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solarisgod · 5 months

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Re : Prev reblogged post - As an amnesic, seeing those extreme details squeezed in a singular journal page is genuinely so nauseating for me to look at as I have done something similar for different cases ( study notes for open book tests; it's crazy I could fit so much info in a page or even half of it ), but by the stars, if it's not one of the most Micahcore ever.

#ASK TO TAG CW #AMNESIA CW #///#//#/#𓁹 ༑ ࿐ྂ ⩇⩇ : ⩇⩇ ⚠︎ [ 𝙴𝚇𝙸(𝚂)𝚃 : 𝙶𝙾𝙳 ] * ‹ THOUGHTS . ›#𓁹 ༑ ࿐ྂ ⩇⩇ : ⩇⩇ ⚠︎ [ 𝙴𝚇𝙸(𝚂)𝚃 : 𝙶𝙾𝙳 ] * ‹ MICAH . ›#[ Micah being so stressed out about and frustrated with their amnesia when xe was around eleven and ]#[ xe started journaling EVERY single thing that would happen in xyr life down ]#[ to have that connection with xemself and xyr life despite the blackouts and time blindness ]#[ as well as to have some sense of understanding with what did happen ]#[ when xe ' wasn't there ' ( doesn't remember those events via amnesia itself or because a different Starwaker fronted ) ]#[ and there's a point when xe was fourteen - fifteen ]#[ where xyr entries became more unsettling and upsetting to read ( for others ) and doing more self harm than good ]#[ before xyr adoptive parents had to guide xem to journal in a healthier way ]#[ and xe continues memory journalling until university graduation at twenty one ; xe does scrapbooks rather than just writing itself ]#[ I have. so many thoughts on xyr fears in the lack of self control and of the knowing in xemself ]#[ of having little to no free will ]#[ but what I'm trying to say is Micah used to journal xyr days in ways that were intense and self-consuming before now xe's better at how ]#[ xe processes xyr day and write it down with a clear and opening mind ]#[ while being more forgiving to xemself with xyr memories and memory capabilities ]

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