#< also in the source but WHATEVERRRRRR

[juicebuny]

ppl are being such fucking clowns about g3 i want to go back to monster high having barely any fandom presence whatsoever 😭

[acosmic]

tenerife lace. ~5” in diameter and took most of 4-5 hours. for a first try i am pleased with it, even if i did forget that i’m left handed and make some weird decisions. it’s kind of wonky because i had fun and didn’t try to make it look perfect!

used a video tutorial by gina b silkworks, with some changes, and a template for the loom by someone else. tutorial is great, template less so

insufficiently spidery due to too many warp threads. slightly frizzy because i used single-ply yarn and all of the yarn gets dragged through every single stitch and knot you make and the waste threads as well. whateverrrrrr

further problems and possible solutions: warping the “loom” (foamcore i stabbed holes in) took forever and used a ton of yarn and i really don’t like the huge blob of warp at the centre. i would definitely want to mess with and figure out density/amount of ends according to yarn choice and circle size, and if i was making a piece over a couple of inches in diameter i would make a tenerife wheel or peg loom so i could warp straight from the ball of yarn instead of having to sew it around the waste yarn (and also mess with density without feeling like i have to commit fully to whatever i warped because of how long it took). i also chose the slubby yarn knowing that it would be harder to work with, but i like how it looks (although the frizzes still annoy me). i would need to probably practice with something really smooth and figure out more patterns/stitches before trying to work out a spiderweb pattern like that sweater i posted about (i think i’d make the centre like a dorset button). then if i was seriously committed to making the sweater i would have to source a lot of thicker sturdier plied slubby yarn and figure out how to deal with the lack-of-stretch issue and make a pattern which would also involve figuring out circle size and density and all that. thankfully/sadly i’m not that invested because i have a ton of other projects but it would be nice to figure out single spiderwebs at the very least.

[christinaani]

NEEDTOBREATHE

May 18 2020

OUI-OUI-OUI

I just went on one of the most disconnected, meaningful, and hearty trip this past weekend in some time. (I may be shamed for not social distancing) but the group I went with, I had already exposed myself to when we did a waterfall a few weeks back. Also- Nashville has been letting their guards down sooner than most east coast states comparatively. It is a weird feeling seeing things open, but I am able to choose if I want to engage back with those stores and restaurants. But lately, I do not feel a need. I just am in this cycle of being in my own routine. 

It was my buddy Risa's birthday and she rented a cabin in the good old smokey mountains located around Piegon Forge the quickest, dorky, colorful little hippie hippie town. Along this trip, there was sarah, kaylie, spencer, cacy, dan, quinn, and myself. Quinn was an added attention to our trip, as he came up to us on the hike and ended up loving the company that he decided to stay with us for 2+ hours. I freakin live for stragglers that make themselves at home. (I would do the same).

Hiking, yoga, journals, hot tubs, fires, smores, musical friends <3 (thank god for cacy) and just FUCKING EXISTING is so fun when your all in it and the rest of the clan is hooked. 

My favorite moment was when we met Quinn on top of the mountain overlook and all of a sudden we were doing headstands, weird body lifts, and he was guiding us through it all (he is a yoga self taught) so it was super fun to feel like the outlook was our stage, the spectators would join in or just be. 

******

Sunday May 17th*

I forgot what it was like to be around a large group of people in some time, living alone teaches me that I am at peace within myself and my company so it was deff different. I honored myself by realizing and knowing that I did need a different space at certain times when I got overwhelmed with the company. As an extrovert, Ive realized how introverted I can feel at times and that means that I need to check in real quick with myself. It keeps me accountable. 

As the rest of them traveled to brunch, I honored myself to complete a 10 mile hike on my own and get to see the smoky mountains one last time. I drove alone which made the freedom even more free. 

I gave my hugs and said bye to everyone, and then went on. I completed the Bunion trail, it was part of the AT. I saw my first AT shelter, and spoke to a blonde 30 year old woman who was accompanied by Gus her BF and they were doing parts of the hike. I saw a lot of solo hikers as well, the trail is NEVER lonely. I am proud of myself for allowing that space, I sat up there and ate my leftovers from the weekend (which wasn't much) but it was captivating just being around HELLA mountains. 

&& now I am back in nashville with me, myself, and i. Im learning to read up on more things and wanting to absorb knowledge that Ive learned from the past weekend I've had. Im also learning to be more intuitive with what I am allowing, and trying not to be so impulsive but man its hard. but like Whateverrrrrr lol. 

Also- Follow Bianca Valle <3 She is my source of inspo at this time. she is raw and genuine and actually answers your DM's on instagram lmao, she is a holistic and positive energy. I listened to her podcast today on (@okaysis) and she talked about taking this time to be with herself and make her form of a safety net. She didn't want to rely on others, relationships, but herself. Not taking the easy way out, but knowing that at the end of the day you are all you got really spoke to me. 

You are complete & you can heal <3