#𓁹 ༑ ࿐ྂ ⩇⩇ : ⩇⩇ ⚠︎ [ 𝙴𝚇𝙸(𝚂)𝚃 : 𝙶𝙾𝙳 ] * ‹ CANONS . ›

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WHAT IS YOUR COSMOS PERSONA ? TAGGING : @lunarisdog , @jackdup , @cosmicangsts , @narrated , @vulpesse , @deadcmd , @lifesver , @primordyalsoul , @nosp1n , @divinehr , @0brighta , @carbondated , @notmedizin , @moonsworn , @knghted , @doomedfist , @maidmyth + you !

MICAH ✧ THE SUN : The star of our solar system ! The Earth and other planets orbit around the Sun , it provides us light and warmth . Sunlight takes 8 minutes to reach Earth !

PHOEBUS ✧ SATELLITE : Object that moves around another object . We mostly use this term to refer to a device sent to space to orbit around an object of interest , it can operate to collect information or for telecommunications purposes .

PHILOS ✧ BLACK HOLE : A region in space where gravity is so strong that not even light can escape from it . It can be formed from the collapse of massive stars .

PHOBOS ✧ ROCKET : Vehicle that moves by expelling gases produced by burning fuel . It is used for space travel , satellite launches , and other purposes .

THE WRITERS [ @SOLARISGOD ✧ BLACK HOLE + @LUNARISDOG ✧ ROCKET ]

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In summary: You should take Micah to pretty places and stargaze with xem and maybe even end the night kissing xem. ♡ ✧

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i am here with a small question ! (❁´◡`❁) what flower(s) or tree(s) would you associate with beloved micah ? and would micah ever be interested in having a garden, or maybe in growing vegetables and fruits in a tiny field ?

Hello, Bunstar! Thank you so much for this wonderful set of questions! (≧▽≦)ﾉ彡☆ ( A small question to a large answer, heheh . . . ) The Starwake System holds a special connection with nature because of Micah’s surrogate parent who is Incarnation of Earth who birthed xem through the soil and water, initially the Sun and Moon creating xem as a starseed. Due to this, a lot of the plants are meant to be associated with Micah, but I will list six most prominent flowers and trees that I associate with xem!

Before I start, though, I'd love to answer the plant association question with the other main Starwakers!

◜ ⟢ Phoebus ◞ Phoebus is associated with plants that bring vitality and healthy products, such as herbs, fruits, and vegetables. Phoebus is highly nurturing and solicitous in their own quiet and firm ways to their starmates, always wanting only the best of themself and the system since the moment they all existed, so plants that are known as culinary and medicinal applications best aligns with their main role of encouraging growth and providing care. Phoebus is a cooker and healer at heart, using plants for the system's meals, beverages, and natural medicines often, as well as they usually front to take care of themselves when sick. ┊ Figureset : ⁽ ¹ ⁾ Jasmine. ⁽ ² ⁾ Marigold. ⁽ ³ ⁾ Violet. ⁽ ⁴ ⁾ White Pine. ⁽ ⁵ ⁾ Apple Tree. ⁽ ⁶ ⁾ Sugar Maple

◜ ⟢ Philos ◞ Philos is associated with plants that are known to be distinct and conspicuous, the kind that stands out from their unique shapes and / or features. Philos shares the similar attributes with these sort of plants by her alluring appearance and powerful personality, wanting to make her presence the most striking. However, he holds an essence that often makes him appear as more honourable than dangerous. Be closer to him and he may bring out what are the worst than best from another. They look into plants more based on their aesthetic and aroma appeal, the aspects Philos cares about with their self image the most in the system. ┊ Figureset : ⁽ ¹ ⁾ Rose. ⁽ ² ⁾ Bleeding Heart. ⁽ ³ ⁾ Passionflower. ⁽ ⁴ ⁾ Golden Chain. ⁽ ⁵ ⁾ Okame Cherry. ⁽ ⁶ ⁾ Wisteria.

◜ ⟢ Phobos ◞ Phobos is associated with plants that are carnivorous and poisonous, what matches with its sharp and stealthy nature. Along with Philos, it is dangerous, although rather than acting out of maliciousness, it exists as a defence or mechanism for itself and the system, harming those that tries to ruin them while giving themselves the resources to continue living. Phobos holds greater fascination in these plants than everyone else within the Starwake System─ some people don't believe this fact because of its harsh and careless attitude, but Phobos also takes wonderful care of them when it can. ┊ Figureset : ⁽ ¹ ⁾ Sun Pitcher. ⁽ ² ⁾ Flame Lily. ⁽ ³ ⁾ Angel's Trumpet. ⁽ ⁴ ⁾ Manchineel. ⁽ ⁵ ⁾ Sandbox Tree. ⁽ ⁶ ⁾ Milky Mangrove.

In regards to Micah now, xe is associated with the following six most prominent flowers and trees : ⁽ ¹ ⁾ Shooting Star. ⁽ ² ⁾ Firefly Flower. ⁽ ³ ⁾ Dandelion. ⁽ ⁴ ⁾ Ginkgo. ⁽ ⁵ ⁾ Rainbow Eucalyptus. ⁽ ⁶ ⁾ Cherry Blossom. These plants are linked to the concepts of hope, resilience, and love that Micah represents. Xe have memories with them since childhood while they present as personal and symbolic reminders to xem.

`˳⟢˚، ⁽ ¹ ⁾ When Micah as a starseed was brought down to Earth from the Cosmos in the grasp of Ilios and Fengari before xe was buried within Gi's existence and then be birthed, Micah rose from soil and water with Shooting Stars growing around xem. Since then, Solaris Kingdom with the Solar Pantheon considered Shooting Stars as Micah's main sacred flower. While the Shooting Stars flower doesn't have cultural symbolism, the namesake celestial events are generally perceived as a symbol of good luck and positive change, as well as of passion and aspiration; these being what Micah represents when xe always make good changes in everyone and everything around xemself out of love and hope. `˳⟢˚، ⁽ ² ⁾ Firefly Flowers is another Micah's creation when xe was a toddler under Gi's care. Micah's celestial powers were still extremely strong at the time and having to spend excessive time with the plants near a lake, xyr cosmic light eventually bled into them, making changes inside of the flowers that would make them be able to glow in the dark and bloom during nighttime. Fireflies is one of Micah's sacred and favourite animals that symbolize the illumination, teaching that the light within is the power of life, and the heart and soul can always shine even in the time of darkness. `˳⟢˚، ⁽ ³ ⁾ Micah's childhood neighbourhood and elementary school have a lot of dandelions. Xe always loved to play with this plant and blow their seeds, making wishes from them. ( Xe still does in the present. ) Whenever Micah returned home after a long day without xyr adoptive parents, such as being at school, xe would usually bring them dandelions, not realizing the mess of the white seeds scattering everywhere in xyr home from the excitement of seeing xyr family and giving xyr parents flowers. Xe didn't understand the concept of " messiness " until a year later since xe engaged in this tradition when xe was six, but xyr parents only accepted xem and xyr dandelion gifts while they never complained or scolded at xem for mess xe'd make with the dandelion seeds. Dandelions means hope, perseverance, and transformation; being a reminder of strength and freedom. `˳⟢˚، ⁽ ⁴ ⁾ Ginkgo is one of the Everlove family's famous symbols. Over thirty years ago, Micah's parents planted a Ginkgo tree in the middle of their backyard shortly after they moved to their home with a vow that they'd raise a wonderful and happy family together. This Ginkgo tree was the establishing point of the Everlove's existence. Ginkgo is known to be called as the " living fossils " because they have survived for million years. They symbolize longevity and promote rejuvenation, and they are the reminders of one's resiliency, vitality, and endurance; paralleling to Micah's own ever constant perseverance and willpower. `˳⟢˚، ⁽ ⁵ ⁾ Micah doesn't have any direct experiences with the Rainbow Eucalyptus, although xyr parents did when they went to Hawaii to do film some scenes there before they had the time to admire the Rainbow Eucalyptus, sharing photos and videos of them to their kids. Micah dreams of having a Rainbow Eucalyptus in xyr large backyard one day when xe can figure out where to plant it. Rainbow Eucalyptus represents creativity, adaptability, and resilience by its myriad of colours on the barks. `˳⟢˚، ⁽ ⁶ ⁾ Micah went to a park with Adoniram where the cherry blossom trees were blooming in one of their first few dates. Xe always have a deep liking in this sort of trees and finds them quite beautiful. Xe have several pressed cherry blossom petals on xyr journal and plant collection books that xe cherishes them dearly. While many is familiar with cherry blossom being linked to rebirth and new beginnings, because cherry blossoms are quick to die, it is also symbolized as loss and temporariness. Cherry blossoms is the life and death that Micah can associated with, being part of them both since the beginning of xyr existence. Although with everything, this tree is especially the representation of love itself.

Onto the secondary question re : Micah's gardening, for around ten years before the Antineon Hieraeon canon timeline, Micah had xyr personal garden shared with Adoniram's at the backyard of their home! ( In the present canon timeline, a close friend of Micah's and Adoniram’s, Father Lucas, have been taking care of their home along with the garden. ) The greenhouse, garden of flowers and natural food, and the treehouse were some of the things that xe most forward to having at xyr backyard when xe was house searching. Located at the secluded area where it is void of human related activities and disturbances, Micah's and Adoniram's backyard was as massive as their home, so they had plenty of space available to engage in gardening.

Micah sometimes donates xyr natural goods to the local food stores or food banks, as well as giving them and flowers to xyr friends and family relatives, also even strangers to make their days a bit more brighter. Phoebus highly enjoys tending to their plants and the garden is usually where they’d stay in more out of all spots at their home. Philos have a more difficult time handling plants, so he’d rather have Phoebus tend to them, but she does enjoy admiring their garden. Phobos had a " secret spot " somewhere in the garden where it could take care of a few carnivorous plants. Micah did discover them and question their existences, but didn't dwell on them for too long when xe also enjoyed carnivorous plants and believed xe did buy them, but forgot.

Micah's interest in gardening was inspired by not only the Ginkgo tree that their parents planted within xyr childhood home's backyard, but xe shared xyr mother's endless passion in the nature and art of gardening. Maria Everlove have always been most careful and precise taking care of their plants, and being able to sense how much the plants love her back, Micah deeply wished that one day, xe could have xyr own garden to love and care as well.

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Q : WHAT EMOTION DO YOU CREATE FROM ? / A : LOVE

 IT IS AN OVERFLOWING LOVE THAT SEEPS OUT OF YOUR HEART & INTO ALL YOU CREATE . You couldn't possibly contain it inside yourself , & so you dedicate yourself to depicting it through everything you make . Your art is a celebration of what you cherish most , a loving tribute to everything that captivates you . There are things too wonderful to be appreciated in silence , & so you sing of your love time & time again . You are determined not to let your vast love go unnoticed or forgotten . That's why your work is a declaration of affection , an expression of fondness for EVERYTHING that makes your life worth living .

TAGGED : @juhotookaku !!! ♡ TAGGING : @lunarisdog , @4mage , @disturbnot , @bytepire , @unhoming , @devouraes , @primordyalsoul , @crosspunisher , @vulpesse , @p0pestar , @imarahuyo , @nerimoi , @dehrdevil , @clochanam , @somneiroi , @4ger , @flmed , @kolduniya , @moralpuppet , @betraal , @maidmyth , @levinhail , @celestieu , @apexulansis , @priestbit , @lifesver , @luceat & you !!!

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I’m sorry if this is disrespectful at all, but how did the cluster realize they were OSDDID?

Hello, Anonstar! This is a fantastic question, not disrespectful at all, no worries! Thank you so much for giving us an opportunity to talk about the Starwake System with xyr DID more! We have a post that entails general information of xyr condition here for an additional reference. While we will answer this question and cover few related topics around the Starwake System's DID, we will also be providing information with our own personal understanding and experiences with OSDDID to support certain details in the answer, as listed below:

 ⁰ Based on our own personal experiences and / or understanding with OSDDID.  ¹ Dissociative Identity Disorder Research (n.d.). DID Basics: Presentation.  ² Boyer, S. M., Caplan, J. E., & Edwards, L. K. (2022). Trauma-Related Dissociation and the Dissociative Disorders: Neglected Symptoms with Severe Public Health Consequences.  ³ Dissociative Identity Disorder Research (n.d.). DID Origin: Synthesis.  ⁴ Dissociative Identity Disorder Research (n.d.). DID Identity Alteration: Time Loss, Black Outs, and Co-consciousness.  ⁵ Encyclopedia of Psychology (n.d.), Dissociative Barriers.

* Content warning note : This answer mentions ableism, general child abuse and distress, car accidents; deaths, mental health related denial, misdiagnoses, and general traumas; so please read with caution.

Before we answer the questions of how the main Starwakers realized they have DID and were aware of each other's existences, it's important to first know the details of how the Starwake System's Dissociative Identity Disorder was formed, as provided from the study post that was shared above, along with the " basis " of OSDDID :

The first known alter is Micah Xenowake who developed Dissociative Identity Disorder when xe was five years old. Xyr mind fragmented from two to five due to the extreme stress Micah experienced in constantly moving between multiple foster homes, with the frequent changes happening in a short amount time of xyr life while feeling like a stranger in many homes, as well as xe faced every forms of abuse and neglect in several past families. From these events for three years, xe experienced episodes of dissociation and depersonalization before xe split off Phoebus, formerly known as Lyght, during a case when xe was trapped in a dark locked basement as forced to sleep there for the first time.

OSDDID is a mental condition that exists essentially to protect the individual from continuous distress and traumas while it can give them the necessities that people in the world have failed to provide. The quote, likely from this Tumblr post : ❝ I think ultimately you become whoever would have saved you that time that no one did ❞ is one of the best ways to explain OSDDID on its essential core.

Generally, in most cases, OSDDID have a covert nature and it is difficult to recognize in a person ( DIDR, n.d. )¹. This is to avoid danger and maintain protection within the system and the main fronting individual themself from traumatic events or external factors that is a threat to the system's and / or fronter's wellbeing ( i.e. abusers )⁰. Although there are severe health consequences that impact various life aspects in the long run from self identity and wellbeing, to personal relationship and academic studies, etcetera, OSDDID is meant to save the child, having symptoms like amnesia that acts as a defence mechanism to help them lose memories of traumas and dissociation as a form of psychiatric escape from traumas they can't physically retreat from ( Boyer et al, 2022 )².

Multiple alters exist in most systems, although depending on the alter's source ( that brought them into existence via splitting ), history, and role functions, as well as the system's level of amnesiac barriers and their current living conditions, they may not be partially to fully aware of some other alters or everyone else in the system ( DIDR, n.d. )⁴. This is generally because of the dissociative barriers that exist between the alters, which are psychological barriers that obstruct an individual’s ability to access memories or emotions related to an event, usually of traumatic nature ( EOP, n.d. )⁶. The barriers may prevent one alter to be aware of another, but some alters can develop certain degree of co-consciousness, ❝ the ability for two or more alters to remain present in the body or aware of the outside world at once ❞ ( DIDR, n.d. )⁴.

| Explanation of " Co-consciousness Levels " from the Dissociative Identity Disorder Research ( n.d. ) :

❝ [ . . . ] Co-consciousness is not necessarily extended to all alters. It may be that Alters A and B are always co-conscious with each other, but only Alter A can be co-conscious with Alter C. Meanwhile, Alter D may be able to watch the other alters although the others are not aware of Alter D and their activities in return, and Alter E might not be aware of any of the other alters nor any of the other alters aware of Alter E! Finally, Alters F and G might be co-conscious with each other but have to leave post-it notes for the rest of the system in order to communicate, and Alter H might be co-conscious with Alter A only some of the time or under certain conditions while Alter I has the ability to allow or not allow others to be co-conscious with them as they choose ( para. 5 ). ❞

Even though an alter is aware of the fronting alter who doesn't know they exist, depending on the system's current living environment and circumstances, the alter may not reveal themself to the fronter for many reasons from protecting the fronter and / or system while avoiding jeopardizing them, not feeling safe and comfortable enough for their existence to be known, to not finding it necessary for them to be a direct part of the system's life while they only prioritize internally stabilizing the system.⁰ However, the fronting alter may experience " partial intrusions " without knowledge or understanding of the sources if that alter is also present ( DIDR, n.d. )⁴. OSDDID having the covert nature in general explains why most systems don't realize they have OSDDID until later in life, especially at the age of twenties to even thirties.⁰

Re : The Starwake System's DID discovery and awareness, Micah was the one who got the official diagnosis from xyr OSDDID specialist and therapist when the system in April 2023, the time when Micah and Adoniram had a car accident from an unknown cause. Micah tried to save Adoniram who was trapped in the seatbelts as their car was upside down with the oil spilled out, but before xe could get him out, Phoebus fronted, seizing full control of their body, and abandoned him to protect the system and especially xem, forcing Micah to experience a blackout before xe " woke up " on xyr hospital bed, learning that Adoniram disappeared ( but was declared dead by the officials when his body couldn't be find a few weeks of search and rescue after ).

It's important to note Astereus / the Starwake System was misdiagnosed three times : ( 1. ) Borderline Personality Disorder at age fifteen, ( 2. ) Bipolar Disorder at sixteen, ( 3. ) and eighteen with Schizophrenia while being told Dissociative Identity Disorder wasn't real. In addition, when Micah was eight, xyr amnesia and time losses from the blackouts was believed to be linked to extreme fatigue due to sleeping poorly, having insomnia. There was little information on DID nor general dissociative disorders at the time when Astereus grew up, hence, not many non-professional and professional people could understand xyr experiences nor have the knowledge to see the symptoms are based on dissociation and dissociative identity.

Micah's close friend and occasional detective partner, Daniel Darling, have OSDD-1, a partial form of DID, and after Micah shared xyr experinces of time and memory loses to him, from sharing similar experiences, he said xe could have OSDDID. For seventeen years since xyr third attempt of diagnose, Micah believed xe have Schizophrenia and xe was hesitate to seek diagnosis for the fourth time, but from Adoniram's first death that Micah have painfully failed to prevent it from happening because of the blackout, this gave Micah the push to reach out to xyr art and music therapist, Alyx, who referred xem to the OSDDID specialist and then finally, at the age of mid thirties, xyr DID therapist confirmed xe does have DID after all.

With the other main earliest known Starwakers' DID realization and awareness :

Phoebus : They have always known Micah since they were created, being co-conscious with them as Micah was in distress from being trapped in the basement that was completely dark. Because Phoebus have the main responsibilities of ensuring safety and stability within the Starwake System, they were able to keep close track of the system changes and alter creations while their co-consciousness developed further over time. From this, they were able to learn Philos' and Phobos' existences. Before, Phoebus couldn't understand how they and Micah shared the same body, but they had a strange tugging feeling akin to protectiveness with Micah that made them focus more on being with Micah rather than dwelling on the wondering of " what they are ".

Philos : In the beginning, she didn't know other alters existed until some weeks later since she came into existence, she met Phoebus in their internal world, although Philos only viewed Phoebus as an " imaginary friend ". It was when Phobos came around, Philos then came to a thought that there was " something wrong " with them, but wasn't sure how to describe this position. Philos met Phobos some time later out of curiosity, being drawn to its sharp and aggressive personality. Philos learnt Micah's existence at the same time as Phobos.

Phobos : Phobos also had no awareness of the other alters in the beginning, but at a certain point met Philos who sometimes visited it via sharing co-consciousness. Phobos thought Philos was a ghost possessing their body, but didn't make a huge deal about it when Phobos thought it was cool to have a ghost, even though it thought Philos himself was annoying to be with. Phobos learnt about Phoebus and Micah when they were a preteen, Phoebus co-fronting to stop it from retaliating one of Micah's and Adoniram's bullies who hurt them. Phobos didn't care about what they are or have to make them share a single body as long as it can have some freedom interacting with the outside world.

Ultimately, Micah was the only main Starwaker in the system who didn't have complete awareness of having other alters until xe was in mid thirties. The reasons Phoebus, Philos, and Phobos kept their existences hidden from Micah, even after a point when Micah was fully independent and free of continuous stress and danger, are that Phoebus felt as it'd be best to give Micah the most " normal and peaceful " life as possible that xe couldn't have when xe was younger, originally seeing this life they share was Micah's rather the whole system's. Phoebus was also afraid if Micah knew about their existences, xe'd shun them and learning the fact xe have DID would distress xem, which was a case as xe was in denial for a few months, having strained relationships with the others and especially Phoebus, before xe came to terms with xyr DID and everyone improved on communicating and connecting with each other since.

Although it took a very long time for the Starwake System to finally have the answer to what they'd go through from xyr DID, and the answer was overwhelming for especially Micah, they're all still most grateful they would find the time when they could understand their DID and each other more to hold a healthier and stronger system.

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Micah's attire style is a lot more based on comfort and casualness. Micah doesn't ever think about people's views of xem based on what xe wears and always prioritize xyr own comfort, as xyr skin is a lot more sensitive to textures of the clothing materials than the other Starwakes. Xe prefers outfits that are loose and flexible, not the tight and thick kind that would make xem feel like xe's suffocating beneath these layers. Xyr fashion style stands out a lot just as Philos' while it's as diverse, also, touching upon multiple colours and unique features such as xyr LED light shoes, and xe highly enjoys wearing a lot of jewelries and accessories at once, especially with xyr enamel pins. The ring was given from Phoebus as birthday gift on December 2023, Micah's 2023 month of celebrating xyr existence.

Phoebus' attire style also centres around comfort, but leans toward the formal side. Phoebus doesn't think too much about the clothes they use, unlike everyone else in the system, and go with the minimalistic looks of them. It's common for Phoebus to receive comments from the Starwakers and those outside of the system that they dress up like a " dad ". They are comfortable of wearing either loose or slim outfits while they tend to wear dark toned clothes because they don't like to stand out too much in the space. The star necklace was given from Micah as an appreciation gift on their first month of dating in September 2023.

Philos' attire style is highly diverse with a general flair to it. Philos is the only Starwakers who cares about people's views towards him based on what he wears. He likes to be seen as someone who have a great taste of fashion and people can come to him for clothing advice or suggestions. Philos' usage of specific attire types is random and unpredictable, as she can be wearing a formal suits or a skirt and crop top in most contexts that people won't expect her to wear for that situation. She seems picky, but she can wear any kind of clothes and everything as long as she can find that her outfit parts can compliment each other, though, they do usually wear expensive and high quality clothes. He is the only Starwaker who enjoys wearing makeup and along with Micah, he wears a lot of accessories and especially jewelries.

Phobos' attire style is simple, yet intense all at once. Its style generally makes it look as much more grim and standoffish with its harsh personality, though, it doesn't care at all what people think of its clothing preferences, such as it usually wearing black clothes. Phobos enjoys wearing clothes and accessories that appear rough and sharp, such as ripped jeans and spiked jewelries. Indeed, a lot of its clothes are black or dark gray when it doesn't find that other colours fit it well, but Philos did buy a few clothes in different colours that Phobos only wears in private casual settings. It often wears eyeliners and have black polished nails when it silently enjoys them.

Cryael's attire style is a lot formal and sophisticated. Generally fronting in professional settings, it doesn't care to branch out much of its fashion style and generally leans towards wearing suits and fit coats to appear serious and sophisticated. The least casual clothes that they will wear in personal settings are polo shirts and velvet pants that Micah and Philos encouraged them to purchase. Cryael is the only adult Starwaker who wears glasses because its existence shuts down a specific part of the system's brain that gives them poor eyesight when Cryael fronts, hence, it needs glasses to perceive better while being present.

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ASTEREUS STARWAKE'S DID + THE STARWAKE SYSTEM | CW : Mentions of ableism, child distress & abuse, neglect, misdiagnosis

GENERAL DETAILS

The Starwake System is a DID system of over ten alters, self labelled as Starwakers, biologically in mid thirties and collectively going by xe / they / it pronouns. Astereus Starwake is a collective name for the adult Starwakers and Starry is for those younger. The first known alter is Micah Xenowake who developed Dissociative Identity Disorder when xe was five years old. Xyr mind fragmented from two to five due to the extreme stress Micah experienced in constantly moving between multiple foster homes, with the frequent changes happening in a short amount time of xyr life while feeling like a stranger in many homes, as well as xe faced every forms of abuse and neglect in several past families. From these events for three years, xe experienced episodes of dissociation and depersonalization before xe split off Phoebus, formerly known as Lyght, during a case when xe was locked in a dark basement as forced to sleep there for the first time. The prominent Starwakers of the system with Micah is Phoebus, Philos, Phobos, Cryael, Mike, and Mimi.

DIAGNOSIS JOURNEY

Astereus grew up at the time when there was little information on Dissociative Identity Disorder nor general dissociative disorders, therefore, not many people, professional and otherwise, could understand what Astereus was experiencing with xyr DID symptoms. Astereus was misdiagnosed three times when xe was fifteen, close to sixteen, and eighteen; with respectively Borderline Personality Disorder, Bipolar Disorder, and Schizophrenia. At eight years old was when Micah's parents first tried to seek help for xem who faced loses of time and memories, xe was told xe only had extreme fatigue due to sleeping poorly, having insomnia. After Micah blacked out during a car accident with xyr ex partner Adoniram as xe attempted to save him in April 2023, xe learnt through their close friend, Daniel Darling, xe could have DID, given from his experiences of having OSDD1 ( a partial form of DID ) that xe could relate to. Micah reached out to xyr art and music therapist, Alyx, who referred xem to an OSDDID specialist and therapist who confirmed xe does have DID at mid thirties, what xe did not believe xe have and instead xe have Schizophrenia for seventeen years after being told by xyr third specialist that Dissociative Identity Disorder was fake.

INNER SYSTEM RELATIONSHIP DEVELOPMENT

After being diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder, Micah was in denial and had strained relationships with xyr starmates ( their special term for head/brainmates ), especially Phoebus because their personal goals of self care and protection didn't align with each other, and they were the one who shut down Micah's opportunity to save Adoniram and fronted, leaving Micah's ex partner behind to save the Starwake System and especially Micah before Adoniram then vanished in the flames. The lack of control over Micah's emotions, thoughts, and life from the switches, blackouts, and time loses─ these few symptoms of Astereus' DID was an immense fear that xe had, this being worsened by Phoebus during the April 2023 incident, and tried to resist and repress when other Starwakers would attempt to control their body or share their comments and opinions. In August 2023, Micah and Phoebus saw the harm towards the system, to each other, and themselves, in their respective actions and apologized to one and another after coming to understand each other's purposes. Since then, Micah, coming to full terms with xyr DID, and everyone else built closer relationships through stronger cooperation and communications as xe and Phoebus soon entered a romantic relationship.

SUMMARY OF INNER SYSTEM CONNECTIONS :

Micah and Phoebus are in romantic relationship since August 2023. Originally, their relationship was strained when Phoebus was known to Micah on April 2023, but they reconciled with a promise of stronger relationship.

Philos and Phobos are in romantic relationship since they were in their bodily twenties, but their relationship status wasn’t publicly known until mid 2023.

Phoebus is most closest to Micah and Philos as they end to clash with Phobos. Phobos is most opening and tolerating to Mimi, Philos, and Micah. Everyone else, it is often harsh and reserved. Philos is generally friendly and opening to everyone. Cryael and Aphisto are more distant with everyone but Micah.

The relationship between Micah and Cryael that was established in mid April 2023 is more based on work business, though, at times, they do have personal focused interactions.

Micah holds familial connections with the younger Starwakers who were formed after their past counterparts ( Mike, Mimi, M ) and vice versa with each other.

DID THERAPY

Since the diagnosis, Micah have been in occasional touch with xyr OSDDID therapist, Joyce. At first, Phobos was highly against the idea of Micah seeking professional help, believing their therapist would "hold them back" and use their traumas and DID to their advantages, although eventually, it became tolerable of the idea when it could see how much xe and the system would struggle without having insight from those outside the system. Joyce is a passionate and diligent individual who wishes to help out those in need and enjoys appreciating every bits of life itself, having a fun sense of humor and strong optimism in others as themself also. They make sure Astereus would work over the stabilization / safety work, noting the early signs of dissociation, coping mechanisms for certain triggers and grounding techniques for derealization-depersonalization episodes. Functional multiplicity is Astereus' goal for stronger connections between alters and healing xyr formative traumas, so Joyce and the Starwake System are working towards Integration, having to lower dissociative barriers and increase communication and cooperation within the system over time.

THE AWAKEN WORLD

The Awaken World is the Starwake System's internal world, which is a visualized mental space where the alters manifest in and interact with when they are not fronting. ( Internal worlds are not objectively real, so some subjective experiences of them may not be as concrete as they feel while many internal occurrences may be metaphorical or highly symbolic. ) Although it is possible for those with telepathic powers to enter Astereus' Awaken World, they have a mental barrier around it that acts as a security while Astereus' mind is powerful enough to be able to detect unusual presences and patterns. The Awaken is meant to be a safe and happy space for all of the Starwakers that was established when Micah was four years old, seeking for a world where only love and light exists forever.

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To be honest, I really could've make Micah work in the astronomy field as an astronaut and other related positions, as xyr adoptive father inspired xem to be, and just make xem be incredibly intelligent as so many well known protagonists were, but there's something so... humanly realistic and painfully relatable in giving xem a dream that xe always wanted to achieve, but couldn't in the end because of xyr conditions, especially with xyr intellectual disability being the biggest barrier.

Micah was raised in the wild with very little socialization and learning opportunities for two years by the Incarnation of Earth who couldn't be and verbally communicate with xem in its vessel ( to protect Micah from forming deep emotional attachment with it in case xe got taken away ) before Micah accidentally burnt xyr home down and got taken away by the first responder team to the hospital. For three years then until the Everlove took xem in, Micah moved in between many foster families, with some being abusive and / or neglectful, and from the multiple stressful changes and treatments, this significantly impacted the Starwake System's social, emotional, and cognitive developments. In addition, developing Dissociative Identity Disorder, they experience dissociative symptoms that would hinder their learning and processing, such as amnesia and dissociation.

But the Starwake System having intellectual disability was especially difficult for Micah to accept when it prevented xem from being able to study in and entirely understand the subjects and knowledge that are required to work in the astronomy field. Micah had to leave xyr classroom to be placed in a special educational class when xe was nine years old and xe didn't understand why, but at ten, xe was appalled when xe had a discussion about xyr special education with xyr parents that led to xem learning about xyr dissociative symptoms and intellectual disability, and this was also when Micah was told xe likely couldn't be able to become an astronomer and astronaut like xyr adoptive father due to the complexity of the topics centred in astronomy.

As an attempt to try to prove xyr parents wrong, Micah secretly tried to take physics and chemistry on xyr third year of high school, but had to drop out a few weeks later when the school and xyr parents were concerned of xyr poor grades and performances. Micah had to take alternative courses and catch up with the weeks old lessons. The catch up game and the fact that xe couldn't do astronomy required subjects caused xyr depression to worsen since starting high school. It doesn't help that xyr childhood best friend, Adoniram, who also wanted to be an astronaut, was able to do and complete them even with the highest grades of his classes. Micah wouldn't even be able to become an aviator at least either, so feeling as xe was forever trapped in the world, xe held a highly strong self-hatred for xyr disabilities until xe was twenty two and accepted this part of xemself with the help of therapy.

Although Micah took creative writing on the third year and this increased xyr love in the art of writing before xe had a revelation xe could be a creator in arts, literature, and drama instead. Micah had to attend summer school of the same year to improve on xyr grades and took previous grade courses that xe didn't have before, so xe could be accepted in an arts university. Micah was able to enroll in one and get both of xyr associate and bachelor degree. Over time, xe became successful and was able to find joy in arts the way that outer space does. While xe may not be able to be with the stars, Micah has still been grateful that despite xyr conditions, xe could still create what would empower and inspire people, creating xyr own stars in the world that people can see only hope and love in.

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OUR GLOW IN THE DARK SOFTIE BLANKIE CAME HOMEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;A;

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IMPORTANT PORTRAYAL RECORD

Updated since 03/20/24. This is a set of portrayal notes on Astereus Starwake, also known as the Starwake System, that are important for our writing partners to keep in mind when interacting and plotting with them.

Additional important notes：The Starwake System's DID┊Public & Private Knowledges┊In-verse WIkipedia

Astereus Starwake is a collective name for the system of adult individuals who inhabits a body ( Starry in reference to those younger ), also known as the Starwake System. There are over ten Starwakers ( their special term for alters ), although the well known Starwakers are Micah Xenowake, Phoebus, Philos, Phobos, and Cryael. Micah is the host, meaning that xe usually controls their shared body and manages day-to-day life. Micah is the first alter of the body that mentally split off the others over time since xe was five years old due to extreme stress in constantly moving between foster homes along with facing abuse and neglect from several past families.

Micah was created by Ilios and Fengari as xe was birthed by Gi, who are the Incarnations of the Sun, Moon, and Earth. Ilios and Fengari were forbidden to have children, or they'd bear a child who could destroy not only the Solaris Kingdom ( Solar System to humanity ), but the Natural Order that would end the Omniverse. After their first affair, however, Ilios and Fengari asked Gi to bear their starseed and xe did, soon birthing Astrifer ( Micah's birth name ), the Starbearer of Love and Light and Incarnation of Eclipse. On Earth, distant with xyr celestial origins, Micah's cosmic powers and presence weakened over time, yet, reconnected with them in December 2023, xe's becoming more powerful.

Astereus is linked to the Primordial Pantheon, also known as the Primevals, a group of incarnated natural forces that exists since the Beginning of All and will be the last to perish at the End of All, looking after the Natural Order to maintain the Omniverse. Micah's celestial parents are part of the Primordial Pantheon, which gives Astereus a deep connection with Chaos, Cosmos, Life, Death, Time, Nature, and so forth. However, Micah is considered to be the " black sheep " of the pantheon to several Deities and few Primevals due to xem being the unplanned child of doom and destruction.

Micah is a well known creator in arts, literature, and drama. Adopted into the Everlove family that nurtures kindness, courage, and creativity as its first child at the age of five after Micah's latest foster family's death, Micah was determined to engage in every forms of creativity after learning xe couldn't grasp and remember complex knowledges that could bring xem to xyr ultimate dream of being an astronaut, having ongoing amnesia and intellectual disability. Micah is highly famous through xyr published works and media performances, especially their metafiction novels, their creativity speciality being writing. Phoebus' is singing, Philos' acting, and Phobos' drawing.

Astereus evolved into an Antigod in early April 2023, developing a special meta awareness that xe's a character in a fictional universe, after xe had a near death experience from a car accident xe had with xyr ex partner, Adoniram, who disappeared after the event. Micah is classified as Semi-order 3, having partial basic knowledge of the storyline, yet can still see and interact with the Audience. Only divine and powerful paranatural entities are able to sense an overwhelming unnatural energy of Astereus that feels like a rejection to the laws of time, space, and physics with an never ending tug and pull sensation from Astereus' presence between the atoms and energies.

From mid April 2023 to January 2, 2024, Astereus cut affiliation with Break Beyond Force due to its untrustworthy nature that the system no longer feel they are sincere enough to work with. At the moment, xe have been investigating the sentient malicious shadows and reflections of deceased sources that are linked to a Godteller named The Breaker, a being from an ancient race of amorphous forces that acts as the most immense threat to the Antigods and the Natural Order. The Metaeide are the creations of the Godtellers that would manifest after humanity's personal fears, traumas, and negative emotions as malicious spirits. Antigods like Astereus can sense and have the ability to exorcise them. Astereus is still willing to handle these sort of cases with the Metaeide.

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It's canon since the end of November that the Starwake System lost access to their right arm with the shoulder being completely mauled, so everyone's muses would take note of that, especially for the ones whose dynamics with them were established prior to the event of Warlock / @deveils nearly biting their arm off while in its feral canine state.

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▌┊ CH. STUDY ／／ : PUBLIC ⅋ PRIVATE KNOWLEDGES

▌┊ PUBLIC KNOWLEDGE. * READILY AVAILABLE TO ANYONE OR WIDELY KNOWN.

Xe has a Wikipedia page detailing self basic personal information along with xyr career history and known works, as well as accolades in drama and literature.

Xyr gender and orientation identity are widely known, including the fact that xe identifies xemself as transmasculine, when Micah is highly opening about them across every settings and situations despite any potential consequences. Likewise with xyr health conditions except xyr Dissociative Identity Disorder.

Xe is the first and oldest adopted child of the Everlove family who are famous for its grand benevolence and creativity and passions. The public is very well aware that xe is most happy and comfortable being part of the Everlove family.

Most of xyr known poem and literature works can be found online on writing related websites or as PDFs that some individuals have uploaded in a fashion of pirating. There are screenshots of certain lines from xyr works that can be found on social platforms such as Pinterest, Instagram, TikTok, and Tumblr.

▌┊ SEMI-PUBLIC KNOWLEDGE. * SELECTIVELY SHARED OR KNOWN TO CERTAIN PEOPLE ⅋ ORGANIZATIONS.

Micah's birth of date and place are actually unknown. August 11 was the date when the Everlove adopted xem in Los Angeles while it was estimated that xe was only one year old by the hospital team when xe was discovered in 1989.

The public found xem as a toddler at a burnt forest somewhere in the United States while xe didn't have any official records. No one was sure how could xe survive the fire or was even in perfect state despite the extreme fire and smokes, but Micah soon learnt it was xem who was responsible of the fire with xyr power.

Few of xyr close associates, including Adoniram and Warlock, along with xyr terrestrial and celestial families are aware xe have Dissociative Identity Disorder. Many of those familiar with Micah and xyr performances and interactions have speculated that xe have this condition, though, unless considered to be close enough to talk about it, xe will dismiss any comments on xem having it from these individuals.

Those from Micah's childhood neighborhood would know of the facts that when xe was six to eleven years old, xe often broke their bones by jumping off of high altitudes, as well as xe had the tendency to break objects from family and peers when experiencing negative emotions, earning an impudent childhood name from xyr peers, "the Breaker".

▌┊ PRIVATE KNOWLEDGE. * INTENTIONALLY HIDDEN WHILE KNOWN TO ONLY A FEW INDIVIDUALS.

Micah killed their latest abusive foster family at the age of five by burning the house with them trapped in it. It was initially thought Phobos did it, but before Micah discovered xe did it, Phobos claimed the memory as its own so Micah wouldn't have to experience the guilt for doing what's best for them in the end.

After Micah graduated in university, xe was a private detective with Adoniram for five years because xe wanted to do more with helping those around xem in ways that authorities couldn't provide. Micah went by Detective Sirius and wore masks to hide xyr identity, as shaped of a lion at day and a wolf at night. Xe dropped this role after Adoniram vanished during the car accident in early April 2023.

Adoniram was declared dead in mid April 2023, but he mysteriously resurrected while evolving into an Antigod when xe reunited with him few months later in early July. Micah and Adoniram chose to hide the latter's living status to avoid handling the complications with the public and Micah's terrestrial family.

Micah age dreams and regresses. This is an important private aspect of Micah when xe engages in this behaviour often for fun or as a coping mechanism when alone or with those who xe is extremely close to, this being only Adoniram and Warlock outside the system while all of xyr starmates are aware, yet is extremely cautious about it due to the fear of being judged or infantilized.

Micah is an Antigod, going through Exiting ( process of developing meta awareness of being a character in a fictional reality ) after a near death experience during the April 2023 car accident. In original version, xe is classified as Order 4, meaning xe has complete in-depth knowledge of the storyline and Audience's presence while being able to interact with them. In roleplay version to avoid godmod and metagame, xe is Semi-order 3, having partial basic knowledge of the storyline, yet can still see and interact with the Audience.

Micah is the only star child of Ílios and Fengári, the incarnations of the Sun and Moon, King and Queen of the Solaris Kingdom / Solar System; as well as xe is connected to the Earth incarnation, Gi, as xyr surrogate parent.

The Starwake System had their first death experienced by the infamous Antigod assassin, as paid by the Infernal Infinity, Antiafter, on January 21, 2024. Due to their Antigod status, having pseudo immorality as they can't die in order to tell their original story of Antineon Hieraeon, they were able to return to life with a warning from Death that the more they die, the more they would harm the Natural Order, placing the whole Universe in danger.

On March 7, 2024, the Starwake System developed the Eyes of God, giving xem the ability to cause someone's body to combust when making eye contact, making xem be potentially one of the most dangerous beings to exist in both Antigodeus society and the Universe. Xe has been wearing sunglasses to protect those viewing xem.

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WHAT COLOR DOES YOUR LOVE FEEL LIKE ? / soft fresh green .

NICE BREEZE , BARE FEET , ⅋ FRESHLY CUT GRASS . Your love is a lighthearted hope for the future . It's protecting your eyes from the sun but enjoying the light rays still , it's laying on the grass ⅋ feeling it tickle your neck . You look to the side ⅋ they look back at you , full of hope ⅋ plans too . You plan together ⅋ laugh all day ⅋ your sunburn will feel like them . Your love is delicate , hesitant . A well curated binder full of collages for a future you can't be sure will come , but you keep going , you keep planning , you keep squinting at the sun ⅋ smiling , ⅋ running your hands through the grass so it will smell better . You keep holding onto the bright sky even as the sunsets , even as the starry night stares back . But you keep on holding , you keep on dreaming , you close your eyes ⅋ feel the sun on your skin ⅋ convince yourself that the sunburn is good , it's something to hold on to , just makes it linger a bit longer . Your love is a lighthearted hope for the future . It's sweet ⅋ wonderful ⅋ it keeps love alive , makes the world a better place . You run your hands through the grass , clench your fingers tighter ⅋ keep making plans . ( ⅋ I can only thank you ⅋ hope I can learn to love like you someday . )

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Xe / it Micah Astereus Xenowake I love you so much

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Important portrayal notes + reminders / blog changes

This blog will function more as a multimuse blog for the Starwake System as a whole ( Micah, Philos, Phoebus, Phobos, Aphisto, and Cryael ). It has been nine months since Micah was the primary focused muse, and after three seasons in with the developments of Micah coming to terms with xyr DID and seeing xyr starmates as vital parts of xemself and xyr life, we decide it's time to have this blog be a space for the other main Starwakers to emphasize their plurality and its importance while including the other alters into the narrative more, roleplay and series wise. While we will now always specify to you which Starwaker for starters / prompts, it's optional for you to specify, but ultimately, you don't have to as we can choose which Starwaker fits best with the character and / or scenario. Please do note when plotting, Philos, Phoebus, and Phobos have to be involved with Micah at some point for easier interactions for both parties.

From this point onward while Micah is re-figuring out xyr identity and learning xyr origin more in season four, Micah will be using xe / it / they pronouns, in that order of preference. We understand not everyone is familiar with neopronouns and are not used to using them, as well as it takes time to get used to switching different main pronouns, but we most politely ask to please try to make the effort in using xe / xyr / xem pronouns with xem more often, in and out of character. They / them are fine to be used often as both singular and plural pronouns, but if we directly ask to use xyr neopronouns more often and are ignored, it's simply a hardblock.

it's now been confirmed that Micah is the child of the incarnations / embodiments of Sun and Moon themselves, with the Earth likely being xyr third parent to xyr view, Astrifer / Stellaris Cry being xyr real name. This is a gentle reminder that Micah is an extremely powerful character due to xyr antigodeus status and celestial connections. Micah is very much capable of injuring or killing if xyr rage gets to xem, so we expect no infantilization with Micah while any in character mistreatment towards xem will face retaliation.

The Starwake System's right arm is still temporarily paralyzed since the end of November while they have flowers growing out of their bite punctures Warlock was responsible of. It will likely be fully recovered either in the middle or end of January. If your muse is close to them, they are very much welcome to be aware of it without our permission, but Micah or any other Starwakers will only mention they got injured from work, yet will be fully recovered soon.

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📻 - does your system have any type of in system relationships? (familial, romantic, platonic etc.)

˖ ✰ . 📻 - Does your system have any type of in system relationships ? ( familial , romantic , platonic etc . ) [ CW : Mentions of ableism & child abuse + neglect ]

The Chimera Cluster : There's this alter who most of us have a familial - like relationship to them; it's very sweet and playful which makes us form that familial bond with them the more we interact with them. I have two good in-sys friends! One of them is Hughie who just showed up on this blog to say hi to everyone a few days ago, another is Daimon who writes Myster Strange on here with us. There are few who I had a familial connection with, including therapist alter, which I really was weirded out by this fact, but─ to say this simply, I think it's normal for people who were heavily neglected / abused when they were younger to seek familial connections whether they realize or not, so I did eventually feel that familial connection with this therapist alter who had helped me immensely. Most in the system sees each other as friends! My most prominent in system relationship is me having a significant beloved, @lunarisdog, with our second anniversary coming this June! We have been through so much together and even if I only discovered Paroxysm for a few years, we both have always felt as we had known each other for so long and our relationship just became so special so quickly. We made a lot of memories that we're bound to lose easily / have already lost because of our ongoing amnesia, but the knowing alone that we can make each other so happy and even be grateful of existing means everything to us. I love Paroxysm forever so dearly much, and so do they to me. A lot of people didn't / couldn't believe she's my significant partner and we had an anon in 2022 just few hours before my birthday essentially saying our DID and Paroxysm weren't real, and, you know, sometimes when I had really fun or serious moments with Paroxysm, my mind goes back to that anonymous ask before I'd think they'd never believe in what we have, but in the end, we're just extremely happy and grateful that we exist so we can be together. Paroxysm is the sun of my life as I'm the moon of their life, and our love is real enough like me and them. What could matter more? The Starwake System : Micah is in a romantic relationship with Phoebus since summer 2023. It's the same case between Philos and Phobos, although when they got together, it's likely when the system was in bodily twenties, but their relationship status wasn't known to the system until summer 2023. Micah's relationship with Phoebus and Philos are extremely close, and this can draw over not only platonic, but also the romantic and sexual aspects at times that none of these three really notice to discuss about them because them having a romantic and sexual relationship feels somehow natural. Micah have familial connections with the younger Starwakers who were formed after xyr past counterparts ( Mike, Mimi, and M ) and vice versa with each other, as well as with Cryael, Micah's relationship with it is more professional than personal as Cryael is essentially an alter who focuses on professional work with the investigation and exorcising, but there are occasions when they have personal interactions.

▌┊ ASK GAME FOR SYSTEMS ／／ : ANONYMOUS , ACCEPTING !