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i’m nursing a cup of a strong liquor while i contemplate writing an emotion-laid post on my wordpress about feelings with beethoven’s quintet in e flat for piano and winds, op. 16 II. andante cantabile playing softly in the background when i remembered that it’s a public portfolio of my photographs and carefully selected words, and something i may or may not want to share with my future colleagues and coworkers. 

the past week has been a flurry of emotions. 

i’m not sure what triggered it but it involves strong feelings flooding out of nowhere and threatening to consume and drown me. 

and knowing me, it’s a silly, irrational crush on someone unavailable and unattainable, but still so close and their influence, their presence, is powerful. 

and with my amazing googling skills and knowing what to search for, i confirmed what i already knew and i dont know why but i felt like a rock was dropped into the pit of my stomach. 

and somehow, a strong drink would help smother that sinking feeling in my stomach. 

i know i’m better than this and i’m disappointed with how obsessive i’ve been but seriously, this person really made me think about who i want to be, and what i’d want in a partner, so i’m not regretting my feelings. i’m rather grateful, because i was able to reflect on myself as a person. 

i can’t control my emotions, but what i can control, are my actions. 

so i decided to have a drink and i’m already feeling better :^) 

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This is the Lucky Ace. Reblog to recieve a wad of cash that is oddly specific to your current needs.

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Monica Bellucci behind the scenes in Spectre (2015)

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As a lesbian my ideal man is a dead man that me and my girlfreind killed

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@karan_lalwani/instagram

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swim

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Solange “When I Get Home” (2019)

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Ruth MERCIER 

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Domaine des Etangs  Inst @yolandaedwards

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Arthur Loureiro - Spring (1891)

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Yizheng Ke

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Maryam Nasser Zadeh’s instagram and story