#🌙 — lovesickheize

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cheol in home;run as a rich spoiled heir, spoiling u the same amount he was spoiled, constantly holding a glass of red wine yet never being drunk, living at night basically non existent during the day + being the dominant bdsm enjoyer dude that he is when fucking you against the door to the balcony of his expensive villa.

midnight thoughts

when i tell u that home;run is literally one of my favorite mvs of all time specifically bc of the aesthetic of the video... i love how musical theater-esque it is. and cheol's suit look during the first chorus? with the mustard yellow turtleneck and then the suit getup? ... Yeah 🧎‍♀️

he plays up the rich spoiled heir to some stupid financial corporation role so well and it puts most people off, but not you. at least, not anymore. he spoils the absolute hell out of you, making sure you have all the clothes you want, gives you way more money than you need to cover morning coffee or a quick lunch, etc. he just loves knowing that not only are you taken care of, but that he's the one taking care of you. he was treated so well growing up, doted on and spoiled, and he enjoys being able to shower you with that same kind of attention and financial freedom that he had because even if he didn't have the money or the status, you'd love him anyways because the love and companionship you provide him is something you give freely, not in any way attached to what he can give you in return. he ends up being incredibly nonchalant about it to other people, acts like it's not a big deal that he is basically funding every aspect of your life (or could do so, if you asked him to).

and when it's just the two of you? especially in all the expensive, secluded places he rents for you two when you go on vacation? he's got you over every piece of furniture, up against every wall and every window, not worrying about a damn thing. adores getting to tie you up, play around with your senses, manhandle you as he sees fit. you just go all pretty and pliant for him, trying your best to remember every rule he's set for you when you go into scenes (say please, say thank you, don't come or touch without permission, etc etc). he thinks it's cute when you accidentally break one of the rules and immediately start backtracking, gives him a chance to be like "i was making you feel too good, hm? so good you forgot to ask me first?" you always bite at your bottom lip, trying to get it to stop quivering, while tears fill your eyes before you eventually nod, knowing you can't deny it. he tuts and tells you that even if you're sorry, you'll have to take your punishment anyways just to show him you really are sorry.

and the aftercare? it's the best, especially after intense scenes. he'll lay in bed or on the couch with you for as long as you need him to, just holding you tightly because he doesn't want to leave you to come down alone. even when you've touched ground again, if you refuse to let him get up, he will (and has) carried you with him to the bathroom so he can run you a bath. doesn't let you lift a single finger, cleaning you up and pampering you with every expensive hygiene product you've ever even looked at. in complete contrast with his dom persona, he gets so excited and giggly when you let him pick out your pajamas after you get out and even more so when you let him help you put them on because your body still aches a little. he's more than happy to help you in any way he can because no matter what, you did so well for him and it's the only way he could ever really repay you for that.

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" i just wanted to say thank you for protecting me " with seokmin or junhui ? <3

ooo i need to kiss seokmin so bad my little boyfriend <3

you don't go out drinking with seokmin and his friends often. sometimes it's because of work, sometimes because you're just too exhausted to deal with everyone's drunken selves. seokmin, of course, being the sweet boyfriend he is, has always understood and has never pressed you on going out when you don't feel like it.

but with a new promotion under your belt after working your ass off for months, including working overtime and voluntarily taking classes to further your skills, seokmin insists on celebrating. you're tired, but you haven't really spent time with your boyfriend or your shared friends in a while. plus, you do think you deserve to celebrate your achievements, so you agree.

the bar is overwhelmingly loud, music and ambient conversation rising and ebbing in tandem: loud music leads to louder talking leads to even louder music. as such, you're huddled at a table with seokmin and the several friends from the group who had agreed to come celebrate with you. you're all leaning into the table and talking; someone who lives in books would think you're planning a heist of literary proportions (in reality, wonwoo asked a debate night-style question and now jeonghan and soonyoung are arguing heatedly over their drinks).

but as alcohol takes an ever-strengthening hold, you can feel yourself getting drowsy, your social battery running dangerously low as soonyoung, sitting right and pressing tightly against your shoulder, jostles you as he (almost violently) makes his case to jeonghan, who sits entirely opposite the table as you two.

it's been a good couple of hours since your group strolled into the bar and you've all certainly gotten your coverage charge's worth, lots of drinks and laughs and good times had. out of the group, you can tell things are winding down. like you, wonwoo is beginning to look exhausted, leaning heavily into mingyu's shoulder, already sleepy eyes looking even sleepier. even mingyu, who is usually the moodmaker and designated energizer, is starting to look like he's ready to crash.

seungcheol, always the one to pick up on the group moods, begins to quell the heated debate between his two friends. as they're finally chilling out and coming up with a compromise to the question previously posed, seokmin leans into you from your left, hunching over harshly to rest his chin on your shoulder.

"home?" he questions simply and when you turn your head to look at him, his eyes are glassy and tired, but the smile on his face is soft and making his entire face glow in the dim lighting of the bar. he is more out of it than you are.

you nod and lean your head to bump your foreheads together gently. "please?"

within minutes, after bidding a goodnight to your friends and accepting their congratulations for the millionth time tonight, you and seokmin step into the chill of the night. the cold is biting at your skin through your sweater and you shiver involuntarily, your trembling only ceasing when seokmin slips his hand into yours and smiles.

with your apartment not far away, you don't feel the need to call a taxi. thus, you start your trek through a midnight seoul, your hands swinging between the two of you. since you've caught him up in all the goings-on in your life recently, it's seokmin's turn.

as you stroll, you realize you could listen to and watch him talk forever. he's staring straight ahead, gesticulating wildly (a habit of his exacerbated by his drunkeness) as he speaks. he's so passionate about the topic he's telling you all about. even from his side profile, you can see the way his eyes are sparkling and it's the cutest thing ever.

you're so lost in admiring him that you don't notice the curb, the crosswalk, the fact that you're just about to walk into oncoming traffic until seokmin is yanking you back onto the sidewalk, capturing you in his arms and caging you against his chest. a car horn blares loudly as it passes, no doubt an angry driver who just about had a car accident on their hands.

"are you okay?" seokmin asks immediately, turning you to face him so that he can check for injuries, even though you hadn't even come close to falling. "i didn't hurt you, did i?"

in a complete daze, you shake your head stupidly as you look up at him. when he's certain that you're safe and sound, you continue your walk home. you're not sure why your in such a trance; sure, you just about got into a life-altering accident, but there's another feeling lingering in your mind.

it's not until you're home and brushing your teeth that you realize what it is: seokmin has never really been like that before. in your two years of being together, he's been protective and doting like that, but never so worried. for some reason, it has never fully come to you that he cares that deeply about your safety and well-being. he's freaked out over things like accidentally cutting yourself with a knife or tripping up the stairs, but you have never seen him so concerned.

as you're sliding into bed, you look over at your boyfriend. he's laying on his back, eyes closed, and the way he's drawing shallower breaths, you can tell he's about to fall asleep. you turn out the light and then snuggle up next to him, wedging yourself against him and resting your head on his chest, your arm over his torso. he adjusts accordingly, wrapping his arm around your shoulders and kissing your forehead.

"seok?" you ask quietly, hand tracing short lines across his knit sweater-clad sweater.

he hums in response.

"just wanted to say... thank you... for protecting me earlier," you say, voice soft and still a little drenched in alcohol.

he reels his head back to look at you, his eyes wide and tired. "pro..tecting...? oh, you mean the car."

it's clear to you that he really did get drunker than you because usually, his memory is impeccable. everything about him reads exhausted and it's a reminder that he is just as susceptible to his friends draining his social battery as you are. paired with his job, there really is no surprise that he's so sleepy, he's forgetting things.

"baby, i'll always protect you," he replies softly, tightening his arm around you. "just wanna make sure you're always safe. kinda scared me earlier when you almost walked into the street."

"sorry," you answer bashfully, nuzzling your face into his sweater. "was really distracted."

you can feel him chuckle, his chest reverberating under your cheek. his hand rubs and flexes against your shoulder.

"it's okay, my love. just don't worry me like that again. i don't know what i'd do if something happened to you."

you nod and snuggle impossibly closer, smiling against him. you've never once doubted for a second that he cares about you; he's always made it abundantly clear that he will always prioritize your health. the extent of his care for your safety, though, has never been displayed quite to this level. it is nice knowing that someone loves you that deeply.

of course, you won't go out of your way to put yourself in life-threatening situations, but at least you know that if you do end up in one, as long as seokmin's by your side, he'll save you.

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does your mind ever go...

mmmm hard dom!jacob, his hands around your neck. "you underestimated my dominance..."

why are u in my head ... get out of there ... especially bc when i reblog things abt him on my main, i'm always like "oh he's so soft! he's so cute! so sweet!"

you spend your time together babying him, smoothing your hands over his skin and fixing his hair and cooing at him. obviously, he does this back because he really is a sweet, affectionate boyfriend and he loves returning your actions, especially if it gets you all flustered. but you do that kind of shit in front of the boys or in public with other people around? when you get home, it's all he can do to make sure you get to the bedroom before he's pressing you up against the wall, one hand safely pressed around your throat as he stares down at you and the other dipping under the hem of your shirt. "why do you have to baby me all the time, huh? and in front of sunwoo and eric too... i think you forget how hard i can go on you. you need me to remind you?" you're already going a bit dumb, but you nod anyways because you know it's gonna be good.

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kevin moon the type of guy to put his hand in your jeans' back pocket, write you love notes and pass them to the front desks asking them to pass them to you wishing they see what's written in them so that they know you belong to him & leave juice boxes on your desk before class.

let that sink in.

oh absolutely he is wtf he watched one teen romcom and decided he had to be The Perfect Boyfriend. his notes are half-assed attempts at love poetry about how much he loves you or asking you things that he could just as easily text you. he just thinks it's fun to pass you notes like that. he leaves juice boxes and snacks on your desk, in your backpack, in your locker. he never wants you to go hungry and he loves the way you get all giggly when you walk into class and see your favorite drink and a sticky note, the way you immediately look up to find him in the classroom, the way you smile at him with your eyes all lit up. it's his favorite thing.

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OKAY LISTEN first of all you are my fav writer and the fact that u do asks is so hot of u... second of all ive had this thought for the longest time but couldnt tell anyone so.

you go to the internet café to expose your ex for cheating on you, eric ( a stranger ) is playing some random ass video game using the computer next to the one your ex was using to play, then noticing you screaming and your ex calling you names~

eric gets up, grabs your wrist, takes you out of the café and crosses the road, your ex following and screaming at eric for interfering.

eric pins u against a wall, in front of your ex, kisses you in the most passionate way possible and proves to your ex that you can do whatever he did without feeling bothered.

first omg i'm so honored ????? it blows my mind that someone considers me their favorite author thank u so much i might cry </3 i try to keep my asks open, but i've stepped back from tumblr to focus on other things. ur always welcome to drop thoughts in my inbox it just might take me some time to get to them <3

this thought of urs ... let me tell u ... Yeah<3

eric is really loud and ambitious n he's never really seemed to hold back from being disruptive. in this situation, he's probably got his headphones on and he's completely zoned in on his game, so he doesn't tune into your argument until he can hear you over the sounds of his game. he's never met you before, but your (in the process of becoming) ex frequents this internet cafe and eric has always disliked him because he's such an asshole to people.

he wouldn't normally step in because it's not his place at all, but he does have a prior distaste for this guy and you're on the verge of having a mental breakdown. he thinks it's only fair to get you out of there as soon as he can. he shuts his station down and grabs his things before he can even start second guessing himself, and then he's gathering you into his arms to herd you into the world outside. you're trying to protest through tears and looking up at him all confused, but you're grateful to feel the cool evening air on your otherwise scorching skin, so you let this handsome stranger lead you away.

at least until your ex follows you out and tries to keep the fight going, this time with eric who was only trying to help you out. the guy is shouting at him for interfering and telling him it's none of his business, so eric whips around and tells him that it became his business when you two started duking it out in the cafe. ofc this doesn't deter your ex from causing an even bigger scene, yelling about how your relationship isn't over and lying through his teeth about cheating on you (it's so clear to eric that he's trying to gaslight you), so eric does the only other thing he can think to do.

he kisses you, just cradles your face in his hands and kisses you so passionately. you're immediately surprised and your first instinct is to push him away, but this guy is going out on a limb to drive your ex away, so you let it happen, even going as far as kissing him back. you can hear your ex make a sound of indignation and then walk away, muttering about how that conversation isn't over. when eric finally pulls away, he gets shy and flustered, apologizing for kissing you, especially because you don't know him, but you shush him and tell him that yeah, it was crossing a line, but you appreciate him doing something to get you out of that situation. when he realizes you don't feel so scandalized by it, he offers to make it up to you by taking you out for dinner or coffee sometime. and that's how you end up with eric sohn's phone number and an apology dinner planned for the weekend.

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heyyy! hope youre doing fine & that your trip to europe was fun ( as fun as a school related trip can get )

i've been thinking about how much duality seokmin has & that he is probably a switch~ and it occured to me... he has 2 names, right? what if there's a side of him assigned for each?

when you call him seokmin, he turns into your good little submissive boy, 100% obedient and whiney.

when you call him dokyeom, he is a whole different person, extremely dominant, has you weak under every slight touch of his...

yes omg it was the best time !! haven't really told y'all about my trip really, which is wack bc i had so much fun but maybe another time ??

anyways yeah ... i don't say idols have duality regularly, but seokmin ??? oh he definitely has the duality. watching him in caratland and the switch up he does between everything else and light a flame? oh he's such a menace and he KNOWS it. had me feeling all kinds of shit watching him and gyuhao perform it.

you're definitely right about him being a switch like . i literally cannot see him any other way. sure, he's a sweet, kind of timid boy, but he also has moments where he gets a aggressive and rough (and it's hot but- hoshi look away baby please). and the idea of him switching depending on the name you call him??? BYE omg.......

seokmin is always always the sweet, submissive boy, doing everything he can to please you, obeying every order. he cries so easily when he's in that position because you practically torture him with pleasure. but dokyeom? you're in for a long night, especially if you're being bratty. not necessarily a hard dom, but he can get a little mean about it. he expects you to return his previous obedience in full because if he was good for you, then it's only fair that you do the same. you go stupid at just the slightest touch, but disobeying never leaves your mind and punishment has never felt so good before.

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gosh i thought i lost your @ bcz i accidentally unfollowed u when i was cleaning my followings & then it occured to me ive reposted some of ur posts thank goodness-

how have you been? i think i've missed a lot, i hope you are doing fine, fav <3

😭😭😭 literally my worst nightmare

i'm good !! a run down of things you might have missed: i'm home from college for the summer now, was lucky enough to snag a svt concert ticket, and now i'm focusing on summer classes + and just taking it easy since the last school year has been #hell for me. i've been reading quite a bit and talking to dreamie a lot so i've been in a pretty good mood lately !!

i hope you're doing good too <3

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no because can we talk abt yandere!svt ? after watching the power of love movie and simping for cheol for 24 hours str8 i can't help but think abt how he'd be the possessive and overprotective type. also junhui as the obsessive one !

not super big on the whole yandere thing tbh it's just not my thing but i do fw like ... tame possessive ideas n yeah cheol n jun being a little protective and possessive over u ??? yeah <3

also still really mad n upset that i didn't get to go see power of love bc i lost my wallet over the weekend so i don't have my debit card or driver's license so i couldn't drive the hour and a half to go see it

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NAUUUUR STFU we almost have the same bias line 😭 first of all you're so accurate, younghoon is definitely the type to cry along just for the vibes~ his leo ass is so overprotective and caring gosh...

i also double bias in tbz, sangyeon & jacob, but eric has been on da mind 25/7 for thr past 6 months, my deobi oomfs always make fun of me saying i secretly ult him lmao

PLEASE 😭 i was a full time kevin moon girlie and then kingdom happened and how could i pass up sangyeon's absolutely godlike vocals (kingdom come? i'll fucking die ig damn!). and younghoon he's just so sweet and cute i love him </3

it's always these fucking maknaes that are out to get me. i stan changbin and felix like it's a full time job but oh my god yang jeongin has been on my ass for the last two months. and ERIC???? idk what it is but he's been fighting his way to the top the last couple of months i need to fight him asap

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since i haven't been a moon follower for a long time n i havent seen u saying who ur tbz bias is...

who is ur tbz bias and whats a scenario u associate with him? 🍓

i actually double bias in tbz (but it's abt to be triple if eric doesn't stop coming after my ass, the fuckin capricorn)

under the cut bc i don't wanna be sappy on people's dash this early in the morning, esp w my self-indulgent ideas (that i was going to write in second person but didn't)

i associate sangyeon with laying in bed very early in the morning, knees bumping under the covers as we chat. pale, misty light is starting to pour in through the window as the sun rises. he apologizes for waking me up so early and on accident — he forgot to turn his alarms off. but i smile and tell him it's okay because there's something so comforting about sharing time together like this. the world is barely beginning to wake up from its rest, so it feels like we're the only two people in the world. no distractions, no errands to run, nothing. just the two of us talking quietly like getting too loud might shatter the illusion into glass dust.

younghoon is one of the softest, sweetest boys i've ever seen and we're both big crybabies. just crying over the smallest things. so i think about getting drunk while he stays sober and he gets me home. he makes me drink water and gets me into pajamas and tucks me into bed. he's sitting on the edge of the mattress, brushing hair out of my face, and that's when i burst into tears, crying about how much i love him and how he's so good to me, even though he doesn't need to be. and that makes him cry because he feels the same way. he was going to go home, but he can't imagine going back to his dorm right now, so he climbs into bed next to me and we just laugh and sloppily wipe each other's tears away.