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Manifesting this for myself ✨

I know I am already boring everyone to death with this but the thought that a phd is actually not unrealistic???!!

As a kid I wanted to be a scientist and/or author for the longest time, I wanted to go to a university and become a doctor (I'm pretty sure I read something about Oxford as a child and it stuck) but when my life became more difficult this all suddenly seemed like a childish fantasy.

I joined tumblr in 2013, ten year ago, during the darkest year of my life. In my archive (old blog, not this one) I found zero note text posts I shouted into the void about my future looking bleak. One talked about how I like languages but could never become a translator because my English isn't good enough. My grades tanked that year and I was close to repeating a year. Still, I graduated from high school in 2017 with not good but decent grades. At some point during high school I made this blog to motivate me to study and to exchange ideas with other people. I obviously didn't get into Oxford but I got into a decent university abroad.

During the last year of my Linguistics and Hispanic Studies undergrad I realised how much I love translation and how much I always loved translation. My undergrad dissertation had been difficult and I doubted my ability to go to grad school but I knew I'd need to get a degree or diploma in translation to be taken seriously and I lacked the theoretical and practical experience. My grades were good but not great but I somehow managed to get into a pretty good university.

I didn't really allow myself to think about a phd until very recently, apart from some jokes online. A phd was for people with good grades, academic parents and money. My grandparents spent the last year of my undergrad telling me to not waste my time "dreaming" about a job in the language industry and learn a proper trade instead (they changed their minds now thankfully).

My grades are pretty good this year, I'm getting a lot of firsts for the first time in my life. My supervisors are interested in my thesis topic. When I kvetched online about the idea of a phd but lack of money my supervisor enthusiastically invited me to her office hours and gave me funding tips and supported my idea of a phd. My other supervisor asked me if I considered turning my thesis into a phd thesis. She also enthusiastically encouraged the idea and gave me funding tips.

I have started my phd application the other day and I'm only missing my proposal now. I talked to my family about it and they're supportive. This is no longer a distant daydream of a little nerdy kid. This is a realistic option for my future. And in the meantime my blog turned from the lonely ramblings of a depressed middle school student to the less lonely ramblings of a prospective phd student.

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It’s exam season and I am eerily happy — does this mean I haven’t cared enough and will thus fail? Only time will tell…

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This! I was lucky enough for my decision to be respected simply by saying “I don’t like the taste of it” (which is, in fact, a big part of the reason I chose not to drink).

But if your environment is not as supportive, always remember that your personal choices shouldn’t have to seem justified to anyone other than yourself.

i don't know what younger person needs to hear this, but it is so valid to not want to drink alcohol at all, or to only want to drink very rarely. don't let others pressure you into joining in with those societal rituals. it is an outrage how normalized drinking alcohol is, to the point that those who choose to abstain are constantly forced to justify their private choices, be publicly questioned about what led to these choices or excluded from activities altogether. you do not ever need to justify your reasons for this. there are absolutely valid and important reasons to not drink, and nobody has a right to know your personal reasonings.

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I’m currently in my third year of med school and would love to get involved in research, but I’m finding it pretty hard to do so.

Would anyone know about any remote research opportunities, or how to search for them? 🙏🏼

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This was uncanny

My friend told me I had to publish the drunk uquiz I made so here ya go: I assign you a uni major based on vibes

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I haven’t tried even half of these and now I feel like I’m missing out on life 😭

omg ok put in the tags a food that makes u feel like life is worth living when you eat it. like u eat it and it's soo good and everything's fine actually

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The main reading room of the Czech National Library is probably one of my favourite places in the world ♡

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8.11.2021 🫀

guys! I‘m finally back on here and already deep diving into the third semester of med school! I’m super excited for the upcoming subjects and will definitely be more active on here again. Thank you all for the amazing support on this tumblr - stay tuned for more frequent med school posts! <3

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31|10|2012

🍂 Day 31 of My Autumn Studying Challenge 🍂

31st October - Are you doing anything for Halloween?

no plans! even though i love halloween, i haven’t done anything for a couple of years

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I started surgical rotations this week and I seem to have forgotten all of the Anatomy that I’ve been studying for the past two years of med school... oh well

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https://www.instagram.com/p/Bk6-3n6AGOP/

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8 hours of studying, 2 coffees, 2 sandwiches and so much biochemistry & immunology later, i can at least safely say today was productive (and binge a new netflix show). still can’t get over how pretty this library is.

ig: softlyshade

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06.06.21 | messy desk. just finished watching another episode of lucifer (which i’m liking so far!!). going to continue reading the quiet ones

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Exciting news.

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Essay planning and tea drinking after uni..

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24.11.2020 // enjoy some not very straight but definitely colorful citric acid cycle notes 🌈

i’ve had a very busy couple weeks, and in true med school fashion, it’s not looking like the workload will get any smaller anytime soon… desperately looking forward to christmas break! hope you’re all doing well x

♪ blood // water - grandson