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ooc; TOA Anniversary Munday!

Celebrating TOA and the people who contribute to make our group what it is. Repost, don't reblog. Only fill in what you feel comfortable sharing! Happy anniversary, TOA! Here's to many more years spent together.

Name: Soji

Pronouns: She/her

Birthday (no year): October 14

Where are you from? What is your time zone? United States. Both my parents are from South Korea. East coast resident (EST)

Roleplay experience: A little over 13 years of roleplay experience

Got any pets? One chinchilla affectionately dubbed Souji Man and a 'Shavanese' dog (short-haired Havanese) named Happy

Favorite time of year: Autumn

Some interests and things you like: The holy trinity of cosplaying, writing, and drawing

Some fun facts & trivia about you:

— I joined TOA during the peak of Covid quarantining in 2020 when there was a huge convention dry spell. The indie roleplay scene for Fire Emblem during this time was uneventful too. Having no productive outlet for cosplaying or writing, it lead me to join my first RP group which was (jazz hands) TOA

— My zodiac animal is a rabbit

— I have hundreds upon hundreds of hours clocked on Super Smash Bros from Brawl to Ultimate. You'll never guess who I main.

What non-Fire Emblem games do you play? Final Fantasy XIV, Project Zomboid, Phasmophobia, Touken Ranbu, and Stardew Valley in order of frequency.

Favorite Pokemon type & Pokemon: I like bug types; my favorite Pokemon is Scizor. While not Pokemon my favorite Digimon, Kabuterimon, is also a bug. Honorable mention goes to Greninja.

How did you get into Fire Emblem? Saw Shadow Dragon in my local Gamestop one day and didn't buy it even though it stuck out to me with its somber and less colorful boxart. Next time I saw a Fire Emblem game in the store, i.e., Awakening, I bought and played it. The rest is history.

What Fire Emblem games have you played? If we're talking start-to-end I've played and finished FE1, FE3, FE7, FE9, FE11, FE12, Awakening, SOV, 3H, and Engage. The remaining games in the series I've played to either early or mid game.

First Fire Emblem game: Awakening

Favorite Fire Emblem game: FE11 Shadow Dragon

Any Fire Emblem crushes? FE7 Rath was my first and only concrete FE crush. Marth was initially more of an aesthetic source of admiration though knowing his character better he likely exemplifies the ideal partner. Similar to Marth he's not really a crush, but right now I think a lot about Rafal, ironically less in the realm of looks or perfection and more at his attractive hot-and-cold personality.

If you’ve played the following games, who was your first S support? - Awakening: Chrom - Fates: Kaden was my forecast - Three Houses: Dimitri - Engage: Alfred

Favorite Fire Emblem class: Dracoknight

If you were a Fire Emblem character, what would be your class? Archer. My first class in FFXIV was an archer and my FE tastes will reflect that too.

If you were a Three Houses character, what would be your affiliation? Blue Lions

If you were an Engage character, which Emblem would you Engage with? Marth. Need me a princely ghost boyfriend I mean advisor with a good head on his shoulders.

How did you find TOA? Through Fire Emblem roleplay related tags

Current TOA muses: Marth and Rafal

Who was your first TOA muse? If you don’t have them anymore, could you see yourself picking them up again? Marth is my ride or die Fire Emblem character and that extends to him as a muse.

Have you had any other TOA muses? Besides Marth and Rafal I've also written Xane. Though there isn't a lot of data, my second muse slot historically (and presently) being reserved for dragons tickles me a lot.

Do you think you have a type of character you gravitate towards? Not really. My tastes are unexplainably versatile. I can favor the sweet and friendly golden boy type characters, or the less pristine and morally ambiguous "bad boy" types, and everything in-between. This isn't just true for TOA but also for characters from different series. My friends have a lot of trouble forecasting possible favorites for me because of it.

What do you believe you enjoy writing the most? Emotions. Conflict with those emotions. Mwahahahaha

Favorite TOA-related memory: The first few months into my TOA debut when everything was bright, fresh, and new. Meeting new friends and forging bonds with other characters was super fun and I still remember who was around me during that time. Farina (written by Maxie) is the closest muse to Marth in terms of when they joined TOA and who has stayed to this day.

Got any delusions that didn’t see the light of day in TOA that you’d like to share? I tend to be very stable, loyal, and proactive in my delusions. If they're strong enough I pursue them, like Xane and Rafal. Rath would be among them if I ever replayed FE7 and if I determined having three muses wouldn't make my performance suffer over all.

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𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐞’𝐬 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐬 : 𝐠𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐜 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐞.

carmilla．   giant featherbeds． tightening a corset． moonlit walks． killing for love． cruelty for the sake of love． love is always selfish． romantic tragedy． love to the brink of destruction． nighttime rendezvous． bloody kisses on soft skin． death was the maiden． a very strange agony． claimed by the supernatural． dreaming about your lover． sympathy for the devil． loving me to death． candlesticks lighting up the palm of your hand． a passion that wearies you． killing the one you love．

phantom of the opera． a single red rose laid out to be found． sensual voices singing them to sleep． a familiar shadow attending every recital． love waits on the rooftop in the night． two soulmates holding hands． walking down long corridors． retrieving something lost． devoting one’s craft to them． making them your muse． the horror was for love． painted faces on parade． gentle touches in the dark． revealing your darkest secrets． beauty and the beast． writing messages on the mirror． kindness conquers all． letting your lover go． love never dies．

jane eyre． loving the escape． an impassioned affair． being consumed by love． meeting your soulmate． lace and silk． thirsting for the perfect romance． marrying for passion． losing yourself in the face of your lover． wedding veils and bouquets of pink roses． maddened by love． finding warmth in the cold． calling out for your love． starting at the bottom． the fire cleanses all． hiding your passion． your love will destroy me / my love will destroy you．

the picture of dorian gray． painting a portrait or sketching the face of someone you love． meeting in secret． visions of your lover dying． clutching a lover’s clothes to your chest． love so consuming you kill them． protecting their innocence at all costs． betrayal． polyamory． devotion． flowers for the one you love． remembering the name of your first love． jealousy when you see them with someone else． love so consuming you die for it． visiting the place where you saw them the first time．

the count of monte cristo． letters to your lover． marrying for love． these bars can’t keep me from you． motivated by love． an avenging angel． scorching jealousy． love reborn． devoted to memory． it was all for you． going your separate ways． commit murder for me． an unstoppable hunger． death comes for us all． the strongest love eventually grows apart．

dracula． the holiest love． girls love wolves． the blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb． violence is passion． red lips, sharp teeth． love letters in a diary． unrelenting support． getting lost in the woods． coming home to you． walking backwards into hell． vengeance for my love． even death won’t stop me． we can live forever． love is an open wound． too much love to give． bestowing your favour． a never-ending thirst． beauty even in death． ravenous desire． if only death had a heart to give． a mercy killing． these violent delights have violent ends．

frankenstein． childhood friends to lovers． they were something out of a dream． arranged marriages． learning to love． was it all really worth it? our guilt can know no bounds． vengeance, my love． dismembered body parts． my beating heart in your open palm． your death destroys me． adam and eve． crossing the mountains． an antagonist in mourning． paradise lost． the loss of innocence． abandoning your dream． the tempest on the horizon． humans are the real monsters． my love is wiser than my hate.

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YOUR CHARACTER IN FIVE QUOTES.

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Tell us your favorite quotes from your character. Give us an idea of who they are by five things they’ve said. Then tag your friends.

     “No, that would not do. Today is a momentous day for my kingdom and my people. I must celebrate with them now, not later. Anything else would be a disservice to those who died to save Altea. I am a prince before I am a son or a brother. Come, Malledus. Let us go greet my people.”     (Fire Emblem: Shadow Dragon, Chapter 17 — Star and Savior)

   “Jagen often tells me that, too. ‘He who leads people must see the big picture.’ If one sacrifices few to save many, that was the correct decision to take. I understand that, too. But, I don't want that. Having to sacrifice someone, maybe I'm unfit to be king... Perhaps it's a naive way to think... But, that's how I really feel. And I can't betray my feelings.“     (Fire Emblem: New Mystery of the Emblem, Base — Marth)

    “Truthfully, I wish for a peaceful world where Heroes do not need to battle. I think we all do. But in order to create a world where people do not need to swing swords, we must be the ones to do so now. One day, peace may come to Askr, and when it does, we Heroes may fade away, forgotten save in legends. However…even if Heroes vanish from this world, the will for peace will remain. That is what I believe.”     (Fire Emblem: Heroes, Keepers of Faith — Marth Support S)

    "I'd agree that a king cannot act alone... But does that mean he is weak? After all, he has found people willing to lay down their lives for him. Now consider your enemies—they may be giving their lives to protect friends. Does it make you strong to kill someone who has their own honorable intentions? Can you cut down your foe knowing that their death will hurt their friends?"    (Fire Emblem: Warriors, Marth & Rowan — C support)

     "And yet, I think you are forgetting an important piece of the puzzle. No matter how gallant the action, its meaning is lost if you do not live on afterward. You must survive in order to enact the will of your friends—and your kingdom. This is the duty of one charged with saving an entire country.”     (Dragalia Lost, Marth Adventurer Story — Episode 5)

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WHAT  MAKES  A  PERSONALITY.

A template for analyzing features of a personality beyond listing adjectives.

SELF - CONCEPT.

View of Self:  I am no Hero-King, the accolades trill too grandly for a man like him. Many know nothing of the boy that came before. Craven. Powerless. Once he could do nothing but watch from an island as the cogs of the world turned past him. As Altea burned across the sea and its routed knights cried for a silent prince. They say that his army rose from five men and he took back the world on a blade of light. All of it is true but the gods will remember it as well as he does, how none of it he did alone.

View of Others:  Humans and dragons alike exist in surprising shades. Most are not inherently wicked but instead understood as individuals of circumstance, while the true villains exist far fewer in number. Even the Shadow Dragon did not subjugate humanity for greed or power alone. Who is evil, who is not. After his wars, such questions no longer pose to him a clear answer.

View of World:  A garden of inherent peace and humanity, ruined only by the emperors and sorcerers that deign to paint it red. Even when once betrayed his faith in the world runs undying, believing that it is never beyond saving and that its people are worth every price.

Motivations & Goals:  The preservation of peace. It is his duty as ruler to protect his country not only from harm, but from the dark and unseen possibilities of a third war. Resolved to unify his continent’s seven kingdoms so that no evil coterie from within will again lead it astray through its individual leaders. Ultimately aims to accomplish a lawful and harmonious society from ear-to-ear, Grust to Talys, where no-one need die beyond a natural end.

What they Value Most:  Family and friends, the welfare of his kingdom and the hard-won peace currently in effect.

EMOTIONAL  REACTIONS.

Reaction to Stress:   Grim-faced, quiet, and periodically lost in thought. During conferences with his generals or state ministers, mostly listens and speaks only when necessary in regards to his position of authority. Visual cues manifest in the tight skin drawn across his knuckles and occasional mile-long stare. When under the impression of an uneventful hour, often returns to previously desisted boyhood quirks such as picking at loose threads on his clothing or nodding to feign attention.

Reaction to Fear:  Feels a cold chill on the inside while outwardly appearing calm. Contains his panic. As the duties of kingship keep him in close proximity with others, makes a conscious effort not to wear this particular emotion on his sleeve. Recognizes that fear on the face of a leader equates to his uncertainty, a lack of belief in his own methods, which is then impressed to negative effect upon his subordinates.

Reaction to Success:  More than anything, relief. His crown and sword are heavy weights indeed, but even heavier weigh his great many responsibilities and dependents. The end of a battle in particular means much for him. That he can live to see another day. That his men can see it with him.

Reaction to Failure:  Nothing could cripple him more. Feels every loss and failure especially in the language of human lives. Every soldier lost to war. Every man, woman, child slipped through his hands during the peace. No king can be omniscient, no man beneath the stars can play god, yet here is one who still believes he can save everyone even when reminded of the fact that he can’t.

DEVELOPMENT.

Ideal Self:  A competent ruler with the ability to protect his people and kingdom. Wise in matters of court and effective on the battlefield. Most importantly, imbued with the inspiring qualities of leadership that deem him fit to follow and his peaceful ideals easily shared.

Areas of Growth:  The absolution of personal guilt for Hardin’s fate as well as the men who died under his command during his wars. A sensible and worldly understanding of losses that are inevitable, and will continue to be, throughout the span of his life. Over-protectiveness towards his lover and the one-sided preference for her exemption from the battlefield.

Barriers to Growth:  Naivety, stubbornness, and excessive sensitivity. Finds it difficult to release his hold on the past and ironically looks to the future only in regards to his country rather than himself. Willful in many ways that he is not willing to relinquish. Does not cope well with failure but clings to his impossible ideals regardless, trapping himself in a painful and self-immolating cycle.