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A little over Protective.

My daughter 11 month has started daycare and I can't help but constantly over think. Are they changing her regularly? Did they fed her yet? hope she had her milk today? these are just a few of my constant thoughts. some of the bad ones include, What if she falls and cracks her head open? What if she chokes and no-one is watching? What if goes in to anaphylactic shock from something?. But I shake them off, the worst thought I go through daily as a mother is What if someone touches her inappropriately? would I even know the signs that something is wrong? As a survivor of child sexual abuse it is a constant fear. I am always checking her when she gets home for any strange marks on her legs and thighs out of pure fear but everything looks normal, her father always reassures me that she will be ok but the thought never rests. I am sure it is a normal thought all parents must go through, I just wish and hope it gets easier when it comes to daycare, and soon school and sleep overs.

I need some ways to cope through my thoughts because as much as I will want to keep her with me 24/7 its just not going to be possible.

[t3quilab3ach]

Late

I am a brand new mother to a very beautiful 10 month old girl she's my whole world right now. It is now the end of August and I am beyond stressed as I am now 8 days late and nowhere ready for a second child. I found myself looking in the mirror at work lost in my thoughts not knowing what I'm going to do if I am pregnant again. Don't get me wrong I would love to have another child, but not this soon, and not when I am budgeting to keep up with all my bills. with the price of gas going up followed by future inflations I am scared to death that I will not be able to give my child everything she needs; so as you can imagine the thought of another baby that will have the same needs is horrifying. Of course these are just my thoughts I don't even know if I am pregnant