@arzhur said, “ Value loyalty above all else. ”
𝐈𝐓 𝐈𝐒 𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐑𝐈𝐅𝐘𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐇𝐎𝐖 𝐀 𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐄 𝐎𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐃 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐃 𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃 𝐁𝐄𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐄 𝐇𝐎𝐌𝐄 𝐒𝐎 𝐐𝐔𝐈𝐂𝐊𝐋𝐘; the great halls of Camelot, its streets with their eager inhabitants, and the sight that unravels at dawn when she rises – it feels so DIFFERENT than what it used to be. The absence of dragons that skim across the sky leaves a heart reluctant to trust the future that might come, but the forests with their emerald crowns remain the same, standing with PERSEVERANCE against the change of time. At times, she feels like she KNOWS Albion. But that cannot be: if she knows it then she does so only through the eyes of the king and by his words. When he talks about his people, she becomes HUMBLE, as humble as she used to feel when she was younger. Wide-eyed and with an unquenchable thirst to discover what hid underneath the auburn skin of the earth, she used to believe the universe held many more ENTICING secrets than it did daunting ones. He rekindles that curiosity, even if it remains hesitant. How he does it or why, she does not want to question. Mostly, out of fear that knowing his reasons and methods could DISENCHANT the sway he holds over her.
Arthur Pendragon is a concept, an enigma; whenever he rises onto his feet, the earth SHIFTS a little although anticipating the steps he may take and their consequences. And she is certain, since knowing him more so than ever before, that life follows a GUIDELINE and that all possible endings are predicted if not yet defined. This life is a short one, she sees it whenever she looks into his eyes. Skuld stares back with eyes not much older than his and no visible wrinkles on her fatigued features – Arthur Pendragon dies YOUNG. Where he does, she does not know but that he will, is certain. It changes her, changes every word she speaks to him. The few nights that he spends with her when his time allows, she quenches the premonition in whatever way she finds suitable. His chest rises and sinks in his sleep like the ebb and flow of the ocean, a REASSURING image that comes back to mind whenever charcoal eyes cast their gaze across the lands of Camelot. Somewhere out there, where lands kiss the water, his chest rises and sinks evermore and her inability to talk about the dread that fills her whenever she looks at him becomes INSIGNIFICANT. She knows the ocean, knows her tides and her depths and in the dark, she even knows her whispers like she knows HIS.
Tongue could not have verbalised her emotions even if she wanted to. Returning home from work and falling into the arms of the two men that have loved her despite the consequences of doing so, should REASSURE a mind that she perhaps merely overacts. It doesn’t. Neither Kua nor Willem can understand what it must be like to predict a fate outside one’s own reach, how it makes you wonder if enough love could make you blind and FORGET. So she dwells on it on her own as Camelot continues its hustle and bustle. The emerald crowns of the trees beyond the walls of the kingdom will remain persistent then also, when Arthur has died and she has withered. Perhaps they will MOURN at least in her imagination, taking back what once was theirs and leaving behind something to remember. Fingertips yearn to take a little of the soil with her, to incorporate it into her veins and to memorise the effort made to bring back what Albion had lost under tyranny. But no king dies innocent; if she wants to remember Arthur Pendragon, she wants to remember him as he is NOW – watching her from the entrance to the room, curious, courageous, a man who makes no time for her when his people need him more. That man, she LOVES. Perhaps he dies before she can grow to hate him, or perhaps he dies before he can grow to hate HER.
A smile masks the troublesome pondering when she catches his gaze. She dissolves her figure from the windowsill, posture meticulously calculated. The castle is no safe haven and perhaps never will be – but at times, she yearns to feel what it must be like to LIVE with him. He is the king, a lover, but she lacks the right proximity to call him a friend. And that the love is MUTUAL, of course, cannot be shown. Feet settle for a comfortable pace, the unspoken warning that he only has a little time for a very short walk is absolutely clear. Still, he could have spent his limited time in any other way and she appreciates every brief conversation they hold.
“ Sir Gwaine entertained me earlier this day with a story from when he lived as a vagabond, ” she begins, mouth already CURVED with the implication of a smirk. He raises his brows in expectation. “ It surprises me you picked him to become part of the round table – even now, he still exhibits certain characteristics that only a man of rogue honour has. ” The joke falls flat, though she takes no offense; the crown is a heavy burden and one she is fortunate to have AVOIDED throughout all her life. She would not want to marry Arthur Pendragon, either. It does not matter how much she loves him, does not matter how meticulously well she knows his expressions – and when his frown is a mere HABIT and not a manifestation of his thoughts. She was not born to be queen. Many other women fulfil the role much better than she ever could. It is in ARTHUR’S responsibility to be just, it is not in hers. She has no qualms about refusing to aid whomever she dislikes and had Arthur not somehow pulled her into his grasp, she perhaps would not have followed him, not even AFTER he’d proven his loyalty to the people.
Life is fleeting and a lifetime of suffering occasionally makes one SELFISH. She aids the sick because she finds a purpose in it, and the same purpose she used to find in WAR. Allowing her the power to make decisions would not end well for Camelot. HIM, she could give a life of abundance, a life of adventure and carelessness – and perhaps, had she met him at any other point in life, perhaps he could have been successfully MOULDED into a man willing to entertain a life like the that. But the man she fell in love with looks at her pensively and then he utters with knitted brows, “ Value loyalty above all else. However rogue his demeanour might be, Sir Gwaine saved my life more than once. ”
A GRIN follows the his word’s of honest admiration. She once knew the way that his mother looked at his father. She never mentions it – the wound of losing a beloved parent hardly ever heals. She knows it HERSELF. In every life she lives, she loses her mother and her father hardly ever even knows of her birth. But the way Ygraine de Bois looked at Uther Pendragon even before his appointment of Camelot’s king, she REMEMBERS and occasionally, when the mirror reflects her weary expression in passing, she catches herself regarding Arthur with almost the same RAPTURE. This time, is one of those occasions. But in one thing, she was wrong; the devotion he pours into the life of his people, it is not UTHER’S. His father wanted a son so desperately and was so blinded by the loss of his wife that he forgot he’d never truly LOST her in the first place.
The sun tickles upon pale olive skin when the walls of the castle are finally left behind. She halts, turns to her king. The sheer fabric that covers dark waves of hair trembles uneasily in a brief draught of wind as brows furrow and a FROWN replaces the light-hearted expression. “ I used to think true loyalty was a lie – and any cheap imitation of it, bought and not freely given. ” The smile that she dons is dishonest and BLAND, charcoal eyes stare at him with some kind of affliction. That she lowers her gaze, she only does to avoid the EMBARRASSMENT that comes with having been proven wrong. “ Should there ever come a time where I harbour the same erroneous presumption, remind me of your words. ”
— 𝐅𝐈𝐅𝐓𝐄𝐄𝐍 𝐂𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐑, 𝐇𝐄 𝐃𝐎𝐄𝐒 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐃𝐎𝐄𝐒 𝐒𝐎 𝐔𝐍𝐁𝐄𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖𝐍𝐒𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐈𝐌. She lingers in the lecture hall after his presentation’s ending, a grin on her lips and with the last slide still projected onto the screen. “ However rogue his honour might have been, Sir Gwaine saved his king’s life more than once, hm? ” James Pendragon looks up, features expressing a slight semblance of CONFUSION as though he attempts to unravel the familiarity of the sentence. But the moment she believes to see recognition in far too acquainted eyes, he shakes it OFF. Her grin remains; the emerald crowns of trees have persisted against history’s transience and the ocean still ebbs and flows as though it REMEMBERS. Perhaps if she digs open his grave, he will too.
It’s the first time she ever invites him to a coffee.
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@urobouris said : “ Thought you may like this. ” And he proffers an ornate, gilded knife, restored from a terrible state. Its age is apparent despite its hilt being encrusted with rubies. It’s his way of wishing Moa a happy birthday. ― birthday wishes . no longer accepting .
𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐒 𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐂𝐎𝐔𝐋𝐃 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐊 𝐈𝐓’𝐒 𝐀 𝐒𝐀𝐅𝐄 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓 ; all women like jewels set in gold, embellished and polished and ready to be shown off for the world to see but … Albert knows her BETTER than that. She is a handful to deal with, constantly on edge and far too disobedient when faced with orders that seem illogical or not PRODUCTIVE enough. But he sees through it and whatever it might be, it always works out. Pale - olive fingers wrap around the handle of the knife as soon as it is offered , the way that charcoal eyes look up at him and the way that lips curl equally as much ―― her expression betrays her, if she can even CALL it betrayal.
He is one of the few people alive that KNOWS the majority of her secrets and whom she trusts enough to take them to the GRAVE. The knife weighs heavy in her palm, comfortable and cool ; thumb brushes across its surface momentarily before she swings it around fingertips, blade DANCING effortlessly through her grasps ――― every once in a while, she thinks she must have KNOWN him. The way she loves him, the way she trusts him ―― and family is not just defined by BLOOD, she knows, but when knife lands securely in and open palm again and eyes catch his EXPECTANT expression, she cannot imagine a life without him as her brother. It must have been lonely, not having someone who’d pick a terribly RUSTED and DIRTY piece of weaponry and return it to its VIRGIN STATE.
He’s done it with her. Somehow, anyhow ―――― made her feel YOUNG again.
“ It’s beautiful, ” she says in response. Knows exactly where she’ll put in in her collection and considers to maybe even USE it for the next blót. It’s sharp to the touch, wouldn’t have expected anything else, and she drops the hand holding the knife safely to her side before WRAPPING a free arm around Albert’s neck and pulling him into an EMBRACE. Figure rises onto her toes, she should have perhaps donned high heels for once but they’re so IMPRACTICAL ――― and he’ll have to FORGIVE her for forcing him to bend down a little, make himself smaller to return the embrace. It’s the curse of being the OLDER sibling, she’d joke in any other situation ; you’re always smaller than the younger one, always the prototype.
Cool palm stays on a cheek momentarily when she withdraws. The smile on her lips in genuine and WARM. “ Thank you. Not just for this ――― for everything. ” There is a certain VULNERABILITY of the utterance that only the right language can convey and it’s no secret that in private conversations with either Albert or Willem, voice slips into German and EFFORTLESSLY, accent-freely so but … here it feels RIGHT. Like it makes it more personal without having to speak many more words ; she’s never been GOOD at it, anyway. Conveying emotion, admitting affection. Learning all languages of the world changes little about the difficulty that tearing down thick WALLS entails ; she prides herself to be rational on most days and angry on a few. But underneath professionalism and rage, she’s still just a WOMAN.
And he means so much.
Fingertips let go of his cheek and drop to her side. She still GRINS, exhales a laughter - laced breath of air. “ You know me, and you don’t hate me for it. And you know … this … Red, Tom, James ――――― I don’t think I’d ever have this many friends without you, Albert. Never did. ”
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