#🏒; softly killing

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IT'S MY BOY'S DAY!!!!!!!!

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[ sober thoughts ] n. hischier

paring: Nico Hischier x fem!reader

summary : Nico appears on his best friend’s doorstep after the Stadium Series win and confessions are made

warning(s) : slightly drunk nico, mentions of alcohol (but no actual alcohol consumption involved)

author’s note : pls ignore any typos bc i thought of this while drunk and wrote it while tipsy so i will go back and edit when i am 100% sober. it’s a v short and cute thing that i wanted to write (even tho i am working on like 7 different requests rn)

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The moment ‘nico 🏒🤍’ appears on her phone screen, she thinks something is wrong. She’s especially worried because it’s nearly two in the morning. Something could be seriously wrong.

The last time they talked, Nico was getting in an Uber to go to the bar after they won the Stadium Series game against the Flyers. That was a half hour after the end of the game and nearly three hours ago at this point.

A very exhausted and confused (Y/N) quickly answers the phone as soon as she processes what’s going on.

“Are you okay?” she asks, voice slurred with sleep. “Do I need to come get you from the bar?”

“I’m outside your apartment building,” he tells her. “Can I please come inside? It’s so cold outside and I just played a game in this weather. Please let me in.”

She rolls over and turns on her bedside lamp before she walks to the window. Outside on the sidewalk stands her best friend and captain of the New Jersey Devils. He smiles up at her and waves. “Oh my God,” she gasps as she puts on a pair of slippers. “Why are you just standing outside my building like that?”

“Because I missed you and wanted to see you,” he tells her as she grabs her keys and leaves her apartment. “It felt very wrong that I wasn’t celebrating with my best friend after one of the most amazing games and one of the most beautiful moments of my career. If I woke you up, I’m sorry.”

Without tripping down any stairs, she says, “It’s okay. I was just worried you were passed out on the side of the road in East Rutherford.” She pushes the main entrance door open. “Yet here you are on my doorstep.”

Nico smiles and stumbles up the steps after he hangs up the phone when he sees her. He trips on the last step. She catches him and he catches himself on the doorway. She can smell the alcohol on his breath because of how close they are to each other, yet her heart races in her chest since they’re so close to each other.

“Are you drunk?” she asks as she backs away from him with a look on her face. “How did you get here? Don’t tell me you drove because I might kill you and your team is going to be left without a captain.”

“I’ve had a few drinks,” he admits to her. “I took an Uber because I did have a few drinks. I didn’t drive here. Don’t worry. I still have brain cells.”

Nico walks into the building in a hoodie and jeans instead of the tracksuit he showed up to MetLife in. She’s happy he is in actual clothes because if he showed up in that tracksuit, she might lose it.

“Why did you come here instead of going home?” she questions as they make their way up to her apartment. “I thought that maybe after the game you’d celebrate with your teammates then go home to sleep.”

They walk into the apartment as soon as she unlocks the door. “I told you that I wanted to come celebrate with my best friend,” he replies. She closes the door behind her. “Especially since I couldn’t get you into the stadium to watch the game. I wanted you to be a part of this day.”

She pouts and sits on the couch as Nico turns on one of the lamps. “Your family flew in for the game,” she says to him. “I shouldn’t take priority over them. I get to see you play all the time. They don’t.”

He sits next to her. Not too close but close enough where she can feel the heat coming off his body. If he were to move his knee, it would bump into hers.

“You’re my family too,” Nico softly says. “I wanted you to be there.”

“I’m your friend, Nico,” she sighs. “I’m not your girlfriend or your wife. I didn’t need to be there.”

It feels like she is trying to convince herself too because sometimes the line blurs. Sometimes she doesn’t know what she is to him. She has to remind herself that they aren’t together, and probably will never be together.

A moment of silence falls over them. She looks at her hands on her lap while she plays with her thumbs. Nico’s big brown eyes never leave her while she avoids looking at him.

Nico sighs and practically whispers, “I wished you were there as my girlfriend.”

Her head snaps up and she blinks at him. “You what?”

“I wished you were at the game as my girlfriend,” Nico repeats. “The entire time I wished that you were at the family skate and sitting in the suite with everyone else’s families. I wished you had one of those cute jackets that the wives and girlfriends had with my number on it.”

She stares at him until he’s done talking. Then she starts to shake her head. “You’re just saying that because you have been drinking,” she replies. “You don’t actually mean that.”

Never once has Nico shown that he wanted to be in any kind of romantic relationship with her. He’s never given her any kind of hint or sign that he wanted to be more than just friends with her.

They’ve known each other since Nico moved to the US in 2017 to play in the NHL and never once did it seem like he wanted something more.

There is no way he means that.

“Drunk words are sober thoughts,” he says.

“Then tell me when you’re sober,” she retorts. “Tell me in the morning if you actually mean it.”

Nico frowns and brushes a loose piece of hair behind her ear. “Schätzli, you have no idea how long I have wanted to tell you that,” he tells her. “I guess I’ll just have to wait until I wake up before I tell you again.”

Almost as if on cue, he yawns. “Go to sleep, Nico,” she says to him. “Tell me whatever you want in the morning. You know where the guest room is but do you need my help in getting there?”

He shakes his head and sinks down against the back of the couch. “I’ll get there eventually,” he replies. “You can go back to sleep.”

With a nod, she stands up. Nico’s eyes are half open so she takes off his shoes and pulls his legs up onto the cushions. She grabs a blanket to throw over him as he lets out soft snores. The alcohol has finally caught up to him and knocked him out.

“You have no idea how long I have wanted to hear you say that you wanted me to be your girlfriend,” she whispers to a sleeping Nico. “All it took you was having a few drinks and winning a big game before you told me how you felt.”

She presses a soft kiss to his temple before she retreats down the hallway to her bedroom just in case he wasn’t actually asleep.

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The smell of coffee is the thing that wakes her up in the morning. Not the sunlight or an alarm. Coffee. It takes a second before she remembers that Nico stayed over.

She remembers Nico telling her that he wishes she was at the Stadium Series game as his girlfriend. She has no idea if he remembers that he said that to her.

It’s time to find out.

Slowly, she makes her way out to the kitchen. She finds Nico standing at the coffee machine with his back to the hallway. She yawns and walks into the kitchen area.

“Morning,” she softly says so she doesn’t scare him. He turns his head and looks at her. “You making coffee?”

Nico nods and pours them both a cup. He puts cream in her cup and hands it to her. “I figured we could both use a cup,” he tells her. “Me to get rid of this hangover and you because I woke you up at two in the morning.”

She blows on her coffee before taking a sip. “How much of last night do you remember?” she curiously asks as she leans against the counter beside him.

The moment of silence that follows worries her. He probably doesn’t remember what he said, and she isnt going to remind him if he doesn’t remember.

He takes a sip of his own coffee before he asks, “Are you asking me if I remember telling you that I wish you were my girlfriend? Yes, if that’s the case. I told you that I meant it.”

“And you’re sober?”

“Very,” Nico replies. “And very hungover.”

It surprises her to the point where she almost drops her cup of coffee. Her eyes widen and Nico smiles. “Nico, I could kill you and kiss you at the same time because why did it take you playing in one of the biggest games in your career before you-”

Nico takes the cup of coffee out of her hand while she’s talking then cuts her off by bringing his lips to hers. She gasps in surprise then melts against him as he presses her against the counter. She wraps her arms around his neck and puts her fingers in his hair so he can’t break the kiss.

Never in her life did she think that she would be in her kitchen kissing her best friend of nearly seven years. The thought only occurred in dreams and occasionally during games when she found him attractive, which is really all the time.

This is something she has wanted for two years. Since the moment she realized that she was in love with Nico.

He lifts her up and sits her down on the counter. He stands between her knees and rests his hands on her thighs.

It becomes too much for her and she has to pull back for a second to breathe. Her eyes meet his and finds worry in them. “I just- I don’t think you understand how long I have waited for this,” she breathes out. “Wanted this. Wanted you. I just need a second.”

Nico smiles and pushes her hair behind her ears before he cups her jaw. “I’m such an idiot for waiting so long before I told you,” he replies. “I think I’ve loved you since the moment I met you, Schätzli.” His voice drops to nearly a whisper and his thumbs brush her cheekbones.

“We’re both idiots,” she tells him. “I’m glad you meant it though. I thought you were going to get my hopes up.”

He shakes his head and kisses her nose. “I would never lie to you about loving you.”

“Well I love you too,” she says. “Just so you know.”

Nico laughs and envelopes her in a hug. She smiles and happily accepts the hug.

“I told you that drunk words are sober thoughts.”

“I believe you now.”

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I need to kiss my pretty boys I need to give them many kisses

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Day Seventeen, Blood

Had to do this with Jason <3 love that man.

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I bought a blanket with Jason on it and when it's colder I'm gonna snuggle with it,,,,,

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ITS JASON'S BIRTHDAY OMG OMG OMG!!!!!

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ITS JASON'S BIRTHDAY OMG OMG OMG!!!!!

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The beloveds and their pride HCs, part one!! I also couldn't get all the tags lmaoo

Satine: Pansexual and demisexual!!! I always thought she was pan, but then learnt more about demi and that,,,fit her? If that makes sense?

47 (both): Bisexual! Because being ace is canon BABEY!!! Anyway!!!!!

Diana: Pansexual!! So cool.

I don't have HCs for Ella and Charming

Erik: Bisexual and genderqueer! Yeah<3

Charles: Pansexual and demisexual! I watched the movie and went "that man is demi" and then continued with life?

Arthur Morgan: He's queer!! He doesn't identify with any particular identity. He just Is.

Lucifer: Agender, and he's canonically pansexual!!!

Geralt: Pansexual, non binary!! Totally wasn't projecting when I HCed him as non binary NOOO-

Jaskier: Bisexual! Is this canon? It feels canon. Anyway.

Scully: Polysexual!! Ahh,,,

Volga: Omnisexual and trans!!

Gordon: Bisexual and trans. Also I adore how everyone HCs him as trans that's so,,,,

Karl: Queer and trans, preference towards men?? Yeah.

I don't have HCs for Jon and Martin

Sully: Abrosexual!!

Alice: Cupiosexual!

I don't have HCs for any of my Narrator f/os

Amanda/The Pig: Bisexual and graysexual!

Dewey: Bisexual!!

Jason: Asexual!!

Brahams: Questioning!

Slender: Agender and queer

Warren: Gay and trans,,,!!!

Arthur Hastings: I think I've said this before but bisexual!!!!!

Luigi: Pansexual, demisexual, trans!!! Aaa.

Daisy: Bisexual and non binary!

Ray: Abrosexual,,,man I feel bad for not talking about my Sharktopus f/os...wack.

Nicole: Queer? Idk I've never thought about it.

Thomas: Gay!!

I don't have HCs for Harvey?

Lucio: Pansexual and non binary!!!

Revan: Bisexual!!

Nihilus: Queer and trans,,,

Sal (Support Agent): Bisexual and genderqueer!

Therius: Queer!

I don't have HCs for all the Cookies lmfao

Bazz: Gay!!

Cian (Lone Soldier): Bisexual!

Luke: Queer!!!

Din: Unlabeled,,!

Nate (Phone Guy): Polysexual and trans!

Miles Upshur: Gay and non binary!

Bigby: Trans and bicurious!

Snow: Questioning!

Mireal: Omnisexual and asexual!!

Fawkes: Bisexual and graysexual!!

Izold: Polysexual and non binary!!

Alna: Lesbian!

Lyca: Pansexual and trans

Sofia: Bisexual,,

Maleficent: Bisexual and genderfluid!!!

Bruce: Bisexual and demiboy!

Wadsworth: Bisexual

Yvette: Queer!

I don't have a headcanon for Abraham

I also don't have headcanons for my AC:NH f/os

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IT'S JASON'S DAY!!!!!!

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Omg omg tomorrow is Jason's day,,,,,omg,,,,

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Okay theme songs let's go

Under the cut bc it's gonna be a long one 😭 I left out some of my more casual ones bc I don't have an idea :(

Satine: From Eden by Hozier!!! Like! "Babe/ there's something tragic about you"!!!! Bc both of us are tragic!!!! GAHHH,,,,

47 and Diana: There's so many!! But Shelter by FINNEAS!!!! That song hits so hard but I just. Oh my god. All of Verse Two hits me like a TRAIN!!!!! Fuck.

Movie!47: GAHHH!!! So many songs and half of them are just being absolutely hopelessly devoted. Like some Gomez and Morticia!!!!!! Skyfall by Adele!!! Bc badass couple goes brrr hehe.

Ella and Charming: Pierre by Run Weaver!!!, The vibes of the song are absolutely immaculate for them 🥺

Erik and Charles: Arms Tonite by Mother Mother. Bc we're uh™. Complicated. I think. Also the song is very good!

Arthur Morgan: This Side of Paradise by Coyote Theory!!!! Bc!!! He is lonely,,,I am lonely,,,our fingers dancing when they meet!!!!!! It's so gentle too... ughHHH.

Lucifer: hMM,,,Talk Too Much by COIN!!! He talks,,,so sometimes I just gotta shut him PSJDJSHDH. Also imagining him mumbling the words to that song and he's like an inch away from kissing me drives me insane.

Geralt and Jaskier: FUCK okay okay. You're So Creepy by Ghost Town?? Idk why. It just seems to fit us ;w;

Dana: OUGH MY BELOVED MY SWEET DARLING GIRLFRIEND. Can I Call You Tonight? By Dayglow!!! GAHHH that song is so sweet it hits my little yearning neurons.

Volga: Something Just Like This by The Chainsmokers bc. Bro,,,I just want something just like this,,,somebody I can turn to,,,somebody I can miss,,,

Gordon: WAILS LOUDLY. Die Alone by FINNEAS. It's so perfect for us you don't understand I am so feral its us it's us. The entire song. So good.

Karl: GAH THIS BASTArD <3 What A Heavenly Way To Die by Troye Sivan!!! It's a good song and just. Yes. All of Verse One!!!! There's other songs like Honeypie like JAWNY!!!

Jon and Martin: OKAY OKAY. it's a tie between Foreigner's God by Hozier and You've Got The Life by Florence + The Machine!!!!! GAHHH.

Sully: there's so many songs I could say bc of the ✨complicated love story✨ we are but. But. I Will Follow You into The Dark by Death Cab for Cutie. It's such....🥺🥺🥺😭

Alice: hMMMn,,,Yellow Hearts by Any Saunders bc it's so soft and we're so soft. Oh my god.

The Narrator/Simon: There's so many songs,,,I think Talk To Me by Cavetown!!!! Or It's Alright by Mother Mother. Maybe a mix of those two.

Jason: !!! This fucking man oh my god I want to kiss him. Anyway Creep by Radiohead and I will not expand.

Slenderman: oouughhh. Lay All Your Love On Me by ABBA!!! Esp the one with like the guitar and shit kicking in!!!! Also I Hear a Symphony by Cody Fry :>

Warren: !! Me and My Husband by Mitski!!! Gahhhh <3

Arthur Hastings: YELLS LOUDLY. As The World Caves In by Matt Maltese but specifically the acoustic one!!!!!!!!! Because fuCKKK it's him that I lie with as the atom bomb drops in!!!!!!!!!

Thomas Richardson: I think. Hmm. All of Me by John Legend and Cabo by Ricky Montgomery :0

Harvey: AAA,,,my sweet ghost man...I cannot think of a song other than the one that is our tag 😭. I might say Soulmate Song by Carson James Argenna is the first that comes to mind...second being I Don't Want To Set The World On Fire by Ink Spots!!

Nihilus: OH THIS MAN THIS FUCKING MAN. Oh my GODDDD. Obsessed With You by The Orion Experience!!! Also maybe Daisy Bell by...idk who? goddd,,,,

Luke and Din: They're still kinda new f/os tbh? But. Glad You Came by The Wanted. Something about it makes me think of them,,,,<3!!!

Phone Guy: !!!! gahhh. agaiN so many songs!!! Ugh. Boyfriend by COIN,,,also Absolutely Smitten by dodie,,,,

Miles Upshur: okay this one is gonna sound absolutely ridiculous and obvious,,,but. E.T. by Katy Perry and exclusively without K*yne's part. Also exclusively Clarity covered by Kurt Hugo Schneider.

Mirael and Fawkes: hmMMsnndj,,,,Run by Hozier but like. Also Line Without A Hook by Ricky Montgomery. Wrecking Ball by Mother Mother also makes me think of us!

Izold: yet again thinking of the song that's our theme. Anyway! Hey Lover! by Wabie,,,Walk You Home by Sir Chloe,,,so many songs. *pats Izold's shoulder* this bad boy can fit so many songs into him!!!!!

Alna: AGAIN THE FIRST SONG TO COME TO MIND IS THE ONE THAT'S OUR THEME!!! but. But. Pretend The World Has Ended by She Wants Revenge and Love Story covered by Sarah Coltrane!!! Ahhhh.

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Haha™

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IT'S JASON'S DAY I WILL WRITE SOMETHING UP I PROMISE BUT IT'S HIS DAY EVERYONE SHUT UP IT'S HIS DAY!!!!!!!!

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Jason blanket,,is so comfy,,,,, wah

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I posted 1,804 times in 2021

184 posts created (10%)

1620 posts reblogged (90%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 8.8 posts.

I added 597 tags in 2021

#🌼; his lawman - 103 posts

#💊; just two downers - 83 posts

#🥽; goggled and dangerous - 61 posts

#💘; devil's dancemate - 59 posts

#❤️; the agent's partner - 58 posts

#👔; fbi and anarchist - 54 posts

#🌲; down in our forest - 48 posts

#🏒; softly kills - 44 posts

#🔨; oh beloved - 44 posts

#✨; star crossed - 43 posts

Longest Tag: 119 characters

#though i did consider a self ship with elementary's sherlock and watson that would be them dating me and not each other

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

List of characters I'm considering for romantic f/os 👉👈

-Luke Skywalker, Star Wars

-Armitage Hux, Star Wars

-Rey Skywalker, Star Wars

-Jonathan Sims and Martin Blackwood, The Magnus Archives

-The Butler from Clue, Idr his name

-Zelda and Link, specifically from Hyrule Warriors

-Din Djarin, The Mandolorian

Pwhdjsifi yeah 👉👈 I'll update the pinned post if any of these crushes become official f/os! If any new crushes emerge I'll reblog this post.

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Ahhh I wanna ramble about Skully,,,but Idk how to start,,,help,,,

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*shakes can* 🔧? please sir 🥧?? *rattle rattle* any 🕊? please *shake shake*

*starts dumping ideas everywhere*

Okay okay head FULL

-Cas teaching Honora some basic fighting things and Dean watching all proud because that's his girl learning how to fight off either icky strange dudes or monsters!!! That's his girl!!!

-Honora being able to drive at age 13 because of course and Dean absolutely screaming in celebration. Cas is the Adult Supervision™ in the car and he just. Confused joy. And Honora absolutely losing it once she gets out of the car like she fuckin sprints to Dean and gets twirl hugged and is all like "DAD I DROVE I DROVE!!! DAD!!!! DIDJA SEE ME PARK!!!!!"

-Cas not knowing what the hell to do for Christmas so he just clears out a candy isle. As you do when you have a teenage daughter that you didn't expect. And Honora just. "I love the gift Pops but also like I will get sugar high so you might wanna hide some of it!". And Dean's losing it in the background. (He got her a keychain with a copy of the Impala's key on it,,,)

-Dean going to Sam in fucking tears like "SHE CALLED ME DAD AND IT WASN'T IN A JOKING WAY" and Sam just. Doesn't know what the fuck to do either.

-All of Dean's funky lil car rules Honora knows by heart. And also fights for shotgun. It's absolutely chaotic.

-This one is angsty but Dean not knowing how to parent™ so he just. "Alright what's the opposite of what Dad would do in this situation". 99% of the time it works so I mean™.

-Dean's music taste rubbing off on Honora!!! Her researching and watching all the old-ish things so she can get references and also make them as well!!! Her aggressively air guitaring in the car and Dean drumming on the steering wheel and Sam about to barrel roll out!!!!

-Uh oh another angsty one but Dean like. Will take any chance he can to tell her that he's proud of her. Like it could be from her doing research or she could pour a bowl of cereal and he'd say it.

-Not a headcanon this is Honora facts but she would beat the shit out of J*hn Winchester and she barely knows shit about him.

-Honora rambling about some "useless" info she found while looking for the needed research on a hunt. Cas just sitting there absolutely happy and overjoyed to hear about it. Dean vibing in the background with a proud little grin. Sam joining the conversation late but absolutely thriving. Bobby also being in the background pretending that he isn't listening but he IS and he is trying so hard not to smile.

-Honora laying on the couch and tossing a ball up in the air then suddenly sitting up, sprinting to Sam, and asking "dO MY DADS KNOW THEY'RE GAY" and Sam nearly screams.

Bonus pride month thought bc I can:

-Its Dean's first pride and Honora goes all out like she gets a shitton of bisexual shit for him and herself, she gets some Gender™ things for her, Cas, and Sam, she goes absolutely crazy and everything is fine and good and happy 🥺

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Welcome to paradise!!

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Enjoy your stay in my little Eden <33!

16 notes • Posted 2021-04-15 22:41:32 GMT

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I should get around to posting the PicCrsws of my s/is that I've made,,,

25 notes • Posted 2021-05-11 03:09:18 GMT

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