#[ and i'm probably just annoying the dash with more of my unhinged info dumps ]

[unladielike]

I honestly get the sense that if a muse claims to be in love with her but can’t exactly tell her the reason why they’re in love with her, Vivian would have trouble believing them; in fact, she would probably think they’re in love with the idea of her rather than actually be in love with her for real.

This, frankly, is became Vivian is demiromantic, meaning she can’t really relate to people who would fall in love at first sight or catch feelings over a very short span of time, especially if they happen to be an adult. Like, she can understand people easily developing crushes on other people when they’re kids or teenagers (because she herself has gone through that), but if they are in their twenties, it becomes less plausible to her.

I mean, maybe it’s because it would personally take months or even years for her to end up liking someone that way, but either way, Vivian doesn’t fall in love with someone very easily... and on the off chance she does catch feelings, it takes a while for her to differentiate whether it’s platonic love or romantic love she is experiencing; regardless, it’s actually more common for her to lack the desire to be romantically involved with people she’s sexually attracted to, unless she somehow develops a strong, emotional connection towards them somewhere along the way... and even then, being in a relationship won’t necessarily make her happy, as I explained in this post here, because the more older she gets, the more disillusioned by romantic love she becomes..

Like, yes, she might agree to date your muse if they’re not a minor and someone she at least gets along with, but whether she would actually stay content in that relationship is another matter entirely. For example... as terrible as it sounds, Vivian might end up feeling frustrated in a relationship with another woman due to the fact she happens to like men more and might eventually feel trapped, because she isn’t allowed to play around with her sexuality or have male partners... or if she’s in a relationship with a man, she might end up getting the sense she has to focus less on fictional characters and more on him, so as to keep their relationship afloat, which would ultimately cause her undue stress.

Either way, I can see her possibly developing a deep-seated resentment towards a partner for trapping her in a relationship she feels she can’t escape from, so while she’s capable of being in a monogamous relationship, it’s really dependent on how much freedom she’s allowed to have and how much she has to compromise while in that relationship.