#★ ┊ KEITHISMS. headcanon

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KEITH AND HIS PASSION

MUSIC 

Growing up Keith never got more than what he absolutely needed. All useless objects were sold and given away to make sure his father could make enough money to keep the both of them afloat before he passed. There were two things that his father couldn’t get rid of, the guitar his mother had gotten his father, and a keyboard. 

While neither were super fancy they worked well enough for Keith to learn how to play both instruments. His father had taught him the basics before he passed away and the rest was stuff Keith had taught himself by finding random books the Garrison had deep in their archives. After all, the students did need a little free time. 

After being kicked out Keith buried himself into playing the guitar more than the keyboard because he could take it with him anywhere. He wasn’t good with writing actual songs but he’d make up little tunes to try and pass the time. He played daily until his fingers bled, trying to get better. So he could make his father proud about something. 

Once aboard the castle Keith felt lost without direct access to instruments he was familiar with but he does discover that Alteans have things similar to both instruments but they aren’t exactly the same. So he gathered the materials to build a guitar himself, which wasn’t an easy task but he managed to do it before he left for the blade of marmora. He even got the chance to play it a few times. 

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I rewatched Code of Honor and I realized a few things as I’ve been rewatching Voltron over the past few days

Keith started pulling away from his role as the pilot of the black lion as soon as they had Shiro back. He never once wanted to be in this position because he knows that he isn’t meant to be a leader. He’s a natural born loner that’s always cared about only himself in a lot of situations. While being part of a team has granted him the needed growth. 

He has never once called himself the black paladin and will never accept that title because it was one that was forced on him by Shiro. Never once did Shiro asked if Keith wanted to lead Voltron, he shoved it down his throat. Which most likely causes a rift between Keith and Shiro because as much as Keith trusts Shiro having something that he doesn’t want shoved down his throat kills Keith. 

Keith never meant to cause the rest of his team harm by missing performances or throwing the team that became his family in danger because he hates himself for doing it. Yet he knows that the blade is where he truly belongs. The blade has the secrets to his past hidden in their walls and for once he’s ready to find himself. He’s not just the boy in the shack anymore he’s Keith, a boy who wants nothing more than to find his place in the universe. 

What happened with the delivery ships that forced Shiro’s hand into becoming the black paladin again makes Keith feel so guilty it tears him up inside. He didn’t mean to cause that kind of harm to his team. Yet there’s some gratification when Shiro does get the black lion to respond to him only confirming that he has no place as a paladin of Voltron. 

Keith loved being a paladin and flying his lion but he knew that his time as a paladin was up the second Allura got the blue lion. He knew the second Shiro was back that he’d hand the reins back over to their rightful owner. He was willing to make that sacrifice for himself. 

The lecture with Allura saying that the blade could go on without him but Voltron can’t was a slap in the face because Keith knew that Shiro was just letting him lead a team he was never good enough to. Keith was a bad leader to put it lightly. He knew his flaws and he could never call the shots on his own. He knows that he isn’t meant to be a leader when his instincts tell him to only protect himself. 

Once Shiro is back in command and when he tells the team about the mission he wants to go on he knows that it’s finally time. He knows that no matter how bad his mistakes were that things finally worked themselves out in his favor for once in his life. He made his choice the second he joined the blade. He knows where he belongs and he knows it isn’t as a paladin. He made that choice and was willing to make it right no matter the cost. 

Keith has grown so much and the trust he holds in his team will always be there, but he knows that he isn’t meant to be in the paladin armor anymore. He hates to leave the family that he’d grown close with behind but he knows that he needs to find himself to really live up to what the expect from him. 

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Small random hc’s about Keith I could never really write a meta about

He realizes that he probably won’t ever fly a lion again and has fully accepted this

He knows that while he’s still a member of voltron he won’t put his paladin armor back on unless required to

While in the blade he picked up on the basics of the Galra language and is still learning it

While he accepts the team as his family he knows that he needs to grow before he is ready to really be apart of the team again

He changed while being with the blade, most likely taking on their knowledge or death mentality to a degree

He is still willing to put the lives of other’s and his team before his own and his own self growth

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I want to explain something about Keith and his team dynamic because I’ve been talking about this to a few people, and they support this theory. 

Now we all know that Keith get’s ‘attacked’ a lot in the show by the other team members because of his mistakes, and yes this does negatively affect Keith I’d like to take a stance from the teams perspective. 

This isn’t some high school football game or some dumb playground for them to play in space. This isn’t a simulation this is war and I’d like to make it very clear that some of Keith mistakes could lead him and any other member of the team do their death. 

A perfect example is when Keith tried to fight Zarkon in S1 ( I think idek ) and everyone kept yelling at him to stop. They aren’t saying that to break Keith, they don’t want Zarkon to get the red lion and then get himself killed. 

Another example is in season 2 when Keith threatens that leader by putting his sword around his neck, of course everyone else got mad because his outburst did nothing but put everyone in danger. They know Keith can’t be stopped but they want to drill it into his head that his decisions often lead the rest of the team to be in danger. 

My biggest example is on Thayserix in season 3 whenever Keith just went after Lotor without letting Pidge examine the atmosphere, and letting Allura get shot off and nearly caught by Lotor. In that moment Lance reaches out to him and instead of ‘bullying’ ( He’s never bullied Keith he’s called him out on his shit because again this is war ) Keith he said he was going to help him fix what he’d done. Because everyone knows that Keith doesn’t want to be their leader and they know he isn’t fit to lead them, so instead of lashing out at him and making things worse they help him, because he’s no longer just another paladin he’s in charge. 

 Before Keith was their leader they’d call him out because they need him to see where he makes his mistakes and need him to try not to do it again. A lot of the time Keith doesn’t do the exact same thing over and over again, but he still causes trouble. 

Now moving on to Keith’s perspective. 

He’s used to looking out for just himself and not 4 other people. He acts on himself because he’s selfish and cares about himself. He’s hard wired that way, so of course he’s the one who gets in those kinds of situations the most. Pidge, Hunk, and Lance were on a team together in the Garrison and Shiro is a natural born leader so of course they are a team oriented bunch. Keith dropped out of the garrison and was alone for a year, and even in the garrison he struggled with is ‘disciplinary issues’ which I’m assuming revolved around his lack of communication with his team and how he couldn’t be a team oriented person. 

Now before you start screaming ‘BUT HE CAN LEARN THEY SHOULDN’T HAVE TO YELL AT HIM’ He can’t relearn something that’s been hardwired in his brain in the course of a few months, they’ve probably been in space 2 years at most, and he can’t reteach himself all the things he’s known because he doesn’t know he’s doing it half the time. He relies solely on instinct and his instinct protects himself and only himself. 

Keith isn’t perfect, he’s flawed and broken and desperate to fix himself but he’s too scared to ask for help because he knows everyone on the team already has this high opinion of him and he doesn’t want to disappoint them yet again by showing that he’s not all he’s claimed to be outside of the battlefield. 

He’s weak and he doesn’t want to admit that to anyone, because he already knows he’s fucked up enough and he doesn’t want to add to it. I’m not saying the team have made him feel this way because he’s always felt like this. He was at the top of his class at the garrison so god forbid he be anything less than perfect.

TLDR Keith isn’t bullied by his team mates because this is war and it’s not bullying if you speak up when someone fucks up in those situations because everyone’s life is on the line and Keith isn’t fucked up mentally because of what the team does or whenever they call him out. Sure it hurts and it doesn’t help him but he’s not broken from the team doing this to him. 

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Keith and his sacrifice

This whole thing is going under a read more because Season 4 spoilers. 

Keith in season 4 shows a lot of growth ( even though he was only in 3 episodes ) because it’s offering the idea that Keith isn’t meant to be directly involved with Voltron. That he might not truly be meant to hold a paladin role, but a role outside of it with the blade. He joins the blade because he wants to further himself outside of voltron and wants to see where he really belongs. I’m not trying to say he doesn’t belong in voltron but maybe that he feels like to really be a paladin he needs himself to grow. Ever since he was forced to pilot the black lion he hasn’t felt like he really belonged in that position. Lance replaces his role in red and he knows that deep down lance has grown into that role and deserves it, but he knows that he’s not really ready to pilot black yet. He sees himself as more of a place holder for when he forces Shiro to reconnect with the black lion. 

Watching Lance grow into the role of the red paladin further solidified his thoughts that he might be that ‘one to many paladins’ Lance mentioned in season 3. It made him realized that maybe he’s not meant to be apart of voltron but still be able to help through the blade. He realizes that maybe he’s not meant to pilot a lion, which is a hard thing for him to swallow because he’d just gotten used to the idea of voltron being his real family and now he feels as if it’s time for him to move on. Joining the blade is a way for him to really grow as a person and find out more about himself away from voltron and away from the people he’s grown to call his family. 

Now moving on to how Keith copes with the realization that he isn’t meant for voltron. It’s a hard thing for him to swallow because those people are his family. It’s hard for him to think that he has to take a back seat and watch voltron from the outside because he wants to be a paladin and he wants to be a part of the team but he doesn’t want to shove lance out of red and therefore shove allura out of blue because he feels like those are the roles they’re truly meant to play. He slowly has to accept the fact that he might never get to fly a lion ever again, yet he doesn’t get angry at anyone and doesn’t try to take out this realization out on anyone he keeps it to himself and waits for the moment to present itself that he can be with just the blade and not have to keep going back and forth with being the pilot of the black lion and the blade. 

I also want to touch on how Keith has never and probably will never view himself as the black paladin. He knows he’s not meant to hold that role and knows that once Shiro gets back he’ll have a huge weight lifted off his shoulders that he just isn’t ready for. People might call him the black paladin but he’ll never see himself as such. 

I’m also a firm believer that Keith connected with people in the blade and talked to them and they helped him rely less on instinct and control his emotions. They’re really helping him grow as a person and that’s something he didn’t fully have in voltron. He’s put himself in a complete 180 environment to what voltron was. It’s not about saving everyone it’s about the mission, and that’s helping him realize how cold some people in life can be. 

At first Keith will probably resent the team for not fully understanding why he wants to join the blade and why he forced Shiro to take action and reconnect with the black lion but once they watch him grow and learn and see him change as a person they’ll slowly see that Keith wasn’t trying to run away he was trying to find himself, and that meant he had to leave voltron. Yet he has a whole lot to learn from the blade and that will really help him develop as a character and into the person he really wants himself to be. He wants to be more open with people and wants to be able to not get angry all the time and he really believes the blade is a place where that will teach him what he wants to know.  

Now for the big thing. The big stupid instinctual thing Keith did. This is probably going to be super long but whatever here we go, his sacrifice. 

In the moment thousands of people were at risk by the planet exploding and crippling the coalition or he can sacrifice his own life and save them all. He knows that since he’s not a paladin anymore his sacrifice won’t directly cripple voltron, they’ll still have all their paladins and still be able to take down Zarkon. They’ll be able to do what they’ve always wanted, and he knows that if he gives himself up to save everyone that he won’t be forgotten. His memory will live on with Voltron and he knows that his death will only give them the strength to take action, he’s willing to give himself up to protect his family. 

At this point he’s spent weeks with the blade and their slogan ‘the mission or death’ and all that jazz. He knows that in this moment his life is worth less than the mission they’re trying to complete. He’s just another blade member that is willing to put their life on the line to save everyone else around him. He knows people will be upset, he knows that maybe giving up his life isn’t the best thing to do but it was the only option at that point. They had ticks left before the planet exploded and their weapons weren’t making a dent in that shield but he knows that crashing his ship into it would be enough to at least give them the edge they needed to stop the ritual going on and stop the planet from exploding. 

In that moment he recalls his whole life up until that moment and he’s happy with everything he’s done. He was apart of something so much bigger than himself and he knows that even without him around that voltron will still be able to defeat Zarkon and that they’re going to do what they need to do. 

In that moment Keith lets everything go and he’s willing to die for the sake of thousands and for the sake of voltron. He’s not dying because he’s impulsive or because he wants to die. He gives himself up knowing that if he doesn’t then everyone that he loves and everyone that he cares about is going to die along with him and he can’t stand that thought. He protects the people he cares about and he’ll give himself up over any of the other paladins in a heart beat because they’re so much more important that he is. He can’t let voltron die so he decides to take a risk that would’ve costed him his life. 

He doesn’t regret what he tried to do because there were literally no other options at that point and nothing else was working. He doesn’t think that what he tried to do was dumb or stupid because he’s not a paladin anymore, his worth isn’t greater than any of the other paladins because he hung up his armor and he moved on. Now he’s just a blade member and they’ve died to save voltron before so what’s the difference in that moment? 

The blade of marmora are willing to lay down their lives for the sake of voltron and that’s exactly what Keith tries to do. His sacrifice wouldn’t have been in vain and he knows that. He’s just another member of the blade that nearly dies for voltron and he’s sound in his decision. 

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KEITH AND FAMILY

I wanna point out how important the Voltron is to Keith. They’re the first real family that hasn’t outwardly tried to abandon him. They’re the first people to see Keith in a light no one else in the galaxy has seen him in. They show him that he matters and that he means something. 

They know Keith has issues and they’ll call Keith out on it but they also help him grow as a person. Their actions show Keith all the things he’d done wrong when trying to interact with people before ( be it very few interactions but still ) They taught him what it means to be important. Sure he has to be on Voltron, his lion picked him and he’s stuck with him, but that’s the most important thing about this whole situation they’re stuck together no matter what. They can’t just cast Keith out whenever they want because of some dumb reason. They have to keep him and they have to deal with him. 

This leads to Keith trusting all of them with his life because he knows that he matters, and that he’s important and that the lions finally gave him a place in the universe. He’s happy to have a family that needs him and that wants him, and he wants to make them proud. 

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Time for me to meta about everything the Keith video touched on.  PSA it’s a long read. It’s just over 2k words. Also psa DO NOT REBLOG.

I’d like to start off this with a song lyric that I feel really resonates with keith. 

Have you ever felt like nobody was there? Have you ever felt forgotten in the middle of nowhere? Have you ever felt like you could disappear? Like you could fall, and no one would hear?

I’m going to start from the beginning of Keith’s life because frankly, that’s where all of his problems started. Keith has never canonically mentioned his father other than in the blade episode so there’s not much to go on there. BUT now that he’s mentioned his mother leaving him we can infer that Keith has abandonment issues. He blames the way he is now on the fact that his mother left him. His biggest question is WHY she left him. What did he do wrong? Why didn’t she love him? It’s all these questions that he’s asked himself for years now. 

The next point I’d like to move on to is the abandonment issues that came along as a result of his mother leaving him. Now while I hc that his father died ( the show could prove me wrong but whatever ) and then Keith was shipped off to the Garrison instead of going into foster care that’s another issue of Keith being alone. His father left him by himself, no other family to contact. Instead they shipped him off to the Garrison where he tried to bust his ass to make something out of himself. He needed to prove to himself that even with all the shit he’s gone through that he could be more than his parents deaths. 

I’d also like to point out how Keith is never taught any coping mechanisms on how to deal with loss or anger or anything that could make him uncomfortable. He’s literally been shown to lose his cool and get angry the second he feels uncomfortable. Why? Because he doesn’t have any other way of dealing with. It’s not like he wants to get angry all the time he just doesn’t know how to control it. He gets worked up and then can’t stop himself until it’s too late and then whenever someone such as Shiro or Lance call him out and ask him to calm down he’s calm almost immediately, why? Because he never intends to get that angry in the first place. After being called out about it it’s just another slap in the face that he can’t control himself or his emotions because he never had someone there to teach him. 

This is where I wanna bring Shiro into the picture. They obviously knew each other through the Garrison ( my ships aside here ) they were most likely friends before Shiro went off to Kerberos. So not only had Keith finally made a friend, but he then had to watch them go off into space and then be reported missing. There’s another instance of loss in his life and he doesn’t know how to cop so what happens? He drops out because of disciplinary issues. Aka he couldn’t keep his temper in check because again, he bottled his feelings until the point where he was a human catalyst and exploded. 

After dropping out Keith had basically no where to go so he found himself in an old shack. Where he got to stew on his feelings alone for a few months. This is when the realization that everything in his life as amounted to nothing hits him. His parents are both gone, his one and only friend is presumed dead in space and he dropped out of a top flight school where he was at the top of his class only to end up ALONE. Out of the 3 canonically relevant people he’d ever been close to in his life, all of three of them had left him. That’s when the depression hits him harder than before. He struggles waking up every day he struggles taking care of himself. His hair grows out he forgets how to interact with people. He doesn’t know how to function as a person anymore. 

After awhile it was too much for him. He feels like he never deserved a chance to be born with in the first place because whatever high being there is out there ( I personally don’t think Keith is religious ) gave him this sort of life even after he busted his ass to try and become someone. Yet there he was, thrown out in the dirt once again. 

Another thing I’d like to touch on is how Keith actually views himself because that’s super important to me and how I write him. 

Keith doesn’t view himself in a good light at all for all the reasons I’ve already listed. Keith doesn’t see himself as the ‘number one pilot’ the rest of the team might see him for. He’s flawed. He can’t deal with most social situations without getting aggressive or awkward because honestly he’s had more interaction with people in the first two episodes of voltron than nearly his entire life prior to him finding Shiro again. So of course he’s awkward and quiet unless provoked. ( which honestly isn’t a hard thing to do BUT i digress ) He also has a hard time grasping a lot of social concepts that many people think are second nature. ( insert the i say vol you say tron example here ) The reason why he’s so hung up on the whole i say voltron deal is because to him, it makes more logical sense to just say voltron than to say something that, while yes it’s supposed to be humorous, just doesn’t make any sense to him. Keith isn’t one for humor that isn’t direct/blunt because a lot of the time his brain can’t wrap itself around the concept. 

I also want to touch on his the relationships he holds with the paladins themselves and how he views their input. 

I’d like to start this off with the beginning of season three whenever they were all deciding who was going to pilot the black lion. Their aggression towards him confessing that Shiro kept being like ‘i want you to lead voltron’ but having never mentioned it to anyone else, not even to coran or allura is like a huge kick in the face to the little confidence he had in himself.  One because he hates being rejected because that’s all he’s ever been his entire life. Two, is because he thought the team thought more highly of him than just the loner and yet there they were calling him out and making him feel like he was at the bottom of the barrel. The only talent any of them ever acknowledge is his piloting skills. Nothing else about him shines, he’s just a good pilot to them. 

Moving on to whenever they all actually go in the black lion. Keith was the LAST to attempt and honestly he probably only attempted because everyone else was pressuring him to. He had to try right? Except he never wanted to lead voltron in the first place. He doesn’t have the skill set to lead he doesn’t have the qualities of a leader. Even after the black lion responds to him he wants to deny it, he wants to let someone else do it because he can’t have such a big responsibility placed on him whenever he knows he’s going to fail. 

That’s when everyone starts to congratulate him and he feels like he’s just been kicked in the teeth. He knows their true feelings, he knows that know of them really value his ability to pilot over him and yet there they were being like ‘oh you’re going to be a great leader.’ Yet he wasn’t. He almost got Allura killed. They wanted him to lead so he did, and he failed. 

Once again he’d failed. He failed his mother’s love, his fathers legacy, and how he’d failed Shiro. That only made the depression worse. 

Moving back all the way to season 1 I want to talk about the famous ‘bonding moment’ that was humorously touched in the show. 

The reason ( I feel at least ) Keith is so upset about Lance not remembering it is because for the first time since Shiro, Keith had found someone that had seen him in a good light. Someone that had complimented him. Even after all the headassery that Lance had started with Keith he thought they made a good team, and this good team work is shown time and time again throughout the show and yet the fact that Lance forgets it just solidifies to Keith that nothing he does is worth remembering. 

This is the time where I put my little blurb about Lance and Keith and their interactions

So Lance starts basically everything in the rivalry between the two of them. Literally within the first five minutes of meeting Keith, Lance is already shoving his superiority down his throat. At first Keith didn’t understand why Lance was like this and why Lance kept pushing it on him. ( he even finds it somewhat annoying and like Lance has a problem ) Yet as time goes on the rivalry turns into a more competitive nature that Keith starts to play back with. At first Keith really just wanted Lance to get off his case, and now it’s like their rivalry has brought them closer together by the time season 3 rolls around. 

My last few little blurbs before I close off this novel of a meta

Keith deals with anxiety and depression that’s almost without a doubt 100% canon in my eyes. The way he acts and the way he carries himself and how he speaks and the way he words things and all this stuff is clearly a sign that he’s struggling with it and he doesn’t know how to control it, yet he also doesn’t want to admit that he has a problem because he doesn’t want to fail everyone on the team yet again. 

Keith also values everyone on his team way more than what he lets on. He protects Allura from the arusian that comes to the castle asking why the lion goddess is mad. He catches Pidge from being thrown and all the times he’s thrown his sword to protect Lance and everything else he’s done. He wants to protect the team because they’ve become almost like his first real family. Yet he’s also terrified that this new family will drop him too, just like everyone else. 

Keith struggles with his galra side. He struggles taking in the fact that he’s not what he thought he was his entire life and that just makes him not know who he is even more. Sometimes whenever he looks in the mirror he doesn’t see himself, but instead Zarkon or Lotor because that’s where part of him is from. He hates the term ‘galra keith’ because it’s like the fact once everyone knows that he’s galra he’s instantly not himself anymore but instead this evil abomination that’s wiped out entire systems with his army.  Him being Galra is just the nail in the coffin that once again, he’s a huge disappointment to everyone.

He fears rejection big time. Because all anyone has ever done from the get go is reject him. His mother rejected him by leaving, he rejected himself from the garrison. Lance rejects him by throwing all of his flaws in his face. He can’t catch a break. He tries so hard to prove to everyone that he’s more than the broken parts of him that he hides away. He wants to try and prove to everyone ( including himself ) that he can be more than just some socially awkward teenager. 

In closing I’d like to bring up the song lyric I put at the top of this post 

Have you ever felt like nobody was there? Have you ever felt forgotten in the middle of nowhere? Have you ever felt like you could disappear? Like you could fall, and no one would hear?

This is basically how Keith views himself. He honestly thinks he’s replaceable. They could find someone else in the galaxy with his piloting skills. They could find a new red paladin that wasn’t the loner emo brooding hot head. He feels like everyone on the team has forgotten that hey, he’s a person with feelings too. Not just some teenage kid who gets angry all the time for the hell of it. He feels like if he died, he’d die alone. If he died no one would care because he never really amounted to anything in life. He never changed anyone’s life or impacted others the way some have done for him. If he died no one would miss him because he doesn’t even have a family on earth to go back to. He thinks that if he died, everyone would just keep on living and forget about him. 

And being forgotten is his biggest fear. 

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Okay let me just take a second to talk about a man we all know and love. Queef Cocaine. ( as pictured below )

Now what I would like to make a few points about our special space emo. 

Here’s a few key points I’d like to make about him. 

Now while his hair is said to be a mullet I just??? Don’t see it??? I mean ofc canon says its a mullet but I would like to say it’s more like a nice long mop style that just does whatever the hecky it feels like doing. 

Keith washes his hair every morning. He also keeps a comb on his person at all times. He might let his hair look like a mess, but there is a method to the mess he has on his head.

I’d also like to just further make a point that Keith does keep himself clean. He’s not up to Lance’s caliber of self care but he at least makes sure his hair isn’t greasy or that he smells bad. 

That leads me to infer that Keith probably smells like a mixture between mint soap and have a somewhat woodsy/musty ( but not bad must ) smell to him. 

Keith spends a lot of time training because he feels like he can always push himself forward in combat because the garrison never taught him how to fight with a sword. Although he practiced with his mothers knife any chance he got back on earth although that blade and his bayard are two completely different calibers of blades. 

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Keiths Hair: Chaotic Evil. 

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HEADCANON ABOUT KEITH IN S3

Keith didn’t want to lead Voltron at all ( which was apparent in s2v ) and when everyone else calls him out on how bad of a leader he would be makes him sink even deeper into a vat of realization that he’s the loner of the group. As the pilot of the red lion he never had to rely on the others for help whilst in battle because of how much attack power red has and how fast she could fly. 

So when he gets in the black lion and it responds to him he feels the reality of it all hit him like a ton of bricks. He says ‘please no’ because he doesn’t want to be the leader, he doesn’t have any of the good qualities of a leader at that point because he’s never been given a chance to lead before. 

So when he walks out and admits he doesn’t want to be the leader he takes what everyone says half heartedly because of everything they had said before, they were only trying to make him feel better in the long run, that wasn’t their true feelings. 

Fast forward to whenever Lance said that he was tearing the team apart because he kept running ahead and wasn’t listening to their input at all. That was another slap in the face that he wasn’t good enough to be a leader and he realizes that he was once again caught up in the heat of the moment and almost cost them their lives on a dangerous planet because he wasn’t thinking of anyone else, only himself. 

Season 3 itself is a huge growing experience for Keith because it’s a big slap in the face for him that he can’t go around his life being alone all of the time, he can’t depend on only himself especially as the leader of voltron because it’ll end up getting someone killed. He has to realize that there are other people around him other than himself that he can protect. 

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INSIDE HIS HEAD

Before Keith was apart of Voltron and before he was at the Garrison he lived with his father for the better part of his life and he was very close to him. Although when he was 15 his father got sick and passed away, leaving Keith to either go into foster care or go into the Garrison and he decided to go to the Garrison and someday explore space because he and his father loved looking at the stars. He’s always thought that there was something more out there and he wanted to be able to find it.

So at the Garrison he pushed himself harder than he ever had to be the best, because he knew he had to live up to his father’s name. He quickly climbed to the top and was considered the number one pilot at the Garrison and was proud to have the title because he had worked his ass off for it. 

(cue discipline problem hc I have to write later.)

When he was kicked out of the Garrison he was crushed and felt like his life was worth nothing anymore and like he had failed everything he had set up to prove to his father that he was worth something. All that was left was an old shack he’d found in the middle of nowhere. 

That’s when he found the weird energy signals that would lead him to the blue lion and he had found another fragment of hope of going into space and seeing what else is out there. He was tired of living in the shack so by the time Shiro came crashing into earth and ran into the rest of the team ( even though the rest of them were more of a hassle than anything else) 

Being in space Keith finally felt like he had done his father proud. Voltron gave him the next chance at having a family that he might not always tolerate, but he’ll give his life for any of them if he had to. So now that he’s apart of it he has his pride back from when he was little, but he can’t ever fight off the demons that plagued his mind from when he was on his own for a year. 

[bladesmcna]

HEADCANON. Romantic relationships with Keith are few and far between. Although when it comes to who ( or what [ aka that cactus ] ) Keith falls for it doesn’t matter what body parts the person may have. Keith doesn’t give a fuck about what gender the person may be, he cares about what makes them a person, who they are, what they like, etc... Now Keith is more comfortable with men and can tend to be a bit awkward around women because he hasn’t had enough social experience with them to begin with to even start a romantic endeavor with them. Although at the end of the day all Keith cares about is the person in front of him, not what gender they are. 

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KEITH AND ANXIETY

HEADCANON As a child Keith bottled things up, and that was a trait he’s kept. At first he thought his anxious feelings would go away the more he ignored them, but that had the exact opposite effects. After a span of a few months of bottling things in Keith will explode, he’ll lock himself in his room and he’ll cry himself out. A switch flips in his brain as he has feelings of being worthless and hopeless etc... After Shiro disappears and he drops out of the garrison things get a lot worse. Not only do his anxiety attacks go up in frequency, they also go up in the effect on his body. Normally he can act totally fine even when extremely anxious, but now his anxiety fuels his anger. Not only that but once he finally breaks down he can break things. The signs that he’s feeling anxious are very hard to detect since now he’s almost always in a constant state of feeling anxious, especially after finding out he’s galra. His hands shake and his breath falls short. His temper is on an even shorter fuse than normal and he doesn’t talk to anyone and instantly gets angry when anyone tries to console him. Due to his trouble with self acceptance he can’t get the thoughts out of his head. It’s almost as if 8-10 of him are yelling in his head all at once and that’s enough to drive him mad. 

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KEITH AND ALLURA 

HEADCANON Keith didn’t have a mother figure growing up. Being raised by his father and in and out of different foster homes meant he never had the time to meet a woman who really became his mother figure. Then he met Allura. She held vast amounts of wisdom and took in the team no questions asked once they were her paladins. This made Keith view her as somewhat of a mother figure. Not only does it hurt him for her to change his view of her when she finds out he’s part Galra, but it also made him realize that her opinion and her wisdom means a lot to him. She is basically the first real woman in his life who gave him a chance without having a clue about who he is or what he’s done. Which means a lot to him. 

[bladesmcna]

IM A VERY BAD PERSON

RULES: Mark the ones you’ve done. Use your result as your post title. Please, repost and don’t reblog!

TAGGED BY: No one TAGGING: Whoever

muse: o, mun: x

[ xo ] consumed alcohol [ xo ] slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex [ xo ] slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex [ x ] kissed someone of the same sex [ x ] had sex [ x ] had someone in your room other than family [ x ] seen porn [  ] bought porn [ xo ] tried drugs

TOTAL: x=7, o=4

[ xo ] taken painkillers [  ] taken someone else’s prescription medicine [ x ] lied to your parents [ xo ] lied to a friend [ o ] snuck out of the house [ xo ] done something illegal [ xo ] felt hurt [ xo ] hurt someone [  ] wished someone to die [ o ] seen someone die

TOTAL: x=6, o=6

[ o ] missed curfew [ xo ] stayed out all night [ xo ] eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself [ o ] been to a therapist [  ] received a ticket [  ] been to rehab [ x ] dyed your hair [ xo ] been in an accident [  ] been to a club [ o ] been to a bar

TOTAL: x=4, o=6

[ xo ] been to a wild party [  ] been to a Mardi Gras parade [ xo ] drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night [  ] had a spring break in Florida [  ] sniffed anything [ xo ] wore black nail polish [ xo ] wore arm bands [ xo ] wore t-shirts with band names [ xo ] listened to rap

TOTAL: x=6, o=6

[ xo ] dressed gothic [  ] dressed girly [ xo ] dressed punk [ xo ] dressed grunge [ o ] stole something [  ] been too drunk to remember anything [ o ] blacked out [ xo ] fainted [  ] had a crush on a neighbor

TOTAL: x=4, o=6

[ xo ] had a crush on a friend [ xo ] been to a concert [  ] dry-humped someone; been dry humped [  ] been called a slut [  ] called someone a slut. [  ] installed speakers in a car [  ] broken a mirror [ xo ] showered at someone of the opposites sex’s house [  ] brushed your teeth with someone else’s toothbrush

TOTAL: x=3, o=3

[  ] considered Ludacris your favorite rapper [ xo ] seen an R-rated movie [  ] cruised the mall [ xo ] skipped school [  ] had surgery [ xo ] had an injury [  ] gone to court [  ] walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping [ xo ] caught something on fire. [ o ] lied about your age

TOTAL: x=4, o=5

[  ] owned/rented an apartment/house [  ] broke the law in the police’s presence [ x ] made out with someone who had a GF/BF [  ] got in trouble with the police [ xo ] talked to a stranger [ x ] hugged a stranger [  ] kissed a stranger [ xo ] rode in the car with a stranger [ xo ] been harassed [ x ] been verbally harassed

TOTAL: x=6, o=3

[  ] met face-to-face with someone you met online [ x ] stayed online for 5+ hours straight [ xo ] talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight [ xo ] watched TV for 5 hours straight [  ] been to a fair [ o ] been called a bad influence [  ] drank and drove [ o ] prank-called someone [ xo ] laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex [ o ] cheated on a test

TOTAL: x=4, o=6

GRAND TOTAL: x=44, o= 45

If you have 00-10 … write [I’m a goody-goody] If you have 11-20 … write [I’m still a goody-goody] If you have 21-30 … write [I’m average]   If you have 31-40 … write [I’m a bad kid] If you have 41-50 … write [I’m a very bad influence] MUN/MUSE If you have 51-60 … write [I’m a horrible person] If you have 61-70 … write [I should be in jail] If you have 71-80 … write [I should be dead] If you have 81-90 … write [I got a ticket to Hell]

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Keith and touching

HEADCANON Keith doesn’t like to be touched. It’s not something he’s used to, it’s not something he normally wants. His team mates can touch him with minimal discomfort because he genuinely trusts them, but that doesn’t mean that sometimes it can be taken too far. Shiro is someone that Keith relaxes at his touch, he feels safe and feels calm because he knows that Shiro would literally die for him in an instant. In relationships once Keith is comfortable he’ll show affection when the two are alone. Around other people the most he’ll do is hold hands. Don’t touch him without at least letting him know or else you might get hit.