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charmtale · 8 months

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the benefit of someone treating you like shit is that it can push you to realize what you really want out of life. i think we're here to experience so many people and places and things and more than anything, joy. i don't think we exist here on this giant earth to curl up in one not-too-horrible corner with not-too-horrible people and live our lives exactly how we think they want us to so that we can stay 'secure'. at least i'm not

#<- readers added context: charmtale is insane and this post was inspired by a girl who most certainly does not even remember she exists atp #No but FR. ever since last summer (aka: meeting said girl and having a terrible two-month mildly homoerotic friendship* that ended awfully)#i care less and less about losing people by the day... i don't derive much happiness from feeling loved by other people anymore #if they do thats fine but whatever... i tried so hard to be what i thought she wanted me to be and it still wasn't enough she still left me #and now i'm like who fucken cares if people want me. i have way less of a sense of self at all i am just here to observe the world and see #interesting and fun things and have a good time and explore. and be stupid. i used to spend so much time basically begging for ppl to love #me so this is a huge shift. a shift that has been slowly occurring over the past months not just an intense emotional 'WELL I DONT NEED YOU #so i think its permanent. i hope at least. i'll update #*yes this can still happen to you in your 20s with other women in their 20s. Please drive safe. its a dangerous world .

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