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Friday August 21st 1ish pm

God came and spoke to and from me.

I was shown what it would be like, feel like physically and mentally if I went to hell.

While god spoke through me I learned my grandpa had molested me, my grandma knew about it and she said nothing. My mom was told through me from god what my uncle dan did to her is WRONG and that she does not need to feel like she has to keep him in her life.

Stop feeling sorry for him because he made his own choices! In the moment I am thankful god has kept memories of what happened to me away from me. He said I would become best friends with Sarah and that she was brought into my life for a reason but I didn’t want to listen (LOL imagine that) but I am still processing it all. Also, I called Vanessa and had to talk to her as I was called to do so. I don’t know how things are going to happen once they start happening from here but I know they’re going to happen and I am excited. I have this big purpose. Everything in this life had a reason and I know I am going to do good things. I’m going to be and do better. I know better. I know that God is really, VERY REAL and likes to take over my body and say he’s done but keeps doing it 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 but anyways. I just needed to write down how I was feeling and what I was remembering and processing at the moment. It’s August 22nd at 5:53 am and everything is still very real, raw, and fresh. Part of me thought it was some crazy dream or something but God talking to and through you is way weirder than any dream I could have ever had lmao oh and before I forget I was trying to google what had happened to me because I google everything? 🤣 but the one quote that stuck out and with me that I found hilarious said “when we talk to God we call it prayer, when god talks to us we call or schizophrenia.” LOL LOL LOL Gods sense of humor is funny. God cusses by the way and I still can’t get over it 😂

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My life has seriously changed so much in the last year. I went from living my life for me, myself to living a life for Jesus. My whole life changed in a matter of seconds. I’m using this tumblr account to post different feelings, moods, or just whatever I am feeling. I don’t think I will get many views, and that’s ok. I’m doing this for me. 💜