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Me, in my head: PEEL SKIN OFF PEEL SKIN OFF PEEL SKIN OFF

me, out loud: yo i wanna peel my skin off

Coworker: real

Me: Wait... Saying it out loud fixed it... I'm good actually

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Yea, so is this what it feels like to be Vlad the impalered up my vag?

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a cabbage white butterfly, amongst other things

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there was an athenian statesman named solon who heard one of sappho's poems being recited and asked someone to teach it to him "so [he] could learn it and then die" and i'd just like to say that's exactly how i feel when i read a really good poem

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Inspired by @kerrylifecoach on Instagram ✨

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Janet Fitch, from White Oleander

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and very, very often, self care is not plants and ice rollers and fluffy blankets of peace.

it’s standing over your kitchen sink and crying while doing the dishes because you just want to go back to bed but the dishes need done. and you don’t know why you’re crying but you're trusting you need it. and you aren’t listening to the music that pulls you into a spiral; you’re listening to some cheerful shit your friend sent you. it’s getting up and staring at your fridge and closing your eyes and then cooking yourself food even though you hate it and it’s miserable. because you know that you’d cook for your friend, and you are trying to befriend yourself. it’s dragging yourself into the shower because you know you’ll feel better afterwards. it’s doing mundane tasks with patience, cursing under your breath, trying desperately to give yourself grace. grace is the beginning of care. care is the beginning of love.

we think it’s supposed to be peace and yet the most powerful self care moments are when we hate everything but especially ourselves. and life does not feel worth the loving. to look into that pain and yet choose to care for yourself in however many pieces you are — that is care. love. grace. trust. belief. it hurts because it’s love where there was no love before. it heals because it believes there will be love, one day, soon.

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🪦😔🙏

King

rip Mr Collins, you would have loved Patreon

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Wendell Berry, "A Warning To My Readers"

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Margaret Atwood, from “Europe on $5 a Day”, The Door (2007)

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Ocean Vuong, from “Deto(nation)”, Night Sky with Exit Wounds

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My second project, finally done! by Vedraii

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Out For the Evening

Watercolor and Gouache on Black Paper

2023, 10"x 8"

Cherry Blossoms

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Seb McKinnon

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I was Bella from Twilight and they were making another movie so I had to work with Robert Pattinson and I fell in love with him but he got really upset with me about it because secretly he was a he/him lesbian.

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do I want to write it or do I just want to read it, do I want to write it or do I just want to read it, do I want to write it or do I just want to —

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Sometimes I think my cat came from outer space by elysisticism