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[manjjiros]

hiiiii god I hope I'm here in time but for your indulgence: Ran + "you exist behind my eyelids / now I don't wanna wake up" <3

NOW PRESENTING…

ran haitani x gn!reader

warnings: implied reader death

notes: no pronouns used for reader. a shoddy try at angst.

from the ASM: [he takes the note and furrows his brows, looking around at the different card tables until he sees the older of the two brothers downing a stiff drink at texas hold ‘em. “poor guy…”]

“come on,” you murmured against his ear, smiling softly up at ran as you leaned into his side. 

he felt mildly disoriented as he looked around and gathered his thoughts. he was… he was on a tractor. no, wait, he was on a hayride, sitting next to you on the hay bales that lined the outer edge of the cart. the wind hit his face a bit harshly; it was late autumn, the tail end of apple season. 

he remembered, then, how he had gotten here; you had begged and begged, your eyes glittering and your lips in a pout. he would’ve been the bad guy if he had said no to that face.

you looked almost ethereal next to him now, your fingers intertwined with his on your lap, chin on his shoulder. you looked like you were glowing, your skin practically reflecting the warm autumn sun back at him.

“come on what?” he mumbled right back at you, lifting his head slightly to press his lips to your forehead, earning him a soft laugh.

“wake up! you were dozing on me, ‘s not fair. we just got here!”

“sorry, baby. didn’t even realize.” he let go of your hand to wrap a long arm around your shoulders and pull you in closer to him to keep off the cold. “yer lucky you managed to get me out here. normally i’d say no, but you’re special.”

“i know,” you hummed softly as you rested your cheek on his shoulder. “i’m special to you. it’s a shame.”

“what is?” he squeezed your arm where his hand rested, burying his nose in your hair to get a whiff of your shampoo and conditioner.

“oh, you know. don’t make me say it.” you sighed against him, and his brows furrowed.

“i don’t, darlin’. care to fill me in?”

you lifted your head, then, sitting up a little as the hayride bounced along the dirt trail to the apple fields. your hand moved to his cheek, cold from the weather.

“it’s a shame you’re still dreaming about me now that i’m gone.”

ran jolted in his bed, reaching around in the sheets to find nothing but fabric as flickers of your scent and your skin remained just under the surface. he peered around the dark hotel room he was in, eyeing the prescriptions on his nightstand and the photo frame that had been shattered before being put face down.just a dream, he recalled as he slumped back into his pillows, you weren’t coming back.

[manjjiros]

The way you write smut is so toe curling like you got me kicking my feet and everything bro I'm just

[breaking immersion to answer this properly] THANK U BBY RAAAGGGHHHH I AM!!! SOMETHING CAME OVER ME SEEING HIM IN THE NEW EP AUGH i try my best ehehehhe :’)