#《 ° indi ; meta 》 is it a little too close for comfort ? what we become is in our own hands

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𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹 𝑪𝑯𝑨𝑹𝑨𝑪𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑨𝑹𝑪

kaey - corruption arc ; so. you got worse. and i'm not entirely sure i can blame you for it. maybe it was in you all along, hidden and waiting, or maybe someone planted it in you and watched it grow. either way, it's there now and you hold it in your fist like a second heart - this blood, this hunger, this thrill of having teeth and using them. perhaps you are right to. you are a mirror for the hardness of the world, and a mirror that we could all stand to look in more often. it's hard to watch the bleeding bring about more blood, but it is undeniable that you are very good at wounding.

wystan - tragic hero arc ; we all know how this story goes. when it began, you were almost the perfect hero, but almost is never enough. you lacked introspection, or you were too stubborn or vengeful or reckless - as reckless as the world that helped to ruin you. you were not perfect, and that's okay. we knew the story ended in blood and we watched it anyway. we knew you would die in the end and we still couldn't help but love you, just a little bit. at the very least, you are more human than a hero could ever be.

indi - disillusionment arc ; it's hard to imagine yourself when you were young. maybe you were meant to be a hero; maybe you could have been, in another world, but this world only made you sad. there seemed to be too many problems to fix and too much cruelty and too many hard lines that you did not know how to soften. the world turns and it is bloody and hard and you sit on your bed, thinking about the blood and the hardness and all you failed to do. i know it feels like you could sleep until the end of time, but i hope you don't. i hope you lift yourself out of bed one day, not to save the world, but to peel an orange and to walk in a forest; to find all the softness you could not create.

chey - redemption arc ; your story had a pretty rough start and you did some things you're not proud of, but you made the choice to change. i won't go through how important it is to accept responsibility and keep striving to improve or whatever because you know that already. what i think you should know is that your fuel does not need to be shame. you don’t need to stand over the bathroom sink with your blood in your hands until you can no longer make out your reflection. you will look at your face and you will see the person you used to be, but that person no longer exists. today, you are looking, and that makes all the difference.

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[omends]

okay ! time for some new updated lore for indi !

he was supposed to be the good guy. when he became a “spy” it was with the understanding he would be an agent of change, to help protect and improve the world... not an assassin or pawn for manipulation. the problem came with the judgement he entrusted his actions to, allowing himself to be programmed with hypnotic triggers and AI implants for the sake of his security and control... when the reality was they were for the sake of the security and control of his employers. indi was programmed to be unable to resist these impulses; any conscious or subconscious attempt to subvert his mission would fail. whether he tried to kill himself or intentionally sabotage his work, he would be unable to succeed and forced to carry out his programmed goals. 

his handler, callum, had a sense of morality, however, and understood the way the triggers worked, trying to program a workaround for indi... but was ultimately discovered by the company, and his attempt failed. instructed to eliminate his handler, indi was unable to resist and carried out the sentence. however, there was an unintentional side effect of the programming callum had succeeded in implementing before being discovered... upon the death of indi’s handler [re: callum] all acting triggers would shut down. this served as an accidental fail switch, with indi’s impulses ceasing to function, severing all outside control and programming of indi

thus indi was freed from the control of the company, and able to become a free agent.

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tag dump: indi & wystan

《 ° wystan ; visage 》 murder be thy name / always walking as somebody else

《 ° wystan ; aesthetic 》 screwed up and broken / beautifully twisted / foolishly gifted / maybe i was built for pain

《 ° wystan ; isms 》 the darker the weather the better the man ; you can take all you want but not who i am

《 ° wystan ; musings 》 ive turned my words into a weapon /   bloody lips but they speak the truth  

《 ° wystan ; interaction 》 do you want to put up a fight ? or do you want to get out alive ?

《 ° wystan ; meta 》  i rose up from the dead / i do it all the time

《 ° wystan ; ship things 》  so kiss me now this whiskey on my breath ; taste the lives that i have taken / what little soul that i have left

《 ° wystan ; desires 》  youre an idiot for thinking this was anything but blood on the wall / on the couch / on the corner of my mouth

《 ° indi ; visage 》 i thought i saw the devil this morning / looking in the mirror ; with a warning to help me see myself clearer

《 ° indi ; aesthetic 》 bullet proof in black like a funeral

《 ° indi ; isms 》 just picked out an early grave to bury shit ; not me just the weight that ive been carrying

《 ° indi ; musings 》 listen so you dont have to worry / ill tell you what you already know

《 ° indi ; interaction 》 coming out from under to die another day / safe to say ive seen better days

《 ° indi ; meta 》 is it a little too close for comfort ? what we become is in our own hands

《 ° indi ; ship things 》

《 ° indi ; desires 》 i feel so ignorant but i could never give up ; does anybody ever know when they got what they want ?