#//and many moooore <333

[honorhearted]

you mean the world to me!!!!!!! gosh, I can’t express how much i’ve enjoyed watching ben and johanna became, uh, found family?? found family except johanna doesn’t Understand it?? whatever you can call their relationship, i love it with all my heart. i love rambling in the tags about our muses with you. whenever i get a notification from you, i have a stupid grin on my face because i adore you!! thank you so much for supporting me when the whole drama of my work getting stolen went down and bonding with me over love for sweeney todd. i cannot wait to see where 2023 leads ben and jo (maybe they actually start getting along??) and as always, i look forward to our threads.

Ahhhhh, I'm cryiiiiing, this is so sweet, what the hecking heck? ;^; <3333 I'll admit I just stared at this for the longest time, clutching my chest and being incoherent (which, admittedly, is partially cuz I took an accidental nap a bit ago), but GOSH, YES, it's been such a wild and lovely ride seeing our two idiots -- or should I say "ninnynoodles?" :' ) -- go from, "Umm, why are you breaking into my room?" to, "Well...I guess you're all right...I dunno...maybe..." :/// I really do love getting to see Johanna grow beyond T.urpin's oppressive upbringing, and getting to create the life she deserved vs the one she got. That poor girl was done dirty (and by the fandom, too!), so I was so excited to find your blog. I've been a huge fan of ST ever since the movie came out, and yes, you write her perfectly, 10/10 recommend!

I also love how you're one of my only found family threads, cuz sibling-ish/platonic stuff doesn't come up too often in RP, but when it does, man am I here for it! Ben will raise you as his faux son/daughter and/or be your big brother. And your muse will just have to deal with it, haha, cuz he can be smothering/fussy sometimes. *whispers* If she stops making fun of his Y.ale degree, he might finally let her be his friend.

Anyway, this is me hugging you 5evar (happy new year! <33):

[rarestnicole]

I’m turning 24 in a week! 🥳 I have a secret though. 😆 I’ve been calling myself 24 ever since the year started. Minsan nga nakakalimutan ko nang 23 pa lang pala ako. 😅 I’m thinking about it being more like a mindset than a couple of numbers, do yunno what I mean? xD

So how do I feel about turning 24? Do I have to feel something? I think so. Do I have to make a big deal out of it and put it on writing? YUP! 😂 It’s not every year that I turn 24 in mind, spirit, and actual age. Lol.

I actually like it, turning 24. I feel like I’ve been presented to a whole new sense of responsibility and accountability. Weird feeling, but it’s here within. I feel like this is another start. In many ways, it sure is another start. Haha. But aside from them all, I do hope that it’s a new beginning of someone that I am. I can already feel that I’m leaving someone that I used to behind. I’m not gonna forget her, I’m just leaving her here, there, somewhere that she should be left in. I won’t forget her, though. I’ll always be thankful to the versions of me, even when I’m not always proud of how I acted and reacted sometimes.

I’m glad to be growing. And I’m most certainly happy to grow more. If growth entails pain and failure and more self-blaming, I wouldn’t mind. Self-awareness will always be my priority. I know I should be careful and be more wise when it comes to knowing myself, and I can only hope and pray for me to be ready. Sometimes, it could lead to self-sabotage, and I don’t want that.

I know. I’m aware that I only have a year left before I reach the point of complete development in some parts of my brain. I’m about to be an adult with a fully developed frontal lobe. 😂 Kaya mas uunahin ko talaga ang pagkilala sa sarili ko and all my traumas, my demons, my pet peeves, and more before I explore out there. And, oh!!! I’m also working on myself sa lover girl concept. HAHAHAHAHAHA. And aspect? Jeez, this is funny. I have to quit thinking ill of having to share my freedom with someone else. Huhu. I’ll get there. 😂 At least I started while I was 23, right? I’m trying to have an open mind about relationships and whatnots. Phew!

Thanks to the books that I’m reading, I’m finally getting comfortable about the idea of having a boyfriend. 😣 Getting pa lang, ha. I’m not there yet. Wew! 😮‍💨 KASI IT WILL ALWAYS BE WEIRD—o, ‘di ba!!! Naka-always pa rin. Ugh. Right now, thinking about it, it’s weird na may maghahatid sa akin, I’m not used to that. I’ve almost always brought myself home, never minding the darkness and the fact that I am alone. Huhu. I have sooooo much to think about, to consider, and to compromise with. I hope that I’ll be ready when the time comes for love to come knocking on my door. Naku, shuta, baka sunduin pa ako. 😬 Chariz.

I also want to think of my future, financially. And academically. And more. Yes, I have so much to prepare for pa. Especially before getting into a relationship. I WILL NOT enter a relationship without being stable in many ways more than one. Jusko.

I also wanna start a collection! OMG!!! Small joys that I won’t allow to be vices. Ooooh, this must be the adult urge to collect something? Lol, no. I just happened to fall in love with a specific masterpiece that I want to know it more, dive deeper into its universe, and learn more about it. I’m liking it a lot, I kinda regret getting to know it just recently. Hmpt. But this may be its perfect time to exist in my life, so, yeah. At least dumating. Yiiiie. <333

And lastly, I want to write moooore. I want to be moooore consistent and be mooore intentional.

Here’s to hoping for the realisation of these things! 🥳

[runesandfaes]

21, 26, 32, 40, 53, 56, 74 sorry I Bin went a little crazy

It’s okay Marci, I went a little crazy too xDD

(21) Favourite Animal?

PUPPPIIIESSSS

(26) Favourite Tumblr Blog?

Gurl, I’ll name like a billion rn. Get ready (I am doing this excluding you because you’re OBVIOUSLY one of them, it’s very apparent).@cassiancalore @catastrophicallyinlovewithbooks @nessiansmut @towerofdawn @highladyofdreamcourt @aelin-and-feyre @throne-of-omg-the-feels @tog-trash @azuremirwae @wingsofanillyrian @feysandsmut @paperbacktrash @acourtofredqueens @lifelillysandmagicwands @sarah-bae-maas @azrielsiphons @readinglikewildfire @dorianthekinkymf @cassianandfenrysaremyboyos @dr-woodsprite @propshophannah @morgana0anagrom @westfallsbitch @deziremyacotar @fiery-feyre @iamthebonecarver AND SO MANY MOOOORE. I’m sure I missed a bunch but it’s 2 AM and my head’s not in the right place. I love their blogs for various reasons and I would 12/10 recommend them all.

(32) If You Were A Crayon What Colour Would You Be?

A purple one

(40) Do You Have Any Obsessions Right Now?

CHEESECAKE and Azriel and Rhys and this fae dude I made up in my mind. Also, salad, oddly. Also America’s Next Top Model. I’m binging on different seasons rn.

(53) Would You Rather Carve Pumpkins Or Wrap Presents?

Wrap presents. Don’t give me a knife. I’m clumsy af and would 110% accidentally stab myself in the eye.

(56)What Are You Craving Right Now?

Obviously cheesecake. AND BARBEQUED CHICKEN WINGS. And french fries.

(74) What Eye Colour Do You Find Sexiest?

I think for me it depends on the whole eye...? But I guess the violet-blue but that’s probably because Will and Rhys and my husbands so...I also love any shade of brown and grey eyes too.

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