Hi Fae! ā” The ask that I sent you yesterday, please just answer it here once youāre ready. I donāt want others knowing about my relationship situation š And the fact that you still havenāt respond to it yet is making me kinda scared bc I feel like I might have over shared or something & if I did Iām so sorry for that! š„ŗš© But if you actually have no idea what to say just tell me okay, I donāt mind š
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1. pls donāt be scared abt whether you overshared or not!! ik the feeling and itās not great so just know u didnāt (at least for me) 2. i was gonna ask you to send a separate ask that i could respond to anyway so iām glad you did lol & 3. typing this out gave me some clarity on things too so damn?
anyways here goes nothing,, me desperately trying to give relationship advice i hope this helps somewhat? i tried >_<
wow okay wellā¦ i read everything twice to take it all in. 8 years is a very long time! itās amazing that you two have quite literally withstood every awkward phase, every self-discovery, every part of growing up together. since middle school! and itās been 8 years so youāre probably around 19-20ish now?? i will say this, itās hard to let someone that important go, you grew up with him, you fell in love with him, you were there for him in his darkest times and cutting that off is not easy. you loved him so much that you forgave him and gave him a second chance after he did that to youā¦ (i wonāt say what) i canāt imagine the weight you feel as you make this decision on whether you should break things off for good.
what i will say, is that there are people that are meant to be in your life for a reason, and not all of those people are meant to be with you through every step for ever and ever. some are just meant to be there for certain parts of it and itās hard to accept that maybe itās time to let them go. i mean, you and him have talked about getting married, i wouldnāt expect you to be able to just break up with him as if you donāt have all of this history behind you. but, you gave him the benefit of the doubt, i know plenty of people that wouldāve dropped their s/o the minute they heard something like what your boyfriend did, but you kept him around and it seems he may have taken advantage of your unconditional love for him and went back to his old ways anyway.
iām not a relationship expert, iām just a 21 year old who is just as clueless as the next person figuring love out. but what i will say after reading your story and thinking about what i would do in your shoes, i think it may be time to let him go. it wonāt be easy, it could take you so long to fully be over him and thatās okay, everyoneās hearts heal differently. but i think heās been with you through the most vulnerable parts of your life and i think that you shouldnāt submit yourself to his behavior anymore. youāre still so young you might even be a bit younger than me?? when i tell you our 20s are a time when we do not need someone holding us backā¦ i mean it. if we thought middle school/high school was a time of self discovery, now is when weāre gonna be doing the soul searching. and i really think he might hinder you from fully coming into your own!
he was in your life for a reason, he was a part of it when he was fit to be a part of it, but people drift apart and that is okay. heās changed and you know what people are gonna change and they might fit into your life still or they might not. iāve had falling outs with people who i thought but would be attending my wedding one dayā¦ and it sucks not having them here it really does. but over time iāve forgiven, we went our separate ways but iāll always be thankful for the part of my life they existed in and the lessons they taught me and the things they helped me discover about myself when i had them. and when i didnāt have them, for months after i felt lonely as shit, i didnāt have anyone, and it really felt shitty for a bit. but itās crazy because as people leave your life new ones come in, and now iāve found people that i really feel like are my forever friends. they came into my life when i had no one and i was forced to put myself out there bc i had no one, and then i met them.
what iām trying to say isā¦ let me wrap this up lol. better things will come. whatever you decide to do first of all is completely your own decision and whatever that decision is will come with a lesson and youāll get through it. but, if you decide to break things offā¦ donāt feel guilty. donāt let him make you feel guilty. he might get on his knees and beg you to forgive him but you did that already once before. you need to do this for you! and you need to keep walking!! itāll hurt, it might take a lot to get you back to normal even though it wonāt be the same normal as before but itāll be a new normal and thatās okay! youāll meet new people, you have to grow into this new self of yours but if youāre 20 or somewhere around there iām just ballparking your age here lol, this is supposed to be like the best time of our lives or something idk thatās what they told me. so donāt let him hold you back, think about yourself here. youāve done enough for him as he has for you!!
anyways thatās my very lengthy two cents >3< iām so sorry u had to read all of that but ur the one who asked a VIRGO for advice i am not gonna skimp out on you!! i hope you were able to gain some clarity from my train of thought <3
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crybaby ch 5 crumbs plsš©šš¤²š¤² itās forā¦ science !
guys i donāt have any crumbs just yet iām sorry >:c bc i havenāt started it but!! the reason i havenāt started it is because i have two collab fics that are due between this/next month that are both w eren one with eren x jean so iām prioritizing those rn!! also kinktober and before i start chapter 5 i wanna rewrite the prequel and edit whatās currently published before i continue! but chapter 5 is you guessed it! gonna be sad,, umm maybe iāll sprinkle some plot for you guys beneath the cut (this is all subject to change as i write) so spoilers for ch. 5 at your own risk <3 literally copy and pasted from my messy ass outline.
eren learns that things arenāt going the way they used to in his career, the tour heās currently on isnāt selling out all of the venues the way he used to when he first started out.
āerenā¦ youāve been in the game since you were seventeenā¦ you were a fresh face. now youāre three albums in and a fucking messā¦ so you either get yourself together or you fucking lose it all.ā
angry sex. eren very angy when he fucks >:(
gritty bathroom scene for erenā¦ his turn to hysterically cry on the bathroom floor.
āwhat the hell would you tell me to do right now babyā¦ā
sad doctors office visit.
debating whether or not to put a very important phone call in this chapter between two very emotionally confused and temperamental people umm.
jean faces cry baby again, hoping to be better than he was last time.
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how different is the ao3 cry baby version compared to the current one? so will the current one still remain the way it is once youāve posted the ao3 one?
WELL!! so hereās my plan, for anyone whoās wondering. i want the story to be consistent on both platforms! if anyone crosses over from ao3 to tumblr, vice versa, the story will be the same. so once i edit everything,,, i will be updating the chapters on tumblr as well! itās not TERRIBLY different like iām not adding huge plot twists or adding new plot more so just clarifying erenās emotions in the first chapter, minor time-span changes (surprise: jean x reader didnāt fall in love in two weeks more like two months or something that was so stupid of me i really just picked any time and said thatās good <3) and overall just a light brush over. doing this now before i move into a huge phase of the story, still only four chapters in, so itās not massive change and itās not a shit ton to absorb either. you wonāt have to reread everything to understand. the only thing i would want you guys to read is the expanded full prequel chapter hehe. 1. because itās gonna be soft as shit, 2. so many of you ask about pre-fame eren x cb. and youāll get more insight to their downfall. YEAH. well there it is. ig if u wanna take in the story as it is rn nowās the time to do it.
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Iām still team crybaby and Eren! I know you mentioned that you considered doing some light editing to ch1 if you post on ao3 and that excites me because I think itās an opportunity to show his struggle with his actions there. Still complete garbage what he did obvi but no one is above redemption and heās truly hurting too. Anyway just love this story xoxox
i love to hear it!! well i do really want to cross post to ao3 for chapter 5 š but before i post to ao3 iām gonna take the prequel headcanons and make them into a full-length chapter, then edit chapter 1 to be how i ideally wouldāve liked it to be if i knew at the time cry baby was gonna be a series. iād probably do a brush through of the other chapters too.. but i think the edits i make to chapter 1 will give you guys incite to erenās internal turmoil/struggle,, i like thatā¦ no one is above redemption and youāre so right.. anyways i love that you love the story xoxox >3<
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crying. why canāt shigaraki be real- iād make him so happy, I HATE THIS
*screams while running away crying then falls face first*
THIS IS NOT FAIR wanna give him kisses *stomps*
yes, i am throwing a tantrum
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youāre so rightā¦ maybe if i just close my eyes and fantasize really hard heāll be real <3 i seriously have been thinking about him too muchā¦ nono like i can fix him ššš”š„
*smashes head into wall* yeah iāll throw a tantrum with you bb
n e ways, watching a yt vid about the mariana trench š quiz me on ocean facts or whatever ššš³
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sis!!! are we really anons if uāre able to track us down, iām scared rn šš anyways, i love ur mikasa fic!!! š
lmfaosjks you absolutely are anons! iām not a hacker, iām not an it professional, i literally am like a grandma when it comes to anything beyond changing my profile picture i stgā¦ i had help from a friend who is literally a computer genius. and the only reason i tracked that one hate anon is cause theyāve sent me hate repeatedly before and i had a hunch they were actually an ex-friendā¦ constantly on my page even after being blocked for weeks,, turns out they were <3 it was scaring me and threatening my safety soā¦ had to pull out the big guns. threaten them back! ā¦i stayed quiet for too long and i think itās funny when ppl think they can hide behind a keyboard and make comments about a persons appearance and weight without facing repercussions, especially if that person was once a close mootā¦ i would never stoop that low. everyoneās different though ig.
BUT ANYWAY iām glad you liked the mikasa fic!! it means a lot really :) just know you ARE anons and i love getting them,, i love hearing about your cute little days and stuff ok š
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Bestie, this is going to be a long paragraph, so I'm so, so sorry but crybaby has been one of my recent hyper fixations and I just need to write an essay about it.
Okay, so, I just want to say that prequel crybaby lives free rent in my head, and my heart just bursts into pieces whenever I think of them. I imagine their love to be the kind of thing you see in moviesāthe rare kind of love you could only see in a life time. It was just so pure with utmost love and adoration towards each other. Its crazy to think of they found their person, their partner in crime, at such a young age. They were so supportive and passionate towards each other; one would constantly push each other to do their best because of how well they understood each other.
I could just imagine how freeing their love felt? Like the rush always portrayed in coming of age movies where the main character runs down the empty street at twilight, thinking that they had the power to conquer the world. They were so young and starry-eyed, and they had their whole lives ahead of them. They were so free to dream, yet they were always included in each other's plans.
Eren would achieve his dreams of being a Rockstar one day. They'd tour the world together and do whatever crazy thing is on their bucket list. But for now, eren would stick to creating melodies and lyrics in hopes that he could preserve what they felt and where they were at the time, so they could come back and reminisce on it when their older.
They were just so *sighhh*. These kids deserve the world man. A part of me still roots for them, that they'd get the happy ending they always wanted. Even if they don't end up together, I think a part of them will always love each other. Just a small piece of them tucked away in the deepest corner of their heart. That bittersweet feeling of nostalgia that would creep on them in the late-hours of midnight or whenever they'd hear their old favorite song.
I love to associate songs (most specifically taylor swift songs bc I feel like she has a song written for every ship) with stories, and songs that I think capture this young love would be "Long Live", "Sparks Fly", "Everything has Changed", "Treacherous", and "Red". My brain immediately thinks on these two and I feel like my heart has been trampled over by a truck.
Anyways, what I mean to say is that you're writing and characterization is absolutely amazing. Crybaby has me by the neck and I still haven't recovered. Hope you have a nice day/night/afternoon! šāØ
oh my godā¦ oh my godā¦ i just had the time to read this in full and digest it and i donāt know i get kind of emo(tional) when i see one of you guys speak so passionately about the story. the way you compared their falling in love to a coming of age movie i could cryā¦ like really i want to come back to this ask and read it over and over because your words mean so much to me and the way you speak about the story so beautifully?? it makes me feel like i wrote something special you know? and the fact that you havenāt been able to stop thinking about it, it just reminds me how many amazing ppl i have backing it up. alsoā¦ as for miss. taylor,,, taylor has written the soundtrack to every possible romantic plot ever she is a genius!! she captures all kinds of love so well and itās so real and relatable bc she speaks from experiences and she writes her own lyrics those songs capture their young love so well iām- SPARKS FLY?? youāre kidding thatās like when they kissed on prom night get out! anyways this is now me rambling abt how much i love taylor so iām gonna stop myself.
thank you for this messageā¦ seriously it means a lot to me. put a smile on my face!! come back and send beautiful essays like this whenever <3
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hopefully you get your room figured out, i do too, i have clothes and makeup everywhere .-.
iām doing alright, super pumped about halloween coming up because of the decorations in stores now, new decor for my room :)
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i hope so too šš£ oh my room is basically a clothes pile atp
okay same!! halloween is the best holiday/season, yes itās a whole season to me!! i live for the decorations, movies, costumes idk what iām gonna go as this year iām stumping myself big time,,
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hiiiiiiiiiiii
i disappeared 0-0 havenāt really been on tumblr at all, school has had me so tired.
how are you š¤?
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hiiii iāve been wondering where youāve been!! i totally understand school is starting to put a strain on me too :/ havenāt been as active as i normally am either >:(
but iāve been doing okay?? not incredible but then again i rarely ever am fully okay lodljd rn im doing an overhaul of my room! i always let it get to the point that i canāt manage it so im trying to sort it out before it gets too bad again,, then im gonna work on some stuff for my classes maybe watch a scary movie š¤
buttt how are you? <3
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i loved that mikasa fic so much it was so amazingšš it made my little sapphic heart very happyš„ŗ
please omg š„ŗ iām glad you liked it!! happy i published it after all,, i loved writing mikasa so much <3
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i headcanon that highschool eren always spends too much time with crybaby until his friends got so fking annoyed š© i can imagine one of them saying ā remember itās always bros before hoes ā & then eren responds with ā call my girlfriend a hoe one more time & you wonāt have a bro ā šāš¼āš¼ im sorry jst let me fantasize a lil bc i was re-reading cry baby for the 20th time & i need smth to ease the angst š„²
okay because the drabble i did on lovesick eren last night is exactly how i envision high school eren with cry baby. he would be with her actually all the timeā¦ he was so clingy but it was cute š„ŗ please iāll always let you guys fantasize over high school eren itās what you guys deserve for putting up with my constant angstā¦
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hey baby you are so
hot damn doll would like to fuck ya on my
bi ke ahahahhahaha I'm so sexy you would
Never forget this night
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oh my god poppy hanma! you sure know the way to my pants baby <3
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Lovesick obsessed Eren>>š©š©
yesā¦ YES because iāve been dying to talk about it for a hot minuteā¦ when eren is in love he is in LOVE. heās a lovesick puppy once heās found his person. wandering hands, stealing frequent kisses throughout the dayā¦ whenever he sees you he just has to kiss your temple or the back of your head as he snakes his arms around your waist, resting his chin in the crook of your shoulder. heās attached to you at the hip, oh i think heād be very needyā¦ omg is this gonna be a drabble hold on let me get my water bottleā¦
eren is one to be completely enamored with his partner, he loves so passionately, so hard that sometimes it scares you. when heās not with you heās thinking about you, and when heās not thinking about you he must be doing something really damn distracting. he doesnāt do the extravagant, not when it comes to dates or any of that stuff, he loves the unplanned with you, he can make anything worthwhile as long as youāre with him. late night drives, stopping at the drive thru at 3 am, watching movies from his phone in his car before he drags you to the back seat and ***** you until the windows are foggy. āyouāre so beautiful babyā¦ā he whispers out of breath with his cheeks flushed and his hair falling out of his bun, all of it is so very eren, i feel like being with him would feel a lot like a movie- when itās good itās goodā¦ let me romanticize this for a bit okay? you work through it when itās bad, because thatās what lovesick eren does, he just loves so fearlessly, and will quite literally confess his love to you every day heās with you like he hasnāt done it a hundred times before <3
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NO FAE I DIDNT SEND PRO EVIL JEAN I SAID WAS THE ANTI EVIL JEAN BC I KNOW & LOVE JEAN & HE WOULD NEVER BE EVIL HES TOO MUCH OF A SIMP
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OH OKAY š IM GETTING ANONS MIXED UP NOW! so youāre anti evil jean,,, honestly i could never see evil jean being canon in a fic unless obviously heās ooc,,, heās too much of a hopeless romantic for that!! sweet jean whoās at his breaking point is the most āevilā iād ever write him in cry baby š
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OMG FAE IM SO EXCITED FOR UR MIKASA FIC YAY, LIKE BADGIRL MIKASA?? HELLO??š®āšØš®āšØ
would you ever consider writing for sasha one day, iām so in love with herš
also i wanna cry bc i got my class schedule today & i only have 2 sleep ins & i looked at my directory & i donāt know anyone in my classesšš
š iām terrible at making friends iām such an introvert AND iām the only girl in one of my classes itās small & even the professor is a guyš
but girl boss right love breaking gender normsš
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HELLO!! IM GLAD ONE OF US IS EXCITED FOR THE MIKASA FIC CUZ IM SO NERVOUS FOR IT LOL itās my first wlw fic and i just hope itās received well :/ please the mikasa brainrot has been SO bad lately guys,,, this fic just poured out of me i swear.
hmm i could see myself writing for sasha in drabble/headcanon form,, i donāt know that iād write a long fic for her! but, BUT i would write for yelena + ymir i love doms šāāļøšØ
oh my god babe iām sorry š please you have to gaslight gatekeep girlboss all of those men okay?? iām the worst introvert too, and i have such a hard time making the first move to talk to ppl. i would just sit near people that look nice and maybe ask a question about the work š that should help break some ice
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I remember you mentioning that working with cb eren is like walking on eggshells. He's very temperate so his mood fluctuates often, and it usually affects everyone near him. What does his peers or the general public think of it? I know that he's really talented, but does his attitude hinder him from landing really good deals or contracts?
his peers/team find it the most annoying thing,,, erenās personality i find to just be a product of his environment?? he wasnāt always a temperamental, verbally abusive asshole, so when it comes to booking gigs and contracts it really doesnāt hinder him, iām sure big names in the industry know who the brats are but if theyāre the hottest thing in music then theyāve gotta book them! as long as eren remains at the top of the industry then landing deals and contracts isnāt an issue, itās just up to his team to reign him in and tame that nasty attitude of his. itās very stressful to them, he can easily snap and take their job at any time, but it also saddens the people that have been with him the longest, watching him change from a young hopeful into an industry monster is depressing. and having to stick by him in all of it sucks, but the people that knew eren when he first started out know that heās still in there somewhere, so thatās why they stay. i also think eren gives them preferential treatment for the way they stick by him through every meltdown and tantrum.
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