#+++ i know izza pandemic kaya nga di ako makadesisyon dahil dito eh hays

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okie okie okie u guys know how much i wanna get a massage and im just stopping myself from getting one bc im an indecisive fluffball like that. i mean im indecisive in things that are clearly just for my pleasure, you know. i could be decisive in other areas, but yeah, on other stuff, im indecisive, thats what im getting at.

anyway, back to my oh-so-sad, oh-so-huge predicament — massage. im thinking of getting a home service but also i rlly wanna go out and i miss having the full experience of being in a spa, so yeah, im prolly going out tahday and would just take advantage of me being out again and drop by a cafe near me. i just keep on thinking that it is may already and that means im going back to dad's and some people there just still treat me like a kid sometimes, so that prolly means no going out for me for this month, so like now, im giving in to my wants and conditioning my mind and body that ~ok you got this already so that means you hv something to like comfort you with when things are just not going the way you want for this month~ once my thoughts and emotions start acting up when im back at dad's.

so hmmm if later i still feel the same way that im feeling now, im going out around 4 or 5pm maybe.