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7. 14th May 2018- 6th Jun 2018

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6. Feb 2018 - 13th May 2018

By now I had realized the pains I was experiencing were/are being caused from very close by, especially flat above, below and next door, although there’s a void in between (and later realized also the flats above and below next door). A lot of work/noise coming from there at the time, even on a weekend, which shouldn’t be the case, because of this I knew something dodgy was going on.

Tweets about activities.

Couple days after my tweet about the void next door, work had started again, after checking it out i did a twitter search and this tweet popped up.

tweet about the works

Bro’s name, school shooting tweet

(next 4 tweets within minutes)

tweet about ‘activities’/pains

description of pain after my tweet

tweet about ed sheeran and taylor swift (as mentioned before, most my tweets are to just get reaction, from whoever is behind all this)

‘men are boys until they die’ tweet straight after

(next 3 tweets within a minute or so)

tweet about what’s going on

bro’s initial/’heart glowing’ tweet

‘who cares’ and a play on my name @ name

(next 4/5 tweets within minutes)

tweet about stuff

bro’s initial, bro’s name and a ‘kin’ tweet in one search

bro’s name

‘kin’ tweet

The ‘don’t break my heart’ tweet, popping up a lot

Ariana grande tweet straight after my email draft, deleted

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5. Jan 2018

Jay Allen account

Heart that’s full tweet.

Bro’s initial, twice. Funny thing here is I had started using a laptop I hadn’t used (I was a bit ‘suspicious’ of this laptop anyway) and the laptop username was ‘agent x’ (was like this ever since I had it). Point being, they seemed to clearly know I started using it again.

Laptop 'agent x' lockscreen screenshot.

Bro’s initials, ‘missing person’ tweet. My bro had just started a new job at the time and had to go away for training, so I was concerned.

(next 12 or so tweets within minutes)

My uncle’s name immediately after followed by his daughter’s name immediately after.

uncle’s name.

Uncle’s daughter’s name (and bro’s initial above it)

one of my niece’s name

Jay Allen account

Bro’s initial

Bro’s initial and his wife’s name (changed immediately) immediately after.

Bro’s wife’s name,

bro’s wife’s name changed immediately

My name/nickname.    

My ‘name’ again.

An accept what cannot be changed tweet.

A text to my bro (off my ‘dumb phone’) to see how he was getting on. Straight after I get a text back off him, I do a twitter search and same bro’s ‘name’/initial a few times in a row.

Jay Allen account

Text back off bro.

Bro’s initial and ’name’.    

Bro’s ’name’

Bro’s ‘name’ again.

Musicians who don’t know you tweet.

Tweet about housemate activities.

Head and heart hurts tweet

Bro’s ‘name’

Bro’s ‘name’

This tweet was immediately after my bro’s name (above). Around exact same time my bro had been on a trip to brixton mosque and he had a nasty flu/bug when he’d got back.

Brixton tweet.

‘Greatest secret’ tweet

My name/nickname

Bro’s ‘name’

‘Repeated exposure’ tweet

Bro’s ‘name’

Bro’s name (capitalised)

My initial @ name

‘Have to die first’ tweet

Welcome to canada tweet. Mention of family in canada already made by this point, more to come

Bro’s initial

My initial/everything heals tweet

Heart aching

‘Men boys until they die’ tweet

Bro’s wife’s name and bro’s initial immediately after

Bro’s initial

Bro’s ‘name’

Bro’s wife’s name

bro’s wive’s names x2

Weak heart

Bro’s wife’s name and then their kid’s name immediately after

‘heart hurts’ and nephew’s ‘name’ tweets

nephew’s ‘name’ @ name

heart hurts

Pain in heart tweet

heart hurts tweet

Some tweets about what was going on, even when out and about and mention of my nephew and family being targeted also

(next 8 or so tweets within minutes of each other)

Jay Allen account

Nephew/family tweet

‘say what you want to say’ straight after a twitter search after my tweets (above)

‘candy graves’ tweet

bro’s name

‘he writes’ tweet, possibly about my tweets minutes before?

bro’s ‘name’ @ name

my ‘surname’ in @ name

By now almost EVERY TIME bro’s wife’s been mentioned, bro’s name (and kid’s name’s, especially nephew) would immediately follow, same thing with older bro and his wife.

(next 10 or so within minutes of each other)

Bro’s wife’s name.

My ‘surname’ again

bro’s ‘name’

Jay Allen account

bro’s ‘name’ in @ name

bro’s initial (in @ name)/’happy death day tweet, bro’s name again straight after, his wife’s name minutes later

bro’s wife’s name @ name

bro’s name

this ‘sumtingwong’ tweet/username was just a day or so before i come down with nasty flu-like symptoms

‘goner’ username, also a niece’s name in @ name.

(next 9 or so tweets within minutes of each other)

Bro’s wife’s name x2, bro’s name/initial (her husband) minutes later

bro’s wife’s name again

My aunt’s name (uncle and at least one cousin, his kid, had already been mentioned) and the town they’re in

bro’s initial

other bro’s initial

heart hurts tweet

bro’s name/heavy heart tweet

Some tweet just after i had used the kitchen/eating (as can be seen), few refreshes later a tweet about ‘eating peacefully, heart skipping’. People knowing what I’m doing on my phone’s one thing but how would anyone know what i was doing in flat?

(next 5 or so tweets within minutes of each other)

entering kitchen

leaving kitchen

bro’s initial straight after first search

death of a child tweet

‘eating peacefully/heart skips’ tweet

Nephew's name

(next 5 or so tweets within minutes)

tweet about 'activities/pains'

The Jay Allen account

a niece's 'name' in @ name

knot in heart

Heart beating fast out of nowhere tweet (one of my symptoms)

'Just a lil boy of your heart' tweet. By now I'd noticed almost every time there was an Ariana grande related tweet, bro's name, his wife and or their boy's name would follow. These were/are subtle little threats about this bro and his family, I've come to learn, most likely by Ariana grande herself as you'll see as I go along

(next 7 or so tweet within minutes)

bro's name (forgot screenshot of search result) 

bro's 'name'again

other bro's 'initial'

bro's wife's name in a reply to a tweet

Next morning I had a new follow by a '@ ReckeaF'. After checking the account out, it had zero tweets posted and account had 12 followers. Out of these followers was an '@ libabycey' account, username 'cey' or 'K', my bro's initial, also 2 other accounts with other bro's name/initial.

bro’s name/initial

tweets about ‘activities’ and a tweet immediately after about ‘pouring out heart after the facts’

‘pouring out heart after the facts’ tweet

tweet about the heart pain

Tweet about pains

(next 4 or so tweets within minutes)

a ‘yea i know’ tweet immediately after

‘everything hurts’ tweet

heart sick tweet

another tweet about pains.

mine and bro’s initials and other bro’s name

bro’s ‘name’

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4. Dec 2017

Bro’s name/@ name

Heart attack and sister in law’s name, bro’s initial and another sister in law’s name.

Heart attack tweet and bro's wife's name

Bro’s initial.

RIP,/bro’s name (in @ name).

Broke my own heart tweet which I reply to asking ‘who are you’, few minutes later a ‘whoever I am’ username.

(next 6 or so tweets within minutes)

Me asking who it is

Whoever I am tweet

Bro’s name and his wife’s name straight after.

Bro's wife's name

Bro’s initial again.

The jay allen account, popping up almost all the time now.

(next 4 or so tweets within minutes)

A nephew's name

Heart hurt tweet.

Bro’s name again.     

 Another bro’s ‘name’ and ‘you broke my heart’ tweet.

(Next 5 or so tweets within minutes)

Bro's name.

My name.

Bro’s initial and another bro’s name straight after.

Bro’s name, same bro’s ‘name’ again/’killahkay’ tweet.

'Killah kay' tweet

Pain in heart and bro’s name straight after.

(next 6 or so tweets within minutes)

Bro's name

Bro's name

Niece's name

Bro's initial

Heart feeling weird

Bro's initial/heart palps

Bro's name

Bro's 'name'

Bro's name and his wife's name immediately after

(next 5 or so tweets within minutes)

Bro's wife's name

Bro's initial

Another bro's initial

Bro's 'name'

This was a sort of a happy birthday tweet to taylor swift and then a bit later a tweet about a selena gomez post to taylor swift (not saying this had anything to do with this tweet). I reply to this tweet joking about taylor being a dinosaur now, next morning first tweet was a ‘heart is aching’ tweet, idiotic dinosaur @ name.

Selena post

Heart aching (description of pain)/idiotic dinosaur username

heart feelings tweet

(next 7 or so tweets within minutes)

‘switchfoot’ account that starting popping up in my suggestions, first time this happened I actually had pain in my foot.

‘switchfoot’ account

Bro’s wife’s name in @ name

Other bro’s name minutes later

Bro’s initial (@ name)

Other bro’s name

Other bro and his wife’s name in same search,

bro’s wife’s name

bro’s ‘name’

I felt like my tweets weren’t having an effect, so I tweeted @ thisisheart to see if these people back off. Straight after my tweet to @ thisisheart a ‘Invest gearmany’ account started popping up and then a ‘you can leave’ tweet not long after (forgot the search screenshot)

(next 5 or so tweets within minutes)

‘Invest germany’ account

‘you can leave’ tweet

invest germany account again

and again

and again

investgermany account again and the switchfoot account

‘death is my out’ @ name

The same accounts in my suggestions again

again

nephew’s ‘name’

Jay Allen account

bro’s wife’s name in @ name

mine and bro’s initials, this bro’s wife just mentioned minutes before

(next 5 or so tweets within minutes)

Jay allen account

bro’s initial and mine and other bro’s initials together

bro’s initial

mine and bro’s initials

bro’s ‘name’ in @ name

my surname in username/@ name

This ‘K-unit’ username/bro’s initial

(next 4 or so tweets within minutes)

a tweet to @ thisisheart about pains/neighbour activities and reaction after it

panic attack/bro’s wife’s name in @ name and ‘heart damage’ in same search

bro’s name

‘must be felt by the heart’ tweet, another tweet that started popping up

(next 4 or so tweets within minutes)

heart failure tweet

Jay Allen account

‘heart is falling too’ tweet

bro’s ‘name’ in @ name

‘they all get murdered’ tweet

(next 5 or so tweets within minutes)

my initial/’messed up heart’ tweet

a niece’s name

a back home family member’s name and bro’s initial, same search

‘some kill, some steal’ tweet, another tweet popping up and the ‘must be felt by heart’ tweet

bro’s wife’s name

bro’s name in @ name

bro’s name

bro’s wife and bro’s name again

bro’s full name bar 1 letter

(next 4 tweets within minutes)

‘heart hurts for no reason’

pain in heart tweet

‘wanna rip your heart out’

‘I don’t platy around’ tweet

(next 7 or so tweets within minutes)

‘gonna get you killed out there’ tweet

bro’s initial

Jay Allen account

bro’s name/heart surgery tweet again

Jay Allen account

‘playing with someone’s heart’ tweet

‘don’t take tweets to heart’ tweet

Jay Allen account

This was the time my youngest bro and his family popped by the flat for the first time since I’d moved there, so I’d left my phone. This was the point i realized these tweets actually seem to involve ariana grande herself directly, every time there’d be a tweet of her it’d be followed by bro, his wife and/or their boy’s name. Some of the tweets that would almost always show up after seeing an ariana grande tweet would be threats or ‘don’t break my heart’

ariana grande and my bro’s name

no sign of this ariana grande tweet/account

a ‘dead man’ username and threat, basically, ‘you’re dead if you break my heart’

another ‘threat’ a bit later on

next morning, an ‘honest toddler’s mom’ tweet followed immediately by bro’s wife’s name, wife’s name changed seconds later

bro’s wife’s name

by the time I’d clicked the account, name was changed.

After my phone had been playing up, i tried my other phone out (you can see the quality/display difference in the tweet) and one of the first tweets i saw was this ‘better phone’ username/tweet, name later changed. How would anyone know this though???

bro’s wife’s name

bro’s ‘name’ in @ name

After waking up in pain, first tweet I see, ‘Die’ tweet

‘Breaking your heart one way or another’ tweet

‘you ain’t shit’ username

bro’s name

(next 4 tweets within minutes)

My initial/@ deathcase username

guard your heart tweet

other bro’s name

bro’s name again

(next 7 or so tweets within minutes)

2 bro’s initials and bro’s wife’s name straight after

bro’s wife name

bro’s ‘name’

bro’s ‘name’ (end of @ name)

‘don’t waste time on celebs’ tweet

tweet about an unwell baby, my nephew was ill around the same time

another threat

bro’s name

(next 9 tweets within minutes)

Bro’s name

bro’s initial

bro’s name again, ‘the shaming of jay’ @ name

bro’s name

Jay Allen account

bro’s initial

2 niece’s names, one of their dad’s in next tweet

bro’s name

‘heart pounding’ tweet

niece’s name again

(next 6/7 tweets within minutes)

niece’s ‘name’

bro’s name

my initial

bro’s wife

heart attack tweet

bro’s name

bro’s name again

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me wishing i was one of tay’s cats

It’s blue, the feeling I got 💙

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3. jan - nov 2017

Up till now I have tried showing how I got to were I did and how family started initially being mentioned. This is where from now on I started taking screenshots of all searches, as you’ll see.

By now i had no doubt these people were for real and clearly 'connected' and ever since the ‘family’ threat/murder/tweet (27th December 2016), family started being mentioned EVERY SINGLE time I’d go on twitter. Also one of my bro’s who had been mentioned the most and also lived alone at the time had started saying something was seriously wrong. The pains I had been experiencing were also getting worse so I started tweeting more about the pains and taking more screen shots, you’ll see the extent of this. The more I did this, especially about the pains and activities of housemates/neighbours, the more serious the threats have got.

Tweets, sent to myself, about what was going on and bro's initial straight after

bro's initial after a 'heart' search (in bold), after my tweets (above)

A 'be careful who you trust' tweet, after I reply to it, a nieces name straight after a 'heart' search 

Niece's name

Niece's name again

tweet about 'activities'

bro's initial after 'heart' search

Later on niece's name (this niece being mentioned every time on twitter now)/protect your own heart tweet  

heart attack/heart rate (I was having heart rate issues) tweet 

the 'friends can break your heart' tweet, also an aunt's name (as username), mine and bro's initials and bro's name in succession/same search result.

mine and bro's initials

bro's name

bro's name again

other bro’s name

another bro’s initial

mine and bro’s names/nicknames

gut/heart (some of the pains), intuition tweet

family tweet

‘poison’ and ‘heart feeling’ tweets

bro’s name

‘heart stops beating’ tweet

Later on when back on, sis in law’s (foreign account) and her daughter’s name

bro’s name/heart tweet

tweet about what’s going on

bro’s ‘name’

other bro’s name again

another bro’s wife’s name (bottom of page), account/tweet deleted

Later that night bro’s ‘name’

another bro’s ‘name’

bro (above) wife’s name straight after

bro’s ‘name’ again

another bro’s name (forgot to take screenshot from search)

the ‘must be felt by heart’ tweet

bit later, bro’s initial again and niece’s name

housemates ‘activity’ tweet and bro’s ‘name/heart just broke’ tweets.

bro’s ‘name’/’heart just broke’ tweet

later in morning, tweet about housemate activity and bro’s (who’d been mentioned hours before) previous wife’s name. Someone clearly knows EXACTLY who I am, without even anything about me on my account, no names, family or friend names etc.

bro’s previous wife’s name

my bro’s (whose previous wife was just mentioned, previous tweet) actual ‘goverment’ name

same bro’s name again

tweet bit later about pains and housemates

back home relative and bro’s name again

bro’s name again

niece’s name again

Tweet about housemate activities later on and family names straight after

niece's 'name' and a tweet about pains no one will understand

pains tweet

bro's name

another bro and my initial tweets 

bro's initial

my initial, capitalized

bro's name again

Here an 'everything heals' tweet the night before I woke up with horrible pains, some of the worst up till this point.

Tweet about the pains I woke up with, bro's initial immediately after I do a search and the 'writing murdered your family tweet' again. Basically telling me 'you say anything, your family gets it'

bro's initial

The 'writing murdered your family' tweet again

I tried ignoring things, tried not going on twitter, I've tried this plenty of times, the pains just got even worse, as if these people didn't want me to ignore them, so pains forced me back on twitter.

My name/tweet about music, this was something I was using my phone a lot for, listening to music etc, as I've said before, these people knew/know everything I was/am doing (I thought it was just my phone at first but over time this turned out to not be the case)

bro's name

same bro's name again

heart don't stand a chance tweet

different bro's initial

 same bro's 'name' in @ name (forgot search screenshot)

same bro's initial again

here the 'f.c.b.y.h.too' tweet

Later on after logging on, a tweet a tweet/threat, later deleted

my reply about earlier tweet being deleted and same bro's name in successive tweets

bro's name and tweet about not to take siblings for granted, losing them

same bro's name again straight after

after waking up with groin pains, and checking out first tweets from search, ‘ain’t having no kiddos’ tweet

After a break off twitter, one of the first tweets i see, ‘gotta die tweet’

later that night a ‘stay silent’ tweet

a lil reminder next morning with the ‘murdering family’ tweet

Break something of yours

niece’s name straight after

‘got u for life’ tweet

a ‘best friend can break your heart’ tweet, my ‘best friend’s’ name straight after

best friend’s name

when I first noticed mention of youngest nephew’s ‘name’ (@ name)

bro’s name

bro’s name, nephew’s name mentioned minutes before

Because of all the pains I'd been experiencing, especially the heart pains, I’d been to my GP regularly and had briefly been telling him how I felt pains I’d been experiencing were being caused somehow, so he was aware of it. On one occasion I booked an appointment and at surgery was seen by a trainee doctor (from London). I had no intention of talking to him about anything but he’d read my notes and started asking questions about the pains etc, so I told him a bit about it, how certain celebs/people involved with media were involved. Anyways after this appointment I learned both taylor swift and ed Sheeran had both, apparently, deleted their twitter accounts.

This tweet (forgot the search screenshot) about potty training was around the exact same time my youngest nephew was potty training

A tweet about a nephew starting school, again this was at the exact same time my nephew was starting school

my initial

bro's 'name' username

'I'll break your heart' tweet

Next 4 tweets are after a few refreshes of the search result page. A university tweet, one of my niece’s was just about to start uni.

Heart so heavy tweet.

A tweet about a niece.

'Lil kay' tweet, referring to my nephew.

Because of all the pains I’d been experiencing, especially my heart, my GP referred me to a cardiologist who arranged for me to have a heart monitor fitted. On the morning of my appointment, just before I was about to leave, I did a twitter search and the first tweet was the name of the hospital I was going to (L&D) and a tweet after it about ‘agonies’.

Appointment letter (09:50 am)

Hospital name tweet.

'agonies' tweet

After my appointment I had stayed out the whole day, (cos I had to wear the monitor, didn’t want anyone to know) and had visited my eldest bro’s home. My niece was in extreme pain (stomach if remember), crying etc and before I left they were considering going hospital. Later that night first tweet I saw was about a heart monitor (forgot the search screenshot in haste). The following night a tweet about a child being in pain and my niece’s name (foreign account) in one search (same niece who’d had the pains) and then a tweet about ‘ niece in pain’ straight after.

Heart monitor tweet. 

‘child in pain’ and niece’s name tweet

niece’s name

‘niece all heart broken’ tweet

This is the discharge letter for my stay in hospital, I had been at new property (where I’m still at) for just over a month and this was the worst head pains i’ve had to date, forced me to hospital for 2, 3 days

my tweets after getting back from hospital

'some kill, some steal’ tweet (another that starting poping) after a search after posting tweet above

This account starting popping up in my suggestions almost every time I’d log on, my bro’s name

bro’s name again straight after a search

The ‘murdered your family’ tweet

family tweet

another family related tweet straight after

bro’s ‘name’

mine and bro’s initials/bro’s ‘name’ in @ name and RIP tweet straight after

RIP tweet, ironically same birth year as bro

bro’s initial

bro’s ‘name’ again straight after

sad life tweet

Next 7 tweets within a few refreshes of search page.

Another bro’s name later on

bro’s ‘name’

bro who was mentioned minutes before (above) wife’s name (at end of @ name)

‘alive for a reason’ tweet. This tweet was also popping up more

bro’s wife’s name again

another bro’s name and his daughter’s name immediately after

my niece’s name in @ name immediately mention of her dad’s name, above tweet

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By now I was thinking there was something much more sinister behind the pains I was experiencing, maybe even being ‘given’ some sort of disease or something.

Straight after my last tweet (above), I follow it up with a search (heart) and these are tweets that follow.

First tweet I see is about ‘lying on social media’,

the tweet/account is deleted,

and ‘crying on social media’ tweet.

a tweet about heart pain with my initial and name

one of my bro's birthdays as the username

'don't break my heart' tweet I was seeing a lot more as soon as I'd go on twitter

me replying to a tweet and then some of the usual tweets straight after using family members initials/names/nicknames as/in the user/@names

a tweet replying to my previous tweet (above), this was after I tweeted then doing a twitter search of the word 'heart' and this was the one of the first tweets posted. This is how I was/am being communicated to, not at my actual @ name, but via the search engine using multiple accounts. This is just to show/prove whoever this person is/are knows EXACTLY what I'm doing and when I'm doing it

the 'fcbyh' too tweet and bro's initial in @ name

another tweet/threat using bro's initial in username

By this point I had been experiencing head pains, chest/heart pains and now I had started getting pains in the abdomen/lower abdomen/groin areas. Something else I had noticed was most of these tweets were being either deleted or completely vanishing, account suspended, tweets protected, the username and @ names changed, sometimes even being blocked without even tweeting the account. So after I'd do a twitter search (always the word 'heart'), there would be so many of these tweets/accounts that by the time I'd check one out, the rest or a lot would go missing, too many to keep track of. So I started taking screenshots of the actual search results and then go through each tweet/account. Another thing I noticed was the majority of these tweets were from foreign accounts, mainly Asian and Arabic (as I'll explain/show as I go along).

This was when I first started experiencing the lower abdominal/groin pains, this was after I had just moved to a new address (this 'following/stalking' was happening at every address I was moving to, at least 10 separate properties over approx. 3 years).

A tweet about the north and falling in love with the south, referring to the new abdominal/groin pains. 

Blocked by account/user.

a taylor swift related tweet

An 'expect that broken heart soon' tweet, account blocked.

blocked

some 'advice'

some more 'advice'

Bro's 'name' in user/@name, sometimes it's the name outright, sometimes just the initial/nickname and sometimes a play on the name, either way it's enough for me to know

after a refresh or two of the (search result) page, 'screwing up everything' tweet,

'big mistake, impending hurt' tweet

Some stuff I was still using my email drafts for but come to realize this was compromised, these people knew/know everything I do on my phone. Here a draft about something I had noticed and a tweet from a twitter search (of the word 'heart') straight after 

this seems to be a response/reaction to my tweet, account blocked

blocked

This is where I started to take screenshots of the whole page after doing my twitter searches (always of just the word 'heart', keyword can be seen in bold),  and where I started learning more about the tweets/accounts etc.

Heat beats fast tweet, might not seem like anything but this tweets are posted at the EXACT time I'm feeling the EXACT same things.

'alive for a reason' tweet straight after previous

repairing heart tweet

bro's name. These are subtle little nudges, letting me know these people know exactly who my family are

bro’s initial in tweet, this bro was mentioned the most from the very beginning, simply cos he was the ‘next easiest’ out of the family to get to get to

same bro’s initial again next tweet

‘heart hurts’ straight after

older bro’s name/heart hurts tweet

‘didn’t destroy your heart’ tweet

bro’s initial and ‘dying’ capitalized, also my initial in bio

what’s wrong with heart tweet

later when on, bro’s name

my ‘name’ in @ name/ broke your heart tweet

After replying to this tweet, a tweet with mine and bro's initials in username

mine and bro's initials

bro's 'name' in username, my name in @ name

don't break my heart tweet

me replying to some nonsense and threat that follows

bullet to heart

'break my best friend's heart' tweet/threat

bro's name, walk away tweet

draft about what was going on

tweet straight after with bro's name in @ name

cause of death/DNR tweet

Bro's initial

tweet about someone being crossed

beware woman with broken heart

breaking heart tweet/threat bit later on

mine and bro's initials again

stay silent tweet

bro's name in username

my initial in username

two bro’s initials in username

every dog has it’s day tweet

my bro’s name

Another bro’s name. Also this tweet about heart pain was describing the pains I was about to experience to a tee and was the worst pain I’d felt to date. The following morning I had a very weak pulse, big chest pains and wasn’t feel good at all.

First tweet I saw after waking up feeling very poorly. Blocked by account.

Something about a possible mistake

Blocked.

This was the first (and not the last) time I saw this following tweet ‘writing murdering your family’, a threat basically considering how much family member’s name’s had been mentioned. Ever since this day things got worse and almost every family member has been mentioned, even children.

Writing murders your family tweet

focus on heart tweet

bro’s initial/heart fluttering tweet

creeping in your heart tweet

Payment in advance

‘Risk’ tweet

bro’s ‘name’ in username, pains tweet

my reply to this tweet about what was being done by my housemates followed by a ‘no shit sherlock’/@ hearthasgone and a ‘writing finally’ tweet

‘broke my heart’, tweet deleted

no shit sherlock/@ hearthasgone and ‘writing finally’ tweets

heart wants what the heart wants

An ariana grande related tweet

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1. 2015 - Feb 2016

Back in late 2014 I started living alone for the very first time and not long after this, I started experiencing unexplained pains. So I started a 'diary' using email drafts on my phone, until one day all my drafts got deleted, so I created a twitter account to use for my diary instead, because of date/time stamps. Because of this I haven't and don't follow anyone on twitter, so in order for me to see anyone's tweets, I'd have to use the twitter search engine to search for their account.

Not long after joining twitter, I started noticing tweets that seemed to be aimed at mine, this was mainly being done via twitter's search engine. Anytime I'd write out a tweet (to myself), I'd do a twitter search (as I didn't/don't follow anyone) and this is where I noticed the tweets. The more significant my tweets, the more significant the responses, to the point of death threats, threats about family and then family member's name's being mentioned, even children. This was/is all being done via various accounts. All this even though my account has always been anonymous, no mention of any family, names, details etc.

So anytime I'd tweet anything important, I do a twitter search (of any word, doesn't matter) and as I refresh the page, more of these tweets relating to me and then family would pop up, it's not just one person, these people are involved with the media/celeb world.

Over time I started noticing certain celebs popping up a lot, every time I'd do my searches, one of these being ariana grande.

So after I starting living alone for the first time and after I created my twitter account (around feb 2015), one of the accounts i started noticing from the beginning after twitter searches, was a @ quotetaylorswift account, almost every time I’ll go on twitter.  From the very off I was unable to post on a number of famous twitter accounts for some reason, which was a bit weird.

Also by this time, only after about a week at my new place, I had started experiencing unexplained pains and still do to this day.

This was my very first post, a retweet @ quotetayswift.

Later that day a post on taylor’s official account about her cat owing her money for scratching her leg.  

By now i had started checking this @ quotetayswift account whenever I’d go on twitter, I understand they’re only quotes, but they seemed to be directed at me (mostly cos of the ‘pains’ i was feeling), so i kept my eye open. This was the next tweet i saw later on.

‘band aids don’t fix bullet holes’ tweet later on.

(these were just some of the tweets I'd seen and managed to save, there were hundreds more, this is just to give an idea, paint a picture of what's going on)

Things were getting crazy now, quite shocked with all this shit, all a bit too much, tried staying off twitter, but things got even worse, more pains etc.

Next time i check out the @ quotetayswift account.

Fast forward a few months, ever since i had started replying to the @ quotetayswift tweets, i started noticing A LOT of ‘activity’ when i started doing the twitter searches, i was searching the word ‘heart’. I had already started taking screen shots, but had not thought of taking screenshots of the actual twitter searches, but you can still see the word ‘heart’ in all the following tweets.

This ‘friends can break your hear too’ was a tweet that started popping up a lot

After replying to this tweet, a 'RIP Tabia' (my 'name') 

The 'friends can break your heart' tweet again

'before your family fell apart tweet, another one I'd see more of whenever logging on, account suspended

'bro' tweet mentioning bro's 'name/nickname' and another 'before your family fell apart' tweet. Looking back now, this was a sort of warning, which they've now followed through with. I tried plenty of times to ignore everything but I've been forced into not ignoring stuff, so I've had to speak out, no choice.

username changed to another bro's initial

my reply to a tweet, seems to be deleted, about taylor swift. I don't exactly who was/is on my case, cos there's so many people involved, but most of my tweets were/are to get reaction, to show/prove what's going on, so I've been playing along with what 'they' want to have me believe.

 Drowning heart tweet.

more tweets about what's going on

what I mean by being forced to going on twitter, I'd feel weird sudden pains, log on and these are the kind of tweets I see.

Repetitive tweets

As I've said, more i mention, the more serious the responses.

Later on the 'heart beats faster' tweet

After replying to this next tweet about pain, loads of tweets pretty much describing exactly what I was feeling follow, again, I hadn't started taking screenshots of the search results yet but you can still see all the tweets contain the word 'heart', word I was searching, I've stuck with this key word since.

Bit later, expect more pain tweet

By now I realized  these people weren't messing about, so it made no difference if I said anything or not, things were just getting worse. So I thought I might as well speak about whatever I felt was going on.

Tweets about what I felt/feel what was/is being done to my heart

more tweets later by me and a tweet about a conspiracy.

After previous tweets, I do a twitter search of the word 'heart' and this tweet about twitter changing the star to a heart for liking tweets pops up.

Another tweet that started popping a lot

me ranting about being watched etc, a ‘leading people on’ tweet which i reply to and then a tweet by ‘the watcher’

heart beats faster tweet

guard heart

my reply

fragile heart tweet

Following tweets are about certain individuals possibly being involved, whether they are or not, to what extent remains to be seen, as said before my tweets were/are mainly to get a reaction cos I knew/know something was/is going on

After these tweets (above), the next are one after the other, all related, i response to mine, one with my name, a ‘dead’ one straight after and then a good luck/bingo tweet

ed sheeran lyrics, straight after mentioning him,

my name,

dead,

me questioning whether I’m right or not,

good luck, bingo