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#“You should have known I am full of shit not unicorns and rainbows” is such a banger line. Warrior woman vibez
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Lucy Gray is so Unicorns & Rainbows (Boyfriend) by Daddy Issues coded
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areadbheir · 1 month
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𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐀𝐔𝐋𝐓 of 𝘜𝘕𝘐𝘊𝘖𝘙𝘕 𝘖𝘝𝘌𝘙𝘓𝘖𝘙𝘋
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𝐨𝐧𝐞. #AREADBHEIR is an independent, private, highly selective and mutuals exclusive writing blog for great knight renault from unicorn overlord
this blog is 18+. please do not follow me if you are under 18!
𝐭𝐰𝐨. shipping isn't my main priority, but it might happen. still, it will require a LOT of plotting and will not be with any mun or muse under the age of 21.
i am very open to other sorts of bonds, though! because it isn't just romance when people talk about ships-
i should also note that i will accept mains and exclusives! i am also open to affiliates!
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𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐫. i am known for writing metas across the blogs i have. in the wise words of a friend:
with this in mind, the metas i write are portrayal specific to this blog, so please give them a read! i know i can be rather wordy- anyone who has followed me elsewhere may know this, but for my first time followers, worldbuilding is one of my favorite things to do. i am particularly fond of analysis of character psychology.
𝐟𝐢𝐯𝐞. to the point above, i do have other blogs! i am all over the place and need to learn to time manage.
and by this, i mean i work 32-40 hours as a registered nurse in an inpatient psychiatric unit. i am busy, i am tired, and i can't keep letting my focus go all over the place. inevitably, it still may do that because i have a tendency to be scattered, so if i don't get to something immediately, it isn't you, it's me!
also related to that, i do love communication! i struggle with reading the room (it's the Autism tm) and so if something's up or if you're bothered, please be direct with me! i will not take offense, i quite appreciate feedback so that i can be better as a person! in return, i will communicate back! i am learning to curate my space (after 10+ years of being on tumblr).
𝐬𝐢𝐱. there are people i won't interact with due to various reasons. i won't interact with genderbent versions of characters, people who are Real Life Individuals (not counting fictional depictions like in the typemoon franchise or whatnot because those really have nothing to do with the actual individual they're supposedly based on?).
please stay far away from me if you fall under the following categories (i'm censoring things because god knows tumblr just picks shit up idk): proshipping, writing inc*st, p*dophilia, r*pe/n*ncon, are transphobic/homophobic- the usual gross behavior! use your moral compass!
on top of that, i am a firm believer that we learn from the media around us. full censorship is just as dangerous as the aforementioned things- the world isn't all sunshine and rainbows! please refer to this post which essentially summarizes the gist of what i'm trying to explain.
𝐬𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧. anyway, hello, i'm percival / percy, i am 30+ and use he/him pronouns exclusively! i am a hobby artist (it's my side-gig from nursing) and sometimes i post my art, tagged #whats my art tag considering i constantly forget my art tag if it's fancy. please do not repost my art without my permission.
mutuals, feel free to ask me for my discord, since i am much easier to reach there!
i look forward to writing with you!
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severalbakuras · 6 years
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s2e15 and 16!
~they will stare, unbelieving,
at the last mabelcooooooorn~
now what’s/who’s this.
oooh triangle bad IT’S BILL COMING FOR HIS DREAMS
CALLED IT
CROP TRIANGLE
well well well
woah that sky texture
woah those freeze frames.
you’d think he’d think to warn them about bill earlier, or even ask considering he’s in the journals and he knows the kids have read them.
JUMANJI
PUPPIES
where’s stan for this family meeting? didn’t feel like waiting? >:(
nobody is pure
wait he sent mabel off on a quest he ‘knew’ she’d fail? don’t intentionally separate them dude they only defeated bill last time because of each other. plus rude to underestimate her the same way you did stan.
candy no. mabel NO.
was wendy a regular at the blind eye to not believe in any of this or something?
NIGHTMARE EYES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CELESTABELLABETHEBELL IS HORRIFYING
i mean they’re right but they’re still a NIGHTMARE HORSE. the actual last unicorn would beat their ass down.
all powerful demon defeated by earth rocks melted just right lel.
that’s a lot of thoughts.
IT IS FORD IT’S VERY IMPORTANT
nightmare eyes has a point with the good deeds (although to the person being good deeded, the motives of the person doing the good deed probably wouldn’t matter most of the time), definitely not so much the bad person bit bc she’s demonstrably not.
‘if i’m not x what am i?’ dipper and mabel y’all should talk about these identity issues sometime.
illegal gnome tavern?
CANDY’S GONNA FUCK SHIT UP
sdjfsd they actually got away with airing this.
IT’S ALWAYS THE DEER
get fucked c-beth.
PUNCH THAT HORSE SPILL THE RAINBOW BLOOD OF YOUR ENEMIES
hey bill
HE WORKED WITH FORD
HE MADE A DEAL TILL THE END OF TIME
HE POSSESSED HIM
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OH FUCKING HELL FORD
HOLY SHIT DIPPER
OH MY GOSH HIS REACTION TO PINE TREE
‘TRUST NO-ONE’
bill really messed you up huh dipper.
the memory wipe wouldn’t have worked though bc bill would’ve just fled before it hit and the plate would reflect it right???
ignoring those kinds of warnings is never a good idea.
oooh that was a cool scene transition.
did he just predict ford’s death? or is he just lying. he’s probably lying bc if he knows how ford’s gonna die then he knows how the rest of his life is going to play out and given this is a disney show and bill’s the villain he’s not gonna win. and he doesn’t seem the type to buy into predestination that he’s not directly in control of anyway.
he knows exactly how to play him.
HE HAS FRIENDS
consider DESTROYING those instructions??? if nobody ever builds the rift he can’t get in.
not just him ford, the whole family!!
SHE SUCCEEDED and she’s covered in tears and blood.
that’s not a lot of room…
BILL
STAY AWAY FROM SOOS TRIANGLE BITCH
roadside attraction:
I HATE THEM ALL ALREADY DESTROY THEM FOR CRIMES AGAINST BEST BOY.
MABEL BOUNDARIES
i guess ford’s just. staying behind on his own again. neither bonding with the kids, nor even attempting to reconcile with stan. i’m sure this will have no repercussions down the line. 
i’m pretty sure that’s just straight up vandalism.
didn’t we have a whole episode about how bad stan was at flirting last season?
this episode has that ‘filler’ air to it… it’s high tier filler rn but still.
how is his hat staying on?
WOAH
she’s cool
oh no CANDY
again this isn’t pranking this is vandalism and now potential lawsuits for all those broken bones.
did they not see all the other numbers/emails?
SOOS NO YOU MONSTERS GO BACK RIGHT NOW
that counts as flirting? he’s twelve and those conversations lasted like a minute.
SHE SHIPS THEM i’m going to pre-emptively say ‘mabel boundaries’ and also - well i was about to say she recently learned the consequences of forcing people together but it all ended up working out with robbie. eh. mabel you’d hate it if dipper did this to you with gideon just sayin’.
but you’ve got a forest full of real attractions. that you know about!!
yeah called it, she kind of gideon’d him into that date.
THAT’S RIGHT DIPPER
NO STAN SHUT UP
she’s getting fired.
y’all have known him for like 20 seconds it’s hardly dating. idk what the big deal is really? it’s not like he’s saying ‘you can only date me now -smugface-‘ to each girl.
she’s a spirson!
soos wouldn’t have got caught like him…
WOAH WHY’D IT HAVE TO BE THE FACE SHE TURNED INSIDE OUT
he didn’t want to go on a date with you in the first place candy.
always read pamphlets.
i feel like they’re going for the ‘being a PUA is bad, don’t treat people like disposable collectibles’ message which is fine but the point is kind of muddled and watered down into nothing bc of the fact that this is a kid’s show and dipper is twelve and didn’t do any of the heinous shit that PUAs actually get up to bc if he did he and stan would be incredibly horrible people. i feel like they could’ve written roughly the same sort of moral in a less clunky way without using disposable female characters who will most likely never show up again after this episode.
and especially candy reverse gideon-ing that sucked.
GO BACK FOR SOOS YOU ASSHOLES.
(eh gotta say this one felt kinda phoned in – like it could’ve slotted in anywhere between dipper realizing he’d never be with wendy and ford’s return since he’s not mentioned. and like i don’t mind episodes light on plot advancement but they’ve got to be high-tier for me to not put them on my ‘skip on rewatching’ list and this was mid-tier.)
(ehh every show has at least one episode that doesn’t hit the mark for me (and sometimes seasons oooh) it’s not a big deal)
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bronyinabottle · 7 years
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ONCE UPON A ZEPPELIN THOUGHTS
If you've known me in regards to some of my wishlists for episodes in the show. You would definitely know that I've been wanting an episode involving Twilight's parents for a loooooooooonnnnnggggg time. Probably the very moment they made their first appearance in Cutie Mark Chronicles, they became an instant want for an episode involving them as early as Season 2. Being this is Season 7 and just now they finally got around to an episode with them you know I've been disappointed on that front quite a few times heh. I appreciate the cameos they had and especially the speaking role they had in the Season 6 opener but I still craved a full episode with them. And finally we got one at last. While I still wish we got to see them more fully earlier then this, I did really like this episode.
Though let's get an elephant out of the room. Yes they gave them completely different voice actors in this episode as opposed to from the Season 6 opener. And at the very least regarding Twilight's Mom. The voice Tara gave her is probably better then the voice she had in this episode. That said I don't HATE Twi's Mom's new voice, it probably fits better with the personality she was given in the episode. I do kinda wonder if maybe Twi's parents speaking in the S6 Opener was a little bit of a rushed thing where the staff is like "Oh shit, we should probably have the parents see their new grandchild… Quick get Tara and Andrew to speak a few lines!". It's going to be a bit of a noticeable oddity with the episode. But it didn't ruin the episode for me.
Now I was concerned that they were going to leave Spike completely out of the episode. And indeed he doesn't go. But they probably used the absolute best excuse to not have Spike go in having him offer to take over paperwork duties for Twilight. And Twilight even says  she considers Spike part of her family. That's really important to me, especially if you know what I've done between Spike and Twilight on I Dream of Twilight Sparkle ^^ I probably wouldn't have been too upset if they had completely glossed over him as others would be as it's kinda the thing that Spike gets the short end of the stick. But at least this time they had a good excuse to not have him go.
Right away when we see Twilight's parents we are told the two things that define them in the episodes. Night Light (Twilight's father) warns Twilight that her mom's idea of a relaxing vacation is extreme stuff like bungee jumping. Very surprising but I don't mind because we just see how crazy fun she is later. And Twi's father is huge into Bingo.
An interesting tidbit we also get from this episode; Twilight and Shining were not born in Canterlot. Now they were certainly RAISED in Canterlot. I don't think there's any doubt about that. But now where exactly they were born is a mystery. They obviously moved to Canterlot when Twilight was very young. But now it's something I'd like to know more about. Could we maybe get a 2nd episode with Twi's parents including flashbacks to tell us in Season 8 hmmmmm?
Also welcome back Iron Will. He's back to being that corporate antagonist. Not necessarily a villain but still someone who uses some rather dirty company tactics. I know it's also kind of Twilight's parents' fault for falling for it. But Iron Will could of still at least been more accommodating to Twilight. Maybe she and Iron Will could of at least talked about making sure she can see the Northern Lights later with her family. Iron Will is the ship/cruise manager. He could of at least shuffled the schedule (Maybe take a brief break during the autograph session)
Oh boy, Star Tracker. Definitely a stand in for a bit of a creepy fan with a bit of a crush. Though at least he gets some redemption later. But yeah a few things he does early on in the episode might warrant the hoofstomp he got from Twilight later. I'm certain it'll be another ship in the Shipping side of things somewhere. Though to be fair, Star Tracker's still better then Flash Sentry hehe.
We see Twilight Velvet's adrenaline junkie personality in full force at the waterfalls. Some of the excitement still in her face, shrunken pupils, wet mane, and everything. It's honestly great. I kinda want to see Twilight's mom meet Rainbow's parents. Or even just Rainbow Dash herself. Something tells me that would be awesome.
You know, when Iron Will jumped off in the parachute I was almost half-expecting Twilight's mom to have jumped off with him and said something like how she didn't know there was going to be a surprise skydiving event. That would of been a pretty funny joke to leave off from. Twilight and Cadence could of even flew to bring Velvet back on the ship for the final scenes.
Speaking of the final scenes it was very cute of the family to make the best recreation they can. Though Velvet in this scene also shows some surprising magic skill. You have to remember that self-levitation was believed to not been very easy. While I doubt Twi's Mom has like Starlight level power. Levitating herself, Shining Armor, and Flurry Heart has to be some impressive magic skill no matter how you shake it. Maybe Twilight might of at least partly inherited her skill in magic. Because from what we know about Magic, that's an impressive feat for one unicorn to do.
But that's the episode. I'm not going to say it's the best of the season or anything but I definitely think it's up there in the Top 5 of the season for me personally. I am so happy Twi's parents finally got their time to shine. So call me very satisfied with one of my wishlist episodes.
Next time is Secrets and Pies. A pretty crazy Rainbow and Pinkie episode. Now I did catch the rest of the season already through the leaks. But as always I'm doing these responses and thoughts as they air officially. Though I know because I've been late with the response to this episode the episode has already aired. I hope to have the response to Secrets and Pie by Thursday or Friday since i have an idea that won't take nearly as long as this episode's did. Seeya then.
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latina4rmbx · 5 years
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Are we doing a Disservice?
I was wondering, are we doing our children a disservice by not showing them how tough life can sometimes be?
I’ve been going through a rough patch financially and I’m not dwelling on it because I have a job that pays fairly well so I will be able to fix up my finances however no one knows that I’ve been struggling for a bit.  Not even my boyfriend because I don’t feel he needs to know about that part of my life right now.
I’m just going to explain a bit, to give you context although I KNOW I don’t have to.  I live pay check to pay check essentially, but comfortably.  I am able to manage all of my bills and put food on the table so on and so forth, but not really be able to save.  My car is the reason for this “financial crisis.”  I know a car is a LUXURY but it’s a luxury I CAN afford, at the moment.  However, I had to spend a shit ton of money to get some stuff fixed, an asshole hit my car, had to pay the deductible and then my breaks were shot, had to pay for that.  All in the span of maybe a month.
Like I said, it’s a rough patch, not a hole I can’t dig myself out of.  The money spent would’ve been the money I used for vacation (which is probably why I feel it even more) but now I’ll be vacationing in Club Mi Casa.  Again, it’s little things and temporary hardships, however, my kids don’t know how “hard,” it feels on me.  The weight on my shoulders.
You know what, let me give you a better example because I feel like I’m bitching about shit I really have no need to be bitching about.  Poor little rich girl type shit.
I have a dear family member who lost 3 grand parents back to back to back.  The last grandparent to pass hit her hard because he helped raise her and her siblings along with her mother.  She got some not great news from the doctor (I don’t know if it was for her, any of her children, her husband or what) AND she just had a baby 3 weeks ago.
She and I were conversing, via FB Messenger, and she was so down.  She tells me she doesn’t know how she’s gong to get through this (what she’s feeling).  I’ll type part of the conversation because it’s relevant to this post:
Her: Omg just seeing that message.  Thank you so much.  Love you!!
Me: It’s ok ________.  You have a lot on your plate.  You just had a baby and both of your grandparents died.  You’re stronger than most girl.  God bless you and your family.
Her:  Yes 3 grandparents back to back month after month
Me:  Oh wow.  Girl.  See what I mean?  You’re strong.  Crying doesn’t make you weak.  Asking for help doesn’t make you weak.
Her:  I’m trying to learn that.
I’m going to pause the convo here for a second because this is where the inspiration for this post started brewing (speaking of brewing, I should really put on my percolator.  I need COFFEE)
She was raised by a strong woman.  A woman that didn’t take no shit from anyone.  Who loved her kids and did the best she could with what she had.  I KNOW there  were times her mother was overwhelmed.  This person I’m having the conversations above was a problem.  Getting into fights, running away general adolescent BS.  However, she saw her mother get up every morning.  Do what she had to do for her kids.  Even if she was struggling to get up.
Myself, I’m a shower crier.  When life is getting too overwhelming for me I jump in the shower and I cry.  I put on sad music and I let it all out.  I honestly thought I was hiding it by doing that, but my girls told me they knew when something was up. They might not have known the WHY but they knew the WHAT.
As parents, we want to shield our children from the hardens of life as much as we can, but are we doing a disservice to our children by doing that?  Lets go back to the conversation I think I answer it there.
Me:  It’s hard when you’re raised by strong women who never wanted to show you their burdens.  But we all struggle.  Life can be a bitch sometimes.  It hits you fucking hard at times.  Take it on the chin and keep moving.  You’re a warrior!  Born and raised by a warrior.
Her:  that’s exactly it!!!!
Me:  I know.  I was also raised by warriors who never showed their struggles.  As I got older I realized how many burdens we, as women, have.  I appreciate them making it looks easy however it’s more a disservice because I never knew it could be this hard.
Me:  But like I said, YOU got this.  Trust in yourself.
Her:  Yes shit be hard.  I don’t wanna be a woman.
Me:  I feel you.  I sometimes hate being a woman too.  But then I remember we are the stronger of the sexes.
So now I pose this question:  Should we let our children witness the burdens we bear?  Mind you, I’m not talking about a 3 or 4 year old.  They’re too young to understand. Plus, that’s what the word “no,” is for.
Can I have this?  No
Can I have that? No
Are you gong to eat that? No.  Because lets be honest, as parents, even if we’re starving we’ll give whatever it is we’re eating to our children.  Although I have gotten into the habit of telling my son he can’t have what I’m eating because I’m also hungry and it’s not fair that he’s eaten all of his food and now wants to eat mine.  Although, if I’m being honest, I should probably say it more than I actually do.
However, when a kid reaches his or her teens, maybe they should bear witness (is it bear or bare?) to the struggles that parents have to endure.  If they get a job, allow them to help with bills.  If they don’t get paid enough, increase chores.  Because that’s another thing.  Keeping a home clean can be a full time job. Ask anyone who is in the cleaning industry.  Shit, ask my girl Jeannie, she’s a house keeper.  Have the kids pitch in.  Don’t shoulder the burdens of their dirty laundry alone.  The dirty dishes, they CREATE, oh hell NAW!!!  Wash them dishes.  These are subtle things you can do to unburden yourself.  
Give them, age appropriate, responsibilities.  You can have a reward system set up if you want.  I personally don’t.  My son lives here so he has to contribute.  Sorry, you can give me money toward rent, you paying in labor my guy.
I’m just wondering if we should actually let our children into our lives, a little more, so they can see the reality that is life.  We want to paint rainbows and unicorns for them but life isn’t set up that way hunty!  You gotta work for what you want.  Sometimes you have to grind HARD depending on the path you take.  Remind them every day that life isn’t going to be so kind to you.  Give them the speech about how life doesn’t give two fucks if they’re eating or hungry or tired or sick or scared.  Life is going to keep punching you in the face until you say it’s enough and do what needs to be done, if you can even DO it.  Sometimes people do shit just to survive not live.
But as a parent, always remind them that you love them and that you’re there for them to help pick them back up if they fall.
That’s all the brain space I have for this post today guys.  I still haven’t had my coffee.  
XOXO
Thank you for reading.
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2017 Year in REVIEW: Part 1
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 Hello everybody, my name is JoyofCrimeArt and man wasn't 2016 such a dumpster fire? I mean it was obviously the worst year ever in the history of the human race, I mean come on 2016! Why can't you be more like you're younger brother, 2017. I mean he was a great year!
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Wait, are you implying that blaming an abstract combination of numbers for all of last years problems...wasn't the most productive way to fix things? I'm shocked.  But who cares about the harsh and often depressing reality of our own society? We have more important things to talk about today. Cartoons! Because while the real world has been imploding in on itself the world of animation has been through many up's and downs this year, and that's what I'll be talking about today. In case you didn't see my 2016 Year in REVIEW: (Which you can check out right here #humbleplug 2016 Year in REVIEW: Part 1) let me explain how this is going to work. I have compiled a list of several different notable events that happened in the world of animation over the course of 2017. I will go over these events is roughly chronological order all while giving my thoughts and opinion of each one. I won't be discussing anime or theatrical films for the most part however, as these are topics that I don't keep track of as much. So this list is mostly about television and internet animation. Also keep in mind that there is no conceivable way of me going over every series or piece of animation news that came out this year, so I had to slim it down to the most notable events. So sorry in advance if I glance over anything. At the end of the review, I will rank all the new series that I talked about this year in order from worst to best, give this year an overall grade, and in a new twist I'll be deciding which animation network "won" the year. The winner doesn't have to have the best shows per say. They just need to have a large impact, or show some kind of improvement compared to previous years.  Also I feel like I should just point out that this entire concept is completely stolen from online anime reviewer Gigguk's yearly anime retrospect series. He's a big influence on me and my reviews and you can check him out here. www.youtube.com/user/gigguk&nb…  Whether you like anime or not, he's worth checking out and he's a LOT funnier than I am.  So with all that said it's time to get into this. It's time for my 2017 year in review! We start the year off in a bit of an unexpected place, Youtube, with the first notable series of the year. Hasbro's "Hanazuki: Full of Treasures."
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vjaCeuL2YaA
You have diabetes yet? Just wait.  This is a show that really seems like it went under the radar for a lot of people, probably because of the fact that it was released on Youtube. Hanazuki, (voiced by Jessica DiCicco of Loud House and Adventure Time fame) is a young "Moon Flower" who lives on a small moon out in space. The series follows Hanazuki as she tried to protect her moon from a shadowy blob monster known only as the "Big Bad." She does this by growing "Treasure Trees," magical trees that can only be grown when a Moon Flower feels intense emotion. These trees are the only thing that can ward of the "Big Bad." Hanazuki must learns all about the complexity of emotions if she wants to protect her new home. And the series just get's stranger from there.  Now obviously this show is targeted at kids. Really little kids, like five years old at most. More specifically five year old girls...and I frickin' LOVE IT! C'mon, you should all know this about me by now! I...am not the most masculine person on the planet. And I love myself a good "girl power show"  And this just right up my ally. This show is basically what you get if you take Star Vs, Wander Over Yonder, My Little Pony, andInside Out, shove it into a blender, and cover it in rainbow sprinkles. It's just to adorable for me to not recommend. 
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CGBSdYGA9II
 But not only is the show cute, it's also actually pretty good. Like it's nothing super complex or anything, but it is a show that can appeal to both kids and adults. (I swear!) Hanazuki is a really likable character. If you've read my web comic, Elinor High, you know I love myself any hyperactive cute girl. But what makes Hanazuki stand out from other hyperactive cute girls, you may ask? She got sass! Sure, show's nice most of the time, but she's not always the typical sunshine and rainbows protagonist you usually see in these kind of shows. She get's upset, and frustrated, and she can even be kinda snarky when people tick her off. Not only does this help give her some more depth, but it also helps support the shows theme of emotions.  The show has a real Inside Out vibe in terms of how it tackles emotions. The series really plays up the point that ALL emotions are important. Emotions like sadness, anger, and fear are treated as just as vital as happiness, bravery, or love. It's a message that you don't see talked about very much, but I think it's an important one.  Another thing I feel like I need to praise is the shows animation. It's flash, but it's TV quality flash. And they really make up with any faults the animation may have by having simply fantastic coloring. Purples, Blues, and Pinks are the colors of the show and it really pops, giving the show this colorful, sci-fi look. Especially when they go to the dark side of the moon, and the animation goes full black light poster.  However the show is far from perfect. Like I said, it's skewed young, so don't expect any super complex character writing or anything. Also the Hemka's, these little alien rabbit things that Hanazuki befriends, tend to come off as more annoying then lovable. There not Minion or Rabbid bad, but there in the same category. Also this show tries to be a "lore show" and it's kinda hit and miss. Some things, like the origins of the "Big Bad" and the exploration of the Moon Flowers and there powers are genuinely interesting. But other times it seems like the show is trying to take it'self to seriously. Like when we learn about the character Sleepy Unicorn's tragic, war torn backstory. No that's not a joke, that's a thing in this show. And it's not badly or anything, it's just kinda hard to take seriously when it's about a character who's name is Sleepy Unicorn!  Also, I quickly just want to talk about how the episodes we're released. Eventually they switched to just weekly uploads, but at first the episodes were released in nine episode bombs. And these bombs would always fall under the full moon. That's some black magic shit right there! I could go on, but I have a lot more stuff to talk about. This show is not for everyone. It's not going to have a super complex plot or characters, or tackle any heavy themes like some other shows that are out now of days. But if you just like some fun, cutesy fluff like I do, it's definitely worth a watch. Especially since it's free to watch legally on Youtube.  But hey, Do you remember those guys from that show, Regular Show?  Well they turned there park into a bio-dome.    And there still Regular Show....  But there in SPACE!
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That's right, Regular Show, one of the defining shows of modern cartoon era, finally came to an end. Just like with the Gravity Falls finale that I talked about last year, I will be going into spoilers, so if you haven't seen the finale yet and want t go in completely blind (which I do recommend) I suggest scrolling past this part and continue reading once you see the words in bold. So (SPOILER WARNING!)  Much like the Gravity Falls ending, the hour long Regular Show finale does have it's fair amount of problems. There is a good amount of padding, there are some plot hole regarding how the whole "universe restarting itself" thing is suppose to work. (Like how Benson, Muscle Man, Skips, and co all get destroyed and yet are brought back even though they stopped the universe from resetting. Also, Anti-Pops, despite the shows best efforts, failed to really come off as that interesting or threatening of a villain, for me at least.  ...But for the most part none of that matters.  Because when you come down to it, plot holes and inconsistency don't matter as long as the emotions resonate, and that's what this special did. It was everything a Regular Show fan could want in a finale. Filled with meta call backs from Mordecai and Rigby being transported back to the first episode (and the final part of the finale having the same title as the first episode) to Pops being sent back to the original student film that inspired Regular Show, it really felt like a celebration of how far the show had come. I don't want to go into HUGE spoilers even though this is the spoiler section, because I want people to watch this for themselves, but a sacrifice is made in this finale and it really sticks. That's something that even the Gravity Falls finale, which is amazing in it's own right mind you, didn't have the guts to do. So I applaud the show for having the balls to go through with the decision.  The episode ends with a montage of the characters as they age, ending with a final scene set twenty five years after the finale. I love endings that do this, and it's one of the most emotion scenes I've seen in a finale ever. The ending is made even more powerful by the music chose used for the scene, David Bowie's "Heroes." The fact that David Bowie had just passed away not that long before the finale aired made the ending seem even more bittersweet.  I'd say that the Regular Show finale lies pretty close to Gravity Falls in terms of endings. I think the Gravity Falls ending has a better first forty five minutes due to having a better villain and just having a grander feel to it, but I honestly do think that Regular Show has it beat in terms the last fifteen minutes, due to just having a (slightly) more emotional pay off, done mostly without words. I think Regular Show chose the perfect time to end, and I'm glad it ended on a high note.  And to celebrate this occasion, Cartoon Network decide to have a Teen Titans Go! Marathon to celebrate Martin Luther King Day...That was nice of them.  (SPOILERS NOW OVER!)  And speaking of a show going off on a high note let's talk about...the complete opposite of that. Hi, Fairly OddParents!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0XgwUp-SO7k
So yeah, let's talk about Fairly Oddparents again. Just when you think it can't sink lower, it does. As halfway through season ten the show had switched from tradition animation to flash. Now remember when I said that Hanazuki was animated in flash, but it's TV quality flash despite being a web series? Well Fairly Oddparents decided to do the opposite of that and have a TV series with late nineties internet quality flash. Seriously, I haven't seen a show with flash animation this bad since like, the mid two thousands at least. I've legit seen web series, like Homestar Runner, that have better flash! It's actually kinda incredible!  And just when you think things can't get worse, it does, as the show get's moved to Nicktoons. The retirement home of Nickelodeon shows. The final episode of season ten of Fairly Oddparents ended up airing later in the summer and, from what I can tell, it had no real big final episode. The show has yet to be renewed for an eleventh season, and since it's on Nicktoon now, I really have doubts that it'll happen. It is very possible that that season finale was Fairly Oddparents final episode.  I know a lot of you reading this are probably ecstatic at the news that the show is finally over. I mean to many, it was a shell of it's former self. But I'm honestly just kinda sad that it went out like this. Fairly Oddparents was Nickelodeons second longest running show, only behind Spongebob. And it was just got shafted. No fan fair, no special last episode. Nothing. I mean if a show as long lasting as Fairly Oddparents can get treated like this, then who's to say that the same won't end up happening to say Spongebob, or the Loud House, once there popularity starts to dwindle.  Like I said in the 2016 year in review, I'm never happy when a show ends because I know every show has it's fans and a lot of people are out of a job, but from a strictly artistic standpoint, it was time for the show to end. And from a business standpoint Nickelodeon didn't have a need for it anymore. Though it is still a bit bittersweet, seeing a show that was a big part of my childhood go.  But it's not all bad though, because as one door closes another one opens, as Butch Hartman created a new show for Nickelodeon, Bunsen is a Beast. Is it any better than modern FOP?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yccs2D7WvkA
 ....Eh, It's about the same really. The flash is a little better...I think.  Yeah, if you can't tell, I'm not that crazy about this show. The series follows Bunsen, a beast who transfers to an all human school, and Mikey his human best friend and the adventures that they go on. Honestly this show just doesn't seem to offer anything that new or interesting. Bunsen and Mikey are you're stereotypical happy go lucky idiot protagonist that a lot of Nickelodeon shows seem to have and most of the humor seems to be made up of the same "monster/alien has weird biology/culture/abilities" jokes that we've seen a million times before. There don't seem to be any concrete rules on how "Beast" work, it just seems to be whatever the show thinks is funniest in that exact moment. And rarely does the comedy land.  There are a few things about the show that are funny, however. Like the show's villain, Amanda. She's the cliche "character who hates the good guys and the world hates her" character and the cliche "racist villain" character all wrapped up in one package. However, what redeems her at least a little bit is just how over the top and hammy she is. She kinda feels like what would happen if you combined Vicky and Mr. Crocker into one Character. There's also this one really depressed ice cream man voiced by Jerry Trainor. Those two characters can get a laugh out of me. But as for everything else, not so much.  The show has also been moved to Nicktoons. So I don't see it getting a season two. So what now, is Butch Hartman's career over? Well not so fast, because as your second door closes another one opens, and in this case that door is Youtube.  That's right, Butch Hartman started his own Youtube channel! And I'm not just talking like just a small Youtube channel as a side project or anything. I mean like a regularly updating drawing Youtube channel that has done collaboration projects with the likes of Thomas Sanders, MatPat of Game Theroy, and Ande the Black Nerd. And it's...kinda great. Though full disclosure, Butch Hartman is a fifty year old dad, and it REALLY shows. He's is trying so hard to be hip with the "Youtube generation", and I commend his effort, but it never works. Ever. His channel might be the cringest channel on Youtube, but God damn it he's just so earnest that it's hard not to love. Some videos of his aren't that bad, like his "Danny Phantom: Ten Years Later" series. It's fun and interesting, and kinda makes me want to see a Danny Phantom continuation. But then he has videos like his  "Drawing Anime Characters In the Fairly Oddparents Style" series that are just...hard to watch. Like, I own all ten volumes of the Watamote manga and I think I've cringed less reading all of that then watching one those videos. You should check out his channel though. It's...interesting...to say the very least.  Meanwhile however, the animation community needed a new show to become the hot new thing. And then, after thirteen years of wait, the samurai returned.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Uxbp18y49E
 I already did a full review of Samurai Jack season five, so I'm going to make this brief (Link if you want my in-depth thoughts: Samurai Jack Season Five REVIEW:) Samurai Jack season five has a lot of really good things going for it. The animation is superb, featuring all of the things that made the animation of the first four seasons so amazing, but improved upon with modern animation technicians and the High definition. The series is also dark, while not losing touch with it's roots. The series tackles heavy issues like PTSD, depression, suicide, parental abuse, and does so without coming off as edgy. It feels like a natural progression from what came before, and never goes too dark to the point where it becomes unrecognizable from the Cartoon Network series. There is still that hopeful and optimistic element buried beneath the surface. It shows that you can have a smart and dark adult cartoon without the need for an alcoholic, womanizing, nihilist who hates himself. You can make a dark cartoon about...other things! Amazing, I know.  However, the show does have it's fair share of problems, that become more and more apparent as the season goes on. The pacing feels very rushed at points. The romance, while I think could work if given more time, is tacked on. And while everything else is much darker in tone, Aku seems to have become even less threatening than he was in the Cartoon Network days. The show first half is definitely better than the second half. However, despite it's flaws, I still really enjoyed the final season, and am glad that adult swim brought it back. It was definitely one of the more enjoyable cartoon events to happen in 2017.  Nickelodeon announced a theatrical Loud House movie for February 2020, and unlike the Adventure Time movie I actually think that this movie may come out. It has a date, the Loud House is still popular as of the time of the announcement, (Though only time will tell if it'll still be popular by 2020.) and it's Nickelodeon, who have more experience with making theatrical films. We don't know the plot yet, by my guess is that it'll involve some kinda government conspiracy. The Simpsons, Recess, whenever a slice of life cartoons get's a theatrical movie it tends to involve some kind of government conspiracy. I may not be a big Loud House fan, but I'll still see this in the theater. In general, if a traditionally animated film comes out in theaters I'll see it just to support the medium.  Meanwhile adult swim pulled the biggest animation trolling of the year by airing the season premiere of Rick and Morty on April Fools day unadvertised. Causing the whole animation community to drop everything they were doing to catch it. The ran the episode eight times on loop, preempting the much anticipated Samurai Jack causing a war in the fandoms. Which side where you on? Rick vs Jack. Comedic depression vs serious depression. Wubba lubba dub dub vs EXTRA THICC! Blood would be spilled!
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Oh, and Dragon Ball Super was prepted too. And nobody cared.  Understandably, many people were asking why they didn't just run Rick and Morty six times, and lets Samurai Jack air as well. And while no official answer has been given many people including myself theorize that adult swims deal with Toei and Dragon Ball Super may have been the reason. However nothings been confirmed.  Now I bet a lot of you are expecting me to be annoyed at this given how much you know I love Samurai Jack and how much I...don't love Rick and Morty but honestly I didn't mind it too much. Not only did this make it so the last Samurai Jack aired on my birthday, (I couldn't watch it on my birthday, but still.) But also the sheer number of memes and salt this created gave me much more enjoyment than I lost by being disappointed. Well played adult swim.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aiLk619tHgE
 An Invader Zim TV movie was announced and, wait really?! For real...like for real real? Okay, just checking. Invader Zim is getting a TV movie, slated to come out some time next year. Geez, between Zim, Hey Arnold, Samurai Jack and Young Justice it seems like every show that got cancelled without a proper finale is coming back! I am hesitant of a lot of these Nickelodeon TV movies, as personally a lot of them feel like there just there for nostalgia sake, and no other reason. But this is one I can get behind. Invader Zim ended without a proper conclusion and the fan base is so loyal so yeah, it deserves a finale. Though personally I would of preferred another season like Samurai Jack, cause honestly I don't know how there going to fit all the dangling plot lines into just ninety minutes, but hey beggar's can't be choosers.  And speaking of continuations Cartoon Network made one for there hit show, Ben 10. Everybody love's Cartoon Network's continuations right? Right?!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T8Y7pk2qt-I
Well the show got Ben's original voice actor and the shows original creator back, so it must be great right guys? Right? I mean that's all it takes to make a good reboot, right? That's what you all said last year! REMEMBER!  Yes, I'm still bitter.  Now I know that technically this show came out last year in other countries, but as a privileged while male American I refuse to acknowledge that other countries exist. Now I've never watched anything in the Ben 10 franchise, outside of the occasional episode that I would catch here or there. It was not a show I followed all that much. So I can't really review it in comparison of the old show like I can for say the Powerpuff Girls reboot. However, I can try to review it as just a casual watcher, and as a casual watcher the show is...fine. Not great, not awful, but fine.  It's clear from the get go what this show is trying to do. It's the Teen Titans Go-ification of Ben 10. Eleven minute run time, a focus on comedy, a much cartoon-ier art style. Let's not kid ourselves here. However, the show does have something that TTG and PPG2016 lack. It's still a superhero show. And that shocked me when I first saw it. I was sure this was going to be another sitcom with capes, but it's actually a more traditional monster of the week super hero comedy. Kinda like the original Powerpuff Girls show, except nowhere near as funny.  One of the biggest changes that even I can notice is the difference between how Gwen is written. Even never watching the old show, I know they toned down her responsible know it all-iness to make her act much more like a kid. I don't know how Ben 10 fans feel about this but I don't mind it to much, as it does make her feel like a more realistic ten year old, at least for me.  However I can't praise the show to much. The show, as a whole can be just summed up as fine. The comedy is fine. The action is fine. The characters are fine. And as someone who has to experience with Ben 10, fine wasn't enough to really grab me. However if the show is on and nothing else is on, it works as good background noise, I guess. It's perfectly serviceable. Put that quote on the back of the DVD box CN.  Uncle Grandpa ended this year with an unadvertised final episode. Uncle Grandpa was a show that I never super loved, but I did feel like there was a lot of passion that went into it. However, like I said last year, Cartoon Network has a lot of new shows coming out and you got to clear space, and at five seasons it had a good run. And to celebrate this occasion, Cartoon Network decide to have a Teen Titans Go! Marathon to celebrate the Fourth of July.  I'm starting to sense a pattern...  Meanwhile in the world of the internet, Netflix decided to try to prove that not all video game cartoons are terrible with Netflix's Castlevania.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yy_FWdbnvM0
Now like Ben 10, Castlevania is not a franchise I know very well. All I know is that it's about a family legacy of people who are consistently forced to fight vampires. Also people keep telling me it's not Jojo's Bizarre Adventure, but I'm not incline to believe them! Cause I'm pretty sure that it IS Jojo's Bizarre Adventure and that this is all just a very elaborate Jojo's reference. But moving on, how is this show?  I'll start with the pros. The animation is incredible. Like, really incredible! There are some establishing shots that look almost live action there so detailed. Also despite how much the show looks and feels like an anime it is one hundred percent American produced. It's actually made by Frederator Studios in fact. Wait...THAT'S why Fairly Oddparent's flash looks as bad as it does. Frederator took literally ALL of their  budget in order to fund Castlevania. It all makes sense now!  The show also has this kinda interesting post apocalyptic middle ages aesthetic to it that really remind me of Attack on Titan. I also want to praise Netflix for making an American action show for adults. Outside of Samurai Jack, which had already ended by the time this aired, we don't have many of those. I also admire Netflix for being one of the only networks to be keeping action oriented American animation alive...  ...But that's really all the positives I have to say about this show. I'm sorry everybody, I know at this point I might come off as a hipster for not liking so many popular shows, but I just don't like this show. At all. I was ready to LOVE this show, but I just don't.  Now I feel like in order to be a fair critic I need to be upfront with my background a bit. I grew up in a quasi-religious family. What I mean is that we were raised to be religious while never actually going to church. But I'm not someone who get's offended when my faith is made fun of if it's done in a clever or humorous way. I am one who is always open for a discussion, and like hearing other points of views. I just wanted to make that clear from the get go.  I bring this up because this show has a HUGE hate boner towards organized religion! And it's very distracting!  The church in this show is depicted as the most vile, evil, despicable group ever. Now I'm not going to pretend that the church has always been the best throughout history, but it's total overkill. If you're in the church, there's a ninety nine percent chance you're evil. They are the main villains of the first season. But I'm not mad because I'm offended or anything, I'm mad because the corrupt church is such an overused cliche, and they do nothing new or interesting with it. I'm upset because it feel less like I'm watching a show and more like I'm being lectured. It's frustrating because I thought I was going to get a show about fighting vampires and that's not what I got. I don't know Castlevania, maybe this is part of the games. But whether it is or not it doesn't stop from being a major flaw. And it wouldn't be a big deal if the show didn't make it such a big deal out of it. Most of the show is this. They're is a shocking lack of monster or vampire fighting in Netflix's Castlevania. There's some, and when there is some it's really cool. But you have to get past a lot of lecturing to get there.  Also the characters are really unlikable. Trevor Belmont starts the series completely willing to let an entire town of people get destroyed by a hoard of demons. And I know part of the point is that he learns his lesson at the end, but that's a really vile place to start you're main character at. And the development to want to save the town comes kinda out of nowhere, and that's probably due to the shows terrible pacing. The character development feels rushed, while the actual pacing of plot events feel dreadfully slow, making the four episode season feel more like the TV movie designed to set the show up more than a proper season. I've never seen a show that was both too rushed and too slow at the same time before this show.  But with all of that said, I do have some hope for season two. Like I said, the whole first season felt like a pilot movie to a series. And the ending implies that season two is when the shows going to start getting into the real meat of things. And with the church defeated I'm hoping that we can actually focus on fighting Dracula. Y'know, what this show should of been about from the start! But we'll have to wait till next year to know how it plays out.  Also I can kinda look past this but the show is very historically inaccurate when it comes to religion. If they're in Transylvania, then the church should be Eastern Orthodox. And they didn't do much witch burning. Heck, most churches didn't do much witch burning. The grand majority of witches were hanged. Just FYI. But let's move on...
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 Luna Loud is a bisexual.  ...
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 And Star Vs the Forces of Evil had a TV movie, which is cool! Back in the early to mid 2000's every cartoon had at least one TV movie, but now you barely ever see any. Probably because cartoons now of days have more continuity, and thus don't need movies in order to tell larger plots. But still, it's cool to see them return. As for the movie itself...it was definitely...um...  Okay, I'm going to level with you guys, I'm actually really behind on Star Vs. The last episode I saw was the penultimate episode of season one. I didn't stop because I don't like the show or anything. I like it well enough, and from what I hear the show gets a lot better right around the time I stopped watching. It's just that my family lost cable for a while, and then I fell so far behind that I couldn't catch up with reruns, and then I got preoccupied with other stuff...I'll catch up to it someday! It's on my "To watch" list. (Similar situation happened with the 2012 TMNT show. Missed a week once by mistake, tried catching up but got up to the first two seasons.) So i didn't watch this movie, and I have no idea what most people thought of it. But I still think it's cool that the TV movie was brought back. Seriously, outside this and Regular Show what was the last non pilot cartoon TV movie to came out? And multiple episode aired in a row don't count, it has to be marketed as a movie!  And on that awkwardly segwayed note, we wrap up the first half of 2017 in animation. But threat not, the fun is only just beginning. So come back next week for 2017 Year in REVIEW: Part 2. What are you're thought on any of the shows/events I talked about today? Are there any that I missed? Leave all those thoughts and more in the comments down bellow. I would love to hear them and start a conversation, Even if we don't necessarily agree with each other. Please fav, follow, and comment if you liked the review, and have a nice day. (I do not own any of the images or videos in this review. All credit goes to there original owners.)
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Rehab facility outside of Santa Barbara. Mila steps out of the shadows; some huge sunglasses are covering her face. She is a small woman, but her skin is pale, and she has bitten her lips really hard. Her long, curly, red hair is in a ponytail. The black shirt is too long, she could wear it as a dress, if she wouldn´t wear some shattered jeans. With huge steps she walks towards the blue SUV, which has just arrived at the parking spot. She smacks her leather back in the trunk and gets into the rear seat a cloth bag besides her.
Mac: Hello
Mila: Did you get everything out of the house?
Mac nods. Mila starts to look outside of her window.
Mac: We would like to meet on Mondays, to talks about the upcoming record and thinking about, what we´re going to do next. Are you in?
Mila: I wrote some lines, but nothing really concrete. She looks back at Mac. I want this to work this time. And yes, I´m in. But maybe, we should rush this time.
Mac keeps on driving. Something is bothering him, he looks throw the mirror at Mila, she looks outside of the window again.
Mac: Mila. She turns her face at him. At some point, she has taken her sunglasses down. She wears no make-up. Mila, are you still mad at us, for taking you in?
Mila: Why are you asking?
Mac: I have read something about addict, only getting clean, if they are ready to accept their he inhales sharply disability.
Mila: Disability?
Mac: That´s probably not the right word. But look, I´m not really into this thing.
Mila looks at him with a straight face.
Mila: Mac, I am a fucking  addict. This is no disability; this is an illness. And I needed help. You did right on putting me in. But I´m not going to talk about it. Not with you. Besides, I just want to survive the first week in freedom, before I´m going to make a statement about me being sober or something like that. OK?
Mac nods. He stops looking into the mirror at her. Mila looks back at the window. A single tear is falling down her face.
After half-an hour driving, they are reaching their destination. Mila´s home
They are arriving the parking lot in front of a bungalow at the sea site. Mac turns off the engine and turns around towards Mila.
Mac: Well, here we are. But Mila, listen, you mustn´t go throw that alone, O.K.? You can always call me.
Mila: Yeah, we´ll see. Where is Fred?
Mac: I don´t know. We will come tomorrow, O.K.?
Mila steps out of the SUV, but she still looks inside, towards Mac. A Volvo is coming with high speed towards the lot, it stops with squealing tires right beyond the SUV. As Mila closes the rear door, Mac opens his door and he steps outside and a pale man, with a brown beard, and long brown greasy hair steps also out of his car. He smiles at Mila.
Kevin: Mila, I´ve heard that you’re out.
Mila takes some steps back. Mac has arrived on the backside of his SUV. He puts himself between Mila and Kevin.
Mac: You better leave.
Kevin: Come on, easy man. I just want to talk to my girlfriend. I mean, she just out of prison. He smiles and shows some dirty teeth.
Mila: We broke up at that exact moment, you tried to kill me with your car. She walks towards the front door.
Kevin: Mila, Mila Baby As he speaks, he tries to get besides Mac. But Mac is able to hold him back. Come on, it was just a joke.
Mila turns around, right in the doorway.
Mila: A Joke? So, it is funny for you, first to give me something I don´t know and then to drive like a suicide squad member and then to yell at me and screaming at me, that you´re going to kill us? That´s no Joke for me!
She walks two steps inside and slams the door beyond her.
Mac: You better leave. He pushes Kevin and walks towards his trunk.
Kevin: Now yelling. You fucking moron don´t tell me, what I should do. He tries again to walk pass Mac towards the front door, but Mac is able to hold him back.
Mac: Close on Kevin’s ear: You better listen, because I´m not going to repeat that: You´ll leave Mila alone or Fred, Jaeden and I are going to make sure, that you´ll never be able to get to her again. Do you get me? He pushes Kevin back.
Kevin looks at him, then he walks some steps back to his Volvo. He points a finger at Mac.
Kevin: This is not over! As he starts yelling, he looks towards the front door. This is not over! You belong to me! I Own you!
With too much strengths, he pulls the car door open and slams himself into it. Again, with squealing tires he droves away. Mac watches him doing it. After Kevin has driven away, he pulls out Mila´s leather bag from the trunk and carries it over to the front door. He just left it there. He walks back to the SUV and drives away. As the car is out of sign, Mila opens the door and pulls the leather bag in.
She smacks the leather bag at the wall to her right side and walks beside it towards the open room, the cloth bag is around her hips. The first floor of Mila´s house is just one huge room. Only the kitchen area on her right-hand side is separated to the entrance by a high cupboard. There is a huge window front right on the opposite of her. Infront of it, there are on the left side some huge couches and a dining table for six persons on the right-hand site. The main colors are black, white and red. She walks besides the high cupboard into the kitchen area. She opens the huge fridge, just to close it right away. Then she turns around and starts the coffee machine. While the coffee machine makes some noises, she walks towards the dining table. Someone has put the envelopes, newspaper and some small packages on it, beside some flowers and an ashtray. She looks at them, touches some of the packages, then she starts to look for something in the cloth bag, which she has finally put onto one of the chairs. Finally, she pulls out a package of cigarettes and a phone. She lights up a cigarette and inhales, slowly. She puts her phone on the table, the cigarette besides it, that it won´t fall to the ground, but also not burn the table, she ignores the ashtray. Then she turns back towards the kitchen area. After some noises she returns. The cigarette has reached the table and burned something. She got a coffee mug in her hand and a waste paper in bin.  She starts to sort the envelopes, inhales her cigarette and drinks coffee. She throws into the waste paper bin the newspapers, the packages and some of the envelopes. After that, she sorts the rest. To her left-hand side, she puts white envelopes with a small violet rose, right in front of her, she puts some envelopes with company names on it, on her left-hand site are small white envelopes.
She pushes the envelopes with the company name towards the middle of the table. The small white envelopes are putting into her jeans pocket. She looks at the other envelopes. The violet rose is at the same place on every envelope, her full name (Amelia Gina Smith) is written by a computer right in the middle. There is nothing else on the envelope. No stamp, no returning address, no sign of anybody. She takes her phone, takes a picture and left the room.
The camera is still filming, as the light go out. Something or someone is moving in the dark outside.
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The next morning. The camera is still filming the dining table with the envelopes and the empty coffee mug. A young man is coming in. He wears a colorful suit with a brown bow tie. He looks really young. He takes a look around and stops at the dining table, looks at the envelopes, moves them, then he turns around towards the front door. From the upper floor are coming some guitar sounds.
Max: Mila? Where are you? Good morning Sunshine, a new day a new life?
Mila: from the upper floor Hey Maxi, how are you?
She runs downstairs and hugs Maxi really fast. Afterwards she takes two steps back. She wears a huge white shirt, with a unicorn upon it. The unicorns shit a rainbow.
Max: You have sent me a picture of the new envelops! Why are you asking. I was curious and worried about you! I´ve tried to come yesterday but everybody is driving crazy about you being out of rehab. I had to call your bandmates and some reporters have called and all of this stuff. And now as your healthy, you can go out there. And…
Mila: Stop! Mac should have called them. And why did you have to talk to reporters? She walks towards the kitchen area. And puts out a new coffee mug. Want some?
Max: He scows This is my job, Mila. I am responsible for everything, that anybody knows about you. I am the man, which has to take care of things like this. But don´t worry.
Now Mila scows: Don´t worry? I don´t want you to talk to reporters about me. Why did they call you anyway?
Max: Because someone has leaked photos of you leaving the rehab to the press.
Mila: Someone?
Max: Maybe there was a reporter, or someone of the facility stuff has taken them or so He takes a coffee mug from Mila. Don´t worry.
Mila: Don´t worry. That´s all you can say. Don´t worry. Where´s Fred?
Max: I don´t know. I don´t know everything, you know.
Mila towards the huge windows. What did you tell the reporters?
Max: Only, that you´re out and that you´re ready to work on some new stuff. Hey, can you turn on the television?
Mila: Why?
Max: They are talking about you on `Good morning America`
She walks over to the couches and puts on the huge television.
Reporter 1: “Superstar Mila is out of Rehab. These Pictures are showing her yesterday as she leaves the rehab. As we have already reported; Mila was arrested, as she has been nearly killed in a car accident…”
Max changes the channel.
Reporter 2 “... not known until now is, if she can return to Milestone. The manager of Milestone has said to us yesterday, that the important thing for Mila is it to stay clean and then to return to Milestone.
Mila’s face grows darker.
Mila: What did she just said? I am out of Milestone?
Max: No, no. You must have missed something. You´re of course not out of Milestone. He tries to grin, but as he looks at the television, his grins fade.
Reporter 2: “Even Kevin, Mila´s Boyfriend, has heart of the great news.”
Mila: My Boyfriend? MAX, she looks angry at Max. Why are these Morons saying, that I´m with Kevin?
Max: Well, they have asked. And I´ve said, that you´re in a relationship. How should I know, that they thought of Kevin?
Mila: Because it´s your fucking job! She screams at him. Max drops the coffee mug, and he walks some steps backwards. You have not only talked to reporters about me, you have also told them, that I´m out, that I´m not really clean and then you have suggested, that I´m back in with Kevin?
Max: Well, maybe not I have made this, but Mac did? He tries to smile, but Mila just walks and looks angry at him. As she reached him, she says with deathly silent voice
Mila: Mac would never talk shit about me in public. He talks to me about it. You´re the reason, some people are thinking, that I have to leave Milestone. She yells at him  BECAUSE YOU ACTUALLY GIVE A SHIT ABOUT MILESTONE, she pushes him towards the front door. YOU ONLY CARE, IF YOU CAN MAKE MONEY OUT OF IT. HOW MUCH DID YOU GET FOR THESE PICTURES?
They are reaching the front door, Max opens it. And runs outside. Mila slams the door. The television is still hearable, they are now talking about some baby cats.  Heavily breathing she stand there. Her face is still angry. She hits against the door. She screams, she hits and it doesn´t seem, like she is going to stop. But as she falls to the floor, she stops breathing. For a few seconds, she doesn´t breath and she doesn´t moves. She´s just lying there. Slowly she stands up. She walks over to the kitchen area. Opens the kitchen cabinet under the sink and pulls out all of the bottles. After that she walks over to the cabinet above the coffee machine and smacks all of the cubs on the ground.
A door is opening in closing. Footsteps are approaching, as Mila looks around in the kitchen, confused and angry.
Mac and another man are standing in the hallway. And looking around.
Fred: Hey Mila, are you remodeling?
Mac is looking at the man.
Mac: Seriously? She has destroyed the walls in the hallway over here, and now she is destroying her kitchen. And you believe, that she is remodeling?
Fred grins at Mac.
Fred: No, I don´t believe that. But Mila´s about do get really drunk. And then you will have a problem!
Mila: NO! NO! NO! Mac hasn´t got a problem! You! She points at Fred You are my fucking problem.
Fred: I am guilty as charged! What have I done?
Mila: You´re kicking me out? And you´re too afraid, to tell it to me? GET OUT OF MY WAY!  She pushes Fred out of her way. Do you know what haunts me? When I get into that hell house, you told me, that you will wait. Why didn´t you wait?
She walks towards the backdoors. And opens it, harder, than it should be.
Fred: What do you mean?
As Mila walks outside, Fred follows her. But Mac stays where he is. He looks around and shakes his head. Then he pulls out his phone and takes some pictures. You can see Mila and Fred in the backyard. Mila pushes around some flower’s pots.
Fred: What the fuck is this? MILA! He takes some huge steps towards Mila and holds her at her shoulders. Can you please stop? What the fuck is going on?
Mila tries to escape his hard grip. But Fred only shakes her.
Fred: What do you mean?
Mila: (Still screaming) You´re about to kick me out of the band. That´s the reason, why you´d come here today.    That´s all you´ve ever wanted. You and Thorny. And…
As Fred released her, with a shocked face, Mila falls to the ground.
Fred: Where did you get this? Who told you this crap?
Mila: I´ve heard it on the television.
Mac comes to the door. Mac: No one wants to kick you out. As long, as you stay clean, you´re in. And don´t believe in the crap they say on TV.
Mila: But Thorny…
Mac: Thorny is my problem.
Fred: Mila! He talks softly and tries to touch her again. She leans against his shoulders. Tears are falling down and she hugs Fred.
Mac: Besides, don´t you remember, what I told you yesterday? We are meeting on Monday. No one really wants to get you out.
Fred and Mila are still lying close on the ground outside. Mac walks inside.
Mac: What are you waiting for. Come inside. And give me the shit.
They both get up. Fred walks over to the coffee machine.
While Mila walks over to the couch. Letting herself fall, she pulls her knees to herself.
Fred: What now? ´Shall we still leave? Or is it all right if I stay? As he looks around the kitchen, he can see a coffee mug in the sink. He takes it and makes himself a Coffee.
Mila: I wrote a little bit during the rehab. In the first week all I was thinking about getting out and get drunk again. She smiles a little. Stands up and walks to the leather bag, which stills lies next to the kitchen counter. She puts out a black notebook and walks to Fred.
Mila: Read this. I kind of still like it.
She opens the book and gives it over to Fred. He takes it and starts to smile.
Last Drink Let´s face it, the night is over, Only a couple thing left to do And I don´t want to stay here, I don´t want to go alone Let this be a promise Let this drink be so much more Let it be a promise, Let it be a night This was a great time, a better place I just don´t want to leave without you Please promise me this night Please don´t remind me of tomorrow Don´t let our dance be over, Don´t let the promise off our time end
Fred: This is what I hoped for. You at the lowest point are still the best.  He smiles at her. How do you hear it?
Mila: Like a dirty rock song. Deep bass, fast guitar parts. I don´t really know. Will you help me?
She sits again on the couch and looks at him with open eyes.
Mac has left the room. He is upstairs, you hear him walking around.
Fred: Of course. He walks over towards her. She moves closer to him. They are both looking into the book. Fred starts tapping with his right leg a slow beat. His left hand starts tapping dripple the time on the back of the book. Mila starts singing.
Mila: oooohhhh, let´s face it. She stops and waits for foot taps before she sings again. This night is over, this will be our last dink. Her voice gets deeper. Just one thing left to do. Just one thing I want to try with you. She stops. I know it now. E- Moll at the beginning. FUCK where´s my guitar? She stands up fast and runs upstairs.  Mac!! Mac!! Where is my guitar.
Mac: Of which one are you talking. Fred laughs a little. He hears the rumble from upstairs. Mila walks around keeps on describing an old acoustic guitar to Mac.
Fred flips throw the book. A photograph falls down. He takes it up.
A boy and a girl, about eight years old, are sitting under a tree. She has a guitar in her hands. Her red curly hair is wild and open. The boy has a scar on his forehead, his hair has the exact same color as the girls one. They are both laughing about something they see.  Fred turns the photograph around. Amalia and Alexander, Summer 2004. Stands there.  Mila and Mac are running back down. She holds an old acoustic guitar in her hand
Mila: Found it. Her smile stops as she sees the picture. Where did you find it? Mac walks over to the kitchen area and looks around. He looks at the envelopes on the table, and takes one or two of the up. He looks a little confused, as he turns them over. His face grows darker, as he looks at the others on the table. he looks at Mila and Fred standing together, then he puts them into his jacket.
Fred: It fell out of the book. Who is Alexander?
Mila: My brother. He… She stops. Anger, Fear, pain and grief are in her face. He died a few days after this picture. I …Again she stops. I couldn´t … I didn´t want to…. I played and played and the I met you.
Fred: He was the reason why you always played. Mila nods.
Mila: It was an accident. She walks to the couch. The guitar still in her hands. She takes the book with one hand and put it on her legs. With the other hand she still holds the guitar. She opens the book on a page before the last one.
Would you save my world? Even with all the blank spaces, you can´t read Could I call you home? Even if you´re the only color I see? Can you see me? Through the dust Can you see through the darkness? And all the colors that I am All the colors that I get Are nothing, if I can´t see yours
The letters are written by a child.
Mila: I wrote it after he died. He was everything for me. When I had a fight with my mum he was there, when I had an idea, he helped me. Because of him I wrote Saviors. He was my savior.
A noise from the stairway, Mila turns around. Fred looks angry at Mac.
Mac: I´m sorry, I have to go.
Mila: Bye.
She puts the book under one arm and tries to moves away the tears, which has run down her face with the other hand
Fred: I will stay a bit. Can you take me back, if I call you later?
Mac: Sure thing.
He looks at Mila and Fred. Mila has turned away, the guitar in one hand, the book under her arm. Fred stands in front of her. That Mac could reach her. As Ma´s walk out the door, Fred turns around. He puts his arms around her hips, and his mouth close to her ear.
Fred: If I wouldn´t be gay, no man would ever look at you, like Mac used to do. Mila screams a little, drops the guitar and turns around to him and says: You are my brother, why would I allow you to touch me? She tries to hit him with a book. Fred simply laughs and takes the book away. He runs towards the kitchen part. Mila follows him – Barefoot. A second before she reaches even the dirty ground, Fred stops her, and carries her under one arm toward the couch again. Fred still holds the book. His arm is this time around her shoulder, she leans against him and they are looking together into the book. Mila, small, wild hairs, and Fred, huge with his hair in a wild ponytail.
In the book, Mila has used different colors and some smaller drawings are aside of the lines.
Fred: This one is good. Are there more …
He turns the page. A picture of Mila, Fred and two other guys smiling into the camera lies between the pages. Fred looks for a second on it, then he turns again the page.  Another song, some guitar notes are on this page.
Bring me the light  Don´t let me suffer here alone Please carry on,  Don´t stop, ´cause you´re the light I need Come and join me here Come sit beside me at this time You´re more than any other can see  You´re more than I can reach I´ve tried to follow I´ve tried to let your in But as you leave I´m strapped in the shadows And now I´m in the after life After you and I am lying here alone You were my light, you made the shadows rest
 Mila: I wrote this in the hospital. After…. Fred nods and takes a seat on a black cajon.
Fred: I think for colors we should start with a slow beat and a double beat.
Mila: I don´t know if we shouldn´t start with a piano. I mean it´s about losing your own faith
Fred: you don´t lose your faith, your finding new colors, but…
Mila: Hell yeah, I´m losing it, I mean, `try to find a blank space´ this isn´t like, show me a new me, this is, I´m washing out myself, covering up, whatever used to be there
Fred: … but for finding new colors, you need to cover, it´s like a try to look for new hope. Let’s start with a double beat, and a slower guitar part above it, he starts hitting the box, the downbeat slowly, and the upbeat in between [downbeat 4/4] [upbeat 3/4]. Mila starts on a F#min, from above down, following the lead of the upbeat,
Fred: let´s take it slower, not a 100, rather a 79   They continue, after a while, Mila starts singing,
Mila: Can I repaint?/ Can I get it back?/ All the shadows all the dark/ Let´s washed it away/I want my colors back,/ I want it all,/ Can I get it back?/ Can I recall the way I used to be?/ If all the colors I am, are washed away?/ If all the colors I am, aren´t…
She stops, looks to the ground. As she inhales sharply.
Fred: I always wondered, why you don´t sing anymore. Why did you stop?
Mila: I … I don´t know. The song was just…
Fred looks at her, he´s waiting for her to say anything
Fred: do you remember, when it was just me and you? We wrote this one song, A warm night and everything changed. And all I want is just to go back and…
He stops. A glimpse of fear is on his face. Mila has tears in her eyes,
Mila: I do remember. We just sad in this backyard, my mum… was just passed out somewhere, and we … A tear is in her eye. This was a better time, but we grove up. Now it´s time to take responsibilities.
Fred laughs.
Fred: What a bullshit. We never do that. And I won´t start now. We should just quit the drugs and the alcohol. But otherwise, I don´t want to grow up. I don’t want to take responsibilities. It´s enough to have the insurance and the monthly stuff. But more? Never!
Mila smiles.
Mila: I heard what you said to Mac, about the AA´s.
Fred: Mila….
Mila: I want to come with you there.  Maybe it is for the better, to just… you know.
Fred points outside. Shall we go there, and find a way to avoid responsibilities He says the last word extra long
Mila grins at him, takes her guitar and they both walk outside.  
 3
Kevin is lying on the ground. Blood is on his forehead. his brown eyes are looking at us. The eyes itself are begging for merci. He tries to speak, but his voice is breaking. with a cough occurring, he says in a low voice cracked: Kevin: Please… hey please his voice breaks again. He is afraid. Slowly he moves his hand, like he is trying to touch the person in front of him. But there is just a cold laughter.
Murderer: Don´t ask for your live. Fight for it. His voice is cold and hard. There are no empathies. In his left hand is a military knife; long, ground on both sides and serrated end. He moves it above the face of Kevin, sometimes he pressed it a bit harder on his face, that blood comes.
Murderer: We are going to have fun.
As the murderer rises from Kevin, he tries to stand up too, but the killer punches him in the face, kick him in the stomach. Kevin grunts, as he falls back on the ground. The killer keeps on hurting Kevin, until you can hear a female scream, a woman appears, tries to hurt the killer, but he simply pushes her aside, the returns to Kevin. The camera is moving, as you see in fading shadows, how Kevin and the woman get killed.
 4
Reporter: Another body has been found. The male victim was like the others tortured and left bleeding and dying nearby the Beach Boulevard.
A man with black hairs, a coffee cup and a police badge around his neck. His suit is a little bit too big and has many creases and stains.  He tries to walk around the reporters and gets to the crime scene.
Reporter: Detective! Detective! What can you say about the victim? Is he dead yet?
Detective! Do you have any trace of the Backdoor Killer?
As he finely arrives at the yellow mark. His face could get any darker. And he doesn´t even say `Good Morning` to the waiting man beyond the mark
Det. Hernandez: Make sure, that they don´t follow me. Or can take pictures of the victim.
He arrives at the body and greets the medical examiner.
Doctor Carter: Hello Detective Hernandez, I see you had a wonderful morning. The doctor kneels besides a man on the ground. He smiles towards the detective.
Det. Hernandez: It was all right. What´s up with him. Is he one if his?
Doc. Carter: I can say for sure, that this victim has the same wounds like the ones before. And I can also say, that he is dead for three to four hours. Interesting about him is it, that he isn´t a user, like the ones before.  It could have been that he used to use, but there are no fresh marks and no sight of using at all. Look at his teeth, users don´t have clean teeth. Or look at his arm, I can only see, where the knife has hurt him but no sight of an injection site. Maybe the fact, that he hasn´t cleaned himself in a few days, could be a sign.
Det. Hernandez: Why did you say that he could have used?
Doc. Carter: Because the white of his eyes is more yellow. This is a sign on hepatitis or any other liver disfunction or illness. But more after the autopsy.  By the way, where is your partner? The beautiful Miss Meghan?
Det. Hernandez: Ok, when is the autopsy? Meghan is at the doctor.
Det. Hernandez looks at the man on the ground. His face, arms and parts of his body are covered with dried and nearly fresh blood. The scares are long and deep. Pain, grieve and fear is showing on his face.
Det. Hernandez shakes a little.
Doc. Carter has turned the body around. On the back are no Sights of blood or scratches.
Doc. Carter: That is interesting. It seems like, this time he has killed him faster, if we assumed that our killer has done this.
Det. Hernandez: What do you mean?
Doc. Carter: Well, this young man has no scratches, blood or sign of beating on the backside, like the other ones does. Usually a killer doesn´t change his way of killing. But while the others, if we assume that this was the same person, has marks of beating, scratching, and other marks of pain all over their entire body, this young man has only these marks on his front site. And it also seems like, the scratches, aren´t so deep like they used to be. But for more …
Det. Hernandez: Please wait until I have finished my autopsy. Why is this one different? Do we know who he was?
Doc. Carter: Kevin Allen. He was a dealer, for the rich and beautiful.
Det. Hernandez: And you tell me that now?
Det. Carter: Because you haven´t asked before. Good morning Doc.
Doc: Carter: Good Morning. How was it at the doctor? Det. Hernandez told me that you have been there.
Det. Carter grins at the doctor. Det. Carter: As my dear husband knows, it was good at the doctor.
Det. Hernandez turns around and looks at one of the police officers, by the yellow mark. The police officer is talking to a reporter. He walks over there and puts his huge and upon the shoulder of the officer.
Det. Hernandez: We don´t talk to reporters at crime scenes unless someone, like the Detective in charge or maybe the agent in charge is ordering us to. And you are going back to the department right now.
The Officer: But I have just order them to step back. I haven´t talked to them. I….
The officers face is turning red. He stammers and his are flickering around.
Reporter: Det. Hernandez is it true that the victim is Kevin Allen, the Ex- Boyfriend of Mila? And is it true, that the Backdoor Killer has been softer this time?
Det. Hernandez: so, you haven´t talked. Leave right now. He turns over to the reporter. Leave my crime scene.
 5
A man around fifty is sitting in a big chair behind an oversized desk, which is overloaded with papers, folders, one computer in a corner and some coffee cups. Det. Hernandez comes in and looks into the sharp grey eyes of his commander.
Commander: Ah Seb, please, how can I help you.
Det. Hernandez: Please call in an internal review on Officer Smith. I have just found out, that he has given Information towards the Press on the Highway Killer case.
Commander: Is this really necessary? I mean everybody in this city is talking to the reporters, he just has to learn how to do it right.
Det. Hernandez: There is a different between talking to a reporter, to help the case or to give unauthorized information towards the press, to get some money. Every Officer should know that. And he hasn´t help the case, he has made it even worse.
Commander: I will talk to him later. He lights up a cigar and inhales deeply. What do we get? Another victim?
Det. Hernandez: Yes, his name was Kevin Allen. Again, the victim has a criminal record, he started his career at the age of fourteen, with thievery, drug using and drug selling. He was, according to the rainbow press, the former boyfriend of Mila. The young woman is famous for something and has been in prison or rehab or something. Well it seems like he has learned something in prison and used this knowledge to not get caught again.
Commander: Why is the fact that he used to be the lover boy of a woman important?
Det. Hernandez: Because she might have a motive.
Commander: But he is the victim of this Highway Killer.
Det. Hernandez: This is not said yet. This victim has lesser wounds, lesser scarves and suffered lesser. What if someone has used the Killer as an alibi? Commander, I know you have said no to the FBI but I really need help.  With the latest victim and the one before Meghan and I just can´t do all of it, as we used to.
Commander: I said no to the FBI, because we don´t need any of them. You can have some of the police officers, which has been there first. But none more.  
Det. Hernandez: I don´t want Officer Smith and his partner. They are talking to the press. And if this Rockstar- Lady has to do with this, they might even do worse to everything.
Commander: This is my last word. Take them or don´t take them, but we do not use the FBI.
Det. Hernandez grimace: Commander! And leaves the room.
 6
Mila and Fred are driving in an old corvette. They are smoking, the music is loud, her hairs are open and flying with the wind. Fred is singing with the music. As they arrive at a huge, grey building, Fred parks the car and the both get out of the car. Mila takes the cloth bag with her.
A small, slightly rounded man is waiting for them.
Thorny: Hey Mila, what´s up?? He is loud and laughing. Faster than she thought he is close to her and hugs her, as he released her, she takes some steps back.
Mila: I´m fine. And you? She tries to smile.
Fred: Hey Thorny, did you hear the good news, we got Mila back! He smiles, and they greet each other with a hard, fast handshake.
Thorny: What do you mean? She´s as thin and pale, as I remember. He smiles at her, but she doesn´t answer his smile.
Mila: Fuck you. I´m looking fucking perfect! Thorny and Fred are laughing.
Thorny: So, you´re sober. That´s good.
Mila: What do you mean?
Thorny: When you´re on, you aren´t swearing so much. It´s like you try to make it sure that no one loves you, well, baby, we love you He smiles at her and puts his arm around her. They are walking over to the building. I´m glad that your back. And beat this bastard away. As he turns around to Fred, Mila tries to pull his arm away. Fred takes some long steps and they are walking together.
Fred: She wrote some songs. And they are amazing. I love colors. It should be the first one we release.
Thorny: Guys take it easy; she is just out. I know how hard it could be, even without the rats. I think today we should only work on the old stuff and maybe, if you´re feeling good, we can try to do something new. I mean, hey, we have still time. Finishing the tour and then starting the new record. Or? Mila walks a bit slower. Her face is hard, as she tries to not say anything. By the way Jaeden is a bit late.
Mila: Why is Jaeden late again? She turns in front of the door around and looks with the door handle in her hand at the two man.  
Thorny: He´s with his mum. There´s something with her.
Mila: Is she back on? I thought she´s sober. Thorny pushers against the door, that its closed again.
Fred: Maybe she´s just sick or wants to talk to Jaeden. I mean he´s her son.
Mila: But they haven´t talked in years. I mean, since whatever.
She tries to open the door, before Thorny closes it again.
Thorny: We split of, because I cheated on her. And then she became an addict. But we didn´t split of, because she was a fucking addict. And why Jaeden hasn´t talked to her in all these years is his thing, but not ours to discuss. All right?
Mila: All right all right. I just wondered. She rolls her eyes.
Thorny: Let´s get in. I´m ready.
The step inside. The long hall is clean, and grey is the main color. Grey carpet, grey walls and grey furniture, only the doors are in different colors.
Mila ignores the `Please wait here` sigh and walks down to a red door. As she opens the red door a woman with grey and green hairs comes out of another green door.  
Mila: Hi! Mac should have called. Do we get the red studio?
Mrs. Maier: Yes, of course. I am so happy to have you guys back. The woman has a strong German accent and speaks loudly. The smile on her face is fake.
Mila: Good. She opens the door and ignores the fact that the woman is following her.
Mrs. Maier: We tried to do everything as it used to be the last time. O my darling, you are so gorgeous. I can´t believe it. Why did you hide it? It seems like her voice has even raised.
Thorny: She is fine. Can we have the studio? He doesn´t smiles. He takes a look around and looks afterwards the woman directly in the eyes. Hard staring. They don´t like each other.
Mrs. Maier: Of course, Of course. That´s why you are here. She smiles and turns around to the door. Do you want to save your product here or take it with you? Thorny is still starring at her, angrily. Fred takes some steps between them.
Fred: We like to take our songs with us. Thank you! He pushes her gently towards the door.
After the door is closed. He turns around. Mila has smacked herself into one of the huge armchairs. Thorny into another on. His legs are on the table.
Fred walks over there and pushes them on the ground. Mila groans.
Mila: Why is this woman like God- fucking- zilla.
Thorny laughs. I mean is it because she´s German or because she´s a bitch?
Thorny: She´s a German bitch.
Fred: c´mon guys. Her studio is the best. And I like it. Let´s get to work.
Mila stand up and takes an E-Guitar. She puts the book out and starts to play. Fred takes the Cajon and supports her. Thorny takes the book and looks at the pages. He watches them playing.
Thorny: C´mon guys we talked about it. No new stuff. The third record will come soon enough. Let´s start with white roses.
Mila groans again. Mila: OK. But acoustically. I want to try something different. We can´t just press restart.
Fred looks at her. His eyes are covered by his eyebrows. Fred: No fighting today, OK? I mean, we just started. And good-fucking-zilla is probably listening or something.
Mila rolls her eyes again and plays some other accords. Fred joins her on the Cajon. After a little while Thorny joins in. The songs sound like an old rock song. Thorny voice fits perfectly in. After White Roses, Fred starts with another song, and Mila joins in. This time Thorny waits a little longer. Until he starts singing another song. The play a little while, until the door gets push open.
His shirt is dirty, the jeans is ripped. His long hair looks like, he hasn´t washed it for days. But over his face is a huge smile.
Jaeden: Lady and gentleman, I AM HERE! He has a loud voice, unmelodically and unpleasant. Thorny hugs him fast, Fred stands up and does thesame.
Mila: How are you?
Jaeden: Good, and you?
Mila: I´m out and that’s all. We are playing a little acoustic. Do you wanna join?
Jaeden: `course
As they are playing, the camera is moving outside. Mrs. Maier is standing there and speaking into a telephone.
Mrs. Maier: I don´t know why you want to know this, but yes, she is here and they are practicing. I thought Mac is working on all of this. … No, she hasn´t really greet me. … How should I know if she´s using again? … Yes, of course I am going to do that.
7
An empty Pizza box is on the couch table. Mila is sitting on the couch. Her hair is still wet. She is clapping without rhythmed on the guitar. A frustrated sound comes from her lips.
Mila: No new stuff. We talked about it. What the fuck. This bastard. I should have known. Why can´t he just listens to what I say. Just for a minute.
She stands up and takes the pizza box with her. But no `I am Thorny and I know what’s best for you baby. Gesticulate wildly she walks over to the kitchen area. Don´t worry sweetheart, you must not think, that’s too difficult for you. FUCKING BASTARD. She screams the last words and smacks the box in a corner. She takes a look around the kitchen. What am I doing? She mumbles. Why do I care.
Within one movement she grabs the keys and her smartphone from the sideboard. Afterwards she walks fast towards the front door. As she opens the door, she stands eye to eye towards a man. He has black hairs with shades of grey and brown eyes, his suit is a little too big for him.
Det. Hernandez: Good evening Miss. I am Detective Hernandez; I am with the LAPD. May I ask who you are?
Mila: Mila. What do you want?
Det. Hernandez: May I come in?
Mila: I´m in a rush. What do you want?
Det. Hernandez: I want to talk with you about Kevin Allen. Is it true, that he lives here with an Amalia Gina Smith?
Mila glimpses on the street. There are some trucks of TV Shows, but none of them is out of their truck.
Mila: Come in. She turns around and walks over to the kitchen area.
Det. Hernandez: This is a nice house. Back to my question: Does Kevin Allen lives here with Amalia Gina Smith? He takes out a small notepad and looks at Mila. She pulls her huge pullover closer around herself.
Mila: He used to live here. Why?
Det. Hernandez: When has he left?
Mila: A few months or so ago. I don´t know.
Det. Hernandez: You don´t know? But you do live here?
Mila: I … I. She looks to the ground, then on the sideboard and at the end back to Det. Hernandez. Her arms are still wrapped around her. I was in rehab for some time. I don´t know when he left. Mac or Maxi took care of it. Why do you want to know this? Has this bastard done anything?
Det. Hernandez: So, you are Ms. Smith?
Mila: Yeah, I am, but please call me Mila. What has Kevin done? Why are you here?
Det. Hernandez: I am sorry to inform you, that we have found Mr. Allen dead by this morning.
Mila gaps. She starts moving her hands fast above her body. She is breathing heavily. As she starts scratching her skin, Det. Hernandez stops her. He held her wrist and looks her directly in the eye.
Det. Hernandez: Breath! Respire en silencio, Respire en silencio.
Slowly, with hesitation in her eyes she starts to breath normal again. Det. Hernandez, holds still her wrist. Det. Hernandez: Are you ok?
Mila: Yes, Yeah! I´m all right.  She removes her wrist from, takes a small step back and moves her hands back, again around herself. I guess, he still means something to me. He still meant... She looks to the ground. Turns around and walks towards the couch in the living room. As she sits down, she looks at Det. Hernandez, who has followed her. We´ve been a couple for two years. He is … was my dealer. And the more. He tried to kill me. He loves me. … loved me. How did he die? I mean was is someone out of a gang or a robbery? Again, she moves her hands over her head.
Det. Hernandez: We don´t know it yet. We are still investigation in every direction. Maybe you can tell me, where you have been last night?
Mila: Here. I just got out. I didn´t … I was sleeping.
Det. Hernandez takes a seat beside her. He takes out a small block and writes something down.
Mila: I was in rehab. Now I am clean. I want to stay sober. Kevin he was here. … Yesterday.  She takes a loud breath in. He wanted us to be together again. She looks him in the eye. Her eyes are widely open, scared.
Det. Hernandez: Do you know why he wanted to do that?
Mila: What? Us together? Because… She inhales deeply. I don´t know. Maybe he thought we weren´t so wrong after all. But…
Det. Hernandez: But you didn´t want him back. Or?
Mila: No. Yes. I don´t know. I just got out. You know. And for the first time in a thousand years, literally, I feel good. He was. She stands up and walks towards the garden door. He was still an addict; I could see it by looking at him. He was thinner and greyer and … old. She looks at him sitting on the couch. I am an addict. Maybe you know what that’s means.
Det. Hernandez: Yes, I know. But I never really got it, why somebody would try it. Mila smiles and leans against the door.
Mila: There are a lot of reasons. I did it, because I couldn´t sleep in the first place, and then to wake up, to have fun. At the end I was just a slutty little bitch, who couldn´t walk without drugs.
Det. Hernandez: You said earlier, that Mr. Allen wanted to kill you. What makes you believe that?
Mila: Because he said it. She turns her back on him and looks outside towards the garden. He worked on our crew. He was nice, funny and really good looking. You know. The kind of guy which everybody likes.
Det. Hernandez: On your crew?
Mila: I am the guitarist of MILESTONE. Did you hear of us?
Det. Hernandez: Are you on the radio?
Mila scows. Yeah, we are on the radio.
Det. Hernandez: So, Mr. Allen was a crewmember. And he sold you drugs. Until you got into rehab and he tried to kill you. That’s sounds like a …
Mila: … like a really fucked off relationship. Sorry, I mean, like a really destructive relationship. She looks back at Det. Hernandez. I grew up in this house. It wasn´t always so beautiful. Like she wants to warm herself, she moves her hands over her arms. My mother She stops and looks to the ground. My mother became an alcoholic, when my brother died. After that she never looked at me again. And I She looks at Det. Hernandez I started to play his Guitar, until I met Fred. Det. Hernandez doesn´t response, he just keeps looking at her. We started this band thing, when we were fifteen or so. Later we met Jaeden and his Father, Thorny. We became a band, and when I turned eighteen, we become famous. You probably know the rest. Get famous, could kept up with the hype, get addicted, met the wrong person, ends up in a hospital and then in rehab.
Det. Hernandez: How does your brother died?
Mila: An accident. He was killed in a car crash, when we were eight.
Det. Hernandez: How does Mr. Allen tried to kill you?
Mila: With a car. But the police stopped us.
Det. Hernandez writes something down. Do you know where he has lived during the last time?
Mila shakes her head. No, maybe in his car.
Det. Hernandez rise. That would be all for today. If you remember anything, maybe something which, He looks at his block. Mac and Maxi have told you, please give me a call.
Mila: Alright. Why are you here? He didn´t die on natural cause, or?
Det. Hernandez: I am sorry to inform you, that we are investigating on the terms of cold-hearted murder. I also have to ask you to stay in the city. Mila scows again. Mac and Thorny are going to make sure of it.
Det. Hernandez: Why would you say that?
Mila: Because, I have never taken drugs in L.A. only on tour, far away from here. Maybe I didn´t want to end like my ma
Det. Hernandez: All right then. Stay clean, and in the city.
Mila: Will you inform me, if you find the murderer?
Det. Hernandez: I will. Good night Ms. Smith
Mila: I´ll bring you to the door.
They are walking out; the camera is still on the couch and the outside. Something/ Someone is moving in the dark. As Mila returns after the front door closes. She leans at the wall on the opposite of the window and moves slowly to the ground. Her head between her arms.
Again, there is something moving on the outside. A shadow which comes closer to the window. The camera is moving outside, behind the person, looking throw the window. It is a man. He moves his hand, like he wants to knock, but the he turns around and leaves.
The camera is still on the outside. Mila looks up, rises and walks upstairs. The light is still on.
8
Maxi and Mac are sitting in a conference room. With them are four other persons. A Woman is sitting on a small table beside the huge conference table, she is typing on a computer. The others are sitting around the table.
Man 1: So, Mila is back. Is she clean?
Mac: I think so. There has been nothing to believe that she is not.
Man 1: We should start to bring them back to the studio. The third record.
Man 2: We have said a year ago, that the third record isn´t long. And they had enough time.
Man 3: Are we sure, that we want to keep her in this?
Mac: What do you mean?
Man 3: She has never been really sober. I can´t recall any situation in which I really believed, that she is all right.
Mac: Mila has behaved this way, since I know her. But she hasn´t took drugs then.
Maxi: I think, we should help her and the others to stay clean. And put on another contract. One which makes it clear, that if they take anything, they´re gone.
Mac looks angry at him. I don´t think that this will be necessary. They know, what we are expecting.
Man 4: Another deal wouldn´t help them. Another record and another tour. As fast as possible. Maximilian, please don´t make this more complicated than it is already. Mila, Thorny, Fred and the kid have to return to the studio and work on their third studio record. Macintyre can you make sure of this?
Mac: Of course, There will be no problem. Mila has already started and Fred is with her. I will convince Thorny to do this. And Jaeden will do whatever his father wants.
Man 1: so, it be. You both better hurry. He looks at Maxi and at Mac. Mac nods, while Maxi doesn´t move.
Maxi: I still don´t think that this is a good idea. Mila isn´t stable, and Thorny is still pissed at her, for not finishing the last tour.
Man 2: Well, that shouldn´t bother us? Maybe there are writing about this and we can use it in the promo, you´ve heard him. Hurry, talk, convince, blackmail or do whatever you want. But do it now.
 9
Mila and Fred are drinking coffee besides the instruments. Thorny is on his phone.
Thorny: God damn it kid, why aren´t you here? He hangs on and looks at Mila. Are you clean? She looks back.
Mila: This is my third day back; do you really have so little faith in me?
Fred: Thorny! Why are you doing this? Mila is back, and she is clean. Have a little faith.
Thorny: You may believe in everything she is saying, but I better keep an eye on her. You can never believe an addict 
Mila scows. Are you fucking serious? Even Marie-Louise had been sober for weeks, until you´ve cheated on her again.
Fred: Time out! Not again!
Thorny: What has happened with Marie- Louise isn´t your fucking business. But you staying clean is part of my fucking job. So better do as I say and don´t piss me off.
Mila: Your fucking job? Your fucking job is it to sing my fucking songs. Because, besides being a fucking cheater and a mid-good singer, you have never written one line in your entire life. So be glad, that I even accepted you in this band in the first place She walked during her screaming at Thorny towards him. I AM AN ADDICT. I HAVE MADE SOME MISTAKES! BUT YOU she tips with her fingers at him.
Suddenly he hits her right in the face. Fred screams, Mila falls to the ground. Thorny just looks down at her.
Thorny: You worthless little slut. I AM THE REAON; WHY ANYBODY HAS TAKEN A CHANCE ON US!
Fred: STOP THIS! Even he is yelling. Why is this always? Mila! Thorny!
Mila stands up and walks towards the table, with stands between the doors, one door leads to the floor, the other to the recording room. Thorny takes a breath in, and walks over to the couch. Fred stands between them.
Fred: Will you two ever give it up? Mila, Thorny isn´t the devil, he has made some mistakes in his life. But he has always been here for us. And Thorny, Mila isn´t ML, and she isn´t her mother. You both should better get over this, or we are breaking up. And Mila, I don´t know if anybody would ever work with you again. And Thorny? Jaeden is never going to make it without us. And you know it!
Neither Mila, nor Thorny are showing any kind of a reaction upon this. Mila refills her coffee cup, while Thorny takes out his phone again.
Fred walks out of the room. On the outside are Mac and Maxi.
Mac: Again? Why this time?
Fred: I don´t know. Thorny attacked Mila, and Mila just started fighting him. He starts to beat again.
Maxi: I know that Mila is going into therapy. But maybe we should think about Thorny, too. He shouldn´t hit Mila.
Mac: I will talk to him about this. But now we have a bigger problem. The Labe is giving you three months at max. to finish the fucking record. He looks to the ground.
Fred: Well, we have started with the record last year, some of the songs are still on. Even if Thorny hates them. And the rest. Mila has written some really god ones. Mac, you did heard Last Drink yesterday?
Mac smiles at him That is an awesome song. Even Thorny will love him.
Maxi hawk. I was thinking about testing every member of MILESTONE of drugs. I mean as an extern test, to… he hawks again to make sure everybody is clean. Not … not just Mila I... I mean
Mac takes a deep (angry) breath in. The label said no, and now you want them to do that?
Fred: I don´t think that this is so bad. I mean, not just Mila is addicted. Jaeden too, and even I have taken something sometimes. But why now? On tour? Of course, I will force them to do that. But now? This won´t be necessary
Mac: And not on tour. And you will never talk to anyone of this again. His face is an angry grimace. This whole idea is bullshit. And you know it. There will be always some morons, which sell it to the press.
Maxi: But what if…
Mac: Then it is.
Mac looks at Fred and then at Maxi. They walk into the studio; Maxi closes the door beyond them.
Mila still leans against the coffee-table, Thorny is still on his phone at the opposite of the room.
Mac clears his throat. Mila, Thorny? They are looking at him. We have talked to the label. They want the third record. As soon as possible. At maximum three month.
Thorny: Never! This is impossible! Why have you agreed to that?
At the same time: Mila: This is awesome, half of the record is already recorded and I have written and found some new stuff.
Still at the same time: Mac: I know, that this might be on short notice, but I am sure, that with the old stuff, we already have recorded and the things I have heard the other day, it could be a good record.
At the same time: Maxi: Maybe we can look for a songwriter, Mila, if you haven´t got anything good.
They all stop and look at each other.
Maxi: We could, if you don´t have anything new, look for a songwriter. This might make it easier and faster.
Mila shakes her head in disagree and anger. What a crappy idea. We wrote all of our songs. And I have already written something. We can also take some of the old stuff. Thorny? This thing with the wedding dress, which you liked so much. She alludes to a smile towards him.
Thorny: Did you talked about that new crap yesterday?
Mac: Thorny! Mila has tried to make peace. Please try it yourself.
Thorny imitates a sarcastically smile Mila are the wonderful unicorns you talked about in your mind?
Mila: (whispering to herself) Fuck you! Yes, the unicorns, which are spreading out of your ass.
Fred: Mila! Thorny! Stop the bullshitting. We need to focus. He inhales deeply, then Maxi takes a step forward.
Maxi: Wow this sounds wonderful. He smiles
Thorny scows in disbelieve. Thorny: She is just out of rehab. Jaeden isn´t even here. And you guys have nothing better to do, than to put us back into scene?
Mac: We have not much room left. If you guys carry on with the old songs, some of your fans might leave. If you stop for longer, the company is going to drop you, the only chance is, if you put out another record and start touring. He looks down. And then he looks directly at Thorny. I know that the only thing you care about is, if everybody is safe and sane. But this time, we have to hurry. We have to make the move and we have to get out there again. There has been to many bad news lately. There has been to many voices talking about you. And the only thing you guys have made, was staying quietly.
Mila: Because you told us to do!
Mac: An interview with you, high as a pink flying horse, would have not make it better.
Mila: But the other could have done it!
Maxi: Who? Thorny? He would have probably said, that you’re too much in your own misery to do better! Fred? No one likes Fred! And Jaeden? He´s even more fucked up, than you are! There was and is no better way. You have to make this record. At best without drinking songs and with something like ‘sober’ by P!NK. Mila scows.
Fred: Mila likes me! He smiles at Mila. She shows a sarcastically smile, but nods.
Thorny: I wouldn´t have thrown Mila under the bus. She is just a victim. I would have thrown the company under the bus, and then sink them in an ocean.
Mila: Really helpful. Insulting the company, which already hates us. Why not throw a bomb at one of our concerts?
Fred: Mila! That´s not helpful. We need to find a way, to make it work. That you mustn´t go back to rehab, and Thorny is going to jail for multiple murderers.
The door slams open. Jaeden comes in. his clothes are dirty, his hairs hasn´t been washed in a while. He smiles, looks around and screams: I AM HERE!
Thorny: What the Fuck?
Mila: Congratulations! And I am the one, which needs help.
Thorny just shakes his head in disbelieve. Jaeden! Where have you been?
Jaeden: With my mom. We had a little party. I just woke up. Why? What did I miss?
Mac: I can´t believe this! Thorny, why is your son looking like hell?
Thorny: If I had any idea, I would have taken care of it.
Jaeden walks throw the room, slams himself into the couch and looks around.
Jaeden: Why the messy faces? I am here He laughs
Thorny pulls one arm under Jaeden´s arm and lifts him up.
Thorny: I am going to put this one under the shower. We talk about this tomorrow.
As they left, Mila puts her coffee mug to the table.
Mila: I have to go, too. See you guys tomorrow. She grabs her cloth bag, which she has smacked besides the door to the hall way and walks out.
Mac: That went well. Mila´s about to kill Thorny. Thorny´s about to hurt Mila or do something worser, Jaeden is back on drugs, and no one is talking to another.
Maxi: Where does Mila headed to?
Fred: I don´t know. But I´m going to talk to Thorny. He needs to understand why we are doing this shit again.
Mac: Did you know that Jaeden is back on again? He looks at Fred directly. Fred shakes his head.
Fred: No, I didn´t know. I thought something like that would happen, but… HE didn´t look back at Mac.
Maxi: Well, we need to figure out a way, without letting anyone know. He smiles at them. Then   he walks out.
Mrs. Maier stand in the hallway. As the camera leaves with Maxi, she stands in the shadows. She pulls out her phone and writes a Message to someone. She puts it pack into her pocket and walks into the other direction.
As Max leaves the building, he pulls out his phone. A message is there:
“They had a fight. Jaeden is high. Mila left, without saying anything. She took a Taxi. The number is 568349.”
He smiles and puts the phone back into his pocket.
 10
Mila sits in a Taxi. Out of her cloth bag, she pulls a different block. As the taxi drives on, she starts to write in it. As they arrive at a church, she pulls out a fifty-dollar bill and just left the taxi. She puts the book back into her cloth bag and walks cross a sing: Anonymous Alcoholics meetings every Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday in Westminster Presbyterian Church.
Inside of the room are sitting and standing eleven people around. There is a chair circle in the middle. A middle-aged man is sitting there. He looks at Mila, and walks directly towards her.
Thomas: Welcome at the AA Meeting our church. What is your name dear?
Mila: Amy. And you are?
Thomas: My name is Father Thomas. I am leading today’s meeting. Please grab a coffee or anything else. We´re about to begin.
Mila takes a seat and watches the people around her. Father Thomas opens the meeting. Some of the people are talking, some of them are just listening, just like Mila. At one point there is a discussion, whether or not, someone else is going to forgive an alcoholic for the things he has done during his drunken time.
Mila simply scows and takes her cloth bag, which she has never placed on the ground closer. Father Thomas watches this and speaks directly towards her.
Thomas: Amy, you don´t seem to agree, that somebody can forgive you. Why is that?
Mila: Because I can´t forgive.
Thomas: What do you have to forgive?
Woman 1: Yeah, I mean, you´re not here, because you´re completely sober. You’re here, because your life is as fucked up, as mine.
Woman 2: Completely forgiving is only the Lord, our savior.
Mila: Screw your pleases lord. Father Thomas clears his throat, the second woman looks scared. And simply because I have done a lot of things wrong it doesn´t mean, that I have to forgive something, someone else has done to me.
Thomas: Amy, we don´t misused the name of the Lord, please respect that. But Amy, why don´t you introduce yourself to the group?
Mila: No, Thanks. I´ll pass this time.
The meeting ends, and Mila walks outside. Father Thomas is following her.
Thomas: Amy, Amy. Please wait.
Mila: What is it, Father? Should better not come back?
Thomas: No, no. I think it would be better for you to come back. I just wanted to thank you, for coming here, today. The first step is always the hardest.
Mila: I´ve just got out of rehab. I already know, that I have a problem. But I´m on my way to fix it. When is the next meeting?
Thomas: There will be one tomorrow, in the public center, down this street. Here we´re meeting again next Saturday. Or you could join our service on Sunday. A lot of alcoholics find they´re pleasure in our Lord.
Mila: Yeah well, your Lord has screwed me over, so… Thanks to that, I´m gonna stick with the meeting. See you on Saturday.
She walks away. A woman, which has been on the meeting is following her outside. She greets Father Thomas, and follows Mila.
Mila is standing beside the streets, her phone in her hand. She turns around, as a Woman is calling her name.
Woman: Mila! Mila! She runs the few steps over to Mila. Hey, I´m Aubrey. I was at the meeting.
Mila turns around. Aubrey walks to the other side, that she can look into Mila’s face.
Aubrey: Why did Father Thomas called you Amy?
Mila doesn´t answers. Aubrey looks at her.
Aubrey: You probably got a lot of negative attentions about all this addicted stuff. I am sorry, I´m just a woman and I wanted to help you. You know like woman – woman kind of a thing. She smiles and offers a hand to Mila. We can go and grab a coffee somewhere, if you like.
Mila: No, Thank you.
A Taxi arrives. Mila walks besides Aubrey. And gets into the car. See you on Saturday she says, as she closes the door. she
Aubrey waits until the Taxi is out of sight, then she pulls out a recorder and a camera. She looks at the pictures. You can see Mila in the different moments during the AA meeting. Her smile, the way, how she weeps away her tears, and when she is talking to Father Thomas. Aubrey takes out her phone, hails a taxi. Inside the Taxi you can her talking towards someone.
Aubrey: I am just coming from the AA Meeting at Westminster. She was here... Who?... This Mila- thing. She´s going to be on, so fucking fast. And you will get the stories… Of course, I make sure of this. Just give me an hour and you will get it all.
She hangs up.
 11
Outside of Los Angeles. A huge, modern house. It looks even bigger, because of all the huge windows, and the smaller constructions between them. All lights are on, even though, on the left-hand side, the sun is just about to go down. Mila tosses a hundred dollar towards the taxi driver. She gets with her two bags out of the taxi, one is the cloth bag, the other on is a plastic bag from a take- away. As she watches the taxi leaving, she searches for something in her bag. With a keyring, with a black card in her hand, she walks down the steps towards the house. Before she can reach it, Fred opens the door. He only wears some old boxers, his hair is open, and he smiles at Mila
Fred: You should have called!
Mila: Why is here anything, I haven´t seen before?
Fred: No, but you might have.
Mila: Why are you wearing this?
Fred: I just wanted to shower. What do you get?
Mila: Some burgers and fries. Can I come in?
Fred: Sure. Let´s eat and talk a little. You look like hell.
Mila: Thanks, same.
They walk inside. Turn to the right side, walks a few small stairs upstairs, and enter a living room. There are no pictures on the wall, no flowers or decorations. Only the necessary furniture. The room appears to be empty and cold. Mila simply smashes her cloth bag and the plastic bag on the table, and scratches a chair over the floor. She leaves some marks on the ground. Neither Fred or Mila are recognizing them. As Fred does the same.
Mila: I wondered, why did you buy this house?
Fred: It was for sale
Mila: For sale?
She unpacks the four burgers and two packages of fries, simply put them on the table, without any dishes. She takes a cheeseburger, but Fred takes it away, and dips some fries in the cheese. Mila takes a chili burger; sauce is dripping onto her fingers. As Fred has done it, she also dips the fries into the sauce, the one on the table, and the one on her fingers. Fred smiles, and does the same. For some minutes, you only watch them eat, dipping fries into any kind of sauce. They finish the meal, and leave the rest of the food on the table. Fred stands up, walks towards the kitchen and washes his hands. He looks at Mila, she paints with some of the sauce on the table. He walks towards her, pulls his arms around her shoulders, and rests his head on hers.
Fred: Why did you come here? The last time you did this, you have been on the run. Completely wasted and destroyed. This time…
Mila: …This time I look like I need some sleep and peace.
Fred: And really like you need me. What´s on?
Mila: One of the doctors from that facility said, that I need something against depression and to sleep. Fred kisses her on the temple. They´ve said, that I´m a user, because of all of this unfinished business. She moves her head down. Fred´s face is still on her back head.
Fred: What do you mean, by unfinished business?
Mila: My mom´s death, my father´s runaway. And my brother… She moves her head up fast, and hits Fred´s chin with her back head
Fred: groaning For Christ sake, Mila!
Mila: Sorry, Sorry, Sorry.
Fred: Why is this unfinished business?
Mila: How the fuck should I know! My mum and my brother are dead, my father is gone, well gone, as far as I pay him sometimes. You´re my family
and Thorny. And Jaeden. Well if I would like them. But anyway…
Fred: Stop right there. You´re paying your father? Mila??
Mila: He said, that he would talk, if I don´t pay him.
Fred: About what should he talk? That he left? That you have been raised by an alcoholic? That your brother died in an accident?
Mila: It´s not that simple. I mean, sometimes he has sent me gifts She tries to smile, but fails
Fred: He has sent you gifts. What was it? Let me think, a dollhouse for your fifteen’s birthday, a dollhouse, which has been stolen by someone, as your mother has tried to sell it, to buy more booze. That´s what´s make it all better. He walks up and down, and moves his hand over his chin. Mila, I don´t get it. Your father has been gone since your nine years old, why can´t he just leaves you alone?
Mila: Because, before he left, he asked me, if I wanted to live with him, but I couldn´t leave her. She would have died.
Fred: The woman, which has either ignored you, or yelled at you, for not being your brother. Mila, I was your fucking neighbor, I know what she has called you…
Mila: But he has never done it. she stands up. I mean, at least he has tried. Sometimes. It was hard for him, you know. My mother was the love of his life and Alex and I have been the best.
Fred: Then why hasn´t he tried harder? Why has he never visited? Or send a letter? He´s only asking you for money, because he needs some. He doesn´t give a shit about you.
Mila: So, what? At least he´s not talking.
Fred: If he´s talking, then you are allowed to talk, too. You can talk about it all. You can talk about Kevin, the teacher which has harassed you, the guy, which has given you that scar on your hip. You can talk about it all. Or even better, write about it.
Mila: Now screaming I did write about it. Or do you seriously believe, that white roses are about a wonderful date? Adrian gave them to me. Before he raped me. Do you really believe that I could simply forget it all?
Fred: also screaming No I don´t believe that.
They are looking at each other. Suddenly the doorbell rings.
Mila: You don´t have neighbors, who the fuck is this?
Fred: I don´t know. I go and take a look. He walks out of the room.
Mila sits back on her chair. The cloth bag is still lying on the table. She eats some more off the fries from the table and simply looks around.
Fred returns with a really drunk, destroyed looking Jaeden. He looks at Mila, looks at the table and grins
Jaeden: Hey Mila, are you eating?
Mila: No! What is he doing here?
Jaeden: Cool! he takes a seat besides Mila. Mila on the other hand stand up. Relax a bit honey, I just needed a place to sleep.
Mila: Then go to bed Jaden simply grins and starts to eat. He eats noisily with an open mouth. Between some bites, he reputedly says, this is so amazing.
Mila stands up and walks into the kitchen. Fred follows her
Fred: He just got out of the Taxi. No money, you see how he looks like. I wonder what has happened with Thorny.
Mila: Thorny will have used him again, as a punching ball. And Jaeden will have left, because that´s the best thing he could have done. Why does he have to eat like this?
Fred: I don´t know. Wash your hands, I´m going to make sure, that he will find a bath and a bed. See you in an hour. Maybe two.
Mila: I´m going to watch Television or play. It depends on, what’s easier to find.
Fred on his way back to Jaeden: The guitars are in the basement; the Television is on the second floor. He walks away. Mila just waits at the sink, until he hears, that Jaeden and Fred have left the room. Then she cleans her hands and returns to the table.
There is still food on the table. Jaeden has eaten the two burgers left and some of the fries. But the sauce is still on the plate. She takes a dishcloth and  cleans the table. Then she walks with her cloth bag to basement to watch Television. The room with the huge modern Television, is besides the television, one small table and three couches, empty. Mila smashes herself onto one of the couches and grunts. She takes out her phone and some headphones and starts to listen to music. Jaeden comes down. He has washed himself, wears now clean, to huge clothes and carries two bugs of coffee and smashes himself into another couch.  He is still not really sober, but not so drunk as he used to be. Mila sits up and takes down her headphones. As Jaeden offers her on of the cubs, she takes but moves directly back into a lying position.
Jaeden: I´m sorry.
Mila: What exactly?
Jaeden: For… he coughs… being here, I guess.
Mila: And…?
Jaeden: And an addict.
Mila: And…?
Jaeden: And wearing dirty clothes, so that Fred has to clean me. I think that’s all.
Mila: I think that’s quite enough. Next time, maybe, you could apologize also for eating like an animal. Or taking Fred´s clothes, or having a father like yours.
Jaeden: For having him as a father I won´t apologize. I rather have him, than none.
Mila grunts. Mila: Trust me, it is better to have no father, than him. What happened to your face?
Jaeden turns his face to another direction. Jaeden: Nothing.
Mila: Don´t bullshit me. Thorny did this!
Jaeden: This is none of your business.
Mila: Ok, then don´t tell me.
She puts back on her headphones and stares at the wall, while she´s drinking coffee.
Jaeden: You could have said ‘Thanks’
Mila: What? What did you say? She puts down her headphones
Jaeden: You could have said ‘Thanks’
Mila: ‘Thank you’
Jaeden: My pleasure
They return back to silence. Only some slight music sounds are coming out of the headphones on Mila’s belly. They can hear the water running for Fred.
Jaeden: You know I was always jealous of you and Fred
Mila: What? Why?
Jaeden: What ever happened, he never failed you. And you never failed him. When he had that overdose? You waited in the hospital. Kevin tried to kill you? He was there, he made sure, that you didn´t get kicked out. He even attacked Max for you, just like you did, when he fell of that stage. And I? I had to talk with Thorny. Thorny isn´t really good in helping. Either you make it right or you don´t even try it. You know…He breathes in and they fall back into silence.
Mila: At the beginning, it really thought, that we could be some kind of a family or so. You know, like real friend, like really there for each other. But … I never really liked Thorny.
Jaeden: Yeah, I know.
Mila: Let me finish. He tried so much, to be a father, that he never…
Jaeden: he never understands us.
Mila: Yes, I mean, I didn´t want a father. I didn´t even want to know someone in his age.
Jaeden: Why did you tried to push him out anyway? I mean right at the beginning?
Mila: A week before Fred and I met you two, my father has sent me a ‘birthday gift’. Two months too late and it was a dollhouse. Well, my mother tried to sell it to someone and that person was a cop. And the cop arrested her, because that dollhouse was really expensive and my father has stolen it from someone or something. And then my mother has tried to put me in, because she couldn´t remember, that my father has send is to me. And then someone tried to put me into foster care or something like that.
Jaeden: Fuck! And then Thorny came.
Mila: And then Thorny came.
Again, they fall back into silence. Fred stands beyond a wall. He is listening to the conversation.
Mila: Sometimes I believe, that he could even be a nice person. But then… Just like today.
Jaeden: What happened today?
Mila: Thorny decided, that we should return to that ‘Flawless’ Tour. You know, the one we had to cancel, because I´ve nearly got killed and you nearly killed yourself. Well, I told him, that we should rather hit the studio, because I don´t want to go back on tour, so fast after being out of rehab. And I yelled at him, and he yelled at me. And then he hit me.
Jaeden: Well, I told him that we shouldn´t hit the road so fast. But he…
Mila: He want to hit the road.
Jaeden: Fuck!
Mila: Fuck!
Mila exhales sharply.
Mila: I wonder sometime, what would have happened, if we would have not invited him to join us. I mean, he has a good voice, but what if…
Jaeden: What if you would be our lead singer. Just like The Band Perry.
Mila: Or P!NK
Jaeden: Or just like Milestone just without Thorny.
Jaeden sits up on his couch. He puts his coffee cup on the table in the middle of them. He looks outside and he looks at Mila.
Jaeden: I always thought that you don´t like me.
Mila: I like you. I just don´t know what we shall speak about. I …
Jaeden: But why? I mean… He stops, stands up, sits down.  Mila, we were in the same classes, we … he rubs his hand over his head
Mila: We are completely different. I mean, when I´m talking about Freud you think,
Jaeden: Of a little friend the ladies and I share… I mean Freud is the French word for friend, or?
Mila: No, no, no. Man. So many No! Freud, Sigmund Freud was a German Therapist. Well the first of his kind. And Freud is a German word for happiness. What you mean is Freund.
Jaeden: See, you are talking to me, like I´m some kind of an idiot
Mila: You´re an idiot. You only managed the high school because you write every test of Fred.
Jaeden: And I´ve never been snapped.
Mila: And your proud of this? Really?
Jaeden: You tried it once and got directly snapped. He jumps of the couch. I´m not an idiot. I… Fred steps into the room
Fred: You´re a great person. He pulls his arm around Jaeden and they both sitting on the couch
Mila: Yeah, a good person. Just dumb as hell.
Fred: Mila! Shut up! This is not helpful
Mila scows. Not helpful. Why should I try to be helpful? I mean…
Fred: Mila! There is an angry nearly aggressive sound in his voice. This is enough. We have bigger problems.
They all fell into silence. Mila is still lying on the couch, while Fred and Jaeden are sitting on the opposite upon a couch. Fred leans back. His arm is above the back. He looks gentle at Jaeden. Jaeden looks on the table, he doesn´t look at Mila or Fred
Fred: You are a part of us. It doesn´t matter, if you can read and understand Tolstoy or not. It matters, if you´re on the same side as we are.
Jaeden: I am…
Fred: You are, what you are, not more not lesser
Mila: Probably a better person than I am They all fall back into silence. We should try to get some sleep.
Fred: Probably. He raises from the couch, and looks at Jaeden. Come on man, sleep here tonight, we won´t meet until the next week.
Mila: Tomorrow we can talk. She also raises from the couch and looks at Jaeden, as he still sits on the couch, still not looking at someone
Finally, Jaeden raises from the couch, he tries a little to smile, but fails. Fred puts his arm around him and moves him outside the room. Mila follows them.
As she walks upstairs, the camera follows her, until she reaches the front door. She opens it, the camera moves out, she closes it and turns the key. The camera is looking the few stairs up, towards a man standing in the shadow. For some seconds, until all the lights of the house get turned off, he just stands there. When the hole place around him is dark, he moves away.
  12
Detective Hernandez, Detective Carter and Officer Smith are sitting in an open-plan office around a stuffed desk. Upon the desk you can see the pictures of the victims, dead on the crime scene, and alive. Besides that, there are autopsy reports, reports about the crime scene itself, descriptions about the victims, their crime history…
Detective Carter seems to be not well, she is pale, has bitten upon her lips and she is moving her right hand above her stomach, while she holds a cup of tea in her left hand. She looks directly towards Detective Hernandez
Det. Carter: So, tell me, Seb, why do we don´t take this to the FBI, and why do we have to work with this greenhorn?
Det. Hernandez: Because the Lieutenant doesn´t want external help. In some ways, he told me, that this killer is helping us.
Off. Smith: Like Arrow, I mean he´s a vigilante, but still, he helps the police
Det. Hernandez: And this is the real world, we help people, we don´t help any kind of a vigilante, he is a murderer. He is not helping, he is rather a threat towards any person in this city.
Off. Smith: But he´s only taken on some criminals.
Det. Carter: What tells us, that he is not going to stop there?
Officer Smith shrugs his shoulders
Det. Hernandez: Because our second victim here, Francis Williams, had a criminal record, but for six, seven years he has committed himself to community service and he was clean. Still he has been murdered in cold blood.
Det. Carter: Maybe this one was personal.
Det. Hernandez: I have tried to find a connection between the first three victims, but there was none.
Det. Carter: What if someone has killed him, but not the serial killer.
Det. Hernandez: And what about the last victim? This … He takes a look above the desk, until he raises a picture of Kevin. This man? He has lesser sign of bruises, broken bones or anything.
Det. Carter: My husband said that he died of a ruptured spleen. Maybe he was faster dead, that the murderer intended to. But why didn´t he takes more? He wasn´t that destructed.
Off. Smith: Maybe someone else did it. And that one good lucky.
Det. Hernandez: Why do you think that?
Off. Smith: Well this Mila, she´s kind of crazy, maybe she did it
Det. Hernandez: Are there a sign, that Ms. Smith has done it?
Off. Smith: Who is Ms. Smith?
Det. Hernandez: Amalia Gina Smith is the real name of Mila.
Off. Smith: Well no, but this is it, what makes it so great… he smiles at the two detectives. A rock superstar kills her former boyfriend. That´s some news.
Det. Carter: Maybe you´re wrong here. You should have become a reporter or paparazzi.
Det. Hernandez: There is no evidence, that Ms. Smith has killed this man. But there is evidence, that the killer, we are chasing has killed Mr. Allen. But the second victim, Mr. Williams, there is evidence, that someone else had killed him. He takes some reports besides, and picks up one with stains upon it. The doc said, that the bruises and the broken bones are more likely to made by a smaller person, than to the first victim. The bruises are also not as precise, as they have been before and afterwards. Mr. Williams has died of cerebral hemorrhages, most likely from a blow to the head. In the wound, on the other hand, was found the remains of a stone. A natural red stone, not some asphalt.
Off. Smith: Yeah, but this Allen- Dude has lesser wounds and this Williams- guy has a lot more.
Det. Carter: Have you listen? Seb has just told you, that there is evidence, which proves that Mr. Allen was more likely killed by the murderer we are chasing, while Mr. Williams by someone, which imitated him, or which has been murdered, by someone, who simply wanted to kill him. It just looks for us, like he is one of this serial killer victim.
Det. Hernandez: That´s exactly, what I am talking about. And on the other hand, between the first two victim has been a gap of two days, between the second and the third a gap of three days. After this, we have found every fifths day a victim. There has been no other timeline. So, if we put Mr. Williams out of this statistic, we have a gap of five days.
Off. Carter: So, who has killed Mr. Williams then? And why did actually no one has seen this?
Det. Carter: Maybe because it is easier, if they don´t look closer.
Det. Hernandez: because the detective on this case was an idiot. When I told him, I have a similar case, he gave me his one too. So, Officer Carter, what do we do?
Off. Carter: Well, we could, … he choughs… we could ask his neighbors and friends again, maybe talk to his daughter… and look for surveillance cameras or stuff like that.
Det. Hernandez: I have talked to the daughter, her husband and the neighbors…. He takes from the middle of the table a brown map, and hands it over to Officer Carter … here you can read it.
Officer Carter takes it, opens it and starts to read. After a while he looks up. Off. Smith: Does the UPS station opens on a Sunday?
Det. Carter: I don´t know, why?
Off. Smith: Because in my neighborhood the UPS station doesn´t open on a Sunday. Only Monday to Saturday. So, if this has happened, that his daughter has lied.
Det. Hernandez: The daughter has a strong motive, her farther was … well let´s say he was terrified, that something might have happened to her, and that´s why he actually supervised her.
Officer has changed some pages of the report, now he is looking at a picture, of the house of the victim, including a huge car, three smiling persons and a motorcycle. Off. Smith: And what about the heritage? I mean that man wasn´t poor, that motorcycle is up to ten grands.
Det. Carter takes a look at the picture. Det. Carter: But she isn´t strong enough. Not for those kinds of bruises.
Det. Hernandez: When I was in her apartment, she has a picture on the nightstand, she with a man. Maybe she had a partner.
Det. Carter: Well what´s more likely: That she has killed him, with a male partner, or that any serial killer, which has never changed his schedule has done this? Towards someone unlikely to him.
Det. Hernandez: All the other victims have something to do with drugs, prostitution or anything illegal. But Mr. Williams was rather someone he would have spared. Maybe we had missed something. Maybe some other victims hasn´t been found yet.
Off. Smith: But you have said, that…
Det. Carter: We are discussing theories right now. Everything can be.
Off. Smith: I don´t understand. I mean, there is a lot which is pointing to the daughter.
Det. Hernandez: And there is even something that´s pointing to the killer. How should the daughter now, that we´re chasing a brutal serial killer, right after the first victim.
Det. Carter: There has been a lot of media attention. He wasn´t found in one of the areas, in which you would have suggested him. He was found near the Westside Shopping Center. All the other victims have been found in different areas, but with high crime rates and even more prostitution and drugs. The first victim and the second victim. They are the most unlike events. I mean which killer would kill someone outside of his area, if he´s moving back into these areas.
Det. Hernandez: Well, maybe the killer has seen him there, as realized, how less this one has to do there, maybe watched him committing a crime and lost his temper. While the second victim, not Mr. Williams has been found near his apartment in the east of L.A. he was found with drugs, and near a spot for prostitution. Maybe the killer hasn´t planned his first killings, but for the other ones, he has been on the hunt. A man hunts.
Det. Carter: So, a killer with a mission. But why Kevin Allen? And why with so less effort. I mean, everybody could have killed him that way. Everybody could have done this. Is the report of the forensics back?
Det. Hernandez: No, maybe tomorrow or later. We aren´t high priority. But there´s something else. Take a look at the pictures, what do we see. Blood, blood, and even more blood. Now look at the victim. There aren´t so many wounds to bleed, and his clothes aren´t bloody. So, where does the blood came from?
Det. Carter: Someone else have been killed there before, but we haven´t noticed yet?
Det. Hernandez: There was a heavy rain two nights ago, it would have washed it all away.
Off. Smith: Maybe fake blood? You know to distract us?
Det. Hernandez: He has never done this before. Never hidden a body, never left any evidence or anything. Why the blood?
Det. Carter: Has there been found other dead persons? Or maybe highly injured ones?
Off. Smith: I don´t know. Why?
Det. Hernandez: He has never killed two in one night. What if he has done this, and hidden the body, or transported it to another place? The fourth victim, where are the pictures of the crowd?
Det. Carter gives him some pictures. Here, Why? What do you have in mind?
Det. Hernandez looks throw the pictures. That´s why. Between a black woman and a white man in a dirty overall stands a young man, his face, his arms are covered with bruises and scratches. What if this man has seen the killer and managed it somehow to get away? I remembered his look, it was a face of fear, maybe he has seen the killer, the killer has attracted him, but this man got away. Somehow. And the next morning, he remembers, walks back to the place where it happened and sees us. Because this is the only picture, we got of him.
Off. Smith: But he could be the killer also.
Det. Carter: There has never been any kind of defense wound found on the victims, like they had thrown a punch or something, only the bruises on the arms could look like the have tried to save their faces, but nothing more.
Det. Hernandez: So, we need to find this man.
Off. Smith: I will try to find him; I got some friends at the media station.
Det. Hernandez: No, don´t. If we do that, the killer will find him to. We can only protect him, if we take this out of the media. I will try to talk to the FBI. Maybe they find a way.
Det. Carter: And how shall we find that man? Walking from door to door? They won´t help us.
Det. Hernandez: Maybe they will. I know them pretty well. If I asked them privately, maybe they help.
Off. Smith: But why not inform the media. I mean they have helped us before. Why not this time. His voice is rising. Simply, because you´ve had some bad moments with them
Det. Hernandez just looks at him. It is not just, because I don´t trust any reporter, paparazzi or television star, it is also, because they all just look out for themselves. It is, because they don´t understand, that some information’s has to be kept between the police and the killer. And if I say no, then you have to obey.
Det. Carter: Seb, there is a warning sound in her voice. What Det. Hernandez means is, that reporters can help you, if you can control them. But here they are way out of control. They have filmed the third victim; they have been at every single crime scene before we have been. So, it is mostly possible, that they won´t give us the information we need to find this man.
Off. Smith: But we can say, that this is a man from a robbery or something. We don´t need to connect it to this case.
Det. Hernandez: I said no. And that´s my last word. He looks the young man directly in the eye. Lieutenant gave you this last chance. Don´t blow it.
Det. Carter rises. I think it is pretty late. We have a lot to do tomorrow. Let´s finish it for today and move on tomorrow. All right?
Det. Hernandez: Yeah sure.
Off. Carter: But…
Det. Carter: No. We´ll start tomorrow with everything else. She looks him in the eyes and Off. Smith rises and walks out of the room.
Det. Hernandez: Bye. He doesn´t rise. He picks up a folder and starts to read. Det. Carter takes it out of his hand.
Det. Carter: If I say we leave, it means, we leave. And not just me and the greenhorn.
Det. Hernandez looks at her. She doesn´t glimpse, she doesn´t looks away. Finally, he rises with a moan.
Det. Hernandez: see you tomorrow.
Off. Carter has already left the room. She looks at him. Why did we have to keep him? As the start waking outside
Det. Hernandez: He is the only help we get. Him or no one. Lieutenant doesn´t care if there are some dead dealers and hoes or not. That´s why.
Det. Carter: But we have the proof, that there is a killer. Why don´t we just walk besides and talk to the FBI. We clearly need help.
Det. Hernandez: Because I´m still on probation after the recent moment. And you´re pregnant
Det. Carter: How… What… Seb? The walk down the stairs, she looks at him with furious big eyes
Det. Hernandez: You and your husband told me. Not directly but you know. And besides, I have known it before my wife told me. He grins
Det. Carter: Ex-wife
Det. Hernandez: And I´m gonna be a great god- uncle. So, don´t deny it.
Det. Carter: But why this greenhorn. I mean he clearly doesn´t understand anything we´re talking about or anything about theories. Why do we have to keep him?
Det. Hernandez: Because if we don´t keep him, we will work alone. In every way how this could be.
Det. Carter: Isn´t that boy, that got killed last night rich and famous?
Det. Hernandez: No, his ex is. He was just a dealer, and an asshole
Det. Carter: Why do you say said?
Det. Hernandez: He tried to kill his ex. And after that he got back to her, like nothing has happened.
Outside of the LAPD Building, a reporter runs towards them to.
Reporter: What can you tell me about the latest murderer? Why haven´t you arrest some one? How is it possible, that a serial killer is running throw
L.A. and the Police doesn´t care about that?
Det. Hernandez: Fuck off, Michael. He moves him aside. But the reporter is following him
Reporter: Come on, Sebastian, the public deserves some answers,
Det. Carter: And you will get them. But not tonight, so leave.
The reporter keeps on asking questions, he keeps on, walking besides, in front and beyond the two detectives, until they reached their cars. Both detectives haven´t say a word. Both of them have sometimes just moved the reporter a side.
As the two detectives are driving away, he takes out a small camera and talks into it.
Michael: The LAPD has still no trace of the Serial killer, which is threatening innocent people of LA. There are only two detectives working on this case. One of the detectives is the well-known detective Sebastian Hernandez, who only returned from his forced break three weeks ago. Det. Hernandez was sent into this break after which he had to shoot his wife, who was separated from him. Back to the studio.
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Mac is sitting only in his underwear on his bed. The letter he took from Mila are all over the bed. There are papers with small letters, pictures of Mila inside the Rehab facility, pictures of Fred, Jaeden and Thorny. The blankets are on the ground, two glasses of wine are standing on his bedside table. The shower is running and he takes up a picture of Mila and Fred laughing together. It is an older picture, Mila’s hair is shorter, she has a rounder face and Fred’s arms doesn´t have any tattoos.
Mac: Do you know what confuses me, baby? The shower stops.
Mrs. Maier: What did you say?
Mac: I ask, if you know what confuses me.
Mrs. Maier comes into the bedroom, her hair is wet, and she wears a towel. She sits beside him on the bedside. Legs crossed, her face directly towards him, her blond hairs are wet, on her back, still dripping the water.
Mrs. Maier: No, what?
Mac: All of these pictures are older. Before or during Mila’s Rehab. But none of it, after it.
Mrs. Maier: Maybe because he hasn´t got any. Maybe you haven´t taken them all. She pics up a picture of Mila with an angry face. To whom is she talking?
Mac: This face? Max.
Mrs. Maier: Are you sure?
Mac: Yeah, she always has that face, when he tries to control her, or anything like that. Why do you ask?
Mrs. Maier: Because, before she left today, she has the same face.
Mac: Yeah, Max tried to control them again.
Mrs. Maier: What? How?
Mac: He wanted them all to take drug-test, to make sure, they don´t get addicted again. He looks at that picture. Closely, and compares it to some others.
Mrs. Maier: And does it work?
He looks confused at her. What worked?
Mrs. Maier: She groans softly to control them by taking a drug- test?
Mac: No, I told the company and the band that this is nothing we´re doing. He holds the picture up. Is this one smaller?
Mrs. Maier compares the picture to another on. Yeah it is. Why does Max always try to control them? I mean he even calls me, when they´re in the studio.
Mac: He does what? He looks confused at her. And grabs to some other pictures.
Mrs. Maier: Every time they´re in the studio, he calls me and ask, if they´re ok. Why?
Mac: I told him to not do this. I mean, Mila doesn´t like you, Fred only accepts you, and Thorny…
Mrs. Maier: Mila believes, that I have sold her to cops, when Kevin tried to kill her, she doesn´t know, that you have talked me into that. Fred only does what Mila asks him to do. And Thorny wants to fuck me. Shsahshshe smiles at him, who can blame him.
Mac: Mila doesn´t believe that. I mean why should she? He compares the size of the pictures towards each other without even really looking at them he rather looks at Helen Maier.
Mrs. Maier: Why? Because you never told her, that you did this. Because you never actually admitted to her, that you put that idea into Kevin, to hurt her, and…
Mac: Enough, Helen, enough. He spits/ shouts this word out. I know I should have told her, but she…
Mrs. Maier: You will always protect her. And these two pictures aren´t the same size. Her take this one. she takes one of the pictures out of his hand. Mila is sitting next to Jaeden, they both are looking into the camera, like they know the person which is taken the picture. Do you know who took this photo?
Mac: I think I did. Why?
Mrs. Maier: Are you sure, that these are the latest envelopes of these geek?
Mac: Don´t call him geek, he is a creep. And yes, I am sure, why? Helen? Why?
Mrs. Maier: Because, how does this creep she puts a clear emphasis on this word get one of your photos?
Mac: Maybe he downloaded it from the website, or how should I know?
Mrs. Maier: You never published it. You gave it to Mila the day she walked to that clinic together with some other pictures, to remind her, that we´re still here. And that you need her.  She inhales. Don´t you see this? This is one of these pictures.
Mac rises from the bed. He looks around, a little confused. Then he walks out of the bedroom. I only made these hardcovers for Mila; the rest of these pictures are here. The are safe. He returns with a small tablet and hands it to Helen. She sits now on the bed, like Mac did before, and looks at him, as he walks throw the room Do you see. There are about fifty pictures I have given to Mila, I don´t know what she has done with them, but I do know, that besides her, and me no one has seen them. At least not inside the band.
Helen takes the tablet and looks throw the pictures. She looks at him, a little worried. You haven´t taken the picture.
Mac: Yes, I now I have, but why. He sits on the bedside, stands up, sits back and finally takes the tablet. I haven´t taken the picture.
His face went pale, as he looks throw the other pictures. And then he starts to sorting the pictures on the bed. The pictures are now in a kind of a timeline. You can see, how Mila’s hair got longer and longer, how she got thinner, and you can see how Fred, moves from a beautiful man, towards a little obese man, back towards the man with the arm tattoos. And you can see Jaeden, with changing, piercing, changing hairs.
Then he turns the pictures around. There are numbers on the backside. Mac looks a little confused, a little worried at Helen.
Mac: How many envelopes are there?
Mrs. Maier: Fifteen? Why, what is this?
Mac: He makes sure, that you can find the correct pictures towards the correct letter. He made sure, that the timeline doesn´t fit. And he cut me out. Do you see that? He cut me out, just as he did with Thorny. He turns over the smaller pictures. Then he takes the tablet from Helen and looks at the pictures on his tablet, towards the pictures on the bed. Finally, he hands the tablet towards Helen
Mrs. Maier: So, you didn´t take these pictures?
Mac: I took some of them. Like, … he returns some of the pictures. There is on, Mila besides Jaeden, they both are looking besides the camera, she wears a golden dress, he wears a green suit. This was on our first MTV music award show. I took this picture; they both are looking right now at Fred bringing them drinks. That was the last time, they both had smiled, like they really liked it.
Mrs. Maier: Why?
Mac: Thorny, he … he sighs. He called Mila a whore, and Jaeden a failure. It was a miracle, that they didn´t cry on stage.
Mrs. Maier: What? But … They both went silent after that.  After a while Mac stands up,
Mac: I need to talk to Mila about that. He puts the envelopes together, and then the pictures.
Mrs. Maier: Mac, do you really need to talk about that? I mean, how will she react?
Mac: I don´t know, but I will talk to Fred first, he can handle her.
Mrs. Maier stands up; she walks out of the room. Maybe I should get back to my place. Warren will be there any minute.
Mac only nods. He looks at one of the pictures. It is the only picture with Thorny on it. Thorny has a target on his face.
Mac: Yeah, you should probably go. Bye. She comes back, puts back on a wedding ring, dressed in grey and white like the day before. She leans forwards to kiss him, and receives a kiss on her check
Mrs. Maier: You know one day; you will make a woman really happy to marry her. But before… she smiles sadly at him and walks out of the room.
Mac looks after her, he puts the envelopes and the pictures aside. And leans back in his back, he groans, rubs his hands over his face and looks outside to the dark sky. Then he grabs his phone and writes something, before he shuts the light and went to sleep
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Season 21 -- Week 2
This episode opens with Corinne proposing a toast to Nick and talking about how much she already likes him so obviously I’m ready to turn my television off already. The women are all sitting around discussing how excited they are to continue to get to know Nick. Each of them mentions that she thinks he’s sweet and down to earth and genuine, which means they didn't watch him on anything other than Bachelor in Paradise. I can defend Nick to some extent, but he’s definitely not the man they believe him to be.
Chris Harrison comes in to tell the women that it’s “physically impossible” for all of them to have dates this week. I don't think physics has anything to do with it, but I digress. 
The first date card is read and Corinne finds that her name is first on the list. She brags about this. Of course. Because clearly this means something and wasn't arbitrary at all. The girls get into four identical convertibles and drive away only to end up at the exact same mansion they just left (?). They’re going to have a bridal photoshoot, which is a terrible idea seeing as they’ve known him for just about 24 hours at this point, but whatever. 
The photographer is wearing some sort of multicolored romper and mirrored sunglasses. It appears as though, in a different setting, he and Alexis would have all kinds of fun. I would absolutely watch that TV show. 
Then there’s a plot twist: some girls will get to be brides and the rest have to be bridesmaids! Imagine. Holy shit. This is the best thing to ever happen (save from Chad eating a raw sweet potato with his bare hands as though he had no idea what food is).
Alexis the shark mentions that she has no idea what a shotgun wedding is. She doesn't have to impress me though. This has officially become an Alexis fan blog. Lacey is also getting some screen time this week, but that doesn't mean I know who Lacey is. Brittany isn't wearing a shirt and Corinne is jealous as hell. She stares at Brittany as though she's going to rip her chest off with her bare hands (no one would be surprised if she did. No one. Probably not even Raquel, the nanny she has even though she's an adult). 
Sarah is the Vegas bride. She bends down and puts her head near Nick’s crotch. I hope they’re very happy together. 
Hailey is some sort of BDSM bride, which isn't really a thing, but whatever. I have no opinions of Hailey. I just hope she’s wearing underwear under that dress.
Alexis is a damn star and puts on an accent and everything for her shotgun wedding photo shoot. Again, this is an Alexis fan blog. 
Vanessa is an ‘80s bride, complete with a side ponytail and enormous hoop earrings. During her shoot, Jasmine G. (the alpha Jasmine) starts making out with Nick (as bridesmaids often do). 
Danielle L. (who owns a lot of nail salons or something) has a traditional wedding shoot and immediately goes in for the kiss. Lacey gets jealous and also kisses Nick. At this point everyone probably has mono. 
Taylor shows up in a Disney princess-style wedding gown. The other women talk about how beautiful she is. Someone tears up. Then Taylor kisses Nick. Everyone has officially kissed Nick except for Alexis. You go, Alexis!
Corinne is jealous. She is ready to set all of these girls on fire if it means she’ll get the prize at the end of the shoot. 
We cut away to the mansion, where the remaining women are talking about who they think will get the date rose. Liz mentions that she had sex with Nick at Jade and Tanner’s wedding for the six millionth time. She’s praying for a date because she wants to see what it’s like to have sex with him without wearing a maid of honor dress.
Nick walks in in a leaf-covered Speedo and Brittany shows everyone all of her bits. Corinne fumes. Brittany and Nick try to Lady and the Tramp an apple and then they kiss. 
Corinne and Nick get into a pool and, because she’s jealous of Brittany, she takes her bikini top off. She insists that Nick should hold her boobs a la Janet Jackson. The other girls watch her fragile ego unwind while Nick stares at Franco uncomfortably. His eyes seem to scream, “Please call Raquel.”
Corinne wins the photo shoot because she took her shirt off, which means she gets to take more pictures with Nick on top of a car or something. She puts on an actual wedding dress and kisses Nick while talking about how jealous everyone is. She reminds me of a girl I went to high school with who had her mom call all of the other mothers in our grade to inform them that their daughters were no longer allowed to be friends with a girl her daughter didn't like. 
“No one has ever held my boobs like that,” says Corinne in a drunken stupor. Then she steals him away to make out with him. Maybe they deserve each other. Corinne tells Nick that she wears her heart on her sleeve, but what she’s actually telling him is that if he doesn't pick her she'll wear his skin as a dress. 
Jasmine G. (who still doesn't get to be just Jasmine even though Jasmine B. got the boot last week) gets a chance to make out with Nick for a little bit, while Raven talks shit about everyone. Raven steals Nick away from Lacey, who has yet to prove her relevance. She mentions that she walked in on her boyfriend cheating on her with another woman. Nick can sympathize. He has also been cheated on. I really hope he isn't talking about Andi or Kaitlyn. 
Raven calls Nick a dick. Then he calls himself a dick. I’m glad they agree. 
The second date card is introduced and Liz brings up Jade and Tanner’s wedding again. Please shut up, Liz. Danielle M. gets the solo date because she's sweet and perfect and deserves a halo and wings. Why has no one asked Liz what it’s like to be a doula? That’s so much more interesting than having sex with some guy at a wedding. 
Corinne, clearly incredibly drunk at this point, talks about how it’s important to be ballsy and then steals Nick away from Alexis. “I’m interrupting you,” says Corinne. “Meet me in the parking lot after this,” Alexis responds (well, her eyes do). Then Corinne talks about how her nipple might have been out while she was talking to Nick as if he hasn't already seen her breasts in their entirety. 
Taylor brags about how she got her undergraduate degree in three years and then got her masters degree. Corinne steals Nick away from Taylor. How much has she had to drink? What exactly is she drinking? She continues to make out with Nick. At this point his mouth is full of more of her spit than his own. Taylor finally comes back and shoves Corinne away from Nick. I wish she had thrown her in the pool, but something tells me that’s going to happen shortly.
Corinne is mad that she's been interrupted because she's never done anything like that before. Ever. At all. Then she talks about herself in the third person, further proving that she and Chad belong together. She confronts Taylor in a really passive aggressive way and then mocks her. She talks about how interruptions are going to happen (but didn't she just whine about being interrupted?) 
Nick gives the rose that’s been on the table for fifteen hours at this point to Corinne. He's afraid that she’s going to cast a spell on him if he doesn't give it to her. She squeals when he hugs her and then drunk cries about how happy she is in an interview. She says that her dad would be proud of her even though she took her top off. Would Raquel be proud though?
Lacey believes that she deserved the rose...who is Lacey? “XOXO Gossip Girl,” says Corinne. I have no idea why. 
Corinne brags about “winning” the whole day. At this point, this recap has just become a collection of reasons I hate Corinne, but I’m not going to apologize for that, ok? She’s drinking wine at breakfast. Wine is not a breakfast drink. At least put some orange juice and champagne in a glass, girl.
Danielle M. and Nick are in a plane together. He doesn't deserve her, but for some reason she doesn't see that, so we’ll all play along until she becomes the next Bachelorette and finds the man she actually belongs with. They land on a yacht and drink champagne on the edge of a hot tub. “Help yourself to some cheese,” says Nick, reminding everyone that they’re both from Wisconsin. Cheese is the only thing you can associate with Wisconsin. 
Christen is wearing a thick cheetah print headband for unknown reasons. Liz mentions Jade and Tanner’s wedding because she had SEX WITH NICK THERE! Then she tells Christen, who has lost her headband, what happened at the wedding. Which wedding? Jade and Tanner’s wedding. You know, the one where Liz and Nick had sex. Christen promises she won't tell anyone about it, but we all know she's lying. Is Christen shady? Do I like Christen now? 
We go back to Nick and perfect Danielle M. who are having dinner. She wants to know more about him. Nick talks about how Andi and Kaitlyn didn't love him enough to marry him and turns it into a life lesson about falling in love and taking risks. Then Danielle M. tells Nick that she was once engaged, but her fiancee (who she didn't know was using drugs) overdosed and died. I am now crying for her a little bit. Then she says that she was the one who found his dead body and I full on cry. Danielle M., you deserve better. You deserve the world, you rainbow-infused space unicorn. Nick acts like a genuinely decent human being, which is a nice surprise. Danielle M. is going to make it all the way to the end. She gets a rose and I cry again. They ride a ferris wheel to end the date. They kiss. I sincerely hope he’s used mouthwash since the last time he kissed Corinne because her germs should not be able to come in contact with the wonderful Danielle M. (who is the only Danielle anyone should care about this season.)
We get to the final date. Astrid’s name is brought up, which is good because most people have probably forgotten that Astrid is there. I know I have. Liz is going to confront Nick on the group date. 
Kristina talks for the first time this week. I still have questions about her accent. Will they ever be addressed? I really hope so. 
The second group date takes place at the Museum of Broken Relationships, which is apparently a real thing that exists (not ironically). Among the items in the museum are a dead rose, the ring that Nick was going to give Kaitlyn, a set of breast implants, a cheerleader uniform, and human cartoon character Josephine. 
All of a sudden a loud break up happens in the museum. It’s obviously a gimmick, but everyone crowds around them as if they’re watching something real happen. Josephine hides behind a wall and covers her mouth, proving that she is a cartoon. 
The women are told that they’re going to be staging their own breakups with Nick. He finally mentions that he and Liz had sex at Jade and Tanner's wedding. Christen gossips with the entire audience about her being the only person who knows. We all know, girl. People who don't watch the show know. Liz cries in an interview. She wants to be acknowledged. Maybe he would have acknowledged her if she had given him her number at the wedding. Maybe this whole season could have been avoided if she had just given him her number. 
Astrid is the first to break up with Nick. She tells him that she can't accept the rose and he says that he didn't know he offered it. She snaps the rose over her knee. Everyone oohs and ahhs at her strength.
Kristina is next. She yells about dental hygiene. 
Jaimi yells at Nick about how dirty he is. This is the most realistic of the breakups.
Christen says that Nick called her fat. Yikes. 
Josephine slaps Nick! “Do it again, bitch!” I yell. Then I realize it’s three in the morning and I probably shouldn't be yelling. Josephine wins this date. 
It’s finally Liz’s turn. Remember Liz? The one who had sex with Nick? At Jade and Tanner’s wedding? That Liz. She reads a prepared speech about the first time they met (at Jade and Tanner’s wedding -- the social event of the millennium). This is not the time or place for this, Liz. Please stop. Everyone is uncomfortable. Nick can't even make eye contact with her. Christen’s jaw drops. Liz says some more uncomfortable stuff. I have been cringing for ten minutes. 
They end up at an abandoned nightclub. “I’m living my nightmare,” says Nick. 
Kristina is from Russia originally. My questions have been answered. Thank you, ABC. 
Jaimi dated a girl. Nick is flustered. “I won't go after the one you want,” says Jaimi, who may or may not become this season’s Tila Tequila. 
During Nick’s private conversation with Christen, she tells him that she knows that he had sex with Liz at Jade and Tanner’s wedding. Christen is a backstabber. I officially like Christen. 
Nick finally pulls Liz aside to talk to her and then makes her leave the show. It’s been real, It’s been fun, but it hasn't been real fun. Sorry, Liz. Pack your bags and go back to being a doula. I’m a little disappointed that we didn't get to hear about her career, but I’ll live. 
Nick tells everyone that he and Liz had sex and then the episode abruptly ends without a rose ceremony. I’m not thrilled.
After next week’s preview Alexis and Nick celebrate her boobs’ first birthday with cupcakes and singing. I sincerely love everything about Alexis. The cupcakes are apparently disgusting, but Alexis can do no wrong in my book.
My top 5:
1. Danielle M.
2. Alexis
3. Rachel
4. Vanessa
5. Josephine
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