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#10 12.jan.18

~ Happy (not so) New Year! :D

~ Alhamdulillah, finals are overrrrr. I realised that studying for exams is easy, but studying for knowledge is not. Most of the time I’ve spent in uni is studying for exams, and I don’t like it. What a waste eh. Hmm, what’s the purpose of an A if it’s only on paper. I sound emotional because I am. One more sem to go and I’ll leave my uni life behind.

~ This afternoon’s khutbah was about the responsibilities of parents. Remind me so much of A(: and I(:. Sometimes, I wonder, have A(: ever wanted us? Or was it just I(:? I pray that one day A(: will realise that he has his responsibilities towards us, his biological children before it’s too late. As for I(:, I pray that she will always be strong, and may Allah ease her affairs.

~ My teaching duties resume tomorrow. After attending the training, I kinda feel motivated to teach. 3 different places. Triple M. M3(!!) 2 classes on Sat and 2 classes on Sun. Couldn’t believe that I am going back tonight just for teaching, and return to my 2nd home tomorrow night. Not even a night spent at home, haha. It’s okay. My holiday will commence very very soon. Toodles~

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#9 29.dec.17

~ “Allah s.w.t determined so, and did as He willed.”

~ SM paper today at 3pm, but I reached the venue at 4pm. I was so sick I decided to get an MC before that. Unfortunately, no fever means no MC. Prof. was really nice. She let me sit for the paper, even provided biscuits for me when she knew I couldn’t eat properly. May Allah bless her kindness.

~ I am quite emotional right now because SM is one of the papers that I still have the chance to get an A. However, everything is already destined according to His will. Nevertheless, I am grateful because at least I managed to sit for the paper, and I still have the chance of meeting the passing marks.

~ I am also quite emotional because of the demand my I(: made to my A(: From the perspective of a daughter, I cannot tolerate that behaviour because, hmm, hello, someone can’t afford to do it now, why must you force it? Furthermore, it’s not as if you’re in need of it urgently. But from her perspective, maybe I can understand.

~ As for A(:, I can’t help but think that there is no barakah in his earnings. Always not enough. With bonus also still not enough. Who am I to say that? I really pray that I’m wrong.

~ I am tired of pushing my problems away. I wanna solve each and every one but I need Allah’s s.w.t help to do that. In order to receive help, I need to prove that I deserve getting it, right?

~ I have 3 more papers to work hard for. The last one will be on the 12th of Jan 2018. 2018 huh?! Speaking of which, I will be a year older, nearer to death and nearer to meeting my Maker that is if I deserve it.

~ I am going to have dinner with M(: later on. I pray that I will be strong enough to say what I’ve been wanting to say for the longest time. Khoir in sha Allah. Ohh and I am still wondering, what did I eat to have gotten that stomach ache, nausea, and headache minutesss before my 4th paper. Is it the Latte Mocha, biscuits, or egg(which I boiled fewww days ago)? I am kinda convinced that it’s the egg. Alhamdulillah ‘ala kulli haal. Toodles~

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#8 21.dec.17

~ Be right back after the finals! Toodles~

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You are most powerful when you are most silent. People never expect silence. They expect words, motion, defense, offense, back and forth. They expect to leap into the fray. They are ready, fists up, words hanging leaping from their mouths. Silence? No.

Alison McGhee, All Rivers Flow To The Sea (via ssomesoul)

But sometimes silence is deafening.

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#7 04.dec.17

~ Very last trip to Sg for this sem, just for the basic teaching course.

~ 2 days in Sg but I learnt a lot. I look forward to applying the techniques learnt next year when I start teaching, in sha Allah. For now, I need to focus on the upcoming finals. Approximately 3 more weeks to my first paper.

~ I still can’t face her. What she did to me still hurts.

~ Initially, I wanted to get an EDT(just one, really) from The Body Shop. When I’ve decided on Shea EDT, I got to know that membership is free for purchases above $50. Sooo I also bought White Musk L’eau EDT. Soo good. TBS never disappoints.

~ Someone’s getting married on 22nd!! Omgee. Idk what to feel.

~ I managed to fast today, despite having a heavy break fast. Alhamdulillah. Will try again on Thursday in shaa Allah. Toodles~

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#6 30.nov.17

~ It’s almost the end of Week 11. So many tests and assignments completed, but there are still a lot more to be done. Khoir in sha Allah.

~ Am I strong enough to end the whatever-ship we’ve been having for the past 4 years(or maybe more)? If I wanna see a change, I need to make changes. I pray that I’m strong.

~ Will be atttending a 2-days teaching course this weekend. That means less time for revision, but never mind, I’ll try. Toodles~

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#5 28.nov.17

~ Completed my very last subjects pre-registration for next sem. It’s making me emotional. Going to leave my uni life very soon.

~ This sem is also ending in less than 2 months’ time. Deadlines to meet. Finals to revise for. Khoir in sha Allah.

~ SM’s midterm result reminds me of where I stand. I am really grateful.

~ I hope that Kh. is utilising his school holidays. Not easy having a teenager in the house. 2 in fact.

~ I dreamt of talking to Ay few nights ago. I miss Ay but looks like it’s a one-sided thingy. Poor me. Haha. Toodles~

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#4 25.nov.17

~ Impromptu dinz at SG yesterday. Disappointing.

~ Returned from Fan exhausted, but I had fun talking and playing around. I wuv you so much I can’t wait for that day.

~ My first instant shawl ever and water color paint.

~ Studied about Derivatives today. She’s a good tutor.

~ Tekken. When was the last time?!

~ Assignments waiting for me. I can do this. Toodles~

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I am really sorry.

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#3 24.nov.17

~ Talked to Banana2 this morning. Now she knows that I'm not good at expressing and because of that, I prefer to be alone most of the time.

~ I wanna watch Justice League!

~ Booked Fan for today. Trying to be better, taking one step at a time. Toodles~

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#2 23.nov.17

~ I’m tired of this voice in my head. Very tired. How do I get rid of it?

~ I’m struggling with Intermediate Micro. Must work harder!

~ I’ve successfully planned my subjects for Sem 2. Praying that the pre-reg will go smoothly in sha Allah. Toodles~

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“What you focus on, grows.”

Yasmin Mogahed

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Pastel, and marshmallows, my favourite!

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The past is a place of reference, not a place of residence.

Roy T. Bennett; The Light in the Heart (via sunsetquotes)

Something I keep forgetting.

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#1 22.nov.17

Alhamdulillahi bini3matihi tatimmus solihaat.

~ Still can’t get over the fact that Sir cancelled IM’s class at the 11th hour. It was what I prayed for because I didn’t wanna miss it.

~ Bought a side table for myself. Finally.

~ I had fun trying out Datastream workstation with my groupmates for our M&B Assg.

~ I pray that we’ll both change to the better, soon, in sha Allah. Toodles~