#⚙️tech bros

[phase0exe]

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doing absolutely horrible right now, reeeeaaaaally don’t like venting but it might help so… scroll past this because i don’t think anybody really cares. tw for just… a lotta things, dude.

honestly today has been… a day, to say the least. the last few days have been filled with nothing but stress and anxiety. it’s like shark’s parents are TRYING to make switching schools as hard as possible for us. shark wont get to see their girlfriend anymore because of school, the only people we know are going to this school are the people that are out to get us, we’re gonna have to hide who we are and blend in with the slutty sickeningly-straight tiktoker whores at this new school.

shark’s parents also said we’re only getting plain colored supplies and should only wear solid colored clothing. wow. how… unique.

we’re in a bunch of stupid classes too, like video filming tech and entrepreneurship because the school has such limited course selection. they have a medical course and an entrepreneur course, but no art or theater or asl like the school we were ABOUT to go to has.

today especially has sucked because i first fronted when we were going somewhere, so i immediately got anxious out of not knowing where i was. then i’ve been frontstuck most of the day, so that’s great too. i actually wanted to go to the gym today but of course today we didn’t get to go because of weather. me and shark are excited to go to the aquarium… well, not as excited anymore. the waiting is really taking all the fun out of it. i mean sure, there’s only two days left, but the hype has run down.

i spent the past hour or so on the phone because one of our “friends” forced us to play smash bros with them for a really long time. now, i’m not good at smash bros, so i kept losing. that frustrated the hell outta me.

i dont even want to sleep tonight, and i don’t want to eat or drink anymore either. we constantly feel bad about eating because either shark’s mom will say something about our body, or when we do ask for food shark’s dad sighs seemingly frustrated at us. we barely drink enough anyways but we’re still alive so… does it really matter? i mean, we’ve not passed out or gotten heat stroke yet, so…? why exactly do we need to drink water?

admittedly, we sleep a lot, but that doesn’t mean we want to. i just… really don’t like it here right now. at this point i think i’m the third host of the system with how much i front, and i dont know how to feel about that.

i just… feel like i can’t talk to anyone anymore. what if everyone is out to get us? what if everyone wants to hurt us? what if this isn’t even real, and just some dream i’m having?

i’ll cut myself off there, ‘cuz i’m feeling guilty for venting. i don’t know if you guys will be able to tell who i am by my emoji signoff or whatever, but you don’t really need to know. if you can figure it out? good for you, dude. if not, oh well.

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[primalspice]

hiiii rattus my love 👪, ☕️, 🍃, 🙉, 🌌 , 🪤, ⚙️, 💧

oou

👪 what is their family like? what is your ocs relationship to them? does your oc have any siblings?

she grew up in a poor family with her parents (factory worker dad and shop manager mom) and an older brother, raymond (i think hes like 4 or 5 years older than her????), who joined the military at 18 as a general infantry dude (just some body). She was v attached to raymond (not necessarily Close) bcz he was a lot more accepting of her Weird Kid-ness than her parents LOL. she certainly was made to feel like she was the Disappointment child (weird and depressive and asocial and not particularly talented or good in school) for the majority of her life until she started gaining relevant positions with the government but it didnt even matter at that point bcz she kinda ditched her family after raymond died and kinda blamed them a little bit. so yea basically theyre dysfunctional LMAOO 

☕️ do they prefer hot or cold drinks? what is their favourite drink?

i think hot drinks. definitely into coffee, maybe tea too, i dont think she’s picky.

🍃 do they enjoy being in nature? what is their favourite outdoor activity?

i don’t think she minds it. big fan of Walking Around and contemplating but she isnt really afforded that luxury very much anymore as a high-profile person. she likes to be wherever people are Not and if that’s gotta be in the radioactive woods somewhere then Fine. i think she likes being by all the lovely rivers and lakes too but she doesn’t swim.

🙉 what is the worse thing your oc could hear from someone?

if she was 15 then probably ‘ur brother is dead’ but nowadays i think she would be/is terribly upset at Haters (even tho she knows she sucks at her job she feels guilty bcz shes maybe barely sorta responsible for some of the death occurring) and just like. perhaps some news that her escape plans have not gone as well as she thinks they have o__o shes very anxious

🌌 what was the inspiration behind your oc? what was the first thing you decided about them?

apparently the first thing i decided:

and in general i think i got the Premise from my original half-baked idea of like. Its Winter. Shit Sucks. We Live In A Society. Technology Is Ruining Us. i always needed a shitty tech savvy oc for that so ig that remains. i wanted a Strange and Offputting Evilbitch bcz im into those (ended up meowmeowifying her). Earliest factor of her current concept ig would be Incompetent President. my biggest insp is the sleep of no dreaming and imagining the type of psycho that would feel at home amongst massive industrial landscapes and desolate winters. 

some oldish art even tho she hasnt changed that much:

🪤 what will always lure them into certain danger? a loved one in danger? a promise of something they are always searching for?

i think her recklessness is the main thing that gets her into trouble but ‘disregard for her own life’ isnt a very good lure LOL. i’d say she’s easily pressured into doing things tho. so anything that promises more peace of mind and less fear than she’d otherwise be dealing with LOL. of course her brother’s death has also kinda led her into her current lifestyle tho so i cannot count that out as a factor. i think she wanted to make a change and find out what happened to him but very quickly found out that it dont work like that. (lest). 

⚙️ what are your ocs thoughts on science & art? which do they give more importance to? how much value do they place on each?

her toxic trait is thinking art is frivolous thats why her city fucking sucks. shes v science-minded but finds that to be Pleasing Enough. certainly finds it to be the more valid form of worldly exploration. thinks it can Never go too far. which is probably about the most Region 0 Patriotic belief she holds LMAO.

💧 random angst headcanon

tried really hard to not be an athiest after her bro died i think thats partially why she was so ok with trying to kill Herself afterwards as well. maybe some home for reuniting. now she just does it bcz she fr wants to die LOL but anyway about that hope for reuniting O__O