#˗ˏˋ꒰ 🐈 ꒱ ┈┈┈〈 𝐒𝐓𝐔𝐃𝐘〉 ichimatsu

[nosomatsu]

(( suddenly thinking about ichimatsu and the riceball's hunt for cats again.. small analysis beneath the cut ))

it's fascinating that while ichi enjoyed it at first, the reason he went so numb to it so fast wasn't because he disliked cats. rather, he realized now that he had no real excuse to even go out of the house for extended periods anymore. ichimatsu doesn't enjoy being a hikikomori, it's pretty painfully clear that it's super fucking isolating for him. finding cats was the sole thing that could even get him out of bed most days.

... but now that he knows where all the cats are , what's even the point? he could go there and go right back home. now he has no reason to even TRY to go out of the house. i mean he still would to feed them and see them, but he would be miserable unless he found kitties in unexpected places. the search is the biggest reason he enjoyed it so much and the riceballs kind of ruined tht for him for a little while, albeit unintentionally.

the only other times he really goes out is if his brothers drag him along or the nightly safe care shit. but the thing about that is, like . . . they don't drag him out often at all. and it's very rare that he can muster up the energy to go on his own. it's not impossible or unheard of, but when he does, he also walks the least busy / lesser known routes, where he runs into as little people as possible. he goes to the park only when it's incredibly isolated. he probably only goes for oden because it's so isolated / out of the way at night that rarely anyone goes there.

we only ever see him out and about in public places if it's with his brothers but even then he keeps his head down and tries to avoid talking to everyone. the cats were the only reason he'd go out of the house when his brothers aren't around or they can't convince him to go anywhere. the idea of not knowing where he could find one is the one thing that kept him going and walking, trying out new places he'd never been to before even if he was ANXIOUS AS HELL ABOUT IT.

in his mind, it was his first step forward to be more independent and breaking the vicious homebody hikikomori cycle, and it was actually one of few things he isn't burningly numb / actually does have strong emotions about whether he realizes it or not ( although i err on, he's the kind of depressed where he worries he's numb entirely and can't feel anymore but then something Happens that proves otherwise and it always makes him [shocked pikachu] when he does still VERY MUCH FEEL EMOTIONS )

so. yeah. his spirit and tendency to go out on his own for a little while was absolutely crushed. I think it was even more noticable how glum he was so his brothers tried to get him out of the house WAY more often -- aaand that's why we see him in so many morie social situations he'd usually be caught DEAD before ever attending. although he's grumpy on the outside, he does seem to appreciate it. he has sincere and extreme trouble expressing his gratitude, but it cannot be understated how much that helped his mental health in the long run.

Evidently, it eventually healed, and he never once blamed the cats -- but there's a speck of bitterness and disappointment at the riceballs which he tries to smother. they could never and would never be able to understand the weird way he approached thinking about the search. they were confused when he got upset with being shown every place cats could possibly be, and even if he DID try to explain it, they still probably wouldn't have gotten it.

after all, it's not very logical, and certainly is a VERY strange line of thinking. but it is who ichimatsu is -- a shut in, who is desperate for any excuse to leave the house on his own and gain the courage to do so on a more regular basis. when the sole thing that kept him exploring and getting out on his own loses all meaning, he falls into a pretty bad headspace about it and becomes more of a shut in than ever.

thank goodness that his brothers didn't let that happen for too long, though. <:)

[nosomatsu]

(( because i feel like subjecting you all to it. here. just for u guys.............. a ramble on fixing bringing the brothers together from s1e25 ina more sensical and not lameass way. and also!!!! s1e24 osomatsu and why he reacted the way he did to all the bros moving out. Under the cut!!!! it's long !!! it's unfiltered 4 am discord ramblings so. hYAAATCHACHA prepare for that ))

My personal headcanon is that. What actually brings them all together is ichimatsu ending up in the hospital from his illness..I mean they were all apart for like Months ic . And he was definitely on the streets for a While. But as you saw he was getting pretty sick and collapsing in front of strangers. He's lucky that the couple was there to help catch him otherwise he would just hit the pavement. But he's clearly too prideful to return back home and doesn't want the shame and stigma of needing help from his family and I know it's a cultural thing but also I think he's just generally very... Stubborn. Absolutely wouldn't want to ask for any help. So it would end until he got brought to a hospital and that's the thing that brings everybody back together and gets them talking. Because the same thing happens in season 2 with the father. They were having a big fight and the one thing that could get them all together was their father in a similar sitch and then they all started taking life a little more seriously? You'll see when we get there but yeah I think that it would be the only realistic thing that could get them talking . Ichimatsu is going to be fine he's not going to be like injured or hurt or anything. He's just going to be very badly sick for a bit

But also. Ichimatsu's self worth is so abysmally low as we know . That like... Not only do I feel that would lead him properly being taken care of and have the others help him understand his worth, and show how they value him... But I also think that's actually something he desperately needs to hear. He's not a guy who lets others take care of them very often. But I think that.. because of how dysfunctional the family has become and the drifting from most of the brothers. Even if they do still deeply care about one another it's clear their dynamics are all sorts of fucked up , and ichimatsus depression and isolating tendencies are left to fester a bunch when jyushi isn't trying to help .

I think it would really do him good to have a reminder every now and then that his family does actually care about him ( or at least his brothers do .. their parents are fuucked up most of the time and don't bother to remember their names idk how to feel about them ) Even if he usually hates such attention It's... necessary sometimes And honestly would kickstart ichimatsus character development to what he Becomes in these next seasons bc otherwise there's no real reason why he just turns to a weird little cat guy Who isn't as much of a freak

And then there could have been a whole reaction from oso himself. Maybe he's even the reason they are all united again, with reaching out to the bros even if he feels like it's a long shot. Maybe he found ichi, too. Would rattle him into loosening up and we know that would be the case cause of season 2. Talking out why he was so angry instead of him letting it fester. AND A FUCKING APOLOGY TO JYUSHI

Personally I think it's like. He genuinely felt betrayed not because he didn't want his brothers to succeed but because he wasn't ready to separate in any way / he is .. like very over protective in his own way ( even if he rarely shows it ) over his brothers. He doesn't care if they have a job or a girlfriend or if they try to better themselves. We see that he is completely okay with that stuff. But he is absolutely not fine with anyone leaving , for a variety of reasons that only make sense if you know the context of osomatsu-kuns series. It shouldn't have manifested as anger but it did and then he just kind of got this attitude like "well clearly you don't care about US if you're moving out so I'm not gonna care about you. You're dead to me."

But then he kept. Hurting his brothers or getting really dicey and mean to them because he doesn't know how to regulate not lashing out Which isn't great but . That's what it feels like they were going for. and on top of that, they all felt like they needed to rush out and get a job and be like choro, grow up and function without any actual guidance or clue as to how to actually make it. Otherwise, the show wouldnt have gone out of its way to show how they were barely scraping by / how uncomfortable and miserable they were; they werent ready for this in the slightest, but it's what is expected of them. even if it crushes their spirit. even if they miss home and they miss their brothers so badly.

anyways ... it was pretty clear that osomatsu absolutely should have received that letter choromatsu wrote. Hed moved out basically the same day he told them he had a job -- all ready to leave without saying a prior word ( and he meant to leave that letter for them but alas he forgot to ) Nobody was happy about anyone moving out but the parents, and with osomatsu refusing to apologize/ getting so physical if you tried to bring it up. None of the other brothers wanted to be around him I mean. Osomatsu isn't a guy you can just drop that on and he'll be ok with it. He needs a lot more heads up before it happens, because he's clearly got some attachment issues and a weird relationship with family feelings.

The others weren't very happy, they said they were pretty sad but wanted to celebrate being happy for choros sake. But you saw how he hurt jyushi, and then how he hurt todomatsu after Todo scolded him for not seeing choro off. which is significant, because despite not acting like it totty DOES deeply care for his brothers ( otherwise he wouldn't have been in tears when choro Did leave . And he left cause oso hurt him pretty bad; if oso hadn't done that I genuinely think he'd have stayed ) Plus also choromatsu did arrange all of the living place arrangements without letting anyone know for a long time. I guarantee he felt betrayed because.. well in ep 23s end in the bathhouse choromatsu straight up lied to them When he said he would give up on a job and a house and blah blah blah He was being weirdly dodgy and nervous and then that carried into ep 24 When it's revealed the reason WHY is because he was about to drop that moving out the same day bombshell on them

]And if there is one thing osomatsu hates the most. It is ABSOLUTELY. liars Of any kind. That is consistent throughout the show. He hates when his brother's lie to his very core. He hates in anybody lies really but especially his brothers. That's why he sabotaged totty's job at Starbucks, because totty didn't think being himself was good enough. Everything he SAID to the girls he was hitting on was a complete lie, he was ashamed to be who he was and osomatsu was having none of it They could handle the insults and the worries about girls. But where osomatsu draws the line is all the lying about University, his home life, his personality, everything. So he got all the brothers to go along with him and make an ass out of themselves to get totty fired Cuz they were being completely normal at first until they found out that he Was being such a liar I have analysis on totty about why he did that too but the focus is osomatsu here

and i just think it's criminal that they were too cowardly to tackle and discuss this unlike in later seasons. didn't grow their balls yet i guess basically though about choro's letter. that could have been key to help osomatsu understand hiding it wasn't a choice choromatsu made out of maliciousness but rather nervousness. i think if anyone needed to hear those words it was very much osomatsu and it was a cop out that he never got to. that wouldn't have fixed everything, but it would have fuckin helped.

...But in a living situation like the brothers where their trust is constantly shattered all the time by everyone but each other ( + all the trauma that happens to them both as kids in osokun and adults in ososan that's just.. shrugged off and never thought about again despite being Canon and very clearly still affecting them in later eps ) and how oso insists many things should be a "sibling discussion" even if it makes little sense to be. and why he's so brutally honest ( too much so at times. he won't even really tell little white lies even when he knows they can be useful ) + prioritizes honesty and hates liars so much. too many people lie to them already, can he not even trust his own brothers now?

so, i can see why he acts the way he does. doesn't JUSTIFY it. i still wanna kiill s1 oso with hammers. but. hey he gets better <:3 also one last addendum my friend theo said becauyse this is also truth

Osomatsu is a character that needs communication. he exists insecurely which makes me rather sad for his existence where he will be in vulnerable situations and ask for reassurance / look for it which is something that he isn't good at, him isolating and shutting down is his way to ask for help and reassurance,. only in season 2 after the scare of thier father is when he actually begins to communicate and be more vocal about the way the world is effecting him and the fear he experiences. that's when he realizes ' hey.. why am I forcing myself to exist and rush through all of this right now because my dad was sick and i realized the mortality and fragility of life and how it can end in a second ' and it helps him grow up very quickly in a short time as we see the effects in the third season ( and the first movie ). HE"S STILL NOT THE BEST BROTHER MIND YOU but he's also in a position where he's learning and growing as a person through his experiences in his life and these crushing realities of how the adult world is and how they are expected to act

all this said. here. i leave you with my favorite oso edit that's been plaguing me for weeks now

[nosomatsu]

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