 ) i do act on whim , and i don’t really think of the consequences ........ of the choice ........ haha . sometimes i think it turns out to be a great thing and sometimes it’s not really ..... a good habit ..... :))) 

2018 : form 4 ( 16 years old ) 

that year was ....... hectic .. weird , sad , funny ,,,,, fun ..... and pretty much meh .i got into new school , new friends , new people , new surrounding , pretty much a brand new life . it was good ,,, because i have few of my friends from elementary school :D i was really bad at making friends , starting conversation , i am a total noob hahaaaaaaaa . i also joined drama club , and made close friends (  that period of time ) participated the competition ( and of course we won lol ) that was such a great memory , made me hope for great things on my new school . hehe . also joined scrabble ( which we didn’t win ) cuz hell yeah , zero experience , zero skills , sloppy vocab and haaahaha zero preparation . ALSO!! i took art for spm!! which i never expected , i never know art exist for spm ............ haha ....... it was fun!!!!!!! super fun ..... my classmates , was SUPER & so fun! i don’t know ........ but yeah , we fought , haha a lot , esp with the boys . the class was noisy ,,, which was kinda........bothering sometimes but also ... fun ? idk . maybe back then i was irritated but yknow now when i reminisce back .... it was totally a fun time . among the three classes we were the least serious , play a lot , noisy , not-really-favoured by the teachers haha . well , our class passed 100% for spm !!!!!!! and 2 ppl from our class got A+ for eng !!!!!!!! anddddd .... tautan kasih ,,, raya stuff haha ........ it was . fun? idk .... i also broke up that year haha . its sooooooo funny thinking it back :))) im so weird hahahahshshshshs . anyway ........ that year was so bittersweet . taught me alot , i missed my old school , but .... i think i liked here better ..... or i don’t even know haha . honestly i can’t really recall that much memories from my previous school . my memory is BAD . it’s not that my previous school wasn’t fun .. but on 2017 i got into so much trouble ( which not caused by me duh , i was dragged to it ) i was so stressed , depressed & i never felt so scared + insecure my whole life ....... than that year .... haha .......... i know ... that school is great & fun ... but maybe the memories were wiped out .... due to the stress .. i just trying to forget ... u know .. haha ........ 

2019 ????

fun!!!!!!!!stressed!!!!!!!!! misunderstanding with friends occur a lot this year . it’s just a bad timeeeee ..... became a bit productive... maybe . cause its spm year ......i got a great dorm ,, + fun roommate !!!!!!! shoutout to putssss :D miss u huhu . tipula if i say i never felt left out from my friends , i do . haha . i thought a lot last year about friends.....also i cry a LOT . like approx. 4 times a week??? my feelings were also went roller coaster . this day i like him , yesterday i like him less , the next day i like him a lot . some day i felt like i don’t even want to look at his face hahahaha . funny ?? maybe . i don’t ... know lol . i cant say i like him cause i hate giving hopes & im just noncommittal . im so sorry ... yeah to you ..... its just a long way ....... and im afraid i forget u the next day ....... actually me myself hate to hope  ....... i just .. wanna be alone rn haaha. relationship is.......ill think abt tht later ....... im healing ....... and fixing myself   . learning loving myself ...... first ... maybe .. later ?? lover??? single is fun ...... right??? though i feel lonely sometimes but its better than having someone u need to be fully committed everyday .... im tired of loving people rn hhahahahah . im just so tired rn .......... i cant type anymore.........i dont know what to typeeeeeee . im tiredddddddd my hands are numbbbbb .. im supposed to write abt 2019 but i can barely recall anything///////// im just losttttttt hahahahhah ok ill see u laater!!!!!!!! ill write more .......... soon :D bye xx 

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Kyungsoo x Jongin anatomy

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✎ … exo soft layout  ♡ ˎˊ˗  

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happiness

I'll be the one that stays 'til the end And I'll be the one that needs you again And I'll be the one that proposes in a garden of roses And truly loves you long after our curtain closes But will you still love me when nobody wants me around When I turn eighty-one and forget things will you still be proud?'Cause I am the one that's waited this long And I am the one that might get it wrong And I'll be the one that will love you the way I'm supposed to, girl But will you still love me when nobody wants me around, around? When I turn eighty-one and forget things, will you still be proud?Proud of me and my short list of accomplishments, say And me and my lack of new news Me and my selfishness, oh me and myself Wish you nothing but a happy new version of you Because I, I mmm, mmm, yeah I want you to tell me you find it hard to be yourself so I can say "It's gonna be alright" And I want you to love me the way you love your family The way you love to show me what it's like To be happy

this is like the sweetest thing ever .  its really portray happiness .  i love rex orange county .  i love how he was so underrated , - i can have his songs myself haha 

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You keep telling me to be glad for what we had while we had it. That the brightest flame burns quickest. Which means you saw us as a candle. And I saw us as the sun.

I Wrote This For You (via allusiones)

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“Anxiety is not being able to sleep because you said something wrong two years ago and can’t stop thinking about it.”

— (via purplebuddhaquotes)

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/moon.ii_/

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