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– Jamie Oliveira | from "Erosion"

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As always.

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Sometimes I wonder if I even exist when no one is looking. I shift so easily into whatever someone needs me to be, and then I’m alone again, and I don’t recognize what’s left.

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i hate myself a little extra when i open up to someone.

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do you guys also ruin every good thing in your life or is that just me

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*showing visible symptoms* oh my god i need help desperately

*symptoms go away for one day* what if im just faking it

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— sylvia plath (via letsbelonelytogetherr)

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sorry I ghosted you I wanted to see if you cared about me and would miss me if I was gone

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"You need to relax"

Best I can do is dissociate

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when someone doesn’t wanna tell me what i did wrong and suddenly i’m 8 years old wondering what i did to make my mom mad again

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Always helping others but if i need help, everyone gets distant.

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Sometimes I forget that I have no real friends and go on my phone expecting something; I don’t even know what, maybe them texting me first for once? Someone actually caring? Someone being interested in me or my life at least a little?

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loving me is like watering a dead flower

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When you grow up in an abusive home, you don’t become a people pleaser to please people. You become a people pleaser to keep the potential for more abuse away.