it'll be a year without her in less than an hour & i don't even know how to grapple with that. we're so strained from stress we've been nauseous & shaking for hours. on the cusp of throwing up but with nothing to release. just a gutted heart & a bleeding soul.
she told me she'd haunt me a long time ago. but, she didn't linger for long. which makes sense w stuff, but... it hurts. the emptiness is so hollow. the ringing is so loud. the darkness has never been blacker. the cold has never bitten so hard.
i just wanna skip to the part where im with her again. the world without her is muted, dull & bleak. i resent it.
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