#{ 🐦︎ } All these little things seem to matter so much. That they confuse you; that I might lose you ~ karaktcrs ( Goldie ) { 🐦︎ }

[mansnovembris]

so, i sent a message to a shop to ask them about an item of an order i placed because it leaves me confused. and i feel... dumb for doing so. like, i feel like they will either ignore the message or blow me off or something but i feel it is a genuine question and if i don't ask, I'll never get an answer, right?

i just feel like I'm so hit or miss and being on the 🐦 site now to get the latest updates on drops and such, i see the community and parts of it seem really cool and welcoming, and the other side is... very... clique like. everyone starts somewhere, but then you get to a place of... power? (that's not the right word) and you forget that.

i guess there are those kinds of situations no matter what (which is why I always choose to stay on the outskirts.) but I've already seen some petty shit and i don't know... it could also be the 🐦 site in general. the toxicity. i block so many posts and people who make shitty comments for no reason. that site can seriously fuck up your mental health, i hate that i am active on it now, of all times, especially with Musky running things.

anyway, that my tiny rant for today. I'm laying low until the next drop from a shop that will hopefully have something I really want, and then i think I'm going to call it quits on collecting, but I'll still pop in to look at the pretties and make a grab if it sparks ꒰⁠⑅⁠ᵕ⁠༚⁠ᵕ⁠꒱⁠˖⁠♡

im doing so well so far on not having anything I'm not clicking with (the extra small shadow demon threw me for a loop for a minute, but i love my little duckie so much now!). i just don't want to get to a point where i make a buy and I'm like... ugh. why did i do that?

*update: the shop wrote back and they were super nice and informative and it made total sense! damn... now they definitely have a repeat customer. I'm glad i asked. 😊*

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    “WHY THE HELL AM I SAVED UNDER ‘SPARE PARTS’ IN YOUR FRICKIN’ SCROLL CONTACTS?!”

~ ~ 🐦︎ ~ ~ @solitcde​

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~ ~ 🐦︎ ~ ~ @karaktcrs​: "What in the name of Titan are you doing here?" Genuine anger and hatred is audible in their voice. Though they aren't raising it just yet. Oh no, what's stopping them is a feeling of disbelief. Is it obvious that they never expected to see Noel again? "After what you did, you dare to show up right in front of me. Are you thinking about coming back or something? Or hurt me even more? Newsflash, I don't want you to come back!" // Goldie @ Noel :)

    “No...that’s not it...I don’t want to hurt...” Noel trails off, he feels horribly guilty, has since he left. But he really felt like he had no choice, especially after coming to the realization that their situation, everything about it is...is abusive. It was so hard to see that, but making friends, learning about the world outside the coven...

    He knows that Goldie can’t see that; they’re still too brainwashed by Belos. It’s a miracle that he was able to get away from it himself. If it hadn’t been for Edric and Rayne and even Luz...no, he doesn’t want to think about it.

    He just wants to help his twin.

    Noel is holding Rascal in one hand, the bottom of the staff acting more and more like a walking stick to help him get around these days as his blindness progresses. There’s only so much that various elixirs can do...but Luz has talked about something called ‘surgery’ in her world. It sounds downright terrifying, but there’s a chance it could fix his brain damage.

    “I never wanted to hurt you...Hunter.” His ears are lowered. “I’m sorry, but I couldn’t stay. It’s not good...Unc...Belos isn’t a good person. He doesn’t want the best for everyone, only for himself. He doesn’t really care who he steps on to reach his goals.”

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@solitcde​: "Spill It!" // for Noel hehehe

~ ~ 🐦︎ ~ ~  Send me “Spill It!” and my muse will blurt out a secret. --- Accepting

    Noel just stares at Hunter for a moment before looking away and hugging himself.

    “I didn’t eat again today.”

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~ ~ 🐦︎ ~ ~ @karaktcrs​ “Have fun being an absolute fool, I guess.”

    “Have fun being an absolute unimaginative stick in the mud, I guess.”

    “Me? I’m gonna have fun!” And there he goes on his staff; hanging by his knees while attempting to juggle...which he cannot do, so those fireballs are being dropped everywhere.

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@soltcde​: 🤭 Tickle my muse // for Noel!!

~ ~ 🐦︎ ~ ~ Nonverbal RP Starters --- No Longer Accepting 

    “NO NO NO NO NO!” Noel screeches the moment Goldie comes near him with wiggly fingers. Fun fact: the younger twin is extremely ticklish. Especially in his neck and behind his knees.

    “GOLDIE DON’T YOU DARE! DON’T YOU FREAKIN’ DARE! STAY AWAY FROM ME!”

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~ ~ 🐦︎ ~ ~ Starter for @solitcde​ | Reverse!AU

    So maybe this wasn’t his most well thought out plan...but what else could Noel have done? Waited for the ship to land, possibly in the Emperor’s castle, and then bust out with guns metaphorically blazing? Yeah...no. So his best option had been a surprise attack from behind.

    If only he thought to grab the Golden Guard’s staff beforehand. Ugh.

    “Why are you stealing Palismen, Golden Guard?!” Well, it’s pretty obvious, actually. Belos needs them, saw the man break one apart to get the magic and keep himself together. But still...why these guys?! Why not like, carve their own or---

    Oh, right. Palistrum trees are becoming rare...and Noel’s got a sneaking suspicion that Belos is the reason. Yeesh, these are some tight ropes...

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@solitcde​: Poppy, peony, gladiolus and iris for Noel!!

~ ~ 🐦︎ ~ ~ 𝐁𝐎𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐋 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒 --- Accepting

poppy :   what comforts your muse ?

    Doing things with his hands, listening to music ( mostly ASMR ), and flying. Flying is a huge release of both energy and emotions for Noel, it’s a good way for him to calm down and be at peace.

peony :   what would a   ‘  happy life  ’   look like in your muse’s eyes ?

    A normal life with his twin and uncle. For Belos to not be consumed by the curse and the Titan, to just be there for him and Goldie. And for Goldie to be okay, to be stable and happy and not have cold spells towards him. He also now wants a life that includes Raine, Eda, Luz, and King.

gladiolus :   describe a moment from your muse’s life that they will never forget .

    Age 12; Noel attempted to pull a guard out of the way of a rampaging Belos. He was first caught across the upper back by a single claw, which spun him around and his chest was next. Three claws raked across his ribs, breaking most of them, and flung him clear across the throne room. He nearly died from those injures.

iris :   if your muse could convey one last message to someone they have lost or left behind ,   what would it be ?

    He wants to ask his parents how they could even think of bringing children into the world while knowing about the curse and that they could be affected as well. Wants to know if it was worth it to them, to have the twins only to die a few short days later.

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~ ~ 🐦︎ ~ ~ @solitcde​: Hunter is just gonna give Noel the biggest hug. Which is also the first one he has given his brother since living with him and Raine.

~ ~ 🐦︎ ~ ~ Unprompted --- Always Accepting

    Noel can’t help but tense up. It’s been a while since Gol---since Hunter wanted any physical contact. He got it, they both had and still have a lot of shit to work through. A lot of anger and hurt and confusion...but once he realizes that hey, this is a hug and not some kind of...whatever, he happily returns it.

    “Hey, Hunter...how’re you feeling today?”

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~ ~ 🐦︎ ~ ~ @solitcde​: Goldie?? Vibrating because of the amount of joy they're feeling??? Yes. Here they come, giving Noel the biggest hug!!!

    Noel lets out an ‘oof’ then laughs and returns the hug happily.

    “My awesome nonbinary twin is also a huge saaaaaaap~”

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@solitcde​: "Unfortunately, you're stuck with meeee."

    “...”

    “Lucky me. Ugh.”

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~ ~ 🐦︎ ~ ~  @karaktcrs​: “I’m so exhausted I don’t feel tired anymore.” // Goldie @ Noel!!

~ ~ 🐦︎ ~ ~ Sleep Deprivation Sentence Starters --- Accepting

    “Same.” Noel sighs, closing the heavy book in his lap and just sort of...pushing it off to the side. It lands with a muffled thump onto the floor and he doesn’t even notice, staring at the wall blankly.

    “It feels like everything has just kinda...stopped? I don’t know. Thoughts no worky.” That’s not even a word. Does he care? No. Noel opens his arms and makes grabby hands. “Come hug and cuddle.”

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~ ~ 🐦︎ ~ ~ @karaktcrs​: Oh no. They're transforming. Every part of them is changing and turning into some kind of human-shaped uncanny valley deer monster. Poor Goldie is absolutely terrified and it's visible. Eyes wide and their whole body shaking. "N--Noel... I'm... I'm scared..." Ah, the most emotion shown in a while and it's fear. "HELP! PLEASE!" // throws crused GG @ GG + twin au lmao

~ ~ 🐦︎ ~ ~ Unprompted --- Always Accepting

    Noel has no idea what’s just happened. One moment he and Goldie were sparring...then the next his sibling was doubled over in pain and screaming. If one was to ask the younger twin the last time they saw the other in pain, he wouldn’t be able to answer. There’s a faint memory from way way back when...but otherwise...

    But it’s the fear in Goldie’s eyes that hits Noel harder than anything else. For the elder to expressing that particular emotion in anyway...it speaks volumes more than the pain does.

    He really doesn’t know what to do now; watching Goldie turn from a witch into some kind of twisted beast. It’s so much like the Owl Lady that it causes a pit to form in Noel’s stomach---who could curse his twin? Who would want to? How?!

    How does he fix this?

    “Goldie, hold on! Just...just hold on, try to stay calm! I-I’ll get Kiki, or the Emperor! Someone!”

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@soltcde​: Hunter is wearing one of those 'this is my twin and he is the most excellent witch' with an arrow shirts. Yeets the other right at Noel's face. "Listen, you're stuck with me!"

~ ~ 🐦︎ ~ ~ Unprompted — Always Accepting

    Noel just kind of stares at the shirt Hunter is wearing, barely reacting when the other tosses him one as well. He jolts then, pulling the shirt off his head and looks at it. Exact same thing. But he’s not a witch; he’s a Grimwalker.

    ...That doesn’t matter to Hunter though, does it? He doesn’t care what Noel is. They’ve grown up as twins and...and even if they aren’t true siblings, that’s all they know.

    Noel replaces his current shirt with the one Hunter tossed to him and smiles weakly. “I can think of worse things than to be stuck with you.”

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@soltcde​: Factory Reset @ Noel!!

~ ~ 🐦︎ ~ ~ Send “Factory Reset” To meet a version of my muse that has no memory of anything from the time their story began. Either try to help them remember, or take advantage of it as you see fit. --- Accepting

    He really didn’t want to fight with Goldie, but had been subconsciously been preparing for this to happen. So much has happened between them over the years, and the distance that divided them after he left changed them both; for better and worse. Still, he hadn’t been expecting his twin to come at him with such ferocity out in the woods. Mentally cursing himself for going off on a walk with just Rascal in hand.

    There’s a noticeable difference in skills now when it comes to fighting. Goldie’s just as fast and quick as ever with their artificial staff; while Noel’s been learning how to use Rascal’s magic and the glyphs. One could say that his spells are more powerful, but the younger twin is slower. Has to spend precious seconds thinking his next move and pressing the glyphs carved onto his staff.

    Noel tries a few times to talk, but quickly gives it up as a bad job. When Goldie gets like this, they won’t listen to anyone...especially him. It’s all he can do to keep up with the relentless attacks---trying to retreat back to the Owl House without his twin following him. He’s about to turn tail and run after throwing an ice wall up, but it shatters and a spell is hurled directly at his head.

    It hits dead on. Noel’s eyes roll into the back of his skull and he collapses onto the grass. The dark blueish energy fades away quickly enough, and then he’s slowly sitting up; rubbing his head and looking confused. “Ow ow ow ow...”

    Noel turns, scared and confused to see his twin aiming the staff at him. “G-Goldie! Stop! W-w-wait a moment! I don’t...where are we?” A chirp startles him, magenta eyes turning to the now highly concerned Palisman on his shoulder...who flies off with a distressed noise when the witch tries to smack him.

    “AHH! PALISMAN! WILD MAGIC! GET OFF!”