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In prison I learned that the quest for self discipline led to:

High self confidence.

Unending levels of power.

Joy in a joyless environment.

The quest for self-discipline will change your life.

At the sam time i remebered a most pain on my life. I envy my "renaissance woman" friends. There were lots of girls like that back in my high school. Good at basketball, guitar, math, science, chess. And now most of them are successful doctors and engineers. I was wondering how they learned everything during their childhood.

Someday one of them told me a good idea

You need 3 hobbies:

A physical hobby.

Sports, hiking, martial arts ect.

A mental hobby.

Reading, math, chess ect.

A creative hobby.

Music, painting, writing ect.

Be a whole human.

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Sabar, satu per satu. Semua akan terselesaikan pelan-pelan.

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Kamu salah besar, kalau kamu merasa ditinggal pergi. Sekali lagi, aku tidak pernah benar-benar ingin pergi. Dan jika saat itu aku memutuskan pergi, …itu karena aku dibiarkan pergi.

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Beberapa hal lebih baik dibiarkan tak terjelaskan.

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Mau dunia kamu sehancur apa pun, sesuatu yang kamu sayang pergi tanpa sempat kamu ucapkan selamat tinggal, atau harapan yang kamu doakan pupus begitu saja, hidup akan tetap berjalan, gak ada yang peduli kamu sakit hati. Tapi tetaplah berdiri dan bertahan demi mereka-mereka yang tetap tinggal.

Let it hurt, then let it go.

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Di sempit-sempitnya waktuku, untukmu aku selalu sempat.

Di sempit-sempitnya waktumu, kamu tempatkan aku di mana?

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It's not really about the food. It's about family. Not necessarily the one we were born with, but the one we chose. This one. The people we trust to be part of our lives. The people we care about.

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This, I say. This and this. The way her hair looked in summer sun. Her face when she ran. Her eyes, solemn as an owl at lessons. This and this and this. her eyes look sharp and steady into the empty parts of me. So many moments of happiness, crowding forward if she can.

can tell that you're tired, please “is everything ruined?” in that moment, fana knew for sure. “no, love. it isn't”

so i will not ask her why she were creeping in some sad way i already know.

i won't blame her, instead i will remember her kisses, a ghost on the past told this “Even when you think you have your life all mapped out, things happen that shape your destiny in ways you might never have imagined.”

I mean, when do we start feeling like the world belongs to us?' I wanted to tell her that the world would never belong to us.

my own life was getting harder day by day, everyday more than just math exam, hear'd loves sick girl.

didn't her know, i loved her all in. love was always something heavy for me, something i had to carry, the creep thing it is i guess her love was a mystery even to myself, life love with all decision i have to say to her "i love u just the way u are"

on the point of chaos, in the abyss of hunger and thirst, in the valley of solitude, in the forest of identity and the sea of dead.

I'm begging you to stay. The moment that you left, I knew I'd never be the same. you’ve had no love like mine.

Let me go, i should be her first priority in everything in her life. It seems she can't do that

i will rewrite every act of this story, with her or witbout her.

remember me love, when i’m reborn, as the shrike to your sharp and glorious thorn.